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canarymemories · 1 month

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the long awaited nui izlo rambling is finally here!! leaving it all below the read more bc. i don't know how to shut up

(i'm copy pasting this w little to no edits from a twt thread so. sorry if the formatting is icky kasdgh)

this fic was brought to u by 1. my own darling nuis and my izumi nui does have a tear by his eye and 2. leo merch collector is such a fun concept to me

the concept of izumi being in italy while leo is away was something that lived in my head for a while ngl and there was a point where this was going to be a meowzart fic, like izumi moping around the apartment and meowzart being her cute little self. i think at one point i did have a sort of companion piece if you want to call it that, like leo would be the one at the apartment w izumi out of the country (also a meowzart fic) and the only part i actually wrote for that is what I lovingly call ace izlo

also. back to my izunui for a minute, I did try to do surgery on him but the eye embroidery is too thick to do w just a normal little sewing needle 😔😔 but he's my darling little guy and he's perfect the way he is, I just have to be careful with him 🥺

anyway! let's start w the title. this song I think is the reason I started writing mushy lines towards the end lmao, it's izlo coded to me, like pls consider (it's also in my bb playlist ✌ idk it's so izumi -> leo to me)

I make it my life's goal that izumi never knows one second of peace lmao (also somewhat unrelated, i do have this wip idea of their dormmates having to deal w them bc i think it's funny and. i miss that idea (is fully capable of still writing it))

i feel like this point comes up in . so many of my wips (I think it's honestly just me feeling like it does but. still) and I just,,, man post checkmate, the way you live in my head

izumi is so. easily swayed when it comes to leo (thank u rhythm tourism for confirming that for me <33) (I like to think that leo is somewhat aware of this fact) but yeah that comes up so much in this fic and I think it's so fun bc. sorry to say but izumi is such a loser

izumi cardboard cutout is such a funny one to me, leo would so have one. anyway, reloaded reference 🎉 also. the izumi calendar being a canon thing might be one of the best things happyele has done, unfortunate I'm p sure they'll be skipping it in engstars 😔

I feel like I'll end up forgetting to mention it, but like recital, the way izumi refers to leo nui changes over the course of the fic (aka after day five, izumi starts referring to leo nui w gendered pronouns fkdksl) they had a bonding moment <33

this is probably my favorite part of the fic ngl like honestly. I don't even think I can make fun of izumi here bc I think something that grossly domestic would fix me too (but it's still so funny to be like. izumi wakes up in a bad mood and his first thought of how to fix it is to imagine a whole scenario w leo that is soft but. maybe he really is onto something)

the day three naruritsu call is bc i started writing nui izlo last august which was a month before nrrt week and they were in my head so bad (they haven't left). and then I was like haha what if I write the date for nrrt week before the fic is finished. and now this year it's like,, haha what if i (hopefully will actually write the date this time but also. as a small aside, the concept of arashi having to be straight up told it's a Real Date and not a friend date is so good in this essay i)

this is supposed to be bc they're not speaking a language izumi personally knows how to speak, so only certain words make sense think of it when you hear someone speaking another language and there's loan words or cognates that you recognize even if u don't know what's being said

I said it in the a/n but this part and all of day five is that even though they're past the events of checkmate and everything that came from it, things aren't magically like. Perfect, yk? like they found their way back to each other and knights didn't fall apart but that doesn't mean that everything that happened then doesn't bother them to some extent. like just look at next door and mr they can't know i care taking the earliest flight to japan w limited knowledge of what's going on + leo leaving in the first place bc of an argument like I can go on for a while (so much of ! was izlo figuring shit out bc of what happened between them so i mean,, it's definitely still prominent in their lives even if it's in the past).

he's funny for being like wait can someone hear me rn, their conversation is happening in japanese lmao

happy brief trans leo mention, this part also makes me so like. giggles kicks feet and idk why exactly. anyway leo is trans, it just never really comes up in my writing so fkxksl (is anyone in knights really cis? the answer is no)

day five aka the radio silence day is so,,, I wanted to have a day like this in here but I felt like I was being a little dramatic abt it but i was like well. izumi knows that leo is probably busy and they're in a better space now, but all things considered, I do think he'd worry. I mean izumi is worrier #1 but fkdks that's not the point. by this point, he has mostly stopped blaming himself for checkmate but u do have to realize that next door did happen and he did make leo leave that time, that one was all him so,, but even outside of that, I don't think izumi is like. Concerned about it every time that leo stops talking to him or is out of the country, but in this situation, he already misses leo and they'd talked for a while the day before then to wake up to hear absolutely nothing is not fun. (i probably have more but idk where i'm going w this rip) I just think there's something there, yk? like idk they're a little (very much) attached to each other

requiem reference (izumi will never live it down sorry). was going to talk abt their relationship and the use of partner rather than boyfriend but. idk.

niki's kitchen is such a funny circle to me bc they really just. have a signed framed picture of izumi there for the meetings so gkdksm obligatory mention (plus I do think izumi is Aware that niki knows what he's doing in the kitchen so he'll actually take his advice)

when I was planning this fic out, this part was going to be a little different; izumi wasn't going to realize he had leo nui until he was in the store and he looks down into the bag and there's a little guy in there but mckslsl

I think this is so cute and I'm specifically pointing it out so you all agree w me. like idk izumi would think leo's dumb alien shirts r so fucking ugly but that's the first thing he's putting on when leo is out of the country for any extended period of time

reference to something in recital I haven't written yet (the concept of a person being your home rather than a place and what it means when you destroy that person and you're left without anyone to return to :) )

this part has been in my head for Months, like nearly since I started it. like,,, man I wish I could draw without having a meltdown bc I hate it bc,,,, the soft leo in my head in this part makes me want to eat glass (also haha izumi sena grossly in love)

I think that's everything,,, (is probably most definitely forgetting about something)

#nui izlo #yes it has a title but sakdgh it's always nui izlo to me <33 #part of me really misses having it in my drafts #like it's my little baby that i've been working on for eight months #i miss it being in my head as much as it used to be ouegh #i hope u all like izumi being a loser for 11k words #they are gross and domestic to me <33

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n1k1tty · 2 years

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idol!enha's reaction to other idols crushing on idol!reader ?? :D <3

idol!enha reacting to other idols crushing on idol!reader! ft p1harmony!

HEESEUNG

- LOLLL he'd try so hard to hide his jealousy

- he was in an interview with your group, enha, and p1

- and theo and you had like a cute little interaction

- you like tripped and he just happened to be behind you so he helped you and some shit like that

- he was honestly okay with it at first but the hosts started to tease you and theo and he was like 🤨->😃->🙂->😕

- and then it was even worse when he was scrolling through twt and he saw that you and theo were trending LMAO

- the second you came over to their dorm he pouts and TRIES to ignore you

- but literally the second you say hi to him and give him a hug, his heart literally melts and immediately forgets about you and theo's scandal

- after he told you (and you teasing him) he just tweeted "everyone pause for a sec, yn is MINE" with you retweeting it to confirm LMAO

- hybe was mad at hee but it was all worth it tbh ;)

JAY

- you and jay were watching P1's weekly idol ep

- a few minutes into the video, the hosts ask him who's Theo's ideal type

- and he said "well my ideal type would probably be Y/n from (group name)"

- not even a second after theo said that, jay turns off the tv

- you just laugh at him LMAOOOOO

-for the rest of the week, jay is just trying to impress you by flipping the pancakes in the air or showing off his muscles out of nowhere

- "babe what is up with you?" you laugh

- "don't tell me you're leaving me for that theo guy"

- "THAT'S WHY YOUVE BEEN TRYING TO IMPRESS ME THIS WHOLE WEEK?!"

JAKE

- your group went to an award show and you just happened to sit between enha and P1

- and when you sat down, Jiung noticed that your skirt was a little short

- and out of respect, he gave you his jacket

- this went viral all over twitter

- and all jake could do was pout about it

- "quit pouting baby, you know i'm yours"

- "i know, but how come they didn't notice when I was about to hand MY jacket to you?!"

- "want me to tell engenes and (fandom name)?"

- "no y/n that's so stupid--"

- "BREAKING NEWS: whole social media goes wild after (group name)'s Y/n posts a picture of them and Enhypen's Jake cuddling with the caption saying "cuffed<3""

SUNGHOON

- after it was announced that u and keeho were mcing a show together, the whole internet was going frenzy over u and keeho's 'relationship'

- the directors insisted on having the two of u spending more time tghtr to get close

- and ofc,,,, bb sunghoon wasn't too happy about it

- but it doesn't get any better from there bcs after the first episode of the show, the whole internet was going crazy about how keeho took a lint off your hair

- and when you n sunghoon finally had free time, u came over to their dorm

- BELIEVE ME OR NOT BUT THIS MF LITERALLY LOCKED YOU OUT OF HIS ROOM

- "sunghoon wtf, whats wrong"

- he just walked past u until jungwon had to tell u whats up

- "sunghoons sulking cuz of u and keeho"

- u bursted out laughing and attacked sunghoon w kisses :3

- held u tight on the couch and forced you to watch despicable me 2 ( and kept on calling u gru🙄)

SUNOO

- after telling him that u and intak were doing a dance collab, sunoo claims that he wasn't jealous

- but his behaviour the following days say otherwise🙄

- "babe come look at my new plants :)" replies w "nice" (DOESN'T EVEN LOOK AT IT)

- he kept on being sassy and petty to the point where you've had enough of it

- "KIM SUNOO ISTG"

- gets scared and gives you a big smile that usually makes u soft

- this time it didn't work and he knew he got himself into some deep shit LMAOOOO

- *making up excuses as to why hes acting that way*

- "oh really? riki says it was bcs of intak"

- "NISHIMURA RIKIIIIII"

- legend says riki is still running for his life

JUNGWON

- i can never picture this man being jealous

- but deep down he prolly is LMAO

- after finding out that u had a collab with jeongseob he acts as if it was okay and went on about his day

- or so u thought🌚

- for the following days jungwons been a little clingier than usual

- not saying that u DONT like it but obviously there was smth wrong

- for the 5th time today, he gave you a kiss on the cheek and gave u a hug from behind

- "jungwon whats up"

- he acts clueless 🙄

- "idk what ure talking abt😊"

- u give him a look that tells him u knew whats up so he just told u

- "AWWWW wonie :( ily okay? only u"

RIKI

- u were supposed to do a dance collab w riki but due to his fever they chose soul to fill in instead

- he was bummed about it for WEEKS

- and once the video was released, it had a lot of good reactions

- but it seems as though riki was the only one who didn't like it

- "pfft i bet you he probably has a crush on you"

- when he saw that soul had to touch your HAND

- he literally freaked out and rose from his bed immediately

- "RIKI LAY YOUR ASS BACK DOWN URE STILL SICK"

- "ISNT THAT ILLEGAL? ONLY I GET TO HOLD UR HAND"

- holds ur hand the whole day so that "the soul particles would be replaced by riki particles instead😊"

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aceofwhump · 2 years

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U got any good whumpy the mentalist fanfics? Btw i love uour account, you got me watching the mentalist!

I'm not gonna lie, I've been waiting for the perfect opportunity to post all the fics I've read since I started my Mentalist rewatch. There are a lot lol. Her ya go! Enjoy!

Sailors Take Warning by altschmerzes Summary: One moment, Red John has left Patrick Jane alone in an abandoned theater, restrained and traumatized. The next, thanks to a two-day time skip, he is back at the CBI office, sitting on his couch.This is what happened in-between.(Or, the one where I give us the rescue scene we deserved.)

The Pale Warrior by swenglish Summary: " Patrick Jane never gets sick!" That's what everyone thought until one day it happend Fill in scene from episode " Black Market" s7e04

Episode Tag 7x04 Black Market by kykkio Summary: Lisbon kept her promise to check on him the day after

Drifting by Vinividivinci Summary: He felt her hand gently skim over his hair and sighed, wondering if she would hold his hand if he asked. He tended to avoid touching people because it brought back to him how much he missed human connection – but in Teresa's case he would make an exception. Jane whump

Blindness by missingJane Summary: Going 'way back to the first season of The Mentalist, I loved the Bloodshot episode. I thought there was a lot of room in that episode to further explore how Jane's sudden blindness affected him. We only saw his brave front in front of Lisbon and Cho for a short time in the hospital. Here is my attempt to fill in more details of that difficult time for him in the hospital.

Blue Frog by JosieStyle Summary: Jane was doing a wonderful job investegating a murder, but then something happened. Jane is rushed to the hospital, leaving the team very concerned about his status. Because... there was no cure from getting poisoned from a frog like that. (story set when the old team was still together)

Bagheera and the Little Prince by Idan Summary: Tag to Bloodshot, 1x16. How did Lisbon and Jane get from Van Pelt's wrecked car to the couch scene the next morning? In my mind, the path ran through a hospital, a diner, and several literary allusions.

The Red Mile by hoppa12345 Summary: I never quite believed that Jane was totally unaffected by the events that took place in the closing scene of 3.18. How could he be? Warning: mentions of suicide. 4 chapters, one posted every two days. COMPLETE

At he end of the hall by Lastavica Summary: Patrick experiences a painful flashback less than two weeks after Teresa gives birth. (one shot)

This I Promise You by Shoebuckle Summary: SECOND CHAPTER ADDED: Tag to 7x12 — set just pre-White Orchids. Lisbon and Jane deal with the aftermath of the explosion at Lazarus' house, and have a much-needed discussion about their future. Later, Lisbon forces herself to confront a daunting question, the answer to which she perhaps knew all along.

Therapy by heclosescases Summary: Preparing for the future, Jane appears to be doing good, now that he has left the FBI behind but Lisbon is concerned about the trauma of his past still causing him anguish and she doesn't want their child to have to deal with a parent with unresolved psychological issues like she did so she persuades her husband that therapy is a good idea. AO3 - Easily Obsessed Twt - heclosescases

Wounded by heclosescases Summary: Jane gets wounded in the field which makes Lisbon re-evaluate aspects of her life and determine what her priorities truly are.

nothing new by morimaru Summary: Jane is rarely wrong with his hunches, but it takes one mistake to get hurt. During a routine interrogation, Jane miscalculates just how aggressive an outwardly unassuming, hundred-pounds-when-soaking-wet woman can be when accused of murdering her own child. His suspicions aren’t unfounded, but the way he proves himself to be correct probably isn’t the best.

Firewall by Kerkerian Summary: Pain is in the mind, according to Patrick Jane. When one's defences are down, however, it's rather the emotions which can bring a man to his knees...

Belladonna by Easily_Obsessed Summary: AU set post S5E2. TW - mentions of suicide.Jane ingests belladonna for the second time in a matter of days but this time it is on purpose. He wants to try and see his daughter again. Lisbon is the one to find him unconscious.It is difficult for two people who are very tightly wound and emotionally constipated to have deep conversations about mental health, but they sure are going to try. Their friendship is too important.

Clair de Lune by lovemedaisydo Summary: Mid season 6 and Lisbon is dating Pike. When she goes back to the FBI office at night to look for her phone, she finds Jane in poor shape. There's two chapters only, but if you feel like a bit more let me know. Open to suggestions.

Almost by Easily_Obsessed Summary: A quick one shot. A moment of vulnerability.

Tangible Demons by Easily_Obsessed Summary: A case hits too close to home for Jane.

Invisible Machinery by altschmerzes Summary: Patrick Jane doesn't know what's stranger - the way they've been touching him since his sight was compromised or the fact that he thinks he's going to miss it when it stops.(jane loses his sight, the team gets protective, and jane has a little trouble processing this)

Miles to Go by foxy_mulder Summary: Jane can't sleep. The team notices more than he thinks.

Red Witness by hellblazeit Summary: What happened just after Jane remembered. (or, Lisbon picks up the pieces.)

Scarlett Blade by CindyT63 Summary: This is an alternate ending to Season Two, Episode 2, The Scarlett Letter. Why did Jane say "No…" when Lisbon told him to chase after the janitor? What if he had a good reason? What if Lisbon doesn't figure it out until it's too late?

Gathering Storm by the old oak tree Summary: A heavy storm hangs over Sacramento but it is Jane who finally breaks.

Little Stars by Kourion Summary: It's a three week countdown to find a serial killer and his most recent victim: a psychologically damaged little girl with a remarkable likeness to Charlotte Jane. So of course, Lisbon's stressed and Jane's obsessed. Noncon/ Jisbon overtones/Hurt-comfort/ NEXT TO BE UPDATED :) I haven't forgotten about this!

Running Through Red Lights by yaba Summary: She's ruining all his plans to remain aloof and vengeful and he finds himself liking it. Post: Red Badge. Jane/Lisbon.

Prestidigitation by TheHousekeeper Summary: It's not a power he wants, to be so skilled a magician that he can bring anything into the world, take anything out of it.Or, a six-thousand-word 6x15 post-ep based on the quarter-second in which Jane double-checks that he still has all his fingers. Jisbon friendship, pretty much, but you could squint at it a bit.

Comatose by Easily_Obsessed Summary: “He is going to lose a child he didn't even know about.”An AU to Brown Shag Carpet/White Orchids.

Lisbon's daily troubles by waltraud Summary: Days at the CBI could already be stressfull enough, but for Lisbon and her Team, they has another challenge to take, as they have adopted that not very self-caring consultant to their team.A little collection of the new troubles the teams has to deal with. Mostly whump (sickness, injury...), no sexual content planed.

Bottles of Crimson by Easily_Obsessed Summary: The Crimson Hat AU What if Jane did actually crack up and it wasn't all a ploy to catch RJ? Six months after he left the CBI, Lisbon goes in search for her missing consultant and is horrified about the state she finds him in. It is going to take some convincing for him to accept help which not only takes its toll on him but her also. Helping him may be one of the biggest challenges she ever has to face.

You Are Not Alone by Thadeus Summary: A serial killer targeting children, and there's something wrong with Patrick Jane. Lots of Jane Whump, and fluffy friendship between him and the team. One-sided Jisbon. Fluffy Jigsby.

one more troubled soul by The_Bookkeeper Summary: The team drives home after a rough case. Jane falls asleep.

Red in Tooth by Drogna Summary: In which Jane gets bitten by a snake but still manages to help solve the case, Lisbon spends a lot of time worrying about Jane but still manages to help solve the case, and the rest of the team end up hunting down both the snake that bit Jane and the murderer.

Almost by Easily_Obsessed Summary: A quick one shot. A moment of vulnerability.

Redwood by bromfieldhall Summary: "We're up, guys. Another body has been found dumped along the 299 a few miles south of Willow Creek this time."Jane and Lisbon are forced into a deadly game when they try to catch what they think is a new serial killer.JANE/LISBON. Set some time after season five episode, 'Red Sails in the Sunset'. Goes AU from there. Some minor spoilers.

#mod post #whump #fanfics #mods fic recs #the mentalist #patrick jane #ask #anon #long post

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boobchuy · 2 years

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Did you like the finale? I personally liked it, except for maybe a few things, but I’ve seen a lot of ppl saying they don’t like it on twt. I really like your art so I’m just curious lol

anon I'm gonna use this chance to brainvomit my thoughts about it I hope u dont mind but u gave me the opening so I MUST BITE IT LIKE A RABID DOG

but, tl;dr is that I loved the finale as a whole, w a few gripes here and there bc nothing is perfect and that's okay

To be more specific, here is me crying and rambling <3

Things that I liked :))

* first and foremost, this is the story that matt has had in his vision for years. this is what he wanted to do, what amphibia stands for, just a big metaphor for change, and just for that alone I love this finale to bits, and will hold it dear in my heart for many years to come.

* I got what I wanted and MORE, that is; rule of three anne dying. this has been something I've been looking forward to since I joined the fandom and saw a post abt how Marcy and Sasha almost died in season finales, and wondering whos turn it was next. just. The whump of it all, y'know. AND THE OUTCOME AND CONSEQUENCE, IS SO MUCH BIGGER AND BETTER TO EXPLORE THAN I COULDVE INITIALLY THOUGHT

I don't know about you but knowing that Anne's tied to this powerful entity, to see that scene of her talking with god, essentially, it just manages to scritch a really good part of my brain. There's just, so much to explore from that scene, and it was such a pleasant surprise even if it feels quite a bit sudden LOL. for all intents and purposes, the little kid in me is screaming that it's very very cool, and I can't wait to attempt and make it cooler. (Plus, the AUs of just this one scene can inspire are ENDLESSSSS, so excited to dig into it more)

* calamity trio fight scene. Need I say more. TJ hill I need the soundtrack of that it was so uplifting and cool and ughuh legend. You can tell the absolute fun and love that was put into it, from the character gestures, the expressions I fucking adore it so much. Easily the happiest part of the finale, a glimmer of light for how much the episode broke me :)

* ANDRIAS. andrias. Andrias... (Weeping). the reunion parallel. it broke me. and even though he's done a lot of bad things, and that's putting it lightly, I'm glad that he lived. I just can't help but feel sad for the kind of past he has, and I'm happy that he's given a chance to heal. that, along with the fact that just killing him off is the easy way out- make him do the work of trying to heal what he has destroyed; him being shown planting seeds and making things grow, with parts of his old friends attached on his person, it's a quiet, peaceful moment for him, and a very satisfying one for me.

* this is moreso a confession than me listing a pro. right up to the last few weeks of amphibia's finale, I had this really really really quiet fear in the back of my head that the plantars might get shoved aside in favor of calamity trio ToT, that's just the brain making up dumb problems, of course, and though as heartbreaking as it could be, I enjoyed that the show proved that wrong for me.

I fell in love with their characters, and the farewell scene with the plantars, it's so so so dear to my heart. Anne calling Polly her little sister, every word that hop pop said to Anne, the cut to sprig as he gripped his hat tight, tearing up. The way Anne's face was so scrunched up as she tried to comfort him. That last spranne hug, how it was animated so well, how heartfelt it was. God. I've been crying since I mentioned Polly while I typed this. That goodbye scene is everything, and even if people didn't like it for the sadness it caused, they shot it out of the park. Most emotional I've been in the show, tops.

* I went on a whole tangent about it on twitter yesterday, but Anne's death scene is equally as heart wrenching. I won't go over it like I did, but the two key moments that really broke me was when sprig and frobo brought her down, sprig was SMILING. trying to reassure himself and Anne that everything's gonna be okay, and there's this moment where he looks to the others as if saying 'its gonna be okay, right?', and the cut to Sasha and Marcy's heartbroken and horrified expressions. ITS JUST SO (pls excuse my language) FUCKING. FUCK FHCK FJCK. the the other moment, was Anne still managing to crack a joke and making her fam (AND MYSELF MIGHT I FUCKING ADD, HOW DARE YOU MAKE ME CRY LAUGH AS YOU DIE) laugh one last time before she turns into leaves

* the future time skip designs. *eats them*

my other feelings 👍;

* THIS MIGHT SEEM LIKE A CONTROVERSIAL OPINION. BUT. it felt, really off-putting and sad for me that Anne chose to be a herpetologist. IT FELT LIKE SHE WAS BEING STUCK IN THE PASTTTT, holding onto those memories for as long as she could. the strongest of feelings I've had w that has long since worn down as the hours went by, though. I want to believe that she eventually either grows to love this job genuinely for the sake of how happy it makes her, or she branches out more onto other things that aren't just related to frogs.

* I feelll like they could have done a better job tweaking sasharcys dialogue in the time skip. I don't mind that it was 10 years later, and IVE BEEN A FIRM BELIEVER ON SASHANNARCY GETTING SEPARATED SINCE THE VERY START, but, the part about how it's implied that once Marcy moved, they haven't kept in touch 😭??? hence her asking then on how Sasha and Anne have been doing only 10 years later??? I know we grow apart but I don't think it'd be that quick ... I think, I'll just chalk it up to them having not that much leeway on how to stir the conversation in that direction. Otherwise, sasharcys job careers make my heart feel full, they've really grown into themselves, into people that we didn't expect, and I think that that's wonderful.

* I don't really feel all that negative about the fact that the portal between worlds doesn't work anymore, mostly bc, I refuse to believe that it isn't possible ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

canon didn't even really imply there being one, but that didn't stop them from encouraging it a little bit. the stone guardian giving anne those last crumbs of power to go home is an orchard ripe for picking that says just how much more could be explored. And I wasn't as devastated because genuinely, I do believe there's a day where they will see each other again, whether that gets confirmed or not, it's something I'll hold to dear to myself til I eventually, move on from amphibia too.

#man this was long sorry for the word dump anon i hope u dont mind HAHA #.txt #talking to frogs #i dont know how to sum up my feelings very well but i hope u get the Vibe #amphibia spoilers

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carpedzem · 3 years

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a little about how it was to be on dreblr for the past few months

this post is inspired by another ‘apologist’ discourse, but mostly this post is for me and for my need to speak about what my friends have been dealing with these past few months now and hopefully this will be the last time I look at this discourse.

this post is about tumblr only, i don't know how people act on twt, I don't care, tumblr is my main platform and everything in this post is about my experience.

let's start with the most pressing thing. the term apologist. it's not like we came up with the idea to use this word. it was a name that was forced upon us and as far as i know, we just kinda adapted. we gave up. some people call themselves c!dream apologists out of spite. some just don't care. I don't like using it, but I do it so people can mark me with a red flag and just leave me alone. but at the end of the day neither me nor my friends excuse all c!dream actions.

'if you get upset over a character that's on you' I AGREE! that's why I'm doing all I can to avoid seeing negative takes. so let's play a game. block the c!dream critical tag and then visit the dreamwastaken tag. how long does it take for you to find untagged c!dream hate? 5 minutes or less (usually less). IT'S EXHAUSTING. we keep asking people to tag their posts correctly but they ignore it or just flat out refuse to do that. there's a rather big blog who straight up has 'I won't tag c!dream neg' in their bio. when someone is brave enough to ask, they often hear that the post won't be tagged because that's true or canon. there would be no problem if that was just on their own blog. no one is required to tag anything after all. but if someone uses the main tag, shouldn't it be common courtesy to add the critical/negative tags? one of the blogs to follow when you search for the c!dream tag is called something like ‘cdreamhateblog’. we have to create our own tag to see the sympathetic takes about c!dream because visiting main tags stopped being fun for us. that's one of the reasons why we are so closed off. so maybe, just maybe, it's not all on us.

since we are talking about big blogs - I think some people are not aware how small dreblr is. almost no take passes 500 notes even if it is cool, unusual, has all the clips. but at the same time the most ooc takes, based on headcanons will gain 1k notes overnight. and of course it's tagged incorrectly. of course it's the first thing I'll see when I want to see some loveposting about a content creator.

it still bugs me that when I made some appreciation post for the people who don't hate c!dream, it left the dreblr bubble and people started tagging it like 'I love to hate him' and I got upset because that wasn't the point of the post, so I made another post about it. and you know what happened? I got vagueposted by another big blog. and that's wild because they weren't following me. they saw my post, they visited my blog, they saw that I was upset, they LIED what the post was about and then blocked me because they 'didn't want drama' so I couldn't even defend myself against those lies. and who other people are going to believe - a big respected blog or some c!dream apologist?

'people act like it's not clear why others don't like him'. oh believe me at least once a week someone gets an essay in their ask box why c!dream is the worst and irredeemable. I wish I could have one week when something about c!dream isn't made about the exile. and we get it! he was and sometimes still is an asshole! I’ve never seen anyone saying he wasn’t! but you have to understand that some people look at some of his actions with a different approach or depth and want to know more about his character. sure you can disagree with it because for you everything is crystal clear. but, despite what some people think, this is what dreblr is about! everyone is allowed to like and dislike characters as they please - that's why we ask: let us enjoy c!dream in a sympathetic way! (also 'apologists have to understand that they are wrong/have to accept that c!dream is villain' LMAO and we are the ones who don't understand why other people interpret a character differently?)

I'm not getting angry at the people who disagree with dreblr. but I do get angry at takes that are half-truths or just straight up lies. the most recent one: how many people believe that it was confirmed canonically that c!dream built prison for c!tommy because c!sam said so? and how many people know that cc!sam said it's not confirmed, that's what his character assumed and that we should focus on c!dream’s silence? exactly. maybe the prison was built for c!tommy, who knows? fandom for sure not because nothing has been confirmed. again, it's just exhausting seeing your favourite character being dragged through the dirt every time a new lore stream happens and lied about only because so many people dislike him.

'all c!dream apologists...' love c!sapnap because I love him. hate c!sapnap because my friend hates him. hate c! tommy. love c! tommy. c!dream and c!ranboo are brothers. c!dream and c!foolish are brothers. c!dnf is canon. c!fwt is canon. dreblr would be so BORING if we all were the same. we are not, we like different things, we have different theories, we want different things for c!dream. the main thing we have in common is that we see c!dream in a more sympathetic way. which also means that YES, there are bad apples here. there are probably people who are unfair towards your fav. there are people who speak about things that trigger you with words that make you uncomfortable. but you can ALWAYS ask to tag it better or just block the person. and continue to have fun in the fandom. just like we want to have fun.

and the last thing to address I believe. anon hate and death threats. it IS common in this part of the fandom. we have an ongoing list of safe people to follow. a list of people that will gladly discuss with anits because some people are too tired or too scared. there's always a creeping fear of your post leaving the safe bubble because it means it’s going to be constantly reblogged by people who are going to hate on us and send even more rude asks. I mean look how many dreblr takes are tagged also with the dsmp tag - almost none. some people don’t want to breach containment at any cost. sometimes people close the ask box for days or turn off anon because something happened outside dreblr and people are on the hunt for us. again. every red flag kinda post ends up being just c!dream apologists hate-fest at some point. it’s not like death threads surprise us but they are still unpleasant. same with people claiming that we need mental help. one of my friends was discussing some canon events with a very rude person just for this person to be back a week or so later to do some weird 'in your face' rebuttal after a new lore stream. so yeah maybe we sometimes are too scared to interact with other people, we can react too violently to criticism but you have to understand why we are like this.

on a side note, because that was already discussed - 'they are abuser apologists', you do know that some of us are abuse survivors as well, right? like, this is common knowledge, right? finding c!dream sympathetic doesn't cancel your trauma and people don't have to tell you about their trauma for you to give them a free pass? we are on the same page, right? also - no one should have to have any trauma to be allowed to enjoy a fictional character! do you even hear how weird that sounds?!

so with all of that, people started getting more vocal about how it is in the fandom. how uncomfortable we feel in this fandom space. funnily enough it happened around the time when that one reddit post went viral - when a girl had end years long friendship because her friend couldn't stop accusing her of being an abuser apologist even when person in question was a survivor. one day when I was wasting my time on tumblr I found a post that haunts me to this day. another big blog (because of course) wrote something like 'guys leave c!dream apologists alone, because they will start playing victims'. can you imagine that? can you imagine saying something like that to your followers, knowing perfectly well that they treat you like someone with the most based takes? I don't want to say that we are the victims, because it sounds too heavy when we talk about fandom discourse, but we for sure are not in the wrong here.

at the end of a day it's not like we hate everyone who disagree with us. dreblr has a lot of love to offer and I believe it can be confirmed by a lot of people who interact with us. we even 'adopt' people who don't call themselves c!dream apologists when they act friendly towards us. as long as you respect our ideas and correctly tags your crit we can be friends. but I won't offer a compromise about my feelings when it takes so little from other people for me and many others to feel safe in fandom space.

not every c!dream apologist would sign off under this post or agree with every single word said because again - we are different, and we have different experiences and we all deal with fandom hate differently. there are people who care less than me. there are people who care more.

I needed to write this post because sometimes when I see some discussion about apologism I wonder - maybe people are not aware how bad it can get out of nowhere here? so now you know :)

to whoever reaches this point of the post, thank you for your time. I hope it will help change things at least a little bit <3

#dreblr #dsmp #fandom critical

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nhinxsworld · 3 years

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yknow what to celebrate Kuroos birthday I will be posting my twt dom!kuroo bf and his v cute gf series that I used to upload on wattage but comepletly deleted

it starts of very slow but essentially is just a row of kinky smut LOL

these are very very messy btw

Part 1 | Part 2

Kuroo x reader

warning: pet play ; super fkn long ; low key kinda cringey ; gags ; spanking; master/pet ; pet names puppy / mutt / princess ; usage of slut and whore (?)

very caring dom bf kuroo :) has a timeskip kind of thing where it reflects their past

"Tetsu." you whined as he puts his arms around you. His breath tickling your neck "What is it princess?"

His hands feeling you up and down "We haven't had time for us in while now did we?" he asks as his hand travels between your thights giving them a knead.

"Who's fault is that huh?" you told him and he just laughs kissing your neck making you squirm "I'm sorry baby, but it's my last year with the boys, I wanted to spend some time with them."

"I know...I'm not stopping you from that, it's just I feel lonely without you." you said as his hands get undneath your shirt over your tits pulling it off "I missed you."

"Aww baby that's real sweet of you. I missed you too." his touch send shivers down your spine "But that doesn't mean you get to send me those naughty pictures when I'm training."

"You've been on mind all week." he says and takes of your shorts as well "Real bold of you to send such things when you know I was with the team 24/7, did you want someone else to see them baby?"

"Did you want me to get all hot and bothered when I can't reply and help myself?" he continued and bends you over his lap a little slap placed against your skin making you groan.

His hand rubs circles on your butt "come on answer me baby."

"Did you want to get me agitated?" he asks and you nod and another slap lands on your skin, this time a bit more firm then the last "Speak when you're spoken to."

"Yes..." you mumbled.

"Come on continue." he tells you.

God, fuck you were struggling, your sweet dorky boyfriend was no where to be seen. It's like a switch in his persona.

Kuroo is your adorable and caring boyfriend, who always looks out for you. He is always the first to check on you, to ask you how you are, to tell you he loves you.

A sweet guy who can be a bit of dork and nerd sometimes, definitely a show off. You can almost see him as the older brother type or well a kouhai.

But what sometimes seems like his dorky could also switch pretty quickly. To someone who easily provocates his opponents. He can be very competitive and serious.

A rather dominant behavior shines behind his kind facade.

You've learned that pretty quickly, when you met him.

You've fallen for the tall sweet guy, who I always nice and cooperative.

Before you two even got together he was always down to help you in little things when it came to school related things, or just carrying some stuff around school.

But when you two seemed to have taken a interest in each other he showed a rather flirty side.

At first it was some corny pick up lines to just signal you his interest making you giggle.

The first date, he was all sweet and kind holding your hand as he took you out. He'd take you to his games and would try even harder to impress you.

That's when you started to see the more serious side of him, the more competitive side.

He starts to corner you and he is fairly tall, basically towering you "So sweetheart how'd you like the game?"

Kuroo was pretty smooth with everything he does, you're a stuttering mess whenever he corners you. Most of the time he'd just ask little things, but things started to become more suggetsive.

"You're kind of like a puppy." he chuckles as he had you in that cliché kabedon hold again.

"Do I make you nervous?" he asks and you nod.

"It's adoring really." he tells you and brushes through a strand of your hair "but if you want to be with me, we might have to work on that."

"We've been pinning for each other for a while now. Don't you think we should make things official? I might show you a bit more about me." he says his pointy placed under your chin his tumb at your lips.

"So what do you say? Won't you be my girlfriend?" he asks.

Of course you agreed that's how you two got together.

He kissed you for the first time that day and you cannot forget about it.

What you wished to be a innocent sweet kiss turned rather hot steamy, when he started to touch you up in back of the locker room.

But things didn't go futher then kisisng and bit of touching.

He had told you it was just a foretaste for what's about to come being in a relationship with him.

You though it was just another one of his corny jokes and pickup lines back then, but he really meant what he said.

It was more and more common for him to stop you in your tracks to drag you somewhere, just to make out with you.

He was still as sweet as ever when you two hung out, just sometimes he gets a bit handsy.

It made you a bit nervous at first not being used to so much affection, but you didn't hate it.

Actually you always carved for more, he never gives it though. He had a thing to leave you breathless and then ditch.

You cannot remember the amount of times he left you breathless in some corner of the school and then just skipped off telling you to have a nice day.

He would be the death of you.

At some point you just wanted to beg him for more and perhaps that's exactly what he was waiting for.

One day you asked him to help you with a assignment. He was more then happy to come over and assist you.

Your parents adored him, telling you could not find a better boy then him and you could only agree.

He was all cute again explaining you every little thing you didn't understand. He give you a peck for each thing you've understood. An angel he is always patient with you.

Kuroo loves having you sit on his lap when doing things.

With each thing you understood the peek got a bit more passionate and it didn't take long for them to turn into kisses.

In the end when you two were done, you two were basically making out and as always he pulls away first smiling "Good job baby."

He ruffels your hair with a proud smile, but that's not exactly what you wanted or well needed.

Not when he has his hands around your waist and tight just a second ago.

This man always gets you heated up and then dips.

Not this time though.

You pulled at his sweater and he just looks at you "Something the matter?"

"Touch me more." you told him and he hums his big hands running over your skin.

"Please Tetsu." you started to beg him "Please don't stop."

He chuckled a evident grin on his face "oh?"

"Please." you repeated too shy to look at him.

"Took you a while to ask." he says and pulled you to face him "But I didn't want push things, you seem rather shy."

You looked st him with those big eyes "I'm sorry..."

He just laughs and gives you a soft peek to the forehead "Don't worry baby there is no need for sorry's, I can be real patient, if that's what you need."

His hand rubbed up your thigh "I've been waiting for you to ask me baby. I've been dying to hear you beg for me."

"I hope I didn't make you all too desperate." he says with that smirk on his face. You loved and hated it so much.

At this point you were so used to his touch yet he never fails to leave a shiver down your back.

"How far are you willing to go?" he asks as his hands slipped under your shirt.

Warm hands just drawing over your skin, you were a bit ticklish and squirmed.

Shy to answer he just snickers and takes his hands out your shirt and just puts his arms around your waist, he leans his head on your shoulder "it's cute how shy you are, but I'm not going to do anything, if it makes you unsafe or uncomfortable." he says and gives you a little peek to your cheek, just cuddling you for a bit "tell me to stop, when you feel like it. Does that sound alright?"

You blush and nod your head "Sounds good..." his chest was warm on your back and the way he held you was so close.

That day he took very small steps, he promised to make things as loving as possible. To caress you and make you feel special.

He'd only show you love.

He is abnormally patient at the smallest whines he'd stop and kiss you.

Ever since then he only became more bold, after that. He touched you more and more and you craved him more and more.

His touch was always so sweet and addicting.

Things started to play out and he showed his dominant behavior. He doesn't hesitate anymore to bend you over his table when you two are alone.

It doesn't matter to him anymore, if you two are still in school. If you look appetizing in that skirt, he will press you against a wall just to touch you.

You're awlays so willing to follow whatever he does.

Not scared to get on your knees for him when he asks you to. Even if you two are on school ground.

The thrill of one day getting caught gave you anxiety, but Kuroo was always with you and reassured you nothing would happen.

It's you twos last year now and you had already applied and been accepted in the same university.

God were you two excited for it, though he is a bit sad to leave his team. He is excited to continue with you.

"Ah...I wanted you so badly..." you told him truthfully "I missed you so much during camp."

It was kind of a unspoken thing to not bother him during training, he takes it pretty seriously specially since he is the captain.

Meanwhile he doesn't bother you when you had important things to do. Doesn't come between you and your friends at all.

Only on rare occasions you two would bother each other, but more in a teasing way.

May Kuroo be jealous about something or you just wanting his attention there is alot of teasing between you two.

It would be boring without wouldn't it?

"Is that so?" he asks as his hands touched your thight, he loves how his hand could almost wrap around the top of your thight. He loves how much taller he is then you "did it excited you? Knowing you can tease me and I can't do anything about it? Having that tiniest bit of control?"

"Did you like that though?" he asks you and another slap that just makes you cry out to him.

"Kind off...." you whimpered.

He raised a brow "Only kind off?"

"Hmmnghh my hands don't feel like yours..." you told him truthfully.

Kuroo is more then pleased to hear that, his little girlfriend who used to be so shy and cute was so needy now.

He hums and slaps your face this time making you face him.

"Such a cute face." he tells you "Well you did make it until the last day so it didn't bother me too much. Did you touch yourself before that princess? Don't lie to me."

You shoke your head "wanted to, but didn't. Promise."

He gives you a sweet kiss "I believe you, pretty." he says before spitting in your mouth "Doesn't mean you're not getting punished, you're mine pretty. Every inch of your body is mine."

His hand at your throat and he makes you swallow his spit a malicious grin on his face.

"You understand that right?" he asks and you nod.

"As much as I don't like others touching what's mine, you're not allowed either." he simply explain "We've been through this."

"Don't look at me like that." he chuckels "wasn't it obvious?"

He sighs shaking his head "I was really exited to comeback home and have you baby."

"I love you so much." he whispers and draws over the curve of your back "I would have given you everything you need." he says soflty his other hand circling your nippel "worshipped you like you deserve."

"But that can wait." he says "Because only good girls get such nice rewards right?"

You nod your head crying "yes..."

"Who are you talking to silly?"

"Yes....master."

"such a good girl but for now I'll treat you like a desperate little slut, who can't go a week without cock filling her up. I'll teach you manners again." Kuroo says as his hand lands on your ass again.

"So what are you princess?" he asks.

"Desperate slut for you."

"What would you do to get my forgiveness and my cock?"

"hnghh anything, this cock slut would do anything." he runs his fingers through your hair so softly "That's right."

Kuroo looks at you with those loving eyes and sighs "Where do we start today?"

He chuckles seeing you shake "Don't worry nothing too harsh." his hand pulls a box out underneath his bed.

"Unless you misbehave." he adds and pulls pulls out a couple items "Come on arms behind your back."

You did immediately and he ties them in place, the restrictions seemed nice enough, soft even.

"Nothing bad right?" he asks as he binds your eyes and puts a gag in your mouth.

You shoke your head soflty.

Soon you felt a all to familiar leather of the paddle he sometimes uses drawing over your butt.

You can practically feel the goosebumps appear on your skin, it was scary and exciting feeling.

"Scared of me?" he asks and runs his warm hand down the same placed the paddle went.

When you shake your head he chuckels "Good, you're my pretty slut, baby."

"You should never be scared of me." he says and the paddle hits your skin in a loud noises and you moan painfully against the gag.

"You're always so loud the first couple slaps." he says as the second one lands. He held your throat with his other hand feeling your voice vibrate when he hits you "it's adoring how both your face and ass flush in such a pretty colour."

He can feel a bit of wetness on his hand when he held your face "Already drooling like a little bitch?"

"We're only at the second spank." he laughs "Are you already soaking too? Are you becoming a pain slut? Does master need to find different punishments?"

You shoke your head and his finger find themselves between your legs "hmm not yet. Keep it that way."

"I don't want you leaking while you're supposed to get punished. You think you'll manage that?"

You nod your head and he starts to spank you again not just your ass but you're thighs as well.

At this point Kuroo knows exactly what he is doing. He knows where to not slap you too hard.

With a paddle or his hand it didn't matter that much to you, but sometimes when he likes to unpack bigger things like a crop or twase he is always careful not to hit you too hard anywhere that isn't your butt.

He never touches your ankels or neck unless he wants to choke you.

Kuroo knows you and your pain tolerance by now. He never takes things too far and if he does he is the first to apologize and fix it.

You're a drooling and crying mess in his lap fighting the urge to let any of your fluids escape your pussy as he wishes.

It was starting to hurt a sick feeling in your stomach, full of needs.

The way one of his hands is so soft just drawings so comfortingly on your back while the other held that paddle leaving your skin with bright pink plotches.

He had taken the gag out of your mouth after the first couple spanks "Hmm how is my sloppy bitch? Got the gag all covered with your spit."

It's difficult for you to answer as he continues to slap you and you try to not be too loud.

He pulls at your hair almost a bit too hard "Come on where are you manners? Didn't master teach you better than this dumb slut?"

"I'm sorry master...." you whined "hh thank you for training me."

"That's right baby." he says as you felt a soft slap in your face and he lighten his grip on your hair "so let's start anew who do you belong to?"

"Hmmm this mind and body belong to master, he can do whatever he wants with it. This stupid bitch isn't supposed to touch what's masters." you cried and he starts brushing through your hair massaging your scalp so softly.

"What else?" he asks as more slaps land on your delicate skin and with each slap you thanked him and apologized for you mistakes.

How you shouldn't be touching yourself and how you shouldn't be teasing him.

"awww my baby." Kuroo coos as his hand is between your legs "Such a good girl."

You weren't all wet and dripping like you'd usually be and honestly your thights were shaking from how hard you were trying.

He draws over your pussy with his hand "Kept yourself all clenched up huhh? Was it painful? Let me sooth you."

"It's okay baby." he pulls of the blindfold seeing your tears.

"My baby did so good." he says lovingly as he pulls you to his chest your arms still tied together and makes you straddle him.

"My pretty sloppy puppy drolled all over herself." he sighs as he hold your face in his hands whiping of some tears and droll "Give master a kiss."

His lips on yours and he can feel how your droll was dripping down his chin when you two kiss.

Kuroo doesn't mind a bit of mess, he doesn't mind at all.

"I love you master, won't do anything bad." you whined and he kisses your temple "I love you too baby, I know you're a good girl. You're the best girl actually. Next time you can just ask me how about that? If you're feeling needy and I'm not around just ask me."

"I won't bother you?" you ask him softly.

"Baby you're never a bother to me." he tells you and kisses your cheek "Never, you could spam me everyday and I wouldn't get sick of it." he always likes to reassure you, that you're never a bother to him. Even if he is out or training, if you truly needed him he'd drop eveything just for you.

"If you want to show me that pretty body of yours sure. Who am I to complain, when my pretty doll want to show me how absolutely stunning she is." he chuckels and kisses your neck "Just warn me beforehand hmm?"

"Think next time you want to send me something, surprise me be creative doll and I might reward you for wanting to tease me, who knows?"

You smiled excited nodding your head.

"So? Does my doll want me to make her feel good?" he asks and you nod your head "Please master."

"Good girl." he kisses your hair as his hands spread your vagina for both of you to see "aww do you get exited when I talk to you?"

"Yes, I love masters voice." you answer him shyly "When master praises me or tells me what to do. I get really happy and exited."

"You're so cute." he snickers as he plays with your pussy for a bit teasing you.

"Are you happy when master touches you too puppy?" he asks and his fingers rubbing so slowly at your clit his other hand pinching and tugging your nipple so soflty.

Your voice breaks when he teases you like that "Yes, yes, so happy when master touches his puppy."

The raven haired man is more then happy to touch his whiny puppy "pretty you're basically grinding against my hand."

"But that's okay." he chuckels "I missed you too. Show me how much you missed me."

He pulls you closer to him and your started to rub your chest against the fabric of his shirt while your cunt continued to grind against his hand.

"Such a needy pup." he runs his hand through your hair "Something you want?"

You were panting and moaning against his shoulder. Your nippels so hard as they touched his firm chest and his soft shirt fabric, finding friction.

Meanwhile your pussy was so wet just gliding over his hand hoping for more, you wanted his finger inside you so badly. You needed them desperately.

Mouth basically watering, drooling from the thought of him touching you with his big hands and filling you up with his thick cock.

You just wanted to hold him and ride him while he touches you in all the right spots, but your arms were still tied behind your back.

"Please master, this needy mutt needs you inside of her please." you begged him "want master so badly."

"Be more specific baby, what do you want inside of you? Where do you want it?" he asks as he pulls you back from him, his finger finding your tongue pulling it out making you droll "fill her up here?"

He stuck his finger down your throat making you gag before pulling them out again.

"Or does my baby mean down here?" he says as his other hand tease your butt "or here?" it dripped to your needy cunt.

"There please there master, please let me have your fingers inside of me." you begged again "stupid puppy needs masters finger inside of her....only he can make her feel good. She can't even do it herself, please master."

He laughs "Awww did this dumb mutt try to finger herself?" he asks as his finger pushed inside of her aggressively making her groan.

"Doesn't even know where it feels good on her own body?" he asks as thrusted his finger in out and you shoke your head "Poor little puppy didn't get to cum even though she though of master?"

You nodded your head as you moaned like a bitch in heat from his finger thrusting in out of your pussy. Your tits desperately rubbing against him still and he starts to grope them.

"Did you play with your tits too?" he asks as he leaned down to lick and suck on them "Didn't feel as good as masters hand and tongue?"

You shoke your head again "no...didn't feel as good as master."

His teeth tugged and pulled at your nipple making you cry in pain and pleasure.

His finger stopped thrusting into your cunt instead he he started to press and curl his finger against that very special spot that makes you a mess and in need for more "tried to find this?"

"It's really easy baby." he tells you as his finger rests on that spot "I'm sure my puppy isn't that stupid to not find this spot, but I guess it makes the difference between you and me, my hand is much bigger then yours."

"I can reach so much deeper then you do." he chuckels as he made his point by just clawing that spot over and over deeper and more then you could reach.

"You need me don't you?" he chuckels and you nod crying.

"No need to cry over that baby." he whipsers "master loves making you feel good, he loves when his little puppy is so desperate for him, he loves it when you beg him to let you cum, because you're in such dire need. I want you to be like this for me."

Your voice pitches up and loud moans escape your lips as he touches you with each sound you make he is only more amused.

"Master please, please, please can I cum? Need it so badly, please, please, please." you plead him and he nods "Of course puppy this is exactly what I want. Cum all over my fingers puppy, show me how good I make you feel. Make a mess for me."

With just his words and couple more rough touches and him holding you in place you cried even more cumming on his hand.

He smiles and pulls his hand out your cunt, you were panting heavily leaning on his shoulder.

"Such a good girl." he tells you and ruffels through your hair so soflty "Look at me."

You pulled of him and looked at him with your glossy eyes he whiped them for you with his clean hand and showed you his other one which was glistening with your cum.

"My messy puppy." he chuckels and licks it off his hand.

"Ah...master...that's...uh...I'm sorry.." you weren't sure what to tell him and he just laughs "Oh baby I've told you, to me you taste the sweetest no need to be shy about it."

"There isn't anything about you I don't love. You don't need to be insecure about anything with me." he smiles and licks his hands clean as if to proof his point that he loves eveything about you.

"I've told you so many times puppy, when will you learn?" he asks and looks at you "Do you want me to teach you again?"

Shaking your head he snickers "It's not really your choice you know? But I guess we can postpone that for another time."

"Thank you master."

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thoughts-on-bangtan · 3 years

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Let’s Talk: Jimin’s & Tae’s confessions (RUN Episode 141)

by Admin 1

Originally, I planned on writing a summary or vmin cut of the RUN episode but then I transcribed Jimin’s and Tae’s confessions and it got me thinking, and now here we are. Instead of a summary here are some of my musings and thoughts about their confessions and how they are right in line with things they’ve said in the past, and even quite recently, as well as how it fits with something Namjoon said in 2020 about them as well. I hope this will at least be somewhat interesting.

So, first, let’s look at Jimin’s confession, since this is longer and was first in the episode:

Jimin’s Confession

Jimin: Sometimes I am blunt. I’m like that at times.

Na PD: Taehyung, has Jimin ever said anything bluntly to you?

Tae: Nowadays, he's really putting in effort to fix that to the point where it rarely happens anymore. Jimin tends to be very hard on himself, which also broke our hearts to see.

Na PD: So, he gets stressed from himself, then gets mad at himself...

Tae: Then gets mad at himself.

Na PD: ...and then he blurts remarks.

(here it was a bit unclear (for me at least) which of the two said which line so I’m sorry if I mixed them up)

Jimin: It’s something I want to be forgiven for.

Tae: But Jiminie being blunt and me being blunt is completely different. Jimin has a kind hearted nature on the regular.

Na PD: Right.

Jimin: Are you usually not like that?

Tae: I’m, well...

The other members stop Tae, since it’s not time for his confession, and instead the question is posed by JK if they forgive Jimin to which everyone says yes.

Tae: You’re innately kind at heart. stretches out hand for handshake.

Jimin: Thank you. Jimin thinks (?) Tae might be going for a fist bump since he gives him his fist instead, which Tae still takes and shakes.

The first thing about this that caught my attention, as well as one of our anons, was the fact that instead of choosing literally any of the other members, Na PD turned to Tae and asked him to verify if something like that (as in Jimin being blunt) ever happened toward him. You could say we’re thinking too much here, interpreting too much into it, and yet it doesn’t change the fact that he chose to ask Tae. Of course it could be because he said at the start of the program that he feels closest to Tae since he heard about him from two of his Wooga squad friends, but it might’ve just as well been because he watched the members for a while already at that point (since they’d already been filming a few hours) and perhaps he did notice how Tae and Jimin naturally gravitate toward each other, have this special bond? Other people who worked with them in the past noticed it, so why wouldn’t he?

There’s actually moment where Jimin turns and says Taehyungie like he wants to ask him something or say something to him which isn’t in the subs and the members don’t notice it either so Jimin never got to actually say whatever he wanted to say. Also, we’ve all seen how Tae and Jimin behaved during the game in the previous episode, how happy, smiley and giggly they were while being silly together.

Then the actual confession itself, Jimin saying that he can be blunt at times, toward others but also especially toward himself. We’ve heard many times from Jimin about how much of a perfectionist he is, how he can get mad at himself for mistakes, how he sometimes speaks without thinking which can end up a bit mean/blunt, and now he’d like to be forgiven for it.

This actually reminded me of something he said to Tae before:

FESTA 2020 from 42:56 min onward (context - the question was: have you felt disappointed in or sorry to the member to your right?):

Jimin: For Taehyung I should say if I compare those two feelings to him I was more hurt than sorry. Over time, it was reversed. Now I don’t feel slighted. I’m more sorry about things. Back then we were buddies so we had a lot of disagreements or didn’t admit that we were wrong. So I felt disappointed about little things. Now he listens to me well so I feel sorry that I talked to him harshly and every little thing.

The last line especially sticks out to me. I know there’s some language nuance here that got lost in translation which wisha mentioned when the FESTA 2020 video was posted (but is now gone since her twt was suspended), and yet it doesn’t change that fact that it fits with Jimin’s confession, how he was harsh to Tae in the past but now feels sorry for it, and with what Tae said, that Jimin is now making an effort to fix that behavior, to not be so blunt/harsh anymore.

It’s so interesting to me to see these mentions of what could be seen as character flaws over the years, things that make them inherently human. Also it fits with what we know about the evolution of vmin, how they used to have disagreements, have issues with proper communication but over time worked on it, got better at it to the point where they can now understand each other by just looking into each other’s eyes, and Tae’s words about Jimin, how he’s an angel, the warmest person he ever met, and now how he has a kind hearted nature, therefore the bluntness is not taking away from it in any way.

There was also something about this in Jimin’s solo RollingStone interview which caught my attention:

(btw, if you haven’t yet, I highly recommend reading the main and solo RollingStone interviews because they are really, really good!)

Taehyung’s confession

Tae: Compared to the other members, I’m very lazy. Once I’ve set my mind on something, to get that into action, it takes me up to 2 months. I’m start working out, then quit. I’ve quit projects midway too. I’m the type where if I’m not feeling it, I don’t do it. There are times when I feel sorry to the members.

Someone (I can’t pinpoint the voice): How would be summarize this?

Jimin: You’d usually call this as “irresponsible”. He lacks responsibility,

Tae: I’m still an amateur.

Na PD: “I lack responsibility and am lazy”. Is that how we can understand it?

Tae: Yes.

Jimin: To be honest, we don’t think it’s to that extent, but if that’s what he feels... we forgive him.

Something I love about what Jimin said (in far fewer words than I will use because you know me, I can’t keep myself short) is that he essentially did two things at once, being: he assured Tae (and the viewers) that him and the members think differently, don’t see it as severely as Tae does himself, and then he also acknowledged the validity of Tae’s words, that even if Jimin doesn’t agree with him, Jimin knows that those feelings are still valid, that that’s what Tae feels and that, at the end of the day, even if the members don’t agree, they can’t change Tae’s mind, can’t force him into seeing things differently. The only person who can do that is Tae himself, and that’s okay. Jimin and the other members will still quietly support and reassure him when needed until he’ll “fix” this weakness, if that is something he wants to do.

This really shows how in tune with Tae Jimin is, but also how emotionally intelligent he is. Beautiful. Also, notice how Jimin said that without being asked to do so, which will come into play again a little later in this post and why I point it out specifically again.

Listening (or rather reading along) as Tae said that, it reminded me of something he said a few months ago:

Taehyung BE-hind Story Interview from 5:49 min onward:

Q: How do you cope when it’s hard to work/with these situations?

Tae: I’m very true to my emotions so uh...if I can’t write the songs or can’t come up with a title I just don’t. Like now!

Yoongi: That’s actually the best way.

Tae: I just don’t write it like how I’m doing it now, and I don’t want to be pressured to create something against my will.

Yoongi: It’s not like you have to finish a song within a day or two?

Tae: Right! So I’ve been taking some rest for about four months now. Now that I’m resting for four months...

Yoongi: Wasn’t your mixtape supposed to be out last year?

Tae: The mixtape that was supposed to happen last year was postponed. I should be in a state full of emotions right now, but I haven’t reached it yet. It’s like...my first mixtape so I want to feel that satisfaction when I release it whenever that time will be.

Yoongi: That’s why you have to finish the whole thing while you’re at it...

Tae: Yes.

Yoongi: ...or else it takes too long to finish it. So, you have to finish it within that period.

Tae: Right.

Yoongi: I’m guessing you might’ve missed the time.

The thing though is that what Tae said, that if he doesn’t feel it, he won’t do it/finish it, that just shows how much of an artist he is, how much his art truly matters to him, and how important it is to him that his art, in this case his music, turns out just the way he wants it to or else he won’t finish it or release it. And while Tae might call this “irresponsible”, I don’t think it’s that in this case, or that it’s a sign of laziness either, though just like Jimin, I don’t want to invalidate his feelings either. All I want to bring across is how in the context of his music, this isn’t a weakness or flaw, even if it might seem like it, especially in their line of work with deadlines, schedules and plans made weeks and months in advance where, usually, you can’t just take a four month break.

So, in that regard, I can understand how it can feel like a flaw to him, make him feel guilty about it and sorry to the members who in this case might rely on him to get something done on time and he might not do it, or not without forcing himself to do it or being dissatisfied, you know what I mean?

Earlier today Tae was on weverse and answered a few questions about his mixtape (though I have a feeling it really is time for ARMY to stop asking him about it and just let him breath) where he said that even though he got a song from someone and made ten himself, even with that break he took according to his BE interview, the songs just aren’t what he wanted them to be and thus he decided to start again.

Some could say it’s again a case of him being irresponsible the way he characterized it during the RUN episode, that even though he said last year he was almost done and would release it soon it ended up being postponed and now he started over again, but once again I think it just shows how very important his music is to him, and therefore I’d actually call it a strength. It shows how valuable his artistic expression is to him, to create music the way he wants to, at his own pace, and only release it once he feels it’s right.

One more thing, just like I said in the intro of this post, Jimin and Tae jumping in to assure the other, reminded me of something Namjoon said during his Map of the Soul : 7 vlive last year:

The context is a little different, but I think it’s still valid here as well, how Tae and Jimin made excuses for each other, how Tae immediately softened how harsh Jimin’s own words about himself might come across, assured both us and Jimin that really he has a kind heart despite this weakness, and then also Jimin by saying that things aren’t as bad as Tae makes them seem either. It’s interesting to really see something play out in a manner similar to what another member said about them based on having been with Jimin and Tae for the last nearly ten years.

Whoever claims that BTS just play out concepts or “plots” and characters given to them by the company really should just take a seat and stop. I mean, sure they all have a sort of persona they embody in front of the camera, at least to a certain degree, they’ve spoken about that numerous times, but they are still humans with flaws and their own dynamics between each other away from the cameras which, logically, also come across on camera as well, not always but enough for us to pick up on it. And in this case, with these confessions during RUN, we saw something that we previously only really heard about happen right in front of us proving (not that they have to prove anything to us, of course, we should simply trust them and what they tell us) that it really is that way.

Here’s the anon I mentioned earlier:

From anon: It might just be me lol but I think rather than Jimin forgetting he's being filmed for a show (with all those members of staff as onlookers as well) and blowing a kiss at Tae / blowing on Tae's chest, he probably just noticed a tiny bit of lint or fluff on Tae's cardigan or mic and decided to blow it off... Of course, if that was the case, that still reveals their high level of intimacy and the fact that even when interacting infront of strangers they seem to be unable to stop showing exactly how tuned into each other they are... I don't think it's a coincidence that Na PD chose to ask Tae, of all the members, to verify Jimin's statement about his flaw. He was probably observing them all day and noticed how particularly close they were, even amongst all the extremely close members.

#vmin #Jimin #Taehyung #BTS #BTS RUN episode 141

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evesbeve · 4 years

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Hey there, you said your ask box was open for Justin Min's whole thing? I guess I just slept through the whole thing, honestly - could you just go over a gist of everything that happened? I get that it seems like a PR team didn't know how to use twitter (which, mood) and f-ed things up for him, but what were they "cleaning up" in the first place, who's Anna what did they do that warranted such a bizarre thread from the PR team, etc...? 😳

Hey! Okay so this is going to be a lot, so buckle up.

Right off the bat, I just want to say that Justin isn’t cancelled. The situation has been mostly resolved right now (more on that later).

So around a week ago, Justin Min started deleting his replies to fans. Depending on whether you’re on Twitter or not, you might know that Justin is one of the most interactive people of the cast. He knows a lot of fans by name, he has inside jokes with us, and he just interacts a lot with his fanbase. So you can imagine why him suddenly starting to delete his replies was a bit upsetting. There was nothing we could do about it though.

And suddenly, two days ago, Justin deactivated his account out of nowhere, which caused all kinds of drama to go down.

People started pointing the finger at specific accounts saying it was their fault that Justin deactivated (don’t even get me started on that logic; why a grown-ass adult deactivate because of a few teenagers is above me, it literally made no sense), even sending death threats. Others suspected that he got suspended because Twitter’s algorithm saw all these tweets get deleted and was like “welp, bot time.” Long story short, lots of misinformation was going around.

And then out of the blue, Justin’s account was reactivated, and he made a thread directed at Anna.

Now, who is Anna? Anna is a stan on twitter, whose @ I won’t be sharing for privacy, but here’s how they’re relevant in this:

Remember when I mentioned the inside jokes? Well, one of them was between a fan called Matt and Justin. Matt kept commenting on Justin’s tweets asking him to say trans rights. On the one year anniversary of Matt asking Justin to say trans rights, Justin finally said it. Then, Matt made a poll asking other stans what he should have Justin say next, and lesbian rights won.

Around a month ago, Matt replied to one of Justin’s tweets, and Justin responded with something along the lines of “haha, i know this is just an attempt to get me to say lesbian rights,” referencing the inside joke. People started commenting that the way he phrased it was a bit :/ so then he replied to his own tweet with something like “well, i’ll delete this before i get cancelled,” and that’s when things spiraled.

[id: Justin Min’s tweet #1: i see that you are trying to butter me up to say lesbian rights, nice try, matt. nice try.

Justin Min’s tweet #2: oh, here we go. this is an inside joke between myself and matt, if you’ve been a part o fthis fandom for more than a few weeks. but alas, i will have to delete this now before i’m cancelled by the end of the day. keep loving, everyone.]

Lesbians get spoken over and looked down upon not only by straight people, but also the LGBT community. So when Justin tweeted that, lesbians were like “this sounds as if you care more about your own self image rather than our community.” Then, non-lesbians got involved and started either a) calling Justin lesbophobic (which lesbians never did) or b) blindly defending Justin and saying he did nothing wrong.

(Side note: I am not a lesbian, and I’m not trying to speak over lesbians in this situation. But I did talk about this to some of my friends who are lesbians, and they told me that what Justin did wasn’t as big of a deal as Twitter made it out to be. These are their words, not mine. All I know is that it was definitely not bad-intentioned, just a huge misunderstanding.)

Anyway, Anna made a thread explaining to Justin why him defending himself came out as harmful towards the lesbian community, and then Justin apologised and that was it.

Which brings us back to yesterday (26/9/2020).

Everyone is freaking out, posting misinformation, panicking. I don’t exactly,,, know how, but the #justinminisoverparty hashtag started being used for actual hate towards Justin for deactivating, and some people (including Anna, though I think their tweet was in the context of a joke? please take this with a grain of salt though. update: it was in the context of a joke) mentioned that Justin is a lesbophobe.

A few hours later, Justin reactivated his account, tagged Anna, and said this (though it was actually his PR team, more on that later):

[id: Justin’s Tweet: @ [redacted] quickly jumping back on here from my twt break because i’m receiving messages that you’re continuing to spread misinformation, so i want to clarify.]

[id: Justin’s Tweets: 1. all of my interactions with you were deleted because of the need to set clear boundaries due to the fact that your incessant messages and replies from multiple accounts over the last several months were veering into stalking/harassment.

2. for someone who appears to pride themselves on reminding their friends/followers on a daily basis to be careful of the language they use on this app, you seem to be fine with flippantly labeling someone as homophobic/lesbophobic as if they’re cute little adjectives to give to someone, not realizing that such labels have real-life consequences.]

[id: Justin’s Tweets: 3. also noting here than in your original thread, you stated that you neither considered me nor my words to actually be lesbophobic, so a bit confused as to why your story has suddenly changed.

4. i realize you’re young, so i’m genuinely hoping you use this opportunity to learn and grow andbe a little more mindful the next time you decide to tweet.]

The next twenty minutes were pure chaos. Justin deactivated again, everyone started freaking out because that was very out of character for him. People were cancelling him because this could have easily been resolved in DMs, or tweeted without the mention of Anna (a minor) from a mainstream Twitter account.

And then, Justin Min DMed another fan on Instagram (her name is Em) about the situation.

Who is Em? For starters, I’d like to say that I personally know Em and that she’s one of my best friends. I’ve known her for more than a year now, and I can personally vouch for her. Everything that she posted is 100% true (if you want the thread where she posts proof of the DMs, please send me a different ask because I’m scared tumblr will not post this in the tag if I include it here).

The reason Justin DMed her out of all people is because he also kinda knows her? As I mentioned, Justin interacts with us on Twitter a lot, and Em is the one person he’s responded to the most, so he knows who she is. (He’s tagged her more times than other cast members, at least before all his tweets were deleted by his PR team.)

Anyway, this is what Em tweeted:

[id: Em’s tweets: please read this !!!

justin dmed me on instagram and basically the gist of it is that he hired a pr team and they tweeted the thread at anna without knowing everyone could see it. all of the tweets being deleted/ him deactivating was also them.]

Below is the image Em attached to the tweet:

[id: Justin’s DM to Em: hey. this is justin. i’m just hearing about what’s happening on twitter right now. for context, i was asked to work with a team of people to “clean up” my twitter in the past few weeks. they’ve taken the liberty of deleting a bunch of my responses and posts in order to safeguard me (whatever that means) as well as deactivating my account to comb through other things.i believe they accidentally sent anna a message and mistakenly believed the function for her to comment only would mean that she would be the only one to see it as well. needless to say, i’m no longer working with this team and want to personally apologize to her. do you know any way i can get into contact with her?]

And then, in a follow-up tweet:

[id: Em’s text at Justin: sorry for dming you again. is there any other way i can help? i just feel really bad about this whole thing and i know how quickly this stuff can spread if it’s not taken care of

Justin’s text: i mean, i guess you can share the information i’ve given you? it’ll take a bit of time for me to take back ownership on everything as i sever ties with that team, so maybe the sooner the better people know.

Em’s text: okay ! is it okay if i tweet a screenshot

Justin’s text: sure.]

Then Justin’s account got reactivated an hour ago (almost 24hs after Em’s tweets), and he tweeted this:

[id: Justin’s tweet: hi. it’s me. thank you for all your messages. this has been an incredibly tough week for me on multiple fronts. some things you might already be aware of; many other things you don’t know about.asking for a bit of privacy as i take sometime to unplug. hoping to be back soon.]

And that’s all, I think? There’s lots we don’t know about what happened yet, so please please please try not to spread misinformation. This is a stressful situation for us on Twitter, and especially for Justin, and misinformation going around is the last thing we need right now.

tl;dr: Justin Min hired a PR Team that started deleting all of his tweets and deactivated his account. Misinformation started spreading, people started cancelling Justin for no reason. The PR Team decided to respond to Anna, made the response public, deactivated again. Justin DMed Em and explained the situation, and an hour ago, he reactivated and said he’s taking a small break to sort things out.

If anyone has any other questions/clarifications, my askbox is open! Hope this shed some light on the situation <3

UPDATE 28/9/2020: Justin has DMed and apologised to Anna for the situation, and Anna has accepted the apology. Anna posted all of it on their account, but again, if you want a link, send me an ask!

#im gonna go to bed now so ill respond to any follow-up asks tomorrow #i hope this made sense #ask #anon #evelina nonesense #the umbrella academy #tua #tua cast #justin min #justin h min #justin h. min #ben #ben hargreeves #tua ben #the horror #tw: drama

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haikyuuwaifu · 4 years

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Broken Promise

MASTERLIST

Genre: fluff

Warnings: none

A/N: That’s a wrap folks

Thanks for reading:)

*PART VI*

25 years old

That epiphany in the apartment was all Akaashi needed to crank out what would be considered his best work. Titled Pinky Promise, it went on to make the top seller list in Japan, Europe, and the United States. He had finally succeeded in making a name for himself under his pen name Akaji. He went on book tours and did interviews. For three years Akaashi basked in the fame and the glory he so deserved.

Now that he was a famous author, his team decided he needed social media platforms. Akaashi had never been too interested in twt or social media platforms in general. He believed he was more old fashioned than that. If he had been a little more up to speed, maybe he would have figured everything out sooner. His team handled all his postings and interactions. They controlled who he followed and who followed him; unaware of the fact that the current MSBY Jackals Ace was a former high school friend of his; they never followed him back.

Maybe if they had he would have seen what the rest of the world was privy to.

On a Tuesday morning Akaashi sat, doing an interview for the local radio station. His hands folded over his lap waiting for the broadcast to begin. With a wave of the producers hand the host began the show. “Good morning Tokyo, we have a very special guest in the studio today” the DJ announced. “Best selling Author of Pinky Promise Akaji, is here with us, and he will be answering a few fan questions.” Akaashi nodded to the DJ picking up his own headphones placing them on his head. The producer cued the first caller as the DJ clicked them in.

“Alright, caller what is your question?” they asked. “Is your book based off of your own experience Akaji-san?” Akaashi contemplated for a split second before answering. “Yes, Pinky Promise is based off of what I went through and when I grew up.” he stated anticipating the next question. Forty-five minutes later the segment was coming to a close with one caller left. “Last caller, what is your question?” the DJ asked, waiting to start clearing up his work space. “ If in the book, you both went separate ways...is there any possibility you would seek her out to try again? I mean...you loved each other right...and you ended things on good terms, so...why not try again?” they ask with a hint of nervousness in the back of their throat. Akaashi smiled softly answering, “ I have been thinking of what my next move would be for a long time now. I think...now that I am where I planned to be; I’m going to find her again and make her mine.” If only. If only.

~2 weeks later~Onigiri Miya~

You opened the door to your husband's restaurant with the biggest smile on your face. You had wonderful news to share. The past three years have been nothing but marital bliss for the both of you. 3 months after he proposed you married in a small ceremony that ended up being crashed by his idiot twin, both of his loud teammates and Omi-omi who only showed up to ensure that the other three wouldn't go running amok in another country. It was the happiest day of your life until today.

Walking into the restaurant you can’t help but roll your eyes at the scene you walked in on. Atsumu is kneeling over the counter clutching his midsection. You can only assume he said something to rile up his brother and Osamu hit him again. Bokuto and Hinata are no better yelling and screeching about how good the new menu items are and discussing the upcoming match against Bakageyama. The only normal person in all this is Omi-Omi who sits at the end of the counter glaring hatefully at the rest of his obnoxious team.

You take note of the fact that no one has noticed your presence and bring your fingers to your lips letting out an ear piercing whistle. “Jesus woman, could you be any louder!” Atsumu grumbles rubbing his ear. “Be nice to me or i’ll tell Omi-Omi that you were the one who stole his body wash and put it back into his bag.” you laughed as the color proceeded to drain from his face. Your husband smiled at you softly before pulling you into his arms. “How was your appointment, princess?” he asks, placing a gentle kiss on your forehead. You snuggle into his chest with a wide grin on your face. “The appointment was fine honey, I’m perfectly healthy and the babies are healthy too.” you mumble waiting for him to catch on.”Well that’s good I know you’ve been feeling a little run down l,” he freezes his mind finally registering. “Babies...as in?” you nod vigorously. “Twins, Samu-chan...we’re having twins!” you exclaim laughing as your husband and his brother both start tearing up simultaneously. “Hey, Hey, Hey! I’m going to be the best uncle these babies have ever seen!” Bokuto screeches jumping onto the chair. “Over my dead body! I’m their favorite uncle...we are family after all” Atsumu huffs crossing his arms over his chest. With a scoff Kiyoomi makes his way over to the two of you. “I suppose congratulations are in order...just don't let that idiot watch them and i’ll consider letting them around me.” you laugh softly waving your hand at him. Bokuto and Hinata have now changed topics to babies and all the things they’re going to teach the twins. As you look at this group of men that have become your family the door jingles alerting you to a potential customer. Your husband greets them as you walk to the back and pull on your Apron.

“Welcome to Onigiri Miya” Osamu states bowing at the new face. After you wash your hands you make your way to the front when Bokuto screams, “Aggaashiii!” you freeze for a moment as your breath hitches at the name you haven’t heard or thought about since that day years ago. You walk out to see Bokuto pulling Akaashi into a hug already rambling about anything and everything. Osamu’s eyes are watching your every move, waiting for you to make the first move. You shake your head slightly and wave your hand in Bokuto’s direction. “I’m fine Samu-chan, it was a long time ago and I’m a different person now.” you hum softly, prepping ingredients to make something for you and the two little beans you're growing.

Akaashi only planned to stop in because his publicist had great things to say about the restaurant. The name itself sounded familiar but he couldn’t pinpoint where he had heard it from. Pulling the door open he walked inside only to be greeted by a familiar dual-haired face. He chuckled as he realized Bokuto-san had remained the same. “These are my teammates, Hinata, Omi-omi, and Atsumu!” Bokuto stated with a wave of his hand. Akaashi bowed respectfully, further acknowledging that he remembered Hinata from his high school volleyball days. “You don’t remember Tsumu, Akaashi?” Bokuto asks, tilting his head at you. He shook his head, “I’m sorry but I can’t put a face to the name.” Atsumu shrugged nonchalantly. Just because the pretty boy forgot who he was didn’t mean Atsumu forgot about it. Atsumu was there that day his brother found you in the park; and he remembered the way your heart shattered watching Akaashi do what he did. With a satisfying grin on his face Atsumu watched everything unfold.

“And this Osamu and his wife! He owns this place and a few chains in the prefecture!” Bokuto explained turning Akaashi around to meet the owner. Once Akaashi regained his setting his eyes widened upon seeing your familiar face. “[name]” he murmurs, hands shaking slightly. You smile tightly and bow to him. “ It’s been a long time Akaashi-san; what can the owners of Onigiri Miya get for you today?”

PART V|EXTRA

#akaashi keiji #akaashi x reader #akaashi scenarios #haikyuuimagine #haikyuu concepts #haikyuu imagines #osamu x reader #osamu miya #osamu scenarios #haikyuufic #fanfiction #haikyuu fanfiction #broken promise

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satonthelotuspier · 3 years

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There Are Two Ways To Live A Life

“There are two ways to live a life either forget everything or, remember nothing.” - Santosh Kalwar.

Jamais vu: From the French, meaning "never seen". The illusion that the familiar does not seem familiar.

We have only one person to thank for this (again) - Dee - @BangpurpleTan - this idea is based very strongly on her indescribably brilliant edit here. All Dee's edits are a blessing on the timeline but this one fuelled the plot bunnies immensely.

This fic is endgame Xicheng.

If you follow me on Twt or on AO3 you’ll probably be aware this is already updated to chapter 5 over on AO3 - I’ll post the rest to tumblr over time if there’s any interest.

Chapter 1 - If Snow Melts Down to Water

“If snow melts down to water, does it still remember being snow?” ― Jennifer McMahon, The Winter People.

He could smell nothing but fire and death; the scent of blood hung in the air; between that, and the smoke, it was almost too thick to breathe, even where the smoke was less thick, here, as he lay on the courtyard floor in front of the great hall, in a pool of blood that was both his own and from the other’s lain slain around him.

It was red flames and redder blood that were the last things he saw before his eyes drifted closed, and everything else faded to black.

Jiang Shao woke suddenly from the nightmare, taking in a deep gasp of air as if he really had been struggling to breathe, suffocated by the smoke from burning buildings.

But a nightmare was all it was, wasn’t it? His hands tightened in the quilt covering him, but he forced them to relax, as his movements woke the sleeping figure at his side.

“Shao-er?”

He tried to force his breathing to steady, and cleared his expression, as he turned it on the now wakened Xue Rong.

“It was just a bad dream. It’s faded now. I’m sorry to wake you.” He sounded normal. Or at least like he’d sound if he was woken from sleep by a normal nightmare.

“I have to leave soon, so it’s fine. You should stay and try to rest a little more though.” A soothing hand squeezed his shoulder, intending to offer comfort.

Jiang Shao nodded, and lay back as Xue Rong rose, threw on his robes, and, with a final goodbye, disappeared into the still-dark morning.

He was glad; it gave him time to consider the thing that bothered him the most about the nightmare; the death of the woman who looked exactly like Jiang Shao.

Could it be that it wasn’t a nightmare, that it was an actual memory trying to surface?

He didn’t know.

In reality he could remember nothing about his childhood. He had no memory of who his parents were, and therefore the figure in his dream could either be formed from a subconscious remembrance, or his dreaming mind making up a maternal figure; what else did he have to go on except his own features?

His earliest memory was waking up in the home of a farming family somewhere near Yiling. A merchant prince passing through had, apparently, stumbled upon him wandering dazed and barely alive in the wilderness, and taken pity on the severely injured young man, paying for the village healer to tend his wounds and the family to board him until he was well enough to leave.

Less honest folk might have seen the opportunity to accept the gold, slit his throat the moment the merchant had moved on, and profited greatly from him; luckily he hadn’t fallen into the hands of dishonest people.

He didn’t know his exact age; the best guess that could be made was he had been in his mid to late teens when found. He didn’t know where he was from; though they claimed his dialect was that of Yunmeng.

When he had healed enough he helped during the harvest season alongside the family’s own sons, as thanks for their kindness, and then left in search of the merchant who he owed his life to; he had no better idea of what he could do than to pledge himself to that man to repay his goodness.

There had been a part of him that hoped the travelling would spark memories; but it hadn’t helped at all.

Once he had caught up with the merchant in Jiuzi, that kind gentleman had again taken pity on him, and had offered him military training, as long as Jiang Shao joined his personal army, and they were both pleased to find out that, though Jiang Shao’s mind didn’t know it, his muscles clearly showed the memory of martial training.

Jiang Shao was thankful that he could be useful, and had found a place in a world he didn’t really know.

A little while into his tenure in the private army of Ye Qingyan he had been part of the forces his master had loaned to join the imperial army to quell an invasion from the northern kingdom. He had recommended himself to the son of the Emperor by saving his life on the battlefield; he had taken a wound that had been meant for Xue Rong, earning his gratitude and thanks.

They had met again some years later. By this time Jiang Shao had undergone training as an assassin and spy for his merchant prince master. Ye Qingyan had rendered some service to the then acknowledged Crown Prince, enabling the two to renew their acquaintance and friendship. Some time later the merchant had elected to step away from court life in the capital and retire to his family estate in a distant province, to focus on his new young wife and the children she would hopefully bear him. A father and a husband had no need for a spymaster and assassin, so Jiang Shao had been ‘gifted’ to Prince Jin, as a final act of service and good regard by Ye Qingyan.

It wasn’t long later when the old emperor’s failing health had put his intended Crown Prince on the throne, and Xue Rong had donned the Dragon Robe.

Now Jiang Shao was the Tianzi’s secret weapon. His hidden blade.

To the court he was passed off as a male lover the Emperor had taken as a young man, who he still occasionally bedded, and appointed to a minor ministry role, which sent him travelling around the empire. A perfect cover for a man often sent from the capital to enact the will of the Emperor in secrecy.

Jiang Shao turned over, and pulled the blankets over his head, trying to calm his swirling thoughts.

Despite Xue Rong’s orders, he didn’t think that he’d be able to sleep again that night; but undeterred by his doubts he did drift off again just before dawn.

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The moonlight shone through the laden branches overhead, giving the night an ethereal glow, making it feel almost unreal, as they walked along the paths together. No matter how much he tried to give himself the courage to meet the other’s gaze head on, he still couldn’t steal more than quick glances from beneath his lowered lashes.

The other was too handsome. Too perfect. Especially with the moon’s pure gaze limning his jade-like features. It was almost overwhelming to be near someone as gentle and warm as dawn light; and to think that he might like him too.

Overwhelming.

Jiang Shao’s heart had begun to flutter in his chest as the taller boy paused on the pathway, reached up into one of the overhanging bows, and pulled free a sprig of magnolia blossom.

His mouth formed a tender smile, and he held the sprig out to Jiang Shao; who reached for it tentatively. It was all he could do to stop himself from clutching the gift to his chest, and he felt a rush of heat climb up his neck in the still night air.

“Thank you.” The words were barely more than a whisper, as loud and as forceful as he could manage past the lump in his throat.

They walked on a little further, to a cluster of buildings, where Jiang Shao mounted the steps, and the taller boy paused at the foot.

Jiang Shao stopped, and turned.

He felt unutterably sad.

“Tomorrow I’ll have to return home.”

“I know. I’ll miss you. But I’ll wait for you. Forever if I have to, A-Cheng.”

Some of the sadness melted away at his words.

“You will?”

“I will.”

He felt an answering smile shape his mouth, before the other took Jiang Shao’s ( A- Cheng’s?) hands in his own, then, leaning up due to Jiang Shao’ s position on the steps , brushed a gentle kiss against his cheek.

The dream faded, and Jiang Shao woke up plagued by a feeling of indescribable sadness and loss.

He was frustrated that whenever he experienced these unusual dreams, he couldn’t tell whether they were created from his lost memories, or purely formed from nothing at all.

He had spent a long time under the yoke of regret, caused by the hopelessness of knowing nothing about his previous life, whether he still had parents living, or other family; whether he was been missed, or had been mourned, when he vanished. The feelings were crushing. And there were something that, if he hadn’t learned to put aside and compartmentalise them, would probably have destroyed him by now.

So he had learned to put those feelings aside, bury them deep and only take them out when he was feeling particularly maudlin or introspective.

A luxury he didn’t often afford himself.

To the rest of the world, what little he interacted with of course, he was a cheery young man with a ready smile who went with the flow of life, no matter where it took him.

That mantle was heavier some days than others.

***

The sun was bright and clear that morning as he stepped foot back in Jiankang after several weeks in the provinces.

He still wasn’t entirely used to the hustle and bustle of a capital city; especially after he had been away for any length of time. There was something that always seemed to make him feel like a country bumpkin when traversing the packed streets of Jiankang.

It was probably the air of importance everyone seemed to try and give themselves in the capital; it was never a feeling that manifested itself in small agricultural towns with equally as busy markets, for example.

His discomfort told him he had never been a city boy, even in the past that he couldn’t remember.

It seemed, to him, that people in the capital considered that they were made more important by mere virtue of being so close to the Son of Heaven.

If that were genuinely the way it worked, however, it made Jiang Shao particularly lofty in rank.

In reality, the idea amused him immensely; it wasn’t a concept he could take seriously. He was a nobody who had had the good fortune to recommend himself to Prince Jin before his ascension, and who proved useful still to the Tianzi.

And that was all Jiang Shao needed from life. A purpose to drive him on. And what more purpose could he wish for than to serve his Emperor in protecting the Empire and it’s people?

He paused at a vendor and bought Jianbing; if he ate on the way back to the royal city he could quickly bathe and be ready to report to the Tianzi when the Emperor’s schedule allowed.

He wandered along the packed streets as he ate.

The thing he missed most when returning to Jiankang was the food. His palate naturally craved spicier foods than were typically available here; he was a long way from what might have once been his home. Although home was an assumption he made only, going only on the dialect he spoke with, which had been softened over the years by his travel in the private army of Ye Qingyan and then his life in the capital in service of the Emperor.

He pondered as he walked; perhaps it was time to request a little time away from the palace, so he could return to Yunmeng to investigate his possible origins. He had wandered through the lakes soon after he’d left the farm near Yiling, hoping to stumble across some clue as to who he was, or jog his lost memories, but the area was occupied by invading forces, and was a bloody war zone; it wasn’t safe for ordinary people to be caught in the crossfire of two massive armies.

He had heard tell of a slaughtered family, of young generals making names for themselves, and he privately wondered if, before his memory loss, he might have been part of the defending army, and that was where his wounds had been earned. But how was he meant to pinpoint one missing life in a sea of so much death and destruction? It would have been impossible, and he couldn’t stay, and take the risk of falling into the hands of either side; how could he when he didn’t know friend from foe? Interrogators wouldn’t believe a story about lost memories if he fell into the wrong hands and was thought to be an enemy spy.

So he had abandoned his search and continued east in pursuit of Ye Qingyan, avoiding battles and armies as he travelled across the Central Plains.

Now, with his gained skills as a spymaster and information broker, he might still come up against the same impossible task of identifying one lost grain of rice in a field full of it, but he had more hope than he had then. Even with the passage of time a cold trail might sometimes be stumbled upon.

He had spent so many years putting the sadness, the emptiness, the sense of being broken, less than his whole, aside, covering it with a smile and a laugh. He hadn’t dared to dwell on it, lest it crush him.

But every little while, he would dream one of those unusual dreams that seemed too real to be purely imagination, but not real enough that he could be certain they were so. They plagued his sleep in clusters, and now those clusters came with increasing frequency.

What if it was his past life trying to break through to the surface, now the trauma had faded?

He should at least try to see if there were any trails to follow in Yunmeng. And he had a possible birth name to begin with.

Chéng.

It wouldn’t make things easy but it would ensure he was able to disregard some leads.

He finished his makeshift breakfast, called briefly at his lodgings in the barracks to bathe and change out of his travel-stained clothes, (oh how it annoyed Xue Rong, even now, that he refused to use the ministerial palace that had been allotted to him,) and made his way to the Emperor’s hall.

He intended to let Xue Rong’s aide know he was back and ready to report at the Tianzi’s leisure, then spend his time bringing himself up to date with happenings while he had been away from the capital.

Due to the fact he approached from the barracks and not the city gate, he saw the group approaching before any of them would have been able to see him.

He halted like he’d walked into an invisible wall.

One guard escortedtwo gentlemen cultivators

He guessed from their dress and the easily identified symbols of their clans that these two were likely Lan Xichen of the Gusu Lan sect, and Jin Guangyao of Lanling Jin, and current incumbent of the title of Chief Cultivator.

One was dressed in richly appointed gold robes, decorated in a peony motif, he was of medium height and bore a vermilion mark on his forehead. He wore a gauze hat, which was just as exquisitely embroidered and jewelled as his robes.

Jin Guangyao, Lianfang-zun, half-brother to the current Jin Sect leader.

And the second man should really have been overshadowed by the first, considering how plain his garb was in direct comparison to his companion’s. But in reality was like the dawn light measured against a star in the sky; it could only outshine.

This man was tall, willowy, and perfectly graceful in figure, movement and look.

A pristine white headband decorated with clouds sat at his brow and he was robed in pure white.

Lan Xichen, Zewu-jun, current sect leader of Gusu Lan.

That gentleman looked at his companion, as Jin Guangyao spoke to him, with gentle amber eyes. Eyes that Jiang Shao sometimes saw in his dreams.

Pure white robes.

Mourning robes. A strident, mocking voice, one he knew so well, but not at all, sounded in his head.

Gentle amber eyes.

A-Cheng. Tender tones spoken lowly in a rich timbre.

There was such a clamour in his head suddenly. He must have made a noise, or they caught his movement from the corner of their eyes, because the pairs’ gazes turned his way.

But he was a creature of the darkness and secrecy, and he didn’t wish to be seen. Not yet. Not like this, when he didn’t know up from down or real from false, so he ducked out of sight, and sank to the ground when he was assured he was unseen.

The implications were overwhelming.

If the jade-like lover of his dreams was real, how many of the others who appeared there were?

Chapter 1 Notes:

This is a post I referred to quite heavily, originally from lansizhuis blog but added to, as is one of the beauties of tumblr, by even more useful and helpful information by various people. I, and no doubt others who've found the information useful, can only thank them for their sharing their findings with the rest of us.

I needed an idea of what would be going on at court for the Emperor and Jiang Shao in the mdzs timeline. Xue Rong is therefore enthroned as the Emperor of the Southern Dynasty, who's capital would have been Jiankang, (present day Nanjing), in the 450's, which is situated georgraphically between where the Jin clan was based in Lanling, (present day Linyi), Shandong province, and the Lans in Gusu, (present day Suzhou, just south east of Nanjing), in Jiangsu province.

It's perfectly fair to say that an Emperor, at war with a powerful neighbouring empire would be very uncomfortable with these two powers almost pincering his capital, and would be suspicious of them if they weren't openly declaring for or against him. The entire arena for what happens in MDZS is in the borderlands between the Northern and Southern Dynasty's lands, it would make both north and south very nervous.

This is canon time divergence AU MDZS, but alternative universe SGQJ, which was set in the Zhou Dynasty. over a thousand years before when the likely time for MDZS to be set is, as per the research done by anon and others in the post linked above.

#mdzs fanfic #the legend of two sisters in the chaos fanfic #crossover #shaorong #xicheng #chaptered fic #mdzs canon divergence #alternate universe two sisters verse #blood #injury #amnesia #torn loyalties #slow burn xicheng #TWTLAL AU #Shay's stuff

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himikiyoweek · 4 years

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❤💚 HimiKiyo Week 2020 💚❤

hello everyone!! emi @piatonics here to announce an event i’ve been mulling over for some time now. as i’ve fallen deeper and deeper into rarepair hell over the past couple of years, it’s made me beyond happy to see how many other people have gotten interested in the ship too, whether through my influence or on their own. it just felt like the right time to try holding an event to hopefully bring it more attention and content.

i was lucky enough to find another mod to help out, and we’re both super excited to make the week the best it can be, december 4-10. that’s four months away, so there’s lots of time to plan your works and spread the word! more info can be found on our carrd, /faq page, or you can just check it out below the readmore!

reblogs/promos are very much appreciated! be sure to give this blog a follow to stay up to date. we’re also on twt and insta, and there will be an ao3 collection!

prompts:

day 1: past + future

day 2: healing + hurting

day 3: fashion + makeup

day 4: chapter 3 + au

day 5: date night + lazy morning

day 6: secret + pda

day 7: free day!

rules:

himikiyo must be the main focus of each piece, but side characters and background ships can be included as you wish.

be respectful of the mods and other participants. no stolen content, uncredited art in edits, or anything of that nature. don’t insult others’ work.

tag/warn for sensitive or nsfw content as needed, use read mores, etc. there are very few hard content restrictions for the event, but just use common sense.

use the tag #himikiyoweek2020 in your posts and @ this account

please handle korekiyo’s backstory respectfully if you choose to touch on it. no incest jokes/making light of his abuse. again, just use common sense.

promotion/spreading the word is very much appreciated.

have fun!!

faq:

is this only for a certain type of content? — no! fic, art, edits, meta, and whatever other forms you can think of are all welcome! likewise, there’s no length/quality requirements. from a drabble or sketch to a 20k word fic, everything is welcome and appreciated. do i have to participate every day? — it would be great if you could, but it’s not necessary. if you can only do one or two days, that’s perfectly fine. everyone’s welcome to contribute as much or as little as they want. do i have to use the prompts? — you should incorporate one of the day’s prompts somehow, but it’s not a strict rule. you won’t be judged on how closely you adhere to them or anything like that. plus, day 7 is a free space for you to do whatever you want! there’s two prompts for each day. do i need to use both? — no, there’s two so you can choose which you like better. however, if you want to do something for both, you’re welcome to. does my content have to be romantic / is platonic stuff okay? — the event is intended to celebrate the ship in a romantic sense, but platonic/friendship oriented content is okay too. just make sure the himikiyo dynamic, whatever it might be, is the focus. you just can’t have them dating other people if you go this route.

what about poly ships? — read this post

is [insert au/headcanon here] okay? — yes! be as creative as you’d like. why early december? — for himiko’s birthday! why not? what’s the policy on late entries? — they’re allowed. there’s no cutoff! even if it’s months later and the tag is no longer being checked, you can @ the account or even my main! i’m always happy to see new himikiyo content and be your personal cheerleader for it, don’t be shy :)

#danganronpa #himiko yumeno #korekiyo shinguji #himikiyo #drv3 #dr #himikiyoweek2020 #ship week #faq

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iamallybee · 4 years

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Because peeps on my dash are hooked on the Deltadi ship and have got me hooked too, here's a basic outline of how Delta Dawn and Dickory got together in the Gumdrop AU! It also calls back to my other Trolls headcanon posts so you might wanna read those before this one. Putting under the cut because this is looooong!

All his life, Dickory had been told that one day he’ll meet that special someone, he’ll experience certain feelings, of love and intimacy. But Dickory just...never felt it. He felt love for his family but romance? Sexual feelings? It never came to him. During his teenage years, he did feel like he was broken. He felt pressured to start his first relationship, telling himself feelings would come. It...did not end well. In fact, you could say it made him feel more broken than ever.

But then the avalanche happened. Due to the mass loss of yodellers, many of the young adults were pressured to marry and have children quickly to increase numbers and save their culture. In fact, it became a new tradition for yodellers to marry as soon as they turned 18. The only one to refuse this was an 18-year-old Dickory. He may have been shunned a little for his decision (which made him feel worse about his lack of sexuality) but he honestly didn’t have time to think about that anymore. His was still a kid who parents literally just died with a baby brother left behind to take care of. He had no time for marriage, he’d say to the other yodellers. His brother needed him and that is totally the only reason why he couldn’t marry. Throughout his life, Dickory would continue to feel stress and sadness, not knowing about being ace/aro and still believing there was something wrong with him. But at least he has Hickory and his new bounty hunting job to distract him.

Anyway, TWT happened and as soon as Delta found out that Hickory was really two trolls disguised as one country troll imposing on her beloved town, she had them arrested and put on community service for a unspecified amount of time. So she and Dickory did not have the best start in the slightest.

Hickory was soon made to do a report on Pop Trolls and left for Pop Village (and thus beginning his own romance with Poppy and Branch but that’s another story). Dickory was made to stay and do humiliating duties (like clean up after the livestock) while enduring the mockery of the locals and the ridiculously high heat. The only good/kind of less worse thing he saw in this was the fact that Delta’s niece, Clampers, was strangely drawn to him. She would nag and ask him questions about why he has two legs, what are those stumpy things on your hooves and can I bite them? Annoyed initially, he soon warmed up to her as she reminded him of Hickory when he was a child. Their friendship reached a point where they even started playing together. Delta witnessed this one day and maybe, just maybe, her heart may have melted. But only a little.

One day, after a restless sleep, Dickory decided to take a walk about town in the early hours of the morning. His was surprised when his keen ears picked up on a faint, mournful song from the cemetery. He found Delta singing with tears in her eyes to the grave of her sister. After awkward small talk, they both open up about the loved ones they've lost and how it changed them. They found their experiences to be remarkably similar (Delta lost her sister in a mining accident and was left to raise her daughter) and from that point on, they began to grow closer.

Over the next several weeks, Dickory began to actually care about the Lonesome Flats community and his service became a lot more voluntary and a lot less punishing. He would help the elderly, fix up anything that needed fixing, even learned how to herd up the livestock (although his first attempt was a complete hilarious disaster that Growley Pete just loves to tease him about). The locals soon began to think of him as one of their own and gained their respect, in turn gaining Delta's trust.

Delta and Dickory's friendship grew in that time too. In the beginning, she would order him to do certain task or else she would make him do something much more humiliating which used to tick him off. Now, she would ask him or else she would 'threaten' him to make him clean out Growley Pete's hooves, which he would respond with a sarcastic comment with a smile. They were pretty much very buddy-buddy. But the locals weren't blind to the underlying romantic tension between them.

Delta absolutely knew she was having romantic feelings for Dickory but she was at first hesitant. Country trolls are the type to take romance on head first and confidently but she was afraid of scaring him off so decided to bide her time for the right moment. Not exactly made easy when her parents totally shipped them and would try everything in their power to embarrass Delta enough into confessing.

Dickory, on the other hand, didn't know what to feel. Sure, he liked Delta now but she was just a good friend to have a drink and a laugh with, throw sarcastic comments at, arm wrestle with, share personal and past trauma history with, stare at and wish to touch her stupid big beautiful hair, want to hold close to-uh oh!

Suddenly it was like he was a teenager again but this time it was different. He liked her but it can't be THAT kind of love. It didn't exist for him, remember? He couldn't feel that love for anyone because he never did and it would never happen. She's a friend you care a lot about and that's it. Besides, even if there were feelings (which there weren't), it would be best if nothing happened because come on, she would never want someone who didn't like...well, y'know.

Basically, Dickory's in denial pretty hard.

Anyhow, the country trolls have a pretty big shindig one evening where there's plenty of dancing, laughing, drinking and fun. Both Delta and Dickory were having a great time but just as buddies, right?

However, at one point in the early hours of the morning, they found themselves alone together and Delta, in a drunken stupor with all logic thrown out the window, confesses and boldly kisses Dickory. And then she passed out.

In the days following, things were very awkward. Delta remembered the kiss and was horribly embarrassed for being so careless. She decided it was best if they actually sat down and talked about it like adults. Only problem? Dickory was now deliberately avoiding Delta. He didn't want to ruin the friendship they already had but he also didn't want to have the conversation he knew was inevitably coming.

Finally, a frustrated Delta decided to f this and confront Dickory head on. A huge argument blew up between them (which temporarily cleared out the town) which culminated to Delta demanding to know why he doesn't want to be with her and Dickory yells back 'BECAUSE I'M BROKEN, DAMMIT!'

Silence.

After the shock, the pair of them calm down enough for Delta to gently encourage him to explain further. Dickory shakily and tearfully admits his unresolved negative feelings about his asexuality, the yodellers pressure on him to marry, how much its affected him and how wrong he's truly felt all these years and yet he somehow has feelings for Delta that he doesn't understand and how he can't be the man she wants him to be or give her what she would ultimately want.

Shocked, Delta tells him that she's sorry she ever made him feel this way but she only wants Dickory to be himself and if being himself means that he can't give her certain things then that's okay because she loves him just as he is.

But Dickory, still confused, emotional and a stubborn old goat, decides this is the best time to run off and return home.

Heartbroken, Delta writes to Hickory that his community service is up and he is free to return to his home. She tries her best to continue her duties as mayor but everyone can tell she greatly misses Dickory.

When the brothers reunite back to their homes, they also try to move on as normal but both of them have a lot to think about in terms of the things they went through recently (again, Hickory had his own romantic shenanigans going on as well). One night, the two of them talk about what they went up to in the past weeks and realise that the other has experienced love and are too stubborn to admit it. They even have a big sibling argument about it. I mean whose dumb enough to not look past their own insecurities and see that they are loved and they love them back and they shouldn't let the past hold them down in finding happiness and - oh, I see what's happening here!

Anyway, its agreed upon that Hickory and Dickory should return to Lonesome Flats and Pop Village to confess their feelings to their respective loved ones and not see each other until they do or someone's ass is getting beat (y'know, normal sibling pact stuff).

In true spaghetti western style, Dickory returns to Lonesome Flats. He stares Delta down from one side of town to the other, locals watching with baited breath. He yells to Delta for the whole town to hear, that he was an idiot for running away and that he wasn't sure how they were going to figure things out in the future. But he's here now, he's not running away anymore and he loves her too.

Delta, without saying a word, storms up to Dickory, picks up up from under the arms and gives him a great, big, long overdue smooch to the cheers of the townsfolk and the cries of 'FINALLY' from her parents and niece (meanwhile, Growley Pete starts collecting bets).

Anyhow, Dickory moves to Lonesome Flats, eventually marries Delta, adopts Clampers as his niece, is fully content with being demiromtic/asexual, yada yada, happy ending, mwah! (I am a master of storytelling)

#trolls #trolls world tour #dickory #delta dawn #deltadi #trolls headcanons #gumdrop au #dreamworks trolls #dickory x delta #delta dawn x dickory

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clowntrap · 3 years

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realised im this 👌 close to finishing a fic i started a year ago and im back in a writing mood, so maybe .. maybe this time around..

wanted to post a small snippet i already put on twt a while ago

synopses: williams taking michael to a funeral. warning for emeto and alcohol/ism

Two weeks passed in the blink of an eye. Michael and his dad made themselves ready. The babysitter appeared on time and after his father explained the Do’s of the house (quicker to summarize than the Don’t’s) the two of them wrapped up, and made their way to the car.

Michael felt his heart sink. With every step they took closer to the vehicle he clung tighter to the warmth he had nurtured inside over the past few days. Maybe he knew this was going to pass after they got back from the arrangement. He wanted things to stay like this just a little longer.

“How did she die?” Michael asked, cautiously.

His dad started up the car.

“Phillip said it was a stroke.” He removed the handbrake. “But I’d like to think she died in a drunk stupor. Hit her head and choked on her own vomit.”

The hint of a smile tugged at his lips as he stirred out of the driveway. Michael ignored it. “Oh,” was all he said before letting the rumbling of the engine be the only sound filling the silence.

The ride was a peaceful one. His Father appeared to be in a particularly good mood today which he didn’t quite understand nor wanted to sour. The radio was playing a chipper tune that William ever so subtly tapped his fingers along to.

Michael played with the nothingness in his hands.

To choke on your own vomit.

The imagery had plastered itself inside his mind. He saw his grandma in front of his eyes, struggling and gasping for air, though the throw up in her lungs prevented her from doing so.

Was that even possible?

He thought of her unconscious, her head just in the right angle for her nose to be dipped deep in the puddle. Bubbles rising from the ooze, becoming fewer and fewer until they eventually ceased entirely.

Wouldn’t your body jolt awake before anything could happen?

The thought scared him. Then and there he decided to never touch a drop of liquor in his life. Why should he even? His Father hated alcohol and surely wouldn’t take it kindly to see him running around with a choking hazard. Maybe it ought to bring them a little closer.

#fnäf

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fmdluna · 5 years

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hi babies !! it’s been a while since one of these came out, but just a new jada ooc post floating over to say hi !! i feel like the majority of the time when there’s an appreciation / positivity post, it usually comes in the form of a goodbye post, so i just wanted to change that around ! plus, it’s past my one year anniversary of being here ( the first time, that is ) and i’m feeling a little nostalgic. so feel free to skip if you’re not in the mood for s*ft jada, but otherwise enjoy my little flurry of love under the cut !!

cancer tw: oh, and for those who were curious - my grandma just had her surgery !! they were able to remove it, thank god, but we won’t know the final results until next week. thank you so so much for all your lovely prayers & wishes ! they meant everything to me.

anyways - let’s get on to my message !! i don’t really know what prompted me to do this, but i’ve just been in the mood to spread some l*ve. unfortunately, i haven’t been here as much as i liked, and i’m always worrying you guys think i don’t care about you anymore. i’m really sorry about my absence all the time, my life is all sorts of flipped around sometimes. but honestly, famed has given me so much support and tons of lasting friendships !

i’ve probably said this before and i’m sure you guys are tired of hearing it, but for those who don’t know, famed is the first krp / tumblr rp i joined ! i didn’t know what the heeeck i was doing ( and it showed ) ! looking back at my old posts i always wonder...how did these people want to plot with me ? but for those who did take a chance on me, i’m so so grateful. now obviously i’m no shakespeare, but being here has really helped me develop my writing skills, expand my knowledge on korean culture, and even learn some stan twt lingo ?? ( gotta hand the trophy over to vi for that one - ngl when i first started talking to her i had to look up the meanings of some of the phrases she used woiefjwojwoi )

there’ve been so many good memories i can recall during my time here, and even if i wanted to i’d have trouble recalling the piles upon piles of them i’ve created with you all ! ( beginning to see how this sounds like a goodbye post - i promise it isn’t ?? ) isn’t it wild how our muses all just seem to take a life of their own ?? but it’s so fun ! and micha, daein, and even the very missed jinho and minjae have super special places in my hearts with all the good times i’ve had.

but in all honestly, i know roleplay isn’t all that serious, but opening myself to it has been an amazing experience ! since i tend to have a terrible attention span i’m used to dropping interest in things, but since famed stuck i was kind of like oh ?? maybe this is it ?? and i’ve tried to dabble in other communities, but really - no other community has given me such a warm and loving atmosphere ! there’s so much diversity here, and yet honestly, the closest thing to a virtual family i’ve got ! through all my messes, procrastination, bad response times, and all the like, each and every person has been so understanding !

i don’t really know what i’m getting at here, but i came into this hoping to give you guys some appreciation for all that you do. i know that it’s easy to take small things people do for you for granted and keep it moving, but i think that it’s important i share just how much you guys mean to be since you may not believe you’re making a big impact, but you are !

i just adore being around you guys and want you to know that. hope you’re having a wonderful day today, and if you weren’t before, hopefully this cheered you up a little ! i give you guys all my compliments and finger hearts.

- jada !!

#✧･ﾟ: * crashing down that fourth wall - ooc. *:･ﾟ✧#idk what this is...i'm s*ft and that's the tea man

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Dear Diary: About Jimin’s disappearance from Twitter and more...

So many things have been happening around Jimin lately. Thought i write a little diary to keep tabs on things, and to help future and current fans to learn about what is happening during certain time period. I’ll touch on his change in twitter posts / social media behaviour, death threats, and Fan Cam being reported and views disappearing from MNet’s official fan cam video.

Where to begin... let’s start from Fake Love promo period and Jimin’s twts I guess, since this is the first time I witnessed the hate towards Jimin directly in front of my eyes (that and i’m a new fan only started watching their stuff around October 2017?)

So on Jun 7, 2018 Jimin posted a twt from MNet’s backstage with a picture of the boys name on the wall. However, he forgot to put down V’s name, right after he discovered his mistake he quickly apologized and twt’ed two or three more tweets saying that he made a mistake and he loves V and next time he’ll make up for his mistake, something along those lines (dear readers you can go check those twts for yourself). However, when you look down on the comments it was filled with mostly “certain types of solo stans” (and yes I did go into those account to see what type of people is saying these mean things and going through their past twts) saying that Jimin is fake, and that he did it on purpose and other accusations towards Jimin. BTW a lot of those hateful comments were also the most popular ones so you can see them right away underneath his twt i think one or two of them even have 1k likes and couple hundred retweets. The hashtag JiminYouFakerKeepGoing was also showing up under Jimin’s name as the top searches associated to him in twitter. If you search for that hashtag now you can still see traces of it and people taking screenshots of those comments. Fans quickly responded by reporting these hateful comments towards Jimin to cleanse the comment section and also trended JiminYouNiceKeepGoing hashtag.

Now on Jun 10, 2018 after the mess on twitter, JM posted pictures featuring himself, JK and V with a hashtag that read something along the lines of IToldThemI’mGoingToPostThis in Korean. Now you can interpret it in different ways but if you’re a into Jikook or into shipping then I think you’ll read it like how I’ve read it, if you don’t know what shipping is my advice for you is stay away cause it’ll cause you so much grief, but all the situation will make so much more sense in terms of the events that are happening around Jimin.

Moving onto Jun 21, 2018 ... the last twt from Jimin on Twitter that felt more personal and not because he did it because he had to. The reason i’m saying this is, BTS tends to twt before they fly and before or after they go on stage or do some sort of performance. You’ll see alot of the members will post something. Now Jimin here though he’s the type to post random things other than the formal etiquette posts that everyone does. So he’ll shower us with videos of himself, selcas, picture with members, just really random little things to let the fans see him. But since Jun 21.. we got a twt for cosmetic product (according to older fans he’s never advertise in any of his twts before not to mention whoever posted didn’t know how to tag in twitter), and then we got a flying to Taipei twt and a thank you for attending the concert backstage twt. Etiquette posts... Now this boy ... usually twts every 3 or 4 days sometimes you’ll get multiple twts within a day, and even when they’re super busy he’ll still post something maybe within a two week period. you can go through their twitter by using #Jimin to see the pattern yourself. I remember when i first followed BTS on their twitter, i was like... wow Jimin likes to post so much he should stop posting and lay off on social media a little bit (this was back in December 2017), but now i miss him so much T_______T Please feed us Jimin!!!!!!!

Now, I know that from Jun 21, 2018- to Mid July he has posted on Fan Cafe, so he didn’t really entirely disappear from the fans’ sight. He answered fans’ question one of them was what’s the best BTS song, which Jimin replied Serendipity and another question was which song do you want to sing now the most, Jimin replied House of Cards. He also posted message for the 5th year anniversary for Army but so did everyone else, another etiquette post, I think he also posted something a day after the 5th year anniversary something on the lines of I was too tired and fell asleep and missed the day but happy Army Day. All of these posts can be found on BTS Fancafe translation twitter account. Back onto topic, to see posts from BTS on Fan Cafe you need to create an account, they’re not public like twitter where u can have hassle free access to feel connected to BTS. Also the Fan Cafe is regulated by moderators so any form of harassment posts are banned violation of cafe rules will also result in permanent ban too. Also, this is speculation here, I think the Fan Cafe has lesser I-army presence since to create an account everything appears in Korean, so it’s a lot more work to try to sign up for something, and people will have to go out of their way to make accounts to have access into website. I for one gave up on it, for now, but maybe in the future I’ll try to make an account there if Jimin decides to never return to Twitter and decided to post a lot on Fan Cafe. Ah and we also have to mention how they have different membership level so depending on what level you’re at you have restricted access to contents.. yeah that’s a lot of work for someone who can’t read any Korean at all Q.Q (life long goal: learn Korean so you can have full access to BTS contents)

I mentioned I-army specifically because.. all three death threats aimed at Jimin has been coming from the international side. First death threat was around WINGS Tour, the other two were during LY: Tour announcement. Can’t remember which concert they targeted but all three were planned for concerts in USA. Now you might think why international fans it could be fans from Korea too? Aren’t you being a bit extreme in your assumptions? But here’s my reasoning I could be wrong cause no one ever announced who gave out the threats. But let’s say for WINGS Tour. They went to several countries South America, Japan, USA but only the threat was given out for their location in the states. Same thing for the LY: Tour both death threats were targeted for the states once again. Combined with all the mass shooting news we hear, it doesn’t seem hard reason that it is relatively easier to obtain weaponaries in the US. Since you can have access to it if one of your family member possesses them, also the fact that firearms are legally sold. Maybe they targeted the US Tour due to ease of access to firearms? Also all the hate comment directed at JM on twitter. Most of them speak coherent English and also twt in English. I’ve also looked around at some K-army blog who can speak and post in English it seems to me that Jimin in S.Korea is well received by the public and by the fandom, and fans in general aren’t that toxic towards each other as well, minus those antis. That’s why I think most of the hate and death threats for Jimin actually comes from the International side. If someone has evidence or information that says otherwise please let me know, because I don’t want to misrepresent.

Ah yes, JHope also got a death threat. Someone target him in the Seoul Concert for their LY:Tour. That twt was in English though and later on the person said it was all in jest and prank after they got reported. Honestly what is going through people’s mind these days? Death threat as pranks and jokes?

Now what’s really interesting is his 2nd death threat. I remember the post specifically stated that Jimin is “always in the way and that he’s been around for too long”. Now always in the way of what? In the way of your favorite K-pop group? The western artists? in the way of your life? or the way of your ship? I don’t know if Jimin alone is powerful enough to take down an entire K-Pop idol group on his own, or take over the western music theme, or get into your life if you’ve never come across K-pop in your life. As much as i like Jimin, even I have to admit I don’t think he can be in the way that much. I’ll leave the shipping part to people who knows what’s going on...

Now let’s talk about the Fan cam. I think as a fandom we all know that Jimin, V and Jungkook usually gets a lot of views on their fan cam. Who can you blame they look good and they have a lot of fans who likes them a bit more than the rest of the other members. But here’s the problem. Why are the fan cams for Jimin which has millions of views started to get reported and taken down?

Peach Jelly’s Pied Piper for 4th muster with 40mil views

https://twitter.com/peach_jelly1013/status/1014808921783980032

JamJam Park’s Mic Drop MAMA 2017 Jimin focus

https://twitter.com/parkjamjam_kr/status/1016606951956856843

Pieces of Mind’s Fake Love BBMA Jimin focus

https://twitter.com/stussyjimin/status/999566044678123522

and M2′s Mpd Fake Love 4k Jimin Focus Cam with 29mil views reported to be the highest solo idol fan cam view got views decreased to 24mil on July 13th, 2018. Honorable mention in the same performance, Jungkook got 21mil views which also had some of his views taken away too.

Editted/Update July14, 2018 (PST):

So I checked on the Fake Love fan cam posted by M2, MNet’s official fancam... Jimin’s view dropped down to 22 mil now and JK’s view dropped down to 18 mil. Seriously what is going on? Is this from Youtube’s bot checking alogrithm? or is it purposefully being done by malicioius people?

Now if every other member’s fan cam are met with the same fate, I got nothing to say, but that’s not the story only Jimin’s fan cam are coming across with problem. Why is he getting so much hate? BTW those are big fan cam accounts too. You’re now not only targeting the idol himself but his fan site as well? like wth? Could these be the works from other fandoms? or is it the work from antis within our own fandom? or just antis of Jimin?

Could these be the works of BTS- anti or Jimin only-anti? If it’s BTS anti shouldn’t they focus on the whole group? how come it’s only Jimin who got affected? the M2′s Fake Love view decrease, I can see that could be a mix of various Jimin-hater because it’s uploaded on official broadcast network’s Youtube channel and he overtook another idol’s top spot, but really who would go search for Pied Piper fan cam or other specific performances. Anyway it just baffles me, and honestly if you read all the way til here I think you know what i wanted to say.

Could the fans themselves stop hating on other members just because you like another member more? Idols are humans too and they don’t deserve these hates nor do the fan site masters sharing footage for the rest of the fandom who did not have a chance to see them perform deserve their dedication and hard work to be taken away.

Sometimes I’m happy that people have complained about BH is not trying to push BTS as hard in terms of promo into the West. Because if what i speculate is true and that all of this hate is coming from the International side and all these sabotaging is from the fans themselves. I rather BTS and BH just stay in Korea where they have better protection and control because people don’t deserve them.

That being said I do wish they can become international legends for years to come.. o the dilemma.

And thank you for reading this long post :x I welcome to all exchange of information and opinions btw, since I probably overlooked some things or have missing information.

O I’ll add a keep reading button once Tumblr App is no longer buggy!

#Keeping Tabs #jimin focused #becaues i'm a jimin stan so sue me

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