#baby's first vent post

[summerfrwrks]

I'm so fucking devastated and there's absolutely nothing I can do to get back what I lost.

I use canva pro on my senior high school email cause it's for free.

They told us that after graduating shs, we have two years extra with it.

The expiration was last year... it didn't come. I went "oh my gosh!! maybe there's no gmail expiration!! i'll have my canva pro foreverrrrr~"

I got too complacent. I backed-up NONE of my projects.

They did an auto delete on ALL of us today. There was no one week warning. Nothing.

I don't know about the others but I lost. So. Fucking. Much.

I'm can't draw, I'm really more of a writer. But i LOVE to edit. I love making visual stuff. Putting things together, placing pictures and elements and playing with colors and font styles.

I lost a total of two AND a half years worth of stuff. A mix of stuff for uni, things i made for my parents, and most of all my personal projects.

Tons of presentations for classes (this goes back on grade 11 too,,,,, oh the memories)

Literally so much assignments?! Posters, presentations, AND EVEN MY FUCKING RÉSUMÉ

Moodboards on dozens of OCs (Layla and Dominic for Invincible, Devina for Elden Ring, Medina "DeeDee" for Trese, like 5 of my DnD PCs, Octavia and Marie for Nevermore, Lorena "Lorrie" for TOH complete WITH A WHOLE NEW SCHOOL I CALL MOONVEIL ACADEMY IT HAD A CURRICULUM AND CLUBS AND PRINCIPAL OC TECHNICALLY TOO)

Moodboard on the characters for my book (I got references for appearances AND outfits)

Presentations and notes on my ship AUs (mostly jaystephroy in the fashion industry, DnD style medieval fantasy, and this one 2004 movie with gerard butler)

Presentations and notes on my winx club reboot (so, so, soooo much fashion notes and references for the winx AND trix)

Presentations for silly fandom stuff that I was really excited to show to my friends and post here (potential of jaysteph as a ship, dilf ranking in invincible for that one anon, a very descriptive "what's in the bags" of cott seven, other rarepair ppts to get my friends to ship em GAH)

DnD templates for this campaign with my jhs friends (I had stuff printed out for my bard's SPELLBOOK and we could use so much of those edits for notes and extra character lore)

Personal stuff I made for myself (like that magazine style in landscape form about my life updates, a little modeling stuff I did to compile clothes inspo for winx club, this REALLY colorful and cute collages for my wallpapers)

Personal stuff I made for my friends (a couple of memes, birthday stuff, this really cute and sweet virtual scrapbook for "meet the members" with my college friend group)

TONS of invincible characters icon edits (they've been in there FOR MONTHS, the requests oh i am so sorry moots and anons)

A couple stuff i made for my mom and dad (they got to use them all so they're not wasted)

I'm just,,,,,, so sad I didn't get to back them up. I only posted some of them and sent even fewer wips to a few friends.

Honestly I think the biggest tragedy here for me is that I won't ever be able to recreate them. A lot of the texts and descriptions I made were written there DIRECTLY. I had lore. I had dialogue. I had details and stats.

Two and a half years of editing personal projects and assignments. Just. Gone.

There's absolutely nothing I can do to get any of them back. Now all I can do is grieve and hope that I can recreate them.

#tldr: just know im alive and safe and no one broke up with me or whatever i lost a shit ton of my creative personal projects AND résumé #gosh #baby's first vent post #like #i don't think i vent THIS much when i had to reboot my phone's system and lots a shit ton of photos and personal project notes even #or that time i found out i was the other woman when my situationship had a full GIRLFRIEND THAT'S ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS AND AN ICON AND AN AC #TUAL BEAUTY QUEEN #anyways yeah i am #just #ughhhhh #i don't know how i can heal with this major creative GAP in my being #summer.txt

[johnwinchestersotherson]

STOP PUTTING MUSIC IN ASMR VIDEOS

#baby's first vent post #mine

[venacoeurva]

What is with those random accounts like [insert a few random words here]-blog just popping up flooded with machine fabricated images. Are they the new spam bots, because if so they've finally found a spam bot more annoying than the p[]rn ones: silicon valley type machine learning bros...

#vena vents #not art #nice shitty generated image of a house and fake animals bro I hope your programmer trips face first onto legos covered in feral cat feces #like if you see a blog with that format and clearly obviously not a person just that format check their posts at least #I'm still mad about those silicon valley fuckheads making the association of ai so shitty and greedy and inherently parasitic #years ago it was associated with science and medicine and training trial and error behaviors with characters in programs #like teaching a little 3d model guy to walk and all that #now it just feels insidious and soulless for spineless little baby men who don't have the balls to try to be creative and inevitably fail #at it sometimes and for corporations who don't value humans

[healingvamp]

........

#vent post vent post #it's really hard when one of the most popular ocs in the fandom has the same name as your baby that you werent able to carry to term #when the first sign of spring is hard every year #this hurts #im glad im not stuck in that situation with that horrible man but ... i miss that baby extra hard today #i shouldnt have named so early #like i love that character sm but i just cant with the name it's too hard it's nothing against you 😭

[sinestrosmind]

It's Cold

Summary: Short drabble of Fireclaw & Sinestro on Levanixi for a holiday vacation, stuck in the house they're renting for the time being

Warnings: References to abuse, alcohol consumption

Characters: Topaz Fireclaw, Thaal Sinestro

Wordcount: 482

     "I really should head back to Ebrax." Sinestro hears Fireclaw say sadly over the warm music playing and the fire crackling. He sighs as he finishes pouring Fireclaw's glass of wine, picking up his own as he rejoins the Levanixian on the couch.

     "You said yourself, love," Sinestro starts as he sets Fireclaw's glass down on the coffee table in front of them. "This storm will be bad, near enough to stop even us lanterns from traveling." And Fireclaw nods sadly as he leans on Sinestro. "Why do you think you should go to your old home?"

     Fireclaw doesn't answer immediately, instead reaching for his glass on the table and raising it to his lips, downing the bold red-violet liquid quickly. He hears Sinestro whisper a soft, concerned "Fireclaw…" as he finished the glass and sets it back down on the table, licking his lips and curling up under the Korugarian's arm. "Hazelfrost will yell at me if I don't..." Fireclaw admits, and Sinestro again heaves a sigh before he leans down and kisses the Levanixian's head.

     "And she will yell at you if you do," Sinestro states, gentle words muffled ever so slightly by Fireclaw's fur. "It's better if you stay here, with me." The Korugarian continues, setting his glass on the table before moving to have Fireclaw lay down on top of him, guiding Fireclaw to rest his head on Sinestro's chest. "It's better to stay where you're warm and safe and loved."

     The tired Levanixian nods as he settles, rubbing the side of his face against Sinestro's chest as he does. He finds comfort in the gentle warmth he feels slowly creeping over his body from the wine and the solid, firm, warm form of Sinestro covered by soft, forgiving Korugarian fabric. A purr rises in his chest, the noise a traitor to its owner. But, Fireclaw supposes he could forgive himself, hearing the gentle, soft, loving laugh come from Sinestro in response to the purr.

     Outside, the storm rages on. The wind howls, and what once was a light snow had quickly become a blizzard, heavy and unforgiving. Something hits the roof, or the side of the house, drawing Sinestro's attention, eyes looking to the ceiling just before the lights flicker and then go out. He sighs, the music having gone with the lights, yet to the Korugarian's relief it seems that Fireclaw doesn't care, or hasn't noticed. Or, perhaps he's asleep, Sinestro reasons. The Korugarian watches Fireclaw's body rise and fall as he breathes, slow and relaxed.

     Whether Fireclaw is actually asleep, or if he's just barely dozing off, Sinestro still places a gentle kiss on the Levanixian's head as he gently wraps his arms around Fireclaw and uses his ring and some carefully hidden constructs to pull a blanket over the both of them. "Sleep well, My Light," he whispers into Fireclaw's fur. "I love you."

#⭑🛠⭑ Hey what are words again I forgor { My Writing } #DC Comics #DC OC #DC #⭑🛠⭑ Hyperfixation est. 2015 { DC Comics } #⭑🛠⭑ baby’s first sona that ACTUALLY STAYED hey look at that { Fireclaw } #⭑🛠⭑ A sadness runs through him { Thaal Sinestro } #not fully happy with this but iirc it was kinda a vent thing?? #and inspired by a song so #but I have it drafted and it's good to post so I'm posting it lmao

[atomicengineerdetective]

No one talk to me I just came back from a family vacation to find out my favorite youtuber ever is leaving the platform.

I am devastated.

(I am actually happy for him, he has given me so much happiness for like 8 years. He deserves to let the channel go an enjoy his life. It just hurts, but I'll get over it

I'm so thankful for MatPat and Steph. I Hope every future endeavour or project they take on is successful and that over all they have a happy and fulfilling life with Ollie.💚❤️💛💙)

#I leave to a place with no cellphone signal and come back to this? #may be the lord was protecting me idk #What do I call this? a personal rant? Im not really ranting more like letting my feelings out #venting if you #never done this on my blog before but I feel like I have to #I've been a Fan of game theory since I was like 13 or 14 #He was like the first youtuber I ever suscribed to #that spoke english cause my first language is spanish lol #His videos and overall community meant a lot to me. I dont know how could I possibly express that #Of course Im going to still watch the videos after he is gone with the new hosts but still it wont be the same #Hope this doesnt sound too like sad. I dont mean to be negative. I am legitemetly so proud and happy for him #I mean He had one of the classiest goodbyes of YouTube at least I can say my favorite youtuber was never cancelled thats a win haha #But seriously he has achieved so much and has over all been such a positive influencer how could I not be proud to call myself a Fan #so truly I am not sad He ended on the highest note you could ask for. I cannot ask for anything more from him. #I am not sad However I did cry like a Baby during the Video. Man I just. Im tearing up even thinking about it #but anyway #You bet I am going to watch every single one of his videos the second they upload until march 9. #And then I am going to dedicate the day to the celebration he supposedly plans for then #I will probably vent some more in a bigger post then too. like I did in this tags lol. #Right now... I just cant. I need to process a little more heh #MatPat #Matthew Patrick #The game Theorists #game theory #goodbye matpat

[cyeayt]

fuckin woof, yikes, they really undersell that panic attack shit, super glad that's done, 4 hours im never getting back plus 5 more on recovery, and a bunch of homework even later than it was before so...

me: i feel like my dreams are cool but i never remember them :(

me when i remember my dreams:

#idk how to make the image smaller but i wanted to use it #vent post #vent #tw vent post #tw vent #panic attacks #i think #i googled it and none of the other answers seemed right #deja reve sounds fun when you hear about it but actually its terrifying and awful #unreality #idk if im using that tag right this post is real #derealization #dissociation #velocipastor reaction image #im like 70 percent sure it was a fever cause ive been sick and i cant think of anything else abnormal #babys first panick attack #usually i just get anxiety attacks and meltdowns

[tartheanmaid]

i need all tomgreg people right now to like stop being so weird about shiv

#vent #vent post non mutuals dni please #do not reblog #like i don’t care that neither tomgreg or tomshiv will be endgame but ugh! is it not possible for a popular mlm ship to be normal about the #WIFE of half of the ship? #it’s sherlock and a million other things all over again and i am so sick of it!!!!! #not to be that guy but it’s misogyny #you can ship tomgreg and still not be weird about shiv #like woah maybe when a pregnant woman falls down the stairs your first thought should be omg is she okay how’s the baby is she alright #not omg the rammys for my mlm ship that’s not happening

[lungtied-tonguelied]

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#vent post #feel free to skip #im worried within my relationship #im in a polyamarous relationship #my gf has another bf that im not involved with #she is pregnant and he's the dad but she's asked me to parent the baby too #i'm 100% for this i'm super happy and excited and can't wait to meet my first little baby #but the bio dad has never been super comfy with the idea of me dating my gf #he doesn't like us being romantic or anything in front of him and i've respected that as far as i can #but they hang out a lot more than me and my gf do and i wish i could spend more time with her #because in the end its his bio baby and at any point they could get rid of me #but i love this baby so much i would be genuinely devastated to not be apart of baby's life #i just worry that gf is gonna realise she doesn't want/need me anymore since she has bio dad bf #sorry that was a lot of tags

[ftmbruce]

my fish died and i feel like im way more upset than im like. Supposed to be. But i had him for like 6 years and hes grown so much and he kept getting bigger and i thought i was taking good care of him and knew i needed to be better the past couple weeks and now he's dead and if i had taken the extra time to fix something he wouldn't be and i feel like shit and i know its Just A Fish but fuck i really loved that fish! I took care of that fish for a long time! I wanted to take care of him for even longer

#sorry ig this is a vent post ew cringe but i am fucking sad ! and i have no one to talk to that doesnt think its stupid #pet death #animal death #he was a very pretty black angelfish with red eyes #his name was lucifer and i really fucking loved him. #he got really big because he ate any other fish we put in there #that was when we first got him so we stopped. trying to get him friends. #and we got a white angelfish i called gabriel for a while. like 2 years they were fine until luci snapped and ate him too. i cried #like a baby then too. and then he got EVEN bigger #mourning my cannibal angelfish

[xbokslive]

this house is disgusting i hate living here i clean all the time and there's zero respect for it because they expect me to clean it again like always... i do the dishes and there's food clogged in the sink from my brother that i have to scoop out its revolting it makes me want to vomit i need to live in a place clean and sterile 24/7 or i will lose my mind

#this just in: im a serious germaphobe #hand sanitizer. i keep that shit on meeee #like idk how satanick lives like this (its not her mess but it doesn't bother her to sleep in a dirty room) #im also very weird about cleaning it has to be me so i know it was done well #like no hate to anyone else but if i see someone else clean the counter ill go over it again #baby's first #vent post

[2eds]

naw i dont do upset posting or anything but. if i lose my madness combat special interest im going to be so upset. i dont think im gonna but i havent been drawing as much either so thats probably it. i love madness so much i habent gotten the chance to talk about it either. i might make a long post about my ideas aboutttt their characters and stuff

#also been really busy so i havrent had the time. i really wish i could write like extensive stuff on madcom because it literally means #the world to me #and i feel kind of shitty with the fact that i cant do extensive analysis on it cause that is everything ive ever wanted to do !!! #and even though my special interest in furries is awesome and ive had it since like third grade i dont like it overpowering madcom i guess? #idk #its pretty late so after the tea i drank wears off im crashing and ill probably feel fine #also #i promise im not gonna become one of those people who vents and shit 24/7. itd be bad for my health and also wouldnt be fun to see #on the dash #im just a goffy dude dw about it #ill probablt delete this in the morning #when im feelin better #prolly #first sad little pathetic baby post lets go

[whoreiaki-kakyoin]

Please send help, I seriously underestimated the levels of squeamish little bitch baby I am, and I keep feeling woozy and sick when I go to change my bandaid and clean the cut on my finger holy fuck. This isn’t funny and I hate it.

#bad enough that I almost passed out when it first happened #I would like to not feel like the room is spinning when I see blood #why am I such a baby #vent post #laur speaks! #i honestly feel kind of sick #and I feel like an idiot for it happening in the first place

[soft-spooks]

CRAZY to me that a lot of my early selfship stuff is from when i was more. fem presenting. looking at old picrews and art like who is that

#my first fic that i wrote for myself i still used she/her pronouns like HELLO?????????? #WHO IS THAT !!!!@ #<< a sign that i should rewrite basorexia at some point. hey remember basorexia. that was my cutest thing ever i was such a baby #also???? reread one of my old vent fics and ohh my god the concept is tasty but i went about it in the cringiest way possible #like. it was Such a thinly veiled metaphor for like. abuse trauma. #but i was not at a point in my life where i could admit that thats what it was #AND NOW THAT I AM. #im like #puts a hand on little mes shoulders. oh buddy. youre a little confused but youve got the spirit. just say it was abuse ur soooo close #it was like. trying TOO HARD to make it sound like Not Something Awful that its just. so bad #but the POTENTIAL is there. i might rewrite that one at somr poiny #thank GOD i never posted the first version though. ohhh my god im so glad im the only person who was subjected to that #mine

[zora-kinhelp]

Could I request a stimboard for Logan from Sanders Sides with space and ocean themes?

for sure!!!

POSTED :3

hope u like it!! this was such a fun one i love space AND ocean

#requests 🐟 #made this while working on my lines for clue :33 #if u r watching my tags on miss retros i posted abt that there too #update. this show is hell on earth #i love this show but i've NEVER had a worse rehearsal experience than today and yesterday #teehee! baby's first meltdown at rehearsal #anyways sorry for venting LMAOOOO #HOPE U LIKE THE BOARD #update update the actual run of the show went kinda well #not great but it was way less stressful once we started #i liked the night where i only had to act the most LMAOO #our tech director sucked so being a stagehand was terrible

[worst-mithrandir]

shedding my first few tears at college not because im homesick or stressed, but because i have boobs.

i think they look fine on everyone else, i just do not like them on me, and the only way to get rid of them at this point is to do an obnoxious amount of cardio (which is even more difficult when i only have one good sports bra)

my motto a few weeks ago was love em or lose em and i am not loving them.

#baby’s first body image issue #im already pretty fit already the only place i really have fat is my chest #and im short too so i dont have much fat and weight that i can afford to lose without it being unhealthy #sorry for the vent i had to get it out somewhere so rather than using a diary like a sane person i post online for the world