sorry I'm on one now. Narnia is one of my Big Rant triggers.
but like. I would be lying if I said I didn't love Narnia
(everything except the Horse and His Boy, which a) even as a tiny kid made me uncomfortable with how fucking racist it is (literally there is ONE. ONE. character of colour who isn't evil, selfish, greedy and violent. even when you're 5 and white and don't really understand racism it's like. sorry there are just no nice people in this whole country? and every Narnian is lovely?) and b) is just fucking DULL partly bc of the 2 dimensional racist caricatures populating the world)
but I can't pretend for a second that it isn't specifically built around a Christian theology that's explicitly racist, hierarchical, supremacist, colonialist and The Bits I Like Least Of Anglicanism
and my FAVOURITE books in the series (except the Silver Chair which tbh is WAY less theological and way more mythology-nerd) are the first and last, which are by far the most explicitly Christian. even more so than TLTWATW.
and I can just about stand by the Magician's Nephew bc it's mostly just a mix of Christian creation myth and CS Lewis's sci fi interests in the esoteric and multiverses and it honestly feels fine. but my all time favourite most iconic Narnia book is The Last Battle and I just. cannot. justify it for a second from a political or philosophical standpoint.
it's got it all bc it's the book where Lewis is like ok hold up let me lay out explicitly what my theology is. and what he thinks it's important to say is:
Almost all Muslims are bad and evil
They worship Satan by doing Bad Evil Deeds to please him
There are a couple of Good Muslims who do good deeds. they need to be brought to the light, understand that the voice calling them to do good deeds is the Christian god, and they too can achieve the kingdom of heaven
Some people will use Christianity as a mask for exploitation and mistreatment. They are bad and their faith is false (ok fine)
...and they're doing that because they're CONSPIRING WITH THE EVIL MUSLIMS TO OPPRESS GOOD CHRISTIANS
...and THAT'S THE ONLY REASON ANYONE WOULD TELL YOU THAT GOD AND ALLAH ARE DIFFERENT NAMES FOR THE SAME GOD. because they're either conning you or because they've been misled and can't really think for themselves.
DID I MENTION. THAT MUSLIMS ARE EVIL AND TRYING TO BRING DOWN CHRISTIANS.
and other than the GOD AREN'T MUSLIMS JUST THE WORST of it all, he also goes back over to more fully explain several points he's made throughout the series, such as:
white Christian public school kids are the god ordained leaders of the world and attempts to think otherwise are heretical
god places people where they need to be to serve his purpose
free will is largely an illusion - your only choice is faith or chaos, and as a godly person your actions are preordained
the problem is though. he's kind of a really good character writer? and in The Last Battle he pulls out most of his best classics (hi Reepicheep! hi Frank! hi Jill!) and gives us a whole wealth of really fun new characters (Tirian and Jewel, Emeth, Puzzle, Shift, Griffle and Ginger are all just SO FUN) and it's such a solid adventure. for me it's hands down the most FUN Narnia to read and an effective and affecting end to the series.
but like. god its unjustifiably fucked philosophy is baked into every single character and event. it's so hard to ignore. it's my favourite book in the series. it's the book that makes me angriest. it's everything right with Narnia and everything wrong with Narnia. I like it cause it asks me to engage critically with Lewis' philosophy and I hate it cause it requires me to engage critically with Lewis' philosophy.
in conclusion, Narnia is a land of contrasts. also occasionally brownface.
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post for followers only. but i want yall to know that i do not see how people can have otherkin blogs and then their dni be like "dni if you id this way *enter insult*" like fym? you think you're a dog and a bird and a dragon and a god. do u also kin a cop? r u cop kin? if you get to use a lot of labels to accurately describe how you feel then so can i. this is a two way street my man and i follow traffic laws VERY well.
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ya’ll be like: show Daisy is too much angrier than book Daisy, show Daisy is too weak/dependent compared to book Daisy, I don’t like that show Daisy thinks she’s better than Billy and challenges his decisions with confidence it makes her look too arrogant, show Daisy’s lines are too corny, she’s too much of a manic pixie dream girl, she’s boring compared to book Daisy, her character development is ruined because she said she didn’t regret a good day she had with her terrible spit marriage husband even though he was terrible (like it’s a bad thing to look back on your past actions and forgive yourself/not blame yourself for how things went???), her character development is ruined because Billy saved her after she ODed and I’m going to pretend I’m mad at this because I want her character to have agency and not shipping reasons (but then at the beginning of next ep they gave you the scene where she kicks Nicky out after realizing he left her to die just like in the book so argument completely moot I giggled), she’s too shameless about the emotional affair I could respect her in the book because she fought her feelings but in the show she’s too flirty with the man the story revolves around her having an intense emotional affair with and should be crucified for it, she isn’t doing enough substances or being chaotic enough, while complaining about how her addition is/isn’t portrayed I’m going to actively ignore how her being an addict is a part of her character writing in the show and effects her actions/how she responds to things because I’d rather just make fun of and have no sympathy for her, they made her too mean and messy, they softened her character too much and she’s not chaotic enough, I hate that they focused more on her parental issues and trauma because her character isn’t about that (which could be fair ig but what do You think it should be about instead?), she’s unprofessional, she’s way too good at everything too fast and succeeds too much, also I hate that the show is focused on her so much over other characters when she’s the mc of the story which is named after her, oh and she’s a pick me girl because of a funny little comment she made while she was high and a mess to the point of injuring herself without noticing while really really depressed and heartbroken.
Ya’ll: but the writers are misogynists who didn’t write her as a complex character and that’s the issue!
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Not triggering just personal
I really need to vent about being asexual and sex repulsed but I feel like no one will understand and I get how a lot of the things I think will sound but I really just need to for once get these thoughts off my chest without having them being morally appraised because they *aren't* my morals, they're just things I can't change.
And I don't want people to TRY to change it either! Or to try to figure what ~hOrRiBle trAuMas~ could have possibly made me "this way". It's not that I think there's nothing wrong with me, it's just that this thing needs to stay neutral to me if I ever expect to actually understand it. I want people to stop morally appraising and physcoanalyzing my sexuality through the lense of inherent trauma!!
I just want to talk about this without feeling like I need to put a disclaimer before every sentence, explaining why I feel the way that I feel. I don't know ok! I don't know why I feel the way that I feel sometimes. I'm just doing my best and I wish more people would understand that. Maybe you don't get an explanation because this is my identity and doesn't need to be justified. I just want to understand myself.
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another talking to the void one
bc im getting back into liking and taking care of dolls and such again, i'm sitting here wondering why the fuck i every dated anyone who made fun of or showed extreme disgust and made me feel ashamed of my interests??
like, its so much more fun to be able to share my interests with someone else, to geek out about them and say "hey look at this thing!!" and have the other person respond with the same level of enthusiasm, even if they are not totally interested in it.
people who put you down for your interests are just. not cool! people who make you feel ashamed and make you feel like you need to get rid of the things that you love are not the kinds of people you should keep in your life!!
i find myself thinking about the things that made my ex upset for no reason. the things that leave me with such an ick in my brain.
should i do a proper cord cutting spell? probably. do i have the energy or time to do one any time soon? nope! (and starshine i know you'd help me if i asked)
i just consistently think about how my ex got jealous over me giving love to my cat, how she would be grumpy that i was given my cat physical affection. and every time i see my partner give love to my cat, smile at him, baby talk at him, it brings me such joy to know that thats not something i ever have to worry about.
i also have been thinking about how my ex reacted to me liking to collect dolls and such that i can pose and brush and dress. she hated them. she thought they were creepy and made me feel bad for liking them, saying they would never have a place in our house. at the time it was said with a certain playfulness, but she was fully serious with the comment. however, i love these little figures of moments in time and personality. doing their hair, planning their outfits, posing them interacting with their environment, etc.
i've been working on restoring some older monster high dolls i have, and have been updating my partner on the progress, and they meet my level of enthusiasm about it. they know it means a lot to me, and share my enthusiasm. i cant tell if they are actually interested in it at all or not, but regardless their reactions to my messages about it makes me feel good and seen and respected.
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Has the pandemic caused you to rethink your judgments of Mat & Perrin's reaction toward Rand as a channeler in the early books of the series? Specifically, dealing with people who don't want to mask or social distance up or refuse to get vaccinated?
I don't think that's the analogy I would use, for the main reason that vaccination, masking, and social distancing are things people choose not to do (obviously with some exceptions, more on that in a second), whereas channelling is something Rand is narratively stated to be unable to help.
So if we really wanted a Covid analogy, it would probably be a closer fit to liken him to someone who is, say, severely immunocompromised, can't safely get a vaccine, and is also classified as a key worker and thus can't isolate. Which would be a combination of factors that would mean he's very likely to get Covid, probably have severe symptoms of it, and also due to factors outside of his control spread it to others.
Leaving that analogy aside... in terms of Mat and Perrin's reactions towards learning Rand can channel, I think it's very much set up to be a frustrating situation to observe as a reader. Because of course you can see where they're coming from: this is a thing of nightmares for them, a thing they've heard horror stories about their entire lives. This is something that could hurt or kill anyone close to him, and they're close to him. It's terrifying and they're entirely unprepared and unequipped to deal with it. They're young and in many ways naive and this is so far above their paygrade; of course they don't handle it well.
But we're also watching this from Rand's viewpoint, and so as the reader you are positioned to understand that this isn't something he chose, and is something he would at that point rid himself of if he could. You're positioned to see how young and scared and alone he is, how terrified he is of this power he holds and the harm it might do. You're positioned to see how badly he needs his friends not to turn away from him.
Which doesn't mean he's Right and they're Wrong; it's frustrating (in a good/satisfying way, as a reader, at least in my opinion) precisely because as an outside observer you can see where everyone's coming from... but you can also see how it's going to actively make things worse, because that's how the story is set up. It's a point of conflict established very early on, and narratively it absolutely does its job.
And I'm probably even more fed up with protagonist-centred morality than I was when I started these books, so maybe I'd be more balanced in my articulation of my reactions to those scenes (though on the other hand I'm also fed up with the idea that you have to take a perfectly balanced stance on every comment you make on a work of fiction or else it's tacitly assumed that you Side With Character A And Hate Character B, but we'll just. shelve that essay for another day)... but again I think the point of those scenes is to be frustrating, and to make you as a reader want to shake everyone in them and go 'I get where you're coming from but this is going to fuck things up so much!' but also they can't hear you and ultimately if they could there'd be no story so the frustration is part of the experience, and part of the enjoyment.
And this was years ago now but I think much of my frame of mind when commenting on those scenes was one of 'aahhhh, no, don't do that, that's going to end so badly!' but not in the sense of criticising, if that makes sense. They react in a way that's absolutely in-character and understandable. They also react in a way that is narratively crafted to Fuck Things Up. And at book 2 of a series, Fucking Things Up is kind of the point - so as a reader you get to watch it and go 'uh oh' the way you sit on a roller-coaster car as it starts climbing a very, very high ascent.
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