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#eri's health struggles
ahauntedcowboy · 3 months
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i always got annoyed because despite this being the third time i've had to wear a heart monitor, no one ever warned me how itchy it gets.
idk why but it took peeling the patch off my skin and seeing the nastiest looking rash to realize that it's not supposed to be itchy and i'm just allergic to the adhesive....
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deathmetalunicorn1 · 5 months
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Christmas Special with Eri!Reader? Reader is celebrating her very first Christmas Together with her large family, as she came in next to Odin wearing the cutest little Santa Outfit (With a lot of her family members squealing and cooing over how cute she is and taking a bunch of pictures) and Reader asks “I’m supposed to say… Trick or Treat?” (Everyone fell to the ground from having heart attacks)
Thor tells her ‘Not quite… Wrong Holiday’ and she keeps getting it wrong, as she gifts Shiva some eggs she painted and telling everyone ‘In sickness and in health’ as she throws some rice (She’s wrong again, but no one is chastising her for it, rather they find it precious)
Zerofuku excitedly and rapidly told Reader all in one go about all the types of Holidays and Celebrations, resulting in her getting them mixed up
How does everyone react to Reader’s gift being a gigantic toy sword (She’s holding it up and smiling excitedly at her Big Brother Thor because now they match! (This makes Loki and other relatives *The men* a little jealous because she’s not trying to match with them!)
Reader calls Loki who’s wearing an Elf Outfit a ‘Leprechaun’ (Making some of her family members cackle and try to keep in their snickers) which Loki is sulking in the corner, but Reader hugs him, making him instantly feel better
Reader’s in awe of meeting ‘Santa’ (Zeus dressed as Santa) as she gifts him the Cookies she made with Mama Eve (Everyone is taking pictures)
-It was your first-time celebrating Christmas with your new family- it was your first time celebrating it period and everyone was excited, wanting to make it extra special for you.
-When Loki entered, wearing an elf costume, “We’re here!” eyes quickly turned, seeing you dressed up in the cutest little Santa dress, peeking out from behind Loki, “I’m supposed to say trick or treat, right?”
-Instant heart attacks from cuteness had several of your family members collapsing to the floor as Thor came over, giving you a soft smile, ruffling your hair gently, “Wrong holiday.”
-It was so cute how you kept mixing up the holidays, mainly because Zerofuku had confused you after he had told you about all the different holidays, as he wanted to share the joy of all of them with you.
-Everyone thought it was cute, not having the heart to correct you, as you seemed so happy handing Shiva some painted eggs you had made with Loki and Buddha before tossing rice around, “In sickness and in health.”
-Apollo held you on his lap after you have him some chocolate hearts, “You look so cute dressed up like the Y/N- you match with Loki!”
-You looked up, a bit confused, “Does Santa and a leprechaun match?” Roaring laughter took over the room as Loki couldn’t help but pout lightly, he was an elf- not a leprechaun!
-You presented your present for the gift exchange: a stuffed Santa bear Loki helped you pick out that was almost as big as you were- you looked so adorable!
-Everyone was gawking only moments later as you were holding a giant toy sword, your prize in the gift exchange, but instead of looking scared or upset, you were smiling, looking up at Thor, who had been the one to bring it, “Now I match with you!”
-That wasn’t fair! The others all wanted to match with you!
-“Ho-ho-ho!!” you flinched at the loud voice before you turned, seeing Santa himself, not realizing it was Zeus dressed up and your eyes went sparkly, “It’s Santa!”
-Round two of cuteness related heart attacks!
-You were a little shy approaching him, not knowing him, which everyone thought was adorable as you were holding a bag of cookies you had made with Eve, as Eve had told you that Santa loves cookies.
-Zeus was struggling not to keel over from cuteness when you gifted him the cookies before he picked you up, asking you what you wanted for Christmas, “I want to celebrate like this with everyone all the time.”
-Oh sweet sprinkles you were too precious! You were going to kill all of them as everyone was quickly cheering, promising you that they would always celebrate with you, making you smile warmly, it’s all you ever wanted- to see everyone happy too!
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readychilledwine · 8 months
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Early Mornings
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A/N - Happy Surprise Saturday, my loves ❤️ I've had Azriel pieces, an Eris piece, a Rhys piece, and a little love for our baby bat, and it only felt right to ensure our favorite General had sometime to shine. Enjoy this grumpy/sunshine or orange cat bf/Doberman gf piece.
Cassian and his mate are well matched in almost every sense. He's a powerful Illyrian general, she is the last of the Valkyries. He loves their family, she is devoted to them. The only thing they never seem to agree on is mornings.
Warnings- Swearing, mentions of alcoholism and mental health struggles, mentions of trauma, alludes to interesting behaviors between Nesta and our unnamed female oc, unedited by an outside source
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Cassian stood in front of the coffee maker. His arms were crossed as he watched each drop of liquid fall into the pot he was brewing for his mate, himself, and the two other fae living in the house. His mate finally entered the kitchen, flipping him off as he offered her a smile before sitting down.
Cassian adored mornings. He loved watching the sun as it began its ascend over the mountains. He loved the crisp chilled air. He loved breakfast. The sound of the birds greeting each other at first light. His mate, however, adored their nightlife. She was the last to rise out of bed. The last to leave the table at Rita's with Mor. The last to head to bed. She loved dinners, the stars reflecting on the Sindra. She loved the way music felt in her bones as she danced into the early morning. She loved quiet walks home with her heels in her hand after Cassian would inevitably show back up to retrieve her. She worshiped the moon, and he, the sun.
The one thing the two truly shared in common though, was their love and need for coffee. Cass was approachable before his first cup, chipper even. He glanced over his shoulder where his mate sat, her wings wrapped tight around her. Her hands held her head. Her long dark hair was falling over her shoulders. "Almost done, babe."
"Fuck. Off." His mate? Not so much. He chuckled lightly at her response before grabbing their matching coffee mugs. "Why the fuck did you wake me up?"
"You promised me you would go on a morning run with me. Remember? Setting an example for the females? Helping them by seeing one of their own training? Helping Nesta see-" She groaned loudly, rubbing her temples. "I'm sorry baby, I'll be quiet until coffee is done." He leaned across the counter, kissing her forehead.
His heart melted at her smile, it didn't reach her hazel eyes yet, but he knew it would only take a few more kisses and some coffee to change that. "Why are we being quiet?" Cassian laughed as his mate turned, grabbing the nearest object to her before throwing it at a laughing Azriel. "Awe sis! Are you grumpy this morning?"
"Go shovel pig shit, Azriel." His brother moved behind her, kissing the top of her head with a soft "good morning" while rubbing her back lightly. "Why the fuck are you two always so happy in the morning?"
Azriel shrugged. "We go to bed at a decent time."
Cassian nodded. "We are used to early morning routines."
Azriel continued. "We don't drink until we black out. Anymore."
"Training in the morning starts the day right."
"Training in the morning is eas-"
"Shut. The. Fuck. Up." Cassian and Azriel laughed quietly. "Where is my coffee?"
"Just finished, beautiful." Cassian was pouring the hot liquid into the third cup a shadow had handed him, giving it to Azriel. Then he filled his mate's and his own. "Sugar or cream, sweetheart?"
"Both, please?" Cassian nodded, fixing her coffee to her liking, before moving to sit next to her. "I love you," she whispered to him before kissing his jawline. "How long is the run?"
"Only 5 miles," Azriel said softly. "We cut in half after you decided to drink half the camp under the table last night. Wonderful job stealing Devlon's most expensive whiskey, by the way." A smirk graced his face as he peeked at her. "Has anyone dragged Nesta out of bed yet? Is she getting ready?"
The illyrian female rolled her eyes before looking at the pot with 4 cups of the morning magic still resting for the oldest sister. Her head leaned to rest on Cassian's shoulder. "I haven't tried yet, and we'd know if Cassian did. If you think I'm grumpy in the morning, Azriel, have you tried speaking to her in the mornings? She puts me to shame. You should go try. She likes your pretty face after all." She was sniffing her coffee, waiting for it to cool down with a small smile on her face.
Azriel took a long drink of his coffee, nose scrunching from the bitter taste. "No. That's your job. She actually likes you more."
He took her mug, a very quiet "oh fuck," came from Cassian's direction. He backed away from his brother and mate. "Fight fire with fire. Get at it." He forced her out of the chair, smacking her on the ass as he pointed up the stairs. "Go on. Earn your coffee by doing something other than my brother."
"Fuck. You. Cassian, get my coffee back." The General looked between his mate and brother. "Babe!" Cassian just shook his head and inclined it towards the stairs.
"Get Nesta up and I will get you your coffee back." He knew deep down his mate would be the perfect weapon against Nesta. He and his high Lady's sister had butted heads since she had been made and even before then. Az cared for Nesta, but his patience with the female only went so far. His mate's no bullshit, no prisoners attitude seemed to be one Nesta respected. The two got along really well.
Almost too well at times.
He'd find her and Nesta cuddled on the couches in the House, Nesta between her legs with her back against her chest, a blanket thrown over both of them as Nesta read romances and his love read thrillers or reports.
He would find them giggling in the library, his mate holding Nesta's face in her hands. She'd be whispering to Ness, whose face would be flushed, while she smirked at her. Their bodies would be close together. Nesta's hands would stay locked on his mate's hips.
He even found Nesta in their room once, waiting on their bed, staring at his wife's body while she was finishing her makeup. Just to tease Nesta, he had walked behind his mate, slowly lifting the hem of her short dress while staring at the oldest sister. His mate had stopped him quickly, but not before he watched Nesta pull her lower lip between her teeth.
The final sign that his hound of a mate liked the Archeron happened just yesterday morning. She had made Nesta coffee and breakfast, something she only did for him and his brothers. They were speaking to each other quietly, not realizing he and Az were watching. She had pulled out her special mug, the one Rhys had paid good money to have made for her, and given it to Nesta so she could tuck one of her cold hands into the little nook built into the stoneware while his mate held the other one.
He knew something was brewing between the two of them, and Cassian was more than happy to just watch through the bond, or in person, when it finally happened. He sighed softly. "You might be the only one able to get her down here and on that trail."
"You are joking, right? Nesta is a grown female. She is allowed to make her own choices and heal at her pace. You-" he cut her off with a kiss. She leaned into him with a soft hum. He couldn't tell if it was due to the bond or just due to the lingering taste of coffee on his lips.
"Go." He kissed her gently again. "We just have to get her training babe. Rhys is-"
"I know. I know how he is. This isn't his first go round with a female who is… like that." Cassian flinched at the reminder. His mind flashed back to the screaming matches between his mate and Rhysand after the first war. The journey she had undergone to heal was ugly, rough, and long. But the 4 of them had gotten through it together after she had overdrafted an account by close to 1000 gold marks.
Rhys had wanted to kill her, but what she had overdraft the account on was the ultimate sign she needed help and was silently crying out for it. The only way she knew how. Her pride ran deep due to her independence as an Illyrian and a female. The only daughter and first grand daughter of a long line of camp Lords who were forward enough to see value in their girls and ban clipping.
The oldest sister of 5 brothers who looked up to her and followed her guidance. An oldest sister who felt she failed those brothers as she found them dead one by one on the battlefield.
Leader of the valkyries. All of whom she also felt she failed as she watched them all slaughtered. She was the last of her kind, at least for now, and that had ate at her. It spun itself into guilt, addiction, rage.
Cassian and Azriel both remembered Rhys sitting her down in his office as they blocked the doorways. They remember her just silently nodding as Rhysand lectured her, having calmed down significantly when he realized she was so impaired that she wouldn't remember a single thing. They remembered her crying and Rhysand moving to hold her.
Azriel finally broke the trace the three had fallen into. "The only difference is you accepted help. You let all of us help you heal, get you new hobbies, and teach you how to safely partake in activities with us. The only sign of your issues you still have is how big of a bitch you are in the mornings and how you are literally Mor's "scary dog privilege," whatever the fuck that means, when she wants to stay out too late," Azriel mumbled. "I think Nesta wants help deep down. I just think she is too scared to face what getting help means and what she will have to face."
Cassian watched as his mate sighed and nodded. "There's a lot of trauma there. I was over 200 years old, Az. She's barely in her 20s."
"I know."
"Then be kinder." The two had a stare off, beginning a silent fight between the spymaster and the last Valkyrie.
Cassian grabbed her chin to refocus her, chuckling at the glare and sleepiness still in her eyes. "Get her out of bed and on the training field, and I will reward you later."
Azriel rolled his eyes as her wings fluttered, attitude suddenly leaving her body, and she leaned into Cassian, their noses touching. "What kind of reward?"
Cassian smirked down at her. "Whatever my sweetheart would want."
His mate smirked, shutting her eyes softly as he leaned his forehead against hers. "Even if it's just coffee?"
He nodded, kissing her forehead. "Even if it's just coffee."
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danikamariewrites · 10 months
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Cassian x adhd!reader
A/n: I wanted to see where my thoughts on Cass with this concept would take me plus I realized I haven’t written anything for him yet oops. I also kinda got carried away with this one. Should I finish the trio and do one for Rhys (and possibly one for Eris👀)? My requests are still open!
Warnings: some angst and mentions of mental health struggles
Cassian is really good at reading people and telling when there’s something wrong (like in ACOMAF when he was first training Feyre he just let her punch it out and she finally talked)
You would mask it for the first few months of your relationship but he picked up on your ADHD when you first met
He knew you would come to him when you were ready to talk about it
And when you did talk to him about your ADHD he was so understanding. Cass wants to learn everything about you, including how your brain works
If he had questions you couldn’t answer he’d do his own research in the library or ask Madja a million questions about how to help you
Cassian could always tell when you zoned out or when you were in your own little world. When trying to get your attention he was always gentle about it
Whenever you were sitting still for too long doing work and needed a break he will always stop what he’s doing to be with you, if you want him to be. He would go on walks with you, let you pace around and talk at him, mini dance parties, or even take you to spar for a bit.
There were times when you thought your ADHD had its perks because sweet, wholesome moments just between you and Cassian would come from it
For example after he was coming home from Windhaven you guys were going to go away for the weekend to the cabin in the mountains and you had to find your duffel bag
You swore it was in the walk-in closet you and Cass shared so you started digging through the piles and shelves looking for the bag
But of course you get sidetracked, you found Cassians favorite hoodie that had been missing (it wasn’t actually missing you wore it while he was gone once and then hid it you just forgot where it was)
You put the hoodie on and then other piles of forgotten stuff grabs your attention and you start digging through everything in the closet making a mess
There’s a skirt Feyre gave you with the tag still on that you put on over your leggings, you put things in piles, and then you found a box of jewelry Cassian never wears. One thing in it is a bracelet with a broken clasp so you sit down on the floor between the piles of stuff and attempt to fix it
You didn’t hear the front door open or Cassian calling your name. When you finally noticed him he was standing in the doorway laughing, “Hey baby, find your bag?” Your cheeks got hot as he made his way into the closet sitting with you
“Find anything interesting?” “Yeah a few things. That pile over there is pretty cool.” He finds your collection of headbands and puts one on
After an hour you fixed the clasp and your both wearing random shit you found. You look at each other and laugh at how ridiculous you look. Sighing your shoulders slump, “I still need to find my bag and pack. Sorry Cass I dragged you into my crazy distraction.” Cassian looks at you with a questioning smile, “you don’t need to be sorry baby. Plus I found your bag,” he pulls the duffel from behind him, “like 20 minutes after I got here. I just thought we were having fun.”
You jump into his lap wrapping your arms around his neck tightly “I love you Cass.” He kisses your forehead and then all the way down to your nose, “I love you too baby.” Then plants a kiss on your mouth
But there are also the bad/frustrating moments
One time you were cleaning up around the house and misplaced an important document Cassian needed to give to Rhys but you couldn’t remember where it was or if you put in his office
You were trying to retrace your steps and could tell Cassian was getting frustrated. You were apologizing profusely, you didn’t realize the document was part of the stuff you were organizing
He snaps at you. You knew in the back of your mind he was mad about the paper and not at you. But you had a hard time separating that especially when regulating your emotions at the same time
Your eyes started to water and your bottom lip trembled. As soon as he saw your face and the tears fall he instantly regretted yelling.
He rushed over to you, pulling you into a tight hug and cradling your head to his chest swaying you back and forth slowly. “I’m sorry baby I didn’t mean to snap, I’m not mad at you I swear.” You stand like that for a few moments, “I know Cass I just feel like it’s my fault and I can never remember things I’m sorry.”
Cassian pulls back to look at you, “you have nothing to be sorry for. It happens sometimes, we all misplace things. It’ll be fine I promise.”
When you’re fidgeting or having a hard time sitting still he’d hold your hand. Sometimes you would just hold his hand or squeeze and you’d be fine, the weight of his large hand comforting you
Other times you would play with his fingers or trace shapes on his palm. Sometimes you’d even tap at the bright red siphon on the back of his hand, you’d stare at it getting lost in its glow and how beautiful it is
When you get over stimulated at home he takes away whatever is bothering you and rubs up and down your arms, “you ok baby? What can I do to help?” You just lean your forehead against his chest and stay silent, trying to breathe in and out
Once your better you cuddle up to Cassian in bed
If you guys are out with the IC he would take you outside for fresh air and wrap a wing around you to show that you’re safe
If you seem like you’re going to have an anxiety attack he lets you squeeze his hands and he talks you through it, “it’s going to be ok, just take deep breaths baby, in and out.” He breathes with you
When you are ok enough he takes you in his arms to fly you home. He does a lap over the city first so you can enjoy the view and get lost in its beauty
tags: @auggiesolovey @bubybubsters @baybay123455 @msiecrane
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honeybeefae · 7 months
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Long Overdue
Hey everyone! Radio silence from me again for the last few weeks and I’m so sorry. It was an absence I wasn’t expecting but also was absolutely needed.
I saw each of your messages, tags, submissions, and I want you to know that first of all I’m sorry for the worry I’ve caused but secondly, and most importantly, how thankful I am for each and every one of you.
I won’t go into heavy details but a brief explanation is definitely needed and I want you all to know what’s happening. I feel like we as a society don’t speak about postpartum depression/psychosis/anxiety well enough and it can be so, so isolating. I was in a personal hell every day of my life, and trust me there are many days where I still am struggling, but I’m slowly getting myself right again.
I was able to take myself with the help and support of my family to a facility where I was admitted as an inpatient for these issues. It was not what I wanted but it was what I needed. I have just recently come out the other side and while of course I will still be attending rigorous outpatient therapy and counseling, I am so glad to be at home.
I missed my family, my kids, my bed, and this community. I truly, truly missed you all so much more than you know. While I am still not fully back as I am focusing on my health for awhile, I want you all to know I have not disappeared or gone AWOL.
(As much as it would be amazing to disappear…preferably with a roguishly handsome red haired fae man named Eris…)
You guys are way too important and mean way too much for me to just leave behind. I love you guys. ❤️
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ivy-diaries · 1 year
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( 🍂 ) . . . — IVY JENNIFER JAMES , better known as IVY, is a korean-australian artist under BIGHIT ENTERTAINMENT. she's the only female soloist of HYBE Labels.
( 🪷 ) . . . — BASICS !
BIRTH NAME : Ivy Jennifer James
KOREAN NAME : Kang Jihye ( hangul: 강지혜 )
NICKNAMES : i ( pronounced eye ), marie, vy ( pronounced like the letter v ), Jen, jenjen, jenny, angel, nation's sweetheart
BIRTHDAY : 3 march, 2000
BIRTH PLACE : newcastle, australia
ZODIAC SIGN : pisces
NATIONALITY : australian
ETHNICITY : korean
FAMILY : parents ( 1980 ), one older brother ( 1999 ), twin sister, younger twin siblings ( 2015 )
LANGUAGES : Korean, English (fluent) ; Japanese, mandarin (conversational) ; French, Greek (beginner) ; hindi, filipino, thai (learning)
( 🌠 ) . . . — BODY !
HEIGHT : 174 cm (5’7″)
BLOOD TYPE : B+
BODY MODIFICATION : seven piercings on both ears, nine tattoos on her body.
FACE CLAIM : huh yunjin ( le sserafim )
( 🪼 ) . . . — PERSONALITY !
STRENGTHS : kind, empathetic, funny, considering, dedication
FLAWS : overthinking, short temper, anxiety, self doubt, perfectionist
( 🪸 ) . . . — MEMBER'S INFO. !
STAGE NAME : IVY
AGENCIES : bighit Entertainment ( 2011 - 2023 ) ; enca labels ( 2023 - present )
TRAINING PERIOD : 2 years and 8 months
DEBUT DATE : 20 August 2014
OCCUPATION(S) : singer, dancer, model, actress, composer, lyricist, producer
FANDOM : soleil(s)
REPRESENTATIVE EMOJI : 🫧
( 🪐 ) . . . — MISC. INFO !
dramas : the bride of haebak, hotel del'luna, welcome to waikiki 2, 18 again, true beauty, vincenzo, so not worth it, hometown cha cha cha, business proposal, sh**ting star, dr romantic 2&3, king the land.
twitter : ivy_official / poison_ivy
private twitter : prodby.jen
instagram : ivy.official / poison.ivy
youtube : ivy official / poisonivy
( 🪻 ) . . . — MISC. TRIVIA !
ivy has always been interested in studies and has been a straight a student her whole life and when asked what she'd do when she'll retire from the industry, she said she'll like to get back to school!
in 2020, it was announced that ivy and txt member yeonjun were dating and the news shook the whole industry. because the couple made it seem like they were just friends!
ivy's bffs in the industry who always have her back include inka from skz, lua from ateez, haewon from mask, eris and many more idols who she absolutely loves and would give them the world for them.
she is thick as thiefs with the rest of txt and absolutely vibes with beomgyu. her, taehyun and ruby are gym buddies and often have competitions to see who has the bigger muscles and stuff.
she has a twin sister and an older brother whom she absolutel loves and would die for. and a few years ago, the james family welcomed their new addition to the family! twin siblings lily and nathen!! the twins are about seven years now and are adored by everyone.
while her korean name used to be the same as her stage name, she officially changed it summer of 2021 to kang jihye to honor her late grandmother who always wanted her to have that name.
the death of her grandma had taken a toll on her physical and mental health and she had to be on medical attention for a few months because of her depression and anorexia problems.
eversince that incident and her hiatus, she has been pretty vocal about her struggles with body image issues and her ed. she has been a spokesperson for the said reasons ever since!
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bunnitenshi · 1 year
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Astro observations of my ex 💀🤡
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(I make that face in the pic everytime I think of him)
★ his Sappho is in Taurus… and yes, he is very attractive somehow. 💀💀💀
★ He is very spiritual, and his Eris is in 9h. Adds up. He meditates and went on a church mission to Germany years ago.
★ An ideal career for his sun sign, Taurus, is an interior designer. He has expressed a deep desire to become one. Initially, he wanted to be a doctor.
★ He has Pluto in Scorpio, and he used to struggle a lot with his bipolar disorder and dark urges. Hyper-sexuality, drug use, and even an arrest are among the things he’s experienced.
★ He has Chiron in 1h, which could also reflect his life-long struggles with his mental health
★ He has Uranus in 6h, and he says he has helped managed his bipolar disorder with a diet regimen.
★ He has Venus in Gemini, and he ended our in-person relationship years ago by flaking and ghosting me one night. People with this placement have a tendency to do this.
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pencil-peach · 6 months
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G Witch Onscreen Text: Episode 15
Greetings and salutations everyone! This is part 16 of my attempt to transcribe and discuss all the onscreen text in G Witch, and along the way we document and discuss various interesting things. We're on episode 15: "Father and Child"
&lt;< Click here to go back to Episode 14 Or click here to go to the Masterpost!
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Our first real look at Earth...shall we begin?
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One of the first shots we get are various posters outlining health rules and guidelines to follow, most likely pinned up in a doctor's office. Some of the text is covered up, but from left to right, to the best of my ability: (* will denote when I am making my best assumption based on the visible text.)
*General healthcare support evaluation: 10:00 to 17:00 17:00 to 21:00 (15:00 on Sundays)
Water supply: 2 liters per person *Restorations of water supply system underway but supply restrictions are still in place.
Save your food, save the Earth Saving energy for a swift victory
Food ration: 1500 kilo calories daily per person
Infections Infectious disease prevention measures: Wash your hands Get enough sleep Consult a doctor
The struggle of the Earthians in this camp are very clear, considering that 2 liters of water and 1500 calories a day are below the minimum healthy amount for an adult. Infectious disease is also a huge problem in a world without more advanced medicine.
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When Naji is talking to the doctor, he hands him a container of cartridges, saying he has refills. We never see what they're for, but their general shape and coloring is similar to the cartridges Elnora swaps in and out of her GUND arm prosthetic when it stops working in the prologue. That's not to say Olcott's arm is also a GUND prosthetic, but that it might similarly need to replenish its energy source. (Considering it emits a dull whine when Olcott uses it sometimes, I wouldn't doubt it needs external power.)
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Somewhat more interestingly, we get a glimpse at what the doctor has opened on his monitor through the gap in Olcott's arm. It's incredibly hard to read, and we never see the full picture, but here's what I could manage
EXPLANATION OF SYMPTOMS FOR [???]... [DESCRIPTION] OF PAIN -[...] UPPER BODY
[...??] SYMPTOMS -[...PLING] THROUGH BODY OVER A PERIOD OF TIME
DECREASED MOBILITY SLEEP DISORDERS DECREASED COGNITIVE ABILITIES LONG-TERM TREATMENT PLAN NEUROTHERAPEUTIC INJECTIONS PERMET REMOVAL SURGERY
PATIENTS WITH PREEXISTING VISION IMPAIRMENTS REQUIRE MONITORING OF NEUROLOGICAL FUNCTIONS.
On the monitor, we see a list of symptoms and treatments for what appears to be a long term Permet-induced injury. This is pretty interesting info, as we never really get a look into how Permet based illnesses are actually treated in universe. (Other than Prospera's helmet but we'll talk about that later). I'm really interested in what "Permet Removal Surgery" entails! (Neurotherapeutic Injections are something that exist in real life but it's considered a pseudoscience. I don't think that fact applies to its use in the show, however.)
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They don't show up after this initial scene, but Seethia seems to have a baby sibling, or was at least watching over one during this scene. (Don't worry, she didn't bring them with her when the building collapsed, they're fine.)
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Episode 15 gives us our first change to the intro. In episode 13 - 14, Eri appears as a vague apparition in this shot, but after the reveal that she is in fact within Aerial, we see her fully rendered.
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Speaking of the intro, it probably goes without saying, but this scene in the intro is more likely to be of Eri and Elnora, not Suletta. The door in the background has the same design as the ones on Vanadis, and its general layout resembles that of this corner in the Samaya's room. (The door, and then the shelf immediately to its left, the picture frame and the indented portion of the wall above it.)
It's not perfectly 1-1 but, yknow! (I really have a problem...)
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Because Nika and Miorine appear in this episode, they're the only two characters in the show who appear at some point in every single episode of the series. (Other than the prologue, obviously)
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In this scene where the Group's security forces are flying out over earth, they're riding these glider things. For some reason, these specific machines are shown off on the official website, so we know its name: TICKBALANG, and we know that they're produced by Peil. I wondered if it was maybe just a tradition of GUNDAM series to have TICKBALANG, like Haro, but no I guess they were just really proud of it. It even has its own gunpla kit...
(Oh, and its name is taken from a werehorse creature from Philippine folklore.)
The two mobile suits we see used in this attack on the DOF are the Zowort Heavy, a Peil suit, and the Heindree Sturm, a Grassley suit. Despite this attack being decided by the board, there's a distinct lack of Jeturk suits.
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The plushies the kids place around Sophie's grave are ones from her collection that she left on Earth.
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When the Benerit Force pilots are communicating with each other, they use "Zulu" as their codenames. This is a reference to the Zulu line of mobile suits introduced in Gundam Unicorn.
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As the building collapses on them, Olcott brings his hands up to protect his head and neck, but Guel rushes forward to try and protect Sedo and Seethia.
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TEXT PLANT QUETTA INCIDENT SUSPECT LIST
OLCOTT [Real Name Unknown] Affiliation: Dawn of Fold Place of birth: Unknown Educational Background: Unknown Spouse: Unknown
COMINT REPORT Olcott was involved in the attack on Plant Quetta from the beginning of the plan. He is believed to have planned an attack targeting Spacians, including bombing of MS plants and offices, and assassination of key personnel. During the incident, as pilot of a 'Desultor' MS thought to have been captured from the Jeturk company (acquisition route is under investigation), he led an MS team that attacked the President of the Benerit group. Though the assassination attempt on the President ended in failure, his team killed more than 20 employees, including the CEO of the Jeturk company.
Believed to have been involved in these past incidents:
-Bombing of Benerit Group northern hemisphere Earth headquarters -Mediterranean space shuttle attack -Shooting of Global Security president -Occupation of Pacific Ocean mine
The suspect report we see Kenanji read, that discusses Olcott's participation and past crimes in regards to the Plant Quetta attack. We also learn that Kenanji knew him, his real name is Ridrick Kruger, and he was formerly a member of Dominicus. He always followed his own ideals of justice, but he and his family were attacked by Earthians anyway. After losing them, he discarded his past, but still allies himself with the Earthians anyway, because he still believes they're right.
We also see how much of a stranglehold Spacians and the Group still have on Earth and its resources, seeing the wide range of institutions and locations he's attacked with the DOF.
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Olcott's journey throughout the episode is based in his memories of the moment that changed his life, the one he rejects, and how removing himself from it has affected his memory of what really happened. First, he remembers seeing his son cry out for his help, before being engulfed in flame. (Left) Then he remembers struggling to reach out to his unconscious body before it fades out to the view of his mobile suit (RIght)
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But after hearing why Guel tried to hard to save Seethia, Olcott remembers what really, truly happened. He tried to reach out and his son didn't look scared, he smiled at him, convinced that his dad was going to save him.
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And instead of reacting with indifference or rage as he does in the earlier memories, he clutches his arm, a sign that this isn't a fabricated memory he uses to reject his past, but what really truly happened, and still brings him pain.
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I really like this scene with Rajan, and how his relationship with Delling compares to Godoy's with Prospera. Rajan has known Delling for decades, and is staunchly loyal to him. He believes in his and Notrette's ideals for a better world, and will support him in his endeavors no matter what. But with what he tells Miorine at the end here, and his reaction when he finds out that she's taking his place, it's really clear that he thinks Quiet Zero is a terrible idea.
I also like that ultimately he wants what's best for Miorine. In a lot of ways he's consistently more involved in her wellbeing than Delling is.
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Oh, I might as well point this out now: The season 1 "Next Episode Title" bumpers use this red patterned backdrop, mimicking the GUND Format lights on Aerial's chest when it activates, but in Season 2, it uses a more elaborate blue pattern instead, reminiscent of REBUILD's lights after it reaches Score 8.
Alright! That's all from me. Unless...
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GUEL JUMPSCARE. Without the guiding hand of his father, he's decided to devote himself to protecting the things he has left. He won't run any longer. Not from his sins, or the future. Welcome back, Guel.
Click here to escape to episode 16 >> Click here to go to the Masterpost!
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alchemistdetective · 8 months
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-- Amber Gibberish Notes, to be formatted someday (tm)--
Battle Strategy Guide against Amber's characters:
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Chloe Netherhorn:
When alone, tends to mostly throw bombs and attacks with her hatchet up close
With party, she mostly becomes support duty, buffing her allies and throwing acid puddles and bombs to enemy field, limiting their movement
Nearly hopeless against Gensokyo flight or open areas due to flight
EXTREMELY potent on indoor areas like caves
Not very experienced in battle, she's more of a 'find distraction and flee' kind of person
No spell cards nor danmaku knowledge, so youkai usually can have her way with her, so she usually does the escape option
Any battle techniques she got from Eri? He definitely gave her a few tips on surviving
Smoke bomb for escape maybe?
Key to beating her is catching her split from the party, she's really easy to beat alone unless you happened to be taken by surprise by one of her bombs
Her bombs cover a LARGE area but they take a while to light and throw
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Crescent:
Fairy but does not like dying
Always flying, quite fast, always using her guns to shoot from afar
Not as fast as Tengu, a bit slower than Marisa
Reimu speed? Definitely not as fast as Tengu
Not very good at close range, always tries to find a way out
in fighting game context this is like her spamming ranged attacks at the corner and then does a knockback if you get too close
Opposite of Chloe, amazing in open fields, struggles hard in caves or small areas
Physical strength is lower than human so hard to break free if someone grapples her
Able to set flame mines on the field, controls area in the sky on where enemy can fly
Uses fairy charm against first time fighters, make people drop their guard before she go pew pew
Talks about killing but doesn't really kill, alot of threats though, Helia always makes fun of her for this
Beating her would be to limit the area where she can fly, and trap her until she gives up
You do not want to KILL her, you want to TRAP her. Killing her will just trigger her respawn, making you fight her again from 'full health'
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Anna:
bitch
Her partner's gone so her battle techniques kind of have to adapt as well
Contrary to behavior, she's more of the defensive style than offensive
Quite quick as you expect from a kasha. Doesn't hit hard but able to dodge very well
Counter style, provokes enemy, then strikes a counter back at them (Something like Fragarach from Fate, Bazette)
parry parry parry parry
Fights with fists and black magic, mostly a medium-ranged fighter
I guess you can call her a dodge-counter type of fighter, where you parry at the right time then she strikes your weak points
The more frustrated you get with her, the more she excels in using that against you, returning your strength two-fold
Tends to look down at her opponents somewhat if they're from Gensokyo, with the exception of a few people (Yukari, Ran, Reimu, etc.)
Key to beating her is ignore her provokations and fight steadily and slowly, make her come to you instead of you coming to her
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Modern Eri/Fuyuki:
die lol
no really what do you think he's going to do
sing???
TELLETUBBIESSSS
TINKY WINKYYYYY
DIPSYYYYY
LAALAAAAA
POOOOOO
DORAEMON DISPENSE THE HOPTERS
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Rirune:
why is this boy so complicated
amber how are you even going to explain him to people so they'll even understand instead of 'lost in gnesokyo with sword'
look just try to simplify it so it's clear and people would understand I guess ljsahgjl
uhh
in teams, he's in support role, using Mayune as cover fire or Hakune as a shield for people to get in
He switches between Hakune and Mayune during battle, Hakune is great for close range, Mayune is long ranged
No he can't change the battlefield around him in the middle of battle, he's only three-tailed kitsune, so please stick with making illusion people
Rirune usually hangs back and his illusions cover him, he may or may not be casting spells like fire/blizzard/thunder
To beat him, 'break' his illusions, he'll be open by then and he has to recover his magic back, and he'll be no different from a BLM with no MP and he has to sing kumbaya until his magic comes back
Rirune even tries to protect his illusions by standing in the way, he doesn't like seeing Mayune or Hakune injured, stupid boy
in the jungle the mighty jungle the lioonn sleeps tonighttt
Physical attacks won't work, it has to be magic because... illusions weaved from magic
seriously how is anyone even going to remember all this
Rirune Shapeshifting Mode:
HAHAHAHAHAHA BUT WAIT THERE'S MOREEEE
Can shapeshift but I don't think he'll do that if it's a friendly spar, turning into their loved ones (Like Eri turning to Alice before Ran's Reimu is a BIG no)
Maybe if he wants to do a mirror match like Sakuya vs Sakuya???
When shapeshifted, he uses his illusions to make people think like he's using their abilities when it's all just an illusion to make them think he's using them
If he turns into Alice, he'll make it look like he's summoning her dolls, and even carpet bombing the area, but they're not really 'real' explosions but 'magic' explosions instead
I guess it's great because danmaku is not supposed to fatally wound anyway and he comes from Gensokyo
... actually he's really good in impersonating others in battle but it's use is so limited though
He'll definitely be able to battle '''perfectly''' as Yukari, Seiga, Alice, Orin and Satori
When I say 'perfectly', it'll look as if he can perfectly fight 'as' them in battle, compared to say, Flandre with her boom powers and Sakuya with time stop
I guess he can pretend he's Sakuya with replicating throwing a thousand knives but timestop is definitely no
Does he act OOC when trying to taunt his enemy in 'mirror matches'? For example, doing a sexy pose as Alice with a wink and stuff to make her attack him?
holy crap please talk plainly
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redbleedingrose · 1 year
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I just have to say that you are not alone!! I’m 23 and not only have I never been in a relationship, but I’ve never even been on a date.
It is def a struggle and absolutely takes a toll on your mental health. I think we live in a society that values relationship status a lot, especially for people who are young. I remember all the times I heard about the average age to first have sex being 16, while I haven't even held a guy's hand yet.
I think that society then judges girls who haven't been a relationship by then, but also if you have been in a relationship you get judged. Anyway, just a super patriarchal society we live in and it's absolutely sad.
I am glad to know that I am not alone. And I know that when the time is right, we will find guys (or girls, whichever you prefer) that will love us exactly the way we are and will worship the ground we walk on.
Honestly, I expect for a girl dad!Eris and if I am not getting that, I don't want it
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ahauntedcowboy · 8 days
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i eat and my tummy hurts. i don't eat and my tummy STILL hurts. what the hell do you want from me stomach???
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writteninthesewalls28 · 3 months
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Between love songs and internet cruelties
A prequel to "between shards and "I love you"s
A/n: This work is part of the "be my valentine challenge" by @bemyvalentinechallenge for the day 11 prompt.
Summary: Eris, Niall’s girlfriend, starts struggling with all the hate she gets from Niall's fans and when he finds out, he has a good strategy to cheer her up…
Warnings: mental health, cyber bullying
I heard Niall unlocking the door and quickly tried hiding my tears from him.
Because we are currently in a world wide pandemic and I worked as an elementary school teacher when I wasn´t singing, I was always home, day and night, every day of the week.
Which, obviously also caused lots of boredom from time to time.
And was there any better thing than reading mean comments about myself and crying?
Niall’s and mine relationship had become official just one week after we met. And the media immediately drew all their attention to us.
Two singers as a couple? That’s something new for them.
And then, there were the fans.
Of course not all of them were mean, but there just simply were some of them, who liked saying that I don’t deserve Niall and his love, that I'm not good enough for him.
Under a video of my performance at the iHeart Jingle Ball last December, I stumbled upon some newer comments, talking about me.
That I was fat, not worthy of love, ugly, too clumsy, weird, dressed too casual…
These comments hurt. They really did.
But if I'd tell Niall about this, he'd anyways just defend his own fans (that’s at least what I'd do if someone said something bad about mine) and wouldn’t believe me. It isn’t his fault anyways.
It probably is my fault because I started dating him in the first place. That´s also what makes living together with him for quarantine so hard, I get constant reminders that I don´t even deserve him, but am still around him for most of my time and have to play it off like everything is amazing.
"Hey baby!" Niall said, taking his bag off his shoulder and placing it on the kitchen counter. "I bought your favorite sweets for tonight! Did you decide for a movie yet? Please don´t let me go through the torture of another enemies-to-lovers story." he said, laughing to himself and still not looking at me. He´s focused on packing the food out of the bag.
Then I saw Chocolat chip cookies in his hands.
They don´t taste as good in the UK as they do back in the US, but it´s better than nothing to make me feel closer to home.
That´s exactly what I needed now, somehow Niall always knew it.
He turned to me and his face changed from happy to serious really quickly.
Great, you could still see that I had been crying. Why did I always cry so ugly anyways?
"Are you okay?" He said, sitting down on the chair next to me. I knew he wouldn´t accept a ´yes´, but I tried anyways.
"Don´t lie to me, I can pratically still see the tears on your cheeks." Niall never failed to make me laugh. "So, what´s going on? Did something happen, did I maybe do something wrong?" He gently touched my arm and stroked over it, to make me feel more comfortable, which actually somehow worked.
Without saying a word, I handed him my phone, where the comments were still visible. It was quite funny to watch to see Niall´s face turn more and more confused and shocked at the same time. He couldn´t believe it.
"First off, why are you reading this?" He asked, still staring at the comments in complete disbelief.
"I don´t know. I just came across it" I had to take a deep breath to stop myself from starting to cry again. "And I know, that I´m not the perfect girl for the fans… I don´t even know why this upsets me so bad." I tried explaining my sensitivity to Niall.
For a few seconds, I wondered, if he even heard me because he was still focused on the phone, but then he said something. "But you´re perfect to me. The fans can´t decide who I date or who I love. You are perfect for me Eris!"
A small smile appeared on my lips. Before I met Niall, I never knew how great words of affection could feel, but Niall was the inofficial king in making me feel better, just through words.
I understood why so many people find comfort in his music, it was truly amazing to listen to it.
"I´m definitely post about this on Instagram, they have to stop." Niall called out and then stood up, probably to get his own phone.
Just minutes later, you could find a new post on Niall´s official instagram, addressing the cyber mobbing against his girlfriend. He knew, not all of the fans were doing this, but the ones who were doing it, should stop. It´s wrong to hurt people like that and he actually thought it was something everyone knew by now.
I loved this man so much, he would never be able to know.
"Let me show you something." he then said, after posting the new text and stood up to grab his guitar from the sofa.
You never love yourself half as much as I love you
You never treat yourself right darling, but I want you to
If I let you know, I´m here for you
Maybe you´ll love yourself like I love you.
I immediately knew which song he was singing there, and quickly added the "You sing". The fans would´ve been proud of me.
I had little tears in my eyes and as soon as Niall was finished with singing, he gently wiped them away with his hand.
Yeah, the fans could say whatever they want, he was my man.
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agentplutonium · 9 months
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Pluto's WIP Wednesday
okay, always liked the idea of WIP Wednesday but hated the format of it, so imma do my own thing. It probably won't be a weekly thing but every once in a while I might update something here or there and wish to share it.
Latest Fic posted: Let Me (I Will) a Milo/Sweetheart fic that showcases the struggles of Demi!Sweetheart because really what else do you expect from me atp
WIP Contnet!
Now onto the good stuff. I could post fic wips but I post snippets all the time so that doesn't count very much. However, I do have a silly little world that I've been cooking up, and it would be encouraging if I could talk about it a little bit here and there :D SO here's what I have for y'all this time:
Daimons (Daemons, Demons) are one of my favourite creations (keywords: one of) and I'm so excited to talk about them. Here's a smol rundown.
Daimons were originally created by Terra to “bridge the gap” between The Hellish and the Humans. There are four main pillars: Dike which is justice, Eros which is love, Mnemosyne which is memory, and Thanatos which is death. There are three subgroups, one that is an extension of Mnemosyne. These are: Hypnos, power over one’s sleep, and the extension to Mnemosyne; Eris, which is to represent strife/rage, which are often demonic bodyguards; and Hygeia which is a representation of health.
And, as a lil treat, a little bit about a Daimon's appearance: All Daimons that coalesce in Panchaia will have a mark by their left temple. This mark is thought to be the mark of Terra herself, as a parting gift. Daimons can have wings, tails, horns, and scales depending on what pilar they represent, but it is also personalized. No one daimon looks similar.
I'd also be open to questions about these sillies because I am itching for excuses to talk about them, but that is up to yall if you're interested enough.
Anyway, that's all from me, see ya on the next installment whenever that may be <3
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I would die with happiness if you did Eris x adhd!reader 💕💕💕
Eris x adhd!reader
A/n: I’m so happy that these headcanons are getting some love
Warnings: some angst, mentions of verbal abuse, and mentions of mental health struggles
Growing up in the Autumn Court your parents always expected perfection
You were the oldest of your siblings so you were expected to set the example of how to behave
When your tutor brought up to your parents that you have ADHD and that you should be tested for an official diagnosis they just brushed the tutor off
Your parents refused to believe there was something wrong with their perfect daughter
Growing up when your symptoms would show like zoning out, forgetting things, or blurting things out when you weren’t supposed to speak your parents would become very angry. When you were in private they would yell at you for acting disrespectful or stupid or tell you that you made them look bad in front of the court and worse the High Lord
The only person who wouldn’t yell at you and who understood you was Eris
He understood that not everyone acted the same and some people just worked differently
Masking your ADHD took a lot out of you and you were very anxious that everyone could see through it or were looking at you when you attended parties or dinners
You hated loud noises or certain sounds, they drove you crazy and all you wanted was silence when you got overwhelmed
Eris could tell when you were anxious he would always float over to you and help soothe your worries
“It’s alright little fox, I’m here with you and you can get through this.” He’d coo at you and place his hand on your lower back
Even though the room would be crowded he would walk you through and then take you out into the gardens for fresh air. You’d sit by a fountain and just space out listening to the water trickle as Eris rubbed circles on your back
Fidgeting and being overstimulated were your worst problems and you hated that they would draw attention to you. You hated feeling like people were looking at you with disgust or annoyance because something so small was bothering you
Eris was always there to make you comfortable
Eris would always ask you to hold something for him if you were moving around so you had something to focus on or toy around with
if you were biting at your nails or cracking your fingers too much Eris would take your hands in his and start playing with your fingers and kissing your hands as a distraction, it always made you happy
When it comes to being overstimulated your big thing is usually the texture of clothes or food
You liked simple things, nothing over the top or frilly
When you were at a dress fitting for the Autumn Solstice ball Eris went with you
Your mother had picked out the fabrics and style the dress would be so you automatically knew you’d hate it and need Eris there for moral support
Once you put the dress on you could tell it was too tight and the fabric was too itchy, overwhelming your senses
When you stood in front of the mirror with the tailor and Eris behind you he could tell you were on the verge of tears
Not only was the interior uncomfortable, the outer materials of the dress bothered your exposed skin when you put your arms down. You just couldn’t find a comfortable position in the dress
Eris excused the tailor so she wouldn’t see you break down. “I hate this,” you say with tears forming in your eyes, “not just the dress. Why can’t I just be normal for once.” Eris turns you around to face him. “Hey, you are normal. Just because you feel things differently doesn’t make you abnormal.”
“They’re going to call me difficult and hate me even more than they already do if I don’t wear this.” You cried. Eris pulled you to his chest shushing you. “I’m sorry Eris, gods this is so stupid. I’m sorry I’m just so much.”
“You aren’t too much little fox, your perfect. We’re going to get you a new dress ok.”
It always broke his heart when you talked down on yourself. He thinks that your perfect and he couldn’t believe you couldn’t see it
He would always get you to see the positives about your ADHD like how creative you are, your view of the world is refreshing, and you have this joyful spark in you that makes him forget how awful things are at times
“You are so beautiful little fox, did you know that?” “I didn’t even think of that. You are so smart fox.” “I’m so happy you’re mine, and that I get to be with you.” “You are always the best part of my day, did you know that my love?”
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jasontoddssuper · 2 years
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Dabi is like Jason Todd because they're both well-intentioned assholes who are older brothers,hate their dad for traumatizing them(unintentionally in Bruce's case but absolutely intentional in End///eavor's case)and have black and white hair where the white part was caused by something supernatural
Fuyumi is like Dick Grayson because they're both the most responsible of their siblings,are sweet but have a lot of pentup anger and do their best to take care of everyone at the cost of their own mental health
Natsuo is like Duke Thomas because they're both incredibly smart,have trauma that has to do with their parents which made them work hard to help people(becoming a doctor/The Signal)and are chaotic and chill at the same time
Shouto is like Damian Wayne because he was raised to be a weapon(read:abused)and made friends who helped him become the introverted but still kind and caring boy he is now and he's also like Tim Drake because he's a teen genius who likes making snarky remarks and learns how to work as a team with others
Momo is like Stephanie Brown because they're both bubbly and kindhearted girly girls who struggle with their self-eestem,are stronger and smarter than they think,take zero shit and are the love interest to the aformentioned teen genius,who they have 'friends to lovers' and 'battle couple' dynamic with
Eri is like Cassandra Cain because both of them have at least one birth parent who abandoned them,were used as tools for villany by the man who 'took them in'(for lack of a better term)and got adopted by a black haired man with a tragic backstoryTM that broods a lot and is a loving dad to them who helps them with their power
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theladyofbloodshed · 2 years
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I hope nesta can turned her head to her sister and smile. 'I am the Nesta you wanted you to be. What is there not enough? You wanted me to train. I do. You want me to work at the library. I do. You want me to stop going to tavern. I do. What else am I not, Feyre? Tell me. I can be. Dont underestimate to how far i will do to fulfill your wish. Eh, why are you crying?Isn't this the Nesta you want? I am perfect now am I?'
' I no longer bring shame to your family by spending it on drink and lowly tavern. What else you could have wanted Feyre?' then nesta look away from her sister, eyeing the window outside while her mind replay the scene from the rooftop she visit. One step foward and it is over then Nesta pulled the loose string of her hair and tucked it back behind her ear.
God, I wish Helion or someone not from NC intervened in this situation and bring her out from NC. Maybe Eris, maybe Helion, maybe Lucien himself. But you wrote it soo good that i laughed like a maniac at Cassian.AHAHAHA TAKE THAT YOU CASSIAN. I enjoy more if Feyre got to her knee and beg for the old nesta. Like how cardan want jude to come home, except we all loves cardan.
"come home and break my heart if you must."
Yeah I kind of went down the slight malicious compliance route like i will do everything you ask to the letter and nothing more, i am just doing what i was told to do. I did also think of Cardan! Come home and shout at me!
I didn't have the best home life and i really struggled with my mental health for a long time, at my lowest I just felt like I didn't want to be here - not that i wanted to die, just that i didn't want to be around for a while like i could just pause myself, so I tried to put that into Nesta's story too. It sounds strange to anybody who hasn't been there themselves probably.
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