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shrewstew · 29 days

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My Stinky Teenage South Park Headcanons (long asl)

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Pt. 1 - Kenny McCormick

Warning: Blood + SH scars, you have been warned

There’s some angst mixed in here, it’s like a big bag of trail mix except instead of m&ms you get sad

Kenny works at Tweak Bros along with Tweek, Craig, Red, and Wendy. He works the most amount of hours, and almost always gets employee of the month. It pisses Tweek off sooooo much.

During breaks, Tweek vents at him while he silently listens. Him and Craig stay silent, and show eachother memes sometimes. Him and Wendy are pretty friendly with eachother. Him and Red don’t really talk, cuz she’s popular and he sniffs paste, and being friends with Wendy doesn’t really change that.

He spends most of his free time either with the gang or at work. He is always on that grind 🔥💪

He sets things on fire for fun.

He also steals a lot, he is banned from the nearest Walmart

He gets the least amount of sleep out of the 4. He has a busy mind. But he also works late hours, and has to try to get his homework done. He usually tries to quiet his mind with dirty mags or by texting anyone who’s awake.

He doesn’t “come out” to anyone, he just gets a boyfriend one day and everyone just has to accept that.

He also never got diagnosed with anything until adulthood, cuz poor.

He likes big boobs, AND ☝️😲 men with large pectorals

He likes skirts, long ones specifically. He hates makeup tho, he tried to be a model for Karen but he kept unintentionally flinching away and she got fed up. He also likes painting his nails cuz it keeps him from chewing them to the bone

Parentification trauma. Forced to basically be a parent for Karen, he now struggles with setting boundaries and at times people pleasing. He is emotionally unstable and prefers to keep that shit to himself

He gets a lot of piercings, but they often get infected and close up due to lack of care

He does them himself. He bites a belt and takes his mom’s sewing needle in his skin like a champ. He uses earrings he stole from hot topic

He has a hard time taking care of himself, he hates brushing his hair, his teeth are rancid, he forgets to shower frequently, and I already mentioned his sleep schedule.

Karen likes to brush his hair for him, so she can practice braiding. She also tries to remind him to take care of himself, and he gets defensive cuz he thinks it’s embarrassing and feels bad for making her worry

He fucking loves horror movies I’ve decided. Also a big sci-fi fan.

(Tw s/h, I try to keep it vague) He still dies a lot. So he eventually develops a bad habit as a form of having control in his life. This is a troubling combination with his addictive personality.

Every now and then he goes hunting with Kevin on the weekends, and they are completely silent the entire time. It’s peak bonding. One time they brought back a moose.

They also spend some time together sitting on the porch drinking beer they stole from their dad, also in complete silence.

He does not have a license, and he is not trusted with cars. The family car is already a heap of shit, they don’t need him wrecking it in a freak accident.

I think he is one of those people who genuinely could vibe with any music genre. His playlist is genuinely confusing and whiplash inducing. I think he would like System of A Down, AC/DC, and The Bloodhound Gang (But that’s just me)

He is the kind of guy to not pay attention to anything the group is talking about, he is just dancing to the music playing on the mall speakers or something

Feel free to add your own

I don’t draw scars very often on characters, this likely isn’t super accurate, but I’m willing to learn how to make it not look like shit

#kenny mccormick #south park #headcanon #teen au #tweek tweak #craig tucker #wendy testaburger #karen mccormick #kevin mccormick #angst #south park headcanons #cringe #cringecore

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linipik · 2 months

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In an attempt to preserve my comics, fandom art, and such and the love, effort, and fun I had while creating it, I've been uploading these digital collections for anyone to download ... because I don't see the point of having them buried in my PC catching virtual dust or subject to the nonsense-of-the-week that social media has going more often each time.

And so, I upload them to my Ko-fi shop for free/or on a pay-what-you-want basis.

What I create is for people, not for training software or giving random companies money. I firmly believe that art is only completed when it has a public and that you, dear reader, have an active role in completing a story by experiencing it. So these are for all the fans too, y'all make this house a home.

And if you ask yourself "Why get the PDF? " I have a couple of reasons:

I put a lot of effort into making some panels and details better, and the comics have fewer typos than the version I posted.

With the way social media deletes things randomly, I really don’t want these comics to disappear into the internet void… This is the best way I have to preserve them and for you all to enjoy them without having to print them.

Extra content! Since I develop ideas for YEARS, I like curating and organizing my ideas/drawings so the whole project feels cohesive, has some behind-the-scenes process, and looks rad af.

I don't like putting fanart behind a paywall but I'm not gonna lie, sometimes getting paid for a bit of hard work is rewarding and any tip means a lot to me. That's why these are up in a pay-what-you-want

I still have so much art to create, organize, and share with you all! keep an eye on my ko-fi for more <3

#artist in tumblr #kofi shop #free zine #thats what they are after all #shameless promotion #lini rambles on #vld #good omens #hades supergiant #original art #i feel like a prepper fro the ownfall of social media #but it is what it is and i rather you all to have these files #and i love when things are organized. my life might be a mess but my files are on check

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angelicdevil · 6 months

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Commission info || Ko-Fi || Redbubble

So I’ve been busy making some TADC OCs, and I’ll probably be drawing their dynamics with other characters and each other. Info on each under the cut

Ash is of course my self insert. They’re a witch and an artist that tries to look out for everyone and be kind, a compassionate face can make things easier. They’ve also thrown Jax from one end of the map to the other. He’s one of the strongest members despite being part of the shorty squad. They’re deeply in love with both Ragatha and Pomni, and their poor best friends (Gangle and @snowmiserboio ‘s Tommy) have to deal with this nervous schoolgirl crush routine until Ash makes a move.

Midnight Moon is a TADC version of my favorite Sonic OC. The clowns are a pretty tightly knit group so they all get excited when a new clown shows up, like Pomni. Midnight is cheerful and energetic, and so so fast. He likes to do tricks and often does prat falls, cracking the ground with her helmet often. Considering its skill but also all the unexpected obstacles that get in xir way, it’s not always clear if these falls are on purpose or not. Fae is also taller then Jax.

Flip and Iron are also versions of my Sonic OCs and also sisters, so they entered the circus pretty close together. Not at exactly the same time but it was clear one was following the other. Haven’t decided what order though.

Flip is an acrobat and I decided to do a boot off an angel motif cause it’s cute. She’s also friends with Ash so they’ve don’t angel and devil routines for fun. They are incredibly sweet and best friends with Midnight. Though it can’t always match his energy, it always enjoys his company. She’s graceful and beautiful and can actually fly with the wings on their bow. It’s also very kind to the NPCs.

Iron is of course a strong man with a costume that’s the wrong compaction, but those muscles really do work. She’s also good friends with Midnight and Primma too. She’s also protective of her sister, who in turn is protective of her. She also loves her hair, especially her mustache, and her muscles too. She has a lovely singing voice. Her main taste in women are butches.

Dim Dim is a very friendly clown with a skirt that can produce anything. So she often pulls out game models in order to play games or build something. It tries to provide distractions for when people don’t have the energy for an adventure. She also has a thing for cowboys. It is also part of the tightly knit clown group of course, and is probably the friendliest member. It uses its hair as a third hand as practically as one can use a giant hand.

Primma Donna is a tightrope walker that’s also completely full of herself. Hard not to be when you’re beautiful, elegant, and have the most beautiful singing voice of the cast. She often gets on everyone’s nerves, but being self absorbed is how she copes. So it can be hard for her to admit when she wrongs others, but she has apologized. She doesn’t WANT to cause others true pain, she’s just scared and is in turn scared to show that she’s scared. She fucking hates Jax though, she’s hit him with her parasol before.

Rosa Felt is probably one of the most irritable out of the group, only beat by Zooble. He likes most of the others, she just tends to have a short temper. Partially because he’s not allowed to smoke. Or have a real gun most of the time. She probably wouldn’t use it on anyone but he thinks they’re cool. So she has to settle for a tooth pick and several water guns and whatever shooting related carnival games are available. He’s an excellent shot, though. And has the Duke Nukem sound effect. He has had to build up a tolerance for nonsense, but folks like Jax can easily tip her over the edge into anger.

Florita is the youngest at 20 years of age. And acts even younger. She of course spends a lot of time doing plant related stuff, gardening and such. They’re very cheerful and make flower crowns for their friends, and show anyone that needs or wants to how to care for the plants. Her favorite is a little baby monster “Venus flytrap” (the kind that don’t resemble real ones) that she’s named “Audrey III” for their favorite horror musical. She’s also not too fond of Jax and has straight up kicked him before.

Thread is believed to be related to Ragatha, but no one is sure how. She is VERY sweet though and crafty, often using her needle fingers for cutting and sewing. She also loves cats. She’s one of the few people that likes Jax, taking his assholishness as jokes. She’s best friends with Dim Dim and Rosa, and likes to mess with the NPCs is harmless ways. She just likes to see how they react by the boundaries of their programming.

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spicyraeman · 12 days

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very grateful for being able to see your art. i feel like you don’t draw breasts very often, but the way you do it is my gender now and i’m not giving it away. i’m all for wyllzelach and would be willing pay to get the full explicit version since you don’t take commissions, your style just gets me this much. have you thought about setting up a patreon or something like that?

Ayyy thank you so much! I don't draw breasts very often cuz im uhhhh bad at it lol im glad you find them gender tho

As for patreon, the thought has crossed my mind before but honestly im not really interested in monetizing my art. I already have a precarious relationship with art and I don't think that adding money to the mix would do anything good for that

I do have a Ko-fi tho (same name as here) I just don't advertise it much cuz again I don't make art for money I do it for fun, but its there if you're feeling generous

#asks

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acaseforpencils · 8 months

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Lynn Hsu.

Lynn tells us about her methods for making her wonderful cartoons featured in The New Yorker and many other publications this week!

Bio: I worked as an architect for many years before changing paths to become a cartoonist and writer. While working as an architect, I dabbled in printmaking, painting, and humor writing, often collaborating with sketch comedy groups at ImprovBoston. When the theater shut down during the pandemic, I started cartooning, which I found therapeutic and fun, as it combined my love of drawing with humor writing. Online classes taught by Emily Flake, Amy Kurzweil, and other talented people, were incredibly helpful and inspiring. In 2022, I sold my first cartoon (below) to The New Yorker and soon after, my first Daily Shouts piece.

Find this print here!

My work has also appeared in publications such as Alta Journal, Air Mail, Weekly Humorist, Magazine of Fantasy & Science Fiction, WSJ, and The American Bystander (cartoon below).

Find this print here!

While I mostly focus on humor, I occasionally write darker stories for horror and sci-fi magazines like Space & Time. Currently, I reside in Boston with my husband, twin boys, and dog, Mochi, who provides emotional support when my work is rejected

Once I have a list of ideas and rough sketches, I draw the cartoon on my Samsung Galaxy Book 2-in-1 convertible laptop. It has a small built-in pen that comes with it. My preferred app is Clip Studio Paint, which is a less expensive alternative to Photoshop. I’m still experimenting with different brushes and washes in my work. For my posture, I use an adjustable stand by Lpoake. For my sanity, I often work on the porch so I can get some fresh air and vitamin D. Mochi keeps me company and nudges me periodically for attention.

Tool I wish I could use better: Watercolor. I love painting with oil and acrylics, but I struggle with washes and hope to improve.

Tool I wish I existed: A magic chair that heals back and shoulder pain (and also teleports you to any location in the world).

Tricks: Not a fancy trick, but I’ve been using Google Keep to jot ideas down in an organized way when I don’t have my sketchbook with me. I can access this list via phone, tablet, or computer.

Misc: Getting feedback on your work is invaluable. Sometimes, I’ll draw a cartoon and think it’s hilarious, but then I show it to my husband, who doesn’t understand the caption or the sketch. I’m fortunate to have found a group of supportive cartoonists with whom I can share my work and exchange comments on a regular basis. Online classes and workshops are also great ways to learn a new craft and meet other amazing artists, writers, and humorists.

Links:

Here’s my website: lynnihsu.com

I post cartoons on Instagram:@loopyline

For New Yorker cartoon prints: Conde Nast Store

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If you enjoy this blog, and would like to contribute to labor and maintenance costs, there is a Patreon, and if you’d like to buy me a cup of coffee, there is a Ko-Fi account as well! I do this blog for free because accessible arts education is important to me, and your support helps a lot! You can also find more posts about art supplies on Case’s Instagram and Twitter! Thank you!

#lynn hsu #lynn hsu cartoonist #artistsontumblr #illustration

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ryuichirou · 2 months

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More replies about recent stuff, ships, antis, etc etc, business as usual~ there are a couple (literally) of headcanons in this post too!

Anonymous asked:

I’m going to assume that the recent Lilidia comic is before they know that they’re online buddies and that Idia was the one who sent the shirt?

This one is related to a comic we posted on ko-fi today <3

And yes, Anon, you are correct! That was the idea behind the comic hehe. They were meant to meet offline for the first time this evening but they yet need some time to realise they’re looking for each other lol

Alright, now a couple of asks about the RookVil post from yesterday. I am very happy that you liked that one.

Anonymous asked:

“Distracted”…you mean by Niege?

By Vil in her beautiful dress of course

Anonymous asked:

ABSOLUTELY IN LOVE WITH YOUR FEM ROOK AND VIL DEAR! OH THEY BRING ME SO MUCH JOY! THEY ARE SO BEAUTIFUL!~

Sorry for the caps but thank you hahaha it gave me energy

Also I was reading some of the asks and I just wanna say those Ortho/Malleus sounds so good! Shoutout to that guy and sorry for using this ask about it 🤭

Thank you so much, Anon!! <3 They bring me joy too, it always feels very self-indulgent when I draw them, especially as girls lol

Yesss this is such a good ship. Shoutout to the OruMal person! I’m glad they’re getting appreciation for their big brains…

blackbutlerfandomnerddomain asked:

Fem Vil is DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMN Mummy -sorry mummy- sorry –

Fem Vil is always either mummy or just a mum… well, technically this also applies to regular Vil lol Also, technically, she (and he) is a step-mummy or a step-mum...

I’m glad you liked it! <3

blackbutlerfandomnerddomain asked:

Ortho x Malleus... Hmmm...you know I might get on that train, it's actually pretty cute the more I think about it and I'm just imagining a double date with Idia and Lilia and Ortho and Malleus, maybe even a triple date if we add Sebek and Silver

Ahhh, Ortho/Malleus and Lilia/Idia would be a very fun combo!! Sebek and Silver too… Sebek would get way too distracted by Malleus being with Ortho though, things would probably get a bit messy lol

Anonymous asked:

"Slenderman is scared to see Rook when he turns around" Rook truly is the most horrifying horror monster of all time lol. The non-human students would survive a horror setting simply because nothing compares to being hunted by Rook.

And sorry if you already answered this, but in your Prison au how do you decide who's a guard and who's a prisoner?

(this one is related to this post)

You’re SO RIGHT ANON LOL If they survived being around Rook for 3 years, they won’t be scared of anything. This is what a little bit of Rook Hunt does to a collective. Influencing people in a good way by being an absolute creep…

And to answer your question, the roles are pretty flexible: Katsu mentioned in this reply that they could be either one (both would work for a lot of them really), but some characters just feel more suitable for one role and not the other I guess? Plus, it implies their relationship with the characters around them. So, whatever option sounds more fun and could lead to a more interesting scenario.

Anonymous asked:

I know you mentioned in a previous reply that you don’t ship Jack/Epel often, but I would still love to hear any few headcannons you might have about them. I have one where Jack goes to Vil for advice on how to approach Epel in a romantic fashion since Jack would have a secret crush on him. Meanwhile Rook is probably giving very detailed advice to Epel (who also has a secret crush on Jack) on how to “properly tame your partner” and Epel just gets super confused and embarrassed

Sorry for the late reply, Anon!

Oh god I can practically hear Vil’s “ara?” when Jack goes to him for advice… What an experience for him, considering how close he is with both Jack and Epel, to suddenly have these two show some interest in each other lol

And it makes sense that Epel would go to Rook for that, and not really because of his hunter thing, but he is absolutely going to end up listening to a lecture about taming and recognising the signs of courtship behaviour… this isn’t even remotely going the way Epel thought it would…

I still don’t have many thoughts about them, unfortunately. But here is a couple of things that come to mind as I’m thinking about these two right now…

When their club activities don’t happen at the same time, they visit each other. Sometimes just to wait until the other one is done, sometimes to cheer a little (just a little though), sometimes just to hang out. But Jack tries not to do that often because Epel gets very distracted when he is around + his senpais tease him a lot.

Epel doesn’t always like how caring and sweet Jack is, sometimes it feels to him like he is being babied by him, but he does know that Jack has a wilder side (Vil hinted on it once because he knew Epel would feel that way), so now Epel tries to poke the wolf bear (that is Jack) from time to time to see if he would react.

Anonymous asked:

Idia, probably: What in the fifty shades of moe is this?

(this one is related to this comic)

Yeah, he had no idea stuff like this could happen to him…

Anonymous asked:

Had an encounter with an anti on a different app; their argument was that shotacons are creepy and how they talk about little boys are creepy. Good ole' Google tells me shotacon does not apply to TWST so Idk why they brought it up. And the only little boys are Cheka and Gidel. If they were genuinely referring to the main cast as little boys, maybe it's just me, but calling high schoolers that is weird. I didn't handle the encounter well, but thinking back it feels like they had no clue what they were saying. Their argument was about something completely different and had nothing to do with TWST if they even know what it is. The logic ain't logic-ing with these folks.

Yeah, technically there are no shotas other than Cheka and Gidel in TWST, but some could also count Ortho or even Lilia (Ace commented on him looking much younger than a 16 y.o., which all those people fucking ignore, as you might’ve noticed, because they’re hypocrites) and Epel, because while they aren’t of the needed age category, they’re rather small. And with Ortho people love to talk about how he is a 5 y.o., which is a lie lol

You are right that they don’t really know what they’re talking about. They never do, because the point of the conversation isn’t to make an argument and have a proper discussion, it’s to make the opponent sound so wrong, so appalling, so sick, that they come out of this thing feeling like the only beacon of moral excellence surrounded by gross perverts with zero self-control. When in fact they’re just uneducated enjoyers of spreading moral panic + emotional vampires lol

The thing is, shota and all the other “dead dove tropes” is a niche within a niche. People in general don’t understand shipping and our way of interacting with fiction, and even fewer people understand problematic tropes. It’s okay, it’s not for everyone. But it sure is a convenient reason to attack people!

#replies #headcanons

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canineical · 11 months

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[Image Description: A zine in an 8-page layout.

The first page has “Oh, the HORRORS!” written near the top of the page with a subtitle underneath it saying “a zine on horror (wow) & all its forms” with the word ‘wow’ in parentheses. To the side of the title, there’s a drawing of a cat with its head twisted around and backward in a way it should not be able to move. The cat is edited to sit on a photo of a bookshelf filled with horror movie VHS tapes.

The second page reads “Everyone's image of horror is a little bit different, and usually informed by what they fear (especially for people who don't particularly like horror). Some people think of carnivorous bugs, some think of monsters, and some think of killers.” Along the right side of the page, there is a drawing of a wasp whose body is red, an alien head that shimmers green, blue, and purple, with a big forehead and eyes and a small mouth, and a scarab beetle that is colored teal.

The third page reads “This is why so much horror media is incredibly fucked up! Species are inherently dangerous and evil, and are out to get you. Murderers are often portrayed as queer-- proposed as confused about how they embody their sexuality and gender.” Across the middle of the page, there are two images that separate this first part of the text from the second. One photo is from a poster of the Rocky Horror Picture Show and depicts Frank-n-Furter and Riff Raff. The second is the title ‘Her Body and Other Parties,’ each word cut and pasted from the cover of the book. The text then continues: “Some media, like the Rocky Horror Picture Show, fights back a these narratives by allowing queerness to be simply powerful, and murder to be just part of the fun (fictionally, of course). Even more modern horror like Her Body and Other Parties, which does even more work to allow space for fear, dreamlike yet utterly real feelings of being lost, and casual queerness.”

The fourth page reads “American horror (in the past, though patterns have changed with 21st century horror) often takes the shape of slasher films, sci-fi/horror fusions, and the ill-defined creature feature. Let's zoom in a little on slasher films, because to me, this is a prime example of regional fears deciding how horror is formed. Usually focusing on suburban white America, these movies tend to follow the narrative of a small town being terrorized by a killer. Of course, this is not the fear of all America. In reality, POC (and especially Black) experience constant violence and countless murders from within their own communities and from the very people who are oathbound to protect them. But this is the fear of White America-- that they could ever experience targeted violence, too, however less severe.” Along the bottom of the page, there is a drawing in superhero comic style of a white man in a suit seemingly dashing away from some sort of monster chasing him.

The fifth page reads “In other regions, horror looks very different. Under the Shadow, for example, was made in Iran, and details the horrors of war and the evil & the ghosts that come with it. In many Indigenous cultures, horror stories take the shape of scary fucking forest monsters. I believe & fear those most, personally.” Near the top of the page is a screenshot from the movie Under the Shadow of a young girl, Dorsa, holding her doll and looking to the camera with a fearful or worried look. Along the right side of the page is a poster for the same movie in black and beige, depicting Dorsa and her mother, Shideh, cowering in a corner of a room, away from a window with a big ‘X’ taped across it.

The sixth page reads “These sorts of stories, about the wilderness and what it hides, are obviously most common in rural areas, with not many people there to incite fear. These always scare me most, mostly because stories are so consistent through generations and across all the world (though most cultures have their own unique creatures, too).” The text is evenly split between the top left and bottom right corners. In the top right corner, there is a gothic black and white sketch of a man in a tricorne hat & cloak on a horse pulling to a stop and looking down at a man who is cowering over his own seemingly dead horse. The ground is snowy, they are directly in front of a forest, and there are two winged creatures in the background. In the bottom left corner, there is a gothic black and white sketch of a man in a top hat riding his horse through a forest and cowering away from some sort of ghost hovering near and above him.

The seventh page reads “In recent years, with the rise of the internet, horror has began to take even more forms. Creations like Creepypasta, The Magnus Archives, and more-- while different-- all embody a new approach to horror, where people get attached to characters and concepts just like they would with any fiction! Scary creatures are lovable and interesting,and even cute at times! Whether this reflects a change in approach to fear as a whole is debatable, but an interesting discussion nonetheless.” In the bottom right corner, there is a simple drawing of a black humanoid creature with wings, a round head with a beak, hands with claws, and big eyes. It is facing and creeping toward the left side of the page, and we can only see its profile.

The eighth page reads “Horror can look a million different ways, and all of them are fascinating-- at least to me, and hopefully to you, since I assume you read this whole zine if you're reading this right now. Thank you for that, by the way! I hope you enjoyed it, and that you enjoy whatever horror media you consume next.” Below the text, there is a dashed line, and below that line is the text “by Xalli, may 9 2023.” Under that, there is the Instagram logo next to "desertfirelight," the Substack logo next to "palmlungs," and the Tumblr logo next to "baringteeth." Along the entire right side of the page is a drawing of a long, grey-yellow colored squid-shaped creature with bright, narrow yellow eyes. Instead of tentacles, it’s body fades into wispy sort of strings. Below that creature is a drawing of three magenta ants crawling around. /End ID]

zine about horror for y’all !

feel free to print & share or distribute or whatever it-- just don’t remove credit

#coyo yips #mine #zine #art #also do rb if you like it ! i make zines to share #it's meant to be for others!#not just for myself like how i write poetry

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crescencestudio · 2 years

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I need you to know I am not asking this to be a jackass, but are there any plans to add a lady romance option or two to the game later? It looks like a great game with cool characters and an awesome world, but I often find that as a lesbian I get one option at best for these things. I am sorry if this isn't a great question. It's cool if this game just isn't for me, but I like what I am seeing from your style so far and would like to feel like I had more of a path for me, you know?

Sorry again. As I said, it seems like a lovely game

Hi, anon!

I don’t think you are coming across as a jackass at all, haha. What you’re asking is completely valid, and I’m glad the game looks good enough for you to have this much interest in it :) What I’m about to say is going to be long, mostly because I don’t want to misrepresent myself and my process, so sorry for the long response!

Unfortunately, I don’t anticipate being able to add more feminine presenting options to the game. It might help to explain the process of how Alaris has come to be to give some context as to why!

Alaris is a game that I started on a whim while in PhD school. It’s my first experience designing characters, drawing at a fuller capacity, creating a story, and programming. Basically, I had no experience in any aspect of creating a game when I started a year ago. Because of that, Alaris is mostly a game for me — both in taste and convenience.

I played to what I thought was feasible for me to do and what I enjoyed, meaning, regarding taste, it’s a fantasy game with a somewhat customizable character and romance options that are aligned to my personal tastes. Regarding convenience, if I’m being frank, I simply am bad at drawing feminine presenting characters because I don’t have as much experience drawing the anatomy for it </3 As you can imagine, creating a game as a hobby is already a large workload as is, especially given the scope of Alaris at this point. Forcing myself to also learn anatomy on top of that would hinder the progress I’m able to make for the game in a huge way and could potentially kill my motivation for it.

Alaris is a passion project I work on as a hobby and is my first game, so I didn’t want to burden myself with trying to do too much. Rather than make a “perfect” game that would cater to a lot of people and audiences, I stuck with a game that I would like and be happy with as a first-time creator. It’s fortunately grown in scope and audience far more than I would’ve anticipated, but that doesn’t change the fact that I work on it alone and so am limited in what I’m realistically able to add to the game :’(

With the stretch goals and six love interests already slated for the game, I don’t think I would be able to add an additional feminine presenting love option on top of that. Maybe in the future, if I make another game, it’s something I can revisit and implement from the beginning, but again, it’s not something I can realistically guarantee since it depends on my abilities. I hope that answers your question and gives context as to why there are no feminine presenting options in the game. I’m very sorry that Alaris may not be the game for you, but it’s very flattering that it looked interesting enough for you to ask <3

Off the top of my head, I do know other indie “fantasy” romance visual novels that have feminine presenting options. I’m not sure if you’ve played them already, but some ones I can remember that are quite amazing are:

Herotome by @herotome (only Prologue out right now, but it’s in development and is a beautiful and fun game. superhero romance)

Andromeda Six by Wanderlust Games (releases in chapters. sci-fi romance)

When the Night Comes by Lunaris Games (completed. fantasy supernatural romance)

Imperial Grace by @synstoria (demo out. not quite fantasy but has similar vibes. political romance)

Na Daoine Maithe or The Good People by @moiraimyths (demo out. fantasy, fae, political romance)

First Bite by First Bite Games (completed. fantasy vampire romance)

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buttonso · 1 year

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So… today I’m 40.

I don’t really feel all that different from yesterday, even though by societal standards I’m pretty much a used-up old woman now.

I’m a wife and a mom and an employee. Those are all the identity people like me are expected to have.

I’m also a fandom dork (though I have little time for it anymore). I write fanfic and draw fan art (again… not often anymore but I still claim those hobbies). I play video games. I like fantasy and sci fi books/shows/movies. I have a pretty serious My Little Pony collection. All of that is stuff that’s considered juvenile by many but I see no real reason to give any of that up.

But…

Life is too short to pretend to be anyone but me! And I know I’m pretty old for the Stardew fandom and for tumblr in general, I’ve made a lot of good acquaintances and some honest-to-goodness friends along the way, and I’m just super grateful to be here.

@runawayface , @witchfall, @blackcoffeewrites63 — thanks for talking with me about mom stuff, especially last year when I was pregnant and pretty spooked by the whole thing! I admire all three of you a great deal for your wit, creativity and kindness! You’re also all wonderful writers and AMAZING moms!!

@voyagerlotus - thank you for being my first commenter on my fic who wasn’t also an irl friend. Your early support really helped keep me going. I haven’t seen you online lately but I hope you’re well!

@purpleandgreen13 @stardew-atlantis @ienjoywallpaper @starfruits-and-honey and SO many others… please do not feel slighted if I haven’t tagged you, this post would be SO long if I tagged the whole world— thank you for making tumblr and discord fun, even though I don’t engage much! You all also have fun and wonderfully creative voices and are also so kind and supportive! This goes for pretty much the entirety of Grapefruit Sky and Zuzu City discord servers!

@jer-tan - we don’t interact directly that often anymore but I always smile when I see your posts! I hope you’re doing well!

@purpledemoncat - I respect and admire the hell outta you! You’re so cool and hilarious and talented and I feel privileged to think of you as a friend!

@noirandchocolate - I know I don’t interact directly with you as much as I do with your partner , but your blog is honest-to-goodness one of my favorites and I think you’re amazing! One of these days I’ll stop being shy and interact with you more 😆

There’s so many others I could tag, including folks I know IRL but I already feel like I’m meandering too much. Thanks for making me feel included, everyone. I’m happy that there’s more to my life than just being 40. 😆 I hope all of you are finding joy in something today and that you never feel like you have to stop being YOU just because you reach a certain age. I’m trying not to!

((…heaven knows when I’ll get another fic chapter out but that’s a whooooole other ball o wax lol…))

#personal #buttonso is boring #happy birthday to me #I guess lol

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lotuslolitasblog · 9 months

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Coffee Pt. 2

For TD Rarepair Week.

Prompt: Double Date

Ships: Shawn x Amy (main ship) & Jo x Brick

Words: 1283

Disclaimer: High School AU + slight references to other fics I wrote on AO3. You can check them out, but it’s definitely not necessary. @totaldramararepairweek2023

For Amy, getting coffee always meant a recipe for disaster. After a fateful exam day, she had decided to steer clear from it to not cause any more wardrobe problems.

This was not a normal day, however, since Shawn and Amy were going on a - sort-of - date.

The local coffee place - Pahkitew Flavors [1] - had a lot to offer. It was more of a diner actually, but Shawn and Amy often went there for their amazing coffee. It became some sort of tradition. It also helped that Sammy worked there and was always willing to give them something extra at a family rate.

Sammy brought them their respective coffee orders: a skinny latte for Amy [2] - she made it her mission to always order something else - and just a plain black coffee for Shawn. “The waffles are coming right up! After that I’m going on break.”

Sammy having walked away, Shawn turned back to Amy. “So, what do people do on dates?” That was… weirdly upfront. Then again, Amy - obviously - had a lot more experience in the matter. She wouldn’t be surprised if Shawn only ever kissed the tender crook of his elbow. [3] “Well, usually, we talk about ourselves and get to know each other, but since we know each other, let’s skip that stuff. We can just talk about whatever comes to our mind.”

“Have you heard that Zombiebusters is getting adapted into a TV show?” “What? No way! They’re so going to ruin it,” Amy scoffed. “Let’s give them the benefit of the doubt. At worst we get to make fun of it!” “You make a strong point.”

Sammy came back with the pancakes and then went back to change out of her work uniform. Meanwhile, Amy and Shawn were discussing who they would cast as the leads in the Zombiebusters TV series. “Timithy Chamalamadingdong? Hell, no. Anyone but him.” “He’s hot enough to draw a thousand fans in.” “His acting style doesn’t fit Alex at all!” “It would definitely fit for the earlier books.” “Nuh uh.” “Do you at least think Nichelle Ladonna should play Grace?” “Duh. She’s amazing. Her stunts are incredible!”

“And for Maja?” “Mmmh. I don’t really know. Not a lot of people could pull it off. She needs to be cold, calculated, good at sports and to have a few screws loose.” “So, like Axel from sci-fi club?” [4] Axel was the newest addition to the sci-fi club. She was a survivalist at heart, with a survival rating - Amy didn’t know people had a survival rate. What could hers be? - of 9,7. She also seemed to believe in the zombie apocalypse. Shawn found her brilliant, but Amy thought there was something seriously wrong with her. “She could fit, oddly enough. I don’t know if she’s the actor type though.”

“Hey!” they heard. Amy’s voice shot up in the direction of the sound. Sammy was walking towards them, uniform in hand. “Did you see someone near the table there?” she asked, pointing to the booth right in front of them. Amy hadn’t remembered seeing anyone there. The booths were pretty much closed off so only the staff and creepy people watchers could see you. Amy wasn’t a creepy people-watcher, but she was curious. She shifted her position to see if anyone was there. No one was sitting at the table. Under the table however…

Jo and her friend Brick - although Amy had some suspicions about that friendship - were hiding under the table. Jo was quite possibly dying of embarrassment, while Brick gestured for her to not tell Sammy. “Nope, no one!” she said.

“Oh, but there are drinks on the table, I should probably take them back to the kitchen,” Sammy replied. “No need, you’re on break! Someone will do that eventually.” Sammy insisted, but eventually, she went out of the diner door without ever approaching the table.

The moment Sammy walked out the door, Amy grabbed her latte & the plate of waffles and she went over to Jo & Brick’s booth. “Hey, where are you going?” Shawn asked. Amy slowed in her tracks, realizing Shawn hadn’t seen the two hiding under the table. “You’ll see.”

Amy entered the booth and put her food on the table. “She’s gone, you can come out now.” Brick and Jo both resurfaced. Jo was holding her face in her hands due to her ever-increasing embarrassment. “Well, cats out of the bag. Why were you guys here?” Amy asked. Jo sinked further into her chair. Brick ended up spilling the beans: “We were on a date…”

Shawn congratulated them and gave Brick a high-five. Amy shared a look with Shawn and grinned. She then turned back to the new couple: “How long have you two been dating?” Jo answered: “He asked me out last Tuesday.” Amy smiled, all smug and mouthed at Shawn to pay up. Shawn grumbled and took out 10 dollars out of his wallet, mumbling “Couldn’t you have done it two days earlier?”

Jo addressed the elephant in the booth: “What are you guys doing?” Amy grinned and replied: “We had a little bet going on about when you would finally ask each other out. I bet on the period between last week and this week. Shawn bet on the two weeks before that.” Brick smiled. “I don’t appreciate you betting on my love life, but if you’re gonna do it, at least milk him for what he’s worth,” Jo said. “Oh but combined with everyone else I get 60 dollars. Everyone was in on it.” “Everyone?” Jo widened her eyes.Shawn nodded.

No one was particularly surprised by Jo and Brick’s attraction to one another - except Lightning who had a lot of trouble understanding that Jo was not a gay male -, but they were all a bit perplexed by the time it took them to admit it. Brick was pretty much the only one to be willing to play peacemaker to Jo’s petty squabbles with Mike, Lightning or… anyone really. Adding onto that, they were basically linked at the hip.

“Does anyone else know?” Shawn asked. “I think Duncan has a feeling, but he’s not really friends with anyone in the group except me so he wouldn’t have told anyone,” Jo said. “Goddamn, you really gotta start hiding it better,” Amy snarked. She really enjoyed hanging out with Sammy’s friend, even if that came with a drop in popularity. Then again, she wasn’t the only cheerleader whose mask was slipping. Dakota was spending an awful amount of time with a gamer named Sam lately.

Jo ended up changing the subject: “I didn’t even know Sammy worked here. Brick, I thought you remembered that sort of stuff.” “Well, Sammy never named the place she worked at. I thought it was a coffee place though. This is a diner!” “Yeah,” Shawn confirmed, “but a diner that makes excellent coffee.” “Ugh, coffee,” Jo grumbled. “I don’t need a drink to stay energized.” “You don’t like coffee? Not even in ice cream,” Amy asked. “Especially not in ice cream. Who thought that was a good flavor idea?”

That conversation turned into a debate about the best ice cream flavor. Amy maintained it was coffee, while Shawn - the traitor - preferred strawberry. Brick liked mango sorbet the most and Jo’s favorite was pistachio [5]. “Pistachio?” Shawn said. “That’s just plain wrong. That’s as good as broccoli cream soup.” Brick nodded. “Et tu, Brick?” Jo gasped. Brick defended his opinion: “You’re plain wrong.” “Judas,” Jo mouthed. “Geez, what happened to having correct opinions? Coffee is the right answer.” “No!” the three others answered in unison. Shawn and Amy’s sort-of date had turned into a full-blown double date. And honestly? It wasn’t that bad.

[1]: AKA Explosive Flavors ;p

[2]: I honestly do not know if you can order that anywhere. I just looked up “basic white girl Starbucks order”

[3]: Why yes, that is a Glee reference.

[4]: Foreshadowing? Possibly.

[5]: They’re all wrong. Raspberry sorbet >>>>

#total drama rarepair week #total drama rarepair week 2023 #jockjockjock #shamy #td shawn #td amy #td jo #td brick #td samey

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jamgrlsblog · 10 months

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15 Questions for 15 mutuals (thanks @parmejeannecheese for the tag!!)

Were you named after anyone? I’m pretty sure my mom got the idea for my name from a celebrity but I don’t know the celebrity

When was the last time you cried? Probably pretty recently? I’m guessing during a movie or show this week; I cry pretty often, so it’s hard to keep track 😂 (maybe while watching Love, Victor yesterday???)

Do you have any kids? No; maybe in the next few years? It is still a topic of discussion between me and Jam Man

Do you use sarcasm a lot? Not really? Maybe with Jam Man, idk, we tease each other a lot. But I tend to be the doe eyed genuine person in my friend groups. (Though if I’m talking politics… yeah, maybe pretty sarcastic then)

What sports have you played/do you play? In 8th grade I played basketball but I quit in the middle of the season 😂; I did a full season of cheerleading in 8th grade; and if you count dance- I started dancing in 2nd grade and I still do 😄 I’ve done tap, jazz, ballet, modern, hip hop, and contemporary, which is what I dance now

What’s the first thing you notice about other people? I have no idea, lol; faces, maybe?

What’s your eye color? Brown

Scary movies or happy endings? Happy endings ��️ I am a scaredy cat; I do like a little horror in my sci-fi/fantasy, explain that, haha, but I’m definitely not a horror movie person

Any special talents? I can do a one-handed cartwheel! Also, I can do the worm, but I never seem to find myself at a 90s dance party in which that skill is useful 🤔. I can also play a little ukelele and I think I’m a decent singer ☺️

Where were you born? Kansas City, Missouri, which I didn’t learn until I was about 10: my dad and his side of the family are Kansan, so my dad told me I was born in Kansas so I wouldn’t feel different 😂 I was shocked and betrayed when I found out- and sad that I wasn’t born in Kansas afterall, lmao.

What are your hobbies? Dancing, strategy board gaming, reading (including book clubbing!), writing fanfiction, and recently- learning to draw!

Do you have any pets? A tuxedo cat! He is very big- people often comment when they meet him and I am often surprised at how small other people’s cats are- and he is turning 7 this year, which according to the vet means he will officially be a senior cat 😭

How tall are you? 4’11”! One of my fun facts is that I am under 5ft tall, which always shocks people bc despite the obviousness of my extreme shortness, I think people are often surprised to find out someone is below 5ft

Favorite subject in school? As a scientist I should probably say science, but it was actually probably English; I always loved reading and writing!

Dream job? If I’m dreaming big, I would like to get out from under the oppressive thumb of capitalism, but barring that… probably a job where I’m doing a mix of environmental protection, environmental field work, and environmental education.

Fifteen mutuals: @saecookie @emberfaye @madeofmydreams @sungmee @waterofthemoon @sk3tchid @eveningstarcatcher @tawnyontumblr @freyjawriter24 @miss-minnelli @madquerade @send-me-off-to-sea @hotchocolatedictator @akinmytua2 @mllekurtz

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augustinapril · 10 months

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hi! congrats on 200! you deserve it!

if you have time would i be able to do the Concert Flyers for either criminal minds or spider-man into/across the spider-verse with a male character if possible?

my interests are playing guitar, drawing, reading, and watching movies especially anything sci-fi (bonus points if it involves anything to do with space).

for my personality, i’m quiet at first, not cause i’m shy but i’m just not much of a talker when i’m first meeting someon. i’ve been described as kinda aloof at first but as i get more comfortable with someone that goes away and i don’t shut up. i’m pretty sarcastic and outspoken. i’m also a big adrenaline junkie. anything that seems fun (and stupid and dangerous) is probably something i’d do.

if you don’t have time don’t worry about it! congrats again on 200!

thank you so much!! I'm really happy about 200, thank you for sending this in. <33

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I feel like you and Spencer from Criminal Minds would be a good match.

He'd love it after you've began talking to him more. I feel like he'd be really worried about you sometimes whenever you get yourself into possibly dangerous situations, but I also think you'd rub off on him and get him into doing more things like that too.

I picture the rollercoaster scene from All the Bright Places with you and him, you trying something out and him doing it begrudgingly. Then he enjoys it because it's actually fun and he doesn't get to do things like that often.

The both of you would have movie marathons when you could (most likely him downloading them on a laptop and the both for you watching it on the way back home after a case.)

He'd adore watching any kind of movie with you, and he's a bit of a nerd in the scientific part of like everything so I feel like he'd talk about the likely hood of things within your sci-fi movies actually happening. (He could go on a tangent about time-travel any day of the week!!)

Also I think he'd follow you without fully thinking about it out of habit, and the two of you get yourself into some scary situations because of it.

He'd probably learn to play guitar from you without you actually teaching it to him. (Like that episode of the kid with the piano!) He loves listening to you play when you can.

Also you both of book store dates!!!

#this is probably really bad im sorry if it is :((#spencers looney tunes !!#spencer reid imagine #spencer reid x y/n #spencer reid x you #spencer reid x reader

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circa-specturgia · 2 years

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Writeblr Intro! (I think?)

I admit I’m kind of new to pretty much all of this, posting, Tumblr, Writeblr, you name it. I don’t really know what to write here, but, that’s a statement I’m sure that most of us have made many a time staring at an empty notebook page, an empty document, an empty file, so as with all those, best to just get to it, right?

Of what I’ve gathered seeing some of these while just scrolling and looking around, I take it you’re supposed to write some stuff about yourself in these, and while I’m absolutely dismal at doing that, I’ll do my best! Here’s some stuff I love!

Writing and reading fantasy in particular, from the high to the low and all of the stuff in between!

Contemporary fantasy, supernatural fiction, and urban fantasy are just great y’all.

Anything Sci-Fi. Seriously. From the more energetic and hopeful daring explorations to the cosmic horror and soul-shaking solitude of the abyss, all of it is just so damn brilliant. Especially if there’s science in the science fiction!

Sharing ideas! Talk about people’s WIPs, characters, and just hearing from all these brilliant and creative people! It’s just such a human experience to hear the excitement in someone voice or writing when they share things about something they put so much work and time and love into, y’know?

WORLDBUILDING. There’s just something about a world that’s well thought out with little details, or just unique, and vibrant, and creative that makes me happy, and, per what I said above? Hearing about people’s worlds is the BEST.

Mortally gray characters, Queer characters, Morally gray queer characters.

As for just general stuff:

Oversized anything, hoodies, sweaters, all of it is so comfy!

Tea.

Drawing! I do traditional art with just pencil and paper, and hope to draw more stuff for the stuff I write, although I get caught in the trap of striving to perfectionism too often…

Music! My taste is all over the place, but, I guess it’s really just anything that catches my ear, that I’ll enjoy! Soundtrack-style music is probably what I’d describe to be my favorite stuff though, music I can see scenes being written to, which is often times a process of inspiration for me.

DnD is just wild. If you write and haven’t ever played you’re missing out. If you just haven’t played in general, you’re missing out! I DM for a few friends of mine, though I admit not too often though I wish I could…

I’m a guy, still figuring stuff out but I guess Bi and Pan are labels that fit, and he/him, but I’ve been called lots and I accept any!

About my WIPs!

I’ve got three! Two are mine, one is a collaboration I’m writing together with my partner cause they’re a brilliant writer too, and are so much better at writing and creating character dynamics than me, and they’re the person who got me into writing in the first place!

Mundi Somniorum / Circa Specturgia

Title is a work in progress as I’m not too happy with it, can’t decide which one I prefer over the other. I can’t say I have a wordcount I’m aiming at, but it’s the world and characters I’ve put the most work into, and plan to continue, and see where it goes! I’m not sure how to describe the genre as I was never too good with the genre stuff but I’d say I just add whatever I feel is interesting to a high fantasy world with some magic realism set in the 1500-1700s! If I like something I find a way to add it, weave it in and incorporate it into the patchwork, and I find that to be the most fun!

Found family, enemies-to-lovers, very-close-knit main cast, lots of magic and queerness and pain, and a vibrant and expansive world I hope to continue expanding on!

I’ll tag it as #circa specturgia and #wip.circa specturgia when I post about it!

Prometheus

Technically is kinda sorta a bit of a fanfic…? I think? Is it a fanfic if all you took from canon was some character archetypes and the general direction and scenario from the opening of the show? I’ll just call it a WIP idk.

A story inspired by VLD and fueled by spite and disgruntled annoyance at the train-wreck of a dumpster fire that it became, I love it so much. Lots of inspiration taken from stories like Interstellar, and The Martian, and fandoms like SCP, forming a sort of Sci-fi story! Pretty much anything that I find to be cool Sci-fi that doesn’t quite fit in my more fantasy oriented WIP, goes in here!

The crew of the first superluminal interstellar voyage, the Prometheus, become lost outside the observable universe, in unknown space, more than 46.5 billion light years from home, with no feasible way to return. Soon however, they find they are far from being alone, surrounded by the ruins of alien civilizations, and unraveling the mystery of what happened….

The album “Exogenesis” by Audiomachine for the vibes if anyone feels like looking into em, and Audiomachine in general since they make great music for inspiration!

I’ll tag it as #prometheus and #wip.prometheus when I post about it!

#writeblr #writers on tumblr #writing #writeblr community #writing community #writeblr intro #writeblr introduction #my WIPs? kinda?#wip introduction #wip.circa specturgia #circa specturgia #prometheus #wip.prometheus

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Apartment X - Chapter 9

A Hawkeye Fanfic

MASTERLIST PREVIOUS //

Buy me a coffee with Ko-fi Character pairing: Clint Barton x F!Reader

Word Count: 2154

Warnings: talk of cam work

Synopsis: You had chosen your apartment for a lot of reasons. It was quiet. It had good light. It was secure. Your landlord was an Avenger. It was a good space to live and work and feel safe. When you become friends with your landlord Clint Barton, it also comes with the potential of a pretty special boyfriend. You’re just not sure how the public will react to finding out that one of the Avengers is dating a Camgirl.

Chapter 9

There was a bubble you could exist in when you were in love. The world goes on around you, and you deal with it, but nothing can get through into the little bit of bliss you’re sharing with Clint Barton. Even on days where things did get heavy, or one of you was down, just having the other there for you was enough to lighten the load. The outside world was soft and muted and all that mattered was how completely head-over-heels in love you were.

Since Clint had first joined in on your session he had decided to join a couple of more times. Not too often but there were a few occasions when you both felt in the mood. It was fun - not to mention a complete fucking turn-on. Not just because of the sex, but knowing how completely Clint supported you in your chosen profession. He never showed his face - you both agreed that was too risky both for his reputation and drawing unwanted attention to you - but it was still so sexy that he wanted to join in sometimes.

The bubble meant neither of you was taking the time to look at what the outside world was saying about either of you. Not that either of you ever looked up what people said about you anyway. For you, at best it was people being pervy or using your photos to catfish people. Clint had to deal with much worse, everything from people being gross on social media, to articles saying he was the useless Avenger. It was easier all around to avoid it and live your lives.

That was why the sudden influx of one on one booking requests, you assumed the new content was drawing in more fans, not that some rumors had gotten out about who exactly it was you were dating.

You logged into a private session, dressed in sheer purple lingerie with a series of toys set up on the bed. The person you were faced with startled you. It was rare to do shows for other women, but it did happen. It never happened that they’d be sitting there in a pants suit looking like they were about to conduct a job interview. The slight shock wore off quickly. Sometimes people used suits in power play, and there was no reason to think that wasn’t what this was. You leaned forward and looked up through your lashes. “Hey there,” you said. “What can I do for you today?”

“Actually,” she said. “I was hoping we could talk.”

It was another surprise, but not unheard of. There were a lot of very horny people who booked your services, but there were also a lot of very lonely people. If they tried to employ you as your therapist you’d always tell them no, but some needed a little conversation before they got to the show, and that was okay.

“Of course, miss,” you said. “It’s your money.”

“I just had a few questions,” she said. “First of all, is there any truth to the rumor you’re dating Hawkeye of the Avengers?”

You were glad you’d gotten good at hiding your reaction to things because it felt like you’d just had the wind knocked out of you. You raised your eyebrow and sat back. “I don’t talk about my personal life, honey,” you said. “Who are you exactly?”

“I’m Norah Winters from the DB!” she said. “So you’re not denying that you’re in a relationship with Clint Barton?”

“Look,” you said, turning serious. “I’m sorry, but as per the clause you agreed to when you booked me, there’s not talking about my personal life. You’ve made me uncomfortable and so I’m ending the session. Because you have wasted my time, you’ve forfeited your payment.”

You disconnected from the steam and logged out, quickly searching up Clint’s name. The gossip sites were all buzzing with rumors of Clint Barton dating a known cam girl with both your professional name and real name listed in each article along with photos of you in your lingerie and a photo of you and Clint holding hands as you walked down the street with Lucky.

You felt violated.

It was weird given the photos they were using were just from your website, but the fact they had gone into your private life and were using it to hurt Clint felt like a slap in the face. There had never been a feeling of guilt about your job before, but you felt it now. All the good feelings of how accepting Clint had been of you were washed away and replaced with guilt over the fact it would now be hurting him.

You canceled all your bookings, shut down your computer, and pulled on a robe. You weren't even sure if Clint was home right now. You'd told him you had a lot of bookings and your day would be full. He could be anywhere.

A quick pass through his apparent found it empty and you sagged against the wall as the weight of all this began to overwhelm you. If Clint wasn't here, all you could do was text him - and what could you say? ‘Hey, baby. The press got word that you're dating a sex worker and now your role as a hero is being questioned. Sorry.’ it wasn't a conversation for a text, and besides, there was no guarantee he'd even get it right away. He was an Avenger. He could be anywhere in the world right now.

It was difficult not to start spiraling. Clint has always been so open and accepting, but was this the thing that tested that? Would he break up with you because an Avenger shouldn't be seen fraternizing with a sex worker? You pulled out your phone, and with shaking hands, you typed out a message.

‘Where are you right now? I need you.’

You didn't move from your spot in Clint’s apartment between the kitchen and the front door, the wall holding you up because your legs couldn't seem to do the job on their own anymore. Time moved slowly as you waited for him to reply. Even though he would have told you he was going on a mission, there was still the possibility he'd been dragged into a fight and it could be days - weeks even - where he might not be able to get back to you. That knowledge seemed to make time move slower, so seconds felt like minutes, and minutes like hours.

When your phone finally buzzed in your hand with a message, you nearly dropped it before you were able to open the message.

‘Taking Lucky for a walk. Nearly home. U ok?’

You answered with the cringe emoji and went and flopped down on Clint’s couch. The urge to keep checking what the gossip blogs and people on Twitter were saying was a little overwhelming. It was like a scab you couldn’t stop picking at, and every time you did, it opened the wound again.

Twitter and Facebook were the worst. You already knew what a toxic pit they could be, and usually, you avoided the comments section of both for topics you knew would upset you, but for this, you couldn’t leave it alone.

By the time Clint was back, and Lucky was nudging your phone out of the way so that you would pet him, your hands were shaking with a mixture of rage and hurt.

You stroked Lucky’s fur and ran his ears through your fingers. Clint flopped down next to you and wrapped his arm around your shoulders. “What’s up, babe?” he asked. “I thought you had bookings all day.”

“I did. I canceled them,” you mumbled, cuddling into his side.

He looked down at you with his brows knitted in worry as his arms closed around you in a warm, comforting hug. “Did something happen? Did someone threaten you?”

“No - Yes? I don’t know,” you said. You took a deep breath and looked up at him. “You know I love you, right?”

“Babe, you’re really starting to worry me now,” Clint said. “What’s happened?”

“I had someone book that ended up being from the Bugle,” you explained. “They wanted to know if the rumors were true.”

Clint’s face changed from worried to confused. He pulled back to look at you with his head tilted. “What rumors?”

“The rumors that I’m dating Hawkeye from the Avengers,” you said.

Clint scowled and you wondered if he was angry at you or them or both. “What did you say?”

“I said, as per the agreement they checked when they booked my services, I don’t speak about my private life and can end a session if the client is making me feel unsafe. And then I ended the session. Then I googled us. The gossip sites are all over it. There are photos of us out together and photos from my site,” you explained. “I’m so sorry, Clint. I never wanted to hurt you.”

“Oh, babe,” he said, shaking his head and pulling you into his arms. “I love you and I wasn’t living with the delusion that it wouldn’t get out sometime. I just wasn’t prepared yet. I’ve been trying to think of a way to protect you. I’m worried people are going to use you to try and get to me. Or do things like screen record and post videos of you just to show what they could get Hawkeye’s girlfriend to do. I don’t want you exploited like that.”

“What about you? People are saying you shouldn’t be an Avenger anymore,” you said.

“Lucky for me, saving the world has nothing to do with who I’m dating,” he snarked. “I don’t care about what people say about me. I’ve never cared about what people say about me. I care about keeping people safe. Especially you.” He leaned in and kissed you, and as your lips parted and your tongue met his, you began to relax. You had known he loved you, but you hadn’t realized how serious about the relationship he really was. This was something he’d thought about, and it still didn’t bother him. Even with the stress, you were currently under you started to imagine things like weddings and growing old together, something you’d never done with anyone before.

“Tell me what you want to do?” he asked.

You pulled back and looked up at him. “I’m kind of scared to log back in,” you admitted. “I want to give it a chance to die down. I don’t want them to scare me away from it, but I also don’t want to hurt you and your job. Being an Avenger is important. But also - I need to make money. I can handle a few weeks off, I have savings, but I also have rent and bills to pay.”

“Well, first up,” he said. “Lucky for you, you’re sleeping with your landlord, so don’t worry about that.”

“I can’t do that to you. This is your income,” you argued.

He scoffed. “Don’t be stupid. I give people breaks on the rent all the time. This building is full of people who are doing it tough. If I can do it for Tito, I can do it for you.”

“Really?” you asked.

“Really,” he agreed. “And - if you wanted - you could move in with me.”

You stared at him with your mouth hanging open. “What?”

“No pressure,” he said. “But I’ve been thinking about it. I’d like to wake up with you every day.”

“Really? Even with this whole mess?” you asked.

“Especially with this whole mess,” Clint said. “Fuck them. They don’t get to tell me who is and isn’t okay for me to be in love with. They don’t get to tell you how you get to use your own body. I love you. Move in.”

You lunged forward and kissed him hard. He startled at first but quickly eased into it, wrapping his arms around you as he submitted to the kiss. When you pulled back, your lips tingled, and you were both breathless. “Is that a yes?” Clint asked.

“Yes. Yes, it’s a yes. Fuck… I love you,” you said.

He kissed you again, this time more gentle and tender. “Okay,” he said with a sharp nod. “That’s sorted. Take a little break. I’ll talk to Steve and let him know what’s going on. And I’ll talk to Tony and increase your internet security. Then if and when you’re ready to go back to your work, you can. It’ll be completely in your control.”

You couldn’t help the huge dopey smile that crossed your face. What had started out being such a punch to the guts, had ended up leading to something amazing. You had no idea what you’d done to deserve Clint Barton, but you vowed that you’d keep it up, and make him feel as treasured as you felt now.

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22 March 2023: Bad Ideas (3-CD edition), Babybird. (self-released, 2023)

I’ve posted here a handful of times about the prolific Stephen Jones’s output as Babybird, a name he has employed since the mid-’90s through a series of acclaimed lo-fi bedsit albums on through a major-label career, a handful of hits and widespread exposure, and then back on through into the current days where he releases a punishing regimen of music (punishing for him and for his fans’ wallets). After a long stretch of time in which the British Royal Mail had an onslaught of problems and international mail was apparently prohibited (!), Jones was able to send out packages that people had ordered several months prior. This is the first of three things I received from him during a multi-week window. (You can see on the package above that he’d optimistically labeled it “November 2022,” though it didn’t materialized in my mailbox until four months later.)

All the way back on the day after Thanksgiving, I ordered his latest triple album of new material. As you can see on some prior Babybird posts here, with new albums Jones often offers a single disc edition (which I presume is what he considers the “official” album), a two-disc edition, and a three-disc. It can be difficult to tell what’s going on even when you have them in your hands, but I’ve come to conclude those second and third discs are simply bonus tracks or outtakes, but in the end it doesn’t really matter. Babybird fans who are this dedicated seem to just like his general gestalt and I don’t get too fussed about what’s going on with all of these very long releases that tend to run in the 3 to 4 hour range. I’ve had to devise an entirely new methodology for listening just to his releases; otherwise, they’d overwhelm my new-release schedule.

Jones tends to devise creative packages for his triple-disc releases. Even with his single or two-disc affairs he tends to customize the artwork, often drawing cartoons, personalizing them with your name, and so on. The packaging of Bad Ideas is the most fragile, destined-to-get-destroyed that I’ve seen since I started buying his bespoke releases, and you can see it beginning with the photo above. The three discs come tightly squeezed into an envelope made of very thin paper, and it’s sealed with a sticker that you can see bears the title and that doomed original release date. There’s absolutely no peeling that sticker off in a way that keeps it intact. I really need to buy a new X-Acto knife and keep it close by, for I just impatiently decided to rip that label to get to the CDs. (I’d spent far too long trying to peel it off in a museum-quality way and then just got frustrated.)

Once you do open that up, you see another fragile party-favor type of envelope (or maybe the kind of thing french fries would come in, but the them here seems to be party favors). Keeping with Jones’s undying cynicism, it features a wedding graphic along with the sweetly-scripted album moniker Bad Ideas. Here you see he’s changed the date, once again optimistically, to January 2023. This is shown below.

There’s yet another party-favor bag inside that one, which he calls “Babybird’s Sickly Candy Bag,” again featuring that January 2023 release date.

The Sickly Candy Bag includes a plastic piece of candy with my name on it, and a faux-corporate booklet (for undetermined products; I might’ve made it to represent a terrible wedding planner) that includes the song titles for the three discs.

Then you have the three discs themselves, found folded up loose inside that booklet. I’ve since slipped them inside some protective sleeves.

Packages like this are fun to see and maybe fun for him to make, and with each release it’s a hoot wondering what you’re going to receive, but storage is complicated. One day I’m going to wind up with an entire box of his odd-shaped, fragile packages. Fortunately, they occasionally arrive in the exact shape and size of a regular CD digipak and I can slip it all inside of a single protective sleeve like I use for regular digipaks (well, maybe not that piece of candy). Now that I’ve got everything out of that first fragile envelope you see at the very top of this post, it’s never going back in.

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