#even after they die out

[something-something-here]

Good grief by Bastille is Zartemis from Artemis' perspective after Zoë died.

They were celebrating. They'd just completed a quest, after all. They'd just stopped atlas and off to celebrate the solstice. Dancing and laughing.

She has never been fond of Olympian parties, but she felt sick. She just needed a moment, for everything to stop. To stop going around like nothing happened, how could the flowers be blooming, didn't they know? That the light of the world had withered? How could the world keep spinning? Hadn't it realised that its core had been crushed by fate's most cruel hand?

What's gonna be left of the world if you're not in it?

What's gonna be left of the world?

Why are you always so grumpy— Apollo always attempts to get her to mingle at parties, she never liked spaces that were far too crowded and loud, but everything was too much, all the voices blurring together and his voice just a distant foreign sound.

He offers her a drink, she turns around walking away, he's booing, she feels disoriented, she's confused— she's never felt like this, she's a hunter. She breathes rapidly, fight or flight. Someone shoves her, she snaps, someone's yelling, she keeps walking. Thunder. Too loud, too much. In a flash of light she's gone, not too sure where yet but everything is quiet. The most lucid part of her mind rationalizes there will be a fight tomorrow like an after thought. She's too numb to think.

You might have to excuse me

I've lost control of all of my senses

And you might have to excuse me

I've lost control of all of my words

So get drunk, call me a fool

Put me in my place, put me in my place

Pick me up, up off the floor

Put me in my place, put me in my place

She's laying on the grass, when did she lay down? She closes her eyes. Breathes.

Every minute and every hour

I miss you, I miss you, I miss you more

Every stumble and each misfire

I miss you, I miss you, I miss you more

#zartemis #artemis #nightemis #wlw #zoe nightshade #pjo #greek mythology #the hunters of artemis #hoo #percy jackon and the olympians #bastille #in my thoughts you are far away #and you are whistling a melody #and it's the song of the Hesperides #zoe knew she was going to die #but not only for the profecy #but from the moment she swore herself to Artemis #zoe did you know #that your love is also your death #from the very beginning #Artemis did you know #that in the end #even after they die out #the star are always there #lesbian

[drawsmaddy]

[ID: A digital line drawing of Caleb Widogast and Vax'ildan from Critical Role. Caleb is drawn with wrinkles and he's saying "Okay babe I'm getting old, time for you to move on." Text underneath what Caleb says reads (Essek does not want to move on while Caleb is still ALIVE). Vax'ildan is drawn with the raven skull mask he wears as the Champion of the Matron of Ravens and he is holding his left hand up in a peace sign. Text above him reads "been dead for 30 years and still sending ravens" and below that (Keyleth can't move on) is written. End description.]

They both suck at this (affectionate)

#caleb widogast #vax'ildan #my art #critical role #critical role fanart #what end of the 'i'm gonna die before my partner' scale are you? are you trying to make them let go before you're even gone #or are you holding onto them long after you're dead? #shout out to will for crushing the dead husband game

[peachyutdr]

i finished it, was kicked out of the game, and then spent the next 10 minutes drawing this. i will now go take a shower, most likely cry, and then go through the emotional turmoil of convincing myself to reset so i can do a geno run. i hate it here :D

#undertale yellow #uty #my art #<- ifg #spoilers under these tags beware. although it is mostly just me being very very sad #that entire thing was heart wrenching. anyways #CEROBAS FIGHT??? HELLO??? #i had to exit out of it the first time (i got to the last phase) to get better items but i came back and won pretty quickly #but THE CUTSCENES?!?!? #JFC NO WONDER THIS WOMANS SO MESSED UP. HER HUSBAND PRACTICALLY DIED IN HER ARMS AND THE LAST THING HE LEFT HER WITH- HIS DYING WISH- COULD #ONLY BE FULFILLED BY PUTTING THEIR ONLY CHILD IN DEATHS WAY. AND THEN WHEN SHE TOOK THAT RISK THE WORST THING HAPPENED AND SHE NOW HAS TO #LIVE WITH THE GUILT OF BEING THE ONE TO. MOST LIKELY. KILL HER ONE AND ONLY DAUGHTER #ALL THE WHILE SHE WAS PUSHING AWAY HER CHILDHOOD BEST FRIEND AND CONVINCING HERSELF THAT SHE WAS IN THE RIGHT TO SACRIFICE CLOVER WHO HAD #BEEN ONLY KIND MERCIFUL AND JUST THIS WHOLE TIME. EVEN TO THOSE WHO WERE TRYING TO KILL THEM. FUCK. #AAND WHEN CLOVER HUGGED HER I DOUBLED OVER IRL BC *THATS EXACTLY WHAT I WANTED TO DO IN THAT MOMENT* I HATE IT (read: love it) HERE #n dont even get me STARTED on after that. when clover started moving on their own and the gd white screen came up and we got flashbacks of #everyone's words. thats when the tears rlly started coming bc it clicked for me. 'oh. this is it. isn't it?' and IT WAS #WHEN THEY GAVE THEIR FUCKIGN HAT AND GUN AWAY TO MARTLET AND STARLO WELL THATS WHEN I REALLY STARTED CRYING #AAND THE GROUP HUGG #I WAS SOBBING WHENEVER I HAD TO WATCH THEM CRAWL UP AGAINST THE WALL AND DIE AND HAVE FLOWEYS WORDS PLAY OVERHEAD #AND THE FUCKOGN #THE F U C K I N G #AFTEWRCREDITS SCENE WHERE WE GOT THE 'You heard someone calling for help. You answered.' I GOT CHILLS SO BAD #to think that all the other souls have stories just as expansive and emotional as clover n frisks. how fucked up is that. in a good way tho #and finally the last scene where we got all 4 of our main friends sending us off in waterfall and we see clovers items end up in the dump #just waiting to be found by bratty and catty. fucken hell man this was a masterpiece #anyways time to reset and obliterate everyone and never emotionally recover from that ever!! really is feeling like 2016-17 again w the way #this game has me sobbing my eyes out and feeling the guilt of knowing that i dont HAVE to kill them all but im too curious not to #oh well. at least i have the balls to do it this time around instead of letting a youtuber do it for me ig

[hylianane]

And when OPLA calls back to Zeff telling the crew to read stories to Zoro so he can hear their voices and recover faster, by having Sanji sit by his bedside on Thriller Bark and read him a book about the All Blue. What will you do then?

#literally the scene of Nami reading Zoro Noland’s book at the Baratie is my favorite addition #cause East Blue Nami is so damn prideful so seeing her do something that seems silly- #(reading to someone who isn’t listening) #-is such a fun way to mark her progress as a character #I can see her being the one to remind Sanji of Zeff’s advice and the act of reading to Zoro being a way to process the sort of. #hit to his pride and even self-perception that is Zoro’s interference in Thriller Bark. #why did Zoro stop him? Why would Zoro want to die in his place? Choose his dream instead of his own? #(maybe because he knew that sitting by your friend still body- helpless- is the worst feeling in the world) #Aside from this though I can specifically see the book being about the All Blue working #cause its a reminder about what a wonderful dream Sanji has. It’s a way to regain vigor and the willingness to fight for it #after having just tried to discard it in the face of Kuma moments prior #matt owens are you out there. please #opla #one piece #roronoa zoro #blackleg sanji #opla spoilers #for like future seasons that may or may not even happen #my post #zosan

[unexpectedbrickattack]

short king and his shorter kings

#pizza tower #pepstavo #peppinoise #i sketched it out WEEKS ago #but w me almost finishing this godawful comm i felt compelled to do something for Me #i cannot wait to finish; i have a couple of forms sitting there collecting dust but im too overwhelmed w this shitty comm- #-to even attempt to tackle those. i need to scrub my brain and start fresh. but after i finish it lmao #anyway hey. hope everyones okay and vibin #dont take this seriously but also. heehee. #in hindsight i feel like i need to bump gustavos head up a lil bit but weh #not too compelled to fix it. #additional context that i think is fun; gus is just a touchy dude and he finds all kinds of reasons to pick peppino up #and every time peppino is like SO flustered and shocked bc itll be in the view of customers #like some sports team wins and its on their tvs and ppl are hootin n hollerin #and like people will notice and keep cheering and its alot hes like oh my GOD u cannot keep doing that im going to explode and then die #noise will do it to prove he can do it and then his back snaps in two bc he weighs like 80 lbs (36kg) #but for like a brief moment of time he is facefirst in tummy and hes ecstatic #theo it is not funny to be rushed to the er bc u broke ur back #also suggestive (but funny i prommy) #but he absolutely would be that like girl who needed a neckbrace from having her gf accidentally sit on her face too hard #hes like ouuuuhhghh....that was worth it. how long will it take to recover doc bc i wanna do it again :) #meanwhile. i think if that happened peppino would literally go into hiding. ur not finding him. #it would literally haunt him that he nearly killed this rat w his fat ass #as if this is not the way both gus and noise would like to go out. it would be peaceful for them i think #anyway #runs away cutely; see u in two weeks maybe

[little-pondhead]

DP Prompt:

After a long trip through the Realms under Clockwork’s orders, Danny arrives home and is startled to discover that he doesn’t remember how to speak English. Or any human language, for that matter.

#danny phantom #pondhead blurbs #emphasis on long #he was in the realms for a long time #like really deep in the realms #spirits that far in stop resembling humans in the slightest #it’s where old gods go to die #so he used ghost speech the entire time #gets home after who knows how long #he’s grown but the worst part is he doesn’t remember how to be human again #did he die while he was out on this mission? #will he ever regain his humanity? #will he even REMEMBER his friends and family? #not sure if this has been done before but I’m putting it out here anyways

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

What if yassified Howdy, but in the Lights Out AU? Would he be a pretty moth instead of a butterfly?

i like that moth idea, Yes. however, he'd promptly be (forcibly) Removed from the cast

moths like light a smidge too much. and Sally is a walking bug-zapper

#This Is Not Canon To The Au btw #or maybe it is. nah. hm. well. hm. #ill Think about it #moth howdy would be even fluffier than butterfly howdy. however i like butterfly him More <3 #but yeah anyway if howdy turned into a moth in the lights out au He'd Fuckin Die. Repeatedly #wally would run out of thread from how often he has to sew him back together #and then where would they be? well. howdy'd be in pieces. #wh lights out au #scribble salad #frank and wally would Not be able to stop howdy from getting himself torn to shreds lmfao #theyre too small <3 #see ive been considering the order in which the neighbors wake up #and i think howdy is second (after frank) For Funsies #im very unsure tho. thinking thinking Thinking #maybe.... frank - howdy - poppy - eddie - barnaby - julie? #maybe switch julie and barnaby... #hm... many Thoughts much Thinking many Factors to Consider

[canisalbus]

im so glad that vasco whisked machete away from everything (in denial) and took him to florence where they lived happily ever after (im denial) and im glad alonso wasnt ever mean to anyone (in denail) and and and (explodes) (this is a joke but also i wanted to say i love ur work and ur ocs :).)

;v;

You know, every now and then I think about that potential alternate ending, a scenario where things come close to falling apart but somehow the final blow is avoided, very narrowly. And maybe the bad times have taken their toll, they've changed for worse irrepairably and have to learn to live with themselves now, but it's comforting to think that there could be some light at the end of the tunnel for them, some kind of karmic reward. That after years of living on survival mode they get some peace and succeed in buying a little bit more time for themselves.

I've grown sappy and as much as I veer towards and appreciate good tragedy, sometimes it simply feels earned when characters somehow manage to save themselves and each other from a hopeless situation right at the end, even if it's a little cliche and unrealistic. It's nice to daydream about that.

It's just hard to figure out how that aforementioned whisking away could be arranged though. They're pretty backed into a corner as far as I'm concerned.

#technically I wouldn't even need it to be a long term happy ever after #just a minor extension so that Machete wouldn't have to die as a disgraced worn out husk in captivity #he can get a bad case of sniffles in Florence or whatever and pass away feeling cared for #answered #anonymous #Vaschete lore

[feelingtheaster99]

I just finished Fourth Wing and I realized that the reason that Xaden never really hated Violet is because he knew about her from her brother and already knew she was a good person and I want to CRY

#is it November yet #the fourth wing #violet sorrengail #xaden riorson #violet and xaden #brennan sorrengail #violet x xaden #like he heard about her from someone who loved her so deeply #gosh there was so much for Violet to process at the end there so quickly #I feel like I’m still processing it so I can’t even imagine how she must feel #to lose such a good friend who died defending your life but also after you just an arguement with #for your entire WORLD to tilt #as you realize your country that you put so much faith in has lied to you #and your love and your dragons were keeping it a secret for so long #and you almost die #and then you find out your brother is alive #and that must be so hard #because it was another painful secret #but also—he’s alive! #Jesus Christ that’s so much at once #fourth wing

[whetstonefires]

Hey here's an angle on the Jiang family dynamic and its impact on Wei Wuxian that I haven't seen discussed:

Wei Wuxian grew up seeing Jiang Yanli routinely having her agency cut off and denied in both large (betrothal) and small ways. That were largely tied up in her gender, sure, but this was also a family containing Yu Ziyuan. A daughter in this household had every chance of having her gender treated as of secondary importance.

She just had to earn it.

The way Jiang Yanli was hemmed in and her potential as an independent actor dismissed was at least as strongly correlated with her failure to be a powerful sword cultivator.

So Wei Wuxian's total refusal to let anyone know that he'd lost access to his cultivation and his violent reactivity against being diminished or condescended to during his Sunshot-to-death period, when before he was pretty immune to being looked down on, could have a lot to do with having been presented with this clearly labeled diagram of how your personhood gets stripped away when you are, by the standards of your society, disabled.

#hoc est meum #like jiang cheng's desire to die about it also has this #but he had some specific shame issues #and the realistic assessment that rebuilding his sect and getting revenge was now impractical #and his problem was never really feeling like his place in the world was actually going to be taken #just like he failed to deserve it #whereas wwx had his secrets to keep but even after he'd lived up to most of his obligations #during this period #and i think it's what he's so mad at himself about looking back #during the Empathy flashback #that he valued his pride and clinging to his status when it turned out #it did jack-all to help and he got everyone killed #(Present-Day wwx is not an objective source on himself lmao) #and this in turn is why in the present-time of the novel he's so willing to lean into the indignity of mo xuanyu #he now has nothing to lose and it's liberating #but during his march-toward-death era having any more of his self-respect and conceptual status stripped away was agony #because it felt like an unpersoning #and some of the disability angles around this come up in fandom sometimes but #the fact that he internalized the idea that not having this specific type of power means you lose your personal freedom looking at jyl #doesn't really #and i think she Very Much informed his relationship to #power gender disability and #marriage #mdzs #wei wuxian #jiang yanli

[the-gayest-sky-kid]

okay so. like. wan ed 12. dazai is stopped by a log in the river and starts actually drowning. funny haha wan bit.

but repeating something ive said (hi haven) i think this is actually a really good example for how ada dazai doesn't really want to kill himself. he could've actually drowned here. thats his 'goal' right? but the moment it starts happening he's trying to get his head back above water.

"I thought I was dead"

hilariously wet and horrified or not he obviously didn't want to die here. theres nobody around to hear what he said anymore anyway. and that's why, despite being yk... a wan ending animation? i still think this is such like. a case in point.

#i think its obvious from how unlikely to work his other attempts are in the ada #things like the oil drum or the mushrooms. asking woman to commit double suicide. all of that has such a low chance of working. its- #-humorous even. when he meets atsushi kunikida gets there shortly after. even if atsushi wasnt there he was DEFINITELY not planning on dying #anyway this is aether taking things too seriously and getting ill about it #im not saying ada dazai isnt still aiming to die we've all talked about the martyr behavior #but hes not really trying to die via suicide #anyway shout out to my bestest friend haven(-gum-rockrose) for sending me a song for the dazai playlist which made me ill and then prompted #me to find this clip later in the conversation #which then lead to me talking here #hurrah 🎉‼️ #longer post #theory time w/ aether #it's not actually i just want to find this later

[blueskittlesart]

cold fruit in a hot kitchen (so i had this great watermelon last weekend)

#so I had this great watermelon last weekend. and the thing is it probably wasn't even that great of a watermelon #but I was four hours into an eight hour shift and we had thrown out all the watermelon salad because no one was eating it #and then our manager ran in and yelled that the client really fucking wanted watermelon salad. #so like six of us servers started frantically chopping watermelon. and the kitchen got really hot #in the way it does when everyone inside it is really stressed because there's no fucking watermelon salad #and after we chopped all the watermelon and the client got their fucking watermelon we all had a moment #where we looked at the remaining watermelon and we were so hot and cocktail hour was almost over anyway and the salads were all plated #and we all went for the watermelon and we ate it with the kind of rabid intensity you only get while eating cold watermelon in a hot kitche #and it was the best watermelon I have ever tasted and several days later i am still chasing the high of that fucking watermelon #and the thing is i know it isn't even the watermelon i'm actually missing #it's the feeling of cool liquid on hot skin and the feeling of a crisis averted and the feeling of camaraderie #that comes with devouring a watermelon in a hot kitchen with six other people who you have nothing in common with except that watermelon. #i don't dream of labor but i am dreaming now of being 4 hours into an eight hour shift eating watermelon in a hot kitchen. #i dream of laughing around the cold fruit in my mouth. I crave that watermelon like i'll die without it. #< honest to god this is real and that watermelon left such an impact on me that i had to draw it and write this. having a normal one #maybe this is insane but working in a team of people you truly like to do something you actually enjoy is so underrated #if only they fucking paid me i could work as a server for the rest of my life. unironically #skribbles

[saetoru]

haven’t written in weeks and idk how to formulate words anymore but anyway before i log out again for the month here’s the in progress stuff coming for january

nerd! gojo fic

ex-convict! geto fic

gojo fix-it fic (i’m rewriting canon thank you 👍🏽)

#wow #i been so busy with final presentations for capstone #i haven’t even been able to read fanfic let alone write it #and then i read over a wip yesterday and i was like ??? how am i supposed to complete this idk how to write anymore #i’ll find a way #those ideas cannot die out they must see the light #anyway #i have a report to finish unfortunately </3 #see u all in january some time #maybe #all depends on if i put my thinking cap on and actually figure out how to put words together again after a month of illiteracy #byeeeeee for now

[scintillyyy]

also i think there's a tendency to cherrypick tim's moments of morally grey thought musings as a gotcha for the idea that tim is totally cool with murder and just one bad day away from shanking someone only kept in line by the "rules", when in reality. tim's thoughts of moral greyness, the ruminations on what they're doing and why they're doing it the way they do and why they can't cross the line they set. he's not. alone in that. like. at ALL. dick has reckoned with wanting to kill someone (sigh. the joker). dick lowkey didn't want to give someone a chance at redemption simply because he hurt bruce (bane). bruce has thought about killing (and almost killed) both the joker & black mask. bruce is very frequently ruminating on his role and why he can't kill even if he wants to. barbara has very seriously considered killing and has wanted to kill. cassandra has killed and used that as the basis of her staunch belief that nobody dies tonight, but she's also still in frequent conversation with what that means ethically and morally. tim having doubts or trying to remind himself why they do what they do or debating their rules to himself is not some grand outlying abnormality here, it's par for the fucking course.

#barbara almost headshotted black mask but tim made a joke about using guns he's clearly barely refraining from killing someone /s #sorry. just. it's like tim always gets called out for this in particular and he's not even the worst offender #this is fucking gun batman's fault isn't it. he's my worst enemy for a reason and the worst mistake ever #was bringing him back after the one stupid story like he's some kind of inevitability when the point #is that tim would genuinely rather die than become him. #don't talk to me about that guy (gun batman) i hate him #anyways the point is that they're all in conversation with themselves about why they do what they do #it's actually super important that they are! because it's very human to want to go against your morals if it seems easier #and the point is that it takes strength of character to make a conscious choice to do what you think is right #even when it's hard and it's the last thing you want to do

[lesbiradshaw]

If we get out of this alive, I’m gonna kill you myself.

#top ten favorite theo moment #i forget how nasty he is even in season 6. love to see it! #HES A GOOD MAN (he’s a little evil) #i like how two episodes after this he’s lecturing liam about not killing people #i wonder if liam ever found out theo killed schraeder 😭😭😭 or at least left him to die #mr ‘hes my responsibility’… at least that kill was deserved tho #theo raeken #cody christian #teen wolf #teen wolf season 6 #6.15 pressure test #tw flashing

[carefulfears]

sometimes i just want to cry over mulder’s fish and the way that we see both scully and doggett go to his apartment and feed them during the months he was missing and the fact that scully must have kept feeding them even months after he was dead and just to be loved so much that people come tend to your environment and keep your home and feed your fish long after you’re gone

and that the first thing he notices when he comes back is that one isn’t there. and how scully tried so hard, she tried so hard to find him and to keep him safe and to keep his work going and to keep those damn fish alive, and the first thing that he says to her when they walk back into that apartment is that one is missing

the way that in that scene, he says that he’s having trouble processing, that he doesn’t know where he fits in. you can be loved so much that multiple people come feed your fish and maintain your apartment after you’re buried in the ground, you can try so hard to keep everything going for someone else, but the world keeps spinning, and time goes on. fish die and baby bumps grow and answered prayers aren’t always miracles

he came back covered in scars to a clean apartment and a fish tank missing 1 molly and where does he fit in inside a world that hasn’t waited for him, no matter how hard she tried to make it stop

#nurse she’s rambling about the fish again #he loves those fucking fish #thinking about how they’re in scully’s apartment after he leaves in s9 #anyway i know it didn’t do things perfectly but i love ‘three words’ for this dynamic #she is SO pregnant in that scene and he has missed EVERY day of it #and she has a new partner and the fbi wants him out and what is there even for him to miraculously resurrect to #having this baby and solving x-files were things that she wanted to do with him #and as far as he knows she’s been doing fine alone and with her new partner #he doesn’t know that she wept on the floor of a hospital and slept clutching his shirt in his bed #that she had to be Ripped off of his corpse and that she watched that fish die and she couldn’t stop any of it #‘don’t quite have my legs under me yet’ indeed #txf.txt #three words