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incoherentbabblings · 4 years

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What are your favourite comics anyway?

Oh! Oh! Oh! Okay. Full disclaimer. We’re going for what comics I re-read over and over again. Are these comics...good? Eh. Are they bad? No, I don’t think so. Some were meh to wow! when first released that time has either been kinder or harsher to, but I don’t think I have a series or a run or a title which is I like which is like... hot guilty garbage. Though, of course, feel free to disagree. There are some authors on here which people will not want to touch with a barge pole, and I totally understand and encourage not touching them if you don’t want to.

Having said that, here are my favourite popcorn comics (largely Titans and Batfam because I am... basic):

The Flash (2016) issues 39-45 + Annual #1

Having said that, Flash time first. People think Williamson is a real hit or miss writer and I do agree, but I think this whole arc is one big hit. It’s frantic in its energy, I love Gorilla Grodd as a villain, I love the modern Flashfam trying to help, I love how Wally coming in to help totally turns the tide and the mood. I love how everyone looks at Wally like… this guys is powerful, more powerful than any other speedster… but also noting there’s something very fragile about him. I didn’t include Flash War in this because I’m still waiting for the payoff for that angst regarding Wally, but this arc… mwah. Wallace Rudolph West being vindicated as the greatest Flash (whilst allowing Barry to be flawed and to lead his family)? Yes please. Also I love Carmine’s art. I gather it’s hit and miss for some folk but I love the line work. Also Carlos D’Anda’s issue (come baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack draw Dick and Roy again your work has gotten so much cuter this past decade) is a beauty too. Big ol’ eyes.

(Under the cut ‘cause this is LONG)

Batman Dark Victory

One of two Loeb stories for me. And yeah sure Long Halloween is objectively better but…jelly bean

Also, angry traumatised Dick smacking a dying man with a stick. What a legend.

Gates of Gotham

Cass! Damian! Dick!Bats! Tim! A mystery villain! World building for Gotham! Stuff exploding! Batfam banter! Trevor McCarthy art! This bizarre panel of Jim Gordon holding Tim’s hand like he’s checking the time?

It’s one of the last ‘pure’ Batman stories before the reboot – Bat Inc aside – so it’s how I like to read the Batfam’s relationship by the end of that universe. Everyone’s a lot more content, proud Dad Bruce, happy and settled Dick and Damian, Cassandra returning home, Tim chopping off the emo hair… it’s all good.

Grayson (particularly #5)

I know why people can’t stand it. The circumstances leading up to it are bog awful. Opinions on Tom King’s writing has only grown more spliced with time. The (sex) jokes are too on the nose and hit too close to home for many. The cheesecake art is too stilted for some. But! Issue #5 is my favourite single issue story. Ever. You never have thought boxes in this series, because everyone is lying, but you aren’t told when. You never know how genuine Dick is being at any given moment, until it is just him and the baby. I love how single-minded it allows him to be. I love how he flat out lies and manipulates to protect that little girl, whilst also caring for Helena. About how seriously he takes his job of protecting Bruce and his family (and that’s why he’s even doing the stupid spy thing in the first place). And maaaaybe it’s unrealistic that Dick could outlast Midnighter crossing the desert, but screw it. Bruce can be better than metahumans all the time. Let Dick get an issue to be so to. Saving a little girl who is probably going to grow up to be akin to Superwoman. Just because he’s given himself that responsibility. He’s going to double cross twenty groups at the same time and come out clean as a whistle. And he’ll cross a desert with a newborn to do it.

Light of my fricking life.

Infinite Crisis

I…I like that things go boom. John’s is very good for that. Also, the Nightwing and Batman moments howowheheheheheheeeeeeee. Almost wish Bruce had shot Alexander. I wonder what would have happened?

(Brief side note: Graphic Audio’s adaptation of this is great fun. I dropped a bowl of cereal at the part of Superboy Prime versus the Titans. Cassie’s scream when Pantha’s head got punched off was a bit…intense. The No Man’s Land one is very good too if you have cash to burn - the voice actors are the same in both and Nightwing’s voice actor has this lisp and I don’t know man... I love it. He’s now the voice in my head for Dick).

Titans/JLA and The Titans (1999) issues 1-25

The Titans are now known I think for not being a very proactive hero group. Books struggle with balancing team dynamics versus plot, and this one is no exception. I know people don’t want to touch Devin Grayson’s stuff with a barge pole. My justification for this is flimsy I accept that, however, the JLA/Titans comic was the very first comic I read when I was like six or seven. I was rummaging through my brother’s room as a nosy kid does and this was at the top of his pile. Thank god for the little info boxes as each Titan was captured/referenced. I fell in love with Kory, I fell in love with Dick, I fell in love with Donna (oh Donna…) and then I tumbled down a hole and pretended I hadn’t until about six years ago. So that’s nice. So yes, this one is one hundred percent nostalgia based.

But honestly, Linkara did a retrospective on this event comic and series years ago, and his reasons for loving it are the same as mine really, so go watch those if you have like five hours to kill. When Devin leaves the comic remains strong for just a moment then... absolutely plummets off a cliff. So I really wouldn’t bother with the second half of the series but hey. You do you.

Teen Titans/Outsiders: The Insiders

More Geoff John’s explosions. My first comic that got bought for me. My brother walked in to the shop and said: “I need a comic for my sister where Starfire gets a good showing” and the men went… ah yes.

Eleven-year old me was like EXPLOSIONSSSSS but also was intrigued by Kory and Dick’s bedtime convos (perhaps…I was a bit under the age bracket for this book - Kory gets a good showing huh?) but uh. Anyway. Also this is when I was thoroughly enamoured with Roy. This crossover is typical Winnick and John’s angsty angst with overly poetic narration and tropey tropes which, combined with what came before and what was to come for the Outsiders, can make both series such a slog to get through, but in isolation, I think it’s a real fun crossover which gave everyone a bit of time to shine and some real fan-ficcy moments (very self-indulgent, and I love that in a comic).

Teen Titans: Year One

I love Amy Wolfram and I love Karl Kerschel. It’s a good intro to those five characters with cute stories. Does exactly what it says on the tin. Batman is demonstrably a major prick in this, even after de-brainwashing, so it’s obviously going with the ‘Dick is only half as functioning as he is thanks to Roy, Wally, Garth and Donna’, which I can get behind 100% depending on what story they are trying to tell, but it’s just… it’s still sad to read. I just think the art is brilliant at giving each of the five very clear characteristics just from their body language, and you know immediately what each character dynamic is like with another.

Batman Hush

The other Loeb story. Again, it has what I like in a Batman story. A mystery, the family, appearances of villains, flashbacks and brooding, fighting, Jim Lee’s Nightwing being hunky… Ahem. It’s a fun read I think. Also, I really like Loeb’s Bruce? I don’t think people talk about it much. But he’s really chatty in his own head. And he’s witty and dry and funny. I like that! Also, Babs is such a backbone of this story. I adore that. She’s treated well here, I think.

Black Mirror

I flipping love this arc. I love it. I love the two contrasting but deeply disturbing in different manner art styles, I love the mystery, I love Babs role in the story, I love Tim’s little appearances and the banter with Dick, I love the weird villains and the terrifying ones, and how you think one is one of the two only to be revealed to be the other or both. I love Dick’s investigation and how he goes about it differently to Bruce. I love Dick’s relationship with Jim, I love the flipping reference to the vultures and owls seemingly following Dick (a whole reboot before Snyder got to tell that story), I love the monologue about how James thinks Dick is weird and weak for his compassion and love, when really that’s his greatest strength, I love Jim wanting so hard to believe James is trying against Babs’s cynicism, but also does try to get an unbiased opinion of someone who is proven good at reading people (Dick) and does what he needs to when his son is actively harming people, I love that ambiguous ending and the questionable science, I even love the Joker’s one (1) scene with Dick. I love this line,

I love Snyder at his best. When he’s good…mwah. Great.

…And yeah. That’s my story.

#dc #dick grayson #bruce wayne #wally west #koriand'r #roy harper #batfam #the titans #the fab five #I love talking about things I like I'm sorry this is so long!#ask and I'll babble #Anonymous

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queer-cosette · 4 years

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Coco Writes

OK, so I know I’m not always great about summarising my fics on here; I usually just post links. But here is a masterpost of all my fics!

Les Miserables

The Leader And The Cynic

Rated T

1/1 chapter; 1226 words

Summary:

A series of moments from the relationship of Enjolras and Grantaire. Because now my happiness depends on the happiness of fictional revolutionaries. Modern AU

Read on FF.net

Series - On Se Sent Comme Par Magie

The Destiny Of Cosette

Rated T

No Archive Warnings Apply

22/22 chapters; 88,475 words

Summary:

Cosette is an ordinary Parisian teenager - until one day, she stumbles across a powerful Faery being attacked by an ogre! And when she inadvertently uses magic to protect the Faery, Enjolras, she realises that she’s maybe not as normal as she thought. Enjolras invites her to attend Faery school in another dimension with him, where they become friends with three other faeries - Courfeyrac, Jehan and Éponine - and form Les Amis. But all is not well in the Magic Dimension -

What’s the deal with Grantaire, Marius, Bahorel and Combeferre - four cute wizards from another school?

What are Patron-Minette - a trio of witches - planning?

And who is Fantine, the mysterious Nymph who keeps appearing in Cosette’s dreams?

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The Shadow Phoenix

Rated T

No Archive Warnings Apply

26/26 chapters; 165,435 words

Summary:

Les Amis start their second year at Musain College for Faeries, and right off the bat, strange things begin happening in the Magic Dimension. Musichetta, a water Faery, arrives at the school begging for help to rescue her friends, the Piskies, and Patron-Minette have busted out of rehabilitation with the help of a strange skeletal knight - who matches Musichetta’s description of the Piskies’ kidnapper. With the help of Musichetta, Feuilly - a Wizard and new member of Les Amis -, and Professor Mabeuf, the wise new philosophy teacher, this year promises to be as exciting as the last!

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The Warlock Of The Flame

Rated T

Major Character Death

18/25 chapters; 122,516 words

Summary:

Cosette’s life is going great! With Lord Méchant defeated, her final year at Musain College for Faeries is going to be normal (for once); her relationship with Marius is going spectacularly (and it looks like there’s a proposal in the pipeline!); and there’s nothing to suggest that the Magical Dimension is in any danger. But then news of something horrible happening on Musichetta’s home planet reaches the ears of Les Amis - and according to Headmaster Myriel, there’s only one Warlock who could have caused it. As Cosette and her friends face off with the culprit, it becomes more and more apparent that his true nature and past are darker than any of them could have imagined...

Read on AO3

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Total Drama

Dear Diary

Rated M

Major Character Death, Reference To Eating Disorders and Attempted/Implied Sexual Assault

9/? chapters; 27,617 words

Summary:

"Dear Diary - My teen angst bullshit now has a body count."

Heather Chandler. Gwen Duke. Lindsay McNamara. Courtney Sawyer. Together they make up the most powerful clique at Westerburg High. Most people would die to get into it.

Courtney would kill to get out of it.

Enter Duncan Dean. He has a way with women, a way with words, and a very special way with a gun.

"It's God versus my boyfriend, and God's losing..."

Read on AO3

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A Little Fall Of Rain

Rated T

Major Character Death

1/1 chapter; 663 words

Summary:

In the midst of the July Uprising, Gwen Thénardier takes a bullet for long time friend Duncan Pontmercy, despite his love for Courtney and his obliviousness towards her feelings for him. Gwen as Éponine, Duncan as Marius. Based off the scene in the musical. I don't own TDI or Les Mis. Warning: Character Death.

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Freak Out, Let It Go

Rated K+ (G for AO3 users)

1/1 chapter; 271 words

Summary:

Alternatively called ‘What Happens When I listen To Avril Lavigne For Three Hours Straight’. One-shot starring our favourite crazy redhead. Enjoy.

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Bubblegum Bitch

Rated T

1/1 chapter; 539 words

Summary:

Heather is shiny and perfect on the outside, but on the inside she's a backstabbing user - a mess.

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I Wish

Rated T

Implied Character Death

1/1 chapter; 357 words

Summary:

When Courtney doesn't show up after TDWT's finale, Duncan does some serious thinking about the past.

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Miraculous Ladybug

mArinette

Rated T

No Archive Warnings Apply

7/8 chapters

Summary:

Marinette tells a lie. A pretty big lie. And soon one lie turns into another, and before she knows it, she's going out of her way to keep the lie going.

When Lila lies, it's sloppy. But Marinette's lie is all too believable.

At least no one else is getting hurt by her lie.

But Marinette's about to find out how hard it is to be known as the school slut.

An Easy A AU.

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Series - A Miraculous Musical

Cute Boys With Short Haircuts

Rated G

No Archive Warnings Apply

1/1 chapter

Summary:

Marinette sees Adrien and Kagami kissing and jumps to conclusions. Hurt and upset, she heads up to her balcony to do the one thing that cheers her up: singing a really angsty song.

Adrien had nothing to do with the kiss. He just wants to ask Marinette out. He passes her balcony as Chat Noir and hears the most beautiful singing voice... but the song is so sad. And then he sticks around just a little too long, and catches sight of something he shouldn't have...

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Act One: Whalesong

Rated T

Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

2/? chapters

Summary:

Marinette's family receives tragic news, and suddenly her cousin becomes her roommate. With her only possessions being a small suitcase of clothes and a bizarre hair-clip, anyone connected to María Sugrue-Dupain begins to become infected with some sort of singing virus - in which they have no choice but to sing about their problems. Ms Bustier, ever resourceful, takes the opportunity to direct the class in a production of the musical 'Heathers', and there is drama on-stage and off it.

But why does the singing virus exist at all? Why is Gabriel Agreste suddenly so interested in Adrien's schoolmates? And seriously, is Nathalie OK? The Gorilla wants to know if he should call someone. Should he call someone?

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Series - Let Me Be Loved

More Adventurous

Rated G

No Archive Warnings Apply

1/1 chapter

Summary:

"And it's only doubts that we're counting On fingers broken long ago. I read with every broken heart We should become more adventurous..."

As Marinette sings at a Kitty Section concert, Adrien starts to notice her in a new light. Unfortunately, he's too late, even if he's not quite sure what he's too late for.

100% inspired by 'More Adventurous' by Rilo Kiley

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Equestria Girls

Dazzlings

Rated M

Contains Major Character Death, Reference To Eating Disorders and Attempted/Implied Sexual Assault

13/13 chapters

Summary:

"Well, fuck me gently with a chainsaw! Nancy Drew is onto you, Sunset."

Sunset Shimmer wished she was popular, and she became popular -

And suddenly she wished she wasn’t popular.

When Sunset is faced with a fate seemingly worse than death, mysterious new kid Flash Sentry suggests she take matters into her own hands and use drain cleaner, Ich Lüge bullets, and adult ignorance to make the world a better place.

But is his vision of a world without bullies really worth the cost?

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Original Work

Our Relationship Was A Rainbow

Rated T

No Archive Warnings Apply

1/1 chapter

Summary:

An original piece following the course of a relationship that in spite of glowing all the colours of the rainbow, ended grey and cloudy.

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An Anthology Of Verse, written by a traumatised (yet certified) idiot

Rated G

No Archive Warnings Apply

2/? chapters

Summary:

I asked my followers on Tumblr if they'd be interested in reading some of my original poetry if I posted it here. Four likes and a comment saying "Yes please!!" is more than good enough for me. I hope you enjoy it!

(Note: A lot of this was initially written a few years ago - or even longer. Some of it has - naturally - been edited since my initial draft, but some of it may have a different style to my more recent writing.)

(Another Note: I will be posting new poems as they come to me, or I rediscover them. I will also update tags as I go.)

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loudlytransparenttrash · 7 years

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It's hard being a 16 year old who wasn't indoctrinated into the left dogma. Otherwise I'd probably be a racist and a bigot towards people that have never done anything to me. So I'm thankful that other such as yourself understand this, so thank you for existing - A Hispanic/Native American teen who's against bullshit

Heyy thank you so much for reaching out, message me any time :)

Feminists and the like love to tell everybody how “educated” they are because they’ve listened to and read a whole bunch of nonsensical propaganda and take it as truth and everybody else should be “educated” the same way they have been.

Unfortunately there is a lot of misinformation, false narrative and incorrect statistics spread by people who get paid to spread it, and whose jobs depend on it being true, eg feminist columnists, women’s studies professors, politicians and celebrities. Even more unfortunate are the ones who mindlessly believe it without question and let it radicalize their freethought, happiness and individuality.

You’re the perfect and rare example of a young person having the bravery to go against the only views that are considered acceptable and you’re thinking for yourself, it’s really commendable of you and a great example to set for others in similar positions.

I made a post about this last year but I think it’ll apply to you and others who may read this before going to college:

Things you really need to know before starting college

Colleges throughout the United States and many first world countries are becoming carried away with eccentric gender politics. Being prepared for this is vitally important.

Many new students will be subject to special training sessions and introduced to a new vocabulary with terms like trigger warnings, othering, microaggression, male privilege and safe spaces which I am sure you are already aware of since you are reading this on tumblr. You will also at some stage witness outside speakers being called out, abused and boycotted for breaches of sensitivity.

Colleges are changing their mission; truth seeking is being replaced by the more sensitive goal of making everyone, especially female students feel validated and any ideas that get in the way of this mission usually are not tolerated and even viciously shut down. Here’s some things to expect:

If you are a conservative, no one is that concerned with your feelings. You’re going to face a challenging intellectual environment and according to a recent UCLA study, there are nearly 5 times more liberal professors than conservative professors on college campuses. Your views are going to be tested every day but saying that, most of your teaches will treat you respectfully.

Your ideas though will face critical scrutiny and you may end up revising or abandoning some of them. But that’s a good thing, it’s what many liberal students are missing. What is not good is plenty of “educated” students and a few professors will see you as the embodiment of evil. If you express your opinions vigorously, some classmates will likely complain to school authorities that your very presence makes them feel unsafe and they will say some really nasty things about you. There is a bright side though. Even the schools overrun by the new orthodoxy, you will find great friends and allies, male and female, professors too - whether they agree with you or not.

If you are going into college liberal, idealistic and a woman, you face a different set of risks. You are going to find a large and excited group of gender activists - students and some professors - eager to recruit you to their cause. They are going to present you with shocking statistics on sexual violence on campus and theories about an oppressive patriarchy and they’re going to tell you how mistreated and traumatised you are.

It’s going to seem new and exciting to you and maybe a way to make new friends and fight injustice at the same time and you’re going to be tempted to sign up. You can do what you want but just be aware that most of the victim statistics you’re going to hear are either completely fabricated or wildly exaggerated. And the theories about women’s oppression, they’re twisted and surreal and are there to make you feel like you need these people to hold your hand.

As for trigger warnings and safe spaces, these are infantile, the opposite of empowering. It’s the fashion on many campuses to treat women as delicate flowers and fragile little birds but no, most of you are strong, tough and resilient, capable of empowering yourself without your hand being held by these people.

The gender activists you will encounter are going to tell you not to listen to or not to take the word of those who encourage you to think for yourself and be open to real facts and statistics and that’s true, you shouldn’t, you shouldn’t take ANYBODY’S word on these matters. This is your future. Your feminist foremothers fought and battled and won the right for you to be educated and on par with men. They knew you were tough and they wanted you to have the opportunity to put that strength to use. Please don’t waste it by falling captive to a pointless ideology or indulging in victimhood. Take serious classes, health care, science, engineering. Avoid courses that luxuriate female oppression. If you are serious about “the wage gap” then be serious when it comes to choosing your course.

If you are a liberal and idealistic man, you face an even greater risk. You probably think of yourself as open minded, well intended and progressive. But many on campus will not see you in this way.

Today many college women practice gender profiling and it’s the fashion among these activists that judge men by the worst members of their sex and women by their best. So many attempts to exonerate yourselves or your friends will be dismissed as mansplaining.

To save yourself from excommunication, you will be asked to engage in a fair amount of self-flagellation and male bashing but do not do it. Have some dignity for crying out loud. Don’t become the guy who sends out tweets like Arthur Chu: “As a dude who cares abt feminism sometimes I want to join all men arm-in-arm & then run off a cliff and drag the whole gender down in sea.”

Today’s campus manias aren’t going to last. Sooner or later the age old virtues of higher education will reassert themselves and bring back free speech, intellectual diversity, open inquiry, vigorous competition of ideas and mutual respect.

If you are a strong, independent thinker yourself, you can play a part in this intellectual renaissance. If not, don’t say you weren’t cautioned.

#myreplies

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a-cure-for-writers-block · 7 years

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Hello! You seem really nice. Now to the point, I'm writing a post-apocalyptic story with vampire, witches and humans in it. It mainly revolves around one woman, Ro, who's main focus is her ten year old daughter, Lily. I've got most of the stuff worked out so far, I just need some suggestions on how to really incorporate their mother-daughter relationship into the story. Also the pair do end up with a survivor group of thirty or maybe fourth, I haven't really decided how many. Please and thanks!

Yes! I love a bit of post-apocalypse writing, because you can literally write whatever the hell you want... Meaning I tend to go a bit wild when writing in this era XD.

Amazing plan about the survivor group, I’m totally imagining rationing and hunting food and sharing clothes etc, etc... Anyway let’s talk about the mother-daughter relationship. This is a hard one because the relationship between a mother and daughter is very fragile in teens and pre-teens, Lily falling into the latter category. Does the reader clearly know that Lily is Ro’s daughter or is it a little sketchy? It’s good when the reader knows the average ages of the lead characters especially when there are very few people in this post-apocalyptic world and a certain age band etc.

So features of a mother-daughter relationship with a 10 year old can come across as something close to arrogance. From having my very own 10 yer old brother I get the full experience, which is... interesting. If you come across words in bold from now on, they’re just descriptive words for your character that might come in handy. From what I’ve learnt from 10 year olds:

They are arrogant, but can sometimes manage to sit still for 5 minutes and hold an intellectual conversation... sometimes.

It’s a bridge between childhood and the big-bad-teenage years. There is some rebellion, but it is often mistaken for childish actions.

Ever-so emotional. Oh god, they try to hide it, but they do want to find their place in the world, they just don’t know that that’s what they’re looking for.

They tend to form and break friendships most at this stage. I’ve found this out through personal experience and family/friends experiences. When you’re a kid, anything goes, but now you’re forming almost teen relationships and what-if-they-don’t-like-me.

There is a sense of progression in this stage. It’s the feeling of wanting to grow up and distancing yourself from parents because I can do this on my own, but also wanting to be wrapped in your mothers arms and held tightly so that you don’t have to think about everything going wrong.

I imagine Lily either had to grow up quickly as to fit in and understand her surroundings of the post-apocalypse, or she was stuck in that age, not wanting to become independent due to the things she’s heard of the non-survivors. She wants to be protected and loved and noticed, but lots of people have died and she’s alone with her mother- I can’t imagine them not getting on. They only have each other and I think that’s where the real love of Ro is shown towards her daughter. When a child has been traumatised and seen things that no one should see, Ro almost makes it her duty to not let Lily down. She doesn’t want Lily to reach the stage of independence, because who will she have left? This could cause Lily to want a little space, or more attention, depending on her character and how she reacts in certain situations such as these. Does Lily shy away from her problems or does she ask for her mothers help? Is she trusting or oblivious of that sort of relationship due to her upbringing? Does she know her life any other way to what it’s like now?

I can imagine Ro doing everything her power to make Lily even the slightest bit happy:

Saving her chocolate rations for when Lily is having a particularly rough day.

Lots of cuddles and forehead kisses, because Lily is the most precious thing to her and how could she ever lose her?

Lily being overwhelmingly shy when joining the survivor group and Ro letting her sit with the adults or coming to play with the kids to make Lily feel comfortable and help her settle in.

Ro literally getting shot or injured in order to save Lily’s life.

Stories of before the apocalypse and Ro totally glossing over the fact that there was a war and pretending that it was a perfect world. Sometimes this makes Lily feel better, sometimes worse.

Ro staying up half the night because she thinks they’re being tracked when Lily wakes up from a nightmare yelling “they’re coming for us mum!”

Lily always ending up in Ro’s bed even though she’s been assigned her own by the survivors. They eventually just give Ro and Lily one larger mattress because they’re running out of mattresses.

Making up songs whilst travelling to help ease the tension of possibly being tracked.

I don’t know! Just anything cute, because now I’m realising that Lily is scared. She is in so much danger and completely out of her depths. She’s innocent and her mother, in whom she trusts, is seen with shaking hands and that frightens her. She wants to be strong for her mothers sake, but she’s only 10 and the other kids are older and stronger and so much more confident. They talk about death as if it were a memory, yet Lily is innocent, she’s only a child.

I really liked writing this! I’m so down for post-apocalyptic worlds and countries, It’s really interesting to hear and write etc.. I hope this maybe helped a bit and that the story works out well for Ro and Lily. Good luck and don’t forget to tag me :). Lots of love from Yasmine xox

#i really tried to help out but I dunno if this is what y'all looking for #story help #help my story #help my book #writing help #yay for writing #writing #creative writing #writing problems #your prompts #tag me in your stuff #you can do it #writers on tumblr #writers block #winnersaremeandme #ask

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nyamiriver-blog · 5 years

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Tonights ramble.

In the Norwegian Prime minister NewYears Speach she uttered that we need more children in Norway. And for me, as the thinker I am, I've gone trough my fair share, no shame, just this is my life, and I've become wiser and softer from doing inner work, and being in so much damn pain that I had to search out in the world for answers, and from my pure intention to actually heal all this ancestoral trauma and guilt and patterns.. Has led me into meeting awesome people from all over the world, learned about meditation, the wisdom of ancient China, Qi Gong, Herbal medicine, sound and color theraphy, learned about psycology and how we can re-program our mind and basically change the blueprint of where to take our own lives..

Im sitting here now, learning from the Universe that I neeeeed to be more confident and take my power back, not sit at the sidelines of life, observing others and thinking I NEED others to live my life and have a life.. Being co-dependant to the degree that I oversee my intuition, EVEN after all Ive learned about how intuitive and intune we can be... Just beacuse I have been traumatised to the degree that I have MANY triggers troughout the day, so I cant sometimes even see my own essence, because the motions around me, sends me into so much erroneous emotion and fears... So on a good day, Im going to the gym, having fun, cause Im wierd like that, I NEED to laugh to enjoy working out, and in the current mindset of me, and correct me if Ive interpreted this wrong, I dont feel like I can go to the Gym when its people there, cause you might think I dont know what the hell Im doing and also think Im too damn goofy.. The gym cuture has become so serious, like, you have to run to impress, lift to impress and do the reps like we've read in the fitness guides.. But I CANT DO THAT, I need it to be more playful.. Like if I want to do 40 reps one time, and then 3 reps of different excersises, I want to be able to do that without anyone judging me back into insecurity, by sending me wierd looks, therefore I am at the gym late at night, which controlles my flow every day, because sometimes I am energetic at 10 am, or 1.45 pm, but since I have to work out so seriously at those times, It kills my enthusiasm. And this is not something I can change, because this is my honest to God truth.. I am this person, that does not fit into this society and at the same time, am not wanting to endure judgements just because Im a wierdo. So rant end, I'll keep working out late at night in the winter, and go into the forest every summer insted of hanging around other homo sapiens. So for me, what I know for sure, if you have issues, and feel co-dependant on people that are not good for you, you will be unhappy and you will not reach your potential, in my opinion, if you are going to make it, you have to move into an apartment alone, be with yourself for at least a year, and not to netflix and chill, sit like I do now, write out your thoughts in a thread like this, feeeeel your body, breathe.. close your eyes, move your upper body, maybe strech and just look at the cealing or even better the sky.. and stay with yourself.. So much of who we are these days are diluted and molded by what we think others need us to be, or by not having enough time to figure out what we mean before we agree in a conversation with our closest people.. The less grounded I am, and the less aware I am, the more of a leaf blowing in the wind I am..

So if you are like me, loosing friends and alienating people because you have issues, its a good thing to lose them for a while, even if society in based on "popularity contests", by trying out not being populair and spending time alone, you most likely will find more of what you need to be happy for the rest of your time in this human suit.

I feel like I should not end here, beacuse what lead me to start writing was a thought of Erna Solberg and a horse transport wagon I saw today..

If we need more kids in the world, for the economy and for "taking care of us when we are old and scony", then shouldnt we at least make it a friendly place to want to come into?

Shouldnt humans that has found a mate, and that want to reproduce, at least have a psycology screening and a "are you capable of being a teacher and a loving example" tests?

We have so much family stuff to deal with before we are ready to make new humans, and so many dont even think about this stuff, they just raise more hurt adults and it goes on and on..

We are not even taking care of our animals, our nature, our school teachings are from the stone age, our money system is not working anymore, our medical systems and hostpitals arent working, our mental health institutions are not working, the food game is weak... Even though I love the way everything is changing sloooowly, for me its too slow.. when we have all the info to make huge changes now, by embracing that what we have been doing for 2000 years IS NOT WORKING.

So in my opinion, Im adopting, because the kid is allready here, and I am knowlegable enough to help that kid out on navigating this world, but lets be honest, Im 31 yo, and I have a huge issue with finding and trusting a man, so will that be good for the kid? To just have one parent? Because from where Im standing, even though I was lucky to be born in a household that gave me the basic needs and a earth spot that has peace, the wars in our home and what I had to stand in alone, has not only broken me down to the core of my being, it has also put a life on hold and Ive ruined many parts of people on my way to this place because of that.. From a loving, trustworthy, happy, curious and capable human baby, came a broken, sad, spiteful, hateful and self destructive middle child, into drug abuse and sexual promiscous teen, into a mentally ill young adult, into a confused and shut down adult who tends to just wanna spend time alone with my youtube people, because there I can choose to be around people who I love and learn from, but its very lonely and one sided.. Cause to them Im just another subscriber who comments to feel connected, but to me, Im a valuable human being doing her best with what she has been given..

So for whoever reads this, I hope you find your people, your happiness and uncondtional self love and follow and share your bliss! <3

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