#and who smiles all the time.

[nadsdraws]

God does not play dice with the universe... but Metatron does

#good omens #good omens s2 #good omens season 2 #metatron #my musings #metatron the mastermind #good omens s2 spoilers #God does not play dice with the universe; He plays an ineffable game of His own devising #which might be compared #from the perspective of any of the other players [i.e. everybody] #to being involved in an obscure and complex variant of poker #in a pitch-dark room #with blank cards #for infinite stakes #with a Dealer who won't tell you the rules #and who smiles all the time. #good omens analysis

[andthebeanstalk]

Today my therapist introduced me to a concept surrounding disability that she called "hLep".

Which is when you - in this case, you are a disabled person - ask someone for help ("I can't drink almond milk so can you get me some whole milk?", or "Please call Donna and ask her to pick up the car for me."), and they say yes, and then they do something that is not what you asked for but is what they think you should have asked for ("I know you said you wanted whole, but I got you skim milk because it's better for you!", "I didn't want to ruin Donna's day by asking her that, so I spent your money on an expensive towing service!") And then if you get annoyed at them for ignoring what you actually asked for - and often it has already happened repeatedly - they get angry because they "were just helping you! You should be grateful!!"

And my therapist pointed out that this is not "help", it's "hLep".

Sure, it looks like help; it kind of sounds like help too; and if it was adjusted just a little bit, it could be help. But it's not help. It's hLep.

At its best, it is patronizing and makes a person feel unvalued and un-listened-to. Always, it reinforces the false idea that disabled people can't be trusted with our own care. And at its worst, it results in disabled people losing our freedom and control over our lives, and also being unable to actually access what we need to survive.

So please, when a disabled person asks you for help on something, don't be a hLeper, be a helper! In other words: they know better than you what they need, and the best way you can honor the trust they've put in you is to believe that!

Also, I want to be very clear that the "getting angry at a disabled person's attempts to point out harmful behavior" part of this makes the whole thing WAY worse. Like it'd be one thing if my roommate bought me some passive-aggressive skim milk, but then they heard what I had to say, and they apologized and did better in the future - our relationship could bounce back from that. But it is very much another thing to have a crying shouting match with someone who is furious at you for saying something they did was ableist. Like, Christ, Jessica, remind me to never ask for your support ever again! You make me feel like if I asked you to call 911, you'd order a pizza because you know I'll feel better once I eat something!!

Edit: crediting my therapist by name with her permission - this term was coined by Nahime Aguirre Mtanous!

Edit again: I made an optional follow-up to this post after seeing the responses. Might help somebody. CW for me frankly talking about how dangerous hLep really is.

#hlep #original #mental health #my sympathies and empathies to anyone who has to rely on this kind of hlep to get what they need. #the people in my life who most need to see this post are my family but even if they did I sincerely doubt they would internalize it #i've tried to break thru to them so many times it makes my head hurt. so i am focusing on boundaries and on finding other forms of support #and this thing i learned today helps me validate those boundaries. the example with the milk was from my therapist. #the example with the towing company was a real thing that happened with my parents a few months ago while I was age 28. 28! #a full adult age! it is so infantilizing as a disabled adult to seek assistance and support from ableist parents. #they were real mad i was mad tho. and the spoons i spent trying to explain it were only the latest in a long line of #huge family-related spoon expenditures. distance and the ability to enforce boundaries helps. haven't talked to sisters for literally the #longest period of my whole life. people really believe that if they love you and try to help you they can do no wrong. #and those people are NOT great allies to the chronically sick folks in their lives. #you can adore someone and still fuck up and hurt them so bad. will your pride refuse to accept what you've done and lash out instead? #or will you have courage and be kind? will you learn and grow? all of us have prejudices and practices we are not yet aware of. #no one is pure. but will you be kind? will you be a good friend? will you grow? i hope i grow. i hope i always make the choice to grow. #i hope with every year i age i get better and better at making people feel the opposite of how my family's ableism has made me feel #i will see them seen and hear them heard and smile at their smiles. make them feel smart and held and strong. #just like i do now but even better! i am always learning better ways to be kind so i don't see why i would stop

[puppetmaster13u]

Prompt 177

Now Dan is no coward. He’s not. 

But this stupid child body does have an effect on his reactions to things and honestly it’s a horrible thing that’s too small and too weak for him to use all his abilities. He could barely manage a fireball if he concentrated, yet everything caught fire with a mere outburst! His control was utterly gone, and a tantrum resulted in having to wear a stupid child leash backpack. 

It wasn’t like he was really a child, and it wasn’t like he’d get lost or some stupid shit that Danny would insist. Ugh, this isn’t even fair, technically he was older than him yet was stuck in a smaller body that he kept tripping over! 

Urgh, he’s even insisting on rewarding ‘good behavior’ and shit- must have talked to Jazz or something- because… Oh. No he wants the constellation bear, give! His star bear now, no takes back and, urgh, stupid baby body! 

Well, on the other hand, it’s utterly hilarious how much Danny sputters whenever he calls him Mom, not to mention strangers’ utter befuddlement. He ignores how Danny seems to be trying his best to live up ro the title. 

But! As he was saying, he’s no coward! He’s also not an idiot though, and having no control over his powers isn’t exactly a good thing. It’s really not a good thing when there’s a murderous-looking hero that he thinks he might have maimed in the future- which they apparently remember- staring down at him. So, he has to call in the big guns to fix this. 

“Mom, there’s a creepy fruitloop staring at me!” “There’s WHAT?!” Hah. Take that hero he doesn’t remember the name of.

(Behold the Grumpiest of Babies)

#Dcxdp #Dpxdc #Prompts #dp x marvel #Who is the hero who went back in time to stop the Dan situation? Who knows #Dan who is just a lil guy right now: FOOL you have fallen into my trap #6ft+ Mother Bear Danny who is always down to fight: #I need you to know he is not a tank #He still looks thin and a stick it is just a very tall stick with fangs and claws and enough anger to fight god #and win #Jordan (Dan) is like 8 at most and giving the time traveler the most bloodthirsty smile ever before Danny slams into them at full speed #Someone is going to see the hero get yeeted #Dan is going to throw a fit when Danny reattaches the child leash since he wandered off #Vlad is semi redeemed but not mentally well enough to deal with a child #Especially Dan who knows how to push All of his Buttons and rip him apart emotionally mentally and physically

[myuminji]

Ethereal - txmy

#supposed to be a longer story but i had no time #vash who dreams of wolfwood. vash who dreams of him smiling and all forgiving... (this too is just a dream to him) #and wolfwood laughs. smiles at him so easily. ''maybe so. but maybe deep down...you'd known I'd forgive you all along.'' #vash who dreams of wolfwood and wishes he wouldn't smile at him. wishes he would've left him from the start if he'd leave him later #(but he never did. not even once. and vash is not sure how to accept that either) #trigun #trigun maximum #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #vashwood #myuminjiart #just thoughts ig

[llamagoddessofficial]

I love Farmtale Sans a lot. But also, living in the country isn't always sunshine cottagecore magicalness. It can suck. But... here's some unromantic country stuff that I think could actually be very romantic when you're with him.

As mentioned before, the two of you end up spending a lot of time in the car together. The nearest big store is a ways away, after all. On those long drives, the radio often cuts out for long periods of time... it can feel pretty lonely, especially at night. But when you're together, it's alright. You sleep with your head against the passenger window, your coat over you, holding his unoccupied hand through the quiet.

He gets a call in the middle of the night from someone else further into the village that there's a surprise rain shower coming through tomorrow, and they need to move a lot of kit indoors ASAP before it hits. He grumbles, but heads out anyway. ... An hour or so later, in the middle of a dark cold field, he sees your flashlight rushing over to him. You have a flask of steaming soup and a tupperware box with a slice of hot pie inside. Despite your fear of the dark and bugs, you made your way out to him. He feels himself fall in love even harder, and just like that, the task takes half the time.

When your home is as exposed as country houses can get, the wind can be really fucking loud. Especially if your room is on the windward side of the house. It can sound like a train is driving over your bedroom at night. You decide to sleep on the couch, both because you can't sleep and because you're nervous about how loud it is; it's difficult to rest when you can literally hear the roof rattling and the shingles jumping up and down. Sans, even though his room is absolutely fine, opts to join you. He lights the fire and gets comfy with you, then stays awake so you feel comfortable enough to fall asleep. You wake up the next morning snuggled up to his chest.

The weather is horrendous pouring rain, cold and damp and treacherously muddy. But the animals have to be fed regardless of the weather. You both go out into the early morning darkness, feeding the chickens and cows, checking on the crops, making sure nothing is leaking, hands almost frozen. You come home absolutely drenched in a thick mixture of rain and mud. And as much as Papyrus complains, refusing to let either of you past the porch until you strip all your dirty items... he's got hot lunch waiting for you both, dry pyjamas and thick socks hanging up over the stove, warm blankets on the couch. There's nothing like the feeling of sheltering from a tempest in someplace cosy. Even if the power does keep going out.

#llamagines #you probably think he wants a cute sexy partner who lives & breathes the country life with a smile #but hes the most in love with you when youre complaining about it all but doing it anyway #hes most attracted to you when youre wrapped in 5 layers and pouting about the cold #you: The next time I see a spider I'm burning the house down #sans: [deeply and viscerally in love] ahhaha yeah

[yrsonpurpose]

give yourself away sometimes, sweetheart. there’s so much of you.

#rwrb #rwrbedit #red white and royal blue #alex x henry #firstprince #userninz #userveronika #chrissiewatts #usersteen #usernuria #userclara #usermegsb #userkhael #mine* #another one of my favourite quotes :( #(also i say that all the time. whatever) #get you someone who loves you for ALL of you. not just the good parts. #i want their love. what is new :D #henry's gummy smile in the last one i wanna akhfdslkgh

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Redraw of my first post on this blog. Oh how far we've come B'*)

#better drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #Credit where it's due: the first one is from November 2022. So its been a bit longer than the post date implies. #It was always part of the plan to re-draw my first wangxian art at the end of each season #but wow I really didn't give enough credit to the power of drawing every day for the last half a year #I've really loved doing this B*) I have found so much confidence in accepting the fact I'm not a 'non-artist' drawing mdzs comics #I'm a REAL artist drawing mdzs #and this is just the start!!!! I will keep drawing and improving and learning! and I will have a big smile like this every time -> B*) #I'm stunned that so many people found this blog so early on. Despite the roughness of my art...yall saw what I struggled to see #which was someone who was worth it #That and how art really is what you decide it is. I thought It had to be perfect. It doesn't need to be perfect. I see that now #I love you all so much! I am so much happier than I have been in years! #Sorry for being sappy twice in a row I promise tomorrow I'll be your little jester again

[unusual-ly]

I am Thinking About The Implications regarding Ted’s love interests

With Jenny, they were best friends, there was genuine affection and mutual feelings for each other but neither of them acted on it because they both assumed they didn’t have a chance, and then it was too late

With Charlotte, Ted was in love with her but she didn’t reciprocate, he was just one of the men she was having an affair with behind her husband’s back. He never lets himself be too vulnerable and open with her about his feelings, resorting to either yelling at her or just deflecting whenever she starts to talk about Sam. He’ll just take whatever he can get with her

With Lucy, he can actually express his feelings and be affectionate, but only because he’s playing the role of Konk. He has something to hide behind instead of being truly vulnerable. Even when he’s only talking to Hidgens, at least later in the episode, he stays in character, he falls into Konk’s speech patterns because he’d rather be him, in part because Lucy likes Konk. He even asks that she let him die as Konk just so he can feel loved by her

And then, before he’s approached by Sheila, we learn he does actually want to someday start a family, get married and have kids

After the misunderstanding with Jenny, Ted no longer feels he can be open and vulnerable about his feelings, puts up this front of only being interested in sex when he really does want a relationship beyond that, and only feels safe expressing himself truthfully to others when he’s someone else

Ted please for the love of god learn how to express your feelings in a healthy way I am begging you

#if a woman ever showed Ted genuine love and care without him hiding behind some character i bet he’d just melt on the spot #someone gently touches his hand and smiles at him and he immediately shuts down for a solid minute then blurts out ‘marry me’ #he admits all his flaws and they tell him they believe he can actually become a better person and he bursts into tears #shut up let me have my unrealistic fantasies #Ted Spankoffski #Hatchetfield #the guy who didn't like musicals #TGWDLM #Nightmare Time #starkid #team starkid

[evilkaeya]

Oh he means the world to me

#his smile warms and aches my heart at the same time #he loves humanity so so so much #he loves humanity but thinks he can never be a part of it. he doesn't consider himself human but oh dear. who's going to tell him? #who's going to tell him that he's the most human of all? #he sees humanity in everyone but not himself #even though he's brimming with it. humanity and emotions. he's so full of life it's blinding. #if only he could see himself through my eyes. the reader's eyes. he would've known. #bsd dazai

[turtleblogatlast]

[ cw: violence mention / death mention / ]

Will never stop thinking about how Leo, all alone in an endless void and being beaten again and again and again by the only other living thing around, still finds comfort in that space. The situation he was in was completely hopeless, and in any other circumstances he would not have escaped, at least not fast enough to save him from permanent (or even fatal) damage, be it physical or mental.

And yet, despite the bleakness of his situation, despite the agony and helplessness, all he needs is one glance at a crumbled photograph, one glance to remember his family, and that’s enough of a reason for him to smile.

Maybe that’s why his powers center around manipulating space - because no matter how much space is between them, no matter how dire his own situation may be, just the thought of his family, alive and okay, is enough to give Leo hope.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rottmnt leo #rise leo #the prison dimension is horrifying on its own #add in a monstrous being that towers over you and has vowed to ensure your suffering? #god I can’t imagine how scary that is #Mikey opening the portal was a miracle because if he hadn’t managed it there #it’s really up in the air what could have become of Leo #personally I subscribe by the theory that you straight up can’t die in the prison dimension #so it’s a prison in all ways #but the thought of a Leo who manages anyway who adapts and continues to have hope despite it all… #Leo saying he’s nothing without his family is a double edged sword really #because the thought of his family alone is all he needs to live. to hope. #to smile #nothing without them…but they’re EVERYTHING to him #and maybe he doesn’t realize it but…the feeling is mutual #one thing too is that hope that comforts Leo so much is not just that #should he think his family needs help - that hope can turn into determination #I’m unwell about this family #actually on my point of their powers - I truly do think the abilities tie in not only to their personalities #but to their relationship to family and love in general #kinda like love languages in a way #Mikey with his chains and time abilities values being around his family the most - he wants them to experience living in the moment togethe #Donnie is someone who is 100% a gift giver to show his love - his constructs are exactly that aren’t they? gifts of his mind #Raph is someone who willingly bears the weight of the shield - he protects his family like the best big brother possible #and Leo - he goes off on his own a lot but his mind is constantly on his family anyway #like a sailor at sea no matter how far he travels the compass always point in one direction - and for him that compass points home #even if he can’t make it back - it’s still there #and that’s enough

[120percents]

i just think it’s so funny that zoro does not even wanna comment on the usokaya situation when usopp explicitly asks and he very pointedly looks away when they kiss and yet he proceeds to butt in every single time sanji flirts with a woman or implies he knows about romance to redirect attention back on himself like god i wonder where your interests lie…

#also the goading sanji into talking with him and just commenting on every single thing sanji says... ok! #zoro is patient 0 of terminal sanji-itis #this is the live action but i mean... this is also animanga zoro and zoro in the movies at times is it not LMFAO #but while they were fighting and then even when he was asking for seconds of the dish and sanji finished his dialogue and zoro CONTINUED #do u want his attention or smth? are you happy you have someone who u can bicker (flirt) with every day and can hand ur ass to u and u him? #also sanji just BEAMING and smiling whenever they bicker is just insane INSANE like yeah they're enjoying this... wow... #also obviously zoro has all the weird UST charged dialogues with multiple MEN like i truly don't know how u can see him as straight lmao #anyways... i just needed to ramble anyways... i fear s2 will be insane with new pet names and arguments I'm actually so hyped #like oh i wanna see the look on sanji and luffy's faces when zoro calls out his finishing move LMFAO (let him be a loser pls) #OK RAMBLING OVER FR... i just like talking about zosan idk #zosan #zs #opla #tagging for spoilers ish #sanzo #zorosan #sanzoro

[astraystayyh]

happy birthday to my hyune. hyunjin who wrote a poem about stay’s eyes and how they shine brighter than any stars. hyunjin who paints old couples because he believes love should be eternal. hyunjin who needs to be chased off the stage by staff because he wants to greet stays longer. hyunjin who always reassures stays that they have a long time left together. hyunjin who reads poetry before bed. hyunjin who writes about love so beautifully as if he is the embodiment of it. hyunjin who says he wants to remain strong as to not hurt stays. hyunjin who says you need to practice with your 200% to show 100%. hyunjin who loves reading books. hyunjin who always tells stays to eat well. hyunjin who wears his heart on his sleeve. hyunjin who started a stay counseling center to listen to stay’s problems. hyunjin who wrote if love is everything, then there is nothing left for me. hyunjin who trained really hard because he refused to be just a pretty face. hyunjin who said that he loves easily, gets hurt easily, regrets easily then repeats the process because isn’t that what life is about. hyunjin who said that the wounds caused by humans are also healed by humans. hyunjin who remains hopeful and loving despite it all. hyunjin who eats with his eyes closed. hyunjin who loves going to art museums. hyunjin who said that there isnt a team that loves each other as much as skz does. hyunjin who said that there should always be a Stray kids before his name. hyunjin who loves so freely and who i love. you grew up so well my hyune 💓 please be happy forever.

#SINCE IT’S OFFICIALLY MIDNIGHT IN KOREA 💗💓💞💕💘💞💓💗 #words can’t describe how much love i have for hyunjin :’) #the purest sweetest most loving angel in existence and who deserves nothing but happiness for the rest of his life #i hope love finds him wherever he goes #i hope that even on his darkest nights he finds reasons to smile all over again #i love him I LOVE YOUUUU HYUNJIN #happy birthday to you thank you for existing and for choosing to be so kind depsite the harshness of our world #thank you for having such a beautiful soul #thank you for being so full of love it reminded me of how gentle and fulfilling love should be #aaaaaah my second hyune birthday 🥹 TO MANY MANY MORE #let’s stay together for a long time #im so happy i get to love you in this lifetime

[taiturner]

━ “Catastrophe is Next to Godliness”

#viktor hargreeves #viktorhargreevesedit #tua #tuaedit #the umbrella academy #theumbrellaacademyedit #brellygifs #tvedit #* #number5theboy #userbecca #tusermich #tusermyra #userpolaris #usersray #ughclara #lgbtincomics #flashing gif #last gif did Not work the way i wanted it to but <3 shot of all time. viktor looking back at his family who are smiling back at him because #they finally see him. he finally gets to be a Part of them. leading directly into his s3 arc of getting to finally explore who he is #for the first time in his life. bc he Has clarity now despite the horrible road it was to get there

[sunnykeysmash]

#iasip #it's always sunny in philadelphia #always sunny #macdennis #macden #analysis #meta #a beautiful smile to hide the pain... #what if i told you this post was inspired by me listening to SURFACE PRESSURE from encanto and thinking ''it's mac'' #who am i if can't carry it all. if i falter...... #i think if dennis could see mac's hole that hes hidden so well it would humble him. because he thinks mac doesn't care. he does #hes under a lot of pressure all the time. self imposed. to make sure everyone is safe. shouldering it all and pretending to be fine. #to be worthy of their love. to be in control #if they could see each other's holes and realize how similar yet opposite their experiences are... like foils. #hiding their vulnerability from the other #i could talk about this dynamic of taking care of each other for days dont try me #can we talk about also that part in hits theroad where they were talking abt a guy seeming fine then going crazy right before mac says that #can we acknowledge that it was about mac. and he really could snap any moment from the pressure #the more demanding dennis is of his help. the thinner mac is spread. can weeee talk about ittttt #parallels

[earlgodwin]

— you would end your pain?

#it's extremely bittersweet that juan was the only one in the family who felt cesare's constant pain #it's why he was glad to found something to relate to with his brother and even smiling with relief #the idea that juan finding solace in the fact that he could empathize with cesare as he endured pain all the time as well hits so hard #but of course for different reasons but if only juan knew that cesare lusted over being a soldier badly that he'd even kill for it #david: “juan’s attempt at relieving pain is through closeness and hugging and love... #...while cesare’s attempt to relieve his pain is through murder and fratricide... #...when he forgives cesare at the end saying how they’re brothers and wants to be together. i think that’s genuine.” #juan borgia #cesare borgia #the borgias #theborgiasedit #david oakes #juan and cesare #perioddramaedit #dailyworldcinema #userperioddrama #tvarchive #cinemapix #filmgifs #by jen

[bucatinibucatini]

nope spoilers:

I cannot stop thinking about Gordy and Jupe’s storyline, how the movie starts with showing this gruesome, chilling example of a wild creature in a thoroughly domesticated environment snapping and going on a bloodthirsty rampage.

then the movie goes on, we meet adult jupe, he half casually, half uncomfortably talks about the experience with all the bravado of a tv star. OJ and Emerald have to have their meeting with him, because they will soon have their meetings with the alien. Jupe and his past have a direct line to the siblings’ future, and their fight against a wild creature in a thoroughly domesticated environment.

When we realize why this started, we realize Jupe has been luring this wild thing from the sky to his property, feeding it, and using it to entertain his audience. He’s been using the Hayward’s horses (we know how important those horses are to their identities and their family) to convince an alien to come and eat at his ranch over and over.

Why? I think because he was traumatized by his relation to Gordy on the day of the rampage. After all this chaos has already started with the alien, we learn that Jupe and Gordy were face to face, about to connect in a friendly way (their iconic fist bump), before Gordy was shot in the head four inches from Jupe’s face. Jupe never saw the conclusion of Gordy choosing to come over to the last person he saw still moving. Maybe he would’ve just sat down and relaxed? Jupe made him so comfortable, maybe Jupe could have been the thing to calm him down? Jupe knew Gordy so well, he was probably just scared and confused. Who knows what was going on in that child’s head when something this fucked up was going on in front of him.

Jupe is mentally stuck in the immense trauma of that day, we see him frozen in memory, reliving it again, right before his last performance, almost as though he’s remembering because he knows what’s going to happen. The parallel between gordy and the alien is fucking insane, and it’s impossible to stop thinking about.

The exact thing that didn’t kill that scared little kid all those years ago never left his side, it stayed with him until he grew up and made his own Gordy to finish the story the only way he knew how. The alien was never going to spare him, but did Jupe know that? Did his realization really only come when he was staring into it’s eye/mouth/vacuum? Or did he go out there every week, putting on his little cowboy hat and microphone, bringing his family out to watch, with the small itching feeling in this back of his mind that asked, “Was Gordy going to kill me? Will this thing kill me too?”

(And how OJ and Emerald got involved, their dad was killed, just for having these horses, the alien was seeing it’s meals wandering around and went to catch it’s own dinner. Did Mr. “Feed my Neighbor’s Horses to an Alien” think that through at all?)

#nope #nope 2022 #i’m having so many thoughts two days after seeing it #and after the scariness wore off #okay who else was scared for the rest of the night but not really because of nope itself #but because of the creepy fucking trailers that played ahead of time #that smile trailer scared the dick out of me #i was unable to stop thinking about it all night i was so scared #next time i watch a scary movie i’m waiting in the hall until it starts