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0rchidm4ntis · 16 days

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hey lol *pmmms your 2wink*

#micas art #enstars #ensemble stars #あんスタ #hinata aoi #yuta aoi #ive yet to share anything about this au with anyone but for context: this is my very loose take on a pmmm au #most of enstars' storyline goes the same but at certain points kyubey chimes in and offers a wish in exchange for help with fighting witche #in the twins' case he gets to hinata first some time before the setsubun disaster. he hasnt gotten to expose his feelings to yuta #and kyubey takes advantage of that to offer an easy solution to his issue! so hinata wishes to vanish from yuta's life and memories #in consequence yuta is left on his own without a single memory of hinata but a very strong sense that something is out of place #everything in his life seems to go fine: he gets along great with his classmates. he works hard to improve as an idol in school #but for some reason he cant seem to shake the feeling that the world has become a little too quiet and vast #that something is missing and not right #and so when kyubey approaches him offering miracles he chooses to follow his guts and wishes to find whatever's been missing from his side #i wont go into further details (bc this is getting really long djdjd) but id be happy to talk about it more!!#only other unit ive got finished stuff for is valk (4 pieces to be exact) but i plan on sharing these later so yeah!! enjoy this for now~

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demons-i-get · 16 days

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WAIT BIG BRAINED THOUGHT:

Sam does smth stupid hoping Dean won't find out.

Someone rats Sam out to Dean.

Sam gets in trouble and a lecture from Dean (bc Dean is a parent and he is Sam's parent I will not accept criticism on this matter).

Later, Sam makes a group chat consisting of everyone who could have told on him to Dean and just sends this video:

#supernatural #spn #dean winchester #sam winchester #dean winchester is sam winchester's parent #and i will be accepting NO criticism on this matter!!!!#dean raised sam and in my heart i just know that its smth they dont really talk abt but they both 100% know and acknowledge it #and sam (the annoying little brother/kid) that he is to dean definitely calls dean 'mom' sometimes especially when hes being a little shit #but sam also loves his big brother and appreciates everything deans done and given up for him #so every year dean gets a pie and a little homemade card on mother's day and father's day from sam #when they were younger sam would give dean the card and actually say 'happy mother's/father's day dean' but once theyre older sam starts #sneaking the pie and card into dean's room or leaving them somewhere he knows dean will find them and neither of them say anything but dean #always gives sam a soft smile and usually a hug too before they continue w/ their day like its any other #the year dean spends w/ lisa and ben while sam's in hell/running around soulless ben makes dean a father's day card and dean gets all teary #and thanks him but then later when hes alone he just breaks down sobbing bc it just remimds him that sammy is gone #even when sam was at stanford and not really talking to dean he still sent dean a short message (text email voicemail whatever) on mother's #and father's day but now hes gone and dean wont even get that #btw dean def saves all of the cards sam's made him over the years and once theyre in the bunker he keeps them all in a special box that he #hides under his bed and he'll pull it out and look through them when hes having a bad day alongside the box of pictures <3 #i did not mean to go insane in the tags here but oh well #enjoy my silly post and unhinged rambling ig

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lorillee · 9 months

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honestly. its about time one of the friends of the victims just gets PISSED

#because its always like sad and tearful and like thats normal and understandable #but. but i want somebody to get MAD. like visceral levels of anger towards the perpetrator and also just how terribly unfair it all is #like. we sort of get that with diego. but the thing with diego is 1) we dont get to see his immediate reaction to finding out about mia #and 2) hes incredibly good at not outwardly expressing his emotions. like arguably hes one of The most emotionally driven characters #in the entire series. but he also just Does Not Show It #sorry for talkign about aa3 again ummmm where were we #i jest i jest but no seriously im actually VERY happy about this because like with apollo #like. when gavin the elder gets indicted/arrested we see like. absolutely no emotion from apollo on this #which is kind of standard ace attorney fare they really dont like actually getting into the minds of characters when stuff like this happen #but its still frustrating. but here hes just. hes so mad. hes so mad and why shouldnt he be #i want to see him go nuts. he wont. but id like to see him try #go on your epic insane revenge quest apollo. it will leave you desperately hollow‚ save for the bitterness and hatred #but i want to see you tumble down this self destructive path. even if its for like five minutes total #lorillee liveblogs aa5

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rosykims · 5 months

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ive played dao like 9 times at this point and still. and STILL the isolde/connor decision has me tearing my hair out gnawing my keyboard stomping around the house ready to lie down and never get up

#tay plays dao #in saying all that: i had an epiphany and im now at peace with elspeth killing this kid :) JKFJGKFG #I HATEEEEE IT I HATE THIS CHOUICE. AND YET. AND YETTTT #oc: elspeth #sigh. the things we do for rp........#so my reasoning is : she's the most moral/lawful/goody-good character you can find and lawful good in the truest sense of the term #so blood magic just isnt an option for her #also she does lothering > circle > redcliffe so she's seen what blood magic is capable of and its way too fresh in her mind #and as a noble with literally zero experience or understanding of magic... what shes seen of blood magic is SO bad she isnt abt to risk it #(i also dismiss the circle mages option outright because she wont risk redcliffe and the castle all dying while shes out wasting time)#but still its like... when she walks into that room prior to making the Choice she's so ADAMANT that she wont be killing a child #and upon leaving she still feels that way. again she doesnt rly know that much about demons so shes still like ok maybe i can just #incapacitate him?? reason with him??#bc thats what would happen to a hero in a story. they would find a way. there would be a happy ending. and she believes in happy endings #and she rly does see herself as the hero lol.#and then it doesnt happen and shes forced to make the choice and it absolutely destroys her sense of self. bc heroes dont DO that #and the story wasnt supposed to turn out this way !!!!!! and realizing this isnt some story and shes actually going to have to do #Horrific things. its a turning point for her #also a turning point for alistair and her relationship w him. bc he'd also put her on a pedastal this whole time #and now hes like. oh. all that honor and bravado is just something youre making up as you go huh #and then they have to get to know each other as flawed complicated people. not just.... ideals that they created of each other???#WHEW. THIS IS LONG. SORRY.#DRAGON AGE SEASON BABEY LETS FUCKING GO LOL

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heyitslapis · 2 months

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as someone whos watched h3IIuva b0$$ I really hate that the show's creator is Like That because i love the characters but theyre all built like sticks & unnecessarily fetishized so watching makes me Uncomfortable

#like i LOVE Flzz3roIIi & i think the domestic shit between him & 0z would be rly cute normally!#if ''he's designed/animated/written like that bc he's being fetishized'' wasnt blaring in the back of my mind #im stealing the characters from her actually theyre mine now & im gonna draw them cooler/fatter/non-fet & theyre gonna be happy <3 #also the character design is literally copy/paste with color changes #when i heard lucifer was revealed i was SO EXCITED cause after seeing 0z i thought the character design would be sick!!#was very disappointed to find out that he's just another skinny twlnk who doesnt have enough torso to hold his own organs #a coworker at blaze was like ''nah you should see it when he transforms its SO FUCKING SICK'' i looked it up. he was wrong #DO NOT REBLOG #also i wont hear other peoples side to this I LIKE THE SHOW just hate how its characters are handled #when i hear the KING OF HELL swoops in & TRANSFORMS to his ''true demon form'' im expecting badass not wings & horns #just had to get that out ive been feeling this way for months #emma rambles #hate tag

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elympios · 1 year

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Now that I think of it

It’s somewhat implied that the entry point in FDs are always close to the Divergence Catalyst. This is mostly for convenience and limiting where you can explore in the world but in one of the Drama CDs they make it sound like the rift is linked to the Catalyst before they figure it’s just a coincidence

So like. What if a DODA agent enters on the Rieze Maxia side while the Schism is intact but the Catalyst is on the Elympion side?

Which canonically happens!

The only reason why the party aren’t stranded in Elympios in Fractured Milla’s world is because Chronos’ power is enough to tear open the Dimensional Breach again. If he hadn’t shown up they wouldn’t have been able to cross into Rieze Maxia and find Catalyst Muzet, unless she decided to cross over to Elympios of her own will.

That just makes me think of a DODA agent getting stranded in Fractured RM and joining Exodus, knowing it’s the only way they can get to the Catalyst and really go home.

It does help me think of that idea I had where X1 is the Prime Dimension where Origin’s Trial was forgotten and the Kresnik clan doesn’t exist anymore, and X2 is actually Fractured.

Except the inverse, where X1 is Fractured instead and they have to stop the Prime Dimension agent from destroying their world and it ties directly into the X2 lore.

.......... Oh hey that works perfectly with my X1/X2 crossover where Ludger and Julius are stranded in Rieze Maxia pre-canon.

.................... FUCK.

#v #x2 #julius freaking out knowing theyre stuck in a fractured dimension and specifically stuck outside of elympios #working with exodus to get to elympios so he can find the catalyst and go home #not being able to tell ludger the truth that he’s basically going to kill all his friends #eventually changing his mind and deciding to sabotage exodus so the schism wont be dispelled #and they wont have to face their selves in elympios #but also the schism and the entry point would prevent any other agent from destroying the x1 world #theyll be destroyed eventually when the trial fails/passes but. as long as theyre happy and peaceful until then...#i was supposed to sleep :(

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etchedstars · 5 months

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hi i just wanted to drop a ss of the comments i wrote on my notion page for captured ghosts because im about to reread and i think this fic deserves all the recognition in the world it slays so hard and you should know the absolute anxiety and simultaneous joy you caused me!!!

HI OH MY GOD ?!?!??!?!? thank you asufaudsf this is so so nice the joy THIS brought me?????????? immeasurable ty <3333

(ps theres a lot of thoughts in the tags w captured ghosts spoilers for those who may or may have not read my will byers gets haunted multichaptered fic!!)

#if youre thinking hmm i should read captured ghosts!! dont take it from me take it from tumblr user romainlettusdinnerparty :)#okokok so !!! authors thoughts #one of the biggest problems i have with media and especially in fics is when characters just have. the worlds most perfect inner dialogue #which clearly. bc they are fifteen years old. they will not be perfect they wont think coherent thoughts #human emotions are messy and indecipherable and ESP w the st characters someone who has gone thru as much as will has. hes gonna be angry !#i do my best to walk the line between good writing and realistic writing LMAO so im glad that came across :)))#ok abt joyce. this was less of a 'i think this is how joyce would be' and rlly just me being annoyed w my own mother tbh #i also wasnt a huge fan of her when i first wrote cg bc i thought she was way too paranoid over will and not caring much abt jonathan #so that is why shes Like that. im gonna be real i dont think id change it if i rewrote but i also dont think i wrote her fairly #and finally !!! im very sorry i lied about the rewrite. its not gonna happen bc i am so so swamped and i have nothing and i wrote it last y #but for the record will was supposed to be in the same sort of coma max was in and they were supposed to find each other and will #was going to promise max hed find her way out and then boom he was going to wake up there was going to be some jealousy w lucas and mike an #he makes it out alive max makes it out alive vecna doesnt fully leave etc etc. the end #anyways if youve read this far thank u and thank you for leaving this ask and this comment :))))) i havent gotten anything abt my fics in a #while tbh so knowing that like . They Still Exist and people still like them means so so much to me :')))) ok bye this was super long #overdue gets some asks #captured ghosts #happy chemical

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micwrs · 6 months

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rotating akechi in my brain so hard

im afraid to try my hand at actually writing him but oh he is in my head. he's crazy. im crazy. and i would let him take my hand and lead me into the depths of our shared craziness

i diagnose him with bpd and he's in love with yet despises the phantoms

#how can they be so GENUINE #after ALL they have SUFFERED #how can they manage to find happiness with each other after all theyve been through. how can they CARE so deeply for others #others who ultimately dont even MATTER to them. others who are USELESS.#positive emotions make him sick yet he desires to feel them- deep down he truly does #at least i think he does. i think some part of him wants to be able to find that kind of happiness #he just doesnt believe he's able #and also he's so full of hatred and self-sabotage #hes like a self-fulfilling prophecy of misery i think #and i dont think thats something hed be capable of fully getting under control #i think hes doomed himself to misery bcs he refuses to try #i dont think hed have the conviction to make himself better-- which is funny bcs he has insane dedication to literally anything else #think thats part of what makes him have extra complicated feelings abt joker specifically #he keeps trying to push him away and joker refuses and it really ruins the self-destruction when those around you wont let themselves #just be pushed away or do whatever thing u want in order to fulfill that negative prophecy yk #im all over the place my head is just all over goro akechi rn bro #「that’s right everybody. it’s your favorite boy.」 ― out of character

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mathswizard · 8 months

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aaGH holyh shit ! I think i did something fucking stupid

#kissed this guy (JOKINGLY) while i was drunk but im flirting with this other guy and i feel guilty about it #and when he finds out he wont be happy :-)#jesus fucking christ WHY DID I FUCKING DO THAT #He literally just said (my name) give us a kiss and i did it no second thoughts #that guy and me aren't official yet and im hoping that softens the blow but fuck #i got bad person syndrome #mathswizard vent

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vazaez · 2 years

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that’s not very cis of you

BYE🛌

It's complicated alright 😭💀

#a lil personal story about this now that the topic came up:#some time ago i started questioning my gender identity but i didnt like the spanish they/them pronouns on myself #they just didnt sit right lol #so i tried using gender neutral language (ig yall know spanish is one of the many languages that is VERY gendered #even fcking objects have their own 'gender' lmao) so yea if it pas possible i phrased what i said abt myself in a pronounless way #but when it was not possible to do that id use male pronouns to try how i felt with them. the thing is that every fucking time i did that #some dude in a gc i was in said 'dO u hAvE a D¡cK????' and it made me really uncomfy as if i needed it to be able to use those pronouns 🧍#LITERALLY EVERY TIME so eventually i gave up because i thought what's the point of finding my identity if it wont be respected anyways?#so yea im resigned to be seen as the same I was born with the same i've always been and the same everyone knows me #dont get me wrong i dont always hate being a girl but sometimes it makes me curious how would it be if i wasnt #and i dont mind what pronouns ppl use with me most of the time as long as it's not with a bad intention #I've wondered if maybe i'm a she/they? idk i just gave up thinking about it #at least for now. i have my whole ass life to find out what or who i am so i don't feel there's a need to rush tbh #woah this rant got rlly long sorry lol idk if anyone will read this far 🏃#btw it's not only about that guy but he made me constantly remember that most people at least here in latam are very closed minded #just like him so if i ended up finding an identity i was happy with it wouldnt be respected by most people irl anyways #i'm not in that gc anymore tho #i hope i was able to like explain well what i mean? i don't wanna seem like i gave up that easily just because some dude was being a jerk #it's just that i'm kind of an overthinker

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noxtivagus · 2 years

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THIS IS V RANDOM N I MAY DELETE LATER BUT LOOKING BACK AT SOME SCREENSHOTS FROM TODAY N AAAA THIS MAKES ME SO HAPPY

🥹 when i logged into ffxiv n saw the gifts a friend gave in the mailbox i really got so happy i was so enthusiastic in our lil trio server 😭😭 HONESTLY I'M REALLY HAPPY ABT A LOT OF THINGS RN BUT YEAH HSKGJSHFD.... i'm too shy to talk abt anything else directly bcs when i'm shy i naturally end up hiding n. tumblr twt n irls may see this so i'll just place the one pic ik wld never allude to anything more bcs my ffxiv friends do not know i use this site <33

I GET TOO SHY I HONESTLY GET TOO SHY BUT TYVM WVERYONE I LOVE ALL OF MY FRIENDS SM 🫶🏼

#🌙.rambles #SEEING OTHERS HAPPY MAKES ME REALLY HAPPY #hdkgjsjfjs c:#goddamn i find it. idk what word but #i guess rambling abt this here is #MY FRIEND DOESNT KNOW MY TUMBLR HE WONT KNOW THIS #n i think that symbolizes a bit of how #even more than what i've already shown n given #I GENUINELY CARE N ADORE YOU ALL SO MUCH MORE?????#maybe for some friends i don't say i love you like i do to my childhood friends! besties #my sisters 🫶🏼#but i love you a lot! even if i may never say it! for certain people!#& then when i say i care mf i really mean i care 😠#i v much know how it's like to doubt receiving that but god for me i am. absolutely certain #of how much i care. it overwhelms me a lot bcs i really love the ppl i love so much?#like goddamn when i sense my friends r struggling. while i do also cry at times when i feel helpless that i can't do anything at that moment #i also cry in those times bcs i genuinely do care #god thinking abt it n while i'm far from perfect n i'm keenly aware of my own mistakes n faults #i think. the very way i think of others out of pure unconditional love n care #i love that. i think. i think in that sense i can say that i am. kind and good...?#aaa i feel sm better now.... a lot of things usually change around the time of my bday for me #two years ago in november that happened but sob i started genshin n ffxiv on my bday !?! that's enough.#last year i got closer to my irls again! i find it funny how it's like. idk it's just some coincidence but #start of summer last year was me getting more more into ffxiv. this year was more more w my friends #sobs thinking of a lot of things n i realize i can really be a bit of a schemer 😭 no bad intentions but. i still feel bad if i'm not direct #unintentionally i end up. hiding? i have this barrier? IDK BUT #GOD WAIT MY MIND KEEPS ON GOING FROM ONE TOPIC TO ANOTHER BUT #ONE OF MY CHILDHOOD FRIENDS FROM. like way before grade school. my longest friend #we haven't really talked much for so so long now but she greeted hbd so i brought up discord with the we miss each orher n wna talk more yh #i brought up discord..... n soon i wna at least. maybe check in w old friends. initiate for once! maybe i'd make a closer friend

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cheryap · 2 months

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ive gotten well damnginto this song

#if its meant to happen it'll #happy anyway #im just two days into college and im three lectures behind. theres this guy lets name him colin he says he wants to be mine. but it doesnt #really sit with me quite right cause he doesnt really like the things i likeand i keep accidentally locking myself outta my dorm in the #middle of the night. i wake up kinda wired and i wake up kinda cold and i wake up kinda tired but i'll just sleep in when im old. see i don #like breaking rules but dont like doing as im told so i just float around and hope my life unfolds. everybodys tellin me that im doing so #well i try to believe them honestly i kinda find it hard to tell. if i need work or i need rest to try my best to try my best to tell mysel #i say out loud “its fine i'll figure it all out”#i tend to forget. im only still quite young. in a way this life of mine has only just begun ive got time. ive got time. im two days into #college with a busy; busy mind. that guy that we named colin he's so handsome hes so kind. my friends tell me im crazy that i'll take it wa #too far. cause i told him that its over because he doesnt play guitar. im only two days into college and my bedroom is a mess #theres just so much that i want to do that i have not done yet. theres just so much want i say but far too little breath #on my mind it runs so far away its easy to forget. that to everybody else it looks like im doing so well. i try to see it honestly i find i #hard to tell. if ive done wrong or ive done right. i need a goodnight's sleep tonight. they say “go out” i said “alright”#i think i wont i maybe might i probably should just take it slow. i'll be good but god i know. the one thing that's important above #everything else: is to learn not to put all this heavy pressure on myself. i try to believe it when i say i'll be fine. ive got time. ive g #two days into college #yes i typed all that hehe #cheryap #Spotify

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t3ag3rs · 19 days

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♡ bakugou headcannons !

i felt like a hopeless romantic today so why not have some random headcannons?

i personally feel like bakugou wouldnt be looking for a relationship because of his ambition to wanna be a hero. so he kinda has that "itll come my way when its time" mentality with dating.

dont hate me but i think bakugou is the type of person to not "fall in love at first sight"

if he does find you interesting though, its because of the sole reasons of either your quirk or your personality. thats it- no other reason.

secretly probably has a thing for thick/curvy/muscular women, you cannot tell me otherwise.

once you two start talking more he'll secretly enjoy the way you yap when it comes to things you like or about something you genuinely cant stand.

i think bakugou wont be the one to make the first move unless like mina or someone tells him that you secretly have a fat crush on him as well.

on the other hand, if you were to confess to him he would try to act as nonchalant as possible but would be embarrassed, happy + his ego would definitely inflate.

once you both go public it is OVER for all the other "extras". bakugou would be showing you off left and right- "hey you see that hottie over there? guess what? shes mine- now look the other way!"

would be lowk scared that his brash personality would make you leave him for someone else, but you would always insist he was all you ever needed and thats all he needed to go back to the cocky bastard you know and love.

is a SUCKER for random compliments and physical touch. you hold his hand on the way out the class? instant butterflies. "your eyes are so pretty suki..!" fuck. he was whipped for you.

bakugou loves it when you massage his back or shoulders after a hard day of training. oh, and when you run your hands through his hair? hes on cloud nine.

loves cooking for you, but leaves the baking to you. he absolutely CANNOT bake for his life. would get too frustrated after having to do the same step multiple times because the recipe called for it and would just end up combining all the steps in one.

wont admit it but he loves when you use him as your walking heater. "bakugou im crampinggggg..." "here..." he says as he places his palm on your stomach as you sigh in content. he cant help but find it adorable when you force yourself on him if he doesnt do it himself.

last but not least... sleeping. hates being the small spoon because it makes him feel unimportant :( will sometimes stay up just to see your cheeks squished on to his chest as you sleep- dont be surprised to see photos of you like that on his phone.

slow mornings with bakugou is so sweet and soft. he would definitely press small kisses to your neck after each compliment he would say about you. only when youre asleep ofc. if you wake up and show even the slightest sign of knowing what he did, he would take a pillow and smack your face with it 100%. all with love though ofc. besides, its not like you didnt know about it for months now.

lol idek if this is good since its my first time but uhhhh lmk what yall think.

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imaginarypasta · 1 year

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thinking again about a young kaeya giving “subtle hints” (they’re more than subtle, naturally. he’s so concerned with not being found out that they’re way too tiny to really be notable. but pretending for a moment that they are or saying the other ragnvindrs are just as observant as he is) (alternatively, him just being generally bad at keeping it a secret, which is a total possibility but i personally & unfortunately like the idea that he was good at it) while growing up but just no one noticing them when he worked up the courage and desire to give them. (either because they really were so subtle or) just because no one has any frame of reference for what he’s talking about to even consider that as a possibility. like obviously that ties into how much anyone knows about khaenri’ah (its current state, though possibly historically as well) which i would argue is ambiguous at best and outright resistant that anyone knows about it(s current state) at worst (jean is. a wrench obviously, but i can make the jump so it makes sense to me that she talks about it), but it’s still fun & heartbreaking!!

#personal #this deals w him as a kid obv. i could say more abt when he’s an adult #the context that got me thinking abt it was then and i think it being then allows for a severity and directness his current character #doesn’t quite allow #just the fact it’s something that’s been there for years/that he knew the whole time UGH #it’s far from my favorite hc or aspect of him or even aspect of his childhood #but i’ve been thinking about it all morning 🤧#and even if he does choose to keep it so wrapped up that he doesn’t even hint yk how he feels that they don’t just know #both bc he wants them to but also because he’s very smart and perceptive so he figures stuff out why dont they #and personally i like that alongside him not wanting them to know bc he is uncertain abt keeping them then #and obviously that characterizes him with a particular kind of melancholy that i find… difficult #bc i dont want to imply it stands in opposition to how i generally see him as satisfied w and even happy w his life in mondstadt #but alsooo i think it is a melancholy that’s present in him to some extent and very much present in what we know abt his father #and i would argue perhaps present in the character of other khaenri’ahns or at least how characters talk about it #not historically perhaps but as it is (or isn’t) currently #which is to say im iffy abt making him… idk sad abt it for reasons i wont get into bc this is long enough #not sad like the emotion trust i’ve read my own fics & acknowledge them but like sad as his #fundamental & main personality traits *both*#and not that im rejecting that idea fully but this isn’t the time to discuss that perhaps #ANYWAY i like the melancholy for him to an extent and i really like his complex feelings shout the ragnvindrs #and all of that has just very much been on my mind

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blackstarising · 1 year

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#adwoa blahs #okay now that i'm twenty whatever i'm gonna try to turn the nozzle down on the self pity in these sort of posts #but i feel like being single - for ME at least feels like walking around with a gash on your knee #and it's like. sort of healed but it's still open #and you're walking around as girlies tend to do and maybe you trip or some dust gets in there or you walk in a pole #and for those 30 seconds it's quite literally the most excruciating pain you're ever going to experience in your life #and you almost scream 'OWWWWW' almost as if your cut offended you by existing #i was watching second sky as porter girlies are wont to do and there was this bit during 'sweet time'#where he was like 😃 found her! and i got SO SAD #like sir OWWWW you've hurt my [pardon my french] freaking feelings and now it's gonna be a whole thing for the rest of the night #you already got me once bc i can't even listen to blossom #i skip that song every damn time because it just gets me down #i want to be happy for people when they find love but [plunges hands into the earth] why is it so hard for me #yes yes timing luck it's not a reflection of my self worth but also every single moment of the day it is entirely my fault #and i have failed this very basic adult task by not being h*t enough. or whatever #anyways i used to do this in college a lot - the venting as it were - and i ended up deleting those posts #begrudgingly keeps this one up bc i just wanted to get this out before the horror hours

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flwrkisses · 5 months

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boyfriend! ni-ki.

HAPPY (late) RIKI DAAAAY!! wishing the happiest and sweetest birthday to our lovely riki. celebrating by writing all my lovely ni-ki stans a little headcannon. enjoy!

genre: fluff. established relationship. idol! x reader. headcannon.

warning: some mentions of arguments and skin ship like kissing and cuddling.

❀˖° heeseung jay jake sunghoon sunoo jungwon ni-ki ..

- you and riki had been introduced to eachother by mutual friends. he for some reason found himself always wanting to impress you each time he saw you. thats how he found out he liked you.

- the weird feeling he would get in his chest when he saw you was actually just the butterflies. even if he didn't want to admit it. so, one day after talking to jake for a really long time about his feelings he finally got the confidence to tell you how he felt.

- he honestly was ready for rejection so when you told him you were also interested in him, took him off guard. he probably would need a moment to register what exactly to do next. but from that day on you guys just assumed you were dating without any proper question. you both admitted feelings for each other.. so you guys just assumed thats how relationships start.

- the first date would probably be to a movie in the park or maybe a shopping run that turned into a cafe and boba date on accident.

- riki is usually very private about his relationships.. however, if someone gets on his nerves he plays the "at least im actually dating someone!" card to rub in their face that he managed to find someone who loves and cares about him.

- he's a mean boyfriend, meaning that he will tease you, poke fun at you and play pranks on you because thats how he shows his love. however, you must retaliate in return if not its not fun.

- sometimes when you're walking down the street while holding hands he purposefully trips you and chuckles when you stumble only for you to try and trip him back. this usually leads to you guys almost tackling eachother in the middle of the sidewalk.

- he also finds it funny when he holds his hand out against your head to stop you from getting closer to him. he's tall and has long arms so he thinks its funny but after a while he gives in and pulls you close.

- you know he loves to mess around and tease you however, no matter how much he playfully bullies you he's actually very protective of you. lots of his jokes come from a place of love. however, if someone else were to make fun of you the way he did he couldn't find it funny at all.

- despite how playful he is. he would die for your touch. he loves melting into your arms and holding you. believe it or not he's a lot clinger than you'd imagine.

- in private he's putty in your hands but around his hyungs or anyone else he tries to play it cool.

- he draws you things on any serface if you give him enough time and a writing utensil. they're usually cute drawings of a couple that he says are the two of you. he leaves these little doodles on your shopping lists, notebooks, sticky notes, white boards.

- when you visit him while he's at practice he gets so excited because he loves seeing you when he's in his element. he shows off just for you and asks you if you thought he looked cool while dancing.

- riki finds your height difference to be extremely cute. he loves pointing out how short you are compared to him. he loves feeling tall around you. please ask him to get things off the top shelf.

- he's going to ask to borrow your hair tie, and never give it back so he can wear it around his wrist or keep it on his nightstand as evidence he's with someone.

- something you noticed is that he'd "accidentally" leave his shirts or hoodies at your place in hopes that you'd wear it. and when you do he melts a little inside.

- when shopping he usually likes to take you with him so you can tell him what you think about clothes. he wont buy something you don't like. if you're not with him expect pictures of clothes on him or facetime calls for your opinion.

- riki loves hearing your voice so even when he's sleepy from a long day working, he'll call you just to hear you talk about your day. his deep raspy voice usually just humming along to your words to let you know he's listening.

- most times he ends up falling asleep with you on call, regardless of if it's a video chat or regular phone call. he feels comfortable enough to do that with you so it's sweet. plus he works so hard you can't possibly be upset.

- he gets a lot if his dating and relationship advice from jake because in his eyes he thinks he's the most romantic. so most big romantic gestures from riki is usually something jake told him to do for you.

- pda is a big no for him, maybe simple hand holding or a quick hug would be okay. but he gets way too shy to actually kiss you or be overly touchy with you in public.

-but, he does like to see you wearing his clothes or matching shoes with him. its a little cheesy but he can't get enough of it. it's a little nod that you belong to each other.

- on his phone your contact would be something like "my loser." or "nerd." something not too romantic incase someone takes his phone and makes fun of him for having such a lovey dovey name for you.

- his home screen is a picture of you though. you're not looking at the camera and it's kinda blurry but he knows it's you and he loves looking at the candid pictures he's taken of you. loves it so much that it makes one of them his hime screen.

- riki loves thrill especially thrill rides so even if you don't like them he would drag you to ride rollercoasters or fast rides with him.

- he does love to kiss you though. after the first kiss he was addicted and is always looking forward the next kiss. however he would die inside if anyone every caught you both kissing.

- arguments are something unavoidable. especially when riki can be a little bit of a hot-head about things and prideful. he kinda sucks at apologizing or talking things out so space from each other usually helps you both cool down.

- after a couple days you both realize how much you miss each other and end up forgetting why you were upset with each other in the first place.

- a fault in him is saying yes to anything you want to do or ask for. sometimes he doesn't realize what exactly he's agreeing to. this has gotten him into a lot of very interesting situations with you. like ending up in the salon next to you getting his nails and toes done, or taste testing weird herbal teas, or even getting his hair dyed to slightly match yours.

- after a long day, you both just melt into the sofa and scroll on your phones for hours. just watching tiktoks or something similar. occasionally reaching over to show each other something funny.

- if you're not doing your weekly tiktok scroll with him on the sofa, you're probably cuddling and watching an anime. you guys take turns picking which one to watch. its also a nice way to spend time together since he loves to order food and make a date night out of it.

- when going out with you to a place where theres music and dancing involved. regardless on if you can or can't dance he would pull you to dance floor to dance with him. a big smile on his face as he watches you move and enjoy yourself.

- he is so supportive of you no matter what. he would promote your projects you choose to do regardless of what it is. he always has your back, and encourages you to do what you love.

- just expect impromptu dance parties while listening to music. you guys could be chilling and having music in the background when he pulls you up and just playfully dances with you.

- when watching a romance movie and they do something cool, like kiss under stars, or set up a romantic camp site, or something of that nature he can't help but look at you and say "lets do that."

- he would never tell you, but praise goes such a long way with him. he wants to hear that he's doing well and that you're proud of him. so when you vocalize it he loves it.

- in the beginning of the relationship he says things like. "saying 'i love you' is so cheesy." only to be the one who says it over and over later in your relationship. when you wake up, when you part ways for the day, when you go to bed. all the time.

- riki would also have a polaroid of you on the back of his clear phone case because he thinks it's cute. and regardless of how old the photo is he wont change it.

- overall, riki's a sweet but, mischievous type boyfriend. he lives and breathes for you and wont let you forget it with how much he playfully annoys you. there is nothing he wont do to make you happy or to hear your laugh that he loves so much.

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