#but if i remember correctly the guy said that he has a girlfriend on the first day of school but i'm not really sure

[leyhes]

am i developing a crush or am i just not used to people showing me affection

#but if i remember correctly the guy said that he has a girlfriend on the first day of school but i'm not really sure #but my guy if you comfortingly pat my back after i nearly fell asleep in class and tell me that it's alright and i can later copy ur notes; #wish me a good night and text me that you're excited for monday (when we see each other again); softly smile at me all the time and say #that the job of the prettiest in the group has already been taken by me #then taken or not; how do you expect me not to slightly fall in love with you #how do u subtly ask someone about their relationship status without making it obvious that you might be a tiny little bit in love with them #and while knowing that the answer will probably only hurt? asking for a friend #lou talks #i feel like a teenage girl who has her first crush dlskd

[ageofbajabule]

Beautiful Boy | Josh Kiszka

Josh Kiszka x F!Reader

Warnings: Fluff, 18+ Allusions to Sex, Groping (Let me know if I miss any)

Word Count: 1.1k

Author’s Note: Honestly nothing crazy. This is just a little blurb I threw together after hearing that JOSH WAS WEARING EYELINER FOR THE HAMBURG SHOW! If he wears eyeliner for the next US leg, catch me dying in the pit for Pitt and Grand Rapids…

The next leg of the mighty Starcatcher World Tour has begun. Another month of endless traveling, soundchecks, interviews and shows. You loved the lifestyle you had adjusted too after agreeing to be Josh’s girlfriend 3 years ago. You knew what you were signing up for, and you never looked back. As long as you were beside him that’s all that mattered.

Josh showed you what it was like to love and be loved. He was the embodiment of love within itself. When you first met him you had only been newly single for a few months after a bad breakup. But when the two of you met one night at a small venue show, you hit it off immediately. Hangouts turned into dates, dates turned into nights tangled in each other's sheets. Then not too long after Josh was asking you to move in with him.

Josh had been thrilled when you agreed to move in, and said he was lonely in the mountains. And to say it wasn’t a dream to live in the mountains with the person you love most. You constantly thought your life was a dream and you constantly would pinch yourself for your own reassurance.

But when Josh had asked you to quit your day job and come on tour with him, you were absolutely hesitant. You had never left home, let alone left the country! But he was adamant that you came along as he would miss you too much, and how there was so much to see out in the world. And he wasn’t wrong.

In the span of 6 months you had seen more of the world than you had in the span of your own lifetime.

When you were on tour you had started to help out with the guys to get ready for their shows. Adjusting their outfits, fixing up Josh’s and Danny’s rhinestones. Even helping Jake adjust the sleeves to his suit jacket. Dreams In Gold was chaotic and thrilling. But when the guys were ready to announce Starcatcher, Josh had started to get more creative with his rhinestones and makeup for the shows.

When Starcatcher had finally been given to the world, the very first show Josh had you there applying his makeup and rhinestones. He was so nervous to be up on stage, as he always did get nervous before shows. But because a new era had begun and he was unsure if the fans would react well to it.

Jake had started to experience more with eyeliner for his stage presence. Whereas Josh, Danny and Sam wore eyeshadow and rhinestones for their presence.

Josh had been contemplating wearing eyeliner, but wasn’t sure he would look right with it. But Josh looked good no matter what, you were positive that if he came out covered in grease and dirt he’d still be the most attractive man you ever laid your eyes on.

“Do you think the eyeliner will look okay…” He paced around the dressing room.

“Josh, baby… You look absolutely stunning with the eyeshadow and rhinestones. Why would you think the eyeliner won’t look good?” You pulled out the waterline eyeliner out of the makeup bag.

“Will it be too much?” He kept pacing around. You stood up from where you were sitting, walking over to Josh you stopped him in his tracks kissing his lips softly.

He relaxed in your touch, kissing you back softly. Pulling away slowly, you cupped his face in your hands staring into his eyes.

“You worry too much… and besides if I remember correctly. Didn’t you say ‘Fuck fear’?” You giggled softly, pulling him over to sit back in the chair across form the one you sat in not too long ago.

“I did, didn’t I…”

You nodded, grabbing the eyeliner pencil and removing the cap. You grabbed his face gently, careful to not ruin the work you had finished a couple minutes ago.

“Now, just relax Joshy. It will take two minutes and then you can look in the mirror and see for yourself how good you look.” You kissed the tip of his nose, earning a grin and rosy tinted cheeks from him.

You held his face gently, using the eyeliner pencil to apply the black makeup to his waterline gently. He handled it like a pro, but he had let you experience a ton of makeup looks on him. He was such a good model for you.

After the two minutes of applying it to both eyes, you pulled away smiling contently at the final look. You grabbed the mirror and handed it to him.

“All done…”

He grabbed the mirror turning it to face him, he looked in amazement. The pop that the eyeliner did for his beautiful brown honey eyes and the way the liner complimented the silver eyeshadow. He was in shock.

“Wow… mama. You are god sent.” He chuckled softly, checking himself out in the mirror before setting it down. He pulled you into his lap.

“You are my beautiful boy…” You giggled softly cupping his face into your hands kissing him softly. He hummed against your lips, pulling your hips down and grinding into you.

You gasped slightly as you could feel him hardening beneath you.

“Joshua, we don’t have enough time…” You giggled softly as he peppered kisses along your neck.

“Mama… we have plenty of time.” He started to grab your ass, rubbing it softly before giving it a swift crack that made you yelp, but soothing it afterwards.

“No we don’t! The last time we got tangled up in the dressing room you were late to the stage for the curtain drop!” You smacked his shoulder softly.

“Yeah… Daniel will never let me live that down.” He chuckled softly.

“However… if you’re a good boy tonight. Perhaps afterwards you get rewarded.” You said in a sultry tone against the shell of his ear, licking and nibbling softly. Eliciting a moan from his lips to fall.

“You are going to be the death of me woman…” He chuckled softly.

You giggled standing up from his lap, as he started to readjust his new jumpsuit. A velvet silver jumpsuit that adorned his body well. And the jacket sitting on the hanger he pulled off that had been very similar to Jake’s.

“You look absolutely beautiful…” You blushed, helping him adjust his suit.

“Well with your help of course.” He kissed your cheek softly, before grabbing your ass again.

He started to whisper in your ear, “Just don’t forget who is in charge here though…” He said in a low register tone voice, which sent heat to your core. You were sure your panties were ruined by the arousal that pooled there.

“Good luck baby…” You tapped his ass softly, as you ushered him out to get mic'd up.

“I will see you back in the hotel room tonight, mama…” He smirked softly before getting mic’d up and hitting the stage.

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[rachetmath]

Jaune's Last Man

(Hi sorry this has been my head and I completely forgot about this so let me end this with a kicker. A rap you may say. If you need a recap or you don’t know what this is about....he links here.;

Part 1: https://www.tumblr.com/rachetmath/681709097493659648/ilia-blake-i-want-to-come-with-you-blake-ilia?source=share

Part 2: https://www.tumblr.com/rachetmath/683991434179805184/can-we-please-get-a-sequel-to-the-post-about-jaune?source=share

Part 3: https://www.tumblr.com/rachetmath/688883250974916608/so-i-know-ow-you-said-you-dont-normally-do?source=share)

Jaune: Mercury.

Mercury: Vomit Boy. How’s it hanging?

Jaune: I’m doing fine.

Mercury: Really? I mean since you killed your friend. Your girlfriend dead. And Atlas. I would think you be in a site of depression.

Jaune: Yeah. Except I’m in state of rage.

Mercury; Oh.

Jaune: I mean I haven’t seen my family in years to where I can barely remember their faces. I watched thousands of innocent people die. I was betrayed by someone I wanted to call friend. All because of my stupidity.

Mercury: Wow finally admit it. You don’t know what your doing.

Jaune: Still don’t… but I’ll take my chances.

Mercury: So what are you going to do torture me.

Jaune: Haha no. Of course not. Ladies.

Neo and Ilia walks into the room. Neo before she took a seat on the table, she gives Jaune a kiss on cheeks while Ilia a has weapon to Mercury’s neck. Mercury was still shocked with Neo.

Jaune: Alright. Let us begin. I’m here to make a deal.

Mercury: A deal?

Jaune: You bet. I want you on my team.

Ruby: What?

Jaune: Yes.

Mercury: Why?

Jaune: We need someone like you on our side. Guys like you come in very short supply.

Mercury: That doesn’t give me much of a reason. Why should I give you allegiance?

Jaune: I’m willing to give something that can’t refuse.

Mercury: Please, your not even giving me a right to choose.

Jaune: *sigh* Ilia.

Ilia removes her weapon and sits down.

Jaune: Fine, I’ll play by rules. Look, I understand. Your father he was bad man. But brother he’s dead.

Mercury: I know.

Jaune: I know it was by own hands. I get it wasn’t easy but you fail to get-

Mercury: Is?

Jaune: That you can be better. So much clever. Do really want to stay in his shadow forever?

Mercury: Please. Who are you to judge me? If I recall correctly didn’t you cheat. You went to a school filled with talent. With nothing to show but empty promises and values. You talk a big game but you can’t measure up. Face it bud, your only here because of luck.

Jaune: …. ….

Mercury: Got nothing to say. Guess the fun is over. No more debates. I guess I’m done now prison await. Besides Salem offered me world on a plate what’s better than that?

Jaune: Okay, little man, so what’s your plan?

Mecury: What?

Jaune: Yeah, little man, what’s you plan?

Mercury: I mean-

Jaune: What’s your plan? Tell me, little man, what you gone do when you got the world in your hands? You get all money and get some respect. You make yourself sound like you really are a threat. Yes its true, your right about me. I did what it took to follow my dreams. But now look at me. I am all three. Money, Power and respect. A threat guaranteed. I lost many people but yet I still breath. Yet I still believe in what we can achieve.

Mercury: … … …. What are you saying to me?

Jaune: We’re nothing like them.

Mercury: What do you want from me?

Jaune: Show me your bravery. Leave it all BEHIND and make history.

Mercury: But I-

Jaune: You’re nothing like him.

Mercury: I’m-

Jaune: You can still be better.

Emerald: *burst in door* And if your not sure we can explore it together. We’ll have each other.

Jaune: And if you believe-

Mercury: Believe?

Jaune: In yourself.

Emerald: And me.

Jaune and Emerald: There’s nothing you can’t achieve.

Mercury: Really?

Jaune: Right.

Emerald: You can fly. Again. Sore the sky. Again.

Jaune: Away from sun. Together with us. We can make history. Forge our destiny. Our story will be legendary. So-

Jaune: *pulls his hand out* What do you say?

Mercury: Hmm. Well-

Jaune: Yes, you will paid.

Mercury: And?

Jaune: Yes, come man, what do you say?

Mercury: *shakes Jaune’s hand* Alright you got a deal compadre.

RWBY: Dang.

Oscar: They went play by play.

Nora: So Jaune? Tell us, what’s now the team’s name?

Jaune JMNI. What do you all think?

Mercury: I got say, it’s got nice ring to.

Ilia: I accept the team name. No mistake.

Neo: *agrees with smile*

Jaune: Guess we agree. But before we celebrate we have demonstrate, how useful we are, leave no trace to debate. So let’s start on our first case. What do you say?

Mercury, Ilia and Neo(with a sign): Bring it.

Jaune: Oh this will be great.

Nora: Can we stop rhyming.

#rwby #jaune arc #ruby rose #yang xiao long #weiss schnee #lie ren #nora valkyrie #blake belladonna #emerald sustrai #ilia amitola #rwby neopolitan #mercury black #team jmni #team nero #nero #jmni #oscar pines

[rekil2s]

ACCORDING TO YOU. reki kyan x reader

angst; fluff

𝓬𝔀. a JERK WAD of an ex >:( language. unedited

𝔀𝓬. 1.5k

you’re not exactly sure how you ended up here.

one moment, you and reki are walking around murasaki sports and the next, the two of you are sitting across from your ex and his new girlfriend— hidaka rina, if you remember correctly— at kamakura, waiting for your order.

it’s awkward.

daichi uses his pinky nail to pick at something in his mouth. hidaka scratches absentmindedly at her napkin, her dark waves covering half of her face. she’s pretty, you have to admit– pale skin, cocoa eyes, long lashes, perfect height and thin.

reki yawns— obnoxiously, in daichi’s opinion; adorably, in yours. reki throws an arm over your shoulder and pulls you in close to his side. the bubbly skater leans in, his lips practically grazing your ear to whisper something.

you laugh at the joke.

neither of you see it, but daichi scowls. hidaka, however, does catch it and rolls her eyes. daichi could be so disgusting sometimes and for no reason other than he felt like it.

“so, reki,” daichi starts.

reki hums, just barely loud enough for you to hear, as he pulls away from you, smiling his trademark sunny smile at your ex in acknowledgment.

“how did you meet y/n?”

“oh, she works with a friend of mine!” reki says.

he loves this story— it was love at first sight for him, he believes. he and his best friend langa, along with another friend of theirs, miya, had arrived at the flower shop to ask hiromi for a ride to s later. when they’d walked in, your workmate had groaned, obviously knowing what was coming (and you’d just been confused), but as reki opened his mouth to ask the question, his eyes had drifted behind shadow and there you were, arranging some flowers. 

miya would say he had hearts in his eyes, it was so obvious. immediately, he’d abandoned his question and went over to where you were working, struggling to start up a conversation. you’d laughed at his flusteredness, much to his chagrin, but then asked his name. at hearing your voice for the first time, he’d thought, “marry me”, but when you and langa and miya and hiromi busted out laughing, he’d realized he’d said it aloud.

thankfully you took pity on him, and offered a date first. the rest is history.

daichi quirks a brow, grabbing his bottle of ramune and taking a sip. “a friend of yours works at a lingerie store?”

for just a moment, reki’s confused. but then he remembers you telling him you worked at a lingerie store before you worked at tulip.

you sigh. “i work at tulip now. the flower store.”

“oh, i’ve been there a few times!” hidaka says. “i always get my mom flowers from there. the manager lady is really nice.” she turns to reki as she continues, “i’m assuming your friend is the big orange haired guy?”

“yeah, shad—” he coughs, catching himself. “hiromi.”

“he’s nice,” hidaka hums.

daichi scoffs low in his throat, taking another sip of ramune. he sets the bottle down. he sucks his teeth. “can i ask you another question, reki?”

your boyfriend’s eyebrows shoot up in questioning. he doesn’t like the tone of daichi’s voice, but says “sure” anyway.

“what do you like about y/n?”

the sound of your given name coming from his mouth after the shit he put you through the two years you were together sends a wave of disgust through your veins. under the table, you clench a hand.

reki is so taken aback by the question, all he can say is, “huh?”

“well, when i was with y/n . . .” daichi starts, leaning back against the booth. daichi has always had a craving for causing trouble, and you can tell he wants to start some by the glint in his eyes. he inhales a deep breath, then blows it out. “well, she’s boring, is she not? quite moody? plus, when we were together, it never seemed like she could do a damn thing for herself.”

you sit in silent fury. reki’s speechless. even hidaka’s mouth is dropped open in shock.

daichi straightens his shoulders, scrunches up nose, and continues in a higher pitched voice, in an attempt to copy you, you assume: “‘daichi, take out the trash.’ ‘daichi, can you do the dishes?’ ‘can you help me bring the laundry out?’” he drops his shoulders and his voice returns to his own. “and nothing ever pleased her, either, you know? i’d do the dishes, and she was upset i didn’t do the pots and pans. i’d take out the laundry, but i didn’t ready the detergent for her.

“can’t make up her mind for anything. i’d come over and we’d decide to watch a movie, she always grabbed like five movies to make me choose from. when we’d order takeout, it was always ‘tacos! ooh, chūka! wait no, itameshi!’”

reki finally regains his composure and opens his mouth to speak, but daichi, ever the pot stirrer, continues on.

“plus, she always chose her friends and family over me. on my seventeenth birthday, her friend airi injured her ankle in a gymnastics accident and she took her to the emergency clinic. and when her brother was graduating kindergarten, after i broke my ankle, she went to his graduation instead of coming to visit me at home after she said she would.”

you’re absolutely bewildered, and you feel like crying. which would only attest to his “moody” claim, huh?

“what the fuck?” hidaka mutters. not because you chose taking care of your friend over going to daichi’s seventeenth birthday celebration, and not because you chose your brother’s kindergarten graduation over visiting him after he injured his ankle. but over the actual audacity that he had the nerve to hold a grudge over that.

reki slams his hands down on the table, pulling himself up. you’ve only ever seen the look on his face a couple of times— hell, not even. upset was not an expression your boyfriend made often, usually the cheery one.

“why don’t you shut up?” he snarls.

“what?” daichi chuckles coldly.

“you’re a fricking dick; no wonder y/n dumped your ass.” reki continues. “you’re the stupid one. how could you say that shit about someone you once claimed to love? you never loved her— you loved having control over her.”

daichi rolls his eyes, unaffected.

“what kind of jackass would get mad at someone for choosing their family over them? are you telling me you wouldn’t?”

“no, i would,” daichi says.

reki balks for a minute at the blatant hypocrisy. he shakes his head before continuing, “and you’re wrong! y/n is incredible! she’s one of the funniest people i know– maybe not in telling jokes, but in her own way, she’s funny. and she’s beautiful, inside and out! i love that she cares so much about her friends and family. it’s amazing! she’s smart, and kind, and independent, and no wonder she hates asking for help even when i want to give it to her! i’m glad she dumped your ass, because if i don’t deserve her, you sure as hell didn’t.”

reki grabs your hand and pulls you out of the booth.

“come on, babe, we’re leaving.”

“without paying?”

reki doesn’t say anything, just looks at hidaka and says, “you should too,” before taking you out of the restaurant.

it’s only when you two are in kahiko, looking at all the shirts that remind you of kojiro, that you speak up: “thank you, reki. for standing up for me. i clearly couldn’t do it myself.”

his arm wraps around your waist, pulling you to him. he presses a kiss to the crown of your head.

“i knew you could,” reki starts. “but it was my chance to show you how much better i am than that jerk. he’s the stupid and useless one. not you. never you.”

“agreed,” comes a panting voice from behind the two of you. you turn to see hidako, cheeks flushed and a shy smile on her face. she looks at reki, “i took your advice. i don’t think he’s too happy we left him with the check but after everything he said, it’s the least we could do, right?”

reki chuckles.

“well,” hikada huffs. “i’ll see you two around. i know you didn’t mean to, but it probably would have been much longer until i saw daichi’s true colors if we hadn’t run in to you today, so thanks.”

then she turns and walks away.

you wrap your arms around reki, snuggling your face into his sweatshirt. he laughs, patting the small of your back.

“i love you, reki. so much. you know that right?”

you feel him nod. “you’re everything i’ve ever wanted, y/n. i hope you know that.”

you hum, looking up at him, a content smile gracing your features. “tell me again?”

he laughs again and pulls back, gently shoving you away. “i love you more than anything, y/n,” he pats your head. “hey so, will you come to s with me tonight?”

𝓹𝓸𝓼𝓽𝓮𝓭. 24 may 2023

𝔀𝓻𝓲𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝓷𝓸𝓽𝓮𝓼. AHHH my first fic for my beloved, reki kyan!! the mall they’re at is the aeon mall okinawa rycom. if my research is correct, ramune is a carbonated soft drink, chūka is japanese chinese cuisine, and itameshi is italian-japanese food

© 2023 rekil2s. all rights reserved. do not repost, translate or claim my work as yours; please credit if you want to repost my work in a fic rec

#original works. rekil2s 🖊️ #reki kyan x reader #reki kyan #sk8 the infinity

[marumafan]

Hello, I am an old fan of KKM and I am really glad that I found your blog. Especially, since I have seen your conclusion about some additional information: You are right. Indeed. Yuuri is gay or bi...and he did go on dates with guys before or he would have had no reason to feel bad at a certain point in time, when the one whom he had defended resigned the team.

Yuuri has basically no interest in going out with girls, but pretends that he is solely interested in them.

What I also considered interesting is that he basically was thrown out of the team because of defending a love interest...He punched the coach, when I remember correctly...and he did get himself into the engagement with Wolf, because he did not dare to really punch him with a fist, because he felt at least attracted to him physically at that time.

So thank you for your your analyses up until now.

Hello there! Yes, but it's not like he goes around acknowledging it. I think that Yuuri is deep in the closet.

He's a character of his time. No way a teen would admit to being gay in the 2000s (they don't even do it in the 2020s here in Japan).

Just go to wikipedia and look at the summary table at the end of the article here to see how many rights LGBTQ+ individuals lack. Every red cross is an inequality. The dates Yuuri went on with those guys were very hush-hush, and I don't think he could quite admit to himself or others that he's gay or bi. For me, the clearest acknowledgement that he's 'not straight' is when his mom asks him if he's into 'people who wear uniforms' and he starts crying in Change /(Convert) the same story where he goes on a 'Christmas date' with the other guy.

After that story, there was no doubt in my mind that he already knew he was non-straight before meeting Wolf; but also that he was keeping it quiet.

I think his extreme closetness is difficult to understand by younger people and/or people who do not live in Japan. Anyone who lived in the 2000s America and is or knows LGBTQ+ people knows very well how closeted people were, especially after Matthew Sheppard. All of my closeted friends went deeper into the closet... and the ones out of it, quietly went back. It was a time of horror and I can only imagine it was worse in the past. That's simply the case that I recall as the horror of my time in the West.

I have many personal stories about the cruelty in treatment of LGBTQ+ people in the 2000s by Westerners AND Japanese, but I don't wanna get into it.

I'm just saying, I get Yuuri. Anyone living as 'non straight' during those years 'gets' Yuuri. And his wishful thinking about how 'getting a girlfriend will magically make him straight ', I know well and have seen myself.

This is a very realistic character of the 2000s.

It gets annoying at times, cuz he is a fictional character and why can't he just get it on in this fictional world with the cute guy that he's very much into?!

Stories are fantasies that we go on to escape the cruelty of reality, and when this guy 1) goes to a place with no sexual discrimination, which is what has kept him closeted 2) is surrounded by cute dudes and 3) the cutest dude is also into him , also he's like the king, you wonder... why can't he just accept the blessings the rest of us don't have?XD

But I think he struggles, like a lot of people, with his sexuality, and so he doesn't know really what to do.

Having said that, idk.... I feel like once they 'start sleeping in the same bed and have a child', there's a very clear innuendo that they're banging , but idk. The author keeps everything in a state of 'deniability' .

Which again... understandable.

You didn't read this from me, but def she's writing herself in Yuuri.

I think it's clear though, as the years go by, that she turns Yuuri and Wolf into a very solid couple with stories like Do you want an Exorcism, Crossheart, Misepan 2. Misepan 2 was released with the ending of the anime on DVD (2010s when she stopped writing), and Yuuri showing his love for Wolf in that story with the 'I would give you anything, Wolf' phrase, really sealed the deal for me.

After that we've gotten quite a few stories, and she even married them in It happens to everyone 2 and Shibuyas , two of the last stories that present them in the 'future'.

Like I said many times, they've been end-game for a while... it's just that no one noticed, cuz they're two guys.

#kyou kara maou #kkm #maruma #yuuram

[yourlocalwriterandreader3451]

The Runt - Billy the Kid

Summary: The runt is the smallest and has the least advantage in a group - commonly used when talking about a litter. And that is what Lauren is in the Seven Rivers gang:

The runt.

(PLATONIC! Billy the Kid x OC)

Warnings for this series: parental death, child abandonment, grief of a parent slight verbal abuse, physical abuse, mentions of sex, guns, violence, misogyny, use of a homophobic slur, complex feelings, drinking, underage drinking, smoking, drug usage.

THIS IS ALSO CROSS-POSTED ON MY WATTPAD: PhantomWritez2

Chapter One

Laurie had somehow convinced Jesse to let her go on a little cattle run with the rest of the guys. She was almost never allowed to go on those things because she was ‘too young’ or ‘too small’ or ‘too weak.’

Laurie, also known as Lauren (if you were to call her by her full name), was what the Seven Rivers gang called the runt of the litter.

The runt of the litter.

That was what Laurie was.

The smallest of the group, and often seen as the weakest even though she could do anything they could do, maybe even better than they could. And she hated being seen as some little fawn that needed to be coddled and looked after. 

The group galloped to the entrance of the ranch where Jesse dismounted his horse and was greeted by his girlfriend whom Laurie couldn’t really be bothered remembering the name of. And with that girlfriend, Barbara, if Laurie remembered correctly, stood the man the group had brought back to the ranch a few weeks ago.

Jesse said something about his name being Billy.

The 13-year-old tilted her head as she observed the strange guy. He looked a lot better than the last time she saw him. The last time she had seen him, he was lying on Artax’s back like a sack of potatoes and looking like he was about ready to kill himself. 

“Fellas, this here… is a very old friend of mine, Kid Antrim,” Jesse introduced, “Billy, Bob Olinger, John Beckwith, the runt back there is Lauren Casely.”

“Good to meet you,” Billy said, looking at the guys before his eyes fell on the little red-head girl. He could definitely see why Jesse referred to her as ‘the runt.’ You could tell right away she was the smallest and the youngest out of all of the guys here. Laurie sighed at the use of her full name, she didn’t really like it but she knew there wasn’t too much she could do to get the gang leader to stop calling her that.

She was just the runt of the litter, after all.

And she should be grateful Jesse didn’t shoot her on the spot when he found her, shouldn’t she?

Later that night, while all the guys sat around the table inside Jesse’s house, getting drunk or smoking tobacco. Or both. Laurie sat outside on the front porch, picking apart a twig she had found quietly. She never really felt like she truly belonged with the Seven Rivers gang, she was only here in the first place because Jesse caught her stealing supplies from his barn and decided to just take her under his wing instead of shooting her on the spot. But she was barely even acknowledged by him anyways, she was just another mouth to feed and body to bury to him. 

Her head perked up when someone sat beside her, she looked over to see Billy, nodding in acknowledgement before going back to tearing apart the twig in her hands. That was how the two sat for a good few minutes, sitting in the dark in silence until Billy spoke up.

“Lauren, correct?,” he inquired, watching the younger girl.

“Laurie,” Laurie replied, “I don’t like being called Lauren.”

The outlaw nodded, making a mental note about the fact that this kid didn’t like being called by her full name.

“So how’d you get here, running with a gang?,” Billy questioned, looking over at the young teenager next to him. “You don’t look much older than 12.”

“I’m 13,” the teen corrected, throwing her stick to the side. “Jesse caught me stealing from his barn when I was 10. Instead of shooting me on the spot he decided to spare me and just have me living under his care for some reason.”

Billy nodded, looking up at the full moon in the dark night sky. It had been a while since he had actually taken the time to appreciate the small things, like how bright the moon looked and how pretty the stars in the sky were. 

“Where’re your parents?,” the outlaw suddenly asked and Laurie sighed.

“Gone. My dad was killed, don’t know what happened to my ma, I just woke up one day and she had just disappeared, never heard from her since,” Laurie explained, clearly not really in the mood to talk but she knew that it would be rude not to answer Billy’s questions.

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The next morning Lauri found herself doing yard work while the other gang members worked on training new horses. Billy sat on the fence, talking with Jesse and Barbara while watching Jesse lunge one of the new horses. Laurie picked up a bag of some horse feed, tossing it into a wheelbarrow, ever so slightly eavesdropping on the conversation a few feet away from her. Jesse was talking about how the gang was thinking of going out to El Paso, and Laurie immediately knew she would probably get left out of that trip because she was too young or too weak, just like she always did.

The only reason she went on that trip that they returned from yesterday was because Jesse was “feeling nice.” 

“Hey, why do you call that one over there ‘runt’?,” Billy questioned as he looked over to where Laurie was working and then back at Jesse.

“Because that’s what she is, really,” Jesse answered, continuing his work with his horse. “She’s the smallest out of all of us, probably the weakest as well. Sounds like runt material to me, don’t it?”

Laurie rolled her eyes with a quiet sigh, she hated that nickname. Runt – the smallest and more often than not in a group, specifically used when you’re talking about dogs and other animals. But according to Jesse, it can be used on people too – given the correct circumstances, of course. And here’s the funny part, no matter how much Laurie disliked the taunting, the names and the constant reminder about the fact she would be nothing without him – Laurie always found herself trying to seek out Jesse’s approval one way or another.

That’s the beauty of Laurie’s life.

The red-headed teenager watched as Billy got up and followed Barbara down into a slightly wooded area where a few horses stood loosely tied by the mangers and water troughs. She rolled her eyes and continued working, Laurie never understood romance nor did she ever experience it or want to experience it. She didn’t really ever have those urges. 

After a few minutes Billy came back from the woods and approached her, Laurie slowed her movements for a moment. Trying to figure out why the new member was going to attempt to talk to her. 

“You need help with those?,” Billy asked, gesturing to the few bags of feed that still needed to be hauled into the wheelbarrow and brought into the stables. Laurie shrugged, picking up another bag and almost dropping it. Why did these things need to be so heavy?

“If you want to help, you can,” the child replied, putting the bag into the barrow with a small but tired sigh. Billy felt his face soften a bit when he noticed how tired the kid in front of him was. So he did what he believed was right and picked up the last few bags with ease and hauled them into the wheelbarrow. 

Laurie would be lying if she said that she wasn’t shocked that Billy helped her, because she wasn’t expecting him to actually do anything to make her life easier. In fact, he had been the first person in three years to actually help her with any of the chores she had been assigned. She stood there for a moment, glancing at the feed in the wheelbarrow before her blue eyes met his and she gave him a small smile.

“Thanks,” was all she said before pushing the wheelbarrow in the direction of the barn, not with ease though. She strained her muscles as she pushed the heavy supplies towards the barn, taking deep breaths as she did so. 

Billy watched Laurie and he couldn’t help but wonder why Jesse was having this child do this kind of work without at least a little bit of help, especially considering the fact she was a little bit small and naturally scrawny for her age. 

Why was there child labour going on at this ranch?

A/N:

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[healing-winston-pratt]

do u have any renegades ocs??

I DO I DO!!! I never got to talk much about them but @honey-hippie-harper and I ✨love✨ going nuts with fanchildren haha so in case anyone's interested, the OCs list goes something like this:

Spouses for Tamaya, Kasumi and Evander, as well as their respective fanchildren (actually the only ones we got to introduce were Evander's wife and son, though in an AU where he gets to live we ended up giving them a daughter too :))

The Council's families as in, their parents and siblings for the sake of backstory

Same for the Anarchists

Fanchildren for Nodrian, Osby*** and Dannissa

An OC girlfriend for Callum and their respective fanchildren ofc

Said fanchildren's Renegades teams, their romantic partners, + other Renegades teams who are involved with them

(For example, Nodrian's older children are twin girls, one of them dating a boy and the other one dating a girl. Said boy and girl are leaders of their respective teams so ofc we had to create OCs for said teams)

We like to call that generation "Young Renegades" :))

Minor Anarchists and Renegades, if I remember correctly

*** Special mention to Osby's older child bc they're the true main character of the YR:

Name's Terracotta "Terry" Silva-Tucker, She/He/They genderfluid menace

Their gift is "Dimensional Travel" which means in-world they travel via portals and that's how they fight criminals

However, the full reach of their power is that they can use it to travel to another dimensions, and by that I mean Terry can (and has) travel(ed) to all the other universes created by MM (TLC, Heartless, Instant Karma, Gilded...) as well as any of our AUs

Bc the only thing Dawnie and I love more than creating fanchildren, is creating AUs haha, so Terry often makes appearences in our fanfic/comic AUs

The characters from the main Renegades universe are aware of that, while their versions from the many AUs don't know Terry's not from their world

Terry specially loves crashing at the Teachers AU, where Nova & co + the Fortuna Beach gang are highchool students, while the Renegades Council, the Anarchists and the Rampion Crew are teachers, cuz that's the funniest AU Dawnie and I have created with all the characters from MM books lmao, our magnum opus 🤌

Thanks for coming to my TED Talk, I could talk about them forever but there's only so much infodump you guys are willing to take jsjs

#renegades trilogy #renegades OCs #asks #winnie answers #anon #we have BIBLES on all these characters guys #til this day we haven't even finished creating all the teams 🤡👍 #but our main ships are secured so we're happy with that jsjsjs

[greenhikingboots]

The WIP tag game got me in the mood for writing, so I decided to finish the one that was closest to done. I previously had this in my docs as "Little Drabble." It's now called "Real." First part below the cut + a link to AO3 for the rest.

“And this… this my boyfriend Jon.” Jon’s eyes are on Sansa as she says these words, and yet he struggles to believe he’s heard them correctly. After spending the morning painting her bedroom and piecing together a new bed frame, they’re in line to order lunch at Turnip’s Cafe. Some sandy haired guy is facing away from the cash register and towards them instead. He turned around upon recognizing Sansa’s voice — she’d said something about what she wanted to order — and their conversation took off from there. Sandy Hair is all bright smiles and flattering words, and Jon assumed, at first, that he’s one of Sansa’s former classmates from Winterfell, an old friend with a long buried, nearly forgotten crush. Or maybe Jon’s projecting his own experience onto this stranger. But with Sansa’s lie lingering in the air, he has to question all assumptions. Because if Sandy Hair is from Winterfell, why wouldn’t Sansa say, “This is Jon. He was a couple years ahead of us in school.” Or, “Remember my older brother Robb? This is his best friend.” Or — well, honestly, anything other than what she actually said. And this… this my boyfriend Jon. Boyfriend? No, not even close. Jon and Sansa see a lot more of each other now that she’s graduated college and moved back home, but he’s never so much as called her just to talk or slipped his arm around her shoulder. Things just aren’t like that between them. So why say it? Why lie to this guy? And who the hell is he, anyway? “We finally had the talk,” Sansa says. Her voice is a pitch too high, too unnatural as she adds, “It’s official now. Still getting used to the labels, though, I guess. Boyfriend and girlfriend.” She makes a weird noise, almost like a squeal, and it finally hits Jon that his face must have revealed his surprise. That’s why Sansa’s making up an excuse, piling on the lies — and expecting him to play along as she does so. Well, alright then, Jon can do that. He is nothing if not committed to pleasing the Starks, especially Sansa as of late. He slips an arm around her shoulder — highly aware that it’s the first time — then extends his free hand to officially meet the guy ahead of them in line. “Sorry, I was staring at the menu board. Didn’t catch your name before,” he says. “Harry,” says Sandy Hair Harry, shaking Jon’s hand at the same time. “Sansa and I met at the Vale.” They dated in the Vale. As Sansa’s brother’s friend, Jon knows this. But as Sansa’s pretend boyfriend, should he? He isn’t sure so he tries not to keep his face indifferent. Easy enough given that he’s suddenly preoccupied with wondering what Harry’s doing in Winterfell. It's not exactly a tourist destination. “Some friends and I are doing a thru-hike at the Wolfswood this week,” Harry explains, jabbing a thumb over his shoulder, towards his friends already placing their orders. Sansa perks up. “Jon’s done that hike a million times,” she says. She leans into his chest, and he wonders if she’s getting further into character or just trying to subtly thank him for playing along. “Any tips for Harry?” she asks. Jon shrugs. The hiking trail in question is deceivingly difficult, but he’s not interested in prolonging their conversation with Harry. No, he wants Harry gone so he can start peppering Sansa with questions. Why are you lying? Why do you want Harry to think you’re seeing someone? Didn’t you break up with him? Wasn’t it pretty drama free? “No tips at all?” Harry asks. “Just the usual stuff,” Jon replies. “Pack an extra pair of socks. Drink before you’re thirsty. That sort of thing.” Harry doesn't look all that satisfied, but he nods anyway. It’s almost his turn to order so he tells Sansa how great it was to run into her, then tells Jon how nice it was to meet him. Finally, he turns away. Sansa whispers in Jon’s ear immediately. “Don’t let go yet.” Jon doesn’t. Instead, he pulls Sansa closer and looks at her expectantly. If she can whisper those short instructions, maybe she can whisper some answers to unanswered questions. “Not yet,” she says quietly. [Read the rest here.]

#jonsa one shot #modern au jonsa fic #just a little thing i decided to finish today #wasn't that hard #why do i put everything off for a million years?

[kunikame]

¡! ❝ REDAMANCY .. ❞

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natsume sakasaki x reader smau

warning(s) : none i think !!!

w/c : 716

mika has lost all awareness the moment he was informed of your whereabouts. he’s pretty sure he was in class barely a minute ago, so now why is he suddenly desperately gasping for air right outside the infirmary? how did he even get here? he doesn’t quite remember. all he knows is you’re in there and you’re not doing well.

gently, the raven opens the door and enters the eerily white room only to see you out cold with natsume sitting next to you.

unlike a certain maroon headed friend, mika knows–  believes – natsume has nothing to do with what happened to you. it simply wouldn’t make sense with how happy he made you and how enthusiastically you talked about “‘sume”.

upon hearing footsteps the redhead turns around and gives a sympathetic look when he registers it’s a friendly face who came to see you.

“what happened exactly?”

“the nurse said she probably had a panic attack, i’m not sure why yet. she hasn’t mentioned feeling stressed or uneasy lately. no warning signs, nothing. has she told you anything?”

mika shook his head, “nah, we haven’t had a one-on-one ‘n a while, actually. i do have a hunch as to what could’ve possibly triggered it though.”

“oh? what is it?”

“mao’s been avoidin’ her for a while, i think, maybe-”

the door slammed open giving both boys a fright and in stormed the subject of their hushed discussion. mao had murder on his mind, that much was clear when he grabbed natsume by his shirt collar and lifted him up without struggle.

“you. what did you do to her?” he said with a glare so sharp it could cut glass.

“me? why, nothing. why would i ever do something to hurt my own girlfriend? that’s not very gentlemanly if you ask me.”

“why is she here then, smartass? you had to have done something. it’s obviously your fault, i don't know anyone else who'd ever hurt y/n.”

“is it? is it really? perhaps if you looked within your conscience you’d know very clearly it was not me. i have no reason or motive to hurt y/n. nothing to gain from doing so, either. you, on the other hand..” natsume trailed off, looking the other up and down with an obviously judgemental stare. he felt like he had the upper hand now that he had an important piece of information from mika.

“me? the audacity. why would i ever want to get her in an infirmary bed? are you insane?”

“maybe not intentionally, yet the blame lies with you. ask anyone.”

mao’s glare wavered slightly, his hold on natsume's collar loosened as he turned to look at his childhood friend.

mika was torn. he hated being put on the spot like this. mao was his childhood friend, he’s supposed to be on his side, yet.. what if he wasn’t right this time? but wouldn’t mao just be mad if he took natsumes’ side? what to do, what to do…

yet the silence was all the confirmation mao needed. it.. was it really his fault? did he get you here? but what could’ve possibly– he’s been avoiding you. but how could that have possibly brought you here? knowing you, if you found out someone was avoiding you you’d just confront them about it, like you did with ****** back in the day. but ****** was different, wasn’t he.. why didn’t you confront mao also? had he known his actions would lead to this– read: they would have consequences– he wouldn’t have avoided you so desperately. looking back, it was pretty unreasonable and unfair of him. he should apologize when you wake up.

while he was lost in his thoughts, the hand clutching natsume's collar went completely limp at his side as he stared blankly at the ground.

“m … ry…”

the silence was deafening, and natsume had to double check he heard mao correctly.

“sorry, could you repeat that?”

“yeah, no. i’m not doing it again to inflate your ego, dude. you heard it once and it won’t happen again,” said mao, glaring at the redhead again.

“uh, no, i really didn’t he–”

“um, what’re you guys doing here? why am i at the infirmary? and why does my head hurt like i got whacked with a guitar..”

╰┈➤ synopsis❝after yumenosaki academy resident magician and eccentric sakasaki natsume asks you to “go out with him”, you immediately shut him down. so why is he dedicating a song to you at a switch concert? and why are people whispering about you being the cutest couple?❞

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[luffythinker]

IM CRYING, IM GLAD YOUR OPEN TO MY SHIKANARU CAUSE EVERYBODY I TRY AND TALK TO ABOUT THIS SHIP DOESNT CARE I actually am making a story i just got to get it all together. IMA SHARE IT WITH YOU WHEN I GOT IT TOGETHER it's really just me changing some events in the story and making it where Naruto and Shikamaru end up together. My plans are to have Naruto end up with Shikamaru, I love Sai/Sakura but Ino loves Sakura and i don't understand the Ino/Sai i'm still watching the anime it's just i never finished my run so i started reading the manga back to the part im at and im at ep 145 of shippuden i think? I'm not allowing myself to finish watching it until my story is caught up to where i am. Back to what i was saying I'm thinking of making it Ino/Sakura/Sai but it's more of "This is my girlfriend Sakura and her boyfriend Sai" my reasoning for this is when Ino witnessed Sasuke pull that guys arms out the socket as a kid it traumatized her, made her scared of him and Sai apparently looks like Sasuke, they were saying he looked like Sasuke a little bit in the anime if i remember correctly. it just creeps her out. I don't think Ino really ever liked Sasuke she just liked him cause that's what was cool when she was a kid so the whole rivalry with Sakura was just built on that idea. I was rewatching some scenes and i think, ok i gotta back track a little bit. I headcanon Ino's famliy is the most chill with same-sex stuff, so like if their daughter was gay they wouldn't mind. Ino puts this thinking in Sakura's head but Sakura's not as understanding as a kid and thinking it's weird cause different households (Not saying her parents were homophobic, it's just never been brought up to her before) Ino finally realizes she's in love with Sakura after she comes to her rescue when he hair gets cut that's the whole of what i wanted to say. So from that point on Ino likes Sakura, Sakura still has her feelings for Sasuke and Naruto's crush on Sakura has gone. I noticed he still asked her on dates but ultimately before and after Sasuke leaves it really hits Naruto that Sakura holds something special to Sasuke. Tsunade even notices it when she watches him leave the room to give them a moment after she heals him, Naruto walks out the room and says he wants her to look at Lee but his body language said "Oh im not needed here" and his feelings looked a little hurt. Another thing Neji developing a crush on Shikamaru before and during the timeskip because those two are the smartest in the group meaning they must work together alot even if they weren't in the same squad, Chunin Neji and Chunin Shikamaru being paired up alot is something i look at with shining eyes. But Neji, he notices Shikamaru's crush on Naruto so backs off, this leads him to back to Lee cause i'm a huge Neji/Lee shipper as well. Now, i've been reading this fic i'll include it here (Love Is A Battlefield by MadamZenobia on AO3) my endgame ships are

Shikamaru/Naruto

Ino/Sakura/Sai

Sasuke/Suigetsu

Kiba/Shino

Lee/Neji

As for Hinata i'm not throwing her away, just changing her motifs a little i guess? She has a crush on Naruto yes, after him being away for so long she has time to work on herself and find herself more. She does like him but it isn't what's going to make her happy. It isn't because i don't like Naruto/Hinata it's cute it's alright but it doesn't make sense even if i haven't seen the movies or episodes that show it. I feel like Hinata needs to do some self reflecting. Naruto is a huge inspiration to her, she's watched him train, become who he is but those two with a family together isn't something i can see happening even if it canonly happened, when i first got into this i didn't see it coming. So in my story Hinata is happy living her best life being single, watching her friends be happy together has brought her so much peace, even watching Naruto be happy with Shikamaru. (I wanna plan a talk she has with Shikamaru about his crush on Naruto and them discussing their feelings about Naruto so Shikamaru doesn't feel like he just took Naruto from her since from his point of view it looks like she liked him first but Shikamaru's had a crush on Naruto since he meet him, Shikamaru met Naruto first. ) I also have an idea of Hinata just wanting to be a single mother in Boruto, and Naruto/Shikamaru adopting and teaching a orphan both their Jutsu's turbsdfuvbhrsu IT'LL BE SO CUTE

i'm not finished with my story im writing but i can give you my fic i'm rewriting, the original version it's Shikamaru and Naruto what a troublesome love story by ZerosWaifu (I don't have a tumblr im using my friend's account they said it's fine so don't worry )

THIS ONE IS SO LONG IM SORRY

I'm so glad you're into shikanaru as well, I have never really found someone to talk to about them!! Please do share your story when it's done, I would love to read it <3

I feel pretty neutral about Sai/Ino, not because I think they are madly in love or anything but in Boruto I like the dynamic I saw of them, plus inojin is my favorite kid so I'm biased here… But I'm also super down for a Sai/Sakura/Ino, with mostly Sakura being the bridge between them!!!

For me, Ino would be a lesbian who had to deal with a lot of compulsory heterosexuality, so she forced herself to have a crush on Sasuke when they were kids because that's just what girls are supposed to do, but after a small breakdown after a fight with sakura she talks to her parents and surprisingly it's them that tell her that she might have a crush on her and they tell her that it's okay if she feels that way and that there is nothing wrong with her.

I think it's pretty accurate that Sakura would be a little reluctant to accept that, but eventually, she does understand that she's bisexual and things become a little easier for her to figure out what she wants and who she wants to be! [Discovering non-monogamy/polyamory is a whole other can of worms so I'm not gonna get into that here unless you want me to!!]

I'M SO GLAD YOU BROUGHT UP NEJI AND SHIKAMARU. Okay I know they're not your main pairing but a few years ago I read a fic of them that to this day has a place in my brain, I will leave linked it here if you're interested

But yes, for our shikanaru endgame purpose, Neji is very perceptive so he kind of always knew he never really had a chance here, he backs off, and eventually, his feelings for someone else grow which is how we get to neji/lee!!

Also thank you for the fic rec, I'll try to give it a read soon <3 Sasuke and suigetsu is such an interesting ship, I never got into them fully but their dynamic is so fun!

I like your take on Hinata, for me, i ship her with Kiba, he was so in love with her it's crazy, I don't know if you noticed the signs but they would have so much potential, honestly a throuple with shino would work too. But I also really like your take on her talking it out with shikamaru and realizing that her feelings for Naruto lean more toward admiration than actual romantic love, would love for her to have a happy life, would also really adore seeing her become the head of the Hyuuga clan and start making the changes Naruto promised Neji he would do it (and he never actually did it)!!

I think that's all i have for today?? do hmu whenever you want cause i'm super happy to explore more about naruto <33

#shikanaru #naruto #shikamaru #hinata #sasuke #sakura #ino #sai yamanaka #inosai #sakuino #sakuinosai #naruto rarepair #nejilee #kibahina #rei replies

[kkanabel]

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march 6th, 2020 ( chapter 2 , week 1 )

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Sakusa Kiyoomi would never define himself as somebody who is passionate about anything. He's not the type of person that would be love with anything or anyone. Sure, he's had a crush here and there, but it never developed into anything more.

He used to like Yasuda Asami-chan from Class 3. She was quiet like him, and would always use hand sanitizer before and after class. But that's about it, really. When his classmates would ask if his crush was pretty, he said, "Yeah, I guess."

But it would never be anything more. When classmates talked about their girlfriends in the locker room, they talked about growing old and having children with them. Sakusa realized that he'd never felt this way toward anybody. And even when he found a love letter in his desk, he only felt perplexed.

When his classmates got love letters, they're always excited!

And when Sakusa read the letter, he saw it was Yasuda Asami-chan from Class 3. Her handwriting was neat, and the love letter had everything that any normal boy his age would love. But still--even though Yasuda Asami-chan from Class 3 was his self proclaimed crush, he didn't feel anything.

He ended up rejecting her.

But it was strange--Sakusa found certain people attractive, but he just couldn't imagine himself in a relationship with them.

If anybody said that Sakusa wasn't worried about the situation, it would be a lie. 

He was confused. 

For a while, he brushed it off. But when Komori broke into his house, gushing about a girl he'd met and how he felt "butterflies" in his stomach, Sakusa still didn't understand. 

For a while, he thought the saying "butterflies in the stomach" was simply that--just a saying.

The thought of a living animal in his stomach also made him sick to the stomach. 

Maybe that's what people felt? They felt sick?

No, that can't be right..

After Komori continued to talk about his feelings to Sakusa, he confirmed that he has never felt this romantic attraction towards others that everybody else feels. To him, the simple idea of kissing, hugging, or doing the devil's tango with anybody makes him gag (if not hyperventilate). At the time, with the understanding he had extreme mysophobia, it made sense.

But still, Sakusa wondered if he just wasn't into girls. 

He swiped through photos of conventionally attractive guys and felt no attraction to any of them. 

Jeon Jungkook? Nope. Nothing. He also doesn't know how to wash dishes correctly.

Kento Yamazaki? No. Also confuses him. Looks too different in every photo. Are we sure he's one person?

Alright, Sakusa thought. He searched up "Top 20 Most Handsome Men" and swiped through it. Ah, he thought, here are the white people.

Jamie Dornan? That guy from the movie about the color gray or something? Absolutely not.

Brad Pitt? God, Sakusa hates beards. Hell no. 

Chris Hemsworth? Like, that guy with the lightning hammers? Sakusa was confused. Next.

While looking through these lists, the frown on his face only got deeper and deeper. By then, he'd decided that he was probably both aromantic and asexual. 

So, it was decided. Sakusa Kiyoomi has never been and never will be in love with anybody, because fucking hell, this was way too confusing and hard.

But to say he's not passionate about anything? That's wrong. Sakusa Kiyoomi is not in love with a person, but with something else entirely.

If he saw that in writing, he would be extremely disgusted. But it was the truth--Sakusa was in love.

Every day since he was a child, he had a set routine. Wake up at 5 am, brush his teeth, and then go exercise. Then, he'd go to school, do homework, and sleep at 8 pm. He grew up as a sickly child; he remembers his mom caring for him at his bedside when he was constantly unable to go to school nor outside.

This was when he learned about the existence of bacteria. He learned from school that there are good and bad bacteria, and that the bad bacteria would get you sick. So, Sakusa did the obvious and stayed away from those bacteria. Every time he would go anywhere in public, he'd wear a mask and gloves. He disinfected everything he came into contact with--even if he had on gloves. He avoided crowds like the plague, and tried to keep to himself as much as possible. 

To keep his immune system in check, he's always on a strict and highly nutritious diet, and he made sure to have a strict workout schedule as well. 

In fact, whenever he goes running outside, (which he tries to avoid, but does so as to get his daily Vitamin D intake in a natural way) a person always asks if he is an athlete. Of course, he isn't, but he takes pride in knowing he takes care of his health enough to be perceived as one.

The fact that he hasn't gotten sick since the age of six is worn proudly on his chest like a pageant ribbon worn by girls with overbearing, snobby parents.

If there was a person that was the essence of physical excellence, it would be Sakusa. 

But when it came to emotional excellence, he was absolute trash at it. Now, I'm not saying he's outright stupid, but emotionally... he's stupid. He's horrible at handling his own emotions and horrible at navigating others' emotions.

Either way, when his parents saw him developing extreme germaphobic tendencies, they immediately got him a therapist to help him with his phobia. His therapist noticed his emotional issues, and they tried to help Sakusa navigate both his phobia and his emotions. But since Sakusa's parents really didn't give a flying fuck about his emotions, they wanted the therapist to hurry up with Sakusa's germaphobia treatment.

So, the therapist started from there. It was from there that Sakusa got his first taste of art and illustration. Sakusa knows he loves things that are beautiful, and since he was interested in anime as a kid, his therapist gave him a pencil and told him to start drawing his favorite characters.

At first, when he messed up and erased, the eraser dust terrified the five year old Sakusa. For him, it wasn't just the idea of germs, it was also tiny particles like dust and sand and dirt and eraser dust. Slowly, he found that his therapist was introducing him to smaller and smaller particles--those that he hated--and doing it by introducing him to hobbies that he ended up really enjoying.

But as he kept drawing in his free time--after school and during therapy sessions--he only got better and better. He was slowly able to sketch something he saw in his mind easily without having to erase. The sheer stubbornness he had when it came to his mysophobia was intense. He wasn't going to change his disgust toward germs just so that he could erase a line or two. Instead, he'll just get so good at sketching that he won't have to erase. Ever.

His therapist obviously noticed this and realized that drawing was no longer going to help him with his germaphobia. It helped a bit in the start, but his fear only served as a catalyst for his artistic ability. So, his therapist introduced him to gardening. 

Sakusa absolutely hated dirt, but he loved flowers. There was something about the vibrancy of flowers that always captivated him during the rare moments he was outside.

After he started the hobby, (of course, wearing gloves and initially having extreme difficulty just being near soil of any sort and putting soil under UV lights to murder bacteria) his therapist noted significant improvement in alleviating his mysophobia. Fast forward a couple years--the large yard behind the house his parents' owned was alive with flowers and butterflies in a carefully planned garden. 

And all of it was him.

So, Sakusa decided that he'd probably just garden for his parents for the rest of his life and draw in his free time. He didn't have any passions other than that. 

What was the point of going to college? He knew his parents could just support him, and he didn't particularly care for the disgusting children on college campuses.

So, this was his reaction when some guy in a suit approached him with a proposal to start a contract at a modeling agency. At this point in his life, he was a little more comfortable around people without a mask on, but a stranger? Hell no. He strung one onto his face as soon as the stranger came within six feet of him.

Sakusa just politely accepted the business card with no intention of following up on the stranger's proposal until his cousin forced him into it.

After he got into modeling, this is when it was clear that Sakusa had a passion. Not particularly just for modeling, but for many things. But there was one thing in particular that drew him into all of these hobbies.

There was something about the routine of cleaning that relaxed him. Something about the routine of coming up with an idea, creating a draft, and then executing it. Something about the process of doing long research, finally purchasing, and then the cultivation period. Something about going through makeup, dressing, and then the flash of a camera. 

It was the process.

Sakusa was so deeply in love with the process of cleaning, drawing, gardening, and modeling. The thinking behind it, the execution, and the results. 

It drew him in so well that he was constantly submerged in the pleasantly dizzying but organized process of completing a process. 

He'd finally found exactly what he wanted to do for the rest of life. Routine drove him, and the process of it relaxed him. He'll just keep repeating this process for the rest of his life, and he was perfectly happy with it. Every single each step of the list made him feel content.

He couldn't ever wish for more.

So why is he bored?

[ 10 : 49 am ]

[ the next morning ]

Sakusa was so surprised that he choked on his toothpaste while reading this.

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[harrison-abbott]

I remember this time ages ago when I was a student. I was walking up the street with my old girlfriend, and we passed a bus stop, where a main was standing. He would’ve been in his late thirties or early forties, and he smiled at me and said, “I’m in a bit of trouble …” And I got the vibe (correctly) that he was after money. Sure enough, he then asked me for money. And I didn’t have any coins on me and so I headed past without responding. He didn’t look like he was in trouble. I might have felt bad for him, or that I had misunderstood him perhaps: but then he totally exploded and started yelling at me, “Fuck you! You can’t spare me some change! Fuck you! Fuck you!” Like that, over and over. And my girlfriend was quite the undermined affair and rarely got angry at such things like confrontation; and that breathed over on me because it’s better to just walk away from such incidents.

There was another occasion in the same city – Aberdeen – where this guy approached me on the street. He was a bit older, perhaps in his 50s or so. And he was wearing a fluorescent jacket so he kinda looked like a workie, a construction type chap. And he was well spoken when he spoke to me so I listened. He claimed that he was at work and was struggling to get home, because his van had been stolen, and his phone had died … except he said it in a more articulate way than that. Basically – I believed him, momentarily. And ended up giving him a few pounds in change. And he thanked me politely and moved on. … And about five weeks later he approached me again nearer the campus and came up and said to me, “Can you spare five minutes for a working man?” I then understood that he was lying the last time and that he was scouting for money again. And next time he approached me, not too long afterwards, he veered towards me again with his palm out and I had my headphones in, so I just walked past.

Money can certainly destroy people, if they’re unlucky enough to not have much of it. And, I get it: it can be real harsh. Especially if they’ve had bad stories. You don’t know these people, and maybe a tonne of crap has happened to them in their history which wasn’t their fault.

At the same time, there can be moments like when I walked beyond a beggar chap sitting on the pavement at night, after he had called out, “Spare change, pal,” and since I didn’t have any coins on me I continued onwards, and he followed up his request by calling me an “ignorant cunt”. Examples like that are totally different. And then just a few months back when I was in Paris this woman comes up to me near the Eiffel Tower, hustling for money. I gave her a coin anyway after I realised it was a hustle: and she hissed, “Oh, that’s crazy!” (because it wasn’t as much as she wanted), and then she threw the coin at me. Those things are way different. The Hell with that.

Either way – I hope that they’re all in better places these days and that they are a bit more secure and safe.

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[the-jam-to-the-unicorn]

The interview anon here. 😁

It was a super old interview (pre 2003 I think because they were talking about "the girlfriend" and not "the wife"). They talked about all kind of stuff - Vova talked about KVN, touring, things, also about a lot of very personal topics. When Ze had his first sexual experience (he said young and before Olena) and with how many girls he had sex in the past (not that many before olena but he had experience; joking that his parents better not hear and read that or he might get in trouble and they talked about that and in the end Vova said well, they know and they talked but they don't know every detail) (the interviewer also asked if the girlfriend had experience - as in if she's one of "those modern woman" - but Vova dodged that question and didn't answer it directly, just telling Olena being a modern woman in general and being a strong, independent person; the interviewer tried a few more times but Vova never really answered even though the undertone was that Olena had no or very little experience but he never said that directly) and how many girls he has kissed in his life so far (many but most of them were just kisses and nothing serious and joked that since many years he only kisses one girl and he's very happy with that and he kisses that girl a lot every day and they joked back and fourth about it if it doesn't get boring and vova was like naaah, still get butterflies every time and I hope she does too) and if he was ever interested in a fan (no) and if he or the guys do hook-ups while being on tour (also no) and if there is a "don't ask don't tell" thing whenever they go touring (basically if they're allowed to cheat) (again no). Also if he ever had sex in the tour bus, changing room, backstage and what was his craziest sex place in general (he didn't answer that and said he can't tell or he will get in trouble at home and just said it's not always the bed that he can say). And they also talked about "the girlfriend" and Vova was like he is super happy and found his dream girl hence why there is no reason to look for someone else and he would never cheat because he got the best one and there is no girl prettier or smarter or better than "the girlfriend" (Olena - if I remember correctly they never said her name just called her the girlfriend). And they were joking about well, if she is the one why you're not married yet, Volodymyr?! And he was like oh we will at some point but we take it slow because they're young and marriages cost money and they're not ready for children yet and they're happy like that but they totally are going to get married one day. And than the interviewer was like well don't you miss the girlfriend while being not at home?! And Vova was like oh yeah, I miss her like crazy and a lot and basically gushed about Olena a lot and said he can't sleep with her or sleeps badly (what he mentioned in other interviews too) and they phone each other every day and he sends her letters and postcards or whenever she can she's touring with them. And when they talked about the marriage thing the interviewer also asked about if they already have a "complete relationship" (I don't remember the exact term but he was basically asking if they already live together and have sex or are just dating and wait till marriage). And Ze was explaining their living situation and said yeah, everything else is existing besides us officially living together in our own flat and they interviewer kept asking about their sex life but Vova the Gentleman kept it vague and basically only said he's very happy and there is nothing to complain about and at some point was like the girlfriend knows how to make me happy wink wink wink. And the interviewer was like so she also has a wild side (Vova was talking earlier about how they complete each other - Olena's calm and shy personality and his energetic and outgoing one) and Vova said something like well she is an angel and a sweet and shy person but bedroom is always something else (and refused to comment more when the interviewer kept asking).

There was also more but I can't rememver right now. It was long. Haven't saved it, unfortunately, but if I ever find it again - I'll send the link!

Oooohhhhh, thanks for sending all that in!

Yes, please! Send it if you ever find it again! 😃

And no, in that case we were talking about different interviews. 🤗

[pjunicornart]

Mettaton x Papyrus

Ink x Fresh

NaJ Cray x Cotton

Mettaton x Papyrus ...guys I think this might be my OG Undertale OTP. I don't know! There's something wholesome about this ship. The goofball with the more up kept personality is charming. Maybe it's because it reminds of my own relationship with my girlfriend, but this one does have a place in my heart. It's also really nice to think about how Mettaton is often read as trans, and to think that Papyrus is just supportive and okay with that is... yes, yes, all the yes.

Ink x Fresh I said this in a previous ask, but it's hard for me to ship anyone with Ink because he's aro ace. Fresh? Hm... well, considering he's a parasite with not much else going on besides "survive off current host like a tapeworm", I find it confusing how people ship Fresh with anyone at all. Because, again... parasite. As for the ship... meh? I can see why people would ship it, but it's not really my taste.

NaJ Cray x Cotton No. Absolutely not. If I'm remembering correctly all the characters involved, and there isn't another character named Cotton, then no. Teacher-Student Relationships (TSRs) make me extremely uncomfortable. Especially if they go through with it... It has a lot of weird and gross implications. So, no. I don't support this ship or ANY ship where there is an implied significant age gap.

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[greywindys]

Weeb anon returns :'D : Samurai Flamenco wedding suit cards in the spinoff app is probably the most infamous example, but there was also Lucky Star (wedding scenario official art), I think Hibike Euphonium and a couple more yuri anime I'm not caught up on (girls in wedding dresses are a lot more popular, wonder why :P ), Kaworu and Shinji from Evangelion had wedding ring merch and wedding outfits for merch… I'm sure there's more of it though, Japan is always on top of its subtle fanservice merch.

Interesting what you're saying though! Again, might just be me coping, but I honestly feel like Jamie and Damon could crack at some point, if only to spite bigots, since the world is pretty ugly these days and they're punks at heart (not the correct technical term… but y'kno what I mean lol). Kinda like MCR used to make out on stage just to piss off some crowds. I think their perspective has definitely shifted over the years, especially since they're getting a lot of younger LGBTQ fans and they know it. Damon's out there dancing with a pride flag, singing "are you tranz like me?" and kissing Seye in all fairness haha. But they probably don't want to undermine 20 years' worth of work and ending up getting asked about 2doc every interview or sideline Noodle and Russ even more than they already are. I dunno, don't wanna play a mind reader. TLDR: I'm not starry-eyed thinking it'll ever happen, but I see a small possibility of them being fine with it now more than ever, whereas there was no chance a few years ago.

Ahhh okay! I'm learning a lot here. I'm very basic with my anime/manga consumption and really haven't ventured out of the shonen genre....ever idt lol. Up until recently I had only read or watched 4 different series. Thanks for sharing what you know!

I guess I'm skeptical of them not because I think they're uncomfortable with the idea, but moreso because I don't think they care enough about really developing the lore and characters. I also don't think the ship aligns with either of their personal, for lack of a better word, "headcanons" about 2D and Murdoc. Of the two, I think Jamie would be more likely to go, "fuck it" and let the writers do whatever. He already kind of does this - since P4, it's been the writers who have been the source of all the 2Doc hints we get in interviews, tiktoks, etc. Afaik, Jamie isn't involved in that.

Damon, as far as I know, doesn't seem to have any semblence of shipper vision. During P5, he said in an interview that 2D was happy Murdoc was in jail, and wanted him to stay there forever haha. And most recently, if I remember correctly, he said he didn't care about the PR side of Gorillaz at all, which I assume included the character interviews, lore updates via social media etc.. All of which he is entitled to feel! But I bring them up to support my impression that he isn't a shipper, and I wouldn't expect him to go to bat for 2Doc if he wanted to make a statement. But I might have missed some things, so if you or anyone reading this knows of any counter-evidence, I'm open to hearing it.

And that's true that canon 2Doc would probably be the final nail in the coffin for Russel and Noodle's relevance. And that would be a bummer, ngl. I'd feel bad for my friends who are fans of them.

That all being said, I think you bring up some good point, and ia that Jamon are both supportive of the fans and LGBT community, and are comfortable being open about that. But does that overlap with their respective interpretations of 2D and Murdoc? Idk. I think if I was placing a bet, I'd put money on Jamie giving Noodle a girlfriend before any ship between the guys. But my main theory is that management will eventually see that 2Doc is popular and accepted by enough of the fandom that it will help them trend lol. But I'm also not expecting anything...but it's fun to conjecture about.

We'll see how this post has aged after 20 years 🤣

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[cobycobsy2k]

❤💙 How I found out I'm Bisexual (STORYTIME)💙❤

Hi Guys! I hope you are doing well and I hope you are having a nice start to the month and a happy start to Pride Month!

Today I wanted to bring a storytime about how I discovered that I am bi, I hope you like it and without further ado let's start. To make this storytime a bit funny I added some memes and clips from stan twitter

Since I was a little boy I have always been attracted to girls, the truth is I used to spend more time with girls than with other boys (except for some friends), I also started to develop some crushes with some celebrities like Shakira, which I remember that When I was 4 years old and I saw the Waka Waka music video for the first time, I fell deeply in love with Shakira. And there was no change, until 4th grade or 3rd grade (I don't even remember haha, sorry xD)

Well let's say this happened in 3rd grade haha

I was 10 years old, I was a super friendly, affectionate and gentle boy (which I still am to this day haha). At that time I had a crush named Peach (let's call her that, since she and I are still friends haha), who is super cute, smart, friendly and above all, she liked Miraculous Ladybug and Five night At Freddy's! (I guess there's nothing more mid 2010s than those two things), and one day, a new guy came into the room.

And why lie to you guys?, THAT BOY WAS TOO CUTE!!, I mean he was like Dustin Broke (in ts4 but with some ts2 traits), but... he was the naughtiest boy in the class.

From there I did not stop looking at him and other boys, honestly I felt a little confused, although I also kept seeing the girls.

When I was in 4th grade I didn't really care if I liked boys or girls, the important thing is that I had friends. Although I am not going to deny that I did have several crushes in 4th grade (if I remember correctly there were 3 or 4 hahaha). and in 4th grade it was that my 3rd grade crush started talking to me, either to make very funny jokes, talk to me or just ask me questions, and I can't deny that I felt butterflies in my stomach when he talked to me haha.

Do you remember Peach? Well, I had a "date" with her (to see a movie in the cinema, I think it was the last one from Ice Age) and I also had butterflies in my stomach with her.

At that time I didn't know that I was bisexual, until one day, an Aunt came out of the closet which I found interesting and I asked her about LGBT+, and she explained to me very patiently (If this aunt is reading this blog, Thank you so much aunt, I love you so much, you are a total idol!!, We love you!!) and I also started to investigate more about the community.

Years passed and our story continues in 2018

2018 was my first year being here in Ecuador, all of the above happened in Venezuela (when I lived there), at that time I think I was entering 8th grade. I had a neighbor who, like me, was Venezuelan (I don't even get along with this guy now, I mean, we don't even talk to each other anymore because we lost contact and we don't see each other), the truth is he seemed super cute to me, great, We spent hours playing and having fun. Then he started to seem handsome to me, and then, I started to have a crush on him... But, my crush on him left because he was a bit of a narcissist.

Then in 2019, I had my last relationship with a girl. My ex-girlfriend at the time and I shared a lot of things in common, we both liked the same singer (Melanie Martinez) and things like that lol. But when I was walking down the street and I saw a boy who seemed very handsome to me, I looked at him.

And that's when I realized that I was bisexual.

The truth is, I feel more comfortable with my sexuality, instead of being confused about myself, I have learned more about my personality and my tastes. When I told a lifelong friend that I was bi, she laughed a little and told me: "Hey, I've known for a long time haha", to which I was confused and then she said: " It's just that you were too obvious, you were always blushing or shy."

And well, this has been my storytime, I hope you liked it! 😁💞💗

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