#comingtoterms

[4byun]

Tagged by @anon-lemon (.❛ ᴗ ❛.)! Thank you, Sumii ♡

Rules: put your music on shuffle and list the first 10 songs that come up, then tag ten other people.

I love music and getting tagged in posts like this so I had fun doing this!! ♡

The Light Behind Your Eyes ─ My Chemical Romance

House Of Mirrors ─ Softcult

Say That You Will ─ Sleep Token

川べりの家 (Kawabari no le) ─ Nao Matsuzaki

Good Night ─ Dreamcatcher

ComingToTerms ─ BONES, Deergod

Holocene ─ Bon Iver

Obstacle 1 ─ Interpol

INSIDEOUT ─ Plastic Tree

You Came To Me ─ Beach House

Looking at this list now I've realized my music taste is a massive mess lol but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ oh well

Tagging:

@spiltspit ☆ @qhostbat ☆ @dainseif ☆ @insomnikat-mused ☆ @bim-yo-u ☆ @mx-sinisters ☆ @kaeyadyke ☆ @stabbyfoxandrew ☆

#sorry I took a while to get to this ;-; I appreciate you tagging me in this so much #I also had so much fun w this :3 !!!! ♡ #ALSO @ tagged mutuals #only do this if you want to ♡ no pressure #tagged

[thecpdiary]

Unconscious Experiences

Unconscious experiences are the experiences we’ve lived but can’t always recall. The preconscious as it’s called, contains thoughts and feelings that we’re not always aware of, which exist below our level of consciousness.

The conscious is the mental process where we are aware of our thoughts. Without access to our preconscious thoughts those thoughts will remain dormant until we understand how to access them. The unconscious, (the part we don’t spontaneously have access to) is important, because without that access, we will fail to deal with our issues.

It is the primary source and where all of our experiences lay dormant. Our feelings, and every day decisions are heavily influenced by our experiences, experiences that we’ve lived that lie in the unconscious. Our past experiences will always have a bearing on our conscious decisions.

Without acknowledging any part of our past experiences, without revisiting those unconscious experiences, we will struggle to get on and live successful lives.

For more inspirational, life-changing blogs, please check out my site https://www.thecpdiary.com

#thecpdiary #blog #unconscious #experiences #talkitout #talkingcures #findingourselves #comingtoterms #and #findingpeace #speakingourtruth #pastexperiences #thepast #mentalhealth

[tomorrow-was-great]

The break-up was like crying after you fall over. It isn't the grazed knee or sprained ankle that hurts, it's just the shock

#breakup #relationship #truth #comingtoterms #emotions #sad #boyfriend #girlfriend #endofsomethingbeautiful #words #wordstoletyouknow #writing #quote #howifeelnow

[damedarcy]

Just #blackandwhite #penandink now. #strength #witchycat #tarot defined in a different way. #truestrength is not about overpowering a situation. Rather more about #comingtoterms and #negotiationskills #charming and #disarming a situation or relationship. @damedarcy ❤️🌈💖 #thankyou patrons for your #continuedsupport ! You have enabled me to afford the time it takes to draw this new deck and I’m so happy to have your friendship in our #magical Patron Family ❤️ #loveyou! @damedarcy https://www.instagram.com/p/CBDaOloDwXT/?igshid=1dtx88aqakhy3

#blackandwhite #penandink #strength #witchycat #tarot #truestrength #comingtoterms #negotiationskills #charming #disarming #thankyou #continuedsupport #magical #loveyou

[tornado-s-tale]

To, One of my Core

I’ve tried out spending my day in solitude too but that didn’t work out. It wasn’t supposed to work out either. It was just supposed to give me time to think and that it did. My mind is much clearer than it was before. I thought that it’d take me a couple of days to process the state I was in but it did not take as much time as I thought it would. I know how important you are to me and time with myself just reaffirmed it once again. I cannot isolate myself from the people I love forever. I totally get wanting to just disappear from the world and stopping the things we feel, at least all the negative thoughts and numbness and exhaustion. I’ve been thinking about the concept of oblivion and just vanishing in such a way that each person who knew me would forget that I ever existed in their life and then lived in an alternate reality that then came into being.

The thing is, if it would have been someone else it wouldn’t have been so hard for me to think about alternatives or any other scenario. I just want you to know that no matter whatever happens I cannot ever afford to lose you. You know how my life’s been at one point of time and how I’ve lost people. I know that I’ll lose people as I progress further in life. The only difference between now and then is that earlier I did not know the people who I needed in my life and I couldn’t process how it would be affecting my life when people started to push me away and eventually just cut me out of my life. And now, I know the people that I can live without and the ones that I cannot. Yours is the first name that pops in my head when I think about the people I cannot ever lose.

The thing is, I’m sort of in a state where my actions are for the moment, being dictated by my fear of losing you or even just putting distance between us. The thought of a close one such as you leaving me is haunting to the extent where I freeze like a dear in front of headlights. Even though I want to talk to you, sometimes I just can’t seem to bring the words out of my mouth. I’m not going to spend my time in isolation anymore. Please bear with me and text me once you read this if you read this before I meet you tomorrow. I just don’t know how to begin a conversation at the moment. It’s like when I’m beginning to write something. I can’t understand how to start, but once I do, I’m far steadier (throwback to the English assignment).

I’ll just end by saying that you are too important for me to lose and that’s the reason why I took it as hard as I did. You’re adorable, cute, your voice always puts me at ease and is more soothing than anything else I could find here, your existence means a lot to me, you’re part of my “Core” and I cannot do without you. I love you and hope I don’t ever behave the way I was for the past couple of days.

P.S.- Text me if you feel like it after you read this?

P.S.S.- You know when you say ‘mujhe ghar jaana hai’? That’s totally me too. Even when I was back home for the holidays I said it a lot to my sister. I’d be saying it a lot right now too. But the fact is, you’re home for me. So, thank you for being in my life.

#kuma #comingtoterms #core #conclusiontoastateofflux #appreciation100 #love3000 #family #home

[tijerinavibes]

The tree, and The Girl.

I fell in love with this girl,

She was beautiful; I believed inside and out, she was a total beauty to me. An amazing artist, brilliant scholar, caring, charming and most of all kind.

I cared for this girl,

I cared so much I finally found the courage to drop all the anger I had of the world and see how peaceful like truly is. To seek the beauty of the world without holding in the emotions.

I felt pain the pain of this girl,

I learned of the pains she grew up with, yet the better outcome but there was always something wrong. Something never sat right in her eyes. Nothing was perfect like she wanted. The damage was done and then came the true essence.

I got damaged by this girl,

The slow churn of what I felt was an amazing relationship came about to how things truly worked, I was never good enough, I never met the standard of what I “needed” to be. I was burned. I fought through it I let her sisters slay me with the words and knives, I let her guardian cut me into bites with her eyes, I let myself fall into a pit of “I can make this work, this will work”. But I was never good enough for her.

I died by this girl.

The slow turn of our third year came up, I rarely saw my parents and sibling, I was cut off from all my friends for they “didn’t deserve me”, I was “better off without them” yet she still had all her toxic friends at the hip. I came to terms by February that I was enough for myself, I made new friends and then hell broke loose.

The colors appeared for this girl,

I seen all the colors inside, the dark woman she was, the jealousy and most of all the obsession she had, I picked up shifts at work to avoid her, I felt terrible so obliged for her to come to my home, then it happened.

I lost part of my soul to this woman.

She took my pride, my small amount of self love, her touch became disgusting, the girl I loved broke me in a way I could have never regain my self to be again. I scrubbed my body with my nails I drew a boiling bath then showered four times that week, each day forced to repeat the same session. I broke.

I left this woman on Memorial Day.

I broke on Memorial Day, she called me upset that I had worked all day then spent the rest of my time with my family, I had it. I left her I broke up with my fiancée that day. I said my goodbyes All wrong, trying to get away then I slipped.

I felt terrible for this woman.

I tried to fix it, I tried to fix her in hopes that maybe the girl I fell in love with would come back, but it wasn’t possible I gave up. Then I met someone, I asked for a break nothing happened it stayed the same. I said I needed a break. I left.

I met someone after this woman.

I met someone, I slowly fell for this person, I became afraid. Terrified of what was to come. I came to realize, that he wasn’t here to hurt me but to cherish me. I fell for him, those months of friendship bloomed into emotions I never expected to feel. Then In the mists of it all he liked me as well.

I was able to gain my strength again.

I learned that I was a strong woman, I learned that no matter the hardship I could become better no matter who created me to be a villain. I loved myself again even when she broke me and took my sense of beauty. I learned that being myself is my beauty. I’m not daft, I’m intelligent in my own way, I’m not short handed in traits or in personality, I’m rather full of life and adventure I complete myself.

I wasn’t here for her.

I wasn’t here to be her cup of tea, I was here to grow and bloom like no other. I learned that sometimes some people are like trees, some are the leaves who stay for the season, some are the branches with grow and are lessons, and then some at ether roots who grow achieve and stay with you until your day comes to depart.

#hurt #comingtoterms #bisexual #emotions #metoo #life #selflove

[another-tiny-ant]

Disenchanted

“I spent my high school career

Spit on and shoved to agree

So I could watch all my heroes

Sell a car on TV”

- My Chemical Romance

Maybe soon, when I have more time, I’ll write a post about my school experience- I think it needs addressing. Hopefully the therapy will help too. In the mean time, I really relate to this song, and feeling disenchanted...

Why do we treat kids so? Why is the world so cruel?

🖤🐜🖤

#lifeonthelog #anothertinyant #mcr #disenchanted #selfcare #comingtoterms #latenightthoughts

[katharinableinis]

COURAGE/ This is something that has been on my mind for some time. It is one of the most attractive qualities to me. It's one of those qualities I admire most in people. But true courage is so unique and hard to find. Many people confuse courage with simple thrill seeking. Thrill seeking is for the easily bored. The ones who chase their daily buzz. This isn't courage. It's just boredom. Courage requires an entirely different muscle: The ability to take action, even when you're afraid. The ability to take real risk. To put yourself out there even when there are no guarantees. And like all muscle, the more you use it, the stronger it gets. #spilledwords (at Hong Kong) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bo0VNg5glsb/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=n9xannst9jh5

#spilledwords #courage #knowledge #lifelessons #comingtoterms #actionseeker #thrillseeker #courageous

[artjournalingwithem]

Working on accepting.

#shouldntbe #ace #asexual #comingtoterms #spades #aceofspades #hearts #aceofhearts #clubs #ace of clubs #aceofclubs #ace of hearts #ace of spades #aceofdiamonds #diamonds #ace of diamond #coming to terms #shouldnt #be #shouldnt be #butis #but is #artjournal #art journal #artjournaling #accepting #purple #blue #green #teal

[darkeyevandal-blog]

Flag finally came in

Now its time to meditate

#inlove #satanic #lucifer #luciferian #believeinyourself #believeinall #medatation #improvement #betteringmyself #newyears #comingtoterms #lovingmyself #findingmyself #livelearnconquer

[salty-dawg-entertainment]

Coming To Terms by Park Major He lives within, the child inside Hiding the depths of his sorrow, "The unwanted one", he screamed over and over But you’re headed for a better tomorrow There will be times, you may not know him Anger squashed, restrained with fear When life demands the ‘adult’ you His cries for help, you cannot hear That tiny child, an innocent boy He knew no real protection, The time is now, to bring him close He still needs your deep affection You are the one to rescue him His pain you need to feel Holding him inside your heart Your love, it needs to heal A part of you, you did disown You had to, to survive But now you need to bring him back So both of you, can thrive He knows just why you made the break He knows your grief was strong, Welcome him back into your heart It’s where he does belong When you learn to love that young man You'll see his innocence Reality will be so clearer You can dismantle your defence So make your peace with this small boy And know that you are one Collect yourselves to make you whole Your new life has now begun. #comingtoterms #stoptheabuse (at Knotty Anchor) https://www.instagram.com/p/CK0bZW8BHtl/?igshid=1c3nvlc6va0v4

#comingtoterms #stoptheabuse

[meltedmelanin]

Abandonment issues

I really hate that I have them. Because I tend to stick to people or push them away for very long periods of time . It's so frustrating because I never really know which one it's gonna be so I don't like getting close to people anymore . I don't like liking/crushing on someone because I never know who's gonna leave but somehow I manage to push away the ones that want me and keep close the ones that hurt me 😪

#comingtoterms

[weareprismala]

Listen to our new EP ‘Coming to Terms’ under the following link 🎧: bit.ly/3npJ4CS

#weareprismala #prismala #ep #comingtoterms #music #berlin #alternative #soul #hip hop

[christinaterrano]

For empaths, water is a conduit. We can release our pent up energy, we can relax after a long day, and in my case we can ponder our own self-destructive behavior for the search in the next steps to take. I'm a walking conundrum, I'm wildly confident but humbly doubtful. In these personality traits I take comfort, but for the path that's laid before me, I need a realization and a way to apologize to myself. Years of guilt do a number on the soul. #bewellbefree #comingtoterms #ptsd #abusesurvivor #empath (at Lexington, Kentucky) https://www.instagram.com/p/CDm8IFCD9sV/?igshid=1dxbzl2hhbq3l

#bewellbefree #comingtoterms #ptsd #abusesurvivor #empath

[turtle-love-waist-beads]

#growingup #energyshift #lovemesomegrowth #realignedenergies #realignedpurposes #masteringmyself #sililo_key #adannakaye #comingtoterms #reminderstokeepon #stayingontrackforme #thoughtsoutloud #wordsthatdie #wordsthatlive #feelingsmattermost #reactingonfeelings #myfeelingsmatter #termsandconditions #speakforyou #engagementtemplate #selflovematters❤️ #oftenshy #writersofinstagram #positiveenergy #littlethings #bigpicture #newperspective #dailypost #mindfulness #respectisearned https://www.instagram.com/p/B9cKG5ZJcE4/?igshid=q1xgp72nuq08

#growingup #energyshift #lovemesomegrowth #realignedenergies #realignedpurposes #masteringmyself #sililo_key #adannakaye #comingtoterms #reminderstokeepon #stayingontrackforme #thoughtsoutloud #wordsthatdie #wordsthatlive #feelingsmattermost #reactingonfeelings #myfeelingsmatter #termsandconditions #speakforyou #engagementtemplate #selflovematters❤️ #oftenshy #writersofinstagram #positiveenergy #littlethings #bigpicture #newperspective #dailypost #mindfulness #respectisearned

[the-infinite-return-blog]

#growth #acceptance #changes #comingtoterms #maturity #painful #uglytruth #selfimprovement #motivation #emotional #emotionalintelligence #emotions https://www.instagram.com/p/Bz5gJ09nSzJ/?igshid=50au6lh9rkyg

#growth #acceptance #changes #comingtoterms #maturity #painful #uglytruth #selfimprovement #motivation #emotional #emotionalintelligence #emotions