#but couldn't sleep

[bew-berry]

Hoo boy I had an infuriating night last night and to take my mind off it i started thinking about writing aus. I've reached the "how would my characters die in aus" part of creating because I'm in a foul mood and I made myself very sad now rather than angry. It's pretty obvious who is who if you follow my oc posts which I doubt many do. That's fine. I dont post much about them anymore...at least not here. I've mostly moved them elsewhere.

I'm not killing them off. That'll never ever happen. This was just a thought that became a thing and it got me thinking what ifs and it got dark. Im sure every creator goes through it and has like dark aus for ocs. I see those posts talking about giving them fucked up lives for fun. This wasn't fun for me though. Anywho in order from oldest to youngest:

A: Domestic abuse and was possibly pregnant from a forced time. She wouldn't have known yet but was starting to suspect. Is found bruised and battered lying over broken glass by the stairs. She had been isolated from her family so they didn't know how bad it was. She did a great job playing it off like nothing was wrong to not worry them even though some of the sisters knew better.

C: Killed by fiancé's mistress but not before being taken and brutally tortured for days. Is found later when it's too late and it's so bad she can't be identified right away. Fiancé had no part in it even though he becomes the prime suspect. She had found out about the affair and wanted to leave but he wanted to work things out and ended affair with his mistress to prove it. Mistress loses her mind and takes revenge.

M: Eating disorder (ano/bul) caused by mental/emotional/verbal abuse and heartbreak from her narcissistic boyfriend who intentionally gets involved with her cousin towards the end just to hurt her and throws it in her face. He knows how to keep her and tears her down if he sees any glimpse of light or joy in her eyes because he thinks it's funny. She likely has a couple of nervous breakdowns throughout the whole thing making her very sick to the point of no return.

L: Suicide. Becomes severely depressed after losing an important person in her life. Never comes out of it. Self harms to cope and takes pills to knock out all the time. Just gives up and spirals further as her mental health declines. Increases sleeping pills to avoid real life. She is found at home in the tub with the bottle of pills by the foot of the tub.

And the remaining family likely in a tragic accident at the family restaurant. Maybe a fire or robbery gone wrong.

I will never kill my girls or their family off, and it hurt me when this shit came to mind, but oh well. Sometimes that's the direction the mind goes when creating stuff while in a mood. I'm never writing these aus. I already feel bad for them. Maybe I should just write an actual story with them. They deserve so much love.

#tw: death #tw: ed #tw: violence #not like anyone reads my shit but im putting up the trigger warnings anyway #dark au #what ifs #writing things #im so tired #and upset at irl things #literally been up all night #but couldn't sleep #I'm pretty angry

[pbflutist]

#the nefarious anglerfish #i couldn't sleep until i made this.

[drawsmaddy]

[ID: A digital drawing of Essek Thelyss from Critical Role. He is facing three quarters to the right with a neutral expression. He has shoulder length hair. End description.]

HOLY FUCKING SHIT

#critical role spoilers #cr spoilers #essek thelyss #my art #critical role #critical role fanart #the mighty nein #bell's hells #bells hells #this is a very very quick doodle but i absolutely couldn't go to sleep without drawing essek #hot boi has returned to give me terrible brain rot all over again

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

finally at that age where i'm thinking i should get a tattoo. not bc i feel strongly about it, just seems like a waste not to. i've got so much skin i'm not using

#feels so selfish like. all this skin what am i saving it for? #open to design suggestions! (please make me regret this offer) #maybe some deep sea horrors. a pretty watercolor of a gulper eel #once saw a person on the subway with various Skeleton Tattoos on all their limbs #i respected their commitment to the theme #but more than that i respected how all the skeletons were engaged in Activities #dancing in a ballgown. juggling its own (and two other???) skulls. swordfighting. being a mermaid skeleton #ANYWAY. the only reason i haven't already gotten tattoos is i just couldn't be bothered #i'm old enough to know i don't have any strong-but-potentially-temporary feelings driving me towards it #aesthetically i prefer decorated to non-decorated surfaces. but i'm not artistic or thrilled with commitment #honestly it feels like sheer laziness. indecisiveness--nay. immaturity!--that i HAVEN'T gotten a tattoo yet #letting all this blank canvas go to waste. tut tut i need to grow up and be an adult and get a tattoo sleeve already. #really i've put off my responsibilities long enough #(in fairness i DID at one time have 18 different piercings) #(but i took most of them out bc they interfere with wearing headphones and/or shoving my face in my pillow during Sleep Time) #(i only kept the nape piercing bc oddly enough it ended up being the most convenient. and the least painful to get now i think about it.) #(neck piercing? no problem. normal pair of earrings? Tribulations And Suffering. i don't make the rules i just poke them with a stick.)

[phantom-shell]

Vampworld Finn!! He tends to bring pillows he finds in abandoned homes back to the tank. He can't fall asleep at ALL without a pile- Thus, the pillow corner was created.

Pt.1, Next

#Gee I wonder why he has such trouble sleeping unless he's on something super soft #It couldn't possibly be because he's originally from a world where all the floors are PILLOWS #vampworld finn #Adventure time #Fionna and Cake #finn the human #finn mertens #princess bubblegum #art #artwork #digital art #my art #fanart

[crispycreambacon]

Jesus came back and he brought trans people with him. Rejoyce.

#you're getting two works from me. as a treat. #the design is partially based on wolfythewitch's design!! they make really good art would recommend #I made this at 12 AM because I couldn't sleep 💀💀💀 #I don't know man #happy crossover of the century y'all #transgender day of visibility #tdov #easter #easter 2024 #jesus christ #art #digital painting #chris p fried art #trans #transgender

[aleikats]

wolfwood gets piercings (𓁹󠁘◡𓁹)

#trigun #tristamp #trigun stampede #wolfwood #vash the stampede #meryl stryfe #2023 my art #couldn't sleep so i finished doodlin' this #fyi dont get your ears pierced at claire's lmao #go to a piercing/tattoo parlor akjshdk #oh uh #piercing gun bad y'all

[sinfullyrosey]

Y/N, looking at Azul’s baby picture: Oh wow, you were so shaped. So squishy and soft. Full of so much chub to love.

Azul: What are you talking about?? I was a fat, ugly octopus!

Y/N: Fat? Yes. Ugly? No. You were a proper butterball, of whom I would have held and kneaded like dough. Bake you right into an adorable cutiepie.~

Azul: I don’t know what is wrong with your brain and eyes, but I most certainly was not adorable as a kid! Now give me that- *tries to swipe back the picture*

Y/N, dodging him: Nope. You were lovable and round and oh-so baby.~

Azul: I was unlovable! Not like I am now!

Y/N: Oh shut up, that’s just the insecurities and unresolved childhood trauma talking!

Azul: My younger self would ink himself if he saw me now!

Y/N: You peaked in your childhood and will never reach that same level of endearment until you reclaim the chub you so foolishly threw away.

Azul: . . .

Y/N: Your childhood longing is calling, Azul. Answer it.

[Jade and Floyd watching this all go down in the doorway]

Floyd, shoveling popcorn into his mouth: Yeah, Azul, answer it!

Jade: Yes, heed their words, Azul, so that we can partake in your chub too.~

#Twisted Wonderland #TWST #Azul Ashengrotto #Floyd Leech #Jade Leech #Azul Ashengrotto X Reader #GN!Reader #found this old thing and found it stupidly funny #I think I wrote this at like 3AM when I couldn't sleep or something..? #I know I wrote more short joke fics and they're all on my phone somewhere in my notes but I can't find them

[somewhereincairparavel]

okay but imagine. Thalia Grace, after Jason's death, in a fit of desperation, comes racing to Nico di Angelo, wanting him to summon his ghost, because she just wants to talk to her brother one last time. Before it's too late. Before he reaches Elysium, since the closest she could get to talking to her brother after he goes to the hero's paradise is through dreams, and that wasn't enough for her. Seeing his fragmented soul through dreams is not nearly good enough. She wants the message to reach him. The real him. Not a loomy remnant. She wants to apologise, as she feels her soul being hollowed out with guilt.

She should've looked for Jason, even after their mother told her that he's dead.

She shouldn't have been so busy with the hunters that she would have to cut their brother-sister conversation short.

She should've realised how much her brother craved her attention.

She should've come to the chb meeting that she'd promised jason she'd come to, she shouldn't have made her brother wait like a lost puppy.

The look in jason's eyes when she told him she'd have to leave was etched on to her face. Permanently scarring her soul.

She should've been a better sister. She failed him. She failed to make him feel wanted. She hoped Jason didn't face his death thinking that she didn't need him. Because Gods of Olympus, that would break her.

And she poured all of these gut wrenching thoughts to Nico, who suprisingly listened. Yes. Nico did resent Thalia for being in the hunters of Artemis, the same group that got his sister killed. But listening to Thalia pour her heart out to him, really hit a little too close to home. The daughter of Zeus seemed to echo a young nico, trying aimlessly to summon his sister's ghost to talk to her. They both had the same hollow red eyes, burning with hot tears streaming down, the same crease in the eyebrows, the same flicker of rage over their siblings's murder. At that moment, Thalia Grace looked as unthreatening as the king of all god's daughter could possibly look like.

But Nico was glad, that Thalia, atleast cared about her little brother to this extent. Up until this point, Nico had these lingering doubts if Bianca had really cared about him like this, she had dropped everything to join the hunters after all. Hearing Thalia talk about jason had healed his inner child. Maybe big sisters do think about their younger brothers, no matter how busy they appear to be... So he complied to her wishes. She deserved closure from her brother's death. It would do Jason some good too.

He poured all of his concentration into summoning the son of Jupiter, as Thalia anxiously chewed on her nails, pacing around the murky woods in anticipation. Until a wispy figure with rimmed glasses and neatly cropped hair, appeared in front of them.

"Hello, sis."

Nico di Angelo and Thalia Grace were more or less the same, when it came to wanting to make amends with their deceased sibling.

Except Thalia was the older sister who wanted her younger brother back, And Nico was the younger brother who wanted his older sister back.

#I sobbed while writing this btw #Like no joke. There are droplets of tears in my phone screen #I couldn't sleep last night #bc I just kept thinking abt how Thalia would've felt #To get her younger brother back years later only to lose him again #Tbh id be fucking pissed at the fates lol #But I realised that Thalia and nico really parallel eachother #But the roles are reversed #nico di angelo #thalia grace #jason grace #bianca di angelo #pjo #pjo fandom #pjo hoo #percy jackson #pjo series #pjo hoo toa #pjo toa #annabeth chase #hazel levesque #frank zhang #leo valdez #piper mclean

[lazylittledragon]

isn't it weird how if you get up at 7 or 8, do your work all day, then have free time and go to bed at 11 that's absolutely fine

but if i said i get up at 10, do fun stuff in the morning then work in the evening and go to bed late, i could be called lazy, nevermind that i'm getting just as much or MORE work done as i would in a traditional work day

#ramble #idk if this is a me problem or not #i've tried to do the early rise early bed thing again and again and it just does not work for me doing freelance right now #maybe it's bc i used to work at a bar so i'm more comfortable being active in the evening #i love working at night because there's less going on to distract me #what used to happen is i would get up early then fight executive dysfunction all day saying i couldn't do fun stuff until i did my work #then my will to work would hit at 10pm and i'd be up till 2am anyway #right now my routine is waking up later and playing a game or knitting for an hour or so and then working in the afternoon and evening #something something capitalism and 9-5 and adhd don't go together #this sounds like i'm just making excuses but it works and i'm actually getting shit done and sleeping enough so i don't see the problem #i just figured i'm probably going to sit and do nothing for a few hours in the morning anyway so i might as well give myself permission to

[cyrafoam]

so. um-

*leaves this on the table and runs away*

#can we collectively please ignore the fact that i imported the hand and hat from my last painting? please? its late okay i needed sleep- #included the barcode to make it look more like a magazine #i have 24 versions of this one drawing in my gallery since i couldn't decide on the dam background of all thigs #a background that is two colours mind you #bsd chuuya #bsd fanart #bsd #bungo stray dogs chuuya #bungo stray dogs fanart #bungou stray dogs #skk fanart #soukoku #soukoku fanart #skk #bsd dazai #bungo stray dogs dazai #chuuya fanart #dazai fanart #art i made

[sweet-honey-fruit]

Imagine how full you would feel with both Childe and Zhongli deep inside of you. How much of a withering, whiney, moan-filled mess you would be as they thrusted in and out of your greedy hole; always making sure you were filled. Being stuck between them, their hands all over you. Zhongli mumbling praises, "You're doing such a good job, taking us both all the way. I'm so proud- yes, that's it. Be loud, just like that."

Meanwhile Childe mumbling degrading words while his lips brush against your ear, "Look at you, you're a mess. Such a slut for wanting two cocks in you at once. Couldn't get enough with just one, huh? Had to take both. What a dirty thing. You like being used, yeah?"

They are the perfect balance. Zhongli being gentle with his touch, gentle with his voice, gentle with his thrusts. All the while Childe is rougher, gripping at your body, biting anywhere he can reach, thrusts so hard it's exhilarating.

Your moans are like Celestia's blessings to them from the way their cocks drag against your walls; their lips marking up your body. It makes you cum. Over and over again. But they won't stop, no, not till you're all satisfied. Not till their cum mixture is dripping out of your soaked hole.

#street talk #genshin thirst #genshin smut #genshin men x reader smut #genshin men smut #genshin men x reader #genshin impact x reader #genshin impact smut #childe x reader smut #childe x reader #zhongli x reader #zhongli x reader smut #couldn't sleep #this is all I could think about

[sleepanonymous]

Legend has it if you listen to this soundcheck on repeat it will clear your skin, water your crops, and cure your depression. I hope this heals all of you like it has healed me.

#sleep token #vessel sleep token #vessel #song take me to church #take me to church #hozier #hozier cover #hozier take me to church #okay the caption is cheeky but this is pretty amazing #i wish the audio was better/longer but this was recorded outside a venue on a cellphone #the mp4 is in my google drive #in the rituals folder #it's literally a 30 second video of a wood door #but you can see the videographer get excited and thats kinda cute #because i'd be the same way fam #i wish i knew who actually recorded this so i could give proper credit #but its one of those things that's been passed around like crazy on the down-low #i know the person who *claims* to have recorded it is from ny or nj #so this might be from september 10th this past na rituals tour #i couldn't find this door on google maps #but i also couldn't get around to the back of the building to be 100% certain #i also tried checking union transfer the palladium and rams head live! but had no luck there either #if anyone has any more info on this soundcheck or the unedited video #(you can see and sort of hear it jump at the first “i'll tell you my sins”) #please please please tell me

[swan2swan]

Until someone from the staff says otherwise, I will stake actual, genuine money that this was an exchange from the writer's room that made it into the show.

#camp cretaceous #jurassic world: camp cretaceous #ben pincus #brooklynn #kenji kon #jwcc #yasmina fadoula #also I was always too dsitacted by this line #I never noticed their FACES #brooklynn Cannot Compute #Kenji is Aghast #and Yaz is wondering if she's allowed to sleep while this kid is in proximity to her #BUT IT'S TRUE #THEY MADE A WHOLE MOSASAURUS MODEL #and then used it for one scene #I think they kinda had a glimpse of it at the start of season 2 #then thety got to use it in Hidden Adventure #and got to have a cameo in 3 #and then one last big moment at the start of 4 #but that was a WHOLE MODEL #they paid money for and GOOD MONY TOO #IT'S ONE OF THE BEST IN THE SHOW #AND SHE GOT ONE SCENE #THEY PUT ALL OF THAT MONEY INTO THE MOSASAURUS AND LEFT NONE FOR THE TRICERATOPS #rexy couldn't even have her scars!!!

[puppetmaster13u]

Prompt 74

When a new black-haired blue-eyed person appeared in the manor, one could easily be forgiven for thinking that Bruce’s adoption problem had struck again. So color many a batkid surprised that no, this kid isn’t a new sibling, no he didn’t get grabbed from the street, and actually he’s here for Alfred. Apparently Alfred never found it important to mentioned that he has a husband- that the kid kind of implies isn’t human what with the casual way he says he himself is half human- and that this kid is apparently their child. For once it’s Bruce’s turn to come home to a surprise sibling. 

Danny on the other hand just learned that his Clockpa has a semi-mortal partner who has offered to take him in, (in another dimension even! And there’s aliens!!) while the ancient takes care of some stuff at home. And yeah it’s in a rich-manor but Sam has proved that not all rich people are evil, and based off of Mr Pennyworth’s stories the Waynes weren’t bad either. Though based off of the others’ reactions perhaps he should wait to mention that there wasn’t one new family member but three…

#dcxdp #dpxdc #prompts #clockworth #Clockwork is taking care of the GIW #they crossed the line when they took his kids #fuck the observants telling him not interfere- he's going to channel some Kronos and eat some people #hey if they want a mindless and dangerous ghost they can deal with the one behind tales of a world serpent #Alfred is honestly pleased to hear from his partner and to meet their children #Reminds him of when he first met Clockwork and they took down a government branch #lovely times #would do the date again #Danny is in awe about food that doesn't fight back and tastes good #Alfred is also great! He teaches him proper gun safety and makes sure he gets a proper amount of sleep and its great #honestly he can't wait for Ellie to get to this world but she really wanted to finish exploring the mariana trench first #And Jordan is apparently helping Clockpa with something for the last bit of his probation #Jazz is just happy for him but sad she couldn't come #but she has college that she worked really hard for so he gets it #the batfam are so confused and concerned

[hoofpeet]

Brief study from last night

#hoof draws #(while i couldn't sleep #& testing out these cloud brushes