#generation kill preferences

[utilitycaster]

Three other thoughts:

Finally getting around to rewatching the fight. Orym hits Laudna four times. Three are without seeing who it is (she drops Darkness after the third hit, only because she loses concentration). The fourth is after he attempts to take the sword with Grasping Vine (would not deal damage) and Laudna counterspells it. He attacks Laudna once knowingly and only after attempting an option that would not be an attack, and the main goal is disarmament.

In talking warlock comparisons I really do feel like some people do not split "I enjoy this character's choices as a character in the story being told," "I think this character is morally right in their choices," and "I understand why this character is making these choices." Like, to be clear, Fjord is my favorite character. I think if he'd unsealed Uk'otoa during Campaign 2, it would have been narratively fantastic, extremely understandable, and also like, a really bad thing to do. Similarly, this was a banger choice from Marisha to do as Laudna, and I understand where she's coming from, but yeah it's not morally defensible. My comparisons between Laudna and Fjord have always been "if you have an evil patron telling you to do bad things you have to either actively lean in or actively lean out for the story to be good," and personally I do not actually care if the character makes morally good or bad decisions. I happen to think Orym has pretty consistently been morally in the right, but a big part of why I like him is that Liam made a guy whose whole thing is Trying To Do Good By Those He Lost and so this ties in narratively as well. As I said about villain stans, I don't care if you stan villains; I start minding if you do so by trying to twist the story into a pretzel by deliberately (or through stupidity, to be fair) treating them as the good guy.

it continues to be the funniest shit when the no-brains anti-god squad sees literally any character go "I don't much care for the gods personally" and be like SEE THE BAD GUYS ARE THE VANGUARD AND IMPERIUM ONLY even though it's quite a leap from "I don't care about this group" to "they should be annihilated" and then when one of the gods sends a sign to a member of Bells Hells and is like "hi, you're doing great" they're either like well the god didn't show up to the party member I care about so this doesn't matter, or simply do not at any point address it.

#cr tag #cr spoilers #the most revealing thing to me is how many people are like well if the gods were nice to my friend and not me i'd kill them. #and it's like HOLY FUCK YOU'RE A TAR PIT. no wonder you're so miserable all the time. #like. do you see every single example of someone having more than you as a personal attack? oh boy you're gonna slide into some bad places. #i assure you this mentality will cause the leftism to leave your body the second you have an ounce of privilege. yikes tbh. #again. kipperlily behavior. #more generally it's really funny when people are mad that i (or others) like fjord or orym (for example) #like. this doesn't detract from your preference for other characters? unless you specifically wish i'd write for your favorite characters?

[glass-oranges]

Stirling and Emilia!!!!!! I am normal about them I promise

#i like my designs :))!! ik nobody really knows my ToyHouse but i uploded them their hours earlier likeeee yesterday #i prefer posting at 1 pm in general and i finished this at 9 pm so #i like them!!! i was gonna wait a bit before i drew them but i randomly ad a Stirling vision when i was trying to sleep so #im so happy hes evil and wrong i was hoping for this all along but i didn't say it but YESSSS #men who would spray u in the eyes with febreeze #i was drawing Emilia and. tne black part of her dress was gonna be a full dress then i suddeny said outloud 'make it a jacket.' #i wanted to incorperate her cool ass transparent shells!!!!!! makes me think of clear Gameboys and stuff #imagine trying to kill someone and the person who helps her defeat you is YOUR MOM. #not getting over that shit bro ^^^^^ #portal 2 #portal revolution #stirling portal revolution #Emilia portal revolution #portal revolution spoliers

[worstloki]

not a fan of people saying Odin and Loki are similar in a moral or decisive sense, particularly when it comes to Thor. that makes it sound like Loki doesn't know Thor or care about him beyond what he symbolises (regarding Asgard/the throne/family/worthiness), when that's a defining part of their relationship

#like i get WHY people go 'oh Thor is like Frigga (they care™/bring Emotions in) and Loki is like Odin (calculating™ /For The Greater Good)' #but if you make such a clearcut comparison you neglect a lot of stuff that Odin and Loki do drastically different #like there are literal contrasts that are pretty evident around Thor particularly #like Odin does expect Thor to be some ideal version of himself that obeys Odin implicitly and doesn't have his own volatile emotions? #while Loki more sees that Thor isn't who he tries to pretend to be and generally encourages Thor to realize that #the most obvious parallel would be how they in TDW try telling Thor that Jane won't work out #and Odin goes for the whole 'well they're insignificant' angle despite Thor caring about the humans and Jane particularly #Odin tries to go 'here's Sif and since you shouldn't have your own preferences (they're wrong and bad) consider my choice' #he largely disregards Thor's emotions #most people do on Asgard???? #like it's literally wild how everyone saw Thor being major depressed and they basically told him to pretend to cheer up #like im sorry Thor's grief means nothing to y;all. he fell in love with someone very mortal and his brother is changed forever #Loki tries putting Thor off by first off. Thor KNOWS Jane isn't going to live long he's not never thought about it #he doesn't even make the decision for Thor he tells him to consider his choice well bc it WILL hurt him when she's gone #Loki is like treats Thor like a person and Odin is like nah I own him #I feel like in converting the brother/father relationship difference over people lose the differences in those aspect #they skip to similarities of heartlessness and Machiavellian ends meeting the means when Loki overall is #a far more moral character than Thor (at the start of Thor's arc) and Odin. and a lot of culturally Asgardian ideas #that's literally part of Loki's original characterization that he DIDN'T match up with their views #he didn't do stuff like take killing lightly like it's for fun and that's one of a long list of obvious aspects that make the setup cool #don't tell me Odin and Loki are the same #like there's some blanket understanding that Loki doesn't show or care about the people he loves #while Thor and Frigga have always been softhearted and refused to sacrifice themselves for what is deemed better for everyone #don't mistake selfishness for apathy and don't say Loki didn't cry himself through the first movie because duty to the throne comes first #that's literally Thor's bit #idk

[slechterick]

i'm really sorry anglophones but the dutch dub of atla, at certain points, is just objectively better

Hama's cackling laughter

Ember Island's Zuko exclaiming "Honooor!"

Sokka's voice cracks

the dutch dub just has a little more oomph, a little more commitment, a better sense for the well-timed overdramatic

#atla #& this is coming from sb who generally prefers fiction in english #(ironically enough bc english has a lil more flair to me. dutch is very matter-of-factly in comparison) #(tho ofc the matter-of-factly nature of dutch can also greatly enhance fiction depending on the topic. dystopian fiction KILLS in dutch.) #(Bordewijk's Blokken will rip you apart)

[monschoices]

Horrid Omens, cast: aziraphale!mason and crowley!val. dropping on amazon prime: one day after the end of the world. stay tuned 🫶

#my art #art #twc #the wayhaven chronicles #mason #val tag #listen i know u might try to tear out my eyeballs for making mason the angel but get this #so if the agency rescued mason in canon and he works there but is capable of questioning the agencys ways #and aziraphale was made by god to serve heaven but he ends up questioning gods ways #you see where im going w this? also the whole Thing abt val is that hes got horrible ancestors #im talking long lines of guys who love to serial kill and cause a ruckus (though less and less with each generation) #(and val is like the first one who actually goes on to become kind and sweet and lovely) #so anyway. them #also i need val calling mason “angel” cos thats whats up #but yes mason is the Good Guy whos got that baddie in him & vals the bad guy whos got some goodie shining through :3 them <3 #and anyway the whos who works Either Way honestly i just preferred this one bc its something new 🫶

[crossdressingdeath]

I really hope that TSatS features Nico and Will having so many issues around being complicit in Octavian's death, and Nico in addition having so many issues around killing Bryce. On Octavian's end these are children complicit in a gruesome death; necessary or no, that sort of thing's going to stick with them! Especially since as far as we see they never tell anyone about it (Nico might have told Dionysus during their therapy sessions, but as far as I can remember that's not confirmed), which means the only people they can discuss the whole thing with is each other. ...Or I guess Michael Kahale—assuming he's still alive post-ToA, since that's not actually confirmed—but I feel like the understanding between him and them is probably that they Do Not Acknowledge It, assuming they ever see each other at all. Anyway. I'm sure being able to share the weight of what they were part of between the two of them would help, but... well, sharing the burden of being a teenager traumatized by your part in a brutal death with another teenager traumatized by their part in said brutal death is only going to do so much. And I feel like more specifically the fact that Will is a healer would make the whole situation so much worse for him; knowingly standing by and letting someone die knowing he could easily save them would be hard for any hero, but for someone who's dedicated to healing people? Yeesh.

And of course on top of that... Bryce's death is a really cool and dramatic scene that goes way harder than I'd expect a children's book to go, but it's also absolutely horrific. Partially because Nico turns him into a ghost with zero sign of hesitation and that is so much, but I feel like for Nico partially because he doesn't remember it. Like, the fact that he has no memory of killing Bryce gets glossed over in BoO, but he turned a guy into a ghost with no hesitation or mercy and he doesn't remember. He was really angry at Bryce for threatening Reyna, and the next thing he knew the guy was dead (and he'd been knocked out for three days). He has no idea how he did it or even what he was thinking at the time! He was either out of control of his own actions or he wanted to kill Bryce, and he has no way of finding out which. That would be a terrifying thought: either he's a willing murderer (while him killing Bryce was to save Reyna and Hedge and I fully agree with it, it was absolutely murder in a way Octavian's death isn't, Bryce was completely powerless and begging for mercy by the end there) or his powers can hijack his body and push him into doing things that he would never do of his own free will, and he'll probably never know which. Which does beg the question of if anything could set him off like that again, which I feel like is something that would weigh on Nico. I'd love to see him admit that he's actually really scared that something will push him over the edge again and either he'll lose control of his powers and kill someone else or (possibly worse) discover that he was in control when he killed Bryce and did it because he wanted to. Now, I don't think Nico could turn someone into a ghost just like that, my theory is that it was only possible in Bryce's case because Bryce was threatening someone he loved using a closely held secret (which Nico understandably took rather personally) and, more importantly, he was halfway faded out of the living world already; I doubt he could've done it if he hadn't been mostly full of darkness already or if he hadn't been overwhelmed with protective fury at the threat to his dear friend. But whether or not Nico knows that is unclear; I can see him being terrified at the very thought that it's possible that he could snap and kill someone again.

Basically given how TSatS seems like it's going to be largely about All The Trauma, it would feel like a huge failure on Rick's part to not go into how being responsible for Octavian's death absolutely would've fucked Will and Nico up, and also how directly killing Bryce absolutely would've fucked Nico up. If I'm remembering right, setting aside Luke's death—Percy and Annabeth supplied the weapon he stabbed himself with, but I wouldn't call them complicit in it the way Will, Nico and Michael are complicit in Octavian's death since it was entirely Luke's decision in the end—Will and Nico (and Michael Kahale but he's not important currently assuming he's even still alive) are the only protagonists knowingly and willingly complicit in another demigod's death, and Nico is the only protagonist to actively kill another demigod! I can accept them not talking about it in ToA, since "Hey, we're super fucked up from the deaths we caused/played a part in and we don't know what to do about that because we're kind of sort of murderers before the age of eighteen and that's really not the sort of thing you just tell people" isn't something to drop on Will's suddenly-sixteen-and-mortal godly father without warning during a serious crisis situation and I can't see anyone they might have told about it off-page spilling the beans without permission either and when it happened Apollo was already in deep shit and so probably not paying a lot of attention to what his kid was doing, so our POV character wouldn't know about it and wouldn't find out (I know he's aware that Octavian's dead, but unless I'm forgetting something—which is. entirely possible, I should reread ToA—he doesn't know the part Will and Nico played in it). But if it doesn't come up at all in the book told entirely from their perspectives, I'm... honestly gonna be pretty pissed!

#tsats #heroes of olympus #nico di angelo #will solace #if there isn't a moment in tsats where one of them snaps and just goes 'we are MURDERERS!' #(preferably in response to the other or both of them having moral qualms about something) #and they're both suddenly forced to contend with this thing that they've been trying SO hard to bury #then what is even the POINT #...actually if it doesn't happen i might have to write it because my GOD the angst potential #like you KNOW that even aside from bryce they both consider their part in octavian's death murder #(i don't know if it would count legally but they definitely THINK of it as murder. nico explicitly refers to it as such in boo) #(i guess it's possible will doesn't but i'm pretty certain he does even if he does seem to understand why they had to do it) #and who can they tell about that? how do they even BEGIN to raise that topic? #how do you tell your friends that you knowingly and willingly killed someone even indirectly? #ESPECIALLY given the greek demigods generally seem to frown on killing even enemy demigods #or at least it's not the Generally Done Thing #oh god i'm having so many emotions about the boys thinking they're murderers for their part in octavian's death #send help

[boysborntodie]

I think that Johnnyboy’s potential to complicated and messy is criminally untapped in fanon. Ponyboy ‘fucking sucks at feelings, both his own and of others, and can be a bitch’ Curtis and Johnny ‘imperfect victim with shit self-esteem’ Cade would definitely have their ups and downs

#which is normal!!! #and i think they’d be able to get through rough patches #but they definitely do have their bad and difficult moments #ponyboy gets better at feelings as the book goes on but progress isn’t linear and we see that he reverts back #and johnny doesn’t really stand up for himself with pony #or most people in general #and while pony would definitely realise his mistake and apologize #it would be an issue #they’re both also not super good at comforting the other #the other appreciates the effort but they don’t often feel better #(johnny remarking he prefers when his father hits him when darry hurt pony #and pony teling johnny not to kill himself) #i can see them getting better at it and learning to understand each other more later on but it’s something they’d struggle with #also one of the biggest points of conflict would be the fact pony’s someone pure and gold and destined to leave behind tulsa #while johnny sees himself so lacking and without worth in comparison #also johnny genuinely does see pony as a kid #that’s his bestie and they’re equals but johnny knows pony is immature and doesn’t know much about the world outside his bubble #pony is very much 14 while johnny’s been forced to grow up from a young age #the outsiders #johnny cade #se hinton #ponyboy curtis #johnnyboy

[waywardsalt]

linebeck is probably so god damn paranoid all of the time

#like not even just. oh he's probably an anxious guy. hes def at least jumpy and his way of living puts him at risk of monster attacks #hes got some other person on the sea just straight up gunning to kill him whenever she sees him #he probably spends a lot of time agonizing abt how he should act in front of people on islands and putting his stories in order #linebeck #phantom hourglass #he has a crate in his ship near the wheel that he uses to hide in he likely struggles with fighting hes completely alone #he clearly does all of his ship maintenance alone and knows how to do it- but he does all of it alone #you know he's got some serious anxiety problems at the least. no fucking wonder he looks so rough #i imagine he prefers people who help him feel at ease like people he could rely on to protect him and keep an eye out #having link around lets him relax for sure though i dont imagine his paranoia gets too much better #in post ph having something of a crew around is a big help to like. help him relax and deal with all of those other mental illnesses #i imagine linebeck is generally kind of nervous and needs a friend. like those cheetahs with support dogs #in the bellum x linebeck fic linebeck's paranoia and issues around being alone and at risk are p important? #linebeck finding out that bellum is following and protecting him gives him a fuckton of peace of mind #linebeck seems like hed really benefit from hanging out w/ someone who makes him feel comfortable enough to be vulnerable #hes likely introverted but god he needs a friend to keep him from being on edge all of the time #salty talks #hes probably a lil better on islands? or at least islands with people on them. at least then his ship is in less danger #i was just thinkin abt this recently. like the idea of a short fic abt him just being fucking paranoid pre-canon #like a scene of him mopping the deck and. thinking. and spiraling really easily and becoming paranoia very quickly #he has issues <3

[chaoticgouda]

#nonbinary #(saved this bc the first tweet op posted felt mean and made me uncomfortable) #but I still wanted to vent about this because what is restraint and boundaries online amirite #so here we go again: #I feel uncomfortable being called my irl name everywhere except at work and I feel like that’s bc the worksona i crafted #is so irontight that I’m fine being a Lady there but it low-key rankles me anywhere else #idk if that’s a gender thing or just a case of apathy and extreme alienation from myself though #I’d rather die than ever talk to my co-workers about other pronouns or anything though bc the gossip would spread throughout work within- #the hour. and it’s not like people would be really awkward about it (I hope) because I think I’m generally liked by my coworkers. but I’d #hate to be pitied or misunderstood. and it’s not like i have dysphoria or anything so I don’t personally feel justified in calling myself #trans. I’m just alienated from womanhood. but that could also be because i don’t have an interest in most socially-expected ‘woman things’ #and bc I’m not mentally well or het. and that inherently separates you from the expected Girl Experience. #this is really rambly and nonsensical okay I guess if I really thought about it I’d love to be called Krill by everyone because it has less #baggage and feels more like me. but i’m not necessarily upset at being called my RL name. I don’t have dysphoria I just have mild ick. #like I’d prefer being considered a They and not being expected to be any gender at all. but it doesn’t kill me inside y’know #it’s fine. #if you read through this weird personal ramble then thanks ig?

[pussypopstiel]

Past Fem vessel cas is one thing but the moment I hear something along the lines of him ending the show in a female vessel or he should’ve gotten a female vessel I have to turn my phone off

#my silly little posts #‘I would’ve been fine if they ended the show with him in a female vessel’ so you want him to experience DYSPHORIA??? #I can’t not be defensive about this sorry he’s TRAMSGENDERRR HES A TRANS MAN. #this is also soo just a personal preference like sure whatever go live be free #but if you say it would’ve been a ‘slay’ for destiel reasons #I’m killing youuuuu I’m gonna hurt you #you have progressived yourself into heterosexuality. congratulations #also just in general the way spn treats women. I’d actually die #autistic coded characters get shit enough but autistic FEMALE coded characters ohhh you want her to suffer #I can only take it if it’s everyone in the show experiencing a gender swap. you can’t subject cas to the horrors like that

[toppedbykakuna]

ive been the butt end of 2 relatively homophobic/transphobic comments from customers at work this weekend and im feeling weird about it

#like if yall dont know im trans agender and very androgynous #im exactly at the point of my transition where i want to be and im super happy about it #(sidenote: i forgot i have to do my shot that always helps) #but sometimes i forget just how shitty people can be #i live in a lil bubble where (most) of my loved ones call me by my preferred name and pronoun #(sidenote 2: someone once told me i shouldnt say preferred and i should just say “my name and pronouns are..” but like... #i prefer saying preferred if you know what i mean? #like i honestly feel like the wording (as a poet) means a lot to me #so by saying preferred it indicates that it belongs to me #i prefer it #i dunno #anyway #) #and then weird people in my hometown come out with some swinging statements about my general state of being #like i was saying to my mom earlier (we were arguing about it i think thats why its still sitting on me weird) #if i were in my rainbow gear and being rude about my pronouns and walking around going “kill all straights” then sure #you have a right to be upset #but its literally just my face yknow? #like.. im wearing a matching pastel pink shirt and boot combo and im wearing a vest #im just trying to keep my staff alive in a busy friday night rush #im not a threat #lexis thoughts #whatever I'm gonna go do my shot and just suck it up #asi do :)

[sgkjd]

i think too much about that scene in evangelion where rei II dies by exploding herself. from the angel's attack to the very end. just so many fucking emotions all at once....and they all merge into this one particular emotion that doesn't have a name in my vocabulary yet.....

#rather nsfw? in the tags below #first of all i would like to confess that yes i would like to be fucked by an nge angel in some weird extraterrestrial way #where the whole act is something you're not sure if it's fucking me or wants to kill me #if there is a name for when you're sexually attracted to monsters/robots/divine beings (something that's all at once preferably) #then maybe i could call myself not asexual #; words generated by me #neon genesis evangelion #nge #rei ayanami

[my-thoughts-and-junk]

reading dungeon meshi

#random thoughts #it has the kind of plot i hate where you retread the same plot point repeatedly while making progress elsewhere #like hi falin bye falin #like i cared about them finding falin. then they found her. and now she's gone again. #i don't like marcille but in like. a compelling way. she's my favorite archetype of character who is specifically female for some reason? #lady who thinks her way is the right way and she's morally right and therefore everyone else is wrong #high conscientiousness with low openness to experience. see themselves as agreeable dutiful and restrained while not being any of that #they tend to take on moralistic causes but they usually don't have a defined reason for WHY they're doing it so it just comes off as preachy #and the narrative tends to take their side with no basis in why #like when marcille tried to prove herself with the mandrakes and put everyone in danger and senshi conceded he was ALSO in the wrong??? #and even marcille was like 'that wasn't my point at all' #that entire chapter made me mad it was so good #it's also doing that thing i hate when a piece of media introduces too many characters at once #like who's who what's what who is important who should i remember #i love the detail put into the cooking sessions!!! #i love how all the characters are so fucked up and not even in plot-important ways #like chilchuck's cowardice is very important to the plot but senshi was straight-up willing to let a man die for his flavorful cooking lmao #laios is. my man. i need him carnally. #i get that the whole 'got eaten by dragon' thing was not meant to be the Whole Plot but i feel like the background plot is just not my thing #either that or it wasn't set up in a compelling enough way? #idk. im still reading #all in all i think dungeon meshi might just not be my thing? plot-wise i mean. i love the characters and the general premise #of monster biology and environmentalism and cooking and augh #i don't like how everytime senshi corrects marcille on something so far he ends up going 'i guess i also need to learn a thing or two' #like on the mandrakes? the man has FIELD EXPERIENCE he was entirely in the right to prefer his method!!! #and on the environment thing? first of all marcille's whole thing is building artificial dungeons she SHOULD care about the food chain #SECOND OF ALL telling marcille she shouldn't kill so many fishmen isn't playing GOD or whatever #that kraken was a fucking. extenuating circumstance. it was literally there just to make marcille's argument credible #animals killing each other through the food chain is different from marcille using what is essentially a rocket launcher #god i ran out of tags. peace and luv bruvs 🤟 kind of have a hate crush on marcille now. need her

[iamthekarmapolice]

uh oh! I’ve reached cyberpunk 2077 fatigue and it’s all because of a weirdly paced act 3 yet again

#i kind of had to push through bg3’s act 3 also but it came a lot later #and also i cared so much about the characters that i pushed through #with cp2077 i care most about the plot so i def want to avoid spoilers so it doesn’t kill my motivation to finish the game #bg3 was kind of the exception when it comes to big games #normally i never finish like anything longer than 60 hours after continuous play I always take breaks #it took me all year to play lad: isshin for example #i thjnk I generally prefer shorter games that you can beat in 20 hours because that generally takes a week of focused play #and then it can haunt me forever #lucky avoiding cp2077 spoilers is easy ive literally never seen any in the wild

[masqueradeoftheguilty]

ive said this a thousand times and i need to actually write a fic about it but it really does tickle me that due to hyv dropping the ball, canon indicates that the only people who can use elemental powers without a vision are two interstellar travellers, the archons, a dragon sovereign, and Some Vigilante

#its been over a year and im still salty about diluc's skin event but bcs hyv never explained how diluc can use his elemental powers #without a vision i am within my rights to believe he Just Can. godlike powers he uses for beating up abyss mages we stan a king #inb4 'its his delusion' canon lore from the manhua is that his delusion is broken and in dottore's hands so no its not his delusion #side tangent. the popularity of this whole hc of making diluc into some sort of like. cringefail loser killed any sort of theories about #this and it makes me so sad. its my least favourite sort of thing bcs so so so many people say they like him then remove anything coo #he actually does its like. :( diluc is so cool and it sucks hes just fallen into this 'dumb angry brute' trap in fanon #anyway. 2am rant over. diluc's the coolest im also v sad hyv just doesnt want to do anything with him anymore #my copium is he got mentioned twice in reference to neuvillette and like yknow. no visions! #ha..... i miss my boy. i have such big copium hes gonna show up in fontaine or natlan but. #its really clear hyv and the fandom in general prefers kaeya which is fine if fanon kaeya wasnt awful lol #sorry. eepy. diluc cool no vision powers go brrrrr #step right up! || 🪄.txt

[echoesofdusk]

I do think abolishing copyright and IP laws is a noble goal, but we can talk about that once capitalism has been abolished

#hazy rambles #stricter copyright laws benefit big corpos #but no copyright also benefits big corpos bc they can just yoink shit from smaller artists #we can talk about it all we want but artists need some kind of protection under capitalism #don't want copyright and IP law? then work on abolishing capitalism first #im not pulling this out of my ass btw there are actually really compelling pro copyright anti corpo arguments out there #if capitalism is supposed to keep existing then i'd prefer a world where copyright is taken from corpos #and put back into the hands of individual artists #def make copyright a bit more lenient too so it accounts for internet and all and also bc style theft isn't a thing #but absolutely no copyright protection for AI generated 'art' bc lol #also copyright protection should not persist for 70 years after an artist's death #should be closer to 20 years #also if copyright protection is gone the moment an artist dies it will incentivize people to kill artists #hence why this protection was needed #but the big mouse had to ruin it ofc