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azusawrites · 2 years

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Beautiful did not begin to describe it – letters and runes, some the size of her palm, some almost as large as her, were dancing onto the waves of light that continued to pour in. There was no music playing, but that did not matter to them, their lines and squiggles not missing a single imaginary beat as they twirled and dipped and leapt over their heads and through their bodies and all throughout the room. Like clockwork, they moved in patterns which she felt compelled to wonder at even as her eyes began to sting and her heart began to thud in her ribcage. She blinked a few times, trying to steady her vision, the blurring making it harder to follow the show though even so, she wouldn’t allow herself to look away.

Even feral and wild and untamed as it was right now, this was still magic. Even though she hated it and it made her frightened and her knees weak she still wanted to savour it. Even if it made no sense for her to, she still loved it. Because it frightened her and she was just the sort of girl who would love things even if they frightened her.

wip: mirror marchen

fandom: twisted wonderland

wc: 5264

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#azusaprogress #mirror marchen #twisted wonderland #i like magic to be grander than life in general #like this feeling that it could envelop you so fully it could annihilate you #like it's alien but still beautiful and scary and sublime #and all those things together #and just leaving you breathless for a moment #and kore feels just this wave of contradicting feelings whenever she looks at it #because it's always so overwhelming #but it also always reminds her how utterly defenseless she always is #and it's hard to come to grips with it

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elinordash · 17 days

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SHERLOCK HOLMES (1984 - 1994) ↳ 4x02 | The Devil’s Foot

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midnight-moth · 4 months

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A bad time for posting things I guess. But @jesusbutbetterrr I did it and finished the thingy because what you’re doing is important! For Ghoulette Appreciation Weeks - Start of something new with Mistrora my beloved.

#im gonna be real i feel like the colours clash #but I’m fucking tired and maybe I’ll try to adjust later but I done for now #I’ve never completed a drawing with two figures #because it’s always very overwhelming #so I guess yay accomplishment #aurora ghoulette #mist ghoulette #nameless ghoulettes #the band ghost fanart #Ghoulette appreciation weeks #I decided full creature for both but I could have made them more creature #mist still looks like rain and I can’t undo it #let’s pretend they’re twins and that’s why #I mean my rain not other peoples rain

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twinstxrs · 3 months

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the gorgug-porter conversation is interesting to me because like. yea for the overwhelming majority of the conversation porter’s being shitty & trying to fit gorgug into a box that gorgug just does not fit into by trying to make gorgug’s relationship with his rage more focused on the aggression aspect of it. but then there’s also this specific thing that brennan brought up again in the ap, which is that gorgug’s relationship with his rage is wholly “this is a tool i use to protect my friends.” which isn’t a bad thing! but that’s his Whole relationship with it, & gorgug seems to place next to no value on his rage in relationship to himself. which is problematic, because it’s first & foremost his rage.

being raised in a household with a sort of toxic positivity largely meant that, whether or not it was his parents’ intention, gorgug internalized the message that more traditionally “negative” emotions such as anger are the wrong response to something. part of the reason he prioritizes his artificing is probably because it’s “fixing” things. in comparison to being a barbarian, which gorgug associates with “breaking” things. good vs. bad behavior, in his eyes.

it’s a totally unacceptable bar to measure a 16 y/o by, but i do think part of porter’s reasoning for not letting gorgug multiclass is him recognizing that gorgug generally does not value anger as a valid emotional response to something, at the very least for himself. & that directly conflicts with what being a barbarian is, because whether you like it or not, that rage is what fuels you. but again, barring a kid from pursuing something they deeply care about in part (not entirely, porter has a lot of more bullshit reasons) because of their fundamental values & world outlook is crazy.

so yes, 98% of porter’s reasoning is pretty shitty, immature, rife with a toxic view that there’s only one proper way to access rage, & generally not a good thing to do as a teacher, but also within that reasoning is the 2% of ‘there is a fundamental part of yourself that you only value if you can use it to take care of other people & you need to accept that as something that can take care of you, too.’ but that’s something to discuss with a therapist or a guidance counselor, not something that should hugely impact gorgug’s academic future.

#gorgug thistlespring #fantasy high #dimension 20 #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #btw these r just my personal opinions u r 100% free to disagree #gorgug & his rage interest me so deeply because of how deeply that rage existing seems to be against gorgug’s own will #like mechanically classes are choices & you can switch stuff around any time. but gorgug as a barbarian always felt like an unwilling choice #like that 14 y/o kid did not want to have rage. & that really interests me.#i’ve seen people before be like ‘what if gorgug dropped barbarian & went full srtificer’ but i feel like that simply can’t happen??#mechanically yea sure but it always felt like a core part of gorgug that the rage will always be there & it’s a matter of how you channel it #idk. dnd classes narratively being treated as ‘you can not lose this part of you’ even though you technically can #gorgug could be lvl 19 artificer & he’d still have 1 level of barbarian. because that is part of who he is.#btw i don’t think porter truly cares about gorgug valuing his rage only as a way to be a human shield #i think porter just sees that as ‘wrong’ but like. not as in ‘you need to take care of yourself’ & more ‘you aren’t conforming’#he thinks it’s wrong for the wrong reasons. the nastier ‘this is how you should be’ reasons #ppl being like ‘we r being too hard on porter. it’s an 150% courseload gorgug will be overwhelmed’ i think r missing the point bc like.#that is 100% a valid reason to not approve gorgug for multiclassing! but that’s also 100% not the reason porter rejected him.#that whole interaction was basically porter shoving his percieved version of conformity down gorgug’s throat. was v neurodivergent kid coded #no hate to anyone saying that last point btw these r all just opinions #thinking about last ep wilma & digby being like ‘you’re a great barbarian. you’re so great at it. but look at what you made!!!’ like.#they would never mean it like that. but when you only understand half of your son he is going to prioritize the half you do.

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crowskullls · 17 days

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Thinking about Minute’s insane morals and how he doesn’t have a single genuinely bad bone in his body. He gets confused when he’s betrayed, he begs for explanations when people are cruel. He would rather make amends than hold onto grudges. He forgives and forgets. He teams with the same guy (Wemmbu) that’s betrayed him countless of times, and still trusts him anyways. Even if a bit reluctant at first. Even if he knows he’ll still end up betrayed.

Like this guy has PROBLEMS. He so morally… Good. He can stoop down to other people’s level, he can play dirty, he can be intimidating. He doesn’t really let himself get walked all over. But he’d MUCH rather just hang out and have peace. He gets upset when people are negative because he’s just SO optimistic. He always has to see the Good side of things, even when it’s a horrendous situation.

Even when he has reasons to be angry and upset and spiteful, he still chooses to hold his head high and STICK to his morals. He’s Stubborn. He tries so hard to see Why people are evil and hurtful, but he can’t personally understand. He needs to be the hero. He needs to save others. Because who else is going to do it? Who else has the resources, the strength, the backbone, the reputation? He gives items out to people with no expectation for reimbursement. He’s always saving other server members, even his enemies, from tricky situations.

He tries hard to remain all mysterious and brooding. He tries to seem calm and collected. But he wears his heart on his sleeve. You can hear every emotion in his voice, in the glint in his eyes. The way his smile upturns when he finds something amusing, or how his eyebrows furrow when he’s trying to piece something together. He’s an incredibly emotional guy, and he’s not good at hiding it. He’s notoriously a bad liar. He gives himself away every time he opens his mouth. It’s WHY he’s so genuine, so easy to trust.

It’s easy to get under his skin, but he still holds his ground. Because he has to. Because the world is cruel and brutal, and everyone is out to get him. Killing is second nature on most SMPs, especially on Lifesteal. But he can defend himself. Most other people can’t. He’s paranoid, and watches events from the sidelines (even if it annoys other players.) He always has extra food and fireworks to give out. Despite covering himself in dark colors, and hiding from large groups, he’s still looking out for others. He’s still the beacon of hope people need. He’s so annoyingly optimistic and cheerful that it’s sickening to most. He refuses to let himself become bitter and pessimistic.

Anyways bro thinks he’s Batman.

#I do NOT want to see a minutetech villain arc I want him to suffer through always playing the Hero #minutetech #PLEASE CAN ANYONE HEAR ME #DOES THIS MAKE SENSE #His hero complex is so fascinating to me #he isn’t doing any of this out of personal gain either #he’s just Genuinely trying to be a good guy #dare I say #In Over My Head by Grandson #I associate that song with him a Lot #he gets overwhelmed with this position he’s put himself into but he can HANDLE it #he HAS to #he has to endure it because nobody else is insane enough to be so stupidly Good and Optimistic #this is inspired mainly by the aftermath of the election results stream #and also the recent Nations event he was in #because wow he really can’t comprehend people Genuinely being evil JUST to be evil #basically Minute has to help people out all of the time or he dies #lifesteal #lifesteal smp

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starflungwaddledee · 6 months

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she's normal!

(tags were by @the-void-is-a-disappointment on this post)

#starstruck dee #bandana waddle dee #meta knight #my art #i was so overwhelmed by the attention to detail in these tags i had to draw a whole little scene... thank u #always love when kirby folks hit the theories and bring out a magnifying glass on the lore #ngl it is extremely flattering to see folks do it with my oc #also sorry for so many starstruck posts again; i sometimes do these when i have limited time and can bang out a quick answer #the others take me a bit longer because i want to do more Serious Responses but it comes at the cost of time!

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uncanny-tranny · 7 months

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The most fulfilling thing about art (and why I'm so passionate about it as a concept) is just knowing that this is a piece of you entering this world and being born, and it's as imperfect, messy, and human as you are.

Like, this is my first single crochet, and look at it!

It's lumpy and not even whatsoever, but that came out of my hands. It is, essentially, not unlike a toddler who has just learned to walk with uneasy legs. Would you punish a toddler for toddling, for being unsteady and unrefined? Then why is it that we must punish ourselves for being in what is essentially that same state? Create, even if you cannot run with it. You can still walk with it. You can still crawl with it. But, create

#art #crochet #described images #image description in alt #a lovely lovely crochet youtuber helped me by uploading a video too (it was overwhelming to watch her crochet with me though)#i am going to be so mentally ill about this by the way #i wish i hadn't picked up this acrylic yarn but i got it because it was yellow and so bright and happy-looking #plus it's one of those yarns that come in the huuuuge skeins #my grandma had so many of those skeins and they always fascinated me #this isn't my first time picking up a crochet hook and crocheting but this is my first actual single crochet #whereas i always stopped at a chain #i always talk about how important all of this is but it still feels vulnerable #i was in So Much Pain sitting on my bed to do this 😭

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misspoetree · 2 years

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KinnPorsche + Text Posts: Porchay Edition

[ Themed Editions: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | ? ]

[ Episode Editions]

#this week's character edition is for Porchay #and all the awkward and overwhelmed and heart-broken teens out there #you are not forgotten <3 #on a side note: work is complete and utter mayhem at the moment #that's why I'm posting so little at the moment #one week to go and THEN it should calm down a little...hopefully 💀#anyways #hope you enjoy this character edition as always :)#kinnporsche #kinnporche the series #thai bl #kinnporsche meme #kinnporsche + text post #text post meme #porchay kittisawasd #barcode tinnasit #because the kinnporsche brain rot is still real

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angelofviscera · 6 months

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on self sacrifice as love

I will mitski / love and pain (also known as vampire) edvard munch / snow and dirty rain richard siken / the kiss eva claessens / garden song phoebe bridgers / in blackwater woods mary oliver / the prodigal returns karen swenholt / rest energy marina abramović / red door julien baker / poems from an email exchange hanif abdurraqib

#its like. being so conditioned to take on the burdens of the ones u love and the overwhelming vulnerability that comes with love but also #the fear and the pain and sometimes losing yourself a little too much because all of what you see of yourself #is how youre reflected back at yourself through their eyes #so its not like. an inherently negative or toxic thing but its this sense of sadness at always needing to be in pain and have pain because #you view love as giving someone permission to destroy you and just trusting them to make it an easy clean up #mitski #phoebe bridgers #julien baker #web weave #web weaving #poetry #art #edvard munch #love #my web weaves

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icewindandboringhorror · 9 months

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... why he sit like this

#in this position his face is extremely 'cartoon cat' shaped.. like the perfectly round cheeks and little #rounded bump of a snout.. big round eyes. etc. stretched over the arm of a chair like a weirdo #cats #It's still Hot Evil Summer time and I have so much to do so am just aimlessly hopping between various projects but not actually #getting anything done. as usual. Also so so so so tired. I almost fell asleep in the middle of the floor like 3 times today lol #Trying to finish some costume photos and also another poll adventure thing. plus I do really want to do a sculpture sometime #I haven't finished one in a while. Hopefully my tiredness is nothing bad.#Maybe I'm anemic again so that's making me tired. Or maybe it's just a Listless phase. not that I'm ever really THAT productive considering #all of the health problems and etc. always holding me back. but still. I'm not usually 'sleep or just stare at a wall literally all day' ty #e unproductive.. at least not for multiple days in a row so. hmm... Sometimes especially in the summer though I will have periods of time #that are listless like that. I am under low level phyiscal stress for months at a time due to summer heat so I guess it makes sense #that would eventually take a toll. I just have SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO!!!!! AAUUGhhh #I also came up with a new idea for a game that is so so cool and I wish I could make it but I have to finish the other one first lol #which I will NEVER do. if I spend all day just sleepy unfocused barely able to do anything #I also really need to sell some clothes and sculptures because I'll probably have to buy a new computer soon so I need money. (plus still #recovering the costs of having to euthanize my other cat.. wehh) There's nothing clearly wrong with it right now but it's getting gradually #slower and there's more weird glitches happening randomly and idk.. just weird things that make me think 'hmm... bad.. possibly.'#ANYWAY... I just have so much to do that I both REALLY want or need to do - so it's perpetually frustrating that I just can't for whatever #reason like. Time is always mving forward. every day I waste is a wasted day. The year is already almost half over. I havent finished #any of the projects I wanted to .. and there's only more and more things to do each day. It's overwhelming and stinky #and thats not even considering having to do all of my tasks also with the background noise of economic inequality. everything increasingly #going into an even scarier political direction. active climate change crisis. pandemic that still exists and is insane to act otherwise. et #etc. HOW am I supposed to solo make two whole games . write 3 book series. finish sculptures. do costumes. make outfits. game videos. make #stable network of social connections. do my little side crafts. take care of myself and cats. pay rent. manage health issues. keep a routin #.try to make some sort of money. go to doctors appointments. handle regular maintenance like cleaning and cooking and self care #and buying new plates when old ones break or etc. make sure to do other things like backup my computer data regularly. do shopping lists.#take care of plants. pursue like 6 different academic interests. do the other side side projects I have for fun (like music or carving avoc #ado pits). eat in a healthy way thats okay for my Special Health Issue diet. exercise so i don't die early. etc. etc. etc. AND all while it #82F in my apartment all the time and I have tiny income and also need to move to another country/climate somehow??? lol......#ANYWAY.. ..very frustrated today over my chronic Tired Sleepy.. time for Cat Photos - which cure all of life's ailments lol

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drifting-pieces-blog-blog · 7 months

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I am re-watching Moon Knight in full for the first time since I saw the last episode.

Watching it with a friend who has never seen it. The info dumping is REAL. I've been waiting over a YEAR to explain these things to someone. You don't understand.

I'm going full Autistic Special Interest people.

It's about to be your problem.

Special thank you to everyone in this fandom that has spent SO much time compiling all the information, the screen shots, the DETAILED BREAK DOWN OF STEVEN'S ROOM. The Jewish content, the play by play DETAILS. I love you all.

Now to weaponize it and drag my friend down into my special little Moon Knight hell.

#This has been a public service announcement #When the feels hit you #I started sobbing the second I heard the song #You know what song #Steven my precious little baby wet kitten #So emotionally overwhelmed right now #Gif of Always sunny only it's me pointing to the board asking if we can talk about Moon Knight because I've been dying to talk about MK #Me explaining to my friend by simply saying “That's Marc. He's a fucking idiot”#“Dramatic bitch god Khonshu” may also have been used in descriptions

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athousandbyeol · 8 months

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but the thing i love about the foxmochi fandom is we'll always gravitate back to guncher when topmew are too much to handle :') i believe guncher are every foxmochi's safe zone <'3

#i see so many people caving into guncher when topmew overwhelm them #because same #i'll always gravitate back to guncher #they're just the sun and moon and every good thing in this universe #thank you gunhcer for existing :')#guncher #a boss and a babe #topmew #only friends #forcebook #na rambles

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vagabond-umlaut · 2 months

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GOING ON A PERMANENT HIATUS. TYSM EVERYONE FOR THE LOVE & SUPPORT U HV GIVEN ME SO FAR 🥰🥰🥰

#pls dw tho! nothing rly happened to me or in my life #i js wanna focus on my studies and career a bit more than now #plus i don't enjoy writing fics as much as i did one year back tbh #maybe because of the very little interaction i receive nowadays #or maybe it's this saturated feeling overwhelming me these days #i js don't wanna write anymore— tht's for sure #i will always cherish y'all and the time i spent here very much tho #pls take care of urselves! and i love u all so so SO MUCH!#*mwah mwah mwah*#kit interacts 👋

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lienwyn · 5 months

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That moment when you have a character you realise you'll never be able to draw accurately since most of his charm lies in the way he moves and his overall aura. I'm a masochist, clearly.

My OC Nightshade, anyway, who is an absolute PAIN to draw. But this is definitely my most successful attempt so far! So there's that :D

#Art #OCs #Nightshade #Also known as The Dramatic Bitch (TM)#He is absolutely HILARIOUS #Because he's so graceful and refined #And so very pretty #But also the pettiest bitch imaginable #And a full-blown psychopath #Who throws tantrums when he doesn't know how to handle his own emotions #Which is always #He manipulates people as easy as breathing #And can copy emotions FLAWLESSLY #But gets overwhelmed as soon as he experiences real ones #I'm so sorry you have feelings Nightshade #That must be so difficult for you #You disaster

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skyward-floored · 5 months

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"What do you want for Christmas" "what do you want for your birthday" "ideas for gifts would be great" help

#i get all my presents for the year in one week and i get very easily overwhelmed by the pressure of thinking of things i want #because my parents always want to get me things i'll like so they ask for ideas or a list or something but #idk I have enough stuff #and i always feel weird when people give me gifts #like i don't deserve them #especially if i get them something small in return (or not at all)#and I find it so hard to stick with things even when its things i like #like cross-stitching #i really like it but i haven't been able to get myself to pick it back up and i just #guhhh I'm complaining again #rambles from the floor #delete later

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mlobsters · 2 months

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rugged whiskey / 'cause we survivin'

song: texas hold 'em - beyoncé supernatural s1-5

(also on youtube)

#this post is cursed - had to repost because an edit to the original post completely broke it. sigh.#supernatural #supernatural fanvid #spn fanvid #spn #sam winchester #dean winchester #ash spn #spn edit #spn amv #texas hold em #beyonce #fanvid #mledits #mleditsspn #and i struggled to get it uploaded initially - it kept truncating the video during processing. tumblr said no thank you #as do the people. i overestimated interest in this! hannibal fanvids always did relatively decently on youtube if nothing else. crickets #literally 19 views in 2 days on youtube. yeesh. i know the people sub'd to me for hannibal edits wouldn't be interested but yikes #i was so stoked to make something for this song because i thought the vibe would be a lot of fun #and just went for a theme of them in bars/clubs/whatever #and to hopefully not get super overwhelmed-i went with just the first 5 seasons

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