#bc none of them are scared

[jayteacups]

Shout out to my flatmates who routinely deal with my bs

#the bs being so debilitatingly arachnophobic that i literally get anxiety attacks every time I deal with a spider in my room #so a lot of the time i ask them to help me #bc none of them are scared #im also tipsy rn too so i just KNEW whatever attempt I’d make in getting the spider out of my room/killing it would not work #I have class later today why did i agree to go to a party 😂 #ANYWAY #jayteacups rambles

[chirpsythismorning]

S5 opener REAL

#byler #will byers #stranger things #every season besides s4-5 opens with non main characters #for el we got a flashback of the lab followed by her perspective in the scene directly after #and I think for Will we will see something similar #with us getting the flashback of him in castle byers in the UD #followed by him in the present in the scene after #but what exactly would warrant that memory being brought up in association with Will in the present? #mayhaps his connection to the mindflayer and the UD run deeper than we realize… #it’s likely not something he could just rid himself of in s2 and now he’s all good #he literally still feels a connection to everything he is feeling #that means he is still technically at risk of being the spy in some capacity #the massacre at Hawkins lab also was a guiding force for El discovering the ‘truth’ in s4 #so it’s likely for Will this instance will operate in a way that re-contextualizes the events in the past up to now #like that time Will suggested they go to the hospital in s3 only for the flayed to be waiting for them #or how flayed Billy knew they were at the cabin… #all while Will was looking cryptic as hell in that scene watching over el #or the fact that he picked Billy in the first place the season after he focused on Will… #you know.. williams #I think the easiest way to introduce the castle Byers flashback is a dream honestly #specifically a dream within a dream #seeing that recent leak and Will looking like either he has a black or hasn’t slept in days #is giving very much ‘I am afraid to sleep bc I’m scared of what will happen’ #I think dude is not exactly possessed in the sense that we already saw in s2 with like the particicles #but he’s still vulnerable #the door is still ajar… #no but fr this idea of opening a door in your mind was so blatant in st2 AND s3b of teen wolf #I think a big part of it will be guilting Will over the fact that Will has helped him before without Will telling the others #hence his weird vibe in s3… like he’s already successfully fucked with Will post s2 potentially with us being none the wiser aka here we go

[dump-troy-marry-me]

why don't you go watch 6 very different people in varying stages in life attend community college and form real, genuine human connections for the first time in their lives. maybe you'll. ok you probably won't calm down but you will Feel Things

#community #community tv #nbc community #troy barnes #abed nadir #jeff winger #annie edison #britta perry #shirley bennett #i just. none of them have rlly had this connection before #jeff never let himself get close to anyone bc he was afraid to care abt anyone #troys so scared of rejection that he never actually let himself be himself around anyone #abeds isolation is involuntary no one around him has ever made an effort to get to know him #britta just. finds it difficult to get along w ppl and shes so scared of getting close to ppl and then having them leave her #shirlet probably comes the closest to that connection w andre but. then he left her #and that connection is severed and shes so alone bc the one person who was supposed to stand by her side no matter what just. #decided he was done #ik ive made basically this exact post before but #idk goddd i just. i need a minute

[proudfreakmetarusonniku]

like i see people say stuff like “rei is a deconstruction of the idea of like the perfect girl in a male gaze-y way” and and i'm ready to agree until they go “it’s because she’s creepy and weird and bad!” like no. rei's a deconstruction of misogynistic ideas of womanhood because they’re ideals forced upon her that damage her, not because she’s in any way “creepy”. like, the fact she’s a fourteen year old girl who was basically used as a substitute wife by her father bc she looked like his own dead wife is not something that is meant to make rei look bad like holy shit.

like both rei and asuka are very obviously like. showing fantasised and misogynistic ideas of an idealised woman don’t work irl yeah. shinji's misogynistic view of them is wrong. but that’s not because rei and asuka are bad people it’s because like. “fourteen year old who's flirty and seductive” and “fourteen year old who's a quiet obedient object” are major signs of abuse and trauma and anyone actually acting in those ways at that age clearly isn’t normal. asuka is desperate for attention in any way she can get it, even unhealthy and dangerous ways. rei is at the very least I has a weird pseudo-incestous enmeshment filled abusive relationship with her father, even if she's not actively being sexually abused. asuka is seeking support, rei is a grooming victim. these are not things that are flaws in their character the entire point of subverting the expectations is to show how those expectations are unhealthy to rei and asuka like. god.

#like. negative fucking media literacy. #like. rei and asuka show signs of abuse in ways very normal for teenagers #every one of the Children in Evangelion is a victim and they react in messy ways #the point of that isn’t to show that they themselves are bad. it’s to show how trauma fucks you up #like none of them are bad people! they do fucked up shit bc it’s normalised to them! #people will just centre rei and asuka’s trauma around shinji and then call the show misogynistic for that like. #woah pal. there’s issues in the show yeah but i think that’s more an issue on your end buckaroo. #like their trauma interacts with him. and his trauma interacts with them. bc the show is literally about human's influences on each other #like the human instrumentality project isn’t there to just be funny it’s a thematic conclusion??? #and also like. it’s comparing and contrasting all threes trauma to understand exactly how they got shaped the way they are. #just. think about the show you’re watching. please. #rei isn’t creepy she’s a schizophrenic abuse victim who's probably done the least screwed up shit out of the main cast #shinji isn’t a loser he's a heavily mentally ill young boy cracking under the pressure of toxic masculinity and having his boundaries erode #until he's unable to even respect the boundaries of others and recreates his trauma for a desperate attempt at control #asuka isn’t like. okay i mean she IS a bitch but literally so is every thirteen year old ok. #and it’s bc she fucking despises the vulnerability being kind shows. she despises herself and is overcompensating bc she’s scared and 13 #like. god.

[thetwilightroadtonightfall]

very very self indulgent doodle of my blorbinos, the marshmallow gang 🤍

in the wise words of me from the past:

#roadie rambles #not all of my fav characters are like this but these three are my blorbo trifecta #I know this won’t make a lick of sense to most of you but I just wanna ramble okay? thanks <3 #anyways they’re hilarious to me. that HEIGHT DIFFERENCE #the fact that eph and mik combined wouldn’t be as tall as yamato #the fact that they’re all fixated on a certain book #the fact that mik would be scared of yamato’s beast form bc of his fear of dogs #the fact that they each have a Person who’s extremely important to them and none of them are normal about it #the fact that their dub v/as are named michael and michelle like HUH??? #I love them so much #my favourite bunch of nerds #they are my light my life the sillies in me #okay I’m done for now byeeee #my art #my posts #toz #one piece #timeless child #homo milk #my sweet potato #marshmallow gang

[melto]

my birthday week is like a fight for my fucking life.

#like i dont like my birthday bc i dont like attention and also bc the fact i am still alive when i never planned to be is so heavy #which makes it feel like all of a sudden i have a timer and i need to kiilllmyself #but mostly. The biggest issue is i think of my exbest friend bc it was our week always even if they treated me horrible #and i would just go along with whatever they wanted even if i hated it and i just think about them think about them think about them #and i dont want them in my life but i will talk myself into missing them #and feel guilty like its my fault like i deserved everything they did to me like i should never be allowed to move past it #and then i get so embarassed over how i let them rule my life and ruin so much for me and made me break away from people i care about #but then its like im so lonely at least they were always there even if they hated me #even if they wanted me to be so miserable even if they just wanted to know they would always have someone to push around #And i still have trouble when it comes to food im still scared of opening up to people im still scared of my friends of buying new clothes #somehow everything they said to and about me was true even though none of it is and it hurt me and ruined so much #but i must have deserved it. they were supposed to know me best. and i never have known myself #so everything they had said about me has been true for so long. #every time i have the thought that i miss them i think i need to crash my car #every year it gets better every week it is easier but its been so bad recently its been so bad i feel like pieces of me are falling apart #i dont want to manifest this year it being bad bc its just starting to get easier after my total depressive state but god #im looking at are they made for me years ago and i want to rip it apart but i cant every time i try i almost throw up. #i think im going to throw up right now. #deeply pathetic. #news with isaac

[dyketubbo]

deleted a few posts mostly because after thinking about it some more i do still think that theres a focus from many of these creators on having a sort of clapback response where they denounce wilbur but dont actively support shubble (i dont know if shubble is fine with people who arent her friends using her actual name so im just saying shubble) and while its good to denounce wilbur i dont think they should be praised when they havent put in the effort to publically show support to shubble.

at the same time, shubble is clearly touched by the responses and they clearly feel supported by their friends who had also, on a surface level to us, seemed to just be responding to wilbur without uplifting shubble. i do think theres a need to stay critical. some of these creators do very likely care more about dunking on the abuser than they do actively supporting the victim and making sure you dont fall into blindly supporting anyone who can make a snappy comeback is good

at the same time being critical means realizing theres a lot more to this than "anyone who waited for wilbur to say something must not have believed shubble and mustve been complicit" considering responses like billzos and sophies, as well as shubble themself saying that "not wanting to" is not why she didnt name wilbur. billzo admits to being scared of wilbur. sophie said wilbur made her feel small. theres clips of wilbur hurting and scaring his friends and making light of how he does so

a part of what sophie talked about was how wilbur would make light of how he abused her. he wasnt worried that he was hurting her, and he even pointed out that it looked like abuse. shubbles incredibly brave for speaking up. but that doesnt mean anyone else who didnt until now was complicit.

a lot of wilburs "jokes" look worse in retrospect because.. thats what happens when you go through abuse, or when you have a shitty friend. you start to realize more and more how they were hurting you and got away with it because they shrugged it off either as a joke or just as part of who they are (shubble actively pointed out that wilbur would dismiss his behavior as "just who he is")

those who just want to get a dunk in shouldnt be praised. those who really do stay quiet or do the bare minimum should be scrutinized. always keep an eye out for suspicious behavior no matter where you go. lexie talked about her own abuse within that circle of creators and the very fact that there were two people being abused within the same circle is horrible. but keep an eye out for any creator. keep an eye out within any community, even your own. its not just the men in brighton. its not just minecraft creators. abusers and toxic friends are everywhere, and silence can be complacency but it can also be fear

dont blame yourself if you didnt see the signs before. but take it as a sign to keep an eye out. and remember we cant see everything behind the scenes. you never really know everything going on. its getting increasingly clear that wilbur mistreated a lot of people in his life and like. idk im making an emotional post because this shit sucks a lot and like weve said before this is a topic very personal to us as an abuse victim and one whose had many toxic friends

shubble feels supported. she has a community and ultimately it is still amazing to see how many people are denouncing wilbur and its amazing to see the people who do show support to shubble herself. support for lexie is slowly but surely getting there as well. i think this is a sign that while horrible things will always happen that the community is slowly but surely getting better at responding. and i hope anyone else who was scared of or mistreated by wilbur is able to think back on that and realize it was awful and find their peace as well.

i think its good to be critical to anyone who may have genuinely been complacent, especially those like phil and tommy and even quackity who have been extremely close to wilbur and as of writing from what i know have yet to publically respond. but i dont think there should be a place for outright cynicism and accusing everyone who didnt speak until now of secretly being complicit. theres more to it than that. theres always more to it than that

#not rebloggable bc its a long and scrambled post and i dont want to invite people to get pissed at me #for going back on immediately going banned banned none of you are free of sin about every mc cc #ykwim #mask mews #idk. i got abused within a group of friends #and it was acknowledged within the group. but many of the others in the group were also being abused or otherwise mistreated #one of the abusers irls later contacted us to say he started getting worse towards them as well #i would never want to accuse anyone who wasnt able to properly defend me during that time of being complicit #i of all people obviously understand why they were scared. why they didnt stand up for me until later #sometimes it really does take a while to properly comprehend just how bad it was. for you and for others

[astranauticus]

todays orv mood: standing at the water dispenser under my dorm building waiting for my instant noodles to cook just pacing in circles and swearing

#orv liveblog #should i tag spoilers for like. ramble in tags?? #ok i'll do it just to be safe #orv spoilers #idk in case my webtoon only irl friend suddenly decides to log back into her tumblr after 3 years #context chapter 311/46th scenario #ok theres a lot going on here #first off 1863th round yjh is a character made to haunt me specifically so when the name hell of eternity came up wow i was feeling like #500 emotions at once and none of them were good #second i saw someone on lofter say today that most of the talking kdj and yjh do in this book is through fights and just #LIKE I JUST. cannot get over how our perspective of their relationship is just always being filtered through these two people #who are just fuckin INCAPABLE of TALKING ABOUT THEIR FEELINGS like NORMAL PEOPLE #like it drives me so insane that this book is so show dont tell by necessity bc kdj is a fucking moron so we just get these #insanity inducing details like yjh paying to extend his midday rendezvous with kdj for 3 years and just using it as a personal journal #and then you get past all the fuckin. the two of them beating the shit out of each other by way of communicating and its like #'i want to lock you up so you'll stop dying because im scared im not strong enough to be able to stop you and we cant lose you again' LIKE? #SIR WHAT??????? HELLO?????????????? #also the line that made me start pacing in circles around the water cooler while swearing in mandarin was specifically #'i couldn't be the protagonist. i couldn't save someone else' #says the DEMON KING OF SALVATION. like damn its 'sacrifice's will is a stigma that didn't really suit me' all over again #like i love that kdj has the nerve to be like 'of course i dont want to die' and yjh just absolutely does not buy it for a second #god. i want to hit him on the head with a brick.

[kelpiemomma]

work brainworms activated

Still rolling why Akari might've been yoinked in my head (mistaken for Dawn? From a wealthy family they ran away from? Clones of former hisuians that escaped and are wanted? Upset a stalker on the subway?) but Rei was with her when it happened since they live together. Akari manages to get Rei to escape with their pikachus (they both have pikachus. Twin pikachus? Maybe.) but gets grabbed as a result. Rei is obviously a wreck and tries to chase after whoever took his twin, but they vanish like dust in the wind and he's left standing in the middle of the street with two upset, sparking mice. He manages to eventually get to the authorities to report her abduction and their home turns into a crime scene. He has to stay at a hotel and he's so dumbstruck by the night that he passes out.

Neither of the younger twins show up in the morning which throws the whole gear station groove off. They've called out sick before, sometimes one and sometimes both, and they've run late, but they've never just not shown up. And never neither of them completely ghosting the station. Everybody is concerned, especially when their phones can't be reached, so someone from the station cuts early to go check on them. And then they call Ingo or Emmet frantic bc the twins' home is a crime scene??? What if they're dead???

Emmet starts blowin up Akari and reis phones while he and Ingo run out bc holy shit the babies??? The kids??? The CRIME SCENE??? They're nearly at the listed residence when Rei picks up, groggy as fuck and voice hoarse. Emmet starts demanding to know what happened and Rei just breaks down into tears, explaining that the home had been broken into the day before and Akari had been taken, had pushed him out of the way so he'd escaped. He's practically hysterical as he goes over it again until Emmet promises that they'll come pick him up and he can stay with him or ingo so he's not alone. Ingo sends a message to the group chat that Akari's been kidnapped and everyone is demanding to know WHAT THE FUCK??? WHAT THE FUCK!!!

Rei gets picked up by the twins and it's weird for all involved that there is one set of twins and not the other. There's a weird empty space by Rei's side even though both shoulders hold a Pikachu. Ingo & Emmet silently guide him out, they go and pick up some of his stuff (clothes, cause he's still in his PJs, tooth brush & tooth paste, etc) and they go to the apartment where Ingo and Emmet live. They don't technically live Together, but their rooms are right next door to each other with a connecting door. They are, after all, Grown Ass Adults who need their own space as much as they're a set. Ingo is the only one with a spare room so Rei settles his stuff there, and then he crashes again while the twins try to figure out what they're going to do (bc like hell are they going to let this go unchecked and let the authorities handle it on their own??? Fuck no, that's their family, their employee, their kid. They're gonna get her back.)

#PLA Rei #PLA Akari #subway boss ingo #subway boss emmet #Gear station #Gear station family au #Akari and Rei don't normally battle (they're too young per station guidelines & not quite competitive enough #If they're not competing against each other)(and yes Emmet is trying to convince Ingo to make a new track #For a new type of battle) so they mostly just work in the station itself #Guiding passengers to the right train or helping with tickets #Melli gets lost inside the station a lot (no one really understands how or if it's intentional or not) so Akari and Rei #Are the ones who typically track him down. (He's also their cousin but none of them say it out loud) #Bc of their history Akari and Rei DO spend all their time in each other's pockets so when Rei comes in to work on his own #Looking uncomfortable and a little scared (not worried or tiredly bemused like he does when Akari is sick) even the usual commuters #Are Concerned. #And that concern turns to sympathy and pity when the news finally breaks that this teenager has been abducted #If you have seen her or have any information please contact your closest officer jenny

[glitchinginhyperfixis]

hot take that’s not really a hot take: s3 mike is just the less palatable version of mike. he’s mike when he’s lost (and so is s4 mike). people can’t handle when mike isn’t perfect or doesn’t maintain a facade of niceness because all the other characters are so selfless and kind. they can’t accept that mike is the most real character on stranger things because he isn’t nice most of the time, and sometimes he’s selfish without meaning to be. they can’t accept that he’s the most accurate depiction of a real person.

(look at the tags bc i put a lot of shit in there)

#and mike does have his kind moments #he’s just not the type of person that’s nice or kind all the time #and that’s okay #mike wheeler #in conclusion mike wheeler is me and i am mike wheeler #even steve is transformed into this person that does no wrong #when he does something uncalled for he apologizes immediately #none of them can just be flawed without being kind #most of them have a balance that mike (and the wheelers in general) don’t have #don’t get me wrong all of them ARE flawed #all of them have insecurities and shit #but mike is just different #byler #also other people have mentioned this but i feel like s4 mike should technically be more palatable than all of the other versions of him #the only reason he isn’t is because of how he treats will and how that comes across #and s4 mike seems to be the most lost he’s ever been #so ofc people are going to hate him #bc he’s confused and scared and when he doesn’t know what’s going on he’s going to fuck up #that’s just how mike is #anyways this was in my drafts and i forgot to post it #also this is all linked back to their parents and how their family dynamic works #neither of the wheelers ever learned how to be ‘kind’ and ‘sincere’ like the other characters #and they don’t know how to show their love and appreciation #but they still try #adding onto what i said about how mike treats will #people obviously bring up his treatment of el #but i feel like they just bring that up to ‘support’ their hatred of him #they’re always like oh he already treats will like dirt and now he’s treating el like this #he must be a monster #if none of this makes sense please forget it exists

[trahoalai]

last week I started playing trigaea and it introduced the character of [REDACTED] to me and I loved him soooo much I went through the motions I did all the tedious battling and got every single upgrade I was gonna complete the game in one whole night with my sole motivation being "I wanna see [REDACTED] again!!!!!!" and then it turned out [REDACTED] was Dead All Along and I deleted trigaea

#like its never been that serious to me until now #the aliens were like “help us kill the humans and robots” #and the robots were like “help us kill the aliens and humans” #and the humans were like “help us kill the robots and aliens” #mc is way better than me bc atp I couldnt gaf like my babygirl is dead!!!!!!! let everyone kill each other none of them matter to me #mind u I had been a complete pacifist I talked things through with every enemy when that didnt work I scared them away #felt like achilles going on his murder rampage when patroclus died #k maybe thats a little dramatic. trigaea was a decent game and the story was very interesting and cool #also it gave no inclination that [REDACTED] had survived honestly his death makes a lot of sense plot wise #when he was like “happy anniversary babe 😊” I immediately went wowww ur kinda giving dead wife in a detective film #but come on!!!!!!!! couldnt he have pulled a sakazaki yuuya???? #(revived off screen and joins everyone in the happy epilogue lol) #didnt finish the game so maybe that happened 👉😑👈 lalalala

[chibitorra]

WHAT

THIS MONTH’S NORAGAMI CHAPTER

NOOOOOOO

#torra rambles #noragami #noragami spoilers #in tags #please please PLEASE don't let this be real there's just no way #Hiyori can't be fucking dead I won't #all I wanted for my birthday was Yatori and I got the opposite #I got suffering #; - ; #this was one of my greatest fears... #actually both #bc yato got fucking reincarnated and now hiyori is dead #still holding out on the hope that none of this is real #that this is all one big dream father's cooked up to scare them into submission #that he's just playing on their fears to buy time #yato's fear was to be forgotten and he was forced to watch the only person he cred about die in front of him #yukine was scared of becoming a monster #and Hiyori was scared to die #please adachitoka yatori was one of the only ships I cared so deeply for and they didn't even get to kiss #I'm so sad

[selfindulgentfandomstuff]

I WISH I was more confident with giving ppl compliments irl like. I WANT you to know that ur that your hair color is epic or that I love your sweater or your freckles are beautiful or or o-

#IM SO SCARED THO #I don’t wanna come off as creepy bc like #they’re strangers they don’t know me #I just wish it was more socially acceptable to give strangers compliments #like if I were not socially awkward as hell I would just be complimenting everyone #I’m so serious when I say I think most people are pretty attractive in one way or another #be it their earrings or their nose or their platform boots or or you get the point #I just want ppl to know that they are soooo beautiful to meeee #obviously nobody’s self worth should hinge on whether or not ppl find them physically attractive #but so many ppl truly are and they just don’t realize it I’m so serious rn #idc if anyone calls it ‘my standards being low’ or something #try seeing the beauty in the common person and then maybe you’ll feel better/ref #sorry for rambling hopefully none of this comes across as weird or objectifying 😭😭

[prommytheus]

no emotion i will ever feel will ever compare to my vicious righteous anger on behalf of wolves, the celts, and pigeons

#did you know there used to be wolves in japan bc i did. we killed all of them theres none left we killed all of them #we tamed pigeons WE DOMESTICATED PIGEONS. THOSE ARE PET ANIMALS #but now nobody wants them and they get booted out their homes and scared all the time and called gross #we made them we made the modern pigeon and then we left him #thats so fucking mean im never getting over it

[liebelesbe]

should I go to the cinema again next week... as a treat... 🤔

#maybe another sneak preview even #I don't think my roommate will want to come with me again bc she didn't really like the last movie #& most other ppl we asked to come with us were scared it was going to be a scary/brutal movie (which it was) so none of them will want to #come either... #but I think there were a few ppl we didn't ask maybe I can find someone else. maybe my OTHER rommate even she'll be back next week!! #doddie redet

[tvckerwash]

J.D felt horrible about it, but with everything that had happened the last few months—Hell, the last few years—He had admittedly somewhat forgotten that Terrence existed.

Looking through Connie’s data, dealing with corporate civilian bureaucracy, and being “demoted” into doing menial grunt work aboard the Staff of Charon has taken up the bulk of his time since returning from Longshore, so he hasn't gone to visit the guy and offer morale support during his grueling physical therapy sessions in quite a while.

Apparently, having a building collapse on top of you and needing surgical reconstruction of a large portion of the bones in your body really, really sucked.

J.D mentally grimaced at the prospect of speaking to the temperamental man. He had been waiting to tell him about their team until he was officially discharged from medical, and only after Sharky came to terms with the loss would he even think about introducing Connie into the mix. The man's hatred of the Freelancers was, understandably, incredibly intense.

He loved Sharky, he really did, and he wouldn't trade him for anyone else, but Terrance could be annoyingly stubborn and overly dramatic, and a lack of any semblance of a proper chain of command didn't make his job any easier. The guy just didn't respect his experience and skill as an ODST like the others did, which was beyond frustrating at times.

(God, what a mess). He sighed, bringing a hand up to pinch the bridge of his nose.

#a sharkface jump scare in my ct lives au? it's more likely than u think #rvb #red vs blue #j.d is the innie leader btw and there are lots of parallels to wash (my wash anyway) in this little blurb for anyone curious #rvb sharkface #what is the innie leader's tag bros bc i still have no clue #mine #not t/oaru #this has none of my italics from the og doc and italicizing text on tumblr mobile is too much work so sorry lols #i still don't know how i want to characterize the leader. like he's pretty nice in s7-8 all things considered but he's more sadistic-ish #in s10 but otherwise he has no character so I'm like ???? #i might just default to how i write wash but despite my love of parallels i do want them to be different characters #hmm maybe i should make him a little less serious than wash. like he's more chill? idk #ct lives au