#cant fucking live like this anymore

[silliness-inc]

😭😭😭😭😭 PLLSSSS IM GONNA FUCKING EXPLODE i need 2 b tickled fuckinh silly i need 2 b unable 2 do anything but laugh my ass off n try and squirm but ultimately fail bc UUGGHHGHHHAAHHHH😭😭😭😭😭

#SOMEBODY FUCKING SEDATE ME 😭😭 #I CANT LIVE LIKE THSI ANYMORE #tk shit #end my misery PLEASEE #silliness speaks

[iangallagherisadeadman]

post-s11 Tami definitely gets tired of Lip and leaves him.

yes, I do like them as a couple, I think it is an interesting dynamic and that Tami is good for him honestly, even though they lived completely different lives and crash so many times because of it throughout the last seasons.

fact is Lip won't ever change and will keep making the same kind of mistakes and she will get fed up with it eventually. they'll go different ways, maybe keep a somewhat friendly relationship, and she will get a new partner and Lip will have a Sean kind of relationship with Fred: that kid is the most important thing in his whole life and he's constantly hunted by the fear of drinking again and hurting Fred.

#headcanon? #its not that i desire lip to be unhappy and unlovable i just feel like he wont get his happy ending living the way he is #making the decisions hes making treating people the way he does #i feel like he is going to mature by the power of love because of fred i truly believe that #also no fucking way hes going to be poor for the rest of his life hes a genius and a southside he will get up and fix this up #i like him as a mecanic but that one s11 scene that he saves that dude a lot of money in the computer doing a super simple thing #means to me hes not done with the whole engineer thing. he just will need lots of money and labs he used to have acess at college and doesn #anymore but he will do whats necessary and turn things around definitely #maybe he thinks he can pull this off without going back to college and eventually realises he cant and then has to try to pick up his credi #and finish somewhere near? i dont know i dont understand lots about US educational system #honestly my dream is for him to work for debbie so she could be his boss it would be his life karma and make her happy #but that would never happen unfortunately #lip gallagher #tami tamietti #fred gallagher #shameless #shameless us #og.

[averagecatdoodlesenjoyer]

my minecraft cat Horrid Roblox suffocated in a wall.

#my fucking screenshot didnt save and i already closed the game so i have to type it out like an idiot #theres a glitch where if my cats aren't seated when im sleeping then after i wake up they just teleport to a random place in the house #how was i fucking supposed to know they were going to teleport into a fucking wall #i cant take this anymore i cant live on this cruel planet

[elliesbelle]

NOW I HEAR YOUR VOICE EVERYTIME THAT I THINK I’M NOT ENOUGH

#but literally like #that’s exactly what happens now #AND I FANTASIZE ABOUT A TIME YOU’RE A LITTLE FUCKING SORRY #LIKE???? is there NO guilt?!?! i have to live with the grief and you get to be fucking happy #‘i deserved to move on’ ‘you think it was easy to move on’ IDGAF you still moved on?????? #YOU ONCE CALLED ME FOREVER NOW YOU STILL CAN’T CALL ME BACK #the FUCK happened to loving me always????????? through thick and thin???? i never stopped fucking loving you despite what i was going thru!! #all i feel now is fucking shame and disgust for myself because didn’t i fucking say?????? didn’t i fucking say you were gonna leave me again #and you swore you never would again!! then wtf happened!!! #you couldn’t handle my trust issues with you and i just know you hated me for not getting over them #i literally can never trust anyone ever again i am never trusting anybody with my fucking heart again EVER i can’t do it anymore #AND I JUST CANT IMAGINE HOW YOU COULD BE SO OKAY NOW THAT IM GONE #literally you’re fucking okay and in fucking LOVE with SOMEONE ELSE i am literally fucking NOTHING to you anymore #you always have and will ALWAYS find love in and with someone else and i never will again #the possibility of being with someone again literally disgusts me i am not doing it ever again #‘you’ll find someone else eventually’ i am NOT like YOU who always finds someone else i literally have NEVER found anyone else since you #i am literally and have never been enough and you don’t care #v #belle speaks

[natjennie]

like seriously whatever you do dont think about the captain and that story about someone calling into gay bars and not saying anything, just listening to queer people living and laughing and having fun. definitely don't think about the captain doing that. haha.

#both during his life and in death #i just looked it up and the 1930s british queer scene was beautiful like jazz age stuff #the idea of the captain just discretely privately calling into places he's heard rumored to be queer #just to listen to the saxophone over the static of the telephone and know that there were gay people living and loving somewhere #and then to think about him missing that EVEN MORE in death because now he cant LEAVE #he cant hear rumors from people he cant call in #imagine the favors he'd have to owe julian to dial a number and let cap listen to the receiver without knowing what it is #like of course julian wants to know and he pesters him. but when cap is Deadly Serious and scared and sad. #a face julian's never seen. he winds his jokes down and agrees to do it #making cap think it was his idea- 'a bit of charity for the old walrus then'- instead of a deep understanding and love #and since its been decades of course the number he calls isnt a gay club anymore. maybe it doesnt even connect #and it breaks his heart and it takes him another decade to gather intel and the nerve to ask julian again #but when he does he finally gets a place and the phone quality is INCREDIBLE he can hear so much #he can hear people and their upbeat music and their laughter and their love #and he cries #and if julian sees it and pretends not to then its so that he can have the blackmail later thank you for asking #anyway im making myself emotional #bbc ghosts #EDIT Becuase then when julian overhears he tries subtly to make the captain feel more comfortable #bc julian is an asshole but he's not homophobic i mean he fucks everyone #so he tries to pepper in more stories about men but that just makes cap uncomfortable #and hes frustrated bc he cant think of anything else to do other than flirt with him but thats a bad idea #but then he remembers that he went to bars and places and maybe he'll like that #so he 'accidentally' dials some clubs he knows were cool and leaves the phone off the receiver for cap to find #and cap just gives him a curt nod and a clearing of his throat and they Dont Talk about it but they Know

[leafuxxtea]

Just watched round 6 of alnst. They're my 13th reason why. My Roman empire. They're the most to ever. I'm just going to throw myself into oblivion now.

#leaf yapping #live sobbing in the metro rn #i have nothing but a SOCK to wipe my nose #everytime i think about it i burst into tears again #im gonna fucking lose ot #laying on the ground for this one #ive genuinely been feeling physical stress for this round #and now im feeling pain #i cant do this anymore #vivinos ur on my blacklist now #ong i cant take this #im so mentally ill about them #its all over #ivantillover #im sniffling like i got 7 diseases from the middle age

[slutdge]

ive tried everything to make interactions with my father safe. ive tried not saying anything, ive tried agreeing with everything he says, ive tried doing exactly what he says, but it still always ends in an altercation no matter what i do, hes always just looking for a fight.

#i really dont wanna be alive anymore friends i gotta be completely real i dont think im making it to 2025 #i shouldnt have to live like this #this is inhumane #i should be considered for once and people should understand how inhumane it is to make me live like this #prioritize me for once #i cant live like this #IM NOT CRAZY!!!!! IM NOT FUCKING CRAZY!!!! i deserve basic respect IM NOT CRAZY

[babygirltony]

need him so bad its fucking SICKENING

source: totaliykafkaesque on tt

#i cant take this shit anymore #jesus fucking christ #why must i live like this #UGH #fucking HELL #tony dalton #flor salvaje #telenovela #telemundo #video edit #not mine

[fereldanwench]

i've been considering resuming job hunting again but i think I'm still, like, traumatized from what i went through in 2021 lmao

#i keep getting in this cycle of 'well my current job lets me do pretty much whatever i want bc they trust me to get shit done' #(which honestly is really nice bc i am neither a team player nor a leader and i like being left alone lmao) #and 'my current job is otherwise unfulfilling in every way possible also it's for an awful company I'm ethically opposed to and i want out' #and my salary is garbage #esp as someone with 12 years of experience #and they dont even do cost of living adjustments #in theory they will give you a raise if you go above and beyond but i did that for a year and just got a thank you #which i dont need your fucking gratitude i need more money #but god i just cant do interviews anymore #i used to be such a good BSer in interviews #and now i just... cant lmao #so many places are all into the 'be your authentic self' shit these days #my authentic self is not employable lmao #and then i think about pursuing my creative passions for income and I'm like nooo i dont wanna do that either #bc that will make me hate what i love #i am so protective of my hobbies just being hobbies #idk whatever!!!! #t: wench.txt

[abelas]

got 30cm of snow twice in one week. lads, i think ive got to move somewhere warm year round

#i say as i just got a job 1 hr north of here HA. #northern canadian winters babes. miss toronto but cant afford it anymore. too many people now too.. the traffic drove me BONKERS the last #time i drove through there. like how did i ever live around so many people #anyway. have to tell myself this isnt forever for my own fucking sanity #ITS FOR THE JOB!!!! i need to remind myself of that ahhaah #personal

[batcavescolony]

I'm back talking about Harry Potter and Snape's worst memory because while I hate the author y'all bug me.

Snape worst memory isn't James bulling him or string him up in front of the school, (that was bad I'm not saying it wasn't) it was Lily ending her friendship with him because he called her a Mudblood. With evidence.

To prove my point we have to go read the Deathly Hallows when Snape gave Harry his memories! We get to see the scene again but this time the thing that sticks out the most is Snape calling Lily a Mudblood. Now if that's not enough proof the next memory goes like this.

*Outside Gryffindor Tower*

Snape: I'm sorry

Lily: I'm not interested

S: I'm sorry!

L: save your breath... I only came out here because Mary told me you were threatening to sleep here.

S: I was. I would have done. I never ment to call you a Mudblood it just-

L: Slipped out? It's too late. I've made excuses for you for years. None of my friends can understand why I even talk to you. You and your precious little Death Eater friends- you see, you don't even deny it! You don't even deny that's what you're all aiming to be! You can't wait to join You-Know-Who, can you? I can't pretend anymore. You've chosen your way, I've chosen mine.

S: No-listen, I didn't mean-

L:-to call me a Mudblood? But you call everyone of my birth Mudblood, Severus. Why should I be any different?

*Lily leaves. Memory ends*

The next memory is Snape becoming a turn coat for Dumbledore so he could keep Lily safe because Voldemort wouldn't spare her.

Snape has had worse experiences then a teenage James Potter being a bully (even if it was shitty). so we look at the rest of the memory and lo and behold what do we see? The actual worst moment of Snape life, the moment he lost Lily forever.

#I just saw someone say they hated Lily because he's was too hard on Severus all he did was call her a Mudblood. #Yeah just called her a slur...And found it funny when dark magic was used on someone. And joined a hate group that would kill her. #And would've let her child and husband die if it ment she lived. bffr 🙄 lets put this in real world terms! #you're a minority (pick one) and you go to a school but their are some people who hate you for existing. but its ok you've got your bff! #now years go by and bff is still your bff but theyve changed. they're hanging out with those aforementioned people who hate you for existin #and yeah you dont like it but they're your bff since for ever so you make excuses. but then bff starts calling people like you slurs... #now bff hasn't called you slurs so maybe its just peer pressure you let it slide its your bff. now you find out that not only are there #people who hate you for existing there is his hate group and they want you and people like you dead. obviously you dont like his. now bffs #friends they want to join this hate group... and bff doesn't deny it. ok thats not great. bffs friends who wanna join the hate group have #now moved passed just calling people like you slurs. they've went and beat the shit out of a person like you that you considered a friend. #and bff.... they say that it was just a joke. but are again not denying wanting to join the hate group that wants you dead. you love bff so #you just keep your mouth shut. now the day comes! bff has now called you a slur. and you cant make excuses anymore. they're just like their #friends and you cut your losses because again bff and their friends want to join a hate group that wants to kill you!!! #its not poor litte Severus its poor Lily. she thought she had a friend and HE betrayed HER! but but but why didnt she stop him from joining #she was a child! she was in a new world with no idea! she was in a whole nother house! and its not her fucking job to fix him! he joined th #hate group HE KNEW HATED HER! if he truly loved her he wouldn't have joined. but but but its not that- ADROMADA TONKS could be a Slytherin #and not be a Death Eater and her family was pure blood. she could do it! so could Snape. #severus snape #lily potter #snapes worst memory #the marauders #harry potter #the deathly hallows #lily evans #put some more respected on her name. #fuck jkr #james potter #slytherin #how can you be a snape stan and not like lily that 80% of his personality. #snape

[silenthillbunni]

im the one society marked as avoidant yet im always the only one who wanna fucking talk things thru. y'all are a fkn joke!!! im sry but u rlly are 💀 im the avoidant one. the one scared of conflict nd afraid of talking.... yet im always the one staying and begging to talk while the other one just leaves or is a wall nd refuses to talk abt it 😹😹😹😹😹

#im sick nd tired of it #sooooo many ppl say they wanna talk #nd blah blah fucking blah #it's never ever true #!!!!! im so sick of ppl jesus fucking christ #im sick of society telling ME im the sick one the distubed one #im the one w a personality #w a personality disorder lmao*** #yet every one else are x100000 more avoidant than me #it's a joke!!!!!! absolutely fucking ridiculous #i barely have patience w ppl anymore bc all they do is blah blah blah but 1% of what they say is actually true #yeah yeah blah blah you're just wasting air atp maybe just stfu #dont say things u cant stand for #god im so fucking angry like????? why is it so hard for y'all to fucking TALK. say what u mean!! say what u wanna!!!! #talk things our instead of running away like a dumb fkn coward everytime smth gets a bit tough #or it's more like everyone have these extremely high nd uttainable expectations nd demands of u #nd if u dont live up to them suddenly you're trash nd they dont even want to talk abt things #bc you're not the perfect little thing they made up in their head #ugh fucking yikes people are so incredibly infuriating #i wish i could just find my ONE person nd then just go off nd be w them nd not bother w everyone else jfc #ok i obvi cant speelll when im angry whatever

[aintmyjewelry]

I do think i need to delete instagram

#i wrestle so hard with this bc i do wanna share my life #but also i am still mutuals on there with so many people i went to high school with #and i constantly see their posts #and everyone lives a better life than me!!!!!! #everyone has friends and relationships and look peaceful and happy and it sends me spiraling!!!!!!!!!! #and dont say like 'social media isnt real!' #the friends they have ARE REAL #the boyfriends they have ARE REAL #not all of it may appear real but the foundation IS REAL #and it fucking kills me bc i still wanna share my life #and the little fun times i have #but i just cant stand it to see anyone else #everyday i wake up and feel like a failure #i have a whole in my heart and soul and i cant figure out what to do to cure it #i dont want to exist anymore #i cant keep living like this nothing i do is good enough and I'm so far behind #i might as well skip to the end of the race

[vehemourn]

eye am so demotivated to post anything in the world. is it worth it anymore

#sorry this is crazy but i just like... there is such a massive wall to posting anything of mine anymore #mentally #i am exhausted from Trying to engage with online communities my entire life. working really hard to build it up. and its all being Taken fr #m me #i need 2 know at least someone gives a fuck about seeing my art like... i just.. cant really do it anymore #it feels like vehemourn might be a dying era #i hope i can engage more with art communities irl but. whre i live there are none #this WAS my community #why did it have to be torn down over and over again #destroyed by people who have NEVER given a fuck about art. i am sad #delete later

[coyoxxtl]

tumblr centrist liberals stop acting like voting is the most influential and important political activity you can participate in challenge

#me donating to mutual aid posts on tumblr and donating esims to people in gaza has done worlds more influence than any vote i ever did #people who risk their lives in protests do more than voting #i firmly believe that #this isnt a Voting is Pointless post this is Voting is the Barest Minimum #voting is easy. when there’s no outside barriers its so fucking easy. #you fill in a card and call it a day. its easy to feel like you made a difference when all you did is fill in some dots. #yall barely even follow up on who you vote for or even Care if the people you vote for fail you #its the perfect thing for weak liberals to attach to #treat it like the be all end all with activism and you have the easiest get out of real political action card #no need to get your hands dirty if you did all you needed to #as someone who DOES vote. voting is the easiest political thing i engage with. everything else is a risk. or at least a sacrifice. #voting is barely anything to me. i dont feel like i do Anything with it. but donating. making political art. THATS something. thats REAL. #i would go to big protests if i lived somewhere with them #like i understand. wanting voting to be enough. im a heavily depressed bitch who feels like they cant engage with anything big or important #i know tumblr is full of those types. yall dont want to do anything. yall dont want to be uncomfortable or upset or anything negative. #personal comfort above all else. thats what tumblr is. thats what centrist liberals are. there’s no real desire to break out- #of the comfort zone or status quo respectively. yall are scared to get Involved. and i am too. but with how current events are going… #i can see that i don’t want to be that anymore. i know i need to be more than that. its hard and risky but i Need to. #and so do yall. yall NEED to engage with activism outside of voting. or you’re doing nothing. #txt

[slutdge]

typical 7 am judas moment where im sobbing over what i could have been and accomplished if my parents had loved me :)

#what a waste of a life this has been #i gotta go to work now at my job i fucking hate and pretend im not constantly tormented by how much better i couldve done #if id just been loved and had the money to succeed #explodes and dies forever lmao #what did i do that was such a crime even as a baby that they hated me since the day i was born #what is so wrong with me #what is so intrinsically wrong with me that they have hated me since i was born?????? i drive myself crazy thinking about it #im totally fine and calm and collected enough to go to work (im not. i wish i was fucking dead. i cant take this anymore) lol #anyways broken record i know yall are tired of hearing about it. imagine how tired i am of living like this for 24 years lmao