#delete later probably idk lmao

[manasurge]

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#sometimes I wish drawing wasn't such a lonely activity #am in a bit of a social mood but can't find anything to socialize about #i also wish I didn't need to spend ALL DAY trying to prep my brain to try to draw; despite it being something I wanna do and enjoy #why must i have executive dysfunction over my hobbies #this is why it takes me one million years to something I can actually get done in a few days at most #i'm so incredibly frustrated and it's super depressing and bumming me out #it's just so frustrating and i'm so irritated at myself #i know it's shark week so maybe it's why i'm a bit of a mess; but usually it doesn't affect me during the time so idk #also i love how every night I get to deal with the crippling dread and lowkey anxiety attacks bc everything i'm avoiding/afraid of and it- #- keeps festering in my mind and makes me avoid sleep for as long as possible and i'm stuck in an eternal negative feedback loop #i can't even do the thing i enjoy bc my brain is making it hard for me #not to mention that I constantly get those thoughts about how i'm never getting anywhere in life and i am in fact; ALONE #no irl friends or family and it still scares me to think about how worse things will get in the future for me. #not to mention not having a career or being capable of doing any kind of secondary schooling makes the dread even worse #but again frustrated and i can't even apply positive activities like how I'd usually do; not to mention i'm just always mad at myself about #-everything lmao #stupid brain just let me enjoy me hobby bc i wanna do it and you're not letting me and it's making me feel worse #delete later probably idk lmao

[someofitwastrue]

fat mac :) 👍

#its 5:30am im high as shit save me fat mac fat mac save me #i guess its also tumblr diary hour bc bf is in other room asleep & i have to talk about this SOMEWHERE #‘talk about this’ my point is just fat mac #i miss him #save me fat mac :( #LMAO WILL PROBABLY DELETE LATER ……. #🤦‍♂️🤦‍♂️🤦‍♂️🤦‍♂️🤦‍♂️🤦‍♂️🤦‍♂️🤦‍♂️🤦‍♂️🤦‍♂️🤦‍♂️ #i was going to tag this as iasip initially but it got too personal #. #ok fine #iasip #mac mcdonald #mine #Edit -> idk what the fuck i meant by got too personal 😭 i need gosleep 😴

[clambuoyance]

I’ve never been so obsessed with a character so bad that I literally can’t do anything else I’m like the squidward meme watching SpongeBob frolic outside the window stretching a hand out to all the pretty paintings and animations and comics I see in my head but being unable to feel any motivation for it . If only i could use the energy spent to create 20 kon doodles to sit down and concentrate on a single finished full piece I used to be able to make like 5 page comics what happened to me

#sighs yes before anyone says anything IK it’s probably adhd related 😭 #BUT ITS GOTTEN SO BAD I CAN FEEL THE DIFFERENCE IN MY BRAIN HOW DID IT GET WORSE #it’s probably a mix of burnout too but I don’t get tired of drawing ? #it feels like when u get dizzy or change glasses or so #and it’s either everything is wayyy too in focus and you can see literally everything clearly that it hurts ur brain #which doesn’t help given how saturated w information the world is always #and simultaneously somehow everything is blurry or out of focus and I physically have to strain myself to hone in on one thing #I JUST WANNA READ COMICS AND FINISH A DRAWING AND HANDLE WORK AND SCHOOL AND TALK TO MY FRIENDS #ALL IN OME DAY #BUT MY BRAIN IS LIKE. TODAY IS ONLY FOR COMICS. YOU CANT DO ANYTHING ESLE #😫🫶 I’m deleting this later I’m just ranting LMAO #I’m highschool it’s crazy bc I did okay and then honestly i just think my ability to concentrate has deteriorated as the years have gone by #free me!!! #either way I want to lessen my social media and just pick One bc girl I have an Instagram a tumblr and a twitter this is horrible for me . #honestly I’ll probably pick instagram and just post on tumblr when I have art #I already do that #I mean when I have Good art. #IM RAMBLING IDK

[ofmermaidstories]

prostrate in the sawdust of my enclosure staring up at the ceiling.

#i hate capitalism so much lmao it’s truly the source of all evil #LIKE #how many good writers are we missing out on bc they’re struggling to pay the bills and feed their families and don’t have the time or #the energy to write? #u hear about all our classic writers—the clever bastards and the poets and the future bestsellers—who like #make time or get up before dawn before they have to feed the kids or write on the bus and it’s like i’m sure so many others out there are #doing those same things but—everything feels so much harder now? #idk i’m just kinda sad tonight LMAO don’t mind me merms is just #having a moment 🥹🔫 #im gonna delete this later probably 💀💀💀 DONT LOOK

[coulson-is-an-avenger]

nsfw (sex toy) complaining under the cut

every single fucking time i enter a website and search by size on some of their sex toys i re-enter a state of rage because with all due respect to people's preferences and bodies. what are you fucking TALKING ABOUT. "super duper tiny smallest length we can possibly size is 4.5 insertable". REAL LIFE AVERAGE DICK SIZE IS 5 FUCKING INCHES. 4.5 IS BARELY SMALLER THAN THAT. WHY HAVE WE APPLIED SIMULACRA THEORY TO DICKS

#I NEED TO COMPLAIN ABOUT THIS AGAIN SORRY ITS FUCKING ANNOYING AS HELL #nsft #mossy speaks #i genuinely wonder how much this contributes to body dysmorphia on both ends of the spectrum #it's just fucking annoying #probably delete later idk #this is also a contributing factor to why any time i write smut i go out of my way to discuss them being average lmao

[officialgleamstar]

okay its been about five hours and ive done some irl things, so i just wanted to respond to two anons i got sent from the same person (and then deleted, sorry) - if you think im being antisemitic, or sharing anything antisemitic, please let me know with more specifics than you gave. i have always been as diligent as possible to avoid antisemitism, and have even told my friends to stop spreading some posts due to the antisemitic root of them. i really appreciate criticism there, theres a reason why i took a class dedicated to antisemitism and the holocaust in high school! its something i care about a lot! however, i dont think partaking in the social media blackout and focusing 95% of my posts on palestine makes me a holocaust denier or a terrorist supporter like you implied in your ask.

i dont like to upset people by talking politics and only politics, but im doing what i can at the moment. i havent even been posting more about palestine than usual, in my opinion - i havent searched out any posts, and have only reblogged those on my dash, just like always. i have always been someone who usually donates quietly rather than acting as an activist, but im having financial troubles at the moment, so im supporting the cause in the only way i can. if that upsets you, i cant change that, but id rather stick to my guns than have "good reblogs", or however you put it. as always, heres to a free palestine and please keep a watchful eye for antisemitism in leftist spaces. lots of love

#mine #probably delete later idk. i just felt weird deleting asks telling me i support killing all jews instead of responding LMAO

[frozen-coffee-chaos]

Realized I’m asexual out of trauma as the idea of sex with literally anyone gives me such bad anxiety. I’m fine if it’s just me touching myself, anyone else involved in that tho and I’ll have a panic attack lmao

#bd/sm blog #life update #idk man #probably going to delete later #but also I think I finally abandon this blog and go to my mental health account. #new account is @lostinthestarrysky if you wanna see how mentally ill I am lmao

[lex-the-lesbiann]

thinking about Nark rn like. i know this is cheesy but like theyre probably the only people who can even begin to understand each other???? because of how they had similar experiences in the realms with Lark with the rogue card and Nicky with the trial???? how Lark hates Henry, how Nicholas hated Glenn, how Nicky probably hates both Glenn and Jodie now at least a little bit (Nick wouldve hated Jodie, Nicholas did hate Glenn (or at least strongly dislike him)) And I imagine Nicky would (rightfully) hate Glenn at least a little for how absent he was but might not feel fully justified in it because he doesn’t even fully remember that timeline. Feeling guilty for hating him because ‘hey, at least Glenns trying!’ How Lark hates Henry but might not feel fully justified in that if she really thinks about it because Henry obviously really cares about him. Just both of them being irreparably changed by forces completely outside of their control. Both of them hating their fathers as a result of that. Both of them feeling guilty for it. Just. Hand in unlovable hand. yknow?

and im sure im not the first person to think this, im just thinking about them rn

#god sorry for the rant lmao #(also once again. you can rip cis she/him Lark from my cold. dead. hands. mwah /lh) #does this even make sense? #is any of this coherent? #idk #i just. #them. #my babies. #nark #dndads nark #nicky freeman #nick close #nicholas foster #nicky close foster #lark garcia #lark oak garcia #lark oak #delete later probably

[sun-marie]

Really REALLY wish I could draw two men standing next to each other without people assuming it's ship art 🙄

#i'm not gonna say it but. it is fe3h related #iykyk #it's not even like I'm against the ship (even if it's not for me) I just feel like I see it everywhere #ultimately it's a minor non-issue but it bugs me lmao #it feels like I'm being put in a box where no matter what I draw ppl will see it romantically bc that's all I can draw #idk it's late so I'm probably making something out of nothing #might delete later #marie speaks

[maudiemoods]

Hair? Falling out from stress!! Chest? In constant pain!! Eyes? Dead and tired!! Brain? Overthinking and emotional!! Hygiene? Routine completely forgotten!!

#ren won't shut up #waaaaeaeawaaaawawaaaawaawaawaasuwauuwa #ignore #GIRL WHAT IS GOING ON?? #I'll be getting a therapist soon but hot DAMN i am struggling #my hair is so thin now :(( #my eyes look terrible? and not from the lack of sleep. i sleep enough i just dont rest #if I disappear for a few days its because im trying to figure my shit out lmao #i have severe undiagnosed/untreated mental illnesses lmaoooo #idk whats going on anymore waaaa #i used to ve about to control all of this waaa #tw mental illness #tw mental breakdown #?? i guess im having a breakdown And you all are just witnessing it? sorryy #cw mental health #idk sorry if i dont tag this right jdjsjs #probably will delete later? idk

[potential-fate]

me: wow I really want to work on finishing more writing, and also I want to make more pear fatmorphs, and also I have this cc I want to do and also----

me when I actually have time to do anything: ----------

#my posts #someone kill me please #delete later #idk why I'm being so.... hm. #“unproductive”? #not the right word cause I try to not care about productivity much but #I'm irritated because I'm too tired to do anything even the stuff I WANT to work on #and instead am doing nothing besides scrolling tumblr and/or losing hours of time to nothing at all #yay #hi thanks the tags are giving away the ~mental illness~ please ignore me #I try to not post that nonsense on main but here we are #I'll probably delete this later lmao

[p-p-panda]

Random art vent lol

I get tired of constantly pouring my heart out when asked about my stuff only for it to fall flat. Like why did they even ask me to begin with??? Just to tease me??? 😭 bruh

#this is very different than what I usually post #I don’t really like doing it but tbh this has been bothering me for the past couple of months in different places I’m active in #and it’s starting to become annoying #i listen to everyone’s lore and ocs or whatever the convo is only to end up with like one reply and they die on me. AND IT KEEPS HAPPENING #IN DIFFERENT Group chats #man I’m just so tired of even lore dumping all the time at this point 💀 #it seems like when I actually have the motivation to finally open up that’s when I get ignored the most :/ #I’m probably being a sensitive baby rn so I might delete this later. only wanted to get it off my chest #i can listen to other people talk for hours then the second I speak it feels like bore everyone 😔 #i only have like 1 or 2 people that actually listen to me when it’s my turn but most of the time I’m always listening. which isn’t bad but #man #it hurts and kinda makes me wanna cry lmao #and it makes me just half ass shit at this point when people ask about my ocs/lore since I don’t know if they want a tiny bit of info or #if they’re actually intrigued :/ I just give up now #ok I’m done this is way too long ahaha #vent #it’s not that I constantly want atteion because I don’t and I love listening to other people and sometimes when I ask they don’t talk to me #but will to someone els even when I’m super invested so idk at this point #😞 #i admit I have times when I’m shy but it mostly due to not wanting to wast peoples time anymore #ok I will shut to the up #gn #it’s like 1am for me #and I really don’t want people to ask only because of this post. trust me that’s not what I’m trying to do i swear. only getting out feels

[finchers-ipad]

spotify ads are getting so ridiculous and are making it genuinely frustrating to use the app. not only have they upped the amount of ads, with me being able to listen to approximately 2 songs before an ad. and pop up ads being everywhere when i go to change playlist or something. but some of the ads are so overstimulating it makes me want to throw my phone off a cliff.

genuinely some of the ads i get are: one of them simulates a busy home environment with people screaming, a dog barking and i think a phone ringing? like why would that make me want to buy your product? there is an ad for the army which simulates an engineering workshop, with the sound of cutting metal in the background of the narrator shouting. WHY WOULD THESE ADS MAKE ME INTERESTED IN WHAT THEY ARE SELLING? and i know that’s probably the point to get me to buy premium but they can fuck off.

#there is so many other examples too #i listen to music for like HOURS of my day too and spotify is making it an unenjoyable experience #and i know that’s the point because they want me to buy premium but holy shit #idk i just had to rant about it lmao 😭 #probably delete later

[cirrateeb]

no context matt murdock and kim dokja

#myart #PROBABLY DELETE LATER LMAO #orv #daredevil #matt murdock #kim dokja #ive been enjoying dd so much #anyways my friend compared mattie to yjh so this arised #u can tell idk how to draw kisses YIPPEE

[akiwitch]

Sooooo I talked to my publisher since nothing had been mentioned about Last Light (supposed to come out next month) and I was getting nervous and it has been pushed back to…….a time. Idk when.

I’m so sorry to everyone, I have no idea when it will come out now.

I’m also not sure when GP3 will come out (I’m under contract with him until GP4 and he has right of refusal for GP5)

Uhhh anyway that’s the news!

#yeah idk #aki writes #with this in mind since nothing was signed for summoning trouble #I decided to pull it from this particular publisher #idk what to do with it yet we will see #might put it on substack? #might just self pub? #I guess I could try querying it but I think it’d highly unmarketable lmao #I will have to think #anyway #delete later #probably

[smithsparker]

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#when u wanna hornypost abt ur ship in discord but theres minors in there raahghghh #im having the worst day <3 #oh yeah im also fucking . allergic to my clothes . i guess #rash all over my stomach & back it hurtssssssss #this is such a nonsense post . idk girl it's 5:40am im tired and im itchyyyyy #sas.txt #probably delete later lmao