#boyfriends webcomic fanfic

[newwwwusername]

Fanfic requests OPEN for the following comics/webcomics!!

I will write : Hurt/comfort, fluff, songfics, sickfics, AUs, canon divergence, any other trope or headcanon (so long as it doesn't go against the list of what I won't write), any ship (so long as it doesn't go against the list of what I won't write)

I won't write : Smut or fetish works, pedophilia (under 18 x over 18), incest (including adopted family and step family), beastiality (sentient/human x non-sentient/animal), necrophilia (alive x dead- not undead), OCs, crossovers, Y/N (character x reader), explicit depictions of suicide or self harm, explicit depictions of rape or noncon, drowning (personal trigger), werewolves (personal trigger)

Notes : I do not guarantee I will write every request I get. Sometimes requests will just not click with me, and sometimes I don’t feel qualified to fulfill it. I will try to write as many as I can, though ; Feel free to specify any headcanons you want. Keep in mind that, unless explicitly stated that you don't want them, other headcanons (usually trans or Autistic headcanons) may be shoved in without you asking

I will write fanfiction (oneshot or multi-chapter) request for the following comic or webcomic fandoms : - Johnny the Homicidal Maniac - Lumberjanes - Dog Man - School Bus Graveyard - Spicy Mints - Castle Swimmer - City of Blank - Boyfriends - With Great Abandon - Bardown (TooManyHockeySticks) - Sacribaro (TooManyHockeySticks) - Screwed Up - HAHA : Sad Clown Stories - Timeless : A Caveman Western

Where to submit requests : - My ask box here on Tumblr - My Google Form - My forum - My prompts collection on AO3

#fanfic #fanfiction #requests open #johnny the homicidal maniac #jthm #lumberjanes #comics #webcomic #webtoon #webtoon canvas #dog man #school bus graveyard #spicy mints #castle swimmer #city of blank #boyfriends #boyfriends webtoon #with great abandon #bardown #sacribaro #screwed up #screwed up webtoon #haha sad clown stories #timeless #timeless a caveman western #ao3

[llycaons]

those posts are fun but I dont think I can ever pin down just one or two or three character types that I love...variety is the spice of life etc.

#i like those tag game posts and i know mutuals do too but i know in the back ofof my mind #that they must do numbers on fanfic brainrotted side of the site where they treat a single personality trait or aesthetic as a character #the kind of thing that produces boyfriends webcomic #but like I said they're fine posts and i like seeing what mutuals and other ppl of taste say #bc every time i answer i feel like im omitting someone important #trying to think of what li xian and scar fmab and jesse and shiori and mob and wwx all have in common. i cant #if anything maybe the very broad category of 'nonconformity' but that doesn't even cover everyone who i consider a fave #ah fuck i forgot killua and yushi huang and chane and - #cor.txt

[havoc-bloom]

Meet The Havocbringer :]

Welcome to the House of The Havocbringer!

(GIFs from Dreams of An Insomniac and Welcome Home. Userbox made by @treats-icon-collection)

Unsure how I haven’t made an introductory post before, but hello! My name is Havoc, artisanal shitposter, artist, horror fanatic, and fanfic writer extraordinaire!

I upload and reblog pretty much anything that interests me; art, stories, memes, heritage posts, you name it. I also make my own OC art and stories! Here’s some facts about me:

My sexuality and gender are unlabeled ❤️

I use they/it/he pronouns 🧡

I am a minor (16 years old) 💛

I have autism and anxiety 💚

I’ve been doing digital art for over four years now and traditional for much longer, cheers to more years of masterpieces! 💙

I am obsessed with the horror genre, FNAF was my introduction and I’ve been hooked ever since 💜

I am completely open to DMs and messages! I’d love to hear what y’all think! 💗

Current Hyperfixations/Media I Like!

Dreams of An Insomniac (analog horror series)

Welcome Home! (ARG)

Pizza Tower (video game)

Hollow Knight (video game)

Will Wood/Will Wood and The Tapeworms (singer/songwriter)

Hawaii Part II (album)

Dialtown (video game)

Scarecrow / Jonathan Crane (DCU)

Transformers: Prime (TV Show)

Kin List:

Mortimer Gray (Dreams of An Insomniac)

Wally Darling (Welcome Home)

Quirrel (Hollow Knight)

That’s all I can really say about little ol’ me! Have a great time in the House of The Havocbringer!

❌(DNI under the cut)❌

DNI and Trigger List:

Dream stans / Dream SMP

Boyfriends (webcomic)

18+ or NSFW

Hyperrealistic/real images of spiders and maggots (severe arachnophobia!! And maggots really gross me out)

Bigots, racists, homophobes, transphobes, enbyphobes, people who disrespect neopronouns or xenoidentities, etc.

#introduction #introducing myself #pinned post #meet the creator

[uhohbestie]

hey besties i have fanfic-themed but not directly plot-related questions! well, mostly

question 1) do yall have any favorite zombie media? was there anything in particular that yall are drawing on for your fic?

personally i've been scared of zombie movies all my life lol but because of tamn i've finally been trying to finish the world war z audiobook? (the last time i tried getting thru it was pre covid which has been. a weird experience) it's fully voice acted and i like it so far! super different from the 2013 movie with brad pitt

question 2) :3 do you guys think you'd be up to talk about the no-apocalypse au where scarian get to have a normal breakup someday? :3 it doesn't have to be now or anytime soon but i'd be into hearing about it!

anyways hope yall are having a good day lock and key ^_^

These are some really REALLY good questions!!!

for starters! for me (Lock) I actually didn't start watching zombie media until Key introduced me to it! We watched the Korean series All Of Us Are Dead together, and then followed it with Last Of Us (the tv adaptation) and the first seasons of The Walking Dead, so I've have a very curated window into zombie media (actually! We watched Walking Dead as research for TAMN, because Key wanted to make sure I understood what hordes of zombies in cities look like!)

As for Key's zombie exposure (lol): I (Key) WAS BIG INTO ZOMBIES GROWING UP!! Constant zombie media consumption--probably one of my earliest hyperfixations ngl I feel like what we're drawing on while we write TAMN is an amalgamation of all our favourite bits from the things we've seen together, as well as some of my favourite formative zombie medias while growing up.

The Walking Dead Season 1 remains like, one of my all-time favourite seasons of any television show ever, so that's definitely a big influence. (Some of the later seasons get a lot less of my love LOL) The Korean movie Train to Busan is also a popular one you may have heard of--I'd definitely recommend giving that a go if you're okay with zombie media that veer on the side of tragic. When The Last of Us (Part One) came out, it quickly became my favourite zombie-oriented video game, though a lot of its predecessors (Resident Evil series esp.) really gripped me (even though it took me ages to play-through cuz they would scare the shit out of me LMAO) Its TV show is also an excellent adaptation, so if you're not into playing it or watching a Let's Play, the show is a good bet! The UK series In the Flesh was also an interesting look into After™ the apocalypse, and though it was cancelled after it's second season, it's also worth a watch for a fresh perspective on zombie media. 28 Days Later was an excellent movie and ofc Dawn of the Dead is a classic. And then the usual comedies like Shaun of the Dead, Zombieland, etc.

I saw World War Z as a movie but never read the book! I should def give it a try--idk why I never did! God, honestly I could ramble about zombie media forever if given the chance 😂 None of this even begins to cover the sheer amount of zombie comics I read. I was very much a "webcomic" era kid, so a lot of my favourite old original zombie comics are either offline now or I simply don't remember what they were called anymore, so I have no way to track them down :( I did recently enjoy the webtoon Boyfriend of the Dead as a light-hearted, humourous read, but there were a lot of gripping, nuanced, plot-heavy original comics like a decade ago that I loved and I wish I could link. ANYWAYS. I'LL STOP MYSELF HERE AND LET LOCK ANSWER QUESTION NUMBER 2 LMAO

HI IT'S LOCK. I'M BACK. Now, as for a non-apocalypse Scarian scenario, we've actually thought about this a LOT! One of our favourite things to do is make an AU, and then multiple "what if one key things was different" spinoffs of the same AU.

We're gonna put this under a read-more, in case you'd like to keep the "what if" a mystery forever, but to sum up:

In an alternate reality where Scar and Grian break up and then the zombie apocalypse doesn't happen........ they stay broken up! Scar gets what he longs for in the fic: time away from Grian to hurt and grieve and heal with the support of his close friends who care about him.

It takes him a while until he feels ready to date again, but Scar does eventually start a new relationship with someone he knows really well, and has loved and trusted for a long time. They get engaged and start planning their wedding..............

............. and then Grian comes back and says he's sorry, that he misses Scar, that he was wrong, and that he doesn't want to be without him. And Scar................... takes him back.

It's-- listen, it's not the best possible outcome! But we're basing heavily on the Life Series Scarian dynamic, which is itself incredibly nuanced and complicated and tragic and a little bit "you're both bad for each other." It's part soulmates, and it's part codependence, and it's partly killing the person you love with your bare hands alone in the desert, and how that guilt ends up haunting you into every other subsequent timeline. Grian's not the best person for Scar as he is, and Scar's not the best person for Grian, but they want to be with each other, and unfortunately that desire often overrides common sense.

As for what happens after that.... we don't know yet! It was a thought experiment we worked through and ultimately realised "oh, it's WAY better for them that the zombies DID happen in the long run, 'cause without them this would be awful." (Not that the zombies are great, but woof......... Scarian, c'mon.) In this version of events, they lose a lot of friends when Scar takes Grian back, and the isolation suits Scar poorly. It takes them a much longer time to work through how to be good for one another. If the zombie apocalypse was good for anything, it was forcing a reckoning of what they wanted and how to get it--the only other option was death. Without that hanging over their heads, it takes Scarian years to reach any sort of resolution, which (no spoilers but) takes TAMN!Scarian a much shorter amount of time to get to.

Hope that answers your question! The 'what ifs' are our favourite, so we love to ramble about them hahaha <3

#asks #anonymous #tamn #also love that you referred to us as bestie HAHA #I know it's in our username but it's so cute to hear used and directed at us #HOPE YOURE HAVING A GREAT DAY TOO!

[br1ghtestlight]

i dont even dislike the boyfriends webcomic it's a bit stereotypical in terms of tropes but like. who cares. fanfic exists and it does a lot of the same stuff. but the Boyfriends inanimate insanity tiktok is very funny to me

#there should be a knife/trophy/fan/paper polycule though it'd be funny #or silver spoon which would be horrible for everybody involved. who do you think would kill each other first silver spoon or trophy #txt #inanimate insanity

[davekat-sucks]

i think people hated boyfriends because the creator is racist and drew porn art of bts (including the underage members of the band too)

Then it should be hating on the creator itself, not the whole making a shitty webcomic. But yeah, I draw the line at drawing real life people. It's already scary enough people draw and make fanfics about real life YouTubers, but do this? It's fucked up.

[sirsunnydays]

i am writing a story so deep and so toe curling and y'know what story im writing?

that's right, Nerd from the boyfriends webcomic x Lightin mcqueen fanfic part 5.

#no i do not like boyfriends comic #this randomly came to my mind #months ago while me and 3 of my friends were dubbing the comic for shits and giggles #and i think its so fucking funny

[valdrift]

hello! I've seen you mention ksbd before on here. I'm interested in reading some more webcomics and ksbd looks fun, can you tell me a little about the plot and the experience reading it? it looks like it has some great monster designs. thanks!

ignore the fact this is 2 months late ANYWAYS.

basic summary of ksbd: allison is a sorority girl with not tht much going on in her life when suddenly she's transported to another world after her boyfriend is kidnapped. she's given something called the key of kings which is a very powerful item Everybody wants to get their hands on. in between dodging attempts to get the key stolen from her, allison trains, grows, and tries to rescue her boyfriend

bonus features of ksbd are:

WONDERFUL art, some of the most detailed and gorgeously depicted environments ive ever seen

amazing character designs, every character is incredibly unique even ones that are just in the background

immense worldbuilding with a shit ton of lore regarding the world's mythology, deities, culture, and more. makes me wish a world bible was released for ksbd bc id love to know more

great cast of characters like: trans angel grappling with her allegiances and sense of self, hot demon woman with a Dark and Mysterious past who also tried to debut as a fanfic author (??), a devil lady who is absolutely shredded, just lots of powerful and hot women, etc

if u like Women, epic fight scenes tht look like theyre straight out a shounen with an equal amt of destruction, GAYS, and more ksbd is ur cup of tea

#READ KSBD NOW.

[comingtothelavendercomic]

When I was in middle school I wrote these Happy Tree Friend fanfics with me and my oc Hex being friends with Flippy and Fliqpy. Hex and Fliqpy were vitriolic frenemies constantly at each other’s throats. Fliqpy wanted to sleep with Hex, but it was one-sided.

Hex is a lesbian, but I wanted her to have dated a boy when she was little. This mirrors my own experience with comphet and why it took me so long to discover I was a lesbian. I had another oc I’d planned on making her elementary school boyfriend, but the idea of writing it didn’t sound fun. I kept just wanting Hex to skip to the good part of realizing she’s a lesbian. 

I’ve been enjoying drawing Fliqpy again and have been wanting to figure out a way to put him in my webcomics, especially because my version of him is so far removed from canon it would  be easy to make him an oc (but we’d all know who it was)

I was contemplating making him be Hex’s elementary school boyfriend. Or possibly middle school boyfriend as a nod to when I wrote those fanfics.

#self insert #fanfiction #happy tree friends #htf #happy tree friends fliqpy #happy tree friends flippy #htf flippy #htf fliqpy #ocs #oc #art #my art #fanart

[brain-empty]

guys I think I accidentally stumbled across the Boyfriend's webcomic creator's ao3 account...dont ask how I have common tags I read & unless its a fanfic repost from that acc then...fuckn idk-- this is why I need to return to wattpad

[definitefraggle]

i didn't write either of these comments but i honestly wish i had. the webcomic being discussed is the Boyfriends one, which i'm hearing has gotten some intensely homophobic and transphobic hatred from within the LGBTQ+ community, which is sadly unsurprising at this point. (note: i am bi.)

i forget which thread or comment this was, but i'm starting to be converted over to the theory that this is actually all about actual material resources. which seems weird because we're talking about a digital environment where you can't touch anything.

but basically: people fight over headcanons because they want to see more of the posts they enjoy and less of the posts they don't, or more fanfic and fanart with the hcs they enjoy and less with the one they don't. same with ships. "ideally", if you shame/scare/harass the rival shippers out of fandom, then there's, in theory, more fic and art of your ship. and so on and so forth.

alternately: we, myself included, are used to blurting out every thought going through our heads on social media, especially if it's negative. and we want people to reassure us or validate our complaint.

when maybe? we should just? keep it to text and DMs? or a diary made out of actual honest-to-god paper?

the reason i'm sharing this publicly is because harassment is on another level from kvetching, (which isn't to say kvetching is harmless when it makes a space feel less welcome.) but harassment is worse than that and i think people need to speak up and say that this is not okay and unacceptable.

#fandom #meta #discourse #boyfriends #antis

[legowerewolf]

List five things that make you happy, then put this in the ask box of the last ten people who reblogged something from you. Spread the positivity ✨

Fuck yeah. Let’s do this.

#1: my boyfriends

Do I need to explain? Cuddling and chilling out together are top tier. They make me feel better when things’ve gone to shit, or when I need to focus on something else or I’m gonna implode.

#2: narrative media

I fuckin love stories. I was one of those kids who would get a couple books from the school library in the morning and return them, finished, at the end of the day. As life’s happened, I’ve had less and less time to experience completely new properties, so I turn a lot to fanfic.

Either way, sci-fi, fantasy, and queer romance are my main genres. Stories about prevailing against the odds are a favorite at the moment - “ Midoriya Izuku Does Not Have One for All Quirk “ is a favorited tag on AO3 for me. Found family stuff is also :chef’s kiss:.

(note that I specifically did not mention a media format - games, anime, books, webcomics, etc. are all fair game)

#3: co-op games

Often tied to #1 and occasionally to #2. I like games that I can play with other people, not against them. PvP combat isn’t enjoyable to me. Working together to solve puzzles or defeat a boss is more fun.

#4: programming

I just got my CS degree, and even though it was hell at the end, certain kinds of programming still make me really happy.

I like doing web stuff especially because it’s rarely hard, just time-consuming (in a good way) as you work through how something works and how you can hook into it or get it to do what you want.

For example, I set up hotkeys for AO3 so I can use my arrow keys to navigate chapters and work lists, use ‘l’ to send kudos, etc. It was a fun puzzle to solve and it makes reading more pleasant.

Typescript, Python, and Powershell are my favorite languages, probably because it’s pretty easy to introspect what’s happening in all of them.

#5: listening to music

I’m a fan of soundtrack music, mostly. Big, orchestral pieces that make you feel like you could fight God and win.

I have noticed that I prefer lower pitches and a driving baseline, too.

Not a fan of screamo. I like things I can sing along with without fucking up my throat more, thanks.

[ao3feed-narlie]

Big Boy

read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/BrxnaF7 by Overcaffeinated_7 Nobody in their right mind thought Nick Nelson would present as an omega. When he was young, everyone but his mum insisted he would be an alpha. After he turned 14, it was widely accepted that he was just a beta. So imagine the surprise when he, at age 17, was thrown head first into his first heat. In his boyfriend’s fucking couch. Words: 1935, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English Fandoms: Heartstopper (TV), Heartstopper (Webcomic) Rating: Explicit Warnings: Underage Categories: M/M Characters: Nicholas "Nick" Nelson, Charles "Charlie" Spring (Heartstopper) Relationships: Nicholas "Nick" Nelson/Charles "Charlie" Spring Additional Tags: Alpha/Beta/Omega Dynamics, Alpha Charles "Charlie" Spring, Omega Nicholas "Nick" Nelson, Established Nicholas "Nick" Nelson/Charles "Charlie" Spring, Idiots in Love, Explicit Sexual Content, First Time, Awkward Sexual Situations, My First Fanfic, Not Beta Read read it on AO3 at https://ift.tt/BrxnaF7

#IFTTT #ao3feed #fanfic #heartstopper #narlie #nick x charlie #nick nelson #charlie spring #narlie fanfic

[jackedjacket]

No hate but what do you like about boyfriends, I’ve never read it but I’ve heard it’s controversial and I’ve seen a lot of hate but I don’t have an opinion on it

I love Boyfriends because it's a super cute webcomic about four boys who are all dating. They're all really supportive of each other and show pretty healthy poly dynamics.

Everything that I've seen about 'controversy' with this comic has just been BS. Like people get REALLY upset that the author used to write BTS fanfic because shipping people in real life is 'problematic' (it's not something I think people should really do, but I don't think that's a cancellable offense).

Some people also don't like that the characters are trope-y but like...their names are literally Goth, Prep, Nerd, and Jock so idk what they expect. I also don't think they're tropey at all, I think they're way more fleshed out than a lot of the characters I see in media today.

All in all, I don't think Boyfriends is problematic at all, I think people are just being poly-phobic and coming up with random reasons to hate on it because there's literally nothing controversial about it at all, the content is so pure and I really think more people should read it.

[catboyclarity]

Also. Dominic from famed webcomic Crushed Olive Branch

-my boyfriend made this guy and I have more information about him than anyone else does currently and probably than anybody else ever will. I talk about him every day probably

-I want to pull him apart like a twizzler (hatefully)

-I want to pull him apart like a twizzler (sexually)

-we have the same sexual and romantic orientation so I have to defeat him in single combat

-he and Mattias have almost the exact same hair color but he is blond bc I don’t like him and Mattias has brown hair because I do like him. I’m right.

-I’ve written nsfw fanfic about him.

#asks

[gavin-plz-call-me]

Melted Ice Cream

TW: Internalized Acephobia, brief mentions of gender dysphoria and blood.

All Vincent wanted to do was cuddle on the couch with his boyfriends and watch a movie, but they had different plans. Them having sex without him leads Vincent to question his place in the relationship.

Fandom: Boyfriends (webcomic)

Use of Cannon Names: Prep-Vincent

Jock-Kevin

Nerd-Adrian

Goth-Felix

AO3

Words: 3K

The movie that Adrian had picked out was surprisingly really good. It was some cute slice-of-life anime movie that Vincent was sure would be a bit boring, not that he’d ever complain when he got to be in the arms of his boyfriends, but the characters were compelling and the storyline was phenomenal. Vincent was cuddled up next to Kevin, who held an arm around Vincent, drawing mindless circles against him as the four paid attention to the movie. This, Vincent decided, was the most perfect moment he had ever lived: watching a good movie and basking in the love of his boyfriends.

That didn’t last long.

It started off subtly enough, the couch moving slightly under Vincent as someone shifted their position, the quiet sound of a peck on a cheek. They were things that were so often just the background noise to Vincent’s life, that he could easily tune them out in favor of seeing if the girls in the movie would confess or not. Kevin’s arm slowly moved away from Vincent’s shoulder, he shuddered at the loss of warmth and finally looked up to see what was happening beyond the movie. Kevin’s retreated hand found its way to Vincent’s thigh, squeezing it firmly as he nibbled on Adrian’s ear. Adrian, who was currently making out with Felix, subtle moans already starting to form in his throat.

As appealing as the scene before him was, Vincent knew already that tonight was not the night he wanted to do this. All he wanted to do was cuddle up with his boyfriends and finish the movie, but they had other plans. Not wanting to impede their pleasure, Vincent resisted as Kevin tried to pull him off of the couch. “Not tonight guys,” He said, laying down on the couch, looking up at the men currently standing up, about to move to the bedroom, “I’m gonna finish the movie, you guys have fun.”

Kevin knelt down, his warm hand brushing the hair out of Vincent’s face, “Are you sure?” he asked, “‘Cuz if you’d rather, we can all finish the movie and-”

“No,” Vincent interrupted, he could already see the hard-on blooming in Kevin’s pants as he knelt down beside him, and Adrian’s face was already his signature shade of beet red as he gazed at Vincent too, they wouldn’t enjoy the movie now anyways, “go have fun, really.” Kevin gave Vincent’s face a good look for another few seconds before pressing a kiss to his forehead and disappearing into the bedroom with Felix and Adrian.

Vincent grabbed a blanket from a nearby chair, laying down on the couch. The heat from where the other three had been sitting moments ago was still there, but it was quickly fading. Vincent could finish movie night by himself, maybe get some cleaning done around the apartment, then, when his boyfriends were finished, he could cuddle up with them and fall asleep. That would be nice. The movie was getting better and better by the second, the girls having finally confessed, went on a date, which was currently being interrupted by one of their ex’s.

A loud moan of pleasure ripped through the apartment, covering up the audio to the pivotal scene. No one was louder than Adrian, that’s for sure, and while it was hot when he was participating, Vincent felt more like an annoyed neighbor than a loving boyfriend. He didn’t dare turn up the TV, though, he wouldn’t want even more noise complaints. The moans showed no signs of stopping anytime soon, so Vincent paused the movie, grabbed his keys, and headed out the door, locking it behind him. There was no way he’d be able to concentrate, let alone hear the rest of the movie, and with his relaxing night interrupted, he didn’t have the heart to clean. A nice drive would do him good. The blonde moved down the stairs of the apartment complex, into the parking garage, and clicked his key to remember just where he had parked. His car gave a satisfying beep that echoed through the enclosed space.

Vincent climbed into his convertible, whose roof was currently up, turned it on, and quickly made his way out of the garage and onto one of the main roads. Vincent rolled down his window, letting the wind fall softly across his face. None of the stations were playing anything that interested him, and Vincent didn’t feel like hooking up his own phone, so he turned it off, basking in the silence.

Silence rarely brings good things to a mind in crisis.

Bored, Vincent’s mind began to wander to his boyfriends. He hoped they were having a good time together, but it was hard to imagine any of those three could leave the others unsatisfied, so there wasn’t too much to worry about there. Did they miss him?

A sudden red light had Vincent slamming on the break, stopping his car, but not his thoughts. Did they miss him? Of course they did, the logical side of Vincent’s head said, but the more he thought about it, the more unsure he grew. They were probably having mind-blowing sex over at home, he probably handn’t appeared in their thoughts since the second they closed the bedroom door. Why would they? He wasn’t there providing them pleasure, he almost never was. For some reason, Vincent’s sex drive was just never as high as the others, he was always turning them down, day after day. It was only a matter of time before they stopped trying to include him, it was only a matter of time before they-

“MOVE IT ASSHOLE!” A scream accompanied by a cluster of honks brought Vincent back to; the light was green. Vincent slammed on the accelerator, taking off once again. He really shouldn’t be driving if he was going to keep getting distracted, so he signaled and turned into a parking lot, rolling his window back up. He leaned back in his seat, eyes gazing up at nothing in particular. Maybe he was broken. That had to be it. There was asexuality, but Vincent was sure that didn’t describe him. He liked sex, he wanted to have sex, at least every once in a while, and he thought his boyfriends were incredibly sexy, so what was the problem?

Tears began to sting in his eyes. The problem must lie within himself. They’d see that soon, wouldn’t they? He hoped to whatever gods were out there in the universe that they’d never see the problem, but Felix, Adrian, and Kevin were smart. They’d realize it eventually, and he… where would he fit in once they realized?

Tears free-flowed down his face now. Vincent didn’t bother trying to stop them, just letting himself silently cry. Thoughts swirled around his head, too frantically for Vincent to stop them. They clouded his mind as his tears clouded his vision. A sudden buzz of his phone pulled him out of his thoughts for a moment. He picked it up and was greeted by a picture of Felix flipping the camera off. Why was Felix calling him so soon? It was only...Vincent had been in the car much longer than he thought he had. Taking a few deep breaths in an attempt to compose himself, Vincent picked up the phone.

“Vince, where are you?” Felix’s voice sounded in his ear with that slightly groggily tone his voice always got right after sex. Vincent could tell he was on speaker “Your keys are gone.”

“Yeah, I…” Vincent looked out the window, looking for an excuse that wouldn’t expose his hurt, “The movie got boring so I thought I’d get us some ice cream.”

“Ooh!” Adrian interrupted before Vincent could say more, secretly he was grateful as he could feel his throat beginning to tighten again. “Get me cotton candy please!” Kevin and Felix called out their orders, cookies and cream and mint chocolate chip respectively, after Adrian. Vincent hummed in acknowledgment, before letting out a quick “love you” and hanging up the phone. Something about their cheery attitudes made him want to start crying again, but he forcefully held the tears in, hoping his eyes wouldn’t look too blotchy when he got home.

Vincent quickly made his way through the drive-through, ordering the three ice creams, not bothering to order one for himself. His stomach was in knots, and the thought of eating made him more nauseous than anything. He turned the radio up, not particularly caring what blasted through his speakers, only wanting something to keep his mind away from dark thoughts. When he arrived back at the parking garage Vincent thanked his past self for putting concealer in his glove compartment. He quickly touched up his under eyes, masking the remnants of red that remained on his face, then finally left the car to take the elevator upstairs.

The living room to the apartment was still empty when Vincent finally unlocked the door, stepping inside. Vincent let out a slight shiver as a blast of cold air from the apartment hit him. He made his way to the bedroom. There he found Felix, Adrian, and Kevin cuddled against each other. Felix was dressed in basketball shorts and a t-shirt, Adrian in Kevin’s shirt, and Kevin in nothing but his underwear. Vincent was glad that they at least dressed before he came home, but the room, which still smelt strongly of sex with a bottle of lube haphazardly strung onto the floor, still gave away what activities they had been partaking in. Vincent handed out the ice creams, flopping into bed next to Felix when he was finally done.

Kevin reached over and stroked Vincent’s arm, “Didn’t you get yourself any, baby?” He asked through a spoonful of his treat.

Vincent hesitated for a moment before nodding, “Already ate it,” he lied.

“God,” Adrian called out from beside Kevin, “Cotton candy ice cream is the best.” He moaned in delight, savoring the sweet taste of his ice cream. Vincent slightly tensed at the moan, broken, his mind called out.

Vincent leaped out of bed, “I’m gonna go do the dishes,” he said, not facing his boyfriends. If he got one look at them he knew he’d cry again.

“What?” Adrian whined, “But cuddles? Dishes can wait.”

“I won’t be able to relax knowing the dishes aren’t done, I-” He tried to get more words out, but his breath hitched slightly. Praying his boyfriends didn’t notice, he quickly escaped the room for the kitchen. There really weren’t many dishes in the sink, just a few plates, cups, and silverware lay. It could have waited till morning, Adrian was right, Vincent knew that, but he turned on the sink anyways. The rush of water from the faucet did nothing to cover up his returning bad thoughts. Why couldn’t he be more normal? He couldn’t even eat ice cream with his boyfriends, couldn’t even cuddle up with them, and relax because his brain just wouldn’t stop thinking. His throat began closing in on itself as his hands shook from the exertion of keeping the tears inside. He wouldn’t cry, he wouldn’t place that burden on his boyfriends. They were already burdened enough to have him in their lives, right?

CRASH

The glass that Vincent had been washing slipped from his hands unceremoniously and fell to the ground, smashing into hundreds of pieces. A piece ground horribly into his calf, leaving an angry red mark that began to bleed, but the pain of the scratch was nothing compared to the pain in his heart. The broken cup, as broken as him, would be yet another burden on Felix, Adrian, and Kevin. Ignoring the blood, ignoring the loud sobs that had finally begun racking his body, Vincent kneeled on the ground, trying to pick up the mess with shaking hands.

Before he could satisfyingly clean up his mess, a pair of hands grabbed his, forcing the glass back onto the floor. Vincent tried to pull away, the only thing on his mind was cleaning up the mess, not being a burden on his boyfriends, maybe they’d keep him around longer if he did this. “Vincent,” A voice called out, stern and full of concern. The blonde refused to turn towards the voice, just struggling to get to the glass, “Vincent,” the voice called out again, “You’re bleeding.”

Those words caused Vincent to snap back. He looked down through still misty eyes at his own hands, which were still being held still by the wrists. Blood was leaking out of his palms from the shards of glass that had embedded themselves into his skin, the blood dripped onto the floor and onto the hands of the hands holding his. “We’re gonna get you cleaned up, okay.” The voice from earlier, that Vincent finally recognized as Kevin’s, said softly into his ear. Vincent nodded, allowing Kevin to help him up and walk towards the couch. Kevin supported Vincent as he slowly sat down, then sat next to the blonde, keeping him close. Soon enough, Adrian came running in with the first aid kit, his glasses slightly foggy from the exertion of running around looking for it.

Felix grabbed the first aid kit from the nerd, kneeling down in front of Vincent and grabbing the worst injured hand. They all sat in silence for a while as Felix fished out the glass shards from Vincent’s hands with a pair of tweezers. Vincent whimpered from the pain, hiding his face in Kevin’s neck, reveling in the warmth of his presence. Tears continued to leisurely roll down Vincent’s face; tears from the pain and because of the lingering smell of sex that permeated around him. Adrian sat opposite of Kevin, rubbing the prep’s shoulder supportively. “You’re doing so good, baby.” Kevin was the first to speak, pressing a kiss to his boyfriend’s forehead. Vincent’s tears leaked out of his eyes with renewed vigor at the simple, loving action.

When his hands and leg were properly cleaned and bandaged, Felix placed gentle kisses against his hands. “This isn’t just about the cup, is it?” Adrian asked, cuddling closer to the crying figure, “You…you were acting off for a bit there. If you wanna talk about it, we’re here for you, Vince.”

Vincent really didn’t want to talk about it. He didn’t want the burden of his own brokenness, his own feelings, to be dropped on his boyfriends, but sitting there being held by the three men he loves more than anything or anyone in the universe, he couldn’t help it. “I-” Vincent choked on a sob, “Why do you guys keep me around?”

There was silence for only a brief second before Felix bolted up grasping Vincent’s face in his shaking hands, “Why would you say that Vince?” His slightly calloused fingers wiped tears away from the prep’s face.

“I mean, I’m broken.” Vincent averted his eyes from Felix’s, looking down at his own empty palms, “Who’d want a boyfriend who never wants to have sex?” The three other boys opened their mouths to speak at the same time, but Vincent only continued, “I mean, tonight, you guys were...were together and...and I could only think about how jealous I was. About how much I just wanted to cuddle on the couch with you guys, but...but if I told you to stay, you’d find out how broken I really am. Can’t have sex, can’t communicate, hell, I can’t even wash the dishes right.”

Felix’s hand slowed to a stop on Vincent’s face, “Look at me, sweetheart,” he said softly, gently encouraging Vincent’s face to move upwards, but he refused. “Vincent, please look at me, please.” His voice cracked slightly. At that sound, Vincent finally looked back up at Felix, whose eyes were now flooded with tears to match his. “You are not broken,” he said firmly, “and I will not sit here and let you talk about yourself like that.”

“But it’s-”

“You have always been there for me when I’m feeling dysphoric. When I look in the mirror and all I see is a girl, you’re there to help me find myself again. You shut me down when I insult myself, so like hell am I’m gonna sit here and let you do that to yourself.” Felix’s forehead met Vincent’s, whispering against it, “please let me, let us, help you see the you we see.”

Two more heads made their way towards Felix and Vincent’s, tears rolling down their faces as well, “We’ll keep you around forever,” Kevin murmured into Vincent’s collarbone, “You’ve done so much for us, you’re so good.”

“I’d never have sex again if it meant keeping you by our side,” Adrian sobbed, grasping Vincent’s shirt that had long grown damp from the four men’s tears.

Vincent wanted to insist that he didn’t have to do that, but his tears stopped his words. They were no longer tears of sadness, or fear, or self-hatred. They were tears of happiness. His boyfriends, the men he loves more than anyone else in the world, were there by his side. Vincent’s eyes may only see the bad in himself, but their eyes? They saw an amazing man whom they love, who may not be perfect, but who is? The flaws Vincent saw were perfections to them, and Vincent felt all that love at that moment. So much love, it was almost too much to bear.

After a while of crying together, Vincent finally spoke again, laughing slightly through tears, “your guy’s ice cream is probably melted.”

“Who cares,” Kevin said, “Who needs ice cream when we have you?” And so the boys stayed, enjoying each other's embrace, wiping each other’s tears, while the three melted ice creams and the broken cup lay forgotten until morning.

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