#i am a bit delusional still

[charliewrites99]

People being like yeah lokius lost...

Did it?

This shit is what tragic romance is build on.

It's the sailor leaving on the boat, with their beloved on the shore, staring at the sea, hoping they might return one day.

It's the meeting at midnight at our secret spot, because our parents don't approve but then one night you don't show up.

It's the I came to rescue you from hell, but then I looked back.

It's the you saved my life, but what kind of life is it if you aren't spending it with me.

It's the immortal knowing they will never meet again in death.

It's the god hoping to one day be human enough to stay.

#loki #is this overly dramatic #yes #but i am in my feelings #lokius #i am a bit delusional still #its not a complete win bu its aslo not a loss #if you expected a kiss idk what to tell you #mcu #marvel #mobius

[hurricanek8art]

Okay SO I've never Bad Batch posted beyond reblogs but there's two episodes left and I'm going insane so my big giant theory for why the finale is titled The Cavalry Has Arrived with a sprinkle of Tech is Alive Yes I Am Delusional:

Tonight's episode is going to end with the Batch, Omega's gang, and CX-2 all colliding in one of the hallways.

Big Western faceoff, tumbleweed, yadda yadda y'know.

Right before the shooting starts, CX-2 tells them their escape plan through whatever hallway they're planning is strategically ill-advised, because *insert tactical explanation here*

Hunter: "Oh yeah? What, you trying to help us or something? No thanks."

CX-2: "It was worth the attempt. It's not as if we've ever followed orders anyway."

BIG PAUSE, CLOSE UP MONTAGE OF EVERYONE AS THE WORDS SINK IN

Omega: "...Tech?!"

Tech: *removes helmet to reveal it's him* "Well, I thought it was obvious. Shall we liberate some clones together, then?"

SMASH CUT, ROLL CREDITS, THE CALVARY HAS ARRIVED BECAUSE THE *ENTIRE* BATCH IS TOGETHER AGAIN AND THEY'RE GONNA SAVE THE CLONES.

end conspiracy theory rant. 🥴

#EDIT: SORRY LEFT OUT A BIT OF TECH DIALOGUE I PUT IT BACK JUST IGNORE THIS 😭 #no matter what happens the callback to “i thought it was obvious” re: tech and the omega/chip discoveries is required. okay. it just is. #that's his line i need to hear it again okay #also please excuse hunter's dialogue being kinda generic #if it's someone with an accent saying more than a word or two I have to put thought into writing dialogue & this was completely off the cuf #i don't have as much a problem with it as tech because i am also autistic i speak his language 🤣 #ANYWAYS i am delusional but i have also been able to predict story beats with fair accuracy for like 10 years so #speaking it into existence. manifesting? i'm still new at tumblr speak sorry 🤣🤣🤣😭😭😭 #K8 Rambles about Star Wars #star wars #the bad batch #star wars the bad batch #sw the bad batch #sw tbb #tbb #the bad bad spoilers #sw the bad batch spoilers #star wars the bad batch spoilers #sw tbb spoilers #tbb spoilers #tbb tech #tbb cx-2 #tbb cx 2 #tbb hunter #tbb omega #tbb wrecker #tbb crosshair #tbb echo #i tagged the whole batch because even if they're not referred to by name they're in the post in spirit

[sialaterornever]

i haven't seen the new lore but from what i can gather from my feed (thanks levlies :D)

the eggs had been set through a shit ton of arduous challenges and the dragon mother was never real

there could've been thousands of other eggs that could've seen the light of day but didnt thanks to the federation

you know who else had to compete with their own brethren in a box because the people who created you wanted to find the best of your group?

you know who else had to leave behind his other siblings for dead simply to please the higher ups?

you know who else is a product of a serile lab and fucked up tests?

SLIMECI- *a blow dart hits my neck and causes hives to burst throughout it, asphyxiating me instantly*

#qsmp #slimecicle #no other tags #i am delusional #also maybe this is a bit headcanon-y? #still

[the-ineffable-queer]

began rewatching season 1 and i have just now realized that God said that "it starts, as it will end, in a garden." so either this is Them being a little prankster or whatever happens in season three happens in a garden. because i dont think an air force base is a garden, my friends.

#maybe it is still the garden of eden that it happens in #maybe i am a bit delusional #go2 spoilers #good omens #ineffable husbands #crowley #aziraphale

[pumpkinnning]

Your tags on that Charles and Ferrari post ring so true!!!

(I'm assuming this is the same anon 😅)

yes exactly ! The way people have been talking about Charles re:Ferrari lately has felt kind of very one note and low key a bit disrespectful ngl like he's too stupid to quit something that's hurting him but like you said, it's not like he has any better options at the moment. He would maybe have a better car at RBR or Merc but he would clearly be on "enemy" territory and I think people underestimate how much fitting in a team impacts performance. (And it's not like those teams have an actual opening rn)

And yeah like @mountinez pointed out very accurately, it's his choice, he's a grown man and he knows his options far better than any of us do.

And putting the idea of an individual win so far above a win with the team he loves is very idk...focus on the macho individualistic superman aspect of sports that i kind of find toxic honestly ??? (It's the part of DTS i find honestly really annoying i think they should pay more attention to the team work and the mechanics and all the others who make this possible instead of staging all those fake little cockfights but anyway) it's like all those pundits saying Charles should Take Charge more like a Real Man and invent his own strategies and everything else instead of you know trusting the people whose job it is and actually have the data like bitch please !!!!

Like in the end I'm a Charles fan before anything else so if he leaves Ferrari I will think it's badass and healthy and if he stays I will praise his loyalty and commitment 😂😂 but whatever he does there will be a chance for it to fail and it will be easy to talk shit about what he should have done in hindsight but the truth is we don't know shit about what is really happening behind the scenes and a big part of it is down to luck and timing

And when it comes to rpf and writing fictional narratives inspired by all this - yes of course the pain and addiction of devotion to sth that doesn't love you back and the martyr/saint imagery it's all very compelling (a lot of us have probably been there lmfao i know i have)

but there is also a lot more there like what about the power fantasy of loving sth so hard you change its very nature ? What if patient love and commitment gets rewarded for once ? (What does it mean if we write it as always destined for failure?) What about saying no this imperfect thing i am fighting for is mine actually i am taking ownership and I am not going to cede ground to people playing selfish little games with it or leave it to crumble and succumb to its worst impulses ? What about the journey mattering more than the end and the people you chose to do this with mattering more than the victory and honoring your dreams and passion mattering more than a line in the history books ? If we are going to write stuff inspired by real people we should at least try to honor a bit of the complexity of real life and give space to complex ambivalent feelings

Lmfao anyway yes i am in the Thinking about Themes part of writing fic rn but yeah !!! I find this whole thing incredibly compelling and if/when Charles wins the WDC with Ferrari I will cry like a little baby for 3 days at least

#cl16 #f1 #charles leclerc #anyway as a seb fan it's also a bit the same like i am pissed off at ferrari for how they treated him but he still loves them so much #and it feels wrong to dismiss that because then what was it all for #he tried to love sth wholeheartedly and that's what matters a #also tbh i find it more interesting to blame specific people within ferrari #but hey maybe it's because i am also delusional and a bit of a masochist lmfao #answered asks #sorry for the long winded answer lmao i have two settings reply three months later or write you an essay

[lovers-instead]

Studio Killers - Underneath My Raincoat (2023) 🐯

#studio killers #studio killers jenny #I WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i have been waiting to see this tiger for 7 years* #they hearted my delusional comment so for now i assume it is in fact still her #unfortunately i'm not as hyped as i ordinarily would be since i am still very sad about my dog dying. but. here it is. #song is.... a bit under-developed i'd say. it really doesn't have jenny's careful meditative tone. nothing since the album has though #dirty car still clears #what IS interesting is- the mv's have never had anything to do with the lyrics before. that tiger is so iconic they included her lol #(also in soft bitch) #they did say as much on the podcast a while back. supposedly a new lore/story-driven direction #oh i almost forgot- yes this is in fact the snippet heard in the pilot #(*oh yeah it was on that tarot card... alongside human jenny which suggested a possible retcon. which is still possible.)

[lord-squiggletits]

The hard thing about liking Getaway as a character is that people are like "why are you mad people hate him, he's literally evil in the text" and it's like. Yeah I get that and I ENJOYED the way he was shown in MTMTE, the problem is that in LL his character got hit with villain degradation/idiot ball and so my beef with his portrayal is that I think it's shitty and underwhelming writing.

But like, it's really hard to debate about that because canon is the basis of the entire analysis, and if your contention of canon is basically "he would not fucking say/do that" then that means a near-complete rejection of canon in favor of headcanon and you can't really "debate" personal opinions in that way.

Anyways, LL Getaway sucked and the most charitable interpretation one could have of how he was written is that he was a victim of JRO needing to wrap up a billion plotlines at once and getting shafted because the mutiny plotline had to resolve really fast. Which is a flaw of LL and a bunch of its characters/plots in general, not me being an "apologist."

#squiggposting #i am a bit salty about it still lol #getaway literally went from a delightfully evil bastard to like #the most dumb motherfucker who's also simultaneously THE MOST EVIL EVAR #also hot take but i'm gonna say it #part of the reason getaway gets a comical amount of hate even from 'villain enjoyers' #is literally just bc he was mean to poor sweet cinnamon roll TG and got in the way of c y ga/te #shippers will be assholes to any character who is mean to their faves or breaks up their chosen OTP #but also. ll getaway just sucked and was boring and underwhelming and contrived #you can make someone evil but at least make him interesting and smart ffs like goodness lmao #also no offense bc people are gonna be like 'the point of the story isn't karmic justice for everyone' #but it's still kinda rich that ppl are fine with meg being on the LL but god help you if your name is getaway #have fun getting hit with the idiot ball by the writer. who also made M a sad uwu little man #negativity #i'm salty lol might look back at this and cringe but maybe not #it's just a problem with LL in general that everything is so rushed #and that JRO has always had certain problems with writing protagonist centered morality at least a little bit #like idk the vibes i was getting of 'getaway is literally THE WORST EVER and EVIL and STUPID and DELUSIONAL' #as i read were really weird and intrusive and uncomfortable

[skitskatdacat63]

It's so funny having an insane project cooking and I'm just delusionally giggling to myself in the corner on here like "no one knows what's coming" *rubbing my little paws together*

#lol i worked on it for a while and i am sleep deprived #so i actually am a bit nuts rn #that being said #you dont know whats coming >:) #lol tho its funny being delulu like this ^ as if im not working on smth thats still pretty niche #sry i blame it on 5 am brain #but also like non-delusionally #it is fun to know you have smth youre gonna eventually get to drop on people #also its a pretty big thing id say? #but i am feeling sooooo delusional rn abt the possibility of finishing it within a weekend #but it sucks bcs i was like hey i should try and write a paper for my class(dw its not like pertinent) #but then i got sucked into this and im like well thats not happening #alright anyways please wish my luck and motivation djfkkglg #as i said its big so i just hope i can remain motivated 🫡 #catie.rambling.txt

[thebuttsmcgee]

Realized that a fair amount of percentage that I legitimately would like for Camilraeda to be canon is that I watched ok ko, where KO's father figure and mom literally got married and had a budding romance that came from a troubled history but was restored in due time, with a fair amount of it being in due to KO.

Plus, that'd be an actual canon Poly ship. Rad as hell 🤟

There's also a couple more reasons but like mainly it'd just be really fun ✌️😔

#The Owl House #TOH #Owl House #Camilraeda #Hmmmmm.....am I unintelligent enough to tag characters that are only in this post by technicality? #Ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh sure I guess lol #Eda Clawthorne #Raine Whispers #Camila Noceda #I think Camila not getting or forgetting her past love but still being able to find and nourish new love is also a nice thought. #plus Luz would shout poggers. Shed be ecstatic. Maaaaybe a bit conflicted? But shes matured a lot and loves her ma so much I think she'd #understand and be genuinely happy for her ma. And Eda. And Raine. and of course for her whole family. #Is it probable? Hmmmmmm. Not entirely? However the show throws a bone to whatever and I eat it up no prob lol so who knows #Also Im on my knees at this point so lol might as well have 1 delusional thought process since I dunno where the actual fuck will happen #Luz siblings momemts also 🤲????

[auslanderka]

I am so happy that RKDD anime came out and I am so proud of Amano that another series got a screen adaptation.

literally there is probably no greater honor for an author than making his manga into an anime, imagine seeing your own characters brought to life on screen with voices, it must be amazing feeling.

And she did it again!

I will support RKDD anime as much as I can because Amano deserves it

#topic : kamonohashi #I'm a bit delusional #still praying for a reboot or the return of KHR #but I guess it's good to have dreams #I am not hurting anyone

[murobrown]

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#it's that time of the month when I just want to sell my uterus on black market with human organs #the week leading up to my period is far more worse than the actual period #it made me gain 2 kg and I can't stop freaking out about it...i know i lose them every month but my brain won't leave me alone #it's making me want to starve myself or just work out until i collapse #tmi sorry...how is your Friday evening? #I'm bored and I'm deciding between going to bed before 11 pm or let my brain torture me a little bit more #I don't even think I'm excited about the weekend anymore because it means I'll have to eat again #you just eat and work out and eat and work out and try not think about the calories because we're not doing thay anymore #but deep down my brain still knows the numbers and won't let me go over 900 calories #i perfected my body but destroyed my head even more #i shouldn't say thay but maybe it's worth it #feeling happy in my own skin is the best feeling in the world #and I know I'm shallow because of that but for the first time in my life i like my body #i actually like all parts of my body #and knowing that i did it with all that hard work feels even better #but on the other hand now I'm just too scared I'm going to lose it all if I eat a cookie after lunch #i think I'm too deep into this #is it bad that I like the feeling of bones under my skin? #am I becoming delusional? #that's what a menstrual cycle does to a emotionally unstable woman #it makes me feel angry that out of four weeks in a month i get like max two weeks when I feel good and normal #all of that for nothing #anyway maybe it's time to stop myself..

[httpiastri]

as happy as i am for lissie and marcus (even though I knew they were already together because I literally watched them make out with my own two eyes) it was honestly my last straw. I’m so tired of seeing everybody on my social feeds happy and in relationships when I’ve just had the worst week of my life and have basically given up on falling in love because if I can’t even drive how am I going to go to places where I’ll meet people?!?!? i have spent every Valentine’s Day alone while my friends go on elaborate dates and I’m just so so tired

not the make out sesh 😩 oh to see them with my own two eyes irl... what a pretty sight it would be

this got quite personal and hit a little too close to home so im putting a lil keep reading thing

love :(( i’m truly sorry you feel this way... but god i felt this ask so much... first of all, i'm really sorry about you having a bad week. it's completely fine to feel the way you're feeling, it must really suck, but i'm sure you'll get the license and you'll be driving shortly!! i am keeping my fingers crossed for you ❤️

i’ve always been very calm about relationships and love, very much “i’m not in a rush” and “it’ll come when it’s time”. i’ve always been a hopeless romantic but i haven’t been stressed about it – i’ve always been so busy that i haven’t really had time for love, and i've been okay with hearing about friends and their great love lives while i've spent pretty much every weekend and holiday alone at home. but… eventually, it becomes exhausting, you know? when falling in love for real just seems so far away and like something so hard to achieve in some way....

i also kind of feel you on the driving part... i decided not to get my license for a bunch of reasons, and idk how i'll get around without driving... but also as i am still living with my parents, it just seems impossible to meet someone, because where would i bring them? home to meet my snooping parents?? no way

i think we just gotta hold on to the hope that when it is the right time, it will happen. i don't believe in the whole "don't rush it" thing, i think that we're all allowed to seek and chase love if we want to, but i also think it's okay to take a step back and just breathe and be okay with the situation. unfortunately, our current day society is so formed around relationships, soft launches and hard launches and dinner date pics on insta and public proposal videos, that i feel like the pressure easily gets overwhelming. there's also something in the way that people think other people's love lives is any of their business, like friends and relatives asking me why i don't have a boyfriend, as if a partner is something i need to live my life? surely it would make it better, but i don't need to be reminded and hurt yet again over the fact that i'm alone, when i'm just trying to move on in life...

i'm trying to stay patient, open to any opportunity, and remembering that social media is merely a highlight reel and not reality. i hope you too can find peace in remembering that things will get better, we just have to work through this first. we will get through it and come out stronger on the other side. darling, if you ever need something from me, want to rant, or anything else, know that my messages and inbox are always open 💗

#ive really liked seeing drivers and their partners recently #but i think that in some way it's just like a coping mechanism to cope with the fact that im so very alone #i think it originates in the wish of being one of them even though i do feel very realistic and dont actually believe that it could happen #but i mean honestly #if we werent even the tiniest bit delusional #would we be here writing and reading the self insert fics?? #like sure i dont do it just for that reason #i love writing and i love fiction no matter what kind and blah blah #but we could've all been reading random scifi or romance fics instead and yet so many people get stuck on celebs x reader #housing is really expensive in my city so not a lot of people move out early (like pretty much none of my friends have moved out) #and i just dont get how they manage to have partners and still live at home? are their parents not crazy like mine?? #i am supposed to be moving out soon though but rn idk how that would change my situation #still have to deal with social anxiety and shit #this ask hurt so much #ive been hitting a pretty rough patch recently aswell and im kind of thinking that i need to break down fully to be able to build myself up #but its so goddamn scary #idk why im oversharing and ranting so much shfkdjf i apologize #i really hope you find happiness and a great love #i truly admire you for working through this despite how hard it all is #why does it all have to be so exhausting? #asks!

[salsflore]

i’m allowed to be silly once a month. now look away

#he’s so cute i’m sorry i’ve been thinking about him lots. he really is just truly so dear to me AND I KNOW #you guys have heard it like five billion times from me atp but listen listen listen i just love him so much #he means so much to me. truly. i still remember rather vividly what it was like when i first lost the 50/50 then pulled him months later! #i love his playstyle i love his personality (though 50% of that is an arrogant bitch) the artwork and hcs and lore associated w him agh #i cannot express into words how much i love him! seriously! but just trust me when i say i do. i loved him ever since his first banner i #and as embarrassing as it is to admit i will probably love him forever and ever. or at least for another 5 minutes - it depends! #two years now! and now he’s my husband! how silly right? perhaps but aghh even so. #he just brought me so much comfort and happiness these past two years. i really. i just really love him! seriously! #my beloved. my dearest. my number one white boy lol #ive never quite loved a character like i loved him. well! apologies for subjecting you guys to my ginger posting but youll be fine ok #my childie. my BITCH. we are holding hands we are kissing i am biting him i hate him so much srsly #anyways though hes not real (this made everything i just said like 10x more delusional sounding) id like to think that if he were #he’d maybe find me silly as i find him. just a little bit #mika ♡ ajax

[thefleshyougoveggie]

my friend just said “i have never seen you this delusional before” AND THEY ARE SO RIGHT. like damn… it’s never been like this

#tbf i was in a long term relationship for a bit more than three years #and they got to know me when i was in that relationship #and i haven’t been single for a very long time #like yes a while #but not THAT long #but still #i don’t think i’ve ever been this delusional about someone #BUT i also think i have a point #like #i might be right #(i’m probably very wrong and am setting myself up for heartbreak) #atlas the thinker #personal

[the-acid-pear]

I am normal again rn but it's annoying how big my fear of disappointing people is. Obviously just a side effect of getting punished for even the smallest stupidest of things but y'know. Even bled into my fucking religious trauma which IS kind of funny.

#luly talks #bc i dont believe in hell so the fear behind saying something blasphemous while god is hearing me (im a bit delusional it's ok i deal w it #well) isnt eternal damnation but just disappointing him 💀💀💀 #but it's also why i am so 🧍 whenever i am w someone outside like what if i do something i shouldn't and i get scolded? #even if its tiny things that i know aren't bad like saying hi to someone or whatever i still im scardd because WHAT IF y'know? #obviously being autistic doesn't help w this fear bc there's a lot of social rules i learnt the hard way and i can never be sure of knowing #them all so #brain stuff

[nuoc7mia]

shima 😭😭

#moon talks #spoilers for ch 42 of stl in the tagssss #god it hurt so much to read jt towards the ending….. it was a bit naive for me to think that the problems would occur later in the relation- #ship ahdjjs it makes so much sense/ shima asking her out bc he doesn’t want to hurt her and wants the most optimal relationship with someone #he rlly cares abt. and i rlly get it 😭 like the struggle to 1) be able to understand how you feel towards someone and 2) mold your #feelings in a way that will make others happy. so real of you shina #god and the way he just stands there not knowing what to do while knowing how happy mitsumi is…. #at this point i’m not sure either if he likes mitsumi in thaf way or just feels rlly attached bc of the way she validates him #what he does need are therapy and some more time to understand what he’s feeling 😭 #i am still rooting for them (delusional) but it’s gonna take a whike for it to fully bloom