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archduke-enver-gortash · 1 month

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gortash 1, 6, 7

zeke 3, 4, 5

(hi! i realised i had this finished but it was rotting in my drafts so i’m gonna queue this for my short absence lol.) i mean. gortash isn’t an oc but sure why not lol. you can always send me asks about him actually <3

1. What’s the maximum amount of time your character can sit still with nothing to do?

just sitting still? not a problem. his problem comes with finding something like this to be an utterly wasteful way to spend your time. i think even when he gets done with work for the day earlier than planned (which doesn’t happen often because his plans are so meticulous. usually some incident like someone he was meeting with unexpectedly not being able to attend was the cause here which he. doesn’t like because interruptions in schedule bad lol) he usually finds some other way to be productive. (like spending time in his workshop or drawing for example.)

but uh. how long would he be able to sit still? if a plan of his for some reason required him to sit still and do nothing for a fucking week, he’d gnash his teeth about it but he’d be able to do that and much more—everything that’s necessary will be done. otherwise? you absolutely will not catch him just lounging around lmao.

6. Do they consider laws flexible, or immovable?

definitely immovable 100%. there’s just a teeny tiny problem with this—this applies to his system only, his way of viewing the world, his values and laws for himself and the laws and values he inherently imposes on others. he considers himself a man who does whatever is necessary, and more importantly the only one who is capable of actually deciding on and carrying out order. judge, jury and executioner, y’know. his word is law and his word is what he will stick to until the very end and everyone else better follow suit if they don’t want to be mentally branded as a mistake by him lol. i think he sees it as there being a universal way the world should work, which is the system of the machine with him as the core, it’s just everyone else that doesn’t see this ‘truth’ at the moment & needs fixing.

7. What triggers nostalgia for them, most often? Do they enjoy that feeling?

to me, gortash is a man of the future. yes, he does so enjoy taking his trophies from past conquests and yes, he does not forget the past, dissecting and learning is a process that includes his past as well as others’ he so loves to dissect and use in his schemes, but i simply don’t see him as someone who would ever wallow in feelings like nostalgia. it’s not even that he doesn’t want to, he just doesn’t experience it in the first place.

to sort of illustrate what i mean: i think he definitely remembers his coronation to become archduke as a grand stepping stone in his plan and all, but that’s what being a man of the future and baldur’s gate’s saviour means, it’s exactly that—a stepping stone for more. he won’t simply rest on the steps now when he has so many more to climb. and when you’re at the top of the stairs, there is no need to look back either.

3. How do they put themselves to bed at night (reading, singing, thinking?)

not at all uhhhhhh. only joking. well. only half-joking? zeke, due to his paranoia about everything surrounding gortash, the nightmares that result from that & just his nature as someone who never fucking stops being on his feet, has insane troubles sleeping. with his severe malnutrition and lack of sleep just result in the biggest eye bags known to man. more like eye trenches or whatever.

anyways, the solution is just uhm. going so hard until he eventually passes out and then repeat that process. 😬. later on when he does finally trust his companions enough to eat a bit around them, shadowheart laces his food with a sleeping potion because she hasn’t seen him rest for more than half an hour consecutively and he understandably gets triggered (gortash never put mind-altering drugs into zeke’s food, stuff made him sick for example was what was commonly used instead, because he needs him to be aware of his own suffering to enjoy it, but. still.) because of it. so. not ideal.

4. How easy is it to earn their trust? & 5. How easy is it to earn their mistrust?

i’m just gonna combine these into one bigger answer hope that’s okay 👍 so, every single thing starts out with lots of mistrust from zeke lmao. and yes, i don’t just mean every person, i mean everything, even objects he has never seen before or shit like that. but there’s still multiple levels of mistrust, there’s again the basic mistrust everyone gets, and then there’s mistrust as in ‘you’ve given me a sign (and this truly might be fucking nothing. it most often is nothing. this boy is insane) that you’re working for gortash and i am now immediately killing you’ 😬 and then there’s of course the ‘AAAAHHHHHH WHAT ARE YOU’ level exclusively reserved for mr gortash himself.

to gain his trust, you have to approach it a little bit like you would with a feral kitten except a lot more careful because this thing can actually kill you before you even know that he went for the killing blow if you do something wrong. you have to essentially let him sniff you out, sometimes metaphorically and sometimes literally, assure him that you’re not a threat to him. no sudden movements, loud noises or other similar actions and you’ll be good. he’ll still be on high alert, but is out of ‘kill once it gets within 10 metres’ mode lmao. and that’s basically it. building trust with him is an extremely slow, hard & painful (most often for the party that isn’t zeke) process and honestly? it’s not worth it considering YOU can never fully trust him not to suddenly feel his entire being scream to hunt & kill you. i’ve made this comparison before but it’s essentially like one of those people on taking an animal like a lynx or a chimpanzee into their home. they’ll probably get used to you and maybe even trust you, but they’re still wild animals at the end of the day. wild animals who can and will, if you’re not careful, severely hurt or even kill you if. zeke is the wild and the wild is zeke and all haha.

the methods to earn his trust and mistrust are both not very complex, but while earning his trust is a slow, never sure and stable thing, earning his mistrust is quick and very, very easy in comparison. once again, just one sign that you’re a threat, one wrong movement at the wrong time and you’re out. and this behaviour is just his base instincts as the apex predator and all. like how i described earlier, zeke also has SO many gortash related triggers on top of all that already. for example, telling him that his eyes are beautiful! they just are objectively extraordinary, so you most likely just want to genuinely compliment him! it’s rough. zeke is awful. end essay.

#bg3 #enver gortash #oc: zeke #gortash #baldur's gate 3 #gortash & zeke #the dark urge

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autismnation · 10 months

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ok so since the whiplash fandom has about 2 people active i have decided to share my andrew neiman headcanons that i have cherished in my notes app for a few months now. most of these are autism headcanons. anyway enjoy !

1. he’s autistic & was diagnosed around the age of twelve, however only he and his dad know, he hasn’t told anyone and neither has his dad

2. he also has generalised anxiety

3. he masks a lot in public but is happily unmasked in private & around his dad (his dad is super supportive and listens to andrew whenever he asks for help/tells him something about autism)

4. andrew’s resting face is really blank, like full on no thoughts behind those eyes

5. andrew’s fave colour is brown because it’s a mix of all colours and he likes how it reflects how unique everything in the world is, but he tells people his fave colour is light blue so they don’t think he’s boring

6. andrew has super bad sensitive issues and andrew wears lots of neutral coloured, baggy clothes due to this

7. andrew is bisexual, nonbinary, they/he pronouns and gets lots of gender euphoria when people call him ‘pretty’ or ‘cute’

8. he’s very sensitive to light so he’s almost always squinting & he wears sunglasses indoors when nobody can see him (but not with people bc he doesn’t want to be judged)

9. they’re quite insecure and self conscious & he is almost always policing his body language to make sure he isn’t ‘weird’ (the effects of ableist bullying)

10. he barely gets any sleep because he spends most of his time at night overthinking

11. they also feel like the world is going too fast for them so he spends time at night processing the day’s events

12. his fave way to stim is to blink a lot really fast in a short amount of time. he loves to do it in time to his fave songs too (if anyone asks him what he’s doing he just says some bs about how there’s something in his eyes)

13. their most common stim is tapping any surface (usually his hands, legs or a table) to the beat of a song. it can be a song playing or a song stuck in their head

14. he really, really hates change and it makes him get anxiety attacks whenever there’s sudden change

15. that’s why he hated school sm,, as soon as he got used to his new timetable, new teachers, new seating plans etc. it became a new year and it changed again

16. andrew rlly wants to get his ears pierced but hates the idea of some random stranger touching him (haha surprise he’s touch adverse) so instead he wears clip on piercings. but again, only at home bc he’s too insecure to wear them in public in case he gets made fun of

17. adding onto the touch adverse thing, they can’t handle being touched in more than one place at the same time & u have to ask before you touch them or it freaks him out a little.

18. he sleeps with a weighted blanket bc he loves the pressure, it helps with his anxiety

19. andrew’s a very plain and picky eater (sensory issues),, but sometimes he eats spicy food whenever he’s sensory seeking

20. he has a bunch of teddies from when he was a kid but he hides them under his bed. whenever he feels particularly sad or he can’t sleep after trying for hours, he gets his fave plushie and cuddles it

21. his fave plushie is a caterpillar with the drums (no, it’s not playing the drums, it’s just drums connected to the caterpillar LMAO)

22. andrew gets their dad to cut their hair bc again, he hates strangers touching him & he can’t cut his own hair

23. he’s almost always listening to music bc 1) it’s his special interest and 2) he’d rather have one stimuli he can control instead of a bunch of others he can’t bc yep, you guessed it!! he has sensory issues!

24. he has a rlly bad time understanding tone. for example, he can’t understand sarcasm (like, he can be sarcastic himself but he can’t understand if someone else is being sarcastic)

25. also, he used to be bullied a lot as a kid & people would pretend to be his friend (y’know those type of popular people 😒) and he would believe them, even though it was clear to everyone else they were making fun of him. and bc of that, he now assumes the worst of new people :(

26. their comfort item is their drumsticks. they brings them everywhere with them, even if he isn’t planning to play the drums, and he can calm himself down just by holding them

27. he bites his nails and the skin on the tips of his fingers (due to both stimming & an anxious habit)

28. he’s almost always has plasters covering some parts of his hand, usually his fingers, and he doodles smiley faces and stars on them

29. they barely have any friends & so they talk to themself a lot and sometimes when he feels particularly lonely he pretends he’s talking to an imaginary friend he made up or his favourite musicians

30. he’s so blunt and brutally honest all the time (technically this is canon but idc) & cannot control his tone at all

31. he usually drums late into the night until hes too exhausted to move so he falls straight asleep without overthinking

32. they have very bad impulse control and they lash out a lot (snapping at people and punching things usually) but after the whole fletcher thing, they got help for it so its a little better but he still has scarred knuckles and such

33. he hates all festivities bc its practically hell for his sensory issues but if he had to pick his favourite it would be xmas bc he likes seeing people smile when they open their gifts (he’d also love to dress up as santa and give kids gifts but he hasn’t found a costume that’s sensory safe for him yet)

34. he has to sleep with a blanket on his face e.g on his cheek or covering his mouth otherwise he literally can’t sleep

35. he has really bad emotional regulation and he has the worst case of alexthymia ever bro he doesn’t know what he’s feeling 95% of the time his go to phrase is literally “i’m ok i think how are you?” & he has no sense of identity

36. andrew literally has NO sense of self care like this dude over works himself so hard and has frequent shutdowns & meltdowns like their dad literally has to intervene its so bad their dad forced him to see someone because of it

37. speaking of, shutdowns happen more often than meltdowns for him and he goes nonverbal often

38. the only touch he likes is when people play with his hair but hes kinda picky about it he likes people running their fingers through his hair but if u try plait it or put it into a bobble or do anything to their scalp andrew immediately will recoil

#literally copied and pasted this from my notes app so if it formats weird thats why #anyway can u tell im autistic about him being autistic /rq /sarc #i hope my people (autistic whiplash fans) find this and enjoy this #HELP I JUST REALISED I HAVE ALMOST 40 HCS #literally most of them are about autism #ok ill shut up now. im just happy to share #whiplash #whiplash movie #andrew neiman #ash shut up challenge

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emeritus-fuckers · 6 months

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Hiii, I'd like to request a match up !!

First of all, sorry if it's written weird, English is not my first language and I'm in need of a few days of sleep lmao :') also this is very long because I have no idea how to write concisely to save my life, so, sorry for your eyes? brain? Idk but sorry

1 - I'm AFAB genderqueer, might be a demigirl ? idk gender is confusing. anyways, I use any pronouns because I'm extra like that lmao, and I prefer my sexuality to stay unlabelled for now

2 - Papas !! (they're so silly I love them)

3 - I'm rather small (163cm/5'4") and kinda pudgy. I would not say I'm plus size but I'm definitely thicker than average, especially around my hips and thighs (stretch marks n cellulite gang WYA). I used to be very insecure about it but thankfully I got better at loving myself (still working on it but I'll get there eventually). I'm also getting a tattoo on my upper left arm very soon (inspired by Kafka's Metamorphosis because yes) and hopefully some more piercings (I only have triple lobe for now). my hair's light brown and very short, I buzzed it back in August and I'm growing it out. Yes, I do have a terrible case of bed head. I also trim my eyebrows to be very short, makes it easier to do my makeup. Almost forgot to talk about my eyes, but basically they're blue-ish green and usually overshadowed by the huge dark circles I have. I don't dress according to one particular style, although I enjoy being in full goth fashion, makeup and all. I would probably describe my style by 'satanic grandma' because as much as I love my band shirts and inverted crosses, I also cannot live without my extensive collection of grandpa sweaters and ugly ties.

4 - I'm an introvert - and an awkward anxious ball of nerves at that, but I don't mind stepping up to the task in social situations if the people I'm with are not comfortable ordering food/asking a question. I usually am very cautious of how I act with new people I meet as I am autistic and don't want to 'scare them off' or make them uncomfortable. However, if we vibe, you get to know the still anxious but also very silly me. I especially love coming across other people that are on the spectrum, because we usually have a certain understanding of each other's way of acting and just be silly together. Speaking from experience with my closest friends, at least (not generalizing autistic people !!).

5 - I've been hyperfixating on Ghost for a good while now, but apart from that I'm very much interested in art. Learning about it of course, but also making it (I'm in art prep class rn and it's kicking my ass, send help). Drawing, writing, taking photos, making zines and stuff... hopefully after prep class I can get into a proper art school and study illustration, and maybe look into becoming a graphic novel author. My favorite artists would probably be Dora Maar, Gustave Doré and Gustav Klimt tbh. I also have an interest in geopolitics and history, especially in the Middle Ages' witch hunts and black death, but also in more recent topics such as the satanic panic. Basically all things occult and satanic. I also love internet horror media such as ARGs, like My house.wad or the Hypnagogic Archive. Music taste wise, I listen to everything, but my favorite genres are hard rock and metal. I'd say my all time fav artists are Ghost, Slayer (South of Heaven walked so that Year Zero could run, change my mind), Iron Maiden, SOAD, Twin Temple, Radiohead, alex g and Mitski.

6 - I'm a huge cat person but I also very much love crows and rats and reptiles and overall all the animals that would seem weird to keep as pets. Also I love love LOVE having deep conversations about complicated philosophical topics at night in a calm spot at a party or smth, specifically while drinking off-brand soda. Idk why I included this, I just thought of it and I'm too tired to question how my sleep deprived brain thinks right now.

Sorry again for the huge wall of text, y'all are the best !

Have a good day/night !!

This post is part of the 1000 followers match up event. Entries for the event are now closed.

Your match is...Copia

He's all for helping you love yourself, he'll kiss any part of your body you are insecure about and everyday he tells you how amazing you look. The thing that really makes it work is that he means it, you can see the sincerity in his expression.

He can also be an awkward anxious bundle of nerves. But what is so cute is that both of you try and step up for the other in social situations. You see Papa Emeritus IV come out a lot at those times.

You vibed immediatly with him it was just an instant connection. He just got you, and you him. He treasures that so much.

He will help all he can with your art class prep. Like whatever you need. If you want him to just keep you company he's there, if you need models he'll get his rats to pose with him (it's just adorable). Or if you need to work super hard he'll bring you food and drinks to keep you going.

Sometimes he joins you but drawing isn't his strongest skill so it's a good giggle, he can laugh at his mistakes and he enjoys seeing you smile at them. Other times he'll sit and write songs as you work, he wrote one about you just the other day.

He got so excited when he found out you had an interest in the middle ages, witch hunts and black death. He literally squeaked with joy and you discussed it long into the night, while drinking lots of off-brand soda.

He also finds some really cool books for you to read from the clergy library, occult, satanic panic and so on, it's all there.

Written by Nyx

#anon #ghost band x reader #ghost band #ghost bc x reader #ghost bc #papa emeritus iv #copia x reader #copia #papa iv #match up event #match up #papa emeritus iv x reader

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whotaughtyougrammar · 1 year

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Writer asks! 1 & 12 since I like comparing my process to other writers, 7 only if you want since I like hearing about your WIPs, and 55 & 57 since I have been thinking about your comment about ghosts and always really like it when fanfics are treated seriously in their meanings and the thought put into them.

Lot of questions, so only answer the ones you want to! I enjoy hearing from you.

Do you daydream a lot before you write, or go for it as soon as the ideas strike?

I daydream so much at the most inconvenient times that by the time I get the time to write, whatever clever but of dialogue or inspired metaphor I was dreaming about has slipped from my grasp. 😭😭 The solution is to go for it as soon as the idea strikes, but they just happen at the most inconvenient times (no I will not be whipping out my phone in the middle of crossing the boulevard, self, no I am not taking my phone into the toilet with me when I need to go!) thast by the time it's passed, so has the idea. Very inconvenient.

12. Do you outline your fics? If yes, how detailed are your outlines? How far do you stray from them?

Only the long ones. Heart basically just had shit like [grandparent convo] [fight scene] as place holders, but I knew from the start how I wanted it to go, so I didn't need much more than that. Pulse (when Glenn met Morgan fic) has had a semi-detailed outline for a long time, which actually might be what's stopping me from writing it 🤔Some of it is so detailed I don't want to stray from it, even if maybe I don't care for some of those parts as much anymore, some of them are so loose it's like, "You obviously don't know what you want here, just get rid of it." Although I did manage to finagle a detail that had been alluding me since the beginning, so never lose hope ig?? ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

7. Post a snippet from a wip.

I'm working on so many things I am a fool. 🤡 This was supposed to be part of a 5+1 fic (...I think?) but this might work better as a standalone.

“I’m going to be honest, Freeman, I totally thought you were going to hit her,” Glenn says, his face still buried in Morgan’s shoulder. She’s wearing the shirt that he mentioned he liked on her that one time, the one with the straps that Morgan claimed was “too busy” and “not her style.” Morgan hums. “Not my style. Not anymore, anyway. To be honest, I didn’t really notice her there,” she says, idly petting Glenn’s hair, and Glenn doesn’t know if she’s lying or telling the truth, oblivious or completely aware that a snub like that would be more ego-puncturing than a well earned backhand to the mouth would ever be. Glenn feels a little sorry for her, honestly. “Can we go back inside? It’s really fucking hot out here,” Glenn says, finally lifting his head. He’s in one of Morgan’s Henleys and a pair of tight leather pants, which had, admittedly, already been a problem under the heavy stage lights of the venue, and was even more of a problem now, outside in the unseasonably hot temperatures outside. Wasn’t California supposed to be temperate? Especially in April? At least it wasn’t humid. “And... I should probably find her. Tell her no hard feelings and shit.” he grimaces at the thought. “But I don’t think the band thing will be working out. I’ll have to find another drummer.” Morgan makes a noncommittal sound. “If you’re sure, magpie. I’ll come with you.”

55. Have you noticed any patterns in your fics? Words/expressions that appear a lot, themes, common settings, etc?

Easy one out of the way: There's also a lot of talking in bed, because what else is a bed for? Also, food as love comes up a lot.

I went through all of my fics on my AO3, and I'm seeing a lot of "your past coming back to haunt you," and regretting things you said (or never said) lmao. One of them is literally just a (non-literal, yes I know I just said literal bear with me here) groundhog day loop of characters saying the wrong things until they say the right thing. That also involved a lot of repeating phrases and expressions in that fic, though that was an extremely intentional case. An unintentional (but also intentional) example of repeated phrases: a lot of characters let out breaths they didn't know they were holding. This comes up everywhere, it's so funny. They should probably be more mindful of that. More often though I will have variations of phrases repeated throughout a fic. I can't name them off the top of my head but I do know I definitely employed this in "A Friend that Knows You Well"

57. How conscious are you about including symbolism or foreshadowing in your fics?

Not very conscious, actually! Not at first, anyway. Often times I try to write out everything just to get it out and when I go over it in the edit I sometimes find something that could work as a repeating motif or foreshadowing and go back to work them in where it would feel appropriate. Like in Heart, the conversation about Morgan missing the food from her childhood wasn't really intentionally foreshadowing Glenn cooking for Morgan when she gets sick, because that scene was intended as a different fic at one point. I just noticed that line of dialogue and went, "Well, it's not like this fic was getting finished any time soon," and worked it into Heart.

#thank you so much for the ask!!! and sorry it took so long!! orz #dungeons and daddies #dndads #glenn close #morgan freeman #musicverse

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flightless-icarus · 2 years

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saturday august 27, 2022

so yesterday i had apartment inspections and my landlord kept complimenting my apartment bc it was so empty LMAO and it made it easier to check outlets and stuff. i have such a headache right now, but im awake because i had a really late dinner and now i have indigestion bc of it. im sitting here feeling sick as HELL since i ate so late- and i know that happens, but i cant skip meals rn, i literally can’t afford to skip my meals right now, weight wise.

ive been popping nausea meds like its candy lately to keep my stomach frrm getting so upset lately. it was even fucking testing me tonight but i just tried to breathe through it. i didnt want to take another one, because they give me headaches lol, which is frustrating bc i have one

im super sleepy, but i cant go to bed until i get a shower, and i dont wanna get in the shower until this indigestion goes away. i need some water, but im procrastinating it.

i just got some water.

things have been tough lately. im all hung up on my ex friends messages to me. i know what she said was bullshit- she called me selfish and a liar. If putting myself first, and taking care of myself and setting boundaries is selfish, then i am absolutely selfish. and i dont recall ever lying to her about anything aside frorm my feelings towards her. (her and i lived together at one point and i was very fake-nice to her while we lived together to keep the peace because when she decided she hated me [typically for ableist reasons], she was really mean and verbally hostile and it made me stop eating and get sick, so i was fake with her for my own safety and health, and then i was convinced to give her another chance and regretted it shortly after because i realised she very much hadn’t changed, and was gaslighting me and telling me I had problems when she was the one causing issues.) but anyway, she kept telling me my “karma was getting me for being such a bad person” which has me… confused.. even after talking to it with some close friends.

i live alone, my bills are paid (things are just financially rough for 1 more month, then after this month, ill be pretty set money wise), my apartment is my own, im in an okay area, i have the best friends ive ever had in my life, i THINK i have a crush on someone who feels mutually- like this is the closest to having a partner ive been in several years, i have a therapist, i have health insurance and im getting answers to my health issues, i get to spend my days doing the things i love (art), and im separated from my parents. fully.

i am literally the best ive ever been (aside from trauma stuff coming up, but that comes with the territory of being alone with ur thoughts all day and night) and im in the most stable living situation ive ever been in, and shes gonna tell me MY karma is getting me rn while shes working at target and trying to solve all her health problems with essential oils???? (she is anti vax)

im just so deeply confused. she said “have fun with your lame ass life and 5 internet friends and being selfish and living in a terrible neighbourhood, karmas a bitch now bye”

i dont place my value in how many friends i have, or how many times i go out. ive tried to tell her SEVERAL times that im very content being a homebody. i enjoy spending time alone and have fun with playing video games or watching youtube, reading, writing, and creating art. i like being inside. ive explained that to her more times than i can count and the fact that she just never once listened to me and is calling my life lame lmao. 4 of my 5 friends live only about an hour away and could visit if I scheduled with them a time to hang out, and my neighbourhood isnt bad. Yes there’s gun violence around here, but its… florida… of course there is. she thinks its some big dangerous neighbourhood bc its a predominantly black neighbourhood and shes racist as hell. this neighbourhood isnt more, or less dangerous than any other neighbourhood in my city. plus…… she tries to use ‘karmas a bitch’ at me as if i haven’t told her many times that i dont believe in karma. i believe in consequences to your actions. good & bad is subjective (in non-extreme cases), this situation specifically- i think shes awful and she thinks im awful. Does that mean we both get bad karma? no. it doesnt make sense. karma would only make sense for r^pists and ped0s and m^rderers and ab*sers. People like that.

I hope she figures out how to treat people who are different than her. she gets in this “i can fix them” mindset and then gets mad when they dont accept her “help”. She would always tell me how she. only wanted to help me, but anytime i came to her with my issues, i got ridiculed, questioned, ignored, and made fun of. I told her about my deep, personal shit and i was met with her asking me the most vile, invasive questions ive ever gotten about that issue in my entire life. i told her about something as silly as my water heater breaking and the maintenance man freaking out about it because it was so aggressively dangerous and unsafe to even keep turned on and i had to get an emergency replacement because of it- i told her about that and she didnt even acknowledge it, she just said “damn, anyway did you listen to my voice memos”

also she wants to claim i dropped off and never checked in with her…. i just moved into a place oN MY OWN *one month ago*. ONE MONTH AGO. I ***JUST*** GOT SETTLED IN THIS PLACE THIS WEEK. Im finally getting used to handling cleaning and cooking for myself every day, and im getting used to being alone and finally getting over my nighttime paranoia and im dealing with a lot of trauma stuff that i clearly cant go to her with- and shes gonna accuse me of just dropping off because i didnt talk to her for a couple of weeks, when i have friends i can, and HAVE dropped off from for YEARS and we picked back up chatting like nothing ever happened.

Biggest example is this guy i was friends with in 2020, one day i just quit replying, and he did the same, and i just reached out to him literally 3 days ago and he still refers to me as his friend and we were chatting and talking shit with each other, and he told me about how he still plays music and hes been putting most of his energy into that. Same with a different guy, we didnt talk for a year and now we’re updating each other on our lives and chatting again, and he told me all about how hes visiting his girlfriend in a week and im really excited for him, especially bc theyre moving in together next year. and yet she couldnt handle 2 fucking weeks while i was adjusting to living alone and unpacking by myself and trying to take care of myself during this really big adjustment?

she also tried to tell me that my ex friends told her about how im such a liar and how im so selfish and i asked her to tell me what i have lied about, because she has a history of just calling me names (ableist, a liar, a manipulator, etc) just because she “Wants to piss me off” and she “doesnt actually believe that”, because ive called her out on calling me names before and i would say ‘show me how im being X’ and then later id call her out and say ‘idk why you said this, you never told me how i was being xyz’ and she’d say “oh well i dont actually think that, i was just mad” so i plan to tell those ex friends shes so close with that she either lied about them, or threw them under the bus :) either way, shes about to meet her “karma” aka: consequences to her own actions. once i get my laptop back from them and pay them back, im telling them about her either lying on their name or throwing them under the bus so they know shes a rat. idk why she would use their names tbh lmao, considering her and i were actively fighting.

call me petty, but id wanna know if my friends were throwing me under the bus.

i dont need her. i dont need anyone like that in my life. i dont want to be friends with people who will spin false narratives about me because im taking care of myself, or lying out of self preservation because you make me feel unsafe. i dont want to be friends with people who dont make me feel good. ive had enough of those. i didnt even let my family treat me poorly, what makes you think im gonna let random people treat me badly.

anyway, its 4am and i want to get in the shower, my stomachs feeling a little better, and maybe now that ive written about this, ill shut the fuck up about it. i keep talking to a friend of mine a bout it and im sure ive annoyed the absolute fuck out of them (though they agree with me and ive told them everything ive written here)

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dr4kenlvr · 2 years

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𝙬𝙖𝙠𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙪𝙥 𝙣𝙚𝙭𝙩 𝙩𝙤 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙩𝙤𝙠𝙮𝙤 𝙧𝙚𝙫𝙚𝙣𝙜𝙚𝙧𝙨 𝙗𝙤𝙮𝙨

a/n: i did these with the aot scouts and warriors. these are fun to write and i want to wake up next to draken okay anyways enjoy please

part 1 / part 2 / …

MIKEY: he wakes up with no knowledge of what time or day of the week it is. is a complete baby in the morning and can't seem to function properly. you're more than likely to be up before him, so it's up to you to now wake him up. resembles a cat when he whines "mm no baby, 5 more.. more minutes." and pushes his face into your neck before he starts to snore again. he's more than likely to be clingling onto you too. when he finally gets up, his hair will be a mess and his eyes will barely open. often tells you that the only way to wake him up is with a kiss (pls give him one).

DRAKEN: (this is all i want in life) you awake to the feeling of two protective arms wrapped tightly around you. draken does this every night, unconsiously or not— you're going to wake up to his arms around you and his chin propped atop your head. sometimes he wakes first, if so, he'll be careful when manuvering himself to not distract you. when he feels like you two should get up, he tends to rub gentle circles on your skin to coax you up. gruff "'mornin"s and soft "sleep well hm?"s. loves loves loves seeing you in the morning, thinks you look amazing despite your futile protests.

BAJI: this guy snores like a father and always has his leg thrown over your stomach no matter what position he fell asleep in, so yeah, you're waking up first. he likes to sleep with your head on top of his arm, so he can wrap it around you. that way, you can't leave or else "you'll wake me up, and that's like dangerous territory babe." he's such a dork i hate him. despite his hold on you, you're able to turn your face over to face him; peppering kisses over his jaw and cheeks until he groggily wakes. "nngh, hu-h? what? oh, well good morning to you too," - before he grabs your face and kisses you right back (makes fun of your morning breath ok bye next)

CHIFUYU: i feel like he sleeps the most normal of them all. so it varies who wakes first between you two: sometimes him, sometimes you, sometimes simultaneously. and unlike baji, he's quite modest with sleeping positions so you won't wake up with a massive weight on top of you. instead, you'll stir from the prickling sensation of peke j rubbing his fur all over you and chifuyu. "shit peke j stop! y/n's still sleeping!" cue chifuyu climbing over you to get peke j on his side, thus waking you up in the process. "ah shit, sorry.." but he gives you a sweet good morning kiss to make up for it. rest assured he's too cute, you could never be mad at him for long.

TAKEMITCHI: baji 2.0 LMAO he sleeps like a rock too. when you stir awake, you 90% of the time find him fallen half-off the bed, yet still dead asleep. it's a funny habit he has and you never forget to snap a quick shot of him in such a position (you have a folder in your gallery and it's got over 20 pics). when you yank him up, he jolts awake and immediately asks "H-HUH? A-ARE YOU OKAY Y/N?" mf thought something happened to you (how sweet), but he's embarrased all over again when you show him the photo of his glamourous drool-stained face.

MITSUYA: on more occasions than one, you'll awake alone in mitsuya's bed. no, not because he abandoned you; he wouldn't dream of it— but because he had to take care of something for his siblings. whether that's prepping their school lunches, breakfast, a morning bath, or helping them with their hair (or all tbh). right after though, mitsuya will make his way back to you and gently wheedle you up so that the two of you can enjoy a nice, fulfilling breakfast together. sometimes though, he'll give into his temptations and fall right back into bed with you. he'll get comfortable once again and fall asleep for another half hour to the sound of your quiet breathing.

taglist: @dai-tsukki-desu @faetarou @eriskaitto @kazuhoya (send an ask or dm to be added <3)

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astro-chisme · 3 years

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Sex with Mars Signs

1. Aries - good toxic sex. Everything is done well but only for their ego. Has minimal interest in cuddling if they aren’t in love with you. Doesn’t have the patience to lead you on, so will not talk to you after sex if they aren’t interested as it’s more fun to find a new one anyway. Flirts by giving you shit, turning everything into a game (and taking it way too personally when they win, but gracefully if they lose), and fucking on the first date

2. Taurus - thinks licking honey or peanut butter off of you sounds fun. Will literally devour you if they’re attracted, but you may feel like you were purchased by them to be enjoyed. You probably won’t mind. Cuddling is an excuse to touch you in other places. IMO most likely to be a misogynist, will be very old fashioned in pursuit and want you to dress either masc or femme to appreciate the full visual

3. Gemini - talkers! Cuddling is whatever. Will just talk straight shit the entire time; prepare to know their dirtiest thoughts while their hands work you or themselves. They’re not toxic, they’re just not into you. Their sin is they’re too busy intellectualizing their emotions that they, too, are also not sure why they’re playing games - or they’re very aware, which you won’t know but their friends will. A consistent memelord if interested in more, expect political commentary and sharing books as flirting

4. Cancer - hope you love head, cuddling, quiet missionary, and talking about your childhoods and watching old reruns in bed afterwards. Will assume you’re dating afterwards or at least will apply for the position. They flirt by folding your laundry while you’re at work and finding art that reminds them of you

5. Virgo - thorough and perfect technique. Does not open up so much as show you their feelings with their technique. Will pick little spoon position in hopes you like them but will stop once secure. Pretty sure you have to gently guide these folks if you want more

6. Leo - showy! Sex is only kinky if you make it theatrical with them. Would totally film a porno with you but would take it so seriously lmao - buy them a ring light to introduce the idea. Cuddling is a chance to show off how much they spoil you. Will put on a romantic performance if they’re into you

7. Libra - afraid of not looking pretty when they finish, has a hard time relaxing into things. Can be convinced to relax. Cuddling is only happening if you pass the ✨v i b e c h e c k✨ Would be super into a reciprocal home spa day as a 3rd date.

8. Scorpio - sex is the only time they’re self-assured and confident. Shy and awkward and socially clumsy in the streets, know how to seduce you also in the streets. Can make you wet with just a look, it’s pretty wild. Loves loves loves cuddling, hates hates hates asking for it. Will like to observe you from afar, won’t admit to this if they’re able. Is *shy* anxious and a little weird af. Their first move is to sting the threat making them feel anxious, but tbh this always backfires on them pretty much immediately. Instinctively seduces, will try to make the first move but it WILL be clumsy and awkward

9. Sagittarius - build a blanket fort in their bedroom and fuck them in it. Get high and go to the bookstore and come back and bang them again in the blanket fort. Get rid of the bed frame and turn your bedroom into a giant secret fort with the mattress having a tent over it. Loves the idea of cuddling but won’t be super into it. Wants to fall asleep talking to you, otherwise please leave lmao

10. Capricorn - loves cuddling. Probably more into gender swapping than comfortable admitting. If they see you as put together, they’ll carry a torch for you forever. Sex is a job, your pleasure is a job, and they want to do all jobs well. Amazing in bed because their pride is on the line if they can’t take care of you. Arrogant and uncompromising but my god the sex. Will be very formal in their pursuit (and cheap until they’re sure it’s mutual and serious, Jesus Christ).

11. Aquarius - exploratory sex. Wants to cuddle if they’re obsessed with you, otherwise indifferent. Will obsess over every sensation until they’ve figured each sensation out, but will never be satisfied and insist on larger data sampling. Will talk about existentialist ideas in the middle of the act but it’s foreplay. If they want more they’re just always around and don’t make you wait, which is better than roses imo. If they find you amusing they ✨🍄a d o r e🍄✨ you

12. Pisces - bottoms. Loves cuddling. Throw them down and rough and gag them and do things with them they never thought they’d allow but here they are begging for it. Romantic to the extent of never seeing you as an individual. Easiest to be toxic because they really don’t see it: Is totally content to make up your whole relationship together in their head and can’t compute their false reality apart from actuality. Really fun in bed though lol

#astrology #aries #taurus #cancer #virgo #Libra #Scorpio #Sagittarius #Gemini #Capricorn #Aquarius #Pisces #mars in astrology #astrology sex #love #sex with the signs #sex with Mars in #Mars sexuality

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meltwonu · 2 years

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| 𝖓𝖊𝖔𝖓 𝖉𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖒 | CHAPTER 10

pairing; camboy!seokmin x female!reader

this chapter’s notes; camboy!au, university!au, camshows, camboy!seokmin, dom!seokmin, (mutual)masturbation, sex toys, mentions of exhibitionism, dirty talk, sending of dirty photos/audios. Omg WE ARE BACK YET AGAIN!!😮‍💨😭 The last chapter for Neon Dream was in Nov right before I went to those bts concerts and then the rest of dec went to shit lmao ☠️ Altho January is kinda pickin up where dec left off in the shit zone so y’know, it is what it is lol… 😗🥲 Anyway, thank you so much for your patience and support with Neon Dream, I’ve very excited to get back into it! I know this chapter went up a day late and I am too sorry for that too, I had some business to attend unfortunately 😭 Thank you all for always putting up with my bullshit lmao... 😭💕 Enjoy ch10! And have a lovely rest of your weekend! 💕

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You’re nervous.

So much so that even Seokmin is concerned.

“Hey… Should we cut the fitting short, you look so… Preoccupied? I’m worried.”

His eyebrows furrow and his eyes are filled with concern as you kneel in front of him – shaky hands holding a needle in one hand and thread in the other as you gulp.

“H–huh? N–no, it’s okay, sorry I’ve just–just had a lot on my mind. We’ve been so b-busy with musical stuff so I feel like I’m just not, um, g-getting a lot of sleep, that’s all. It’s making me jittery, I think.”

You laugh nervously as Seokmin bites the inside of his cheek, nodding as he stares off into the mirror.

“If you need a break, just let me know, okay? I know it’s a lot of work but we’re allowed breaks too, y’know?” He laughs lightly under his breath – the action calming you a little as you join him.

“I know, it’s honestly not really hard work either, I think my brain is just always somewhere else lately. Or really, no where at all.”

“D’you wanna talk about it?”

You thread the needle, sighing as you start to hem one of the pant legs as Seokmin does his best to stand still.

“I mean, it’s just, I dunno – I think it’s just stress.” You sum it up as simply as you can; somewhat embarrassed to say any more than that knowing that a lot of your real frustrations lately were mostly sexual in nature.

“Like, from school? Or…?”

Seokmin peers down, eyeing the back of your head as you lean down to sew.

“I–I guess so… You know how it is.”

He nods gently, laughing as he remembers his debt to Jihoon being the cause of most of his stresses.

“Yeah, I–I get you. I’ve been thinking about quitting some of my part time jobs, it’s kind of getting to be too much and I’ve already missed so many shifts with all the musical rehearsals and stuff. Kinda feels pointless, y’know? To have them rely on me and I can’t show up.”

His cheeks burn knowing that half of that was a lie – but he doesn’t say more in fear of exposing himself.

Except it’s already too late.

“I thought you owed Jihoon for vocal lessons? And weren’t your extra jobs for rent bills ‘n stuff?? How are you gonna afford it, Seokmin? Did you get a new job?”

In a panic, he shifts slightly, almost kicking you as you yelp and fall backwards onto your ass on the carpeted floor.

“Fuck! I’m so sorry, hold on,” He helps you up and makes sure you’re okay, “Sorry, I’m so clumsy, I shouldn’t have moved like that when you’re literally holding a needle!”

You shake your head, giggling as you put the needle away for now; Seokmin being secretly glad that his little ‘fuck up’ seemed to have distracted you from the answer you were looking for, only moments prior.

“It’s okay, let’s take that break real quick, huh? And then I can finish hemming your pants and we can get out of here early.”

“Sounds good!”

But when you’re by yourself is the hardest part – being left to your own thoughts and imagination when you laze around in bed, in and out of sleep.

You hadn’t posted any more anonymous photos of yourself and you’d actually been too scared to listen to Dokyeom’s last stream in fear that he might’ve found out who you were.

It’d been a few days since your fitting with Seokmin and he’d been too busy with his vocal lessons and actual musical rehearsals to meet up with you – even going so far as to postpone a fitting session with you in favour of more vocal rehearsals.

But two things had come from that.

You’d realized that you were starting to really, really miss being around Seokmin.

And also that you couldn’t function without Dokyeom’s audio streams to get you off.

“This is so stupid…!” You scream into your pillow; legs thrashing wildly against your bed as you groan.

You had a real attraction to Seokmin and an obsessive fixation to a voice who apparently belonged to someone on campus – someone who could be anyone out of thousands.

“Maybe I can… Find out who he is... Get him to tell me so I can get over this...” Mumbling, you sit up, eyeing your laptop as you drag it closer.

“Yeah, yeah, maybe this will work…”

You load up Dokyeom’s chat window in a hurried panic; quickly making a decision before you completely regret it.

‘Hey, this is going to sound crazy but… In that one audio stream you did… The picture you were talking about was me. I just wanted to let you know.’

Dokyeom doesn’t respond for hours.

And you convince yourself that you’ve fucked up whatever it was you had with him. But you tell yourself you can then just focus on Seokmin instead; laughing maniacally to yourself as you sat in front of your laptop.

“It’s fine, it’s fine – Maybe this is better for me since I—”

*ping*

Your breath hitches – cheeks warm as your laptop screen lights up with multiple message notifications.

Dokyeom: Oh?

Dokyeom: Is that so?

Dokyeom: You know I’m going to need proof of that right?

Your mouth hangs open, unsure of what to do next.

You genuinely hadn’t thought about what you’d do if he actually responded.

Dokyeom: Sorry I didn’t reply sooner

Dokyeom: I was at work~

“Oh, f–fuck, wait, wait, wait…”

You scramble off of your bed as your eyes dart around your room; you could take a picture of the pink dildo that was in your photo as proof but you had to make sure nothing else in the photo had anything distinguishable.

“Okay, just—just one photo…”

Seokmin waits patiently as he twiddles his thumbs.

This meant a few things to him.

Mostly that he had a chance in meeting whoever ‘b@d_dream’ was and that they were closer to him than he ever thought.

‘I do want to meet her,’ He thinks to himself – cheeks warm with the thoughts of actually meeting the person who’d been able to help him find his confidence.

b@d_dream: [attached image]

b@d_dream: is this proof enough?

b@d_dream: or do you need more?

Seokmin clicks on the photo, eyes wide as saucers as he takes it in.

It was the same pink dildo and the same bra with the same purple and blue butterfly charm in the middle.

The same one that made Seokmin cum hard thinking about.

Dokyeom: Hmmm…

Dokyeom: Maybe… Can you send me a little more?

Dokyeom: I’ll reward you too~

Your body buzzes with electricity as you snap photo after photo for Dokyeom – adrenaline making you hurriedly put the lingerie set back on before easing onto the bed with your toy.

You snap a photo between your legs; the toy sitting right against your clothed mound much like it’d been in the photo and you check to make sure your face isn’t visible in it before you send it off.

“Oookay, deep breath, deep breath, what’s the worst that can happen?” You giggle nervously as shivers roll down your spine with the toy resting against your warmed skin.

And it takes a second for Dokyeom to respond back but when he does, it’s with an attached voice message that you weren’t expecting.

‘Hmm, oh my~ It seems like I’ve found my ‘lil princess after all, huh? What were the chances, sweetheart? Hah, you’ve gotten my cock so hard with these pictures… What do you think we should do about that, hmm? I’ve been thinking about you so much~’

You let out a mewl as you replay the audio – fingertips reaching for the toy while simultaneously trying to push your panties to the side.

You’re already embarrassingly wet when you glide the toy through your folds; soft cries on your lips at the desire to already slide it into your needy cunt. But you try to hold back as you snap photos of the toy glistening with your wetness – the images more revealing than anything you’d ever sent to anyone.

b@d_dream: [attached image]

Dokyeom: [attached voice note]

‘Oh? Already wet too? Tsk, what’s going on in that head of yours, huh? ‘Cause I’ll tell you what’s going on in mine’

There’s a moment of him shuffling around; the sheets rustling as he gets comfortable before you hear his long drawn out moans filling up the air.

‘I’m thinking about how good it’d feel to fuck you on campus now that I know we go to the same one – in one of the rooms where it’s just you and me, sweetheart~ How cute you’d be bent over one of the lecture hall tables with my cock deep inside that hot ‘lil pussy of yours… Fuck, I couldn’t stop thinking about that photo.’

Your breath hitches as you max out the volume to hear the slicked noises of Dokyeom’s hand sliding up and down his cock. He was touching himself too.

“Mmngh, D–Dokyeom…”

‘Mm, how cute it’d be with you trying to keep your voice down while I pound your ‘lil cunt… You wouldn’t want someone to catch us, would you? Or maybe you want someone to see how good you fuckin’ take it~ How your body jerks against the table when I’m fucking you good~’

Impatience gets the best of you as you make sure the dildo is thoroughly wet before you position it at your entrance – head thrown back when it meets no resistance when it slides right into your wet cunt.

Your shaky hand reaches for your phone again as you start to thrust the toy in and out with your other hand; the photos a little blurry when you send them to Dokyeom.

“Please, please, please…”

The two of you continue to exchange videos and messages as you get off together and Seokmin’s hand tightens around his cock; hips thrusting up into his enclosed fist as he stares at the multitude of photos you’ve sent.

The pictures of your pussy stretched around the thick dildo making his head spin.

He’d never done anything like this but the excitement was almost enough to make him cum.

“God–fucking–damn it…” Groaning, he imagines it’s his cock instead when he hits the record button on his phone.

“Mm, so you can take all of that toy inside your pussy, hmm? That means you’ll be good ‘n ready to take my cock too – after I make you cum with that toy~ Ah, sweetheart, you’re making it so hard to not cum… I wanna get you so dirty with my cum inside and on your pretty ‘lil cunt...”

His eyebrows furrow as precum leaks from the tip of his cock; his grip tightening when he starts to feel it start to throb.

“Ngh, please tell me you’re close too?”

You let out a cry as the dildo grazes your g-spot; your fingers sticky and wet from how much you’d been thrusting the toy in and out imagining it was Dokyeom’s cock instead.

b@d_dream: cklo s e….

Your eyes flutter shut imagining the scenario he’d fantasized about – toes curling at the idea of being fucked in such a public space with your panties just pushed to the side when he made you cum.

“Oh, mmnh, p-please… I need to, a-ah, cum so bad… I w-want it inside...”

Your walls tighten around the toy and you see one last voice message from Dokyeom as your shaky hand hits play.

‘Then cum. Right now.’

Crying out, you hastily open the camera app one last time before the pleasure washes over you completely and your back is arching off of the bed sheets – incoherent garbles rolling off of your tongue as you finally ride out your high.

“Oh?”

It takes Seokmin by surprise at the 8 second video you send him.

Eyes wide as saucers at the silent video that only shows the toy thrusting into your pussy all the way up to the base – the clip enough to send him tumbling over the edge of an orgasm as rivulets of cum paint his torso and his hand.

“Fuck! Fuck!”

It replays on his phone screen over and over as he rides out his pleasure and he goes so far as to time the movements of his hand to match the way the toy thrusts into you so that he, too, can imagine it’s his cock fucking you instead of the toy.

Seokmin rides out his high as sweat slides down his forehead, unsureness making him groan as he peers down at his phone.

What now?

b@d_dream is typing…

b@d_dream: I

b@d_dream: sorry i have to go

b@d_dream: i have an important meeting tomorrow so i have to go but

b@d_dream: can we talk about this next time? I promise

Seokmin laughs under his breath, nodding off with his hand still loosely wrapped around his cock.

Dokyeom: you owe me an explanation next time, okay, sweetheart?

Dokyeom: you can’t run from me forever~

#seokmin smut #dokyeom smut #seventeen smut #svt smut #seokmin scenarios #seokmin imagines #seventeen imagines #svt imagines #svt scenarios #seventeen scenarios #dokyeom imagines #dokyeom scenarios #seokmin #dokyeom

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directdogman · 2 years

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If each of the datables had a music taste, what would it be?

someone asked that recently and I answered! though, it's likely buried + it's a fun question anyway, so here's my previous answer:

"ok, this is a fun question. Alright. this isn’t necessarily canon (bc i don’t own the rights to admit any of these artists exist in dt’s universe lmao) but this is how I see it for the characters who jump out at me: 1. Randy likely listens listens to my chemical romance, linkin park, green day. sorry. 2. Karen’s harder to nail down. i could see her liking exactly 1/3 of the beatles catalogue (and insistently only that 1/3). she’d likely have an artist that she’s embarrassed about liking who she also knows everything about, which she ofc plays down. maybe george formby or Tiny Tim? Probably secretly Abba/Elton John too, knowing her (100% bet her and Oliver would bond over this) 3. Oliver 100% listens to david bowie + they might be giants. no way he doesn’t listen to both, c'mon. 4. bigfoot is unsure what music is, probably. if you gave bigfoot airpods, you’d probably find him hiding under your bed clawing at his earholes, trying to stop the logan paul diss track or perhaps Ray William’s Johnson’s classic, Doin’ Yer Mom that you (presumably as gingi) are forcing him to listen to. 5. norm 100% listens to dean martin and especially marty robbins. i couldn’t see him not listening to both, esp the latter. hell, i’ll go as far as saying: if it’s on Fallout New Vegas’ soundtrack, Norm’d listen to it. Oh. And Johnny Cash. Obviously. 6. i bet god listens to frank sinatra. anything by frank associated with joker 2019 (that’s life, send in the clowns) would likely be in the running for his favourite song. 7. Stabby + Shooty likely listen to avant-garde jazz. p much any jazz’d be right up their alley, im sure. glenn miller’d likely be a favourite of theirs. 8. Billy listens to harsh noise. Probably Swans. 9. I think Mingus’ favourite singer would be Vera Lynn, 100%. I think she’d like Doris Day and Skeeter Davis too."

Alright, that about does it, I think! (with a few extras thrown in for good measure.) Enjoy! :)

#dialtown

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levithestripper · 2 years

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Modern AU! VDL Gang Headcanons

✩ Masterlist! ✩

✩ Warnings: None! ✩

✩ Taglist: @reddeadrevolutionn, @floup-doodles, @mesangelique, @the-1-sin-bin, @mrsarthurmorgan7, @orphangrinder187✩

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✩ A/N: okay i've scoured my blog up and down and i couldn't find this?? i posted it on ao3 but not tumblr a month ago???? if this is a repost tell me but i don't think i've posted these here before lol ✩

If Arthur had access to today’s music and entertainment, he’d unironically really enjoy traditionally ‘girly’ pop music. No, he doesn’t give a shit what anyone has to say about his music taste. He enjoys what he enjoys, and he’s not ashamed about it.

He absolutely loves old TV shows. Every day like clockwork, he sits in front of the TV at 5:00 to watch Adam-12 and watches until M*A*S*H is over at 8 pm. He skips Happy Days, though. He thinks that show sucks ass. Sometimes Hosea joins him too. Just two old men, watching old man shows.

Continuing on the train of Old Man Things™ Arthur does, he falls asleep slouched over on the couch. A book still open in his hands, the TV still on, and Arthur’s out fucking cold.

He has a Doberman that he adopted from the local animal shelter. Every morning, Arthur takes him out for a walk before work, a walk when he gets home and one late at night before bed.

Arthur spends more time at Dutch and Hosea’s house than he does at his own apartment. He can’t help it; he misses them too much if he’s away for too long. ‘Specially Hosea. Whenever he comes home, Hosea just wraps him up in a warm hug that makes Arthur melt. It’s not every day Arthur gets a hug from the one and only Hosea Matthews.

Okay, I’ll be honest with ya’. The first thing that came to my mind when thinking of modern Bill; was him moonlighting as a Drag Queen. I’m just gonna leave that there lmao.

But anyways, Bill would definitely be really into fantasy shows and other nerd shit like that. It was Kieran that got him into it, too. Bill, being the gay disaster that he is, immediately accepted Kieran’s invitation to join him at a D&D campaign he was hosting. It only hit Bill after the fact that he had absolutely no idea how to play D&D. Like at all. He was too caught up in staring at Kieran’s cute, blushy face for anything Kieran said to process. Let’s just say that watching Bill flounder as he tried to keep up with the campaign made Kieran fall for him even harder.

Charles takes pottery classes at a local art studio in town. It’s mostly filled with single moms taking their kids to dance classes or the other art classes the studio offered. Charles could feel the stares the women gave him while he worked the clay on his pottery wheel. His hair is always pulled back and tied up into a sloppy bun or a half-assed ponytail. He used to keep it down, but clay got stuck in the ends, and it was almost impossible to get out. Charles ended up having to cut an inch or two of hair off after his first class.

When he’s not making art, you’ll usually find him playing video games or volunteering somewhere. Usually, it’s either the shelter or the zoo. Charles genuinely enjoys handing out with all the different kinds of animals there; they all seem to really like him.

Javier owns his own boutique that bordered the town square. It wasn’t the biggest store, but he had everything you could ever want and more in stock. He loves working around Halloween since that’s when all of the little kids came in to look around for costumes. All of the kids are so nice, and if they need it, he’ll help them pick out the perfect outfit. Seeing the smiles his clothes brought to other people is what makes running his own business worth it.

On his days off, Javier’ll be drawing new clothing designs in his sketchbook, or he’ll be taking a nap on the couch. After Lenny’s done with his own shift at the boutique, he’ll sometimes stay over at Javier’s and makes dinner for them both.

Poor Johnny Marston is a college dropout. He originally went just ‘cause Arthur went, and he wanted to be just like his big brother, but when he got there it was nothing like he imagined it be. John was ashamed of himself at first, refusing to tell Hosea or Dutch about what he did. They both were paying so much to send him there! John wouldn’t be able to handle Hosea being disappointed in him. Dutch, he could deal with, but making Hosea upset with him is something John would never do.

When John did end up telling them, neither Dutch nor Hosea was disappointed. They didn’t even seem upset, surprisingly enough. They both pulled John into a big group hug; even Arthur joined in this time. John and Hosea were the shortest out of the four, so they were snuggled in the middle while Dutch and Arthur held everyone close between them.

Even though Arthur teases the hell out of him and vise versa, every once in a while, he has to tell John just how much he loves him. John really couldn’t ask for a better brother.

Kieran is a textbook gay kid. He’s only ever had two jobs, one at a bakery; and the other at a florist’s shop. Funny enough, he met Bill during a shift at the bakery he worked at. Kieran was in the middle of frosting cupcakes when Bill rushed inside, clearly late for something important. The sudden entrance caused Kieran to yelp and mess up the cupcake he was working on, smudging the once perfect frosting. It was obvious how bad poor Bill felt when he saw the damage he caused, so he bought a dozen donuts instead of only one like he had planned on.

It almost became a tradition after that. Bill always seemed to be late for work or some prior arrangement, and Kieran always had a box chock-full of the man’s favorite donuts ready for him. Neither of them was confident enough to grow balls and ask the other out, but when someone asked them how long they’d been dating, they both realized how much the other was just as emotionally constipated. Like a ‘holy fuck, you’re gay too??!!?’ moment, combined with an ‘I want to kiss the hell out of your pretty face’ moment if that makes sense.

Lenny works at Javier’s boutique full time while attending the local college, studying to become an english teacher. It was the best of both worlds, he gets to hang out with his best friend all day, and he gets paid enough to live comfortably while putting himself through school.

I’m sorry, but I can’t not see Lenny being this universe’s version of lil nas x. Maybe not as famous as lil nas, but he definitely still has his style and makes/enjoys that genre of music. And you can’t forget the gay part. (arguably the best part, but I digress).

If you think Mary-Beth works anywhere but a library/bookstore, you’re wrong. Incredibly wrong. She lives there. You have to convince her not to spend her entire paycheck at the second-hand shop the library has on weekends. Seriously, it’s almost impossible to keep her from thrift shops and other flea market like events. If she’s not buying hundreds of knickknacks, she’s baking. I’m tellin’ you; she’s the perfect package!! I’m this close to marrying her on the spot. Mary-Beth’s food is to die for, regardless of what it is. Brownies, cookies, cake? Divine. Omelets, french toast, steak, BBQ ribs? Heavenly. I swear, I’m gonna marry her, so help me god-

In general, Mary-Beth is just the sweetest person alive. She doesn’t care who you are to her; if you’re her friend, you’re getting hugs and kisses and are taking midday naps together. And don’t you dare assume that she always wants to be the little spoon! She likes to hold you close just as much as she likes being the one held.

Micah likes to pretend he’s a bad boy greaser from the ’50s, wearing a leather jacket and riding a showy motorcycle. Don’t get me wrong, he looks hot as fuck dressed like that, but he thinks he’s intimidating, and it’s hilarious to watch.

Good ‘ole Sean MacGuire is a bass guitarist/drummer for a band he joined in high school. They’re still a garage band, not yet making it big, but he’s confident that he’ll be rocking out on a big stage in front of millions of people one day. Sean wears one of those thick cloth headbands that people will wear when working out when he performs. Why? ‘Cause Sean thinks it makes him look hot, and it really did do a good job at keeping the sweat out of his eyes. It’s almost concerning how much he sweats, though, like really. After a couple of hours of practice, Sean looks like he took a bath in his clothes. He’s like a walking shower with an Irish accent haunting it.

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Memories 2016 Discs 1 - 2

So I asked awhile ago when I said I was going back to watch every memories DVD they have released so far, if you would be interested in commentary from me as I did so. There were a lot of people who said yes, so here we are! I have officially watched BTS Memories of 2016. Here are my thoughts as I went. There were only 4 DVDs in this one. Reminder that these aren't going to be smoothly written out thoughts. You get these like I'm live reacting, texting my bestie or live tweeting. Lol it'll be in like bullet point format sort of, just... a commentary post as I go. Lol Hope you enjoy anyway! Let's go!

Disc 1:

BTS 2nd Muster DVD:

The 2nd Muster was originally supposed to be held in July of 2015, normal time frames for their musters, but the show got canceled because of the MERS outbreak. So it was rescheduled and finally happened on 160124 instead and kicked off the year 2016 for us! The full title of the Muster was "BTS Second Muster: Zip Code: 22920." There were 2 shows on the same day with the same set list but different games played throughout the show in between songs. The show in this DVD was the 2nd show of the day, the one in the evening.

Track List:

1. Just One Day

2. Like

3. Boy in Luv

4. Dope

5. I Need U

6. Silver Spoon

7. Boyz with Fun

8. Run

Opening the show up with Just One Day and Like was so beautiful. Jin with a rose is a concept that should NEVER die. He looks so beautiful. Yoongis rap during Like always takes me OUT, especially when he really gets into it. And omg we don't get to see the choreo for like very often and it's soo good. I miss it! So smooth! Army singing too 🥺 ugh I love it

They had a guest come to be an MC and wow so much energy after their super cute introductions to ARMY. His name was MC Dingdong. Lol JK introduced himself by saying body of an adult, brain of a minor. Lmao and the MC also brought up that JK is now an adult. The new year has passed and it's 2016, Jungkookies coming of age year! The theme of the concert is obviously housewarming party. It's cute and funny!

The MC calling RM up to do a dance saying he is the dancer of BTS and him dragging Jimin up with him, refusing to let go until Jimin is for sure standing up there to dance with him too 😂 my minimoni heart 💜

They also play a game where a member shares concerns they may have and people have to guess which member has that concern. The first concern is from Jin who shares that before he can even get to his own bed, Jungkook always steals his bed and is in it snoring first. Lmao JK says it's because YoonJins room has nice beds and carpet. 😂 Jin then also tells us that JK sleeps wearing common clothes and Suga sleeps in just his boxers with cute bears on them. Cool, THANKS for that information. 🤣 and the way that JK and Sugas complaints were about each other. Lmao JK was concerned about Suga not cleaning up after himself after removing his makeup. Suga was concerned about going broke after spending so much money because JK eats so much food when they go out for lamb skewers together so much together and with Hobi too. The hugging it out after the complaining was my favorite part, so sweet. Plus all the giggles!

The way we were watching the cringiest y/n dating videos they filmed for muster back in June of 2015 for their second anniversary with ARMY and they were all DYING of embarrassment but yet Jimin somehow made it better by dancing across the stage and singing Born Singer after his video. Bless you, Jimin.

Boy in Luv! Tae growling through that whole song will always be my favorite. He owns that song. Plus j-hope flying over everyone to start his rap and jikook harmonizing. Magical 🥰

And now they are playing bts penalty monopoly 🤣 oh goodness. Jimin, hobi and suga getting too invested in writing their names with their butts on stage, all 7 just really going for it 🤣 although idk what was happening with the wows and spankings from jihope at the end there too. Tae singing after inhaling helium and Suga impersonating JK. Namjoons ARMY poem. NamJin dancing to a medley of their songs at different speeds lol. Namjoon singing butterfly, Jin rapping Killer (although Tae 100% jumped in and helped and took over a bit with Kookie playing back up Rapper and hype man. Taekook biggest Cypher enthusiasts!), and everyone singing Miss Right but switching their parts up. Lmfao it was great. Rapline sang and vocal line rapped. And they ended it expressing their gratitude and love for each other and how hard the others parts were. Jimins "ugh, rappers thank you" sigh of relief at the end and Yoongis "wow Jimin I love you" after trying to sing his high notes 🤣 love to see the mutual appreciation for the others skills!

We said goodbye to the MC and went right into Dope and then I Need U (Namjoons voice and Jimins high note kill me and JKs jump), which they killed as always. And then into a skit: one day in ma city. I have absolutely no idea what the point of this skit was other than an apology for the Muster being late. Please don't ask me to explain it past that 😂 after this skit though, they came back to the stage in New outfits. They went from cute and cuddly to dangerous in black for a Baepsae performance. Whoever was in that front row for that one, I hope they survived!! And Hobi breaking it down at the end, ugh he is so cool. Boyz with fun will forever be one of my favorite performances. Sope hyping each other up every song too 😭 link to Jhope being the coolest ever during this song because I can't help it.

Disc 2:

MD & Poster Making Story:

They are all freezing their butts off but omg this is the most cozy and cute concept 🥰 and i adore the Units! The hyung trio, Vmon and Jikook, all paired perfectly! JK heckling Tae with vocals and trying to distract him during his solo shoot was super cute too. And the way he kept copying and teasing Jimin during their unit shoot. I love him

Jimin giggling and calling Namjoon cute as he does his best voice acting for the counting in the VCR skit for muster 🥺

The units all continued to be the same for the indoor shoot. Love it. Jungkook staring at Jimin dancing to butterfly, captions "Jungkook stares at lively Jimin." Lol Jimin telling us about how he used to read all these comics with his father, just to later get a scene of Jikook cuddled up together looking at the comics and Jimin explaining the story to JK so sweetly 🥺

Jin in those glasses and turtle neck is legit the perfect look. He looks AMAZING and is killing it. He wins at life and everything he does I swear. This was the most precious photoshoot. So cute. Jihope randomly doing isolations in perfect sync in the middle of the group shoot is so them. Just main dancers things. Joon is killing his denim jacket, hobi is the worlds cutest human. I don't know anyone who can pull off Overalls like Tae. And my bias line is dressed to perfection and are killing me! Tae grumbling through his teeth while not letting his smile slip at JinKook being too heavy as they lean their entire body weight on him during the group photo. Lmao top notch professionalism! And the cuddle pile at the end just might be my favorite. So cute!

Practice Making Story:

The members posing with their own cardboard cutouts is taking me OUT 😂🤣

Jhope giving an explaination over their script practice for muster to the camera, all serious and all you here in the background is screaming and yelling. Camera cuts to Jinkook wrestling and slapping each other while giggling like mad 😂🤣 omfg. Headlocks and thigh pinching and takedowns, no holding back! I admire the way Hobi can ignore them so completely and not be totally distracted lmao

Started a mess, but they got serious fast! They work so hard. All the stage directions, speech practice and choreo practice. And I love how we always get super cute hopekook cuddles in rehearsals as they watch their work back or listen to directions. 🥺

JK practically pushing Joon into the center to do Hobis Baepsae dance break during practice and then Jin doing it after too! Love the rest hyping them too! And who told Hobi it was okay to dress so good for practice 😭

I know they had more than enough chairs there for everyone, why did 3J do their ending mentions for the camera on top of each other?! 🤣 JK sitting on Jimins lap and Jimin sitting on Hobi's lap. We could barely see J-hope the whole time! But Jimins arms around JK keeping him on his lap carefully the whole time so he doesn't slip is making me soft

The Day Making Story:

The cringing over the dating videos is truly the only acceptable response 🤣🤣🤣 I'm so glad they never did that again 🙈😭🤣

Jin: "we are performing Baepsae for the fans without warning. It is our gift to them." BTS giving the gift of excessive hip thrusts and hard beats to their fans. Don't say they don't give you anything 🤣🤣 love it so much. And I'm positive everyone who was there did too 🙈 omg in the other show not on the DVD Jin did Hobi's dance break though! I'm so glad they included that in this Making Film because he KILLED IT 😂

Tae leaving the stage after the first concert and being unable to stop the smile from taking over his face as he talks about the huge reaction army had when they surprised them with Baepsae 😭 and then his so sweet "oh be careful" and steadying hand for the camera person when they almost tripped over something. Who is the best and why is it Tae? Protect him always 😭😭

Some of the guys doing an impromptu photoshoot backstage before the second show. Lmao and goodness, Jin has been wrecking me so hard during this Muster and all these Muster making films. This little pretend photoshoot? He didn't have to go so hard! I love how they have fun together!

Jimin: " we still have the encore stage. Keep your eyes on us till the end." That was the plan!!

Jimin crashing Sope's ending mentions with the camera, nodding along to their words and just adding a "love you" is such a mood. I Love HIM!! They are all so sweet

And that's it for the first 2 discs!! I'll make a part 2 and 3 for the last 2 discs of memories 2016 soon! I loved this all so much. I love seeing them have a blast with each and with ARMY. Disc 3 looks packed full of content, I'm already looking forward to it! Thank you for letting me share 💜

#my thoughts over memories dvds #my thoughts over memories 2016 #jikook in memories 2016 #jikook in 2016

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Obliviate | Draco Malfoy

M A S T E R L I S T Harry Potter Masterlist

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this is so sad. I’m sorryyyyy. also if you wanted to set the mood more, I listened to THIS while writing it. Please listen to it, it wont be the same without the song lmao

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Draco had thought back to every other time in his life where he had felt like this, and nothing came to mind. There wasn’t another second of his torturous life that felt like this. He tended to count his blessings where he had them, and you were a blessing in his life. One that he woke up every single day thanking God for, Draco isn’t sure he’d ever love anyone the way he loves you. But he knew from the start, that the two of you were doomed, two lovers caught on each side of the war. His Father in direct relation with the Dark Lord, and you- Harry Potter’s cousin. There was a target on your back from the second you got to Hogwarts all those years ago and when Draco had first met you- he didn’t understand just how much danger you were already in.

Nobody looked at Draco the way you did, nobody looked at him like he was worth saving. But when you looked at him, you saw something in him that he didn’t even see in himself. Draco believes that he was never a good person until he met you, and even then whether or not he was good is still up to debate. You inspire people to be better, to be good and if there is no good- you create it. You are a light in an everlasting darkness, and he doesn’t deserve you. But selfishly he wants to keep you- and he knows you’d never voluntarily leave him. He had to make the choice for you. You can’t stubbornly stand by his side if you don’t remember you’re in love with him.

The Black Lake looks darker than Draco remembered it being. The view he currently held from the astronomy tower was beautiful in it’s own way, but now that he held every memory you have of him in his hands- the beauty seemed to slip out of the world. Looking down at the small vial in his hands, the vial containing your memories of him, his bottom lip quivers. He can’t stand how emotional you make him, you make him feel both weak and strong at the same time. His hand curls around the vial, Draco knows this is what he needs to do. He never expected it to be this hard though.

Closing his eyes, Draco decided to take one last walk down memory lane before he would destroy your memories of him forever.

The first time you had met Draco was when you were stood on the steps next to your cousin, Harry. Draco was stood in front of you, and although his eyes were on Harry- the blush on his cheeks came from being so close to you. Draco had held his head high, even when you snapped at him and told him how wonderful you found Ron to be. Draco always admired your sharp tongue, your unwillingness to step down when you felt passionately about something. He’s going to miss being your voice of reason, or the hand that holds you back when you’re ready to literally fight for what you believe in. You always say what you’re really thinking, how you’re really feeling. That’s something Draco has never really had the strength to do. If he did he would have said he loved you more often, and perhaps would have told Harry that he doesn’t hate him.

Draco vividly remembers the first time you looked at him, and saw him in a way nobody else does. Not even Crabbe and Goyle. He was sat in the back corner of the Library, hiding away from everyone and everything after receiving yet another disappointed letter from his Father. You’d been gathering books to study for Potions when you spotted him sitting secluded, alone. You didn’t hesitate to go sit next to him, and when you looked over at him you saw every emotion he carefully hid from the world written plainly on his face. As if you had the only key to unlock the innermost parts of his brain. After a few minutes of gentle coaxing, Draco eventually began to open up to you about his Father and in return you opened up about your terrible parents. About how abusive they were to Harry- how much that hurt you. Draco hadn’t given it a second thought when you revealed you were muggle born. Really Draco didn’t mind, nor did it offend him in the way he acted it did but for his Father Draco must keep up appearances.

He still feels guilty remembering how you recoiled away from him when he had spat the word ‘mudblood’ in your direction. He feels guilty as he remembers the tears trickling down your cheeks. Even that feeling paled in comparison to the way Draco feels now.

Draco remembers the first time you kissed him, and yes much to his embarrassment it was you that kissed him. You always were someone who went after what you wanted. He was in the Hospital wing after Buckbeak attacked him. Despite him being the biggest prat you’d ever met, you still went to see him anyway. You sat next to Draco in the bed, seeing the tears well in his eyes at the revelation Buckbeak would be executed. Sure he was angry the stupid thing attacked him but never would he want Buckbeak killed for it. Draco wasn’t entirely surprised to learn his Father had threatened the committee in order for Buckbeak to be sentenced. It’s not Draco that his Father cared about, it’s the family image. You had cupped his cheeks, and gently pressed your lips to his. It was the only thing you could think to do to soothe him, and it worked. Draco melted against you, his sorrows briefly muted by the feeling of your lips on his own. He thinks he might have fallen in love with you right at that moment.

The first time you went to Hogsmeade with him was the following year, during the winter. Your cheeks were rosy and your hand was as cold as ice around his warmer palm. He remembers you squealing with excitement as it began to snow again, the soft flakes fluttering gently around you. You truly did look like an angel. The snow stuck to your hair as you turned to look at him, “make a snowman with me!” Your voice was lilted, almost melodic as the happiness you felt carried over into your tone. While Draco didn’t normally do silly things like making snowmen, he couldn’t fight the smile that split across his face as he helped you roll the bottom of the snowman. Before that moment, Draco never knew joy like that even existed. It was only later that he discovered that this kind of joy only existed when he was with you.

The first time the words ‘I love you’ graced the space between your lips was when you’d both met at the astronomy tower at midnight. The stars were twinkling beautifully, but even so Draco couldn’t keep his eyes off you. You blushed, refusing to meet his eye. You were always insecure, which baffled Draco immensely. How could you believe any other girl is anywhere close to being as pretty as you? There’s not another woman on the face of this Earth that compares to you, and you would often giggle and tell him to stop when he would begin his long ‘you’re the most beautiful girl’ rant. You had led Draco to believe, that maybe he and Harry could find peace. You were in fact, the only thing they had in common. The words fell right out of his mouth before he could pause to give them any thought. “I love you,” The air seemed to stiffen around him, crushing him as he watched you. You didn’t hesitate.

“I love you Draco.” It was the best moment of his life.

Draco will never forget the first time he was allowed to see the beauty of your bare skin. You’d think it would be easier to find places to be alone in this great big castle, eventually Draco had settled for the edge of the Black Lake- far from the castle. The journey out to the Lake had started innocently, the both of you quite enjoyed star gazing and spending your evenings together. You’d been sitting next to him, watching the large tentacles of the monster that lives in the Lake toss you things from the depths. You really did have a way in bringing out the good in everything, you’d even managed to befriend the monster that lives in the Lake. “Wow look at this,” your voice was quiet with amazement as you turned over a beautiful amulet in your hands. It was simple, silver chain with a white gem that shone as brightly as the moon. The Lake monster had given it to you, and Draco remembers the soft sigh that left your lips as his hands graced the back of your neck, fastening the amulet.

Draco remembers the delicate way you turned to face him, how your eyes never left his as you carefully slid onto his lap. Your hands were placed on his shoulders as your lips met in a slow and languid kiss. The searing heat built between you two and seemed to draw your most intimate parts together. Without realizing, you’d begun to gently grind against Draco- drawing out soft moans from his lips. Never before had Draco felt this kind of desire for another person. His hands slid up your back and carefully removed each layer of clothing that was in between him and your bare skin. Your skin was flushed as Draco’s lips explored your naked body, carefully turning you over so that he would hover above you. You gripped fistfuls of the grass as Draco had found his home in between your legs, laving your sensitive folds with his tongue and mouth. It felt like heaven, and he knew it did. He could see it on your face, and you looked so beautiful.

The desire burning inside you began to beat between your legs like a drum as you pulled Draco back up your body. Nuzzling his nose against yours, Draco slipped the head of his member in between your folds. The thought of hurting you made him feel sick to his stomach, but with a few gentle words of encouragement from you, he was gently working himself inside your tight heat. The feeling was incomparable, indescribable, suffocating, and intoxicating all at the same time. Draco knew that here on the grass, between your legs, was somewhere he wanted to be forever. If he could capture this moment in something more than his minds eye he would, he wants this memory to live forever. He rocked into you again and again, losing himself in the way your body felt against his. Never had Draco felt so connected to another person, you had him, mind body and soul. He was falling into that pit now, no doubt about it, and there was no way out. He was head over heels in love, not that he minded.

Draco would do anything to keep you safe, and he really means that.

Draco had grown distant from you this year, mostly because of the swirling black tattoo on his left forearm. The Dark Mark. He knew in an instant that you had to stay as far from him as humanly possible, and while he tried to stay away, he was weak and kept falling back into your embrace. He needed to convince you to stay away from him, and if he couldn’t...then he had to make you. You’d confronted him this evening, with tears in your eyes and a tremble in your hands. You wanted, needed, to know what was going on. Why he felt so far away from you. So Draco pressed a kiss to your forehead, took your hand, and led you here. To the Astronomy tower, a place where so many monumentous things happened between you. This would be the perfect place to say goodbye.

You staggered back when he lifted his sleeve. The breath was stolen from your lungs when you saw the Dark Mark, writhing and wriggling on his arm. Tears built in your eyes as you looked at him, his name falling past your broken lips. How could this have happened? How could he let this happen? You wanted to scream, to tear your hair out, to cry, to do anything but your body wouldn’t let you. You simply stood frozen before him, feeling as though the most powerful force in the world was tearing the two of you apart. The next words out of his mouth shattered you beyond repair.

“You need to stay away from me, for your own good. And for Harry’s.” It was the first time he’d ever used Harry’s first name, that’s how you knew he really meant this. But you couldn’t, you loved Draco with every ounce of your heart, how could you leave him? You shook your head vehemently, tears now free falling down your cheeks. “I-I can’t.” You gasped, watching a pained expression cross onto Draco’s face. He didn’t want to do this, he really didn’t want to do this but the thought of you getting tortured or killed by Voldemort replays in his mind. He couldn’t put you in danger, not for something so selfish, not because he loves you. It’s because he loves you that he’s willing to let you go, that he’s willing to make this sacrifice if it means keeping you safe.

When he turns to you again, his wand is raised and the look on his face is one you’ve never seen before. His hand is trembling, his eyes look hollow and his mouth is quivering. He looks desperate, he looks distraught, but most of all, he looks broken. “Draco,” You whisper, tears in your eyes as you look up at him, your hand finding the railing behind you. “You have to stay away from me.” Draco gasps, desperately fighting tears.

“Please don’t do this.” Your voice is weak, you know what’s coming next. You’re smart enough to connect the dots.

Draco’s hand wavers, “I have to.” His voice is final, but his body looks as though it’s falling apart. Thoughts of him facing what he must face, without your love, sends panic through your chest. He’ll have to endure the pain, the struggles, all of it, alone. You want to be there for him, you don’t care about the danger. Draco knows you don’t, that’s why he has to do this.

“Baby please, I love you.” You cry desperately, and Draco feels his heart burning to dust in his chest as he looks down at you. “I love you too.” He breathes, closing his eyes and steeling his nerves for what he is going to do next. “Draco!” Your voice comes out as a cry of desperation, and you lurch forward. But Draco is faster.

“Obliviate.” He whispers the word into the open air, watching as you halt, your tearful eyes locked on his. “Draco,” You whisper as a light of blue slips from your head and into the tip of Draco’s wand. Your hands drop to your sides, and your eyes fall flat, looking through him now, seeing him as everyone else does. Your face is empty, expressionless as you watch him. Lowering his wand, Draco slips your memories into the vial as you blink in confusion before sending him a nervous smile. You look around briefly, before reaching over to grab your coat. You brush past Draco without looking at him again, offering a hollow ‘goodnight’ over your shoulder as you go. Draco feels empty, emptier than he ever has. It’s only now that he lets a tear slide down his cheek.

His hands were shaking as he leaned over the railing, the cool wind chilling him. The view laid out before him doesn’t hold any beauty in it anymore, and it feels as though all the color has drained from the world. Grasping the vial tightly in his hand, Draco squeezes his eyes shut before throwing it as hard as he could over the edge of the astronomy tower. He watches with bleary eyes as the vial of your memories, the vial containing your love for him disappears into the Black Lake. This is the right thing to do, but Draco can’t fight how wrong it feels. He knows now that he’ll never be the same, but he turns anyway. Straightens his suit, wipes his tears, and begins the journey back to his common room.

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