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feyascorner · 3 months

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So might have noticed i have read all your fics and I absolutely love them all!

If your open to taking this request for a fic, i would love like 4 times astarion was jealous and 1 time you were! (I dont know if your familiar with the prompt). Tav sleeping with someone before they get together (act 1) he’s catching feelings! After relationship is established: Act 2 Halsin showing his interest (whether its reciprocated is up to you!). Act3 Shar’s caress, the owner talking about Tav’s interest and drow twins!

Finally, Tav being jealous! Astarion fully enjoying it!

Or just anything with jealous astarion i would LIVE for! Love your work either way 😆

a/n. THEYRE SO CUTE IM IN TEARS I LOVE JEALOUS ASTARION/TAV

also this is not proofread unfortunately, and I'm not 100% if i did this right but we rock and roll!!!1

As much as Astarion boasts (and resents) his familiarity with seduction, you're an anomaly he's yet to understand despite his centuries of experience.

Never once in his courtship, even when he'd been alive, had he felt so tested that he was jealous, over someone. Not really, anyway. Sure there were bits of bitter feelings here and there, but most were trivial and about something involved in the relationship, not the person themselves.

He's counted four times since the two of you met, where he had to resort to his better judgment to avoid resorting to pettiness. The first one, was out of necessity--so much so that he didn't even realize what it was at first.

He had watched you snuggle up to Shadowheart of all people, just when he thought he'd finally manipulated enough to have you wrapped around his finger. Instead, he had to hear you laugh as you let the cleric lead you to a nearby lake, making him question if somehow, he'd gotten rusty. Especially when the rival in question was clearly too busy having a religious crisis to properly court you. Sure, you technically didn't belong to him, nor did he belong to you at the time, but he went to sleep feeling oddly irritated. He made sure to flirt with you even more, apparently, the next morning.

The second time, he had accepted the strange feeling in his chest whenever he saw you. And Gods he should have done it earlier. He made sure to show plenty of public affection, kissing your cheek or hand randomly as you and your companions explored the shadow-cursed lands. He got a mouthful from Lae'zel a few times, but he couldn't care less. And just when he believed he'd eliminated any potential rivals, the damned druid suggested that you had feelings for him. Here, he felt that same churning feeling he had weeks ago at camp, and found it was one that he didn't long for. He wouldn't have blamed you if you'd considered it--especially since the two of you stopped being physically intimate after his confession. But he could deny how much he hated this feeling. Pretending he hadn't heard, waited for you to approach him that night. When you reassured him you'd said no, he could breathe again.

The last time was weeks later, at Sharess' Caress, where the two of you were approached by the drow twins. And when he'd confessed he wasn't ready to become intimate again, as much as it scared him, you only smiled at him and nodded. That cursed warmth he felt from such a simple act of kindness would follow him to the end of his days. But he hadn't had enough time to revel in it, because the drow twins assured you only you would be enough, even if he wasn't a part of it. The moment you refused, he was already dragging you out of the room, cursing the twins under his breath.

But for the first time, he thinks you're the one experiencing that dreadful feeling of insecurity.

"Your measurements are perfect for this new selection that just came in! Here, let me just check if the rest would fit."

He'd thought little of the harmless touches of the tailor, but as he notices your expression through the reflection of one of the mirrors, he thinks differently. Your lips are pursed, eyes following the tailor's movements like a hawk as you tighten the arms crossed over your chest. Astarion himself is no stranger to touch, especially to innocent ones like this, but if your body language means anything, the sentiments are not mutual.

The tailor reaches up to measure his arm span, inevitably bring their face a little to close to his neck. He just tilts away, nodding mindlessly at what the tailor is saying, but his attention is fully on you. You're fidgeting, and your anxiousness is impossibly obvious to him, but the more mischievous part of him stops him from doing anything about it. Instead, he revels in it.

"Did you get my inside leg?" he asks the tailor, grinning widely. "I think you might have to redo it. I was leaning a bit."

The tailor agrees though all he sees is a nod of a head and a voice in his ear going right through the other. He observes as your face falls, and just as the tailor crouches down and leans close, you're immediately across the room at record-speed, hand latching over the tailor's wrist.

Astarion barely manages to hold in his laugh. His smile, however, is another story.

"I'll do it," you mumble to the tailor. They look to you and back up to Astarion before seemingly realizing what's going on, nodding.

"Very well."

He never thought you could look even more alluring than he already finds you, but the way your jaw clenches and your brows furrow makes him think otherwise. You lean down and take the measurements as needed, stomping on his foot in the process.

He snorts.

Once the tailor leaves for the stock room, he finds you sighing. "You did that on purpose."

It's not a question. He laughs, and while he could just apologize, he takes your hand in his, tilting your head with the other so you'd look at him. He might even consider the glare you give him as cute.

"Jealous, are you?"

"What do you think?"

"I was starting to think you weren't capable of jealousy."

"Why not?" you say, feeling his thumb rubs the top of your hand. "I've been plenty jealous before."

At this, he raises a brow. "I'd surely remember that."

"When we first met," you recall. "You flirted with practically everyone in camp. Saying you wanted to drink from Wyll, or something like that."

"You must know that I was--"

"I know what it was," you roll your eyes. "Not at the time though, and I thought you'd lost interest in me."

His jaw falls agape. "You're jesting."

"Why do you think I started flirting with other people? I figured you didn't like me as much as I liked you, so I moved on. Tried, at least."

"Is that what your visits to Shadowheart were?"

You scrunch your nose. "Oh Gods, I forgot about that. I'd rather not remember sleeping with one of my closest friends, thanks."

He can't help the grin stretching on his lips, and you notice, feeling yourself smile with him. "You're enjoying this far too much, Astarion."

"Please, tell me the next time you're jealous, so I'll know to keep an eye on you."

"Don't ask such ridiculous things," you retort, feigning annoyance before lifting his palm to your cheek and pressing a kiss to it. He swears his undead heart might've felt it. And just like that, the tailor returns, and you drop your intertwined hands, and he sees you shoot him a warning glare.

Acknowledging he's had enough fun teasing you today, he shrugs, and when the tailor begins showing him an array of outfits, he's not listening. Instead, he toys with the ring behind his back, making sure to commit your expression to his memory.

#baldur's gate 3 #astarion ancunin #baldur's gate astarion #bg3 astarion #astarion x tav #astarion x reader #astarion #bg3 x reader #fluff #bg3

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austinsastrology8991 · 11 months

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> Neptune IN the HOUSES < How your DELUSIONS find you RESOLUTIONS

Neptune in the First - You act so naive, and now people actually think your naive. But you hate it when people treat you this way, but your always swaying around and acting oblivious to everything around you, but ik its all a front, and people find you to be mystical and now everyone is entranced by this dance you make acting oblivious. its obvious its an act, but then the more you get to know them you realize its not and thats actually who they are, and you wonder why no one has bonked them on the head yet Neptune in the Second - you dont really value anything, you think everything comes and goes, and your just like a paper bag flowing through the wind tbh. But this quality of letting things be and go, allows you to be molded by life and that can be a useful tool for artisty, but man yall just give up easy tbh. also your voices are like ethereal - kiddd cudiiiiiieee Neptune in the Third - you guys talk like a movie character, and its never the villain but the naive protagonist who just believes in a bunch of bullshit. but everyone thinks your so amusing to lissten to and i suppose you are but sometimes you guys really are playing up this movie trope and well im done watching the same movie i want a re-cast. then next week you will re-cast yourself as a new protagonist and well everyone just loves to watch you be an idiot so keep it up Neptune in the Fourth - Your literally 'good will huntings robin Williams'. you act like you figured out emotions because you let them come and go, but when someone questions whats going on with you, you find a million reasons to explain why you behave this way, and why others do, whilst completely avoiding letting your emotions out because your way too sensitive youd rather keep it at them at a distance that way you can handle it Neptune in the Fifth - You guys are the embodiment of a amusement park. YOu perform a million different acts, and never run out of ideas on how to entertain. Very amusing to watch, but people tend to take you for granted since your always so fun to be around we just expect yalll to keep performing, and you can, but this eats you up inside. then you perform again showing us how you feel as usual, and how it feels being used, and well i guess its all good because you have a never ending source of material - yourselves

Neptune in the Sixth - IMO the real mvps of delusions. No one is as delusional as them but they dont even care because they have thought of so much bullshit and have found so much evidence for their bullshit that they now realized that what most people believe in is bullshit, so they just think everything is bullshit. They dont even give a fuck anymore because to them everything isnt real, and everything is real, they have trouble understanding reality, because they have seen things no one could ever believe exists Neptune in the Seventh - Hopelessly projecting what they want in the world just for it to never come to fruition. This is actually how they pull, so dont hate their game. but they tell people how they wish things would be, and people want to save them by showing them how the world works, or giving into their stupid delusions and pretending what they believe in is real. Kinda a lot to deal with. But they'll never admit that they act so innocent but then your basically taking care of a baby Neptune in the Eighth - They make the universe bend to their will whether it wants to or not. They will pull every magic trick they know to make sure that their delusions are not delusional anymore. And its impressive how much they believe in there imaginings that it does tend to become real, but i would warn them and whoever is around them; That their fantasies tend towards the dark. so if they want something to be real (and they gonna do everything they can to get it) they may or may not resort to black magic or some shady ass shit Neptune in the Ninth - They believe in god a lot, maybe too much to appear normal. They are the type to make up a cult and behave liek mormons and say it was the will of god. The people ive met with this are strange, and their beliefs alter quite a bit, and for some reason they always have met deities and angels. But they are so delusional in their beleifs that if you hear them out, its so far fetched youll get lost in them because your so curious how someone got so lost in their own religion you wonder if they'll ever return to the real world Neptune in the Tenth - They are openly strange. Bro dennis Rodman has this conj his midheaven and its just iconic really. These guys are the strangest most ethereal beings and everyone gets lost in their cult of personality. Always switching up their identity, they think reality is bullshit and well we are all here for it because yall do the strangest things and i just wanna watch what your gonnna do next. but im still trynna figure out how close i wanna get to you because being seen with you is a risk for my reputation, because you clearly dont give a fuck about yours Neptune in the Eleventh - How many acid shirts do you own. Its like your the public personification of 'make love not war and peace bro' and its cool everyone wants a freidn like you, but no one takes your advice seriously. Because your so lost in the make believe that you think your make believe can actually make someone make believe..... But like cmon how the fuck do you think thats going to change anything. WHen has 'peace bro' ever actually worked. do your charities or whatever but i do not see it working as much as you think it can. sorry not sorry. But i do love you. But get a haircut Neptune in the Twelvth - Your literally the type to lick your finger , put it up in the air and say 'yep it going to rain wednesday' then it actually rains wednesday. And your so cooked no one believes you (because why would you) but then it does happen and now eveyrone thinks your even more cooked because what you had cookin is a real recipe. Now everyone wants to know how you have your third eye or whatever open and now you just want to hide again lmao. Also incredible artists, i recommend you guys keep your intuitive insights to yourself because you are right a lot but why tell people when everyone is just going to question how you see signs rather than heed your advice

#astrology #astrology blog #astro community #astrology observations #astrology notes #house placements #neptune in houses #astrology houses #astrology placements

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parkhumans · 4 months

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HI WELCOME TO PARKHUMANS

I'm KAZ (he/him) and i'm an artist cartoonist etc etc you know the drill.

ever since i was a kid i had a massive special interest in theme park history and for whatever reason that's been really present in my life as of late. so i created parkhumans, which as you could probably gather is a project where i humanize a ton of rides, attractions, hotels and the like out of a passion for them and their history. i tend to include a lot of anthro elements in my designs too, so the term 'human' is pretty nebulous. more elaboration on what these are will come later down here

ive actually had this project going for a while, i just havent posted much about it here because i just couldnt find the time to. woopssss

some other things i feel are important to know

i dont just exclusively humanize disney parks/attractions. my theme park special interest is very general and encompasses multiple parks not just those

i hate disney as a company and i am sure to make that explicitly clear. when i praise their theme parks, none of that praise is directed towards disney as an enterprise, it's towards the people who are behind the engineering and art of the resorts. again it bears repeating that i am very vocal about the fact that i Do Not support disney as a company. im extremely critical of them. im just a big proponent of preserving the hard work that goes into these resorts and i think that work deserves to be highlighted, and im glad i can convey the history behind these attractions with my art

do not conflate the parkhumans project with c0untryhumans or anything of the same vein. they are not remotely comparable. c0untryhumans is pretty inherently bigoted just as a concept. i don't like the prospect of being conflated with that as with the parkhumans project is something i create with as much tact in mind. i purposefully go out of my way to avoid depicting things that are offensive or in poor taste in this project.

tangentially related to that last point, there are certain attractions i refuse to make designs for. generally this includes rides that have had tragedies occur directly on them that are inseparable from their histories (such as america sings), rides that have origins in inherently bigoted sources (this is why i wont ever do splash mountain) or have bigoted things within them, and, this one is more of a case by case basis, but i tend to stray away from heavily ip-focused attractions. what i mean by this is that you won't see me making characters based off star wars or marvel rides. this is more out of a personal place, as i simply just dont enjoy doing it. i feel like certain companies have gotten too comfortable just relying on their ips and its something im very loud about being disappointed in. i prefer to focus my time on the attractions i like, not ones that are just popular. of course that last one has a ton of exemptions so you cant expect me to 100% uphold it, but just keep in mind that i dont really pay mind to the attractions i feel are kind of corporate and shoehorned in. if you want more elaboration on my stance on this, here's a twt thread i made regarding it

normally i dont take requests for designs unless i ask for them myself. again, i like to do my own thing most of the time

i dont consider this to be a big collaborative thing, but that doesnt mean i wont let people make their own spins on this idea. i have my own vision in mind for this thing but im totally open to the idea of people making their own fanchars and stuff!

& some other things

here is a big doc i made explaining what parkhumans are in case you're wondering about the specifics of how they operate

also heres the toyhouse page

that should be it 👍 ok cya

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yveaart · 1 year

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i knew you were trouble

jungwon x reader

genre : fluff, enemies to lovers (kind of), jungwon bad boy typa guy, fluff, college au.

synopsis : you knew who he was, yet you still allowed yourself to be drifted right onto him by his charisma, but he felt so much more.

warnings : possible chance of reader throwing their phones😁...

it was yet another day, walking around the campus just right before your first lecture. sitting on the bench nearby mainly because the the campus is huge and you had to walk everywhere.

and there he was, yang jungwon. he was barely early so it was slightly surprising, he was going to school early these days.

he had a huge reputation, he wasn't just popular for his looks and his sports activities. but he was also favored by professors for his intellect and family status. and as to local girl information he had a lot of pst relationship.

it will either be the girl got really obsessed with him or he got a small crush, at least he wasn't heartless at all. but you knew more, you knew he was trouble.

you shouldn't be starting to develop feelings. so the best thing to resort is to walk away and ignore. like you are right now, avoiding his presence.

you wouldn't know but at that moment he stared at your figure walk away. class started soon as you sat on the third row.

and there he was yet again entering the room scanning the room as he always do, the other girls gushing, the others not really caring, and you rather look like the last one.

you sat silently starting to resume the book you were reading, the seat next to you shifted— you were fucked.

you ignored everything that could relate to him, it was hard especially when he was beside you, every pen drop, fake coughs and chair shiftings.

and alas after an hour you survived. not until you went out and had an embarrassing length of eye contact with him.

you just scoffed and walked away. this was not the way to go.

you attended your classes for the rest of the morning, and finally sprinting to the park benches where you and your best friends always had lunch.

"oh my fucking god, its like he's everywhere, and it makes me think he's following me but his face actually pops out from nowhere and its making me DELUSIONAL!" you screamed at your friend as you dropped your bag beside the leg of the table.

"mygod slow down.." nayeon muttered with her mouth full.

"make a move already im bored" yuna said stabbing the sushi and eating it.

"its not that easy" you whined lying your head on the table. "are you even aware of who we are talking about? the yang jungwon, a womanizer"

"then why do you like him if you knew that he got with a lot of people" nayeon said scrolling through her phone now.

"this is not helping" you cried opening the lunch box your friends bought you.

it got even worse when he indeed was about to pass through your table, he never goes here, what's the reason now?

you continued to eat keeping your cool, there was no way he would go there to your table.... your luck has ran out.

"hey do you guys have notes for biology that i could borrow?" he asked, you could feel his figure looming above you.

"uhm i think y/n has some, me and yuna doesn't attend biology" nayeon replied. you looked up seeing him facing you.

"i dont take notes" you said a little too blunt.

"oh." it took him a few seconds until he walked away.

"what was that for? are you DUMB??" yuna exclaimed. it was indeed strange to just turn down someone like that quite harsh.

"i'm practicing self control" thanking yourself in the process of hopelessly falling into a pit of emotions towards him.

"guys theres a party in jay's penthouse tomorrow night, we should go" nayeon suggested.

"it's friday why not" you shrugged. packing up to leave for your afternoon classes.

friday.

you once again walked through the halls with tall pillars, people scurrying to study for their finals, but one unnatural sight was held right in front of the campus.

jungwon's group themselves handing out papers to girls. you wanted to know what it was, probably a school event?

you finally walked close enough to them sneaking at the bold letters which said "the official girlfriend application" and you wouldn't miss the litte text below it "for lee heeseung"

it was for the oldest member of the group, now you see the pattern of people they're handing it out too, for seniors but who looks like would fit him, they were also hand out to some lower levels but that was mostly it.

you were about to pass not wanting to miss your class until a sheet of paper was closely shoved to your face stopping you from getting away.

an arm holding "it" out to your face, it was jake sim's, holding it out to you with a smile.

you were actually considering of taking it, but you were seconds too late to react, when you faced jake he was beside jungwon who quickly took it from his hands.

"hey man what was that for" his accent strongly used. you were quick to get of the trance hurrying to your class' door.

all you could think of whole day long was getting out somewhere and have a environmental reset, you needed a change of place— environment, it would be therapeutic and will recharge your social battery and your energy.

when dismissal was granted you were quickly out the door rushing to your dorm, needing a long long nap.

as you did it went from 5 pm to 7 in a matter of your blackout. not to mention how you are violently shook by your friend/ roommate who will soon end up six feet under when you figure out this unacceptable ptable disturbance to your precious sleep.

"what?" you said as your other eye still closed being tubbed by your hand for the adjustment of light.

"THE PARTY??" yuna stated with a "duh?" voice.

"oh right. that was today..." you said trailing off thinking wether you should give in to sleep or socialize.

"HEY??" yuna exclaimed.

"fine give me 10 minutes" and as short of a period of time that sounds.... you really did not finish in it. took you at least 20 more minutes to pick an outfit.

you took a cab easily reaching a tall building. you went in the elevator took you to the highest floor.

you opened the door easily welcomed with a big interior and a shit-ton of people. as you gaze through out the place you had two thoughts that came in mind; a. date jay , b. rob him. and there was a very thin line between those two.

you sat at the kitchen counter tapping your fingers upon the marble sucking a breath realizing your friend won't be reuniting with you anytime soon.

you stood up and opened the glossy noir fridge, taking one of the sodas as you sat down on your previous seat.

"not a fan of party punches huh?" a voice approached you. looking over it was heeseung smiling. he sat down settling beside you.

"i dont really know what's in it so i cant trust it" you chuckled answering him.

"well for some people it's exciting" he chuckled, silence slowly filling in, you had company.

"so do you want to dance with me?" he smiled at you, he was very charming, but you could notice that he was hiding his timidness and with alcohol courage.

but that wasn't the point... should you go dance with him?

"i-" you were cut off by a person shoving a cup into the table between you and heeseung.

"would you like to go and dance with me?" jungwon asked.

confusion struck over you, you felt the need to go. something deep within you sparked acknowledging how he asked you, was he jealous?

"uhm i think i have to go find my friends first" you chuckled in a troubled note.

you stood off your chair, it was moments like this that makes you want to stay and give in. you were so dazed lost on how he charms you.

—

after 15 minutes and 9 laps all around the penthouse your friends weren't in sight. you sighed deciding that you should just go home.

you took your coat and purse exciting the chaos of the wild crowd. walking out you finally had a whiff of clean air thats not polluted with sweat and alcohol.

you headed to the elevator while looking for your phone on your purse, a light click was heard. you dropped the keys for your dorm.

you picked it up noticing a pair of feet displayed in front of you. you looked up and once again as if fate laced you two together, he stood in front of you.

"d-did i say something wrong?" he said, he looked upset.

"what?" you asked confused.

"well, for one you walked out on me when i asked you for a dance"

"oh, i really just had to find my friends you know?" you said trying to make the mood light.

"no, i don't know , i'm not the most patient person... so why are you turning down my every move on you?" he said confused.

"you-?"

"i like you, i know i don't have the best dating history, but i've stopped for these past few months because—" he said pausing.

"i know the type of person you are and i wanna change for you.." he stated.

you stood up shocked. you opened your mouth forcing out something but all that left was air, soon closing your mouth you were speechless.

"do you perhaps don't like me? do you hate me?" he questioned with a hurt look.

it takes more than words.

you leaped over to his figure securing your arms around his neck kissing him. he was frozen, soon giggling into the kiss as he reciprocated the affection.

he placed his arms on your waist dragging your figure to the door opposite of the huge party, not accepting a second of relief in accepting air.

he quickly placed your back softly on the wall as he shifts his lips to kiss you better, wishing you would both collide.

you place your hand on his chest finally breathing heavily.

your eyes met as you both broke into small giggles, adoration.

"i belong with you" he proudly said.

— end —

after weeks of procrastinating to finish this i have finally posted it😭 requests and asks now open !

#enhypen imagines #enhypen oneshots #enhypen #kim sunoo imagines #lee heeseung oneshot #nishimura riki imagines #park jongseong imagines #park sunghoon imagines #sim jake imagines #yang jungwon #lee heeseung imagines #yang jungwon imagines #yang jungwon x reader

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crushedsweets · 20 days

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Hey I always wondered how far would the proxies go? Would they torture somebody? Would they hurt children or eachother?

HIII ok so so the proxies work is mostly about the paranormal. if people are messing it, then the proxies get involved. they AVOID killing, and usually resort to stalking, harassment, threats, and theft.... but they all have their own moral codes.

WHEN THEY ARE NOT UNDER O/S INFLUENCE:

Tim and Brian might beat a grown man for info, but they wouldnt traditionally torture anyone. if they kill someone, they want to do quick and painless. they dont hurt kids and avoid hurting women

Early on, Toby will torture adults for info and kill anyone regardless of age. power is power. BUT eventually, he feels sick knowing he's hurting kids and young women (esp if they resemble lyra..) and adjusts his whole moral code

Kate gets into fights and chases campers, but she doesn't like to kill people. she blocks out what Chaser!Kate does.

WHEN THEY ARE UNDER O/S INFLUENCE:

masky, hoody, and toby would traditionally torture any adult for info. kidnap people, hold ransoms, whatever. they'll get tim and brian into messes... and they would kill kids if necessary, but its usually not.

chaser!kate doesn't intentionally torture people, but she is the most vicious. she doesnt see anything other than a target and will rip anyone to shreds. she's not sadistic, just... has an agenda

and yeah they all hurt eachother LMFAOOOO chaser!kates attacked the others the most, but Slendy gives her skull shattering migraines to stop. toby and tim/brian get into physical fights all the time, too...

#asks #creeped #proxies

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paragonrobits · 27 days

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hmm villain concept meant to play on a common element in fandom discourse that bothers me a lot; the lionization of ruthlessness

it really bothers me a whole bunch when you get this glamorizing of ruthlessness; the idea that what you want is the only thing that matters and any end to achieve it is acceptable. To some degree it also infects political discourse. You see a LOT of people with this kind of callous attitude where they go 'kill everyone i don't like, that'll solve anything' and get downright hostile at any kind of... discussion that this kind of attitude might be a bad thing, or at least counter productive. Its the same kind of thing where you get fandom talk that boils down to 'superheroes should just kill all their villains' or 'if you dont want a protagonist to instantly murder all their enemies except for the Good Ones, you're a coward and probably a fascist supporter'

same thing with steven universe haters who really despise a loving protagonist who doesn't want to see people get hurt, or in general, heroes that dont want to kill people if they can avoid it. is the whole 'aang should have killed Ozai' crowd, so this character would be meant at sort of dissecting that attitude

so I'm thinking that this character, meant as an antagonist opposed to the protagonists due to incompatible goals or desiring the same resources and plot impetus, at one point was a warrior striving on behalf of their people; much as the kind of people I referred to write as though the only thing that matters is what you want, and killing everyone in your way will work out just fine, had an increasing escalation of thier activities until they gradually became a bloody minded dictator, gaining victory at the cost of eroding their capacity to care

doing that sort of thing makes it easier to do it again, and do it harder. more importantly it also makes it harder to NOT resort to it as soon as its convenient. once you've gotten a position through bloodshed, its likely that you lose patience with dealing with former allies; now you have competiting factions and feuds within your group, so much talking and arguing and factionalizing and it used to be so much easier...

so they do what always works for them. They got rid of it. Its hard to put down a weapon you're used to, and after killing their enemies, now they kill their political opponents, becoming a brutal tyrant.

This, however, backfires; in the setting there is a spiritual element to all things, and they get the attention of a spirit of retribution whom is displeased at their escalating actions, and it allows an invasion of fiendish entities, viewing the bloodshed as an acceptable reprisal. (The spirit is indifferent to the morality involved, it should be said.)

It causes a massive disaster, and so this warlord is left one of the few survivors of an enclave of humans, with blood on their hands and not much else. They've learned from the experience, but are still deeply bitter and having a hard time truly accepting (though they intellectually understand it now) that absolute ruthlessness doesn't do much in making things grow.

Currently thinking of this character being explicitly human in a setting where humans are just one of many creatures (and possibly being a subtle human supremacist, but chiefly concerned with long term survival of their people that believes all other beings are simply threats, and resents that the multi-species faction of the protagonists is a walking contradiction of their wariness), leading a faction of mass produced and simple-minded boisterous clones made to die young as expendable soldiers. If the protagonists have a theme of liberation and growth (from programming, from biological limitations, from apparently powerlessness), then this character is chained, and they know it. Chained by grief, chained by bitter resentment, chained by the knowing that everything they built is in flames because they just couldn't stop hurting others, or accept that they were never in control...

Consequently they would probably work best as a mid-level antagonist; not someone who ultimately pulls the strings (since that might be better reserved for truly evil characters, because the less I have to characterize them the less it compromises their malice), but as a commander or leader of the immediate antagonist team. Probably superpowered themselves, since in the settings I go that goes without saying. If they are powered by the respect and loyalty of their followers, this might also feed into their personal issues; they used to be far stronger, and they can FEEL how much weaker they are, because so much of the people who once followed them are gone and the weakness they feel is a reminder of what they've done.

#ideas #OC ideas #character ideas #queued

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loaffofbred · 9 months

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Hmm.. interesting (qsmp rambles)

Note: All roleplay/characters

So much has happened lately in one day! Apparently Bad has to do a survey for the fed, Cellbit has done the final code/enigma, Forever's plan to leave the island, Pac&Mike's plan against Foolish, and Roier found a book that Foolish possibly wrote with a gun in the grandma room of Cellbit's castle.

I find all of them interesting, but since im massively biased, i wanna focus on Foolish's and Bad's since im super curious with what's been happening to them. The questions seem like they plan to do something to change themselves, maybe they'll make actual changes? It'll be interesting if they actually listen to the suggestions and answers of the different members. Bad used the reward in order to ask the possible entities the federation has created, which is pretty smart since itll answer several of the questions we have, including the code, the eggs, and the island overall. It's interesting that the federation is rewarding or making transactions with this, I guess its self aware of everyone's distrust. If they ever do answer the question honestly, i feel like they'll be just as vague, but at least they're giving answers unlike the past months lmao

About Foolish's book and gun in Cellbit's castle, the thing is, theres at least 2 possibilities:

Richas was the one that put it, including the gun! Since he has a gun himself and may know some spanish, and is there to simply hide it for fun or for others to also possibly get it.

Foolish hid it, changed the contents of the book ( since the book wasn't with codes nor written in spanish before ) because he wanted to give a gun for fun! This is indicated further based on Foolish's (supposed to be qsmp) recent stream with the emoji as Grandma and his statements about his guns to Forever, saying he already has possible plans behind it. This means he did this offstream ;)

It's definitely leaning more towards Foolish, especially the overall mannerisms of the book, with the middle finger at the end of the page and random codes. But i wonder why he would do it in general, most likely for fun since its not like many ppl have any ammo for the gun. Yet I cant help but feel like its such a weird move, especially now that many people suspect him to be working for the federation! But this does establish that he would never be fully with the feds, which are definitely against spreading around guns lmaoo

I'm not super informed about Pac&Mike's possible plan, but from what I know they may use Rey(Phoenix) as a hostage, possibly do something to Foolish's dragon (Keep in mind they will be avoiding hurting Leo here), or kill him after an interrogation;

Killing him off wont be too incriminating, maybe except the badge but thats it really it

Interrogating him may be useful as long as they don't go in circles like the previous interrogations, its best to listen but also dont expect a direct answer from him. Imo its best to keep it casual, but if they don't have the patience, then go off

Rey as a hostage - Maybe possibly can work since he can be very attached to animals, i.e Mr. Mustard, but it depends highly if he feels actually threatened.

Destruction of Foolish's Dragon - Easier but more riskier to execute, probably should be the last resort!

If theres one thing i would recommend when it comes to trying to get through to Foolish, Bad probably knows more tactics since he knows Foolish very well. I know the trap/revenge will be done tomorrow but I feel like they could've benefited from taking advice from Bad at some point. Not sure if this is confirmed but if Foolish does stream tomorrow I wonder how he'll react to Pac&Mike's experiences. Since his moral compass is nowhere near similar to theres, I think they may misunderstand his intentions based solely off of his not so straight morals. If Mike ever does do revenge, from what I know of Foolish, he would never clap back at Mike (unless if it involves Leo and his family). Foolish is pretty chill and tries not to maintain any grudges, so if he was killed off, I think he would understand. In the end though, I do hope they come to an understanding! Foolish definitely still has to lie just because of his job lmao buttt, I think they can still come to an understanding without all the info he has.

anyways thats all folks, carry on!

#qsmp #qsmp badboyhalo #qsmp foolish #qsmp pac #qsmp mike #qsmp cellbit #qsmp forever #qsmp roier #qsmp theory?#rambleeeesss

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wiihtigo · 2 months

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8 9 17 with casey please itd be so funny

ask game

8. answered ^_^

9. If your character could have handed their role in the plot to someone else, would they have?

let someone else try to kill booster gold and get arrested for it..? hmm........WELL THE IDEA OF SOMEONE TAKING THE FALL FOR HER IS APPEALING BUT I DONT KNOW...what else would she do? doing nothing isnt an option....shes too angry to let things slide with her taking no action.....i dont think she would swap if given the chance. HE NEEDS TO KNOW WHAT HE DID WAS FUCKED UP AND HURT MY FEELINGS!!!!!!!!! ..<- her thought process there. she doesnt particularly care how others perceive her, she doesnt care that people are like murder isnt cool casey, her main problem here is letting someone thats not her wring his stupid neck for the specific reason of you were a bad boss

17. Is your character holding any grudges? Are they likely to stop?

yes. against booster gold. SHES NEVER GOING TO LET THAT GO..EVER

in the kindest timeline (new york ending), she will have to see him a smidgen more frequently bcuz much to her dismay, the carter kords dont scatter at the sight of her (although its more michelle and ted coming over) (and ted lowkey trying to avoid whenever caseys home) but she still has to look at his ugly mug on holiday cards ted sends to nell which makes her scowl still. but shes behaving. theres no risk of her trying to jump him again anymore (she probably thinks about it though)

...in the worst but also canon timeline she'll hold a horrible nasty violent grudge against the entire family. shes mad at booster all over again, she hates rip, she doesnt speak to michelle anymore but especially she HATESS ted. If anyone was unaware our dear sweet ladybug eventually steps on a landmine and fckn explodes as the canon end to her story (so says marty. i fought for her. i was toddler coughed on.) so the reason for her hatred for ted is that she thinks that he, as her former mentor, and one of nells closest friends, and also someone who LIVES IN A BUILDING WITH A TIME SPHERE shouldve ... DONE SOMETHING ABOUT THIS? Shes unaware that ted and Ripley actually had a nasty fight abt this exact thing but from her pov he just didnt even try to go back and save her. she holds this grudge forever but does nothing to act on it because she moves cities and never talks to anyone she knew again. I guess thats a good thing. She is known to resort to violence when thrown into the depths of hopelessness

#asks

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throughout my journey on growing as a person somehow the only thing i still havent managed to resolve or find the deepest true cause for is my insecurity regarding my intelligence. every single evidence from outside authorities is screaming in praise and approval of my level of knowledge yet i am filled with such anxiety. i dont know how to not let my high standards lower my self-confidence. i think its good that i do have high standards too in a way but not the anxious perfectionism that comes with it. ive thought maybe im unsure about my competence because i feel like i dont belong. in university since ive had an unconventional route, i sort of lack like a group of coursemates (ive changed universities and now im in like an exchange programme so i havent had and dont have the same curriculum as anyone). so i dont know what i should know and what i shouldnt. like what prior knowledge others have. i dont know where i place in the context. i dont know what is stupid to bring up and what isnt. google also told me that maybe its like the dunning-kruger effect where the more you know the more you become painfully aware of how little you know. i guess thats true. i also in general am like programmed to seek for irregularities (i study philosophy and have a background of doing a lot of things requiring close analysis and pattern recognition) so maybe thats why i only see whats wrong in my work or opinions even if that actually forms a small portion regarding the whole. usually my professors dont even pick up on those things i think are massive logical fallacies and am afraid will fail. i literally only get praise and they are so so so credible too, its not that i get approval from people who dont know any better. i dont know. i have all these explanations in my head but not one of those hits the nail on the head. ive gathered that what relieves my anxiety regarding.. well anything.. is just acknowledgeing it. like cracking the code as to whats the underlying deeper cause that projects itself in this belief, insecurity. but i cant seem to ever get it. i wonder is this too small of a problem to go to a psychologist. right now its not too bad but i actually get like weird intense uncontrollable nervous anxiety twitches and breakdowns from the pure thought of how little i know and what others think of me. im most afraid that they think that i think im smart when in reality im so painfully aware that im speaking on matters i feel i dont have proper knowledge of (yet i must because its an assignment). though i think its pretty apparent that im insecure, at least during presentations or speaking in seminars because of the way i speak (hesitantly). i know that to wait until i truly know sth before i speak is a lost cause. you cant ever fully know anything. and its like. so what if im wrong. nothing happens if im wrong but im so terrified of it. i guess ive tied my intelligence to my identity quite a bit but i dont know if that is it either. i guess you could say i should care less abt what other ppl think but in other areas im so confident and sure of myself i dont know why this is manifest only here. i know im actually quite capable at least compared to some people and there are periods where i do get my feedback on an essay or task and i feel really sure of myself but its a very very small slice of the time. i know comparison isnt proper but its also so necessary and inevitable in my field of study, i cant seem to avoid it. ive genuinely resorted to paying a lot of attention to my looks and makeup that makes me look cute and kind in order to hopefully cause the halo effect that when im silent or say something stupid i get the benefit of the doubt.......... its stupid. but im that afraid :/ of coming across narrow-minded.

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samantha-and-her-chaotic-desires · 7 months

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Okay, so, like I said, I've taken inspiration from various sources and just kinda mashed it together into its own thing.

No, they don't sparkle. Putting that up front, they dont. I don't know why Twilight did that, but no.

Vampires are very rare in this au. To put it in perspective, if you were to somehow successfully round up all the vampires living in a single US state, you'd maybe have two or three vampires. MAYBE five, depending on the state, and even that's uncommon.

Of the small number of vampires to exist, maybe 0.5% of them would be born vampires. Almost 99.9% of the time, if you do meet a vampire, they're going to be a bitten vampire (ei someone turned into a vampire)

Bitten vampires are mostly the only ones that turn people into vampires. Born vampires rarely do because they tend to view bitten vampires as lesser or insignificant to them due to them not having pure vampire bloodlines.

Turning someone into a vampire is INCREDIBLY dangerous and painful due to the process. A vampire can't simply bite someone to turn them into another vampire. They need to drain their victim of nearly all their blood, only leaving a small amount. The vampires saliva them bonds with the remaining red blood cell's, multiplying within the victim to turn them into a vampire. Part of the reason this is so dangerous is because Vampires instinctually want to drink all their victims' blood, so they actively have to fight against themselves in order to leave enough blood for the transformation to take place. They also have to judge how much blood their leaving. Too much, and the white blood cells might attack the vampire saliva, preventing the transformation and killing the host. Too little, and the victim dies of blood loss before the transformation can even begin.

Even if the transformation begins, the vampire still has to look after their victim, not only to ensure their weakened body doesn't get an infection or die of other causes, but also to teach them how to hunt and survive. If the vampire chooses to leave, the victims' chances of survival are very slim unless another vampire steps in, or victim end up being incredibly luck and survives despite the odds (this is what happens in Wicks case)

Vampires tend to drink blood every day/every other day, but they can only last without blood for about a week. After which, the hunger gets too intense, and they go into what's known as blood lust. However, this can temporarily be avoided by numbing the hunger, which can be done by consuming alcohol or taking drugs of some kind.

Blood lust is what occurs when a vampire goes too long without consuming blood. Their vamperic urges get so desperate to satiate their need for blood that they essentially take over, sending the host into a state of animalistic hunger. During a case of blood lust, a vampire becomes extremely violent and unpredictable, often chasing after the first scent of blood they catch. Unlike normal feeding, where they'll simply bite into the aorta and suck the blood out, a vampire taken over by blood lust will instead resort to ripping and tearing at their preys neck, often gouging out chunks in a desperate attempt to get to the blood as fast as possible. After the blood lust wears off, the vampire often remembers nothing of the incident.

Typically, if a vampire goes into blood lust once, the chances of them going into it again are very likely if they don't feed regularly.

Vampires only have a very limited amount of time to consume blood after their prey dies, usually only an hour or so. If they consume it after this time, there is a likely change it will make them suck. Because of this, most vampires prefer to drink immediately after the prey is dead, some even drinking while the prey is still alive.

Vampires can drink both the blood of animals and the blood of people. Most prefer the taste of people blood, but it's very common for vampires to instead consume animal blood to avoid having to harm others.

Although vampires are mostly solitary, they do tend to create very deep emotional bonds, both with other vampires and people. They heavily rely on these bonds for emotional comfort and companionship. Though it is not often seen, it's suspected that a deep enough bond with someone can help bring a vampire out of blood lust or even help to delay the effects of it. These bonds are often romantic but can also be platonic or familial.

Vampires are fanominal at hiding. They are able to blend in perfectly with society to the point that those around them will often go their entire lives without knowing someone close to them is a vampire.

Vampires are not immortal. They have much longer life expectancies than non-vampires, but do not live forever.

Vampires can be killed by regular means, such as being shot or stabbed. However, they are able to heal themselves incredibly quickly due to the contents of their blood. It only takes around 24 hours for them to fully heal from multiple stab or bullet wounds, though this can vary depending on the location of the injury.

I think that's all I have for now? I might come up with more as I write.

Genuinely love the fact this created concept was to contradict the normal vampire ideas. Them not being immortal, not sparkling, and being a tiny part of the population is a nice change of pace. I also like them blending in with their environment, as well as the idea of blood lust.

Anon. You are such a blessing. I love this so much. Scarfing this AU down sdfbgvnvsdfbn

#Lackadaisy Vampire AU - by Anon #lackadaisy #lackadaisy au #ask #answered ask #thanks for the ask! <3 #I have been blessed #I love yall

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7?? 💓

7. Any media/fandom you will avoid at all costs?

personally speaking i make a point of avoiding n.eil g.aiman and anything related to him. i know there are legitimate criticisms against him which i cant remember atm (bad memory day </3) but my dislike for him goes back longer than people have made posts about it. it all started when i was reading this anthology of short horror fiction and i understand that the thing about anthologies is that due to the variety there are bound to be some authors and/or selections i won't like for whatever reason and that's just part of the process. HOWEVER. at that point i had never read one of his works before but i'd heard a lot about him. so i read the selection and it sucked. i don't remember what it was about but i do remember it was a challenge to slog through and i was grateful for when it was over. i was disappointed because even then he'd been hyped up and maybe this was just a bad selection of his work but in any case it did not make a good impression on me and i moved on. flash forward to at least a few years later and i'm reading a different anthology. "horror of the decade" ed. by ellen datlow, something i never finished which requires its own post but to sum up some of her selections DEFINITELY should not have been hailed "best of the decade." they shouldn't have been selected as good horror at all if in my opinion. but anyway g.aiman was on the bookjacket and i was like *sigh* okay well im not really looking forward to it but i guess i'll give it a shot especially since it was one of the shorter entries. and then i read it and it fucking sucked. it was ass. it was some stupid story about sailors lost at sea who resorted to cannibalism or something and i wanted to like it but i just couldn't get behind his writing. at that point, to me, it felt like he'd just been included so that his name could be slapped on the cover and they selected one of his works at random. it felt a lot like quality didn't matter for some of the selections as much as the name or maybe filling up space. or perhaps it's the editor's personal choice which is why i dislike datlow as an editor. and dont get me wrong there was a few REALLY, REALLY good selections in that volume but g.aiman's was NOT one of them. and it just felt like an utter waste of time and a joke because there was nothing impressive or noteworthy about his writing or storytelling ability and what always makes my dislike worse is when people's fanbases have to hype them up as a god-send or revolutionary. now i am aware that maybe these were just. bad selections and not representative of his full body of work and to that i say too bad i dont care. and i am also aware that there are probably fans of his i am mutuals with who love his work which is fine great good for them this is not directed @ them but it's irrelevant. because i think he sucks and he's overrated and exacerbates it all is that he's on tumblr as like the resident uwu celebrity author or whatever and it's like. you come onto the silly little blogging site where i reblog silly images with my friends and mutuals and make me not only hear about him but make me see his TAKES? his posts? JAIL! JAIL FOR 1000 YEARS! and in any case it doesn't really matter the block button is free and filtering tags exist but also if ONE more person recs his books to me i will explode. i dont want to read him i do not care i dont think he's more noteworthy or talented than anyone else on the scene (not that i am aware of the scene) i just do not care and do not want to hear about him. yeehaw <3

#inbox #this got long and complain-y but i had a lot to say fjakjdkjakdjakjs

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hey-its-cweepy · 1 year

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welp time to Ask About Oc Compatibility again with Alban Schnee.

Oh! Hello again! This might be one beast of a post with new characters to add, so I hope you dont mind long posts! But then again, I kinda do this to myself lol

Dallas, Jessica, Hextian and Avery are OUT because they'd all comment on the figure with Dallas and Avery being degrading, Jessica thinking he's a shrimp and Hextian trying to be nice but he seems to not like comments about it in general so💀

Cweepy and Momo might be out, since they dont do well with people with angry/strict attitudes

Cho-Hee would avoid him at first, however if he noticed its because of Vincent he's mad, he'll definitely try to stop it even if it resorts to a physical fight

Salvatore and Vincenzo would kinda bicker over the attitude if they bumped into him at the wrong time, but similar to Cho, the moment they find out why now you have scary dog privileges :)

Dell and Venus are the more friendly ocs, so they're definitely interested in talking! However, I think Dell might stick around longer than Venus this time-

Benibara relates to the struggle😔✌️("I am NOT a middle school student, I literally study here")

Faust and Kenzo are OUT because Faust and Kenzo would bully his height

Marinus might be okay, part of the gang of "Why are you so fucking mad- oh... OH!..."

Kumo might be OUT since he also doesnt do well with angry/strict attitudes (gets mad back and devolves into a bigger fight)

Aotome, Cherokee, Creek and Roan are OUT because they would genuinely mistake him for a kid

Banji is OUT because if they both met in the wrong time, they could fight💀 HOWEVER if they're both chill, I think they can do it!

Kamïk and Sylvester are OUT because they would tease a bit until they see how genuinely mad he is and apologize

Clover and Jolie would definitely have his back against whoever thinks he's a kid

Pepper is OUT because they wouldnt even meet in the first place by how paranoid they are lol

Wolfo would probably be scary dog privileges >:) (Well... "Dog" ig lol)

Poppet is OUT because I feel like he'd just get mad Poppet starts the convo with a growl (like he does with everyone)

Amos might be out since he bent down to talk to him once💀

Enid is also mad the moment Vincent shows up-

Lorien also relates to the height struggle😔✌️

I think Jaiden, Mindel and Frey would be okay since they're very non-judgemental and prefer to just vibe

Mao would just silently listen to what he has to say before violently punching Vincent the moment he says a word about height (Plus, Alban cant even see his body with all of Mao's scarves/sweaters!)

Shiloh is a bit scared of them tbh💀

#the chaos gang's all here!#and it keeps growing lol #twisted wonderland #twist #twisted wonderland oc #twist oc #twisted oc #twst oc #twst #alban schnee

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willowedwisteria · 2 years

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oh lord im so fecking sorry for my friend that pulled an essay on you- i didnt know they would add some stuff about the past events until i found out today.

but ig its time ill tell the truth, and its a stupid one honestly. im currently under the weather and starving so i might write a bit shorter than usual.

so, uh. the reason why i was avoiding yall back then, was because- uh-

i felt like i was the last resort, you know, the third, fourth, fifth wheeler in a friend group. this wasnt the first i’ve experienced it. i know i speak a lot and tend to interrupt (truly sorry for that), and sometimes i was told to talk less or just be quiet.

i was also told that i always interrupt every conversation when a common interest was mentioned irl.

i already mentioned it in my blog but im going to say it again, i honestly felt like i have to please everyone on the discord server, that i have to play my cards right to please the many interests of everyone there.

dont get me wrong, i love feeding all of you fics about your fav(maybe slander them in the process too), but over time it felt like i was working hard just for recognition that “hey, im here. i still exist.”

again, this wasnt the first time i’ve experienced this. heck, i wrote like 2-3 fics just for gaile (one of them is diluc), like i was tryna impress for whatever reason. and honestly? i regret feeding gaile now. i dont hate gaile, i just regret writing fics for them.

and yes, im sensitive, i tend to get jealous of petty things, ill admit that. but i try to reason myself that “your moots have lives outside of tumblr, Hana. Of course they won’t notice your work/message/etc.”

honestly sound like im guilt tripping but im genuinely not.

i hated that i have to please people even on the internet, as if i was born to make everyone around me happy, forever making me an afterthought.

like that time where i send out a message that it was also my birthday but was met with silence, so i quickly deleted it out of embarrassment. (gunter and i shared the same birthday, surprisingly.)

and yes, i regret send that ask to you. i really do. sagau villain au has gotten way too stale here, another major reason why i regretted that. and yes it was supposed to be what my friend previously said, but i didnt expect it to blow up and it to become your au.

i often get attacked whenever i mentioned that i was the reason it blew up, but thats selfish of me, i shouldve kept my mouth shut. ahh yes, the good times where my tumblr blogs were too dangerous for me and my former followers. hah

ah flip, i got sidetracked haha. im not seeking for forgiveness, nor am i asking to interact with my former moots again. i came here to tell the truth.

a petty, childish truth.

but we all have flaws no matter how well we hide it.

im under the weather, family and childhood has messed me up, and honestly i feel like ending it all sometimes one way or another.

however, if you do want to interact with me again, feel free to tag me, even if i dont respond much. i wont respond at all if its in pms, im too awkward for that. you can decide whether you want to publish this ask or not, i dont mind.

-Hana

I have no right to say that I can truly understand how you feel since I didn't go through what you had to painfully experience, but I can say that I relate to it.

But, let's not talk about me right now.

You don't have to apologize, it was partially my fault. Your friend must have brought it up to me because I needed to at least know.

If avoiding us was your last resort, then I and I hope the rest of your old mutuals respect your decision. Tumblr may not have a place for you, but you definitely will always have a special seat in my blog.

You've been so strong after facing so much unnecessary hate. If you've experienced such hurtful comments about you supposedly interrupting someone else, unintentionally or not, I can kind of see why this was your last resort.

Recognition, fame, to not be forgotten. I don't know how to console or help you, but I'm glad you decided to take the time off of Tumblr. This is an unhealthy mindset.

If you look back into my blog, I also felt jealous of things such as notes and stuff. I felt insecure because my fics weren't doing well and I thought my writing had become terrible. I was insecure. I think you went through something similar.

You don't have to call yourself sensitive because many people also surprisingly feel this way as well. It's a valid and plausible thing, but it's also very unhealthy. Tumblr was just supposed to be this place to interact and have fun, and take a break from life.

I really wish I got to know more about you and bond with you. You seem like a wonderful person. However, for now, I don't think you'd need that.

Again, I'm so sorry for the trouble. That one mistake of mine escalated so much. We might not know each other that well, and nor do your old mutuals, but I'm sure many did miss you.

Thank you for your time here and for being here.

Thank you for the truth, Hana.

#Wisteriamutual

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desudog · 3 months

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i always feel like i identify with the goat + water more than i identify with sagittarius... esp. because the characteristics of goat and water match well / say similar things.

I also get frustrated because it seems like every single website says a different thing about sagittarius traits, or saying conflicting things or the same thing literally every other star sign says. (ive been able to find "loves to travel or go outside" at least once for every single star sign...)

sadly i cant judge my blood type because i dont know it yet...

While i am selfless to a fault, i absolutely do not think of myself as someone who will "say anything regardless of if it is not diplomatic"... i have friends who can attest to the care i put into diplomacy and tense discussion. I choose my wording very carefully! i have a strong moral compass but i do not think it makes me lacking in care of how i portray it. once again, something i value a lot and am very mindful of... i am drawn to travel and philosophy and passionate about freedom however, but i think most people would agree that they like to visit places... i am not impatient at all however! im patient to a fault! i find combining "impatient" and "overly generous" a little strange... patience is generosity.

I feel like the characteristics of the goat and water fit me a lot better.

I want to be humble so i will point out its what ive been told by others, personally i find it hard to internalize even, bit i do fit the wiseness characteristic. i always just think i come off as waxing poetic but sometimes even looking back on the things ive said i see them as being properly poetic and wise, which also checks off artistic draw- if me being drawn to art and an artist myself didnt already. I am reliable and agreeable but too withdrawn and quiet to often take advantage of these which is exasperated by the fact i am much quieter and more withdrawn and avoiding of social interaction online than i am IRL. i do not take well to change but i am autistic so we can count that one as neutral. i love working with kids, im good with kids! i want to be a father someday! i do not like routines and am absolutely free moving in that regard- with the exception of 1 thing. adding to my schedule out of nowhere is fine usually- taking AWAY is bad. however, this also conflicts with the "does not like change" so i will mark this down as conflicting descriptions. i do prefer to work in larger groups but this is because it is easier to slack off (LOL) but no actually, if we are all knowledgeable on a subject and friendly i would love to work in a group. i shouldnt use my negative experiences from school. ive said it a lot before, but i dont actually get cross at people easy at all, or often. if im mad enough to post about it, usually that means im not mad at all. this is a part of my over extended patience maybe.... i am stuck saying this a LOT to people who are coming to me over a concern and never telling me what the concern is. i am not going to get mad, i dont get mad, and when i am mad, i stay mature and non-aggressive if possible. even at my angriest i fail to get particularly nasty with people because i dont like to. i would much rather explain why i feel the way i do and that i am frustrated and my perspective, rather than resort to namecalling and petty insults, which i usually only indulge in ironically and privately when hearing out my friends. it goes without saying that sympathy is an important value of mine, especially if youve known me a while or closely. im often looking into the thinking of even my enemies to understand the situation more complexly.

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