#been going through it recently

[myonmukyuu]

save me setsupomu

#stpm to restore my mental health _(´ཀ`」 ∠) #been going through it recently #love live #setsuna yuki #ayumu uehara #setsuayu #my art #art block on top of other things orz

[fanonical]

every time somebody asks me a question about #trans hyrule my heart triples in size. another day is added to my incredibly short lifespan. thank you ❤️ yall give me reasons to wake up and do stuff each day

#been going through it recently

[yourockthebeatofmyheart]

Feel like pure shit just want to hang out with my 2-year-old bestie again

#rachel rambles #delete later #been going through it recently #fuck it time for my Semiannual Barakamon Rewatch #bc this looks weird out of context: i help my mom babysit her friend's granddaughter #she's adorable and wonderful and i love getting to spend time with her #the kid i mean. but i also love spending time with my mom. for the record #tiny bestie

[anecdochexiv]

Coming to terms with the fact that I have horrible trauma. And also learning I've most likely forgotten some fucked up shit when I was a child.

#🗣rambles #been going through it recently #lots of thinking on who i am and why i am the way i am #tw trauma

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

if you struggle with mental health, one piece of advice i would genuinely give you is learn to knit.

or crochet: something repetitive to do with your hands, assuming you're capable of it. if you're like me and learnt to knit as a kid but let it lie fallow for a long time, it may be that starting a large, simple project (for me it was a cloak, but a blanket could work too) gets you back into it. or maybe doing something smaller, idk. i personally found socks really hard for a while because they felt smaller than my cloak but weren't getting Done quick enough for me. as i've sped up i find it more interesting to knit socks.

regardless, a repetitive task is great for emotional regulation (also see: autistic stimming), and something that you can look at and go hey i've done something, unlike simply using a fidget toy, can also help to pick your mood up when the brain is being cruel.

it's also useful as a conversation starter or distracter if you don't know what to talk about. if you're wanting to talk to older people also you're more likely to reel them in with knitting (i work better with older people, and 99% of people who ask what i'm knitting are older than me). it also gives you the opportunity to not make eye contact because you're busy knitting, even if you're still carrying on a conversation. if you're absolutely stuck for conversation you can count your stitches and people might stop bothering you.

if you have trouble focusing without doing something with your hands, you can knit! i knit a lot in church, and it helps me to focus on what's being said.

i probably have more reasons you should pick up knitting, but i can't recall them right now, so yeah.

#knitting #catkin knits #i remember one specific time back in october where i was sitting in Bible class utterly unable to stop the most horrible thoughts going #through my head. i was knitting as fast as i've ever knitted. no exaggeration to say i was knitting to stop myself from attempting to die. #and afterwards i sat there in the corner knitting for all i was worth. just repeating to myself 'not now. i am not killing myself now.' #and someone saw me in the corner frantically knitting and came to ask if i was ok. and asked how my mental health was. #must've been end of oct bc it was the first wednesday after i was out of psych ward. and i was having lots of thoughts about the method #i'd used for what is still my most recent suicide attempt. which was in october. and i had the means with me. #it would have been a horrible thing to do. to kill oneself at Bible class. with children around. but i wasn't in a particularly hinged stat #of mind at the time. that's approximately the only clear memory i have of that time in fact. #anyway idk why im thinking of that rn when im fine

[sleepinglionhearts]

Oh, it’s gonna be the way you always thought it would be

but it’s gonna be no illusion

Oh, it’s gonna be the way you always dreamt about it

but it’s gonna be really happenin’ to ya

#doodles #fe art tag #fe3h #fire emblem three houses #claude von riegan #dimitri alexandre blaiddyd #edelgard von hresvelg #oh yes here we go again it's kai putting characters to kate bush lyrics that barely fit #look look look i've been obsessed with the line the cross and the curve for a long time #and many many months ago was like WAIT HOLD ON A SECOND i'm gonna APPLY THAT TO MY FIRE EMBLEM NONSENSE #and what do you know!! there's three characters perfect for it!!! #so i have actually had this in mind for well over a year and only recently put it to paper #the concept went through many changes #did all the florals and the characters on paper and the filling in the background digitally #i might eventually revisit this perhaps with color or a new rendering to make it look more dramatic #but for now i am just happy to have completed something that has been on my mind for so long #and during a time at which i have been making so little art #anyway please enjoy the art as usual i worked a lot on this one jshdsjdhgs

[sadquickchristmassnowman]

“we can have a candlelight vigil like lesbians on the news!!!” episode 2 and annie “girlkisser” edison is already longing for bits of that wlw lifestyle. I know what you are

#currently taking a break from my hardcore analysis community rewatch #so that I can do a casual rewatch #been going through sitcom withdrawal recently #between my intense good omens hyperfixation and how busy I’ve been there’s been no time #but we are SO back baybee #once again I’ll get to the encyclopedia asks asap I’m so sorry they’re taking so long #community #nbc community #community nbc #annie edison #lesbian annie edison #lesbiannie #jeffannie shippers dni but I’d hope that goes without saying #alright do you guys think that’s enough yapping in the tags or nah

[addamii]

Gideon and harrow in modern clothes sketch I did a while back

#the locked tomb #harrowhark nonagesimus #gideon nav #sorry for the lack of art recently #I’ve been going through much trials and tribulations #tlt #addamii’s art

[wuruwan]

☀️☀️☀️

#my art #one piece #monkey d. luffy #recently was told luffy's fruit was actually [spoiler]a sun god and ive been dying ever since #like... u dont understand... and i wont explain... going through it #will i finally try to catch up with op

[chickenoptyrx]

....I just wanted to draw gators :T at this point these 2 are more 'a representation of my last 2 brain cells' then they are actual characters 😅

#im living vicariously through the cartoon guys #because i want to A. pick up gator (strong man style) #and B. ..pick up gator (hug) #ok but so i recently found out an area where i take stupid little walks for my stupid little mental health #has! GATORS!! (potentially. theres signs.) #and this is great cause seeing gators would def heal me as a person #but ok so when i look for hiking places i always look north cause the terrains more hilly #but now im lookin south more cause turns out i AM in fact far enough south to see gators!! #and yeah looks like theres a handful of nature reserves w hiking trails the same distance away as the little mountain trails i go to #its flatter and the trails are less extensive so ill hafta see if i think its worth it #but then too theres a really big black water swamp that.. further away then i wanna drive.. #but also i drove 5 hrs once just to go to mammoth cave as a day trip so.. we'll see.. #my friend says he wont go w me tho :T he'll just report me missing #this has been a tag ramble about my sudden outset intrest in seeing a gator #my bullshit #lol barely but still #also- i told myself not to over do it drawin the scales or coloring it #and as you can see i dont listen to myself ever #lol they look outta place but idc i got to draw 2 of my favorite characters and also ALLIGATORS :U #living the dream rn

[realstrap]

Help a butch surprise their femme for Valentines Day

02/12/2024

Hey I know this is v trivial but valentines day is coming up and I would like to get my fiance a gift!

We're very low income as it is, we don't get to go out or do things for each other very often at all and I'd just like to surprise them and remind them how special they are to me

$50 would cover some flowers and a small care package to make them smile, pls h3lp out if you can and are willing!

CA: $lezsalt

Dm for p@y pal

#i just want to see my baby smile #theyve been going through a lot recently #and i just want to give them something to be happy about !

[neymiiie]

Aigis

#persona 3 #fanart #persona #aigis #p3 #persona 3 reload #p3r #artists on tumblr #sorry for not posting I have been ~stressed~ #also my art was kinda going through an ugly phase lol so didn’t post even what little I did draw #anyway the playthrough Ive watched of a newcomer playing the game ended recently so I felt emotional so have an aigis #I tried a painterly style which I usually hate but this time it was super fun??? I love how it turned out as well #win win I guess #I am really proud of her hair

[thranduel]

some thoughts about astarion because i'm tired of the internet reducing him to one thing

when bg3 came out in early access, astarion was always seen as the extremely flirty, confident guy who enjoyed sex (or so we thought) and spoke about it like it was his favourite thing. he was also kinda marketed as the “sexy vampire”, so you can understand why many people saw him that way based on the little amount of content we had. even while playing act 1 and act 2, many players still might think of him like that because he does have a very charismatic personality and he asks to sleep with you very early on, so it just automatically makes you think he’s genuinely happy doing that and being totally serious.

BUT!!!!!!! we end up finding out later on that’s NOT the case and it was all part of a plan to seduce us in order for him to gain protection. he opens up about his past and his trauma and how he was forced to use his body to lure people back to cazador. he struggles with intimacy and relationships in general because of this. that’s why i really hope that people stop reducing him to “hot sexy vampire that loves flirting and having sex with everyone” when that is not who he is, he’s literally traumatised because of sex due to being forced into it and he’s slowly trying to heal. he’s also so much more than just “the hot vampire”, ya know? if you actually put in the effort to get to know him, you will see who he truly is underneath and he has many loveable traits to appreciate.

you may not see the “soft” side of him very often because he hides it, but it’s there!! one thing i noticed that really stood out to me was that when i gave food to an orphan in act 3 and he approved. back when you first met him, he probably would’ve done the opposite or had no reaction at all. i also saw a clip of someone trying to romance karlach and astarion and he literally told tav to choose karlach over him because he can see that karlach loves her. he said normally an arrangement would work for him but after everything karlach has been through, he doesn’t want to get in the way or see her hurt. letting tav go is also hard for him as well but he still thought about someone else. he could’ve whined or been possessive or jealous but he didn’t do that at all. where are all those people who reduce astarion to “the guy that flirts and sleeps with everyone” now? seriously. that’s not what he does, and when he was forced into it by cazador, he was trying to survive, he didn’t do it for his own pleasure. it’s not a “hot” personality trait of his, it’s literally trauma. and because he did it so much, he got used to it, and that resulted in him disassociating and feeling empty.

apparently if you ask him to join you and sleep with the drows at the brothel (something i will never make him do in my playthroughs), he only says yes because he struggles to say no. but he disassociates. and if you’re in a high approval relationship with him and he loves you, he will feel safe enough to express his feelings and say he’s not comfortable. this happens before you fight cazador. i’m not sure if he gives the same response after, but either way, if he joins in, he will always disassociate and it’s not something he wants to do despite what he may say.

that being said, it’s obviously still okay to appreciate his beauty and attractiveness, because he is very beautiful. he appreciates it and even likes being called beautiful. calling him “hot” and “sexy” isn’t a bad thing either, we know he can be and i'm sure he knows it too! it’s just annoying when people act like that’s ALL he is and they don’t even mention anything else about his character. the love scenes are beautifully done too (i personally prefer the second one after you’ve stopped him from doing the ritual, because that’s the one where he decided he truly wanted it and felt safe and comfortable because he genuinely loves you), and i actually would’ve been fine if they didn’t have any scenes like that at all because it’s totally understandable and valid if he didn’t feel comfortable, but i just hope that people don’t take things too far and over-sexualise him just because of how he appeared to be in the first half of the game and the way he’s often marketed on social media. and yes i know he’s fictional and nothing on the internet is going to hurt his feelings!!!! it’s more about the fact that he canonically has sexual trauma and many people still say really disturbing stuff even AFTER they find out about that, and it just makes me uncomfortable to think that people are okay with treating someone like a sexual object especially when they've said they're traumatised and it makes them uncomfortable. idk if this makes sense 😭

but yeah he doesn't want to flirt and sleep with everyone as i've seen people claim. and if in an alternate universe he did, and he did it on his OWN terms, and the other people he had relationships with enjoyed it too, then good for them! absolutely nothing wrong with that if there's consent, respect and honesty. however, that's not the case with what happened with astarion, because 1. he was forced into using his body WHEN HE DID NOT WANT TO and 2. he misled people and lured them to a miserable fate. it's so horrible and devastating for everyone involved. sex was never something fun for him, and it certainly isn't a "personality trait" of his. it was a survival tactic. he was forced to. he didn’t want to.

obviously when he becomes more comfortable, then it's totally understandable to get excited when he flirts and shows physical affection. he can be so charming, funny, sweet and romantic and i love that. it’s so beautiful to see him heal, genuinely find comfort in someone for the first time and experience intimacy that he feels ready and comfortable for. he deserves to love and be loved on his own terms instead of being forced. but again, he is so much more than the guy we were introduced to at the beginning. the internet just sees one thing and sticks with it but i really hope people start to actually appreciate him for who he is and the complexity of his character.

aaaaand i just had to leave this here <3

#astarion #baldur’s gate 3 #bg3 #sorry for rambling i’ve just been very emotional about him recently 😭 #also i hope people remember that even if he NEVER EVER wanted to have sex again he is 100% valid #he does not have to change or force himself to feel a certain way #especially after everything he’s been through #and if you think he does then you’re gross. he doesn’t owe anyone ANYTHING #anyways #when he kept apologising for not sleeping with tav i wanted to cry #there is literally a scene where if you tell him halsin is interested in you he says it’s ok to go to him #but then he gets concerned and asks if it’s because he hasn’t slept with you for a while #and i wanted to cry #he should NEVER have to feel guilty for that #honestly the only reason why i think he might eventually feel comfortable with sex again is because -> #in act 3 after his genuine love confession after you help him defeat cazador he initiates it himself #and it feels like it’s something he truly wants after developing a strong emotional bond with someone for the first time #and i think that’s really beautiful that he chose to do it on his own terms when he felt ready #but also #for a while i wasn’t sure if he was repulsed and uncomfortable by sex in general and hated it entirely #or if he only feels comfortable after he develops a strong emotional bond #the only reason i think the second one now is because of what happened in act 3 #but regardless whatever it is i just want him to feel safe and comfortable and happy #my posts

[ogachukwu-the-freak]

Can't fucking stand Black Butler antis, YES my favorite scene was the fucking asthma scene bitch AND???? I'M WEIRD? WHY DID YOU WATCH AN ANIME WITH CLEARLY SUGGESTIVE SCENES LIKE THAT HUH???

SPEAK UP.

#talking as if we didn't all know what the undertones were with the corset scene #if you hate that shit so much rhis isn't YOUR space #it's OURS #I remember the fanart. bitch i remember the sebaciel MEMES I'd scroll through on Pinterest #with comments laughing about how funny or adding on to it #i remember the youtube compilations and the bitches all swooning at the sebaciel scenes #and now youre going to sit there #and look at me like I'M the freak for still being like this. mother. fucking. bitch eHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE THEN????? #why are you WATCHING why are you READING without SOME DEGREE OF *TOLERANCE* FOR SEBACIEL #I'm sorry. it's not like I've been even too involved in Kuroshitsuji in recent years just #it feels like.. entitlement to me? it rubs me the wrong way #proship #proship rant #sebaciel #pro ship #pro fiction #do i tag this as shotacon? #proshippers please interact

[yandere-daydreams]

how reader and the prison guards look at each other during the two hour elevator ride out of the fortress post wriothesley dick appointment (it's the fourth time this week) ((it's also tuesday)))

#i've just been thinking about this specific walk of shame recently #not only do you have to walk through and ACTIVE PRISON COURTYARD but you also have to just #get in that elevator and wait it out #only to be spat out right next to the most upscale place in fontaine #“babe why did you bring an evening gown i thought we were just--” #“shut the fuck up rn. you have no idea what i go through for you.” #are men truly ever worth it #personal

[whereismyhat5678]

I had completely forgotten I made these doodles like- at least 2 weeks ago and they’ve been just sitting here doing NOTHING

Caine my beloved ❤️❤️ I am so sorry I am just posting these, and for god sakes I don’t know what that random obsession with you was a few weeks ago but IT WAS SOMETHING-

#The Amazing Digital Circus #TADC #Dudes I was going through my tablet cuz I had to edit stuff and I remember I had these 💀💀 #Hey well it’s a good thing I’m posting these I haven’t done anything TADC related in a while 😅 #And again sorry guys. Schools just been an ass in me recently. BUT I’M ALMOST DOWN MWHAHAHA #Caine is such a goober btw have I talked about Caine and how much I love him with you guys? #cuz legit he IS MY FAVORITE I LOVE THIS MAN- #Caine #Doodles