Chilchuck analysis speedrun: As a hardworking half-foot who grew up poor and discriminated against and had his gullibility taken advantage of multiple times in his early adventuring days, Chilchuck thinks optimism is a dangerous flaw. He’s stressed and strict all the time because his job is noticing details like traps that could get everyone killed before anyone knows it, he takes the lives of everyone to be on his shoulders, and with the way he speaks about it that probably partly reflects how he felt about taking it upon himself to provide for his family too. His life’s always been pretty centered around work and has become even moreso now that his wife left and everyone is independent, and due to past events he’s very iffy with bonding with coworkers. He thinks feelings and job are a disaster mix. Like with his wife or with parties hiring him as sacrifice, being open or having good faith is vulnerability which can get you hurt, so he processes and shows all his stress as anger instead of worry. Doing strict dieting probably isn’t helping the irritability what with hunger, and on top of being a hunger suppressant alcohol might be the main stress reliever he has.
[A sad violin song plays over an image of a sad hamster]
Pac: This doesn't have anything to do with me – I wear a blue sweatshirt, you're crazy, this mouse doesn't even have a sweatshirt, this hamster! [Reading chat] Am I a depressed hamster?
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Pac: Actually– that's fine! I embrace that idea – of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy? [He hits his desk, then starts counting off people on his fingers] Fit is gone, Richarlyson is gone, Ramon is gone, Bagi and Empanada who were always there when we were there are also gone, I haven't seen them! It's just me and Tubbo, and sometimes Philza shows up.
Pac: I lost Chume Labs, I lost the Favela, I lost Murder Mystery, I lost Ilha Chume Labs, it's crazy! Look at how much I've lost, and I've gained nothing! Of course I'm going to be depressed, are you crazy?! How am I supposed to be happy?!
Pac: [Reading chat] "You have us Pac," that's true, thank you. No, that's true, sorry.
* NOTE: Please note that this is an incomplete transcript, as I was primarily relying on Aypierre's translation mod at the time and if I am not confident of the translation, I do not include it. As always, please feel free to add on translations or message me corrections.
I commissioned @tikklil from Twitter/Instagram again to draw 42 Miles/42 Gwen based off @bloody-writing's fic Tonight You Belong To Me. This fic is the reason why I ship them so hard, so I think it's only fitting that I commission fanart inspired by this fic as a thank you. Hopefully, I can do some more commissions based on this fic because there are scenes that I really think is worth seeing illustrated. So fingers crossed. (As a disclaimer, I did get permission to post the commission here.)
I'm back and I've missed you all so fkin much!!
I'm fully caffeinated and ready to catch up on what I've missed. 🤸🏻♀️💖
Life is still life-ing, but I think I'm in a good enough place to start working on story posts again. I'll probably start with updates 3x/week as I get back in the groove, but I'm hoping I'll be back to 5x/week soon!
That being said - my story will resume on Monday! ✨YAY!✨
I've been thinking recently, so here's a headcanon:
when Ciel is in a moment of distress, near panic attack perhaps, if someone were to reach out and touch him so that Ciel could feel their skin, his distress would be amplified. however, he does not react that way in response to a gloved hand reaching out for him. in fact, it is almost soothing. afterall, the hand that has comforted him for the past almost 4 years has been gloved. so if he was ever conditioned to fear all touch, that behavior eventually went extinct.
What if Gotenks lived with his dad Vegito but on weekends he lived with his other dad Gogeta but this is sort of a recent thing becasue Gogeta didnt secure split custody until recently so Gotenks doesnt really Know Gogeta that well and he goes to his modest and hearthlike apartment and feels disquieted becasue it is VERY DIFFERENT from the sensory-overload distraction-chamber that is Vegito's lavish house. And Gogeta doesnt narcissistically abuse Gotenks so Gotenks doesnt relaly understand him at all and he really doesnt get how an adult could be so calm and not get angry and yell at him over little things and so he thinks that Gogeta is actually just really furious but hiding it and so it takes a long time for Gotenks to trust him and trust that he genuinely isnt mad at him. But at the same time it doesnt take long at all for Gotenks to respond to his genuine calmness by feeling the most secure & safe that hes ever felt but he doesnt really understand that or why that is and he doesnt understand why he feels so yucky when he has to go back to his other home on Monday morning and so he just ignores it and plays iPad and skateboards. And every Friday night he gets so nervous he gets nauseous and Vegito always uses this to say "You dont have to go over there sweetie :) Do you want to? You Do Not Have To Want To" and then he yells at Gogeta over the phone about it. But without fail every time he gets to Gogeta's apartment and adjusts Gotenks does feel better and sometimes just falls asleep on the couch. And Gogeta makes tea every evening and it's sooooo yucky to Gotenks but he still drinks it every time becasue Gogeta made it and he deosnt have the maturity & wherewithal to understand that it's becasue it makes him feel included and cared for.
This isn't dragon ball any more not even close like not even a little bit
am I the only one who gets squicked out when people call Danielle Danny's daughter??? 🥲
its just.
that is a 14 year old child you're assigning parenthood to???
like I actually do think canon did one thing right: having Danny and Ellie's relationship be functionally "uuuuuuhhhh????? okay you can do your thing and. I will do mine. waaaaaay over there. see'ya cuz!" and then they both awkwardly dip out FAST
not because they don't have affection for each other! because they do! but one of them is a 14 year old kid, neck deep in hiding everything about himself from everyone except all of 3 people (also kids), who was just unwillingly cloned by his creep arch enemy-- and the other is a (???) 12 year old (??ig??) who may have only been around for a few months at best but is still functionally a 12 year old, FIERCELY independent, and just recently tried to murder the person she was cloned from-- then betrayed her dad-- then abruptly had nothing to her name, which also isn't even really hers--
I think they want to be friends-- family, even! but I also think they have ALOT of complicated Feelings about it. none of which touches on a "father-daughter dynamic"
Hey, I saw your post on feeling excited to eat and I just want to say that's amazing! I know so much hard work went into feeling that. 💕
(I didn't want to reblog in case that would make you uncomfortable )
This is so sweet of you, and I really want everyone to know that it can get better, little by little. When you celebrate the little things, it really does come together <3
the first
the girl who knew exactly what her entire life was going to look like on her 8th birthday
the girl who did and thought and believed exactly as she was told
the girl who saw only pain outside of the life that had been laid out for her, so she hid deeper within it
the second
the girl who outgrew the box she was raised in
the girl who had questions she was too afraid to ask
the girl who only felt like herself when she was with the boy who made her laugh and asked nothing of her
the third
the girl who had to run, because her foundations crumbled
the girl who had no idea who she was without someone else telling her, so she said yes to all the wrong people
the girl who was so scared, sad, and alone that she tried to disappear
the fourth
the “girl” who finally had to face herself
the “girl” who knew she could never find out who she really was without running even farther
the “girl” who knew she wasn’t one
the boy
the boy who left everything he knew and found his voice
the boy who found the courage to say goodbye to the girl and put her to rest
the boy who, so many years and versions of himself later, still thinks about her and wonders what she’d think of him
the boy who knows she had to die so that he could live
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: All Elite Wrestling
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Orange Cassidy/Hook
Characters: Orange Cassidy, Hook (Professional Wrestling), Trent Barreta
Additional Tags: Established Relationship, extremely mild canon divergence, For comedic purposes, Comfort, But like extremely mild comfort with no real hurt, Unless you count Hook's pride I guess, Embarrassment, Older Man/Younger Man
Summary:
So yesterday my brain spat out a silly, light-hearted little OrangeHook fic? Somehow? And you’re welcome to subject yourself to it, if you so wish. And it’s not even about their age difference, for a change!
it's a decent enough cw show, I'd say. nothing to write home about, but still something to watch every week for fun. I've said this to my friends before, but I'd really just have liked it so much better if it wasn't associated with the original canon in any way (and ig it technically isn't, now that we've seen the finale). like because I've always loved a good monster hunting show and spn lore is familiar to me. i just would've liked not thinking about the future or whatever with it. it just existing in its own bubble w new characters. which again. i know that's what it ended up being the finale but more on that later.
Also they really lucked out with Jojo and nida who have amazing chemistry as actors and their characters really bring the group together and add the much needed touch of, like, a found family dynamic to an environment that's been portrayed as super isolated for years.
i thought the finale was anticlimactic, and not fun just like. as a watching experience tbvh with you. the story wasn't bad but the execution was just not up to par for me. especially because there were other episodes on the show so far which were soooo much better? like basically the writing was too exposition heavy and the emotional beats were not paced well enough for it to be compelling enough to me. and them beating the queen was literally a blink-and-miss-it moment. which. girl.
also the explanation for dean's presence was just. convoluted. too convoluted for me!!! i mean I'll take it tbh it was nice to see dean again so I'll take anything lol but!!! idk!!! I've got this feeling like we walked past something that could've been so much better but we didn't stop to buy it. i don't know how I would've done it personally like obviously. but i wish it was sth different is all. which. like. kind of hilarious how it is like that w some of my favourite plots on the main show too agdgdkdkd
still I'm glad no one actually died and nothing too drastic happened and it was a happy ending for the most part!:
anyway. over-all. it's definitely a chill show to watch if you just want some more content in the spn lore verse ykwim? but i think managing your expectations is super important. it's not going to fix anything in og canon and it's not going to be cathartic or whatever, but it's not depressing or anything so atleast!!! there's that!