I had planned to do so many things but I always chickened out. I thought that I would have enough time. Mom died & it was the push to get me to consider going back to school. Then I got a small inheritance from her insurance. It's enough to buy a hamburger once a month so I don't see diamond-encrusted garden snails in my future. It irritates me because I'll be tied to this for the next 9 years.
I looked at MA in different countries. I thought about birthright citizenship through my father but a lawyer confirmed that I wouldn't be applicable. HOWEVER, I can get birthright citizenship through my mother. I can travel this year since they pushed back EITAS. Is this my sign? For so long I had been putting graduate school on this pedestal but for what?
I have a feeling that my opinion about school was based on my parents' ideas. They saw college as a door to a high-paying job. They also never imagined traveling outside the USA. It never occurred to them that I could go to college in a different country. My family just assumed that I would just get my degrees from an American college. I don't want that.
Covid broke me. I lost my spark & I just drift from day to day. The birthright citizenship after the MA was going to be awesome. Now what do I do? Where do I go? What kind of job do I want? I have no idea. I'd like to be one of those travel influencers who take pictures of eating pasta in Italy in the afternoon & then driving to Nice to drink wine at night.
Is life different in Europe? I know that everyone has his/her problems, but I'd have EU healthcare. I suppose that native English speakers are in demand, especially for schools or even corporations who want us to eavesdrop during meetings.
It's scary to have to re-evaluate. I have to make a list of things & see what I can do. I don't want to work for a fast food place but at the same time I don't think I'll be a CEO, either.
My "perfect" cousin has her doctorate. She's a scientist & works with plants doing research for vitamins & stuff like that. She is my aunt's 2nd cousin or something, not even her own daughter. She always talks about her, how she has a doctorate, & she's so smart. A doctorate just means you know how to conduct research. Nevermind the 5 languages I can speak to varying degrees. This is what makes me angry. She keeps going on & on about her but never asks about me or brags about me. Now that I think about it, she used to brag about her friends' daughter, too. That one is a lawyer & she's married with a baby. Maybe she has more kids now but I realized that she talked about other people's children & never about her own flesh & blood. In response, after my father passes, I will tell her exactly what I think about her, I will declare her persona non grata, & I will cut off all contact with her. I'll also tell her that I won't bury her & she should ask my perfect cousin to take care of that.
You know I love the hammering and sawing of metalsmithing but sometimes it's the ability to just melt stuff that floats my boat. Tonight I took scrap pieces of silver and fired the torch on them until I had some nice melted balls. Some of these are big enough to be hammered into pendants or stud earrings at some point. Yay for recycling and reusing! #sleepycatjewelry #playingwithfire #sterlingsilverjewelry #torchwork #silversmithing #reuserecycle #jewelrydesigner #jewelryartist #benchjeweler #melt #cheaperthantherapy #njartist https://www.instagram.com/p/CodnpYxOE5E/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
Just look at her.... New Alocasia Hilo Beauty in the studio now. Not for sale quite yet, but you can gawk at her nonetheless. 😉🌿💚 . . #houseplants #alocasia #gawkworthy #leafporn #plantmom #cheaperthantherapy #meditation (at Wolverine Lake, Michigan) https://www.instagram.com/p/CiQGGzgObzJ/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
Canoe 🛶 Trip 8 x 10 acrylics on canvas Painting summer-inspired themes during the 3-month summer series of Creative Spirits painting class in historic downtown Spring Hill. Next session begins August 11. PM me for more info. #paintingwithsusan #creativespirits #lifejacket #artforsalebyartist #colorfulandcharmingart #doingwhatilove #nostalgicimpressionism #acrylicpainting #watercolorpainting #happycreativelife #colorful2022 #cheaperthantherapy #carriagehousestudio #windyacrecottage #chasinglight #sejpaints #learntopaintin5steps #artandsoul #inspiration #creativity #ohtheplaceswewillgo #adventureawaits #artclass #artworkshop #paintingclass #inherstudio #springhilltn (at Carriage House Studio of Windy Acre Cottage) https://www.instagram.com/p/CgAedyluESH/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
Can we talk about #moderngreekgods trend on tiktok. I'm obsessed with it. And have so many headcanons now.
Also I got invested in the dionysius/apollo ship. Because of ara_george. If anyone reads this, check out their profile on tiktok. Rock star dionysius and coffeshop guitar player apollo...
opening up to the people I love about my feelings? grotesque. having imaginary scenarios as I listen to my curated spotify playlists? truly therapeutic.
Yeah. It’s come to this. Current events have me so freaked out that I have turned to Bob Ross as a tranquilizer. “Fluffy little clouds....” #cheaperthantherapy https://www.instagram.com/p/CFXOBqGlS5k/?igshid=1c84y9x1zfdb4
It was one those days where even alcohol doesn’t make it better. Coronavirus plus the price oil is not only affecting the stock market but people’s livelihoods and health. We hope that we can recover sooner than later. We need to spread positive vibes. • • • #pink #friday #positivevibes #cheaperthantherapy #skirt #spring #wine #liquorstore #strongwomenlifteachotherup #outfitoftheday #trending #lookoftheday #journey #bekind https://www.instagram.com/p/B-SOaq-JSk_/?igshid=qgktbxyansnt
I was doing that #arttherapy exercise from one of the self guided journals i bought called #cheaperthantherapy #art #mentalhealthawareness #mentalhealth #ink #drawing https://www.instagram.com/p/B1KEbX7gOCJ/?igshid=hz0pm29xqcf4
Another day, another Dollar Tree upscaled craft. #dollartreecrafts #artsandcrafts #cheaperthantherapy #itmakesmehappy #almosttimeforfall #autumn🍁 #suchaautumngirl (at Jersey Shore, Pennsylvania) https://www.instagram.com/p/B1r-6zug3nv/?igshid=kuqtq1n7pwc4
Wrapping up a back & 💪 day in between my life changing experiences. Cheaper than therapy and way more effective! #jerseycityfitness #tribecafitness #jerseycityfitness #personaltrainer #personaltrainerjerseycity #personaltrainertribeca #cheaperthantherapy #workoutmotivation #backworkout #howtobuildmuscle #strengthtraining #allergictobullshit #bodybuilding #physiquetransformation (at Tribeca) https://www.instagram.com/p/BtdxsLyHq5v/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=18qvhe1ic25a7