#ha ha. this is agony.

[vilelittlecritter]

Me: "I don't like people, I prefer being on my own and not talking"

People: "oh okay we'll leave you be then"

Me: "wait no PLEASE COME BACK I WANT LOVE-"

#its not that i dont like people. its just that i have resorted to avoiding people out of habit and a sense that i make things worse #like its not that i DON'T want to message my friend. its just that I cant bring myself to since i usually dont #ha ha ha. god i am desperate to just speak to people but I want to be left alone and im scared of people turning out to be mean #i kinda feel like crying when i see people say how they love their friends and cuddle up with them and have fun #lol one of my old best friends caused me to have awful anxiety about myself because he judged and made fun of ke constantly #oh yeah and that other time after i broke up with a friend because we stupidly decided to try and date and it didnt go well #the bastard asked the person out that night. they said no because they aren't an ass or dumb. god i should have left him when he said that #oh yeah he also made fun of my sunny cosplay i did and then left me alone in the comic con crowd for half an hour #as someone with anxiety that fucked me up just a little #so yeah bad past friendships and terrible social skills have left me to just go lol cant get hurt if i dont have friends! #ha ha. this is agony. #i have like one actaul friend i talk to and she's going through some stuff and wants to be left alone #which is understandable but now I'm talking to absolutely no one #also even if i were to talk to people i just feel i make things worse #i feel like im obnoxious and weird constantly and I'm sobscsred that people are going to think I'm creepy #its not that im doing anything super weird its just that with my autism I can get overly excited and start rambling and not thinking #yet another reason why I've chosen to stop speaking as much #im also just really snappy sometimes #I remember a while ago someone i was kinda friends with asked me if i was okay and i said i was fine #they kept pushing because they were concerned and no ones ever really done that so i kind of panicked and raised my voice at them #i wasn't angry i just never had someone try and actually pry that deep before other than maybe my parents #they seem like a lovely person but i still feel so horrible for doing that to them #sure i apologises later and they understood but i felt like it was one of the most awful things ive done to someone #i hate even the thought of being cruel or mean and all they were trying to do was help and i snapped at them for it #sorry for being ranty but I'm starting to think im really not okay #I've pondered the idea of possibly having deppression but thats a conversation for my counselor #again sorry for sumoing and ill probably delete this soon #if anyone has read all of this im honestly impressed #personal rambles #vent tag

[sandflakedraws]

the song came on my shuffle and would not leave me alone until i penned this i'm so sorry

#this is way too much effort but like. music makes me feel things y'know? #trolls #floyd #branch #john dory #clay #bruce #cannot recommend Comfortably Numb enough as like. THE listless + dizzy song #no other tune has quite nailed the feeling like you're about to pass out at any second #also the human scream of agony in the middle is great too #either way #don't look at me #is he dead? i couldn't decide so thats up to u #long post #undescribed

[ruporas]

the song of humanity will continue to be sung

#vash the stampede #trigun #trigun stampede #he means so much to me he means sooooo much i love him so much asfuahghdsgnkdsgk #VASHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #i posted it on twit but i was REALLY dreading ep 11 bc i figured that vash might cry #but instead he screamt into agony in which i cant even rewatch the episode #bc the va did such a good fucking job in conveying that terror and grief and guilt and it fucks me up so bad #vash makes me sad in EVERY adaption but stampede is like #we've only seen him be kind. he's just nice. he's serious and he's nice and he's kind. he treats everyone with so much delicateness and care #and the only time he raises his voice is for the protection of others and warning them #and now he's rung the wranger and i now have a hammer to knives' side #not even trying to be dramatic its just been awhile since a character has mattered to me in this kind of way #ruporas art

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

His palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #tulu xuanwu #blood #Vomit on his sweater already; mom's spaghetti #I love drawing teenji because he gets to be a lot more expressive than Older Lan Wangji. #wwx is trying so hard to be supportive and it keeps backfiring for lwj. #“There's no way I would ever want you carnally ^_^” meanwhile the guy who wants him carnally is losing his mind in agony. #Hot tip if you keep finding yourself in Lan Zhan's shoes: consider being more obvious. Give up on trying to be subtle with an ADHDer. #His game is SO BAD. Abysmally bad rizz. I do not think it was possible for these to to have a chance to get together in this life. #He has no plan. He has no healthy outlet for his feelings. He is looking at his half naked crush and losing his shot. #F in the chat for Lan Zhan. He's just been accidently rejected and he is about to be accused of being straight. #Meta commentary moment: I am going to try very hard to be more consistent with outfits and details across comics #I have had some...difficulties in the past with forgetting details (COUGH the vermillion mark COUGH) #New year new goals! Wish my ADHD eyes and brain good luck!

[hannibalsloverboy]

eddie definitely has a harder time admitting he’s into jocks than steve has admitting he’s into guys

#steve’s like yeah makes sense maybe i’ll ask out eddie #meanwhile eddie has spent months of agony trying to convince himself he could never like steve #steddie

[elizaisdunn]

stress release

#hermitcraft #mumbo jumbo fanart #mumbo jumbo #he’s yelling!!!! #he’s in agony!!!!!! #he’s miserable!!!!!!! #screenshot redraw #eliza draws #caption has a double meaning bc drawing this was stress release for ME #the shadows on the floor are too purple. oh well

[transsexualjoanofarc]

who up suffering the slings & arrows of outrageous fortune

#me.txt #hamlet #shakespeare #this has been pingpongign aroond my brain fr the past like 15 minutes as i lay in agony listening to molchat doma

[snersona]

its unsettling, to mother nothing

#dc #snersart #cassandra cain #barbara gordon #batgirl #dc oracle #i think about them a lot #the mother daughter duo ever...... #<- has felt nothing but suffering agony at their hands #need a tag just 4 them... #cass and babs tag #art

[viperra1]

tw: blood, suicidal ideation (? probably ? it's Boone we're talking about so. yeah)

so make it one for my baby and one more for the road.

#i love him. he's my blorbo #granted that man has seen so much trauma and did participate in genocidic mission but he's a blorbo still #i think about his responce abt bitter springs where he goes like. no. i would've only needed one bullet to make things right that day #and. well. i'm. uhhhhh. i think about this response a totally normal amount #also little bitter springs easter egg: his hands here are covered in blood. thanks y'all just know that i suffer from this agony as well! #fallout new vegas #craig boone #boone #fnv boone #fallout nv #fonv #my art #fanart #fallout

[benevolenterrancy]

the first of many betrayals (nmj is willing to throw other people to the wolves (his little brother) if it means he's not the one being immediately pestered)

#don't feed the gossipmonger #the agonies of trying to complete paperwork around the nie brothers who both hate paperwork for completely different reasons #nieyao #jin guangyao #jgy #meng yao #nie mingjue #nmj #mdzs #nie huaisang #nhs #nie brothers #the untamed #grandmaster of demonic cultivation #my art #the nightmare that is nmj/jgy has been living in my head rent free for the past few days #this is my method of saying i have strong feelings about jgy as a little spoon without actually needing to draw something as complex as tha

[mayasaura]

wait I have been experiencing dungeon meshi entirely second hand through my dashboard. Are you saying they started eating monsters on the same day their fallen comrade was eaten by a monster. is there. a connection

#dungeon meshi #dungeon meshi spoilers #dm spoilers #i plan to watch/read it very soon it looks like it has all the hits #foodies dungeon crawling the agony of grief and desperation for second chances. high strung lesbians

[midoristeashop]

Mandatory Jamie fnaf moments + Jack doodle

(I saw the fnaf movie and it was very silly!!)

hey babes I realize that I haven’t posted in a hot minute but you can thank my cat I’ve been dissecting for three weeks + dumb sickness <3

I’m feeling better and space is clearing up so get ready for some funk

#jamie bennett #was that the bite of 87 #Jack has never related to a character as hard as Mike Schmidt #THEY LITERALLY HAVE THE THING WITH UNCOVERING LOST MEMORIES OF THEIR SIBLINGS #if u watched the movie u get it #fnaf au when #and then theres hiccup who’s in agony #they snuck in toothless but my wrists said nuh uh #hijack #jackycup #rotg #also ty to everyone for liking + sharing my brushes I want to give everyone one of u a special rock

[qwakque]

wow these funhouse mirrors r so funky!!! ahahaha,,,ha,,

#hahahahaha #haha #ha #augh #orz #reading stuff about playful land and im sooooo o(-( #art block blegh #sketch to maybe help w it #it did not!! but fun idea ig #wahqihaoo #cant wait for the agony #twisted wonderland #twst #disney twisted wonderland #disney twst #kalim al asim #twst fanart #twst kalim #playful land event #leona kingscholar #twst playful land #twisted wonderland fanart

[starheirxero]

A redraw of this post I made a couple months after Bloodmoon had first died lol

Fun fact!! The flowers shown here—Lycoris Radiata, Higabana, Hurricane Lily, Spider Lily, etc etc—are associated with death, grief, painful memories, and sometimes reincarnation! They're my favorites <3

#xero creations #I RLLY RLLY WISH I HAD A SPEEDPAINT FOR THIS DRAWING TOO BUT I MADE A BLUNDER AND JUST. AUGH #i now know to just. trust the CSP timelapse feature and not like. #try to make the 'cool guy speedpaint' and record my screen for over 3 hours n fill up my storage 😭 #ALAS. ALAS!!!! it leaves a deep agony in my soul but OH WELL i'm still wildly proud of this LMAO #sun and moon show #the sun and moon show #tsams #sams bloodmoon #bloodmoon sams #tsams bloodmoon #bloodmoon tsams #fnaf bloodmoon #bloodmoon fnaf #dcamv #< its. technically tsams? but BM has kinda breached containment so i feel like its fair 2 tag it as such ahsjahdj

[shopwitchvamp]

Today's restock is live!

We're back from our break! Come take a look at our first restock set available now, including one @vetiverfox jogger design!!

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#witch vamp #vetiverfox #restock #reopening #we're back! #live now #fashion #clothing #skirts #joggers #skirts with pockets #thanks it has pockets #midi skirt #maxi skirt #petticoats #jester joggers #dark jester #vampire night #spider lily #creepy eyes #emergence #agony #red plaid #blue rose #dark fashion #goth #gothic #goth aesthetic #dark aesthetic #fashion design

[tenisperfection]

7x04 being from Buck's perspective broke my brain because of the way we saw Eddie through Buck's eyes. Then I realized that Suspicion, where Eddie was shot, was from Eddie's perspective, and all of Surviviors was from Buck's perspective and I want to jump into the ocean.

#the implications...... #we saw eddie's turmoil when carla brought up the follow your heart line #his agony over charlie's abuse #then the shooting and watching his best friend splattered with his blood #that split second where he realized who buck was to him and has been all along #the way he wanted to reach out and touch buck one last time #(do not think about eddie thinking about chris under any circumstances but if you do imagine eddie feeling relieved that buck will be there #and sorrow that he won't be there with chris and won't get to see him grow up and won't get to see buck #and then we have survivors right #we immediately jump to buck's perspective with him getting eddie into the ambulance and eddie asking if buck was hurt *sobs* #and the whole episode is mostly buck's side #but so is the will scene!!!! #because we obviously went nuts over the implications of it #but consider the tone of the scene--there's devotion yes #but most of the tone is that of disbelief #because buck can't believe eddie did this and eddie didn't tell him and eddie is telling him now #and eddie wants buck to carry on for christopher if eddie is gone #and buck absolutely would #but in his mind he can't fathom a world where he has to exist without eddie #and eddie is the one asking him to #hahahahah fuck you don't find it son you make it all over again #buck made this and buck chose this and buck has to live with it #i can't wait for these men to realize/bring to light all the love between them #911 abc #this unraveling on a saturday afternoon is brought to you by insanity