#beforehand i was very casual about it and quite bad

[suempu]

Falls to floor your writing is so lovely Do you perhaps have any kabru x reader sfw/nsfw hcs…

thank you so much for the kind words. “lovely” 🥹 ahh you got me blushing anon lmfao

gn reader + on the receiving end !!!

<3

kabru would be the casual type of lover. he’s nothing but calm and suave with you, which is attractive.

he’s quite attentive of people and you’re no exception. although he really goes out of his way to be accommodating when it comes to you if you’re his lover.

mindful of your expressions and body language. once he sees a sign of you being uncomfortable, kabru will pull you away from the group and talk to you softly.

i feel like he’d be good at taking care of his partner, though he’s not the best, he tries.

kabru’s good at talking you down, grounding you into reality whenever you’re on the verge of a breakdown. let’s say you feel very unstable, he’ll whisper in the most softest tone you’ll ever hear while he holds your hand. he asks permission to touch you beforehand of course.

“here, you can feel my fingers, right?”

“mm.”

“my palm, feel it. you’re here with me,”

“i’m here…”

“good job. can i ask what happened?”

he’s good at radiating a calm atmosphere when you need it and he’s always ready to help you.

praises and compliments come out of his mouth like a piece of cake, he’s not shy when it comes to showering you with love. the whole party is grossed out by him whenever you’re around. it’s like when the parents are being all lovey-dovey and the children just groan out an ‘eww’ (its mainly mickbell complaining tho lmao)

i believe he’s had one or two intimate relationships before you, but none of them has ever lasted long enough as yours. so he’s had some experience before you.

he’s certainly a tease. have you seen that face? that face screams unfairness and mischief (in bed)

kabru loves your whining whenever he purposely denies you release. one moment his fingers will go fast and wild on your most sensitive spots, and the next he goes painstakingly slow.

“aww, but if i let you cum this early, then what about me?”

he’s a cheeky bastard. the real reason why he draws out your orgasms is because he believes that edging you will result to a much pleasurable and hard orgasm for later (he’s right.)

you will get overstimulated with this man, no question about it. he strives to make you cum at least 5-6 times in one session, which is overkill but he really loves the way your eyes glaze over.

kabru loves your tears and whining, though it kind of makes him guilty so he makes sure to absolutely spoil you after.

his hips are bad for your body. with the way he thrusts into you so precisely. its like he already knows which spot to hit, he rolls into you as he teases and whispers in your ear. he’s actually fucking crazy.

“right here? oh yeah, here?”

he moans in time with his thrusts. he loves watching your face, how your half lidded eyes look so lost yet so present. missionary is definitely his favorite position. loves being all up on your face, he kisses your cheeks, forehead, lips, and jaw while he’s inside you.

nights with him are long and wild, but he can go slow and be more gentler if you asked him to. he lives for your reactions, he thinks its really sweet how you trust him so much with your body.

kabru makes up for all his teasing with aftercare. he pants as he pulls you close, hands on your back and caressing you gently.

“you okay? did i break you?”

“shut up.” you breath out hoarsely.

he chuckles, “i love you too.”

he gives you a massage after that, quietly kissing your hips and stomach as his fingers rub at your skin. whispers small apologies while his hands work on your body. he always checks in on you whenever he hears a whine or groan when he touches a sore spot.

while he is content with just sleeping and cuddling in your own sweat, he’ll take you to the bathroom if you want to be cleaned.

solid lover, tries his best, just don’t ever have sex in his own bedroom (its messy)

#kabru of utaya #kabru x reader #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #dunmeshi #delicious in dungeon x reader #dunmeshi x reader #dungeon meshi x reader #kabru dungeon meshi #kabru delicious in dungeon #delicious in dungeon smut #dungeon meshi smut

[goldendusk-if]

Hello!

I’m here with half good and maybe bad news(?) So the last Character & Word count were in fact very inaccurate by a LOT. I didn’t realize I have a bunch of extra stuff and drafts of the story beforehand in it so twine included that…Um, so the updated and more accurate one will be included.

And I’ve decided to also do Female Mc’s and the story text will be different because of gender at scenes as well. So, Male Versions of the Ro’s will be made and depending on the Ro so will be the backstory/personality by a little bit. And to be quite honest, I’m not sure how I’m going to write crushes especially same-gender ones mostly because I don’t want to be cancelled and I personally have no experience so, it will be difficult.

Sorry, this is long but, I have a feeling I won’t be posting a lot unless it’s profiles or asks.

I’m a very much newbie and rookie to writing, it’s really not great but, I do have ideas and I want to share them, that’s why these are here. So, I would very much appreciate tips, and help whether that be story plot, rewording, or just spelling and grammar. And I’m an avid want a dash of romance not the main focus because I cringe A lot type of reader, the same type of writer as well. So advice on writing romance and dialogue is a must, that’s why I’m planning on the romance to be a more minor part.

I also realized I should probably focus on finishing writing the first part of the demo I’m planning to release in one of the upcoming months or weeks. And also, post something about the personalities the Mc can have. ❤️

Thank you for reading my rambling and being interested in my if.💗

~~~

Character Count: 51553 (just the story not including profiles, glossary or world lore)

Word Count: 8567

Features(first part is same bottom is new):

-Meeting the Mentor and Homie(By having a flashback) and setting their gender

-Customizing Mc including hair color, length, skin tone, name, nickname, petname, gender

-Finding out about your Father and seeing a new side to your mother

-Age from 16 to 20(idk if that's significant-)

-Choosing a personality type from Diplomat, Charmer, Fighter, Scholar, Spiritual, and Deceiver

-Choosing to be a early bird or night owl

-Go on an errand and have your Mentor kidnap you casually

-Profiles in-game are done technically though I have to add actual descriptions of their personalities and skills but, the ones here are currently way more detailed

-Are you more expressive or expressionless?(will be applied differently depending on personality)

-Will receive something from your Mentor

-Start your Journey To Nadripur and stuff

-Find out the Mc’s eyecolors

-Learn some Banglish(Bengali-English)

-Find out more about the world you live in

-Either be as rude as possible to a old man or attempt to be less rude to a older lady(Mentor)

-Choosing to be more decisive or indecisive

#update #goldendusk #interactive story #itch.io #twine #twine interactive fiction #twine sugarcube #word count #send me asks

[mikmiho]

Uhh hihi tumblr, this is a an essay on David chiem’s personality, I hope you enjoy. (Please keep in mind that I haven’t watched drdt in a while so there may be some mistakes idk though) anyway^^^^

Ever since episode 11, I’ve been thinking about David and his personality. He begins as an optimistic and friendly person, in episode 11 it then turns out that David was really manipulative and lying throughout the series, being a cold-hearted, pessimistic liar. But this ‘true’ david, I believe that is a lie.

David has always seemed suspicious ever since the beginning of drdt because of his sudden changes in behaviour only see for a few seconds before reverting back to normal.This can also make us conclude that the majority of his actions were made because of his ulterior motives, occasionally getting tired of pretending to be such a nice person. But most people would probably just tell me that I’m reality he was always a bad person as he bad mouthed arei even before he received suspicious during the second trial but beforehand the single time ( at least of what I remember) he broke character was in the prologue saying ‘Ugh, am I done with these dumb introductions already?This really sucks. Damn, why’d I even come to this ridiculous school? I hate talking to people anyway…I wish I were in bed…’ These lines were said whilst forgetting Teruko was present, being the most accurate example of his personality prior to chapter 2. You may think this sounds quite similar to how David is currently but I disagree. He speaks here without swearing, despite how visually annoyed he appears contrasting to when he had been in episode 11. In my opinion, I interpreted these lines as David still being a (manipulative) liar but only doing that on the outside as it’s what’s expected of him, getting irritated that due to his popularity he can’t act with sincerity. I base this theory (?) mostly off of this artwork.

David in the art is seen as happy being praised by an adult or an inportant figure in his life. I regularly believe that praise was something David enjoyed receiving as a child repairing in his wanting to act a certain way to be someone that could be admired.This would have eventually spiralled out of control to the point whereas all David ever said were lies to make people happier.

This is why I believe that David’s personality is not what he had shown in episode 11.

Now I must cover the topic of why he had acted differently during the trial.

Well, despite how I’m covering his personality shown in the second trial, i need to talk i about another scene first, David and arei’s (+ teruko, she doesn’t say anything) scene in the playground (ep 5 of chapter2).

This scene is what I believe is the second (still not sure if he broke character between chapter 1 and 2 so I’m still not sure whether I’m right but) scene where he breaks character, this time being much more subtle.The scene I’m referring to begins after arei breaks down in-front of David (+teruko), being calmed down by David afterwards, ( what David said ,I don’t currently have an opinion on whether he meant it or not as it probably was he default reaction to this sort of scene) David is then surprised by arei hugging David back and possibly also her line,‘You’re nice too’. I believe that his reaction is his real self in the scene, this is something I believe because David is bashful, sweating (slightly) and even stutter which had never (probably) happened to David before in drdt.His reaction tells us that it was something not part of his ‘calculation’, making his very bashful, not getting to react as he would in any other circumstances.

Now, when comparing the behaviour i had talked about previously to David (post reveal), David swears very frequently in speech, he is cocky, he is easily irritated and casually lies; this being the complete opposite of how we all know David. David even acts in a way which makes him seem much more different from the prologue David which was irritated and tired and would be much more likely to swear in those circumstances.

This may be me jumping to conclusions but I believe that the prologue David is the real David whilst the other two versions are personas made to create an image of himself. The prologue David is someone that is tired of putting up with being such a optimistic person and just wants to act casually, letting his guard down once it’s slightly quieter, implying that even within those circumstances that may have been calmer that his average day. And Optimistic David was someone that seemed both perfect and normal all at once, being someone that was truely perfect, being relatable and a figure of inspiration. Finally there is our ‘true’ David which is cocky, rude, manipulative and an liar.

This ‘true’ version of David revealed in episode 11 can be explained simply by being an extreme type of prologue David, one that patronises, looks down on and makes fun of everyone regardless of who they once were to him, David continually pushes this cocky personality with a foul mouth so much to the point whereas it just seems he’s doing this just to push this agenda of how awful of a person he is.So much so that I can say with certainty that this ‘real’ David is a lie.

Some wouldn’t believe me after than, well I haven’t provided any evidence to back up my theory, well I’ll be analysing the moment whereas David ‘admits to killing arei’. During the chain of events leading to this ‘reveal’, there’s an evident change in his mind, that changing from being defensive to admitting his ‘crimes’, having to refer back to his speech about min ensuring that everyone is keeping in mind that this David is the ‘real’ one.Although this act does break briefly once he ‘admits’ that he killed arei. It’s easily notable that David appears to be in lots of pain saying ‘I killed arei’ even stuttering beforehand. His sprite is covered in sweat,squinting his eyes even having to grab onto his opposite arm for support.Evidently he’s suffering greatly from saying this, only ‘confessing’ this to keep up with the character he’s attempting to portray.

His story also changes consistently throughout the trial to match the current conversation topic, I we can assume that david’s beginning to lose hope in his lie and began spouting out downgrading statements and claims just to act as someone who’s confident with the current situation despite his real mental state.

Of course even after everything there’s a reason why David began to portray this fake version of himself during the trial rather than revealing the truth. The only possibility currently is guilt. The guilt of having someone’s blood on his hands, not just one person but two. Naturally you would say that David was not the cause of either of Xander and Arei’s deaths but in David’s eyes, he would believe otherwise. In chapter 1 episode 5 David was present whilst Teruko and Xander discussed meeting in the computer room and yet did nothing and then in chapter 2, David was one of the last people to see Arei alive aside from her killer. All of this guilt could have pushed him to a point whereas he feels that he must atone for his crimes by becoming this awful person we know David as now. Maybe even continuing this act so much to the point whereas he wants to be executed for his ‘crimes’. An illogical route leaving everyone aside from the killer dying just because he can’t stand still living with ‘his actions’ never backing down because david just can’t carry this burden any longer. The burden of Xander, Arei and all of the people he’s ever lied to and manipulated, all just too much for David.

#drdt theory #drdt spoilers #drdt chapter 2 #drdt #drdt david #david chiem

[shirkers2018dirsanditan]

Can I ask how did you know those guys you went out with actually didn't like you? I want to know some of the warning signs to look out for

yeah sure. well the first guy he asked me out on a thursday and then took me to a random insanely loud bar where we couldn’t really talk and instead of just letting me pay for my drink he paid for both and then immediately closed the tab because he was obviously in a hurry to get me to his apartment. he also tried to choke me……well he started to but i told him don’t do that and he tried to insist but dropped it shortly because i was adamant. which bothered me. he was generally over aggressive. he ended up ghosting me and i ended up blocking him. in hindsight i was too generous and should’ve blocked him right off the bat but that was my first real date 🤷🏾‍♀️ i was desperate and pathetic…i did post about it though in all its detail. he was the best conversationalist of all of them though.

the second one was a bust because i wasn’t attracted to him but he was a narcissist who barely let me get a word in. i planned that date. it didnt last long either we just got drinks and i was home by dusk lol

and the third who was the one i actually had full sex with did put in some level if effort in was by far the worst……the FIRST red flag was he was like an hour late. which…yes i know. but i had already paid $35 to uber to the restaurant so like……..then he showed up and he was dressed ridiculously casually. and he was late because he decided to “swing by” his parent’s bbq beforehand, which should have told me that he didn’t even respect me a little bit. but i was desperate and pathetic and everyone was too nice to tell me. he also didn’t bother to clean his car or apartment but i kinda pushed my way into seeing either so i’ll take the L there. on our second date, he was late AGAIN, and his car and apartment was still dirty and he was terrible at conversation. and i posted about this too but i felt bad the second time i had sex with him because i felt like he didn’t like me by the way he acted after, which was overly nonchalant and he started getting ready to watch tv before i even left and also like. i can’t describe his behavior but it was the whole vibe of it. and i texted him my lame little text afterwards and he responded more coldly than before and then i just never texted him again and he never texted me.

and now i know better and i’m trying to cope with just being alone and lonely rather than trying to force things and sacrificing my self-respect. because even though those are the only real dates i’ve been on, i knew better. and i’ve wanted better for other women in scenarios that weren’t even as bad as mine. but nobody is immune i guess. still i feel very stupid. i wish none of it ever happened and its quite difficult to let go of……so best of luck to you! you definitely deserve a lot better than that but i also believe you will find it 🩷

#anon

[michellemisfit]

A few months ago I casually said that the @gallacrafts Cinnamon Stargazer Lilies must be in my Top 10 Most Ridiculous Bakes I’ve ever done, which led to @tsuga-of-mars asking what else is on that list… oooooh, dangerous request my dude! hahahaha

It’s taken a while because I had to get together the photographs and make decision (wow am I bad at making decisions!!! haha) but here you are…

My Top 10 Most Ridiculous/Favourite Bakes

So when I first started baking in like… 2010? I figured that if I bake cake batter directly in the mixing bowl I could make ball cakes… so that led to some exciting ball shaped fun. This was also at the same time as I realised that if you bring people ridiculously over the top cakes for their birthday, it makes them really happy… who knew?

Ball cakes led on to foot and a half tall cakes consisting of stacked round cakes, ball cakes, and half ball cakes. For that is how you assemble a droid…. This is all very early in my cake making journey, before I’d really learnt about how important it is to fully cool cakes before stacking and decorating them. y’know, that stuff that keeps them from melting and sliding lol

And then for a minute I got really into chocolate, and clearly developed a dislike for crockery, deciding to make chocolate doilies and chocolate bowls, to serve my chocolate mousse in and on. Fuck plates! LOL This was also when I made Ruth the most indulgent chocolate cake covered in all manners of chocolate decorations, including spelling her name in chocolate lol

And then our friends got married and asked me whether I would make their wedding cake, because they loved my baking. Hell, yeah! Both their sets of parents are quite traditional, so while they did come to the wedding and the party afterwards, they said from the start they would only stick around for about an hour. So I thought it would be fun to have a traditional looking three tier wedding cake, for when the parents were at the party. And then when they left and it got cut, each tier turned out to be rainbow coloured! Oh, and the cake toppers are the brides made out of FIMO, in their wedding outfits, which I sourced for them, so I had the inside knowledge on that. Those little FIMO ladies have lived on their mantel piece for 11 years, which is how long they’ve been married <3

Most of my cakes have been inspired by Ruth’s birthday, and wanting to create something new and exciting every year! Ruth loves Afternoon Tea, and I thought it would be fun to create a traditional tea… entirely out of cake! Think this was the first time where the baking started with a full page of notes beforehand. Always a good sign… lol those cucumber sandwiches are cake, by the way. The clotted cream, jam, and sugar bowl, lid, and spoon are made of icing. The jam cookies… are just cookies haha

Then for about a minute and a half I got into mirror glaze. I watched too many YouTube video and thought it looked really cool. However I veeery quickly got over it due to a) it not actually being very difficult at all, so the challenge went out of it pretty quick, and b) how insanely wasteful it is. Not a big fan. What I was a big fan of was that 30th birthday surprise I did for my work colleague. Got into work at 6am to set it all up. Those balloons are sewn to her chair, by the way. And I’m pretty sure she still found confetti in her desk phone and drawers a week later hahaha

And then the farm tradition of Sorry You’re Leaving cakes started, two of which will be on every Top Mys Baking list, always. I learned how to make sugar glass so we could have a greenhouse in the middle of the vegetable beds with a cat on it, a sugar glass pond with ducks, and a sugar glass “stone” path. I free hand made a goat out of icing (with sugar glass horns) and an alpaca, a pig in mud, some bees to go on some flowers, a ton of vegetables, a growing frame… there was a LOT of stuff on this cake, and it was all awesome!

And then a year later another dear friend left the farm and I wasn’t sure how to top the previous cake… But hey! What’s better than one cake? Yes! TWO cakes lol So we have the large animal yard on one cake and the duck pond with its double fenced vegetation boarder on the other cake. This time a lot of work went into finding shop bought candy that would have the right look and texture, such as waver biscuits for animal stables, Daim bars for bark planks (for goat mountain), mikado for pond fences, twirls for wooden sleepers for raised beds, fudge for brick walls and so on, and so forth. I also free hand made cats, ducks, a turkey, goats, and marshmallow sheep FROM HELL!!! Sorry, those didn’t come out right… hahaha

In 2017 I was diagnosed with MS, like four days before my birthday party. And I didn’t really want to celebrate, I didn’t want to spend an entire day having to tell people about my diagnosis and answering questions about MS and listening to platitudes. And then Ruth asked me if there was anything I would like? We were both massively into All the Other Ghosts at the time (a Glee AU and one of the best stories I’ve ever read) and I said that what I wanted as a AtoG party and to not tell anyone about my diagnosis until after. So that’s what happened. And it was amazing! Which then started the annual tradition of over the top themed birthday parties I threw for myself and all my friends. We had a Shadowhunters one. We had a BBC Merlin one. However the Dragon one is still one of my favourites, as it was the first time I managed to make even the sandwiches themed!!! Hahaha Also those brownies are well up there with the best stuff I’ve ever come up with. Look how cute they are!!!! And my darling friend Sonja couldn’t make it to the party, but send me the Toothless cardboard pop up in her absence <3

And then, as I think many of you know, I got really into cookie decorating and sending decorated parcels of cookies to my friends and family during the pandemic. And that has definitely continued. Every birthday now has decorated cookies. I sent a huge bunch to my friend when she got engaged. I sent a box to my niece in Switzerland for her birthday. @f-f-podcast sent cookies out to our patrons for Christmas last year. Below is just a small selection of a truly insane number of cookies I have iced over the years!!

Wow. If you made it all the way to the bottom of this post… congrats! Hope you enjoyed the baking madness. If you’ve not had enough yet you can see more by hitting the ‘Mys in the Kitchen’ tag. Enjoy!

#Mys in the kitchen #baking #cookie decorating #Star Wars #wedding cakes #birthday cakes #🤷🏽‍♂️🤷🏽‍♂️🤷🏽‍♂️ #tw: food

[fruitless-vain]

She struggled a bit more today but it’s my own fault, she hasn’t gone on a walk in two days and I knew she was going to have a hard time not sniffing because of it.

That being said she did great with the absolute difficult setup I put her in here.

Definitely less focused than usual, wanting to sniff various things including a couple shelf items and random dark spots on the floor. She was still *okay* but it was definitely a difficult struggle for her and that’s my bad.

Aside from being a bit too sniffy she rocked everything else, brand new store in a brand new part of town right off a loud busy highway. No issues with the traffic increase, wasn’t crazy sniffy on the initial entry, took a couple seconds to look at the environment and was extremely confident despite literally everything here being new. People flopping the large fabric rolls on to tables, tight aisles, and a moderate amount of foot traffic.

I’ve been working more on staying focused on me when people talk to us, noticing her drifting and wanting to engage when I interact with people. And today she really made me proud. One of the workers there has some difficulty with social cues and didn’t fully understand how to ignore service dogs, she also really really really loves her job so every time we entered her section of the store she was Right There looking for ways to help. She was super sweet tbh. But she kept talking to Yo, telling her she was doing a good job, asking if Yoshi was enjoying her training, etc. and Yoshi masterfully ignored her. She had to ignore having them crouch right in front of her, put their face very close to her, and lots of baby talk. She did so effortlessly! I didn’t have to cue a leave it a single time. Full automatic focus, knowing full well a snackum would be coming.

This same person was also super sweet and hunted us down in another part of the store bc we told her we were making a new vest and she found a patch in store that says “mom’s little hero” which was a very cute sentiment!

Didn’t really bug me at all, yes she was interacting with Yo way more than she should but Yoshi managed it fine it was a good training opportunity, and they were polite/ not trying to touch her or immensely trying to call her away on purpose. They were just happy to see Yoshi doing her job and wanted her to know she was doing good

We also ended up being there for almost two hours which was not my intention, I try to keep outings to an hour and she got a touch tired but was still holding a pretty stable consistent level of behaviour. So an outing I accidentally set up to fail, but despite the increased challenge I’m still quite happy with Yoshis performance.

After that I sent her off duty to run and sniff around the parking lot, headed to subway, did some more sniffing, then geared back up and grabbed lunch to go. Again could not be more proud that quick run and sniff was what she really needed, I didn’t even have to pace the doorway at all just approached the door slowly, ensured she was focused before entering and that was that. Didn’t sniff the carpet, didn’t drift forwards, didn’t dramatically scent in any regard. She sniffed in a neutral position in a casual info gathering way for about three seconds then snapped in to gear. I decided to make the line easier for her by doing easy fun cues to lighten the end of the day instead of More Settling which she’d just done for the entire fabric store trip. Nailed her cues, peppy and happy, didn’t get distracted by the smells, did exactly as she should. Also wasn’t tired at all anymore, completely refreshed and ready to rumble.

So note to self, make extra time to do some sniffs beforehand if I’m unable to make a full walk the day before. Makes a world of difference.

#Yoshi #working

[johannestevans]

Thank you so much for the very detailed response, it was so helpful!

I wanted to follow up on the “old habits.” Basically, I have a very difficult time asking for what I want, saying when somethings not working, giving direction to the person I’m with, even when I am confident they wouldn’t respond badly. I had a sexual partner before I came out who was very disrespectful to me in that regard and wouldn’t listen when I wanted something or would actively push my hand away if I tried to guide it somewhere else or if he was hurting me etc. so I’m sure a lot of that is trauma. But now I struggle with speaking up, and I wondered if you had any advice about overcoming that.

Also, were there things you did before you started presenting more stereotypically male that helped you “feel more like a man” during sex? I know that’s a very subjective thing, but as someone who does prefer to bottom (though I do want to eventually try topping) sometimes it’s difficult to not go right back into that cishet mindset.

Follow up to this ask.

I'm so sorry, Anon, this is a really tough topic - your experiences are not uncommon, unfortunately, and like I said in my previous answer, a lot of that comes down to the culture around respect and bodily autonomy, especially bodies that are perceived as women's bodies, or are misgendered as such.

The thing about trauma around this sort of communication is that like... You're working through more than just a fear of the other person reacting badly and either being cruel verbally and/or hurting you worse as punishment - when this kind of behaviour becomes ingrained, when we hold our tongues again and again, when we become used to not just not communicating our needs but also repressing them, it becomes extremely hard to shake those responses!

It sucks so fucking bad when our sexuality in the past has felt like something we're not allowed to control, when our autonomy and our agency haven't been taken into account, especially when like...

The thing about cis M/F relationships in the mainstream - and relationships that are perceived as or misgendered as M/F - is that there's an element of coercive control in so many of them, because of a lot of implicit messaging around what's "right" and "correct" in a relationship, and especially about the things "the woman" is meant to withstand and take as acceptable - not to mention the things "the man" has supposed rights to and complete control over.

These things can absolutely happen in M/M relationships as well, and during casual M/M sex, I'm not gonna tell you otherwise, but my experience in cruising culture is that because two men come to it with an understanding of equal agency and control, it's just a lot easier to communicate and discuss these boundaries while you're going.

If you do use hook-up apps or text for a while beforehand, like I said, talking it out over text might be helpful? Just setting some ground rules like "I don't like having my hair pulled or being held down" or "I'm not ready for anal today" can be really nice, because it's a basic structure to work from.

Often when I first start having sex with someone, if my chest or hip are acting up, I say that from the get-go "Hey, I've got some issues with my hip and can't do some positions for a long time," or "Hey, my asthma's quite bad at the moment, so can I be on top?"

A nice thing if you're not certain about saying "I need this" or "I like that" from the off can be to go, "Are there any ground rules or baselines you'd like to set?" to the other person and see if there's anything they'd like to volunteer or set up. Taking the lead in these situations can be a relief for the other person as well as yourself, depending on how comfortable you are with it.

A lot of this ultimately comes down to practice - communicating your needs and desires is a skill, and it is one that takes practice for anybody, even without some baseline trauma affecting your feelings and confidence with it.

One thing that can help ease the way with communicating consent as you go is actually dirty talk - talking dirty in general might not be for you, but I do have another guide here about talking more in the bedroom, and also an interview about dirty talk in general:

Tell Me How You Like It: A Beginner’s Guide to Talking Dirty. How do I dirty talk effectively in the bedroom? How do I start talking when my natural inclination is to remain quiet? What do I say? How do I get over the embarassment? On Medium / / On Patreon.

Dirty talk: a deep dive into smut and the art of fantasy by Kish Lal — An article by Kish Lal for DripFeed, where she interviewed several people about dirty talk, including myself, looking at different fantasies, the psychology of dirty talk, and different ways to approach it. Read on DripFeed

I know I've linked you a bunch of pieces of mine at once, so if you do hit the free article limit on Medium and aren't able to pay for a subscription right now, remember you can use an incognito window or a service like 12 Foot Wall! Obviously this is how I make my living and if you can pay, do, but if you can't, please don't feel guilty or worry too much about it. We're all struggling, like.

As for the latter question...

I don't tend to have a lot of dysphoria around sex - especially because I'm typically a lot more confident than my hook-ups, I often end up in a more dominant and explicitly communicative position, even when I'd really prefer to be subbing more.

Certain positions might help you, such as riding or doing it doggy rather than missionary - I know some men do fuck with their binders on or while wearing a t-shirt to help with any dysphoria around their chest.

Nothing wrong with wearing a binder if that's what you need, but do try to keep safety in your awareness - not every binder is rated for significant exercise, and especially if you're fucking harder or rougher, you want to be aware of not constricting your chest unduly!

You might also try other gender-affirming kinds of clothing - they make men's lingerie, but there's also shit like leather harnesses and straps, there's jock straps, there's all sorts!

There's a lot to be said about language - making sure you're using the language you feel comfortable with with your body and setting ground rules with your partner if any specific words set up your dysphoria and make you feel less confident or comfortable. And remember that doesn't just have to be about your body to be important! Some men don't like the word "strap" or "strap-on" or referring to it as a toy or a dildo - they would treat it more like a phallic prosthesis than as an additional or extra toy, so they'd use words like cock or dick.

Hope this helps and good luck with it! <3

#trans mlm #mlm #sexuality #musings #anonymous

[praetorqueenreyna]

I disagree with your take on men not being able to experience SA (even if Ianthe is a stupid character and its alarming that SJM only seems to villianize her female characters committing SA) but there's something to say about a group of people coming after you for saying men don't experience SA in the most unserious way possible when that group of people also unseriously support and romanticise the SA scene with Fey/sand.

its ACOTAR, a fandom rife with horrible SA takes and depictions but they can somehow set that aside to stan the whole entire series and all of its demeaning themes and characterizations. Its also not lost on me that this went from "you're not putting wlw ships in a survey" to a whole research session on your opponent to discredit the fact that they did do the survey twice and it was for petty reasons.

Once again I wish you hadn't worded your take on men and SA like that, but hey it's your space and we do curate our online experiences. If that person knew beforehand that you posted things like that, why do the survey? If they had to search your blog after the survey argument to put a weight on your general character to take away from the original argument? Still backhanded, still not very "curating your online experience". We're all 30+ years old on a website that is very unserious and has supporters of incest of all things. I'd like to think half the things we are into or say here are unseriously said/or not said at all out in our regular everyday lives.

SO I will fully admit that that post was poorly worded. It was a casual post that was never supposed to get any traction, just something to throw my opinion into the ether. Not a serious analysis of how SJM expresses power dynamics and sexual assault. Part of why it's so confusing is that I literally got bored halfway through the tags and just stopped writing things.

Of course men can experience sexual assault from women, regardless of anybody's sexuality or attractiveness. My point was that women in power do not systemically abuse men in the way that men do women. I'm tired of lukewarm liberal feminists (such as SJM) trying to make some point about how the true victims of patriarchy are men. And that online warriors like the people throwing a fit about this do literally nothing to help sexual assault victims of ANY gender, and think that attacking some random person over a random post counts as social action.

But I totally agree with you! SJM seems perfectly happy to show over and over again these villainous powerful women who are somehow skeevy enough to offput the horniest men in world, but are conventionally attractive and don't really do much other than aggressively throw themselves at men. Which ALSO was a point of confusion: that post was not about Ianthe and Lucien. Obviously Lucien doesn't want to have sex with Ianthe bc he's gay. It was about how Rhysand, Cassian, and Azriel are all written as these shallow horndogs who bang everything with tits, but are somehow genre savvy enough to know that Ianthe is a Bad Female Character and are disgusted by her. It's not cohesive, it's just a way for SJM to villainize a caricature of a person and make her male characters (who btw are WAY more sexually violent than Ianthe has ever been) seem like good characters.

But again, this kind of bad faith interpretation and virtue signalling has nothing to do with real victims of anything. Because if it did, they would have had an actual conversation with me, rather than putting words in my mouth over what I did and didn't say. Quite frankly, they're mad that I'm a Tamlin fan, and so they're trying to tear me down however they can. Like you said, first it was "well she's lesbophobic bc there are no wlw ships on the survey." Then when I made my point about how the people who complain about that do NOTHING to actually contribute wlw content to fandom, it shifts to me doing something else. If I kept up the conversation and tried to defend myself, I would be accused of some other crime.

ANYWAY this is exactly the kind of conversation I do enjoy having, so I do appreciate this ask! It is so important to cultivate your fandom experience and try not to take this stuff so seriously, especially for a series as poorly conceived as ACOTAR. Not all of my posts have been winners, but the actual content of those posts doesn't matter. Because I like Tamlin, I'm always going to be a criminal of SOME kind to these people.

I fully admit I should have just deleted the original ask because it was not sent to open a real dialogue. It's a lesson I have to keep learning over and over again, but maybe someday it'll stick!

#asks #THANK YOU FOR THIS HUGS AND KISSES #the fact that that post got blown so out of proportion is insane to me #especially because it wasn't even ABOUT LUCIEN #ANYWAY I've blocked the main haters and hopefully they've all blocked me too! #never ceases to amazing that feysand and nessian stans will climb up my butt screaming about power dynamics and assault #when those ships are predicated on the men assaulting their partners in much more REAL ways than anything Ianthe ever did #but alas!!! this is the clown website for clowns

[sweetmage]

Just thinking about some things regarding Abdirak in the Tav!Alois timeline. If you don't understand who Alois is then you can read this backstory fic for my Tav!Abdirak if you want. This is not really anything of interest, I just felt like rambling lol. Contains spoilers for all acts and end game.

Character death mention

To the best of his knowledge Alois has been dead for some fifteen years. He has carried that grief and isolation with him this whole time, he has never processed that loss but masked it with worship.

And it just so happens that his invitation to to the goblin camp lead their paths to cross. Of course Alois (who has been avoiding him this whole time, not wanting their schemes to endanger him firther) would be surprised, but Abdirak must be shaken to his core by this, especially with how cool and casual they are about the reunion.

I think they'd inquire about his work like old friends catching up, but they wouldn't make much time for him in that moment. I think they'd also proudly display the fresh brand on their hand (both because it was a big step in their mission to secure gain footing in the cult and because they were able to tolerate a serious burn unlike in their shameful past) but refuse to elaborate further, suggesting he meet them at their camp later. Abdirak ends up traveling there with the goblins, catching wind of what Alois had aided in (the fall of the grove) on the way over.

I think he'd be incredibly unsettled. Ironically, I think he would start to question if this was the real Alois, as opposed to in the Tav!Abdirak timeline where he willfully let's himself believe that his Guardian (who took the form of Alois) is actually Alois.

I'm thinking emotions are high as they catch up with each other, but Alois has rebuilt all the walls that their relationship with Abdirak had brought down in the past and they are much more reserved, though still just as gentle with him. They seem to no longer speak of Loviatar as freely, but instead the Absolute which raises some concerns, but they brush it off with whispers that it's for Loviatar's will and that he needn't worry nor convert.

They almost sleep together (mostly undressed, making out, feeling each other up) but then Alois stops themself and tells Abdirak he should get going and that they're leaving in the morning for Moonrise Towers, which Alois seems quite eager for, in spite of the danger.

Abdirak recalls one of the Zhents he'd traded with back at the goblin camp was also headed there and, suspicious of Alois and concerned for their behavior, tags along with her and her group.

Alois ends up saving him in the shadow cursed lands when their paths converge on the way to Moonrise, but they aren't very happy to see him and are quite cold, though it's clear they're partially forcing it. He's given a final warning to seek shelter at Last Light while they proceed to moonrise to conduct their own business, but his bad feeling continues and he knows he can't trust them.

He finds them one last time at a camp where the shadows are thinner and attempts to confront them, but he's armed himself beforehand because he hardly recognizes them (especially next to the squeaky clean, idolized image he's held in his head since their apparent passing).

I am on the fence about it but I've been considering having Alois, who is being snuck up on, strike first without warning and having them have to live and suffer with killing the person they sacrificed everything to save and protect so long ago, and now feeling like they have to double down in their goals (to secure control of the cult and turn them over to Loviatar directly) so that it wasn't for nothing.

Buuuuuuut on the otherhand I like Abdirak so maybe not lol. I might do a second timeline in which he survives and when Alois has burned ever bridge and enthralled every person with a tadpole and has nothing at all to show for it there is still someone out there who will either suffer it with them and help them set it right or cut them down for it.

Hmm...🤔

#jun rambles

[aealrizen]

Ian was nodding before he could form the words even in his brain. He had a grandson, and a great granddaughter. And he’d had no idea until now. But that didn’t stop him from reaching out to take the offer. Benjamin wouldn’t have told him, or asked him to hold Olie if he didn’t want him around, right? Olie squirmed in his arms, but she didn’t seem upset about a stranger holding her. Just stared up at him with her big bright eyes, a hand going to her mouth while the other reached up to pat his face. Ian let out a soft laugh, very gently brushing a finger against her cheek. It was so soft and smooth and incredibly hard to believe all of this was real.

“....How?” Ian finally managed to eek out, the tears of joy in his eyes breaking from their confines and trailing down his cheeks.

“Hm?” Benjamin voiced before awkwardly scratching his cheek with a finger. “Uhhh, aside from the biology lesson, I’m not sure what you mean,” he admitted, making a mild joke. He was pretty sure Ian knew how humans were made. 

Ian gave a small snicker at the joke, and shook his head. “I mean, how did she hide it?” he clarified, the smile fading for a moment. “I… I had no idea….”

“Oh…,” Benjamin hummed, gaining a sympathetic smile. “She apparently ran off with one of her exes after breaking it off with you from what I hear. And then claimed the pregnancy was from him, which motivated them to get married. I’m pretty sure she knew beforehand, and just manipulated him.”

The explanation made sense, but it earned a morose response from Ian. The comments Midas had made before coming back to his mind. He’d always known Clara wasn’t the most well liked by everyone, but he had never thought to blame her for it. It had just been a bad mix of personalities, or unfortunate circumstances. Things that couldn’t be helped, and just needed a little patience to deal with. But… maybe he’d been wrong.

“Hey, we’re going to go get cleaned up. Why don’t you go catch up with your family while we do so?” Whip’s voice suddenly brought Ian back to being actively aware he and Midas were still there.

It wasn’t hard for Ian to notice Whip expertly hiding Midas behind him while nudging Ian towards the others. A two in one action. Get Ian to get to know his apparent family, but also get them away from Midas. Looked like the boy was having a hard time, for reasons Ian didn’t quite understand. Whip was going to take care of it though, so Ian just nodded. “Yeah, okay.” This time Whip could lead them, and Ian turned to follow his grandchildren to the dining room.

“Don’t take too long, or dinner will get cold,” Clipo beckoned, trying to maintain a welcoming atmosphere.

They were a nice family, but they didn’t seem to know how to deal with the extra people there. Which was fine, and to Whip’s benefit as he led Midas to the nearest bathroom. Hopefully being in a confined space didn’t make it worse, but right now he didn’t think it was a good idea to expose him to the watching eyes of nosy neighbors. Or the security he knew was monitoring every move in the outdoors.

Closing the door softly behind them, Whip semi roughly directed Midas to sit on the edge of the bathtub - wow it had been a long time since he’d seen one - and watched Midas’ eyes flit around the room in half aware analysis. He was looking for danger, Whip realized. A dictionary brain accounting for everything in the room, what it was made of, its purpose, and if it could hurt him. A reaction that made Whip purse his lips as he kneeled down in front of Midas, keeping his hands on his shoulders.

“Midas… Show me what you’re seeing,” Whip requested, his voice calm yet firm. He didn’t want to scare Midas, but he wanted him to know it was important. Something was wrong. Midas was reacting to such casual things with so much more anxiety than Whip thought he should have expected. He knew Midas didn’t like Cerah, but he didn’t think just being in places that weren’t broken would send him into such a panic. And it would be easier to understand if he just saw what Midas was experiencing. Or, possibly recounting. “Show me your memory.”

“I don’t… What memory? I don’t have any…,” Midas muttered, eyes flicking around at anything that he didn’t recognize, that moved, that he thought moved, that was just familiar yet different. Everything screamed danger at him, but logically couldn’t hurt him.

“The one from Cerah. When you first woke up. Your first memory,” Whip insisted, squeezing Midas’ arm just a little more firmly, but not enough to hurt him. Midas’ eyes snapped to him now, and barely stayed there while his mouth tried to find words to his thoughts. “I want to help you so it doesn’t affect you as much. You’re panicking, and it’s not that dangerous here,” Whip continued, trying to reassure him without forcing him to vocalize.

Midas’ eyes were a little more steady now, the prospect of not having such an overwhelming, gut wrenching reaction to anything there was appealing. But he still had a concern, eventually shifting his eyes deliberately to the closed door. Where an intruder could burst in at any time.

“I’ll keep you safe. I’m good at this, remember?” Whip assured, giving a small smile. He didn’t think Ian would let anything happen to them, but he wasn’t going to discredit Midas’ worry.

Midas gave him a skeptical look.

“Trust me,” Whip insisted, giving Midas’ vibrating shoulders a little squeeze.

Midas gave a tiny whimper, and curled his arms closer to himself. He felt trapped. Pressing his lips together in a frown and guilt making him feel like bile had risen to his throat because he couldn’t follow what Whip requested. He just couldn’t shut down the world around him and completely trust Whip yet. Not because he had anything against Whip, but because he didn’t trust anyone to that level yet.

At least Whip could understand that, even if it just made him even more worried. How long had it been since he’d scooped Midas up after cutting his leg out of a young molerillo’s mouth? It had to have been more than a year, and it wasn’t like they had avoided each other completely during that time. Still, it could be that it wasn’t Midas’ fault for being so distrusting, and Whip wanted to know for sure. If it was too hard for Midas to speak about it, then there was merit to trying to get him to just show him. “... Take a leap of faith then?”

Midas’ breath hitched at that request, and he seemed to consider that. Trust was earned. But faith was given. Faith was shaky, and didn’t ask for more proof than the belief that it was true. And… he wanted to believe that Whip cared for him. That he wouldn’t let any harm come to him. Not unless he couldn’t foresee it coming, and not without trying to prevent it first.

Exhaling a shaky breath that vibrated his form, Midas nodded carefully. Alright. He could show him. He wasn’t all that scared of the memory anyway. At least he didn’t feel he was. He could remember it just fine. It just made it hard to be in these sorts of places because he expected other people to be like they were. Rude, unlistening, coarse, abrasive… violent- no, he couldn’t think about that…. Oh…. Oh… that’s what Whip meant. Somewhere in the base of Midas’ data crowded mind he realized that was a bad thing. Avoiding a memory, or part of a memory, was bad. That explained it. And with a slow breath Midas leaned forward to lightly bonk his head against Whip’s forehead.

Grinning briefly, Whip adjusted to a more stable position and lowered his hands to rest on Midas’ arms, hoping he didn’t feel restrained that way. He had to smile sadly at the way Midas’ hands shook, and looked at them quietly before closing his own eyes.

_________________

hhhhhhhhggggggggg I had this drawn but I was just bashing my head against the writing trying to get it to work and then my work got crazy busy and made it harder to focus and take even longer |DD

#Rizen #original charaters #original story #ocs #web light novel #sci fi #cyborg #semi slice of life #post apocalypse #Ian

[jimmy-valmer-official]

can u write a fic abt Jimmy pining for Heidi thank youuu

————————————————————

ask and you shall recieve 🤲🏽 (still accepting requests if anyones interested! :0)

also gonna post it here if you dont wanna hop onto ao3 vv

————————————————————

Jimmy absolutely thrived when it came to socializing.

After all, it was a combination of some of his favorite things— talking, for instance, or delivering a crafty punchline that, at times, was grossly offensive but funny all the same. It was one of the things that he excelled at, among other things, and he felt as if he could pull words out of thin air.

…Usually.

Usually, because as Heidi Turner stood in front of him casually, sharing her ideas about what their group project should focus on as they stood in the middle of the high school hallways at the end of the school day, he could do nothing but stare.

“ —So I was thinking we could do one about chloroplasts, y’know? Because they’re easy to explain and there’s a bunch of stuff on the internet we could use. What do you think?”

Right, the science project. That was what they were doing. What was this about chloroplasts…?

“Oh, uh…” Science project. Think about the science project.

But his mind was occupied with other things. Of course, it wasn’t uncommon for him to find the occasional person attractive— hell, there were a lot of nice looking people out there— but to call this a simple, measly attraction was certainly an understatement.

Heidi was very beautiful. Cute, even, not to mention undeniably charming. There was just something about her hair, and her beanie with the little flower on it, and the softness of her skin, and her shining eyes…

…Which were staring right at him intently, expecting a response. Jimmy didn’t need to be a high class detective to know that he had definitely missed something.

“Jimmy?”

“Yes, right,” he cleared his throat and tried to get back on topic. Something about chloroplasts, something about a boring project. “Well, I think that s- suh… I think that sounds excellent, Heidi!” What had she said again? “We should get to- to working on that soon very much.”

He seriously hoped that she’d explain it to him again later. He was starting to feel a bit guilty for not listening when she had proposed her idea in the first place. It was a weird, unexplainable type of guilt.

She grinned at him, and he had to blink a few times, blinded as if he had looked directly at the sun. “Great! Okay. Well I’m gonna go home now, then. We can work on it this weekend… I’m free on Sunday. Does that work?”

Her voice was quite nice, too…

“Y- yeah, that works,” he said in a daze, and then he immediately wanted to punch himself. Sunday absolutely did not work. He had a stage play to watch and then he had speech therapy right afterwards, not to mention bible study in the morning beforehand.

Great. And here he was, standing there quietly and not correcting himself at all. The words that usually came so easily to him were jammed tightly in his head.

“Alright!” Heidi exclaimed. Jimmy couldn’t possibly interrupt her now. “Well, I'll see you later then, okay?”

He nodded. Tried to keep his cool. But his smile felt way too affectionate on his face. “Yeah, I’ll c- catch you later.”

When she was gone, he felt simultaneously fuzzy and vaguely disappointed. Which was bad, because it meant that he was no better than a senile cat.

His heart felt funny in his chest, and he waited for her to exit the building, which was mostly empty at this point, before doing the same. Thankfully, he walked considerably slower than her, so she was already gone by the time he was outside.

…Damn it. Damn it.

What even was the science project?

He made his way towards the general direction of his house, and although he had a well trained neutral expression on his face, his mind was spinning with random things like, for whatever reason, brown hair and flower beanies. A soft voice saying who knew what, smooth hands clutching the straps of a purple backpack…

He just couldn’t get the sight of Heidi out of his mind.

He tried thinking of jokes as a distraction, but the punchlines kept slipping through his fingers like sand. He couldn’t even remember any of his scripts despite studying them a million times over. To be honest, the only thing that was clear in his mind was that he already wanted to see Heidi again— but he also really, really didn’t.

Girls were usually just a crutch for him that made him look cooler in the public eye. Because every guy has been in a relationship. He always liked to show his partners off, flaunt a bit, make up lies about what they did together at his house as if they weren’t just doing homework while sitting next to each other.

Normally that was fine. It was normal and acceptable… more like going through the motions if anything— Get together, hang out in public, go to the movies a few times, have sleepovers, and then break up a few weeks later. Over and over again. Not very exciting, to be frank, when it was repeated so many times.

So why did he feel so struck with giddiness at the thought of doing all of that with Heidi? Why did the last step feel more like a bad thing instead of a normal conclusion?

That wasn’t how it usually worked. Surely this was something else.

His heart was beating fast.

And that was also weird. Dating was something that helped your image. It made people look good. It was cool, and that was it. Right?

This… didn’t feel cool.

This felt fuzzy. Warm. When she had spoken to him— and sure, he had heard her talk at some point before, but it was only just now processing in his mind— it had felt like his soul was dipped in honey and placed on a small paper boat in a pond. And that was way too warm to be a simple charade in the making.

… And far too sappy to be even slightly cool.

He sighed, long and drawn out, stopping in his path for a moment to glance at the sky before moving forward again.

It was going to be one hell of a night, that was for sure.

#jimmy valmer #heidi turner #south park #sp #fanfic #phanfic tag

[measuringbliss]

Baring Peter Parker: The Ditko era (1/3) - The Tie Symbolism

MASTERPOST

This post was slightly edited on 22.12.2023.

Does Peter Parker appear as sexually enticing from the get-go? What's the matter with his tie? Why is issue #17 so important?

Let's say these are compendiums of my observations. Sometimes there's analysis, and sometimes it's just things I remark on.

Note: When I say stuff like "masculine", "virile" and "feminine", I assume a classical, uncomplicated view of gender as "men fight, women cook". These comics *were* made in the Sixties, after all.

#1/2/3

The panel where Peter puts on his costume and is midway through his stomach is a classic of the comics and comes back again and again. It's featured pretty much in every issue.

As a civilian, he's usually featured in a classic suit: loose pants, sometimes bare forearms, it's not really erotic as much as functional.

I'd argue the end of #6 is the first time Peter's shown in an enticing manner. He's shown sewing his suit a few times beforehand, but here, he's sprawling on a couch and enjoying himself in a way the comics haven't shown until then. His collar is open, contrary to his work attire, he's resting his foot.

#7 features for the first time a close shot on Peter's hand. I wouldn't exactly say it's glamorized, but it's not bad on the eyes either.

It also features an interesting scene where Peter is in a position of weakness: he's visibly worried (along with the regular sewing scenes, it makes Peter more personable to the female audience), he's sneaking out the way you'd see in teen movies, but whereas in those, the guys sneaking out are usually shown as mischievous and eager to go out, Peter is shown as genuinely worried the way girls should have been. Different socialization directions! Of course, the fact Peter has been raised by his aunt (and uncle, but we never see much of him) probably explains in part how much of Peter's feminine side is shown. And as I said, his feminine side makes him approachable. See the way he's holding his jacket in the middle panel of the last row, it's almost like a woman covering her breasts from the audience. His sprained arm in the same issue is just more of this: he's not the all-strong, virile, macho hero (at least, not yet, we'll see more of that in the following era).

In #8, Peter is challenged to a boxing match by Flash, and they both wear very short shorts, as expected in those events. This is the first time Peter is depicted wearing so little, and it's obviously to showcase his strength. Interestingly, he's the one bridal-carrying a knocked-out Flash at the end in a quite obviously homoerotic pose. Also interestingly, no female character comments on Peter's body. He's not objectified in-narrative. It's my own gaze that makes it -(homo)erotic.

#9 also features several interesting things. Similarly to #6, Peter's shown looking casual (middle panel), but this time, he's topless, although he still wears suit pants. There's something adorably youthful in Peter's pose in the next panel, something that rarely see after that and that I don't recall ever seeing in Romita Sr. or Conway's eras. In the fourth panel, Peter's wearing a tee for the first time. The artist try new things. It's simple, but Peter's arms are flexed. Compared to the previous issue's virility, here, it's much more balanced.

In #10, Peter gets a blood test and the sleeve thing is back. Later in the same issue, he's briefly held against a much bigger man, and there are two things to note:

First, Peter's suit contrasts with the rowdy treatment he receives. Second, his tie. His tie's important! It's out, flowing desperately, it showcases Peter's panic and his struggle with hiding his heroic self. And once he gets in control of his emotions, he fixes it. Naturally, what you can do with ties is also pull at them, undo them. I'd say these panels are very interesting. I hope we see more of Peter's tie acting up. Think about what a tie symbolizes and what it points at.

In the same issue, you can see a callback to Peter spraying on a couch--but this time, he's quite bothered.

The cover of #12 is quite curious as well. Peter's not showing a feat of strength, he's being possessed by Dr. Octopus, held by his long tentacles, on his back, limbs dangling over the floor, unmasked and humiliated in front of civilians. It's similarly to Romita's first tenure a few years later, in that Peter's in a typically feminine position.

Later in that issue, Peter is sick, a "poor boy" (and offers the gazers his feet, if they care). His feminine traits are fine as long as he's still young. That's not to say that Peter lacks masculine attributes; he's also often rash and a dumbass (aren't we all?).

Note his clumsiness in #13 (two plates in minutes, Peter!) and subsequent submissive position as he picks up the broken plate, in spite of his dialogue. Also, the pink pajamas. Peter's not cishet.

The tie is back in #15! Not only that...

Peter looks like the ideal male here: muscled, joyful and approachable. You may not like it, but this is what peak performance looks like. Funnily enough, the issue also features clumsy Pete again as well as the White Tee of Nakedness.

And the Sprawling Legs of Approachability!

Anytime he wears that white tee, it feels obscene.

It feels like #16 finally showcases how form-fitting Spidey's costume actually is, but it's not what I focus on--just thought I'd mention it here.

In the magical Annual #1, Peter's laying on his bed, and his position is almost that of a Pin-up, what's with his arms above his head and his leg slightly bent. The calf dangling from the bed also implies casualness, comfort. Even the tie is not straight (ha!). And later...

Forearms!

You could argue new shirt, I would argue bad coloring. Still, he's practically naked here. Remember: Being naked isn't as erotic as hiding the skin.

#17 has the tie!!!

Now, Peter's just taunting the reader. The first panel? His disheveled hair? His open collar, barely tucked-in shirt, ruffled pants, flying jacket. This is THE moment. Or The Moment. The turning point. Peter looks like he just had some fun with someone else in a closet (ha!). He's erotic. And when he's running, the suit clearly espouses his buttocks.

THE OPEN BELT?! The ease of movement? Oh, this issue is IT.

And at the end, Peter visually bares himself to the audience (the shadow makes it clear).

By this point, I find Ditko's art actually enjoyable. His Spidey scenes are particularly pretty, but he's noticeably more used to the whole setting.

In the next part, we should hopefully cover the rest of Lee and Ditko's run (until #38, included). I haven't read past 1976, so I won't get to the 80s anytime soon, but I'll definitely talk about the Romita Sr. and Conway eras.

I've already rambled about Peter's quantum sentient inflatable butt in Civil War (#532-538) HERE if you're curious.

#peter parker #spider-man #male objectification #clothes #outfits #tie #suits #comics #comic books #analysis #meta #fanservice

[sweetlikehoneystingslikeabee]

That headcanon was so cute! I'd like to request a double date cooking scenario with Croc x s/o and Poison Ivy x her s/o.

"Double Date" Killer Croc and Poison Ivy x their respective S/O's

Thank you!! I love seeing the sweet ideas you guys send me in!

TW: NONE

When Pamela first suggests the double date, Waylon is a bit nervous. Meeting his supervillain friend and her partner and all having dinner together? He already thinks his whole deal is a lot.

He's not ashamed of his rogue friends, but he does consider the fact that if his partner isn't acquainted with that world, it could be intimidating.

Poison Ivy is the one to give it to him straight- if they aren't okay with that part of his life, then they aren't for him. Whether he's trying to turn something of a new leaf or falling into bad habits, they both know he's not cutting off the friends he's made over the years.

She has her own anxieties, of course, rather small. Introducing her S/O to her friend means it's getting serious. Double dinner dates with adult friends? It's almost... normal. When was the last time she was really serious with someone and it was normal? Even as she's talking, Killer Croc can see the pitiful potted cactus in his apartment getting slightly bigger and much sharper.

They decide mutually to try and make it as casual as possible at his place to keep both of them grounded. No dress code, a good meal with wine and pleasant conversation.

Of course he's immediately focused on making an excellent meal. Despite what some people might think, Poison Ivy was not a vegetarian or vegan. She does, however, do her best to avoid anything that does permanent damage to a plant. Which... results in her growing a lot of her own food when she's out of Arkham.

He's calling his mother and Grandmother immediately to find a nice hearty dish that should win everyone over. Étouffée- Filling, delicious, he can show off a little (very important for his S/O)... Plus you can switch out the main protein easily based on allergies and preferences.

Pamela and Waylon go over ingredients, needs for anyone and make the shopping list. She provides most if not all the vegetables and spices they decide on, fresh and complimentary. She and her S/O also pre-chop and/or slice all her ingredients before she brings them over. Helps out with the claws issue.

Waylon is probably had his S/O help him make the stock beforehand, helping the cooking time even more by the time Pamela and her partner arrive. Putting everything together, a light sourdough appetizer-

By the time the smell of the Étouffée fills the house, they're already getting to know one another and exchanging pleasant conversation. The occasional embarrassing story from their respective S/O's that make the rogues laugh and flush.

The trio of S/O's and Poison Ivy tell Waylon to stop fussing over the food and sit down several times as he keeps checking. He's about to knock the table over when it's finished, though. Getting bowls ready, trying to be careful not to make it messy as he spoons it out.

It's a warm, lovely meal and everyone around the table gets to beam with pride in helping. They all end up talking for another three hours before Pamela finally has to cut off her S/O once they get a little tipsy on wine, giggly and affectionate on their Ivy.

As per usual, Waylon made a bit too much for their small group, so Pamela is getting at least two tins of the food as leftovers. It's going to be amazing the next day, he insists.

They'll have to do this again soon, at her place next time. She may not be quite the level of cooking her friend is at, but she's sure she can make something good.

Waylon's S/O is grinning ear to ear, "I loved them." the moment they've left. He visibly relaxes. "Yeah. Me too."

Pamela puts the leftovers away and her S/O in bed. Their S/O mumbles that they can't wait to meet all her friends and maybe even... she could meet their family? All in good time.

#Killer Croc #Poison Ivy #foxwriting #hcs

[floofe-trans-doggie]

TF2 Summer 2023 Map Tier List*

*Not including the VSH maps because I've only gotten to try a couple of them on community servers, since it still doesn't work in Casual

S Tier-

Phoenix

Taking the top of the list, it should be no surprise to see Phoenix here. The map is GORGEOUS and incredibly unique in its art style while fitting perfectly into TF2, and it plays incredibly smoothly. Every point offers something slightly different, and overall the map always plays incredibly well. This is one of the best maps I've ever had the pleasure of playing.

Sulfur

Do you have any idea how long I've waited for another map that plays like cp_steel? Sulfur was a map I'd been very much hoping to see in this update, and here it is! It's aesthetics are beautiful and expand upon the same visual style we see in Suijin, and though its layout and unique objective takes a minute to figure out, it's incredibly fun and feels overall quite balanced.

A Tier-

Selbyen

LOOK AT THE SEAL GO LOOK AT THE SEAL IF YOU HAVEN'T SEEN HIM! Cuteness aside, this is the first Player Destruction map that isn't season-locked that we've gotten since the mode was first added with pd_watergate, which is absurd because there's 7 total maps in the gamemode. It plays well enough, with shorter buildings that you can traverse atop, but the real draw of this map is the seals and how damn cute they are. In terms of gameplay, though, it can be a bit lacking. It feels very cramped at times with how small the map is, and this makes certain classes feel disproportionately powerful, especially Gunslinger Engie. Regardless, though, it's not a bad experience, and it remains at the top of A Tier. Mainly because of the seals.

Cashworks

This one's been around a while. Never heard of it by name, but I had heard of its unique winding second point before, which is interesting, though in my experience the real gameplay comes in the choke immediately afterward. In terms of looks, it's quite nice, though not the most distinctive of this update. In terms of gameplay, it's also quite nice, though it tends to get very chokey as Payload often does. This may just be everyone still needing to learn the map, though. Also there was that day-1 bug where RED could just walk right into BLU spawn, which was interesting.

Rotunda

I mainly like this map because you can ride the train, I'll be real. That's not to say it isn't a great map in other regards as well, I just really like the trains. But regardless, this map has a stunning visual aesthetic, and I'd be shocked if it weren't the map with the most trains in all of TF2, which is certainly a proud accomplishment. The dilapidated train depot turned doomsday device storage facility is visually striking, and hiding around the McGuffin on the center point to capture it is interesting gameplay-wise, though it tends to get very spammy and the walls around the point combined with Engineers being able to set up within them means some very nasty and annoying nests can be made. It's also a very inviting map for projectile spam onto the point, with plenty of space above and an open roof to facilitate this. Gameplay-wise it's a mixed bag, but it's so visually interesting it can't go any lower than this.

B Tier-

Sharkbay

Remember when we all knew this map was being added way beforehand because Valve slipped up? Yeah, good times. This map has some neat, unique stuff going for it. The control point is a fishing boat, it has shark tanks in spawn, there's the sharks, obviously, and there's even a new kill icon for them. Pretty neat. While I love how this map looks, it tends to go very one-sided in terms of how it plays. I have yet to have a solid back-and-forth on this map, and one team usually rolls the other, though admittedly it has just released, and it may get better with time.

Reckoner

It's a solid 5cp map. The aesthetics are fairly unique. Doesn't really have anything too interesting about it, though, at least in terms of gameplay. I don't have much to complain about with Reckoner, but there isn't much that stands out about it to me. Comes with all the rolls and stalemates of any 5cp map.

Hardwood

Rounding out the bottom of B Tier we have Hardwood. It's a pretty good map. It generally plays fine in my experience. Three full points to capture give it a decent bit of length without stretching on like multi-stage Attack/Defend maps do. Visually, it's quite nice, but it doesn't really strike me as anything too special. It's well-done, but it isn't the most unique. Not much to really complain about, of course, but I can't lump all the good maps into S and A Tier, so here it sits, the lowest of the maps that I actually really like.

C Tier-

Pelican Peak

For a Capture the Flag map, Pelican Peak is great. A tad small, but it has a nice visual aesthetic with the fog and the alpine setting and the bridge over the center. Unfortunately, it's Capture the Flag, and it really doesn't do anything to remedy the usual problems the gamemode has, especially with only a couple routes into a frankly rather small intel room with a briefcase you have to climb up a small structure to get to. If Capture the Flag were a good mode, this map would be much higher. Unfortunately, it isn't.

D Tier-

Venice

Aesthetically, this map is fine. It's unique, taking place in, of course, Venice, Italy. However, there's a lot that's just a bit off about this map and makes it easily the weakest of the entire update. For one, the texturing feels a bit weird. Maybe it's just me, but in a lot of spots the textures just look off, particularly on the corners of buildings. I'd love to be more descriptive, but I am running on very little sleep and this is hard to describe. Love to see if anyone else sees it the same way or if I'm just losing my marbles. Also the floating cart on the first point looks really really weird. It doesn't look like it should be buoyant, and it doesn't have a custom model that would suggest it is nor anything guiding it along a track, so it doesn't look like it's floating in the water as much as levitating in it. But visuals aside, this map is hell to play on. It's chokey, has absolutely ridiculous sightlines without much cover, and if BLU doesn't roll, they're probably not making it to the final point. Aside from Pelican Peak which is only not-great because it's Capture the Flag, this is the only map in the entire update that I find frankly disappointing.

#team fortress 2

[samuel-the-blonde22]

spoilers for newcomers to Genshin.

I haven't played the game myself, but I've been watching playthroughs and learning about the Lore.

Spoilers for new players.

Deluc stood at his bar, waiting. His hands were busy wiping a glass, his mind lost in memory. It was late. It had long been predicated that this day, each week, was Deluc's "self day." No business was to be conducted, everyone working at the winery had a free day away. People talked about how this day was the day his father died. It was only partly the reason why.

He could faintly hear someone poking around outside. Checking to make sure there wasn't anybody listening. Deluc himself did that just a few minutes ago. Never hurt to be sure.

Finally, the door opened, and Kaeya stepped in, walking with his distinct smug stride and distinct smug smirk. His friend. His brother.

A traitor.

Kaeya sat at a barstool and gestured for a glass. Deluc rolled his eyes and poured him some wine. He took some grape juice for himself. They sat in silence for a few minutes, lost in thought.

Deluc remembered when this first started. His father had died the week before, murdered. Deluc was burdened by it. Grieved by it.

Kaeya? Kaeya was lightened by it.

Deluc was in this very spot, grieving, when Kaeya rushed in, grinning. Kaeya started talking, words spilling out. He was sorry so sorry, that this happened, but now Kaeya could tell his brother. He needed to speak with him. Kaeya outlined everything. He was in Mondstadt as a spy, a traitor, for Khaenri'ah, for the Abyss Order. They hadn't killed Father, he explained, but he needed to tell someone. Would Deluc please listen to him...

Deluc listened, aghast. It had come to blows, swords drawn. Kaeya lost an eye. Deluc lost a brother.

Fingers tapping on the table interrupted Deluc's thoughts. He looked up to see Kaeya grinning at him. "Still up, or are you asleep?"

Deluc just grunted. "Do you have news for me?"

"As a matter of fact, I do."

Deluc sat up straighter. The smile faded from Kaeya's face a bit as he went on.

"My old friends have new management, it seems."

Deluc nodded. "That's what I heard. A princess, of some kind."

"My, you have good ears." Kaeya took another sip of his drink. "Yes, a princess."

"I'm assuming you've met them?" Deluc asked quietly.

"This morning." Kaeya took a piece of paper from his pocket and put it on the bar. Deluc raised an eyebrow and picked it up. He had to hide a grin. Kaeya's drawing skills were as bad as he remembered.

His smile faded as he looked at the drawing. A girl, with light hair and a style of clothes that he had seen once before.

He looked up at a missing persons sign on the far wall. One set up for the new person, who had requested it after saving Mondstadt. He turned back to Kaeya.

"You're serious?"

Kaeya nodded. "She was quite clear on her relationship to our new Honorary Knight."

He stretched, leaning back far enough that it took Deluc's restraint not to pull him back. Kaeya sat back up with a sly grin, seeing Deluc's concern.

"it appears I have new orders." The words came out casually, but they made Deluc tense, reaching for his greatsword.

This, this is why Deluc couldn't trust the Knights of Favonius. It wasn't that Deluc thought of them as "inefficient" or what he always complained about. Those that knew of Deluc's "pastimes" thought he was moody, angry, maybe a bit insane. It wasn't that.

It was because he knew that at any point, this man in front of him, one of the highest-ranking people that protects Mondstadt, could turn traitor. Kaeya could turn from one of their best members into their worst enemy.

Deluc had decided beforehand, each and every secret meeting, that he would do what it took to keep Mondstadt free. It... hurt.

Kaeya was watching him, face grim, most likely reading what was going on his once-brother's mind. He reached into his coat...

And tossed an envelope on the table.

Deluc blinked, but picked it up and read it. The orders were clear: keep track of the Traveler, make sure he doesn't interfere with the Abyss Order's plans, and keep him safe. Signed, the Princess.

"That's it?" He asked Kaeya. He nodded.

"That's all."

Deluc walked over to the fireplace, and in full view of Kaeya, tore the sketch of the Abyss Order's leader and her plans to shreds and tossed them into the fire. Treasonous? Maybe. Most likely.

Kaeya nodded and walked over to the door.

"What would you do if those orders came?" Kaeya froze, hand on the doorknob. They both knew what he was talking about. He turned to Deluc, expression frightened. Anguished. A man pulled in two directions at once.

"When that time comes..." Kaeya whispered. Then he breathed in deeply, and the smug Kaeya facade came back. "If that time comes, we'll deal with it." He all but ran out the door.

Deluc sat in his corner, thinking.

#genshin impact #spoilers #headcannon #Spoilers for Kaeya and Deluc's backstory #i wrote this

[luminberry]

A Pred who has two preys that are often gulped down together, and the Pred always compliments how full they make him feel (like a reverse of the two preds and one prey)

...yeah i have two lads for this lol

if you know me on discord at all, you'll know im a gayass who ships my lad Zeke together with Jasper and Bull with their respective muns cause im a sucker for big soft lads. wiggling @stuffems and @acorncake cause they own the other two lads bein mentioned here

Bull could, at times contain himself rather well went left around his smaller coworkers, of course there were times he indulged..But he always made sure to ask beforehand, unless his treat at that particular time had given him permission long ago to simply scoop them up whenever and tuck them away.

He was always more than happy to nab Zeke for this reason, the mans oddly delectable coffee flavor was hard to resist honestly. It didn't really hurt that the two of them had been dating for a few months now either so the fun of tucking your smaller boyfriend away for a few minutes added to their casual intimacy now and then. Both sides let the other know how they felt in their own various ways.

Course when they both ended up falling head over heels for a certain newcomer by the name of Jasper..Well of course those little shows of love and adoration of course extended to him.

Unlike Zeke however, Jasper held some..concerns about the whole process and was very reluctant to let Bull indulge in certain urges. The M4g of course understood his worries, it could be alarming and all that..He cared more about the wellbeing and happiness of his smaller partners above all else!

It was Zeke that came up with the idea first, and asked both Jasper and Bull separately their opinions on his idea..both seemed more than willing to try it of course if all parties were.

The idea turned out to be rather simple, if Bull ate both Zeke and Jasper at the same time..well being tucked away with someone to keep you company didn't seem so bad in retrospect. Zeke would offer to go first since at this point being swallowed down by Bull was almost second nature to him, not that he thought about that implication too much.

Jasper follows not too long afterwards with some gentle coaxing and praise from Bull, for his sake Bull takes extra care to make sure the trip down is gentle and calm..only moving when told to, Jasper has every chance to back out if he so chooses of course.. But eventually feeling the second form sliding down his throat brings a warm bloom in the bigger M4gs chest.

Jaspers happily met inside by welcoming arms and even gentler kisses and embraces once he settles down..Course nothing helps more than getting peppered by hugs and kisses from one of your boyfriends for handling getting eaten so well..Makes the whole ordeal less stressful after Jaspers left a flustered laughing mess in Zekes arms.

Bull can feel the two and can't help the happy thrumm starting up deep in his chest, feeling how comfortably full he is with both his smaller partners tucked away so safely and happy at last.

Settling down for a bit, he cant quite keep his hands off his midsection, a almost goofily happy grin on his face as he feels the two inside settling down, alongside a few wayward rubs from a tiny hands just seems to make it impossible to not want to rub and gently squish his companions to let them know moreso how much he cares for them.

The three of them fall into a happy silence, closer than possible in this moment and filled to bursting with love. Of course once Bull lets them back out and happily helps them both clean up does Jasper finally admit he didn't mind the whole experience..And that maybe now and again he wouldn't mind doing it again.

Hearing that..well no one could really blame Bull for stealing both his partners for a bit more time together, cuddled close it was more or less very evident the day would be spent together.

Not that Zeke or Jasper minded at all being hugged close to Bull, a day off from work wasn't a bad idea. And who better to spend it with than your two boyfriends?

#mawdness combat #g/t vore #extreme cuddling #soft vore