#kissed this guy (JOKINGLY) while i was drunk but im flirting with this other guy and i feel guilty about it

[mathswizard]

aaGH holyh shit ! I think i did something fucking stupid

#kissed this guy (JOKINGLY) while i was drunk but im flirting with this other guy and i feel guilty about it #and when he finds out he wont be happy :-) #jesus fucking christ WHY DID I FUCKING DO THAT #He literally just said (my name) give us a kiss and i did it no second thoughts #that guy and me aren't official yet and im hoping that softens the blow but fuck #i got bad person syndrome #mathswizard vent

[lynlmao]

Hiii! Could you do one were Quackity and you were dating in secret (you are both streamers) and at a party while Quackity is super drunk he starts a Twitter Space (that thing that's like a stream but only voice) and he starts talking about you and how much he loves you, until u find him (maybe he was in a room by himself or something) and he starts asking for kisses while you still dont know that he's doing the twitter space??

Secret relationship 🔐

cc!Quackity x gn!reader hcs [SFW]

cw: swearing, mentions of drinking / alcohol

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Tbh he’s always been more secretive about his life outside his career. Meaning you, his s/o, isn’t introduced until you and him are 100% about revealing your relationship.

But for the fun of it, you and him “jokingly” flirt with each other on camera for your fans reactions but then he’d call you after the stream and be like:

“babeeee was everything u said true?😏”

And when you admit that you meant everything you said, with he’d literally be all mushy n teasing u like

”yk we can recreate your little joke you made during the stream..😍”

You feel your cheeks start to heat up but instead of admitting defeat to him, you flirt back. Making his heart pound even faster than it already was.

im actually NOT good at flirting so pls pretend you came up with an actual good pickup line or something😭

The QSMP members also know the relationship between you two and they’d follow along with the teasing.

But one night, you and Alex get invited to a content creator party. And since both of you were free, why not just go for it?

Upon arrival there was flashing lights, loud music, and the strong scent of alcohol and drink. Right off the bat, you two were greeted by a bunch of people— basically what you’d expect at an average party🤷🏻‍♀️

You two have tried to stay together partying for at least 2 or 3 hours so far and Alex already starts to get superr drunk.

Everything starts to go downhill when he stumbles into an empty room and starts a twitter space. Like with no thoughts, just out of the blue.

He decided to talk about you butwas slurring his words, confusing his audience at first until they realized who he was talking about.

”gUYysssss……I’m at a party aaand..I dunno where my baby went 😞”

”their smile, the way they lauuughh~...I’m in love with everything about them….😕💗”

”I wonduhr when they come back— you guys don’t think they left me..rIGHT?!!?!?🤔😭”

“Y/n is liTTURAHLY the luv of my lifeeee🤗.”

In the meantime, you sobered up a bit after realizing your bf was nowhere to be found, you started to panic and asked people if they’ve seen your boyfriend anywhere

After like 10 minutes, u found him sitting in a corner of an empty room and he got excited again :3

”OMGOMGOMG GUyyss!! my sweetheart is back!!!😸😘”

You run towards him calling out his name as you hug him feeling relieved, you peppered kisses all over his face.

hes such a cutie patootiieeee when he’s happy. Especially when he’s drunk!!! i swear he’s just melting in your arms, starting over his rant about how you’re the love of his life🤗

”guyys, im gonna fucking marry them…just wait for it…..😽”

Until it took you a second to realize.

”….”guys”??? Babe am i forget something 😭??”

”Wha—..….oh shit.”

You look at him confused as he rushes to his phone. He immediately ends the twitter space but it’s too late, “quackity x y/n confirmed” is already trending on twitter and clips of the twitter live was recorded and posted all over social media.

He explained what happened and he apologized. Poor boy felt so guilty for being reckless but you reassured him that it’s going okay and that you guys will figure out what to do next.

The next day, you both decided to stream to clear up what happened last night.

While waiting for everyone to join in, the first batch of people were already questioning you two but after the 5 minute wait, you guys reveal yourselves.

”Good afternoon chat!!!” You can tell Alex is a little nervous because he knows his fan base is all sorts of surprises, but you hold his hand under the desk letting him know it’s gonna be alright.

“So, it’s already pretty obvious what this stream is about and at this point we’re just gonna get straight to the point. Yes, we are dating.”

He goes on explaining how the situation happened and the chat absolutely blows up. Luckily, both of you noticed that there was no negativity in the chat but you guys stream for an hour, answering questions and talking about how you two kept it a secret for so long.

After the stream, both of you were SO relieved. At last both of you wouldn’t have to lie and make up stupid excuses anymore💗.

You guys knew there was gonna be at least some people who are disgusted or annoyed but tbh you guys just ignore those mfs🥰‼️‼️

All of the QSMP members are extremely happy and excited for you two, mostly cause they get to tease Alex even more than before 💀

anon, I’m sosososo sorry if u meant like an actual short story😭 I’m more comfortable writing in a jot note form rn and I know that I should probably start trying to get out of my comfort zone but everytime I actually try writing a story with actual paragraphs I just cringe at myself and end up deleting the draft..😓

#asks #qsmp #quackity #quackity blurb #quackity headcannons #quackity x reader #quackity fanfic #quackity imagine #alex quackity x reader #quackity x you #quackity x y/n

[honestlywtfisgoingon]

A Match Set

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Pairing: Benny Watts x Reader

Summary: After meeting one night in New York, you and Benny Watts are drawn to each other. As you go through different experiences with one another, you grow closer until it finally gets to be too much for Benny.

Word Count: 1890

Warnings: none

Notes: aye this is my first fic because there is a serious lack of benny watts fics and i had to change that for myself. this will probably be multiple chapters that can be read separately.

It was your first art gallery, and you were both anxious and overjoyed to see people surveying your work. You had put so many hours into each piece and all kinds of people had poured in to look. It was a well known gallery, but the variety still surprised you. You looked around and saw some interesting characters, but your interest was piqued when your eyes fell upon a particular cowboy.

He was inspecting one of your favorite paintings which had chess pieces as the subject. The pieces merely served as part of a metaphor in your art, as the game and all its complexities had never really been your thing. As you looked closer at the man you realized that, not only had his outfit sparked your interest, but he seemed familiar too. Out of curiosity, you walked over and stood next to him.

“What are your thoughts?” You asked, motioning towards the painting.

His initial expression showed surprise that you were talking to him, but he recovered quickly, saying, “It’s good. I think the artist has talent.” You felt a bit of pride hearing that. You opened your mouth to say thanks, but you decided not to reveal yourself. You wanted him to give his honest opinion without fear of offending you.

“So do you like chess?” He nodded to the painting. Hearing this you made the connection as to why you remembered seeing him before. Your father owned a little bookshop back home and you were looking into chess for the same painting you were discussing right now. You had seen this cowboy on the back of one of those books, but you hadn’t given it another thought, never actually expecting to meet him. You decided not to reveal this information either and continued with the conversation.

“I can play a modest game. You?”

“I can play a modest game.” He had a small smile as he shrugged.

“Your first lie.” You said smirking back.

He looked confused but curious, so you explained about your research, your fathers bookshop, the whole story. He puffed up a bit after hearing that, looking impressed that you knew who he was.

“What’s your name?” He asked, still curious.

“Y/n” you replied.

“Nice name. I’m Benny, but you already seem to know who I am. On the other hand I don’t know anything about you.” He reached out his hand to shake yours.

“You walk in here with a black trench coat but you make me out to be the mysterious one,” you smirked as you took his hand. He chuckled a bit, and after your introduction, you asked why he was here.

“My friend knows the artist actually. She told us we had to see her work before going out.” You hummed as you thought about what to say, but he interjected.

“I don’t usually do this, and I’m not sure why I’m doing this now, but maybe you’d consider coffee with me. I won’t tell anymore lies” he joked.

You laughed a little, mildly shocked. “you’re not sure why? That’s flattering” you teased.

“Not what I meant-“ but before you could come to a conclusion on his sudden offer, you heard an excited french accent.

“Y/n! Im so proud! You finally got to show off all that talent!” Your friend Cleo ran up to you and wrapped her arms around you. You hadn’t seen her since you lived in France for a few months and you had missed her. You left for France after you realized you weren’t really needed at home, so you dedicated yourself to trying to soak up some culture. She looked gorgeous like you remembered, fitting for a model. You continued your reunion embrace for a moment before she waved her arms to the men and woman behind her. She introduced the friends she had brought to your show as Arthur, Hilton, and Annette, who all smiled at you. Cleo paused to turn to the cowboy saying, “I see you’ve already met Benny.”

“Yeah we met,” he said, “but I didn’t know this was your work. I would’ve told you how impressed I am.” Your cheeks turned a light pink at the praise.

“Look at Benny, impressed with someone besides himself for once.”Cleo poked fun and the group let out a laugh.

“Hey I’m not a narcissist or anything, don’t listen to Cleo,” Benny made excuses to you, only mildly offended.

“Sure you aren’t. I have nothing against narcissists,” you jokingly assured him. This answer didn’t comfort the man who had essentially just asked you on a date.

You and Cleo continued to catch up and you talked more with her friends as well. Benny just stood next to you, and you caught him glancing at you once or twice, but you just ignored it. Eventually you agreed to go out for drinks with the group, walking with them to a bar a couple blocks down called Hal’s.

You all squeezed into a booth while Arthur went off to get drinks. You sat on the outside, watching the people out on the floor next to you giggling and dancing. Having a couple of drinks beforehand must’ve contributed to the large amount of people out there, you thought. Arthur eventually announced his return by laying a tray of drinks in the middle of the table.

You were all conversing and sipping on your drinks when Annette decided she wanted to dance. Cleo agreed enthusiastically, but the rest of us refused. She suggested we all take shots to make it easier, but once again we tried to turn her down. she pleaded, “come on guys, it’s a Saturday night, and you can’t possible lose something from it. Have a little bit of fun with me!”

We relented, having a feeling that she wasn’t going to give up any time soon. She gave a little clap and handed out the shots. You knocked yours back with everyone else and grimaced at the bitter taste. Shaking it off, you slid out of the booth so the others could get out. You moved back into your spot after they all made their way to the throng of people. You decided you would join them later, but you liked to observe first. You looked over and the only two left were you and Benny. You slid over to him, not wanting to sit awkwardly on the other end like he wasn’t there.

“I bet you five bucks that lady is bored out of her mind.” He pointed to a blonde on a date across the bar, “Either she’s an alcoholic or she’s trying to tune out baldie.” You looked at the woman and saw she was surrounded by empty glasses while the man in front of her seemed like he was boasting endlessly. You both started making observations about the various people in the bar. Most of them were snarky comments that you whispered into each other’s ears, giggling, but you also created imaginary lives for them, guessing who they were and how they got here. After sharing a couple laughs, you sighed and reached a comfortable lull before Benny brought up what you knew was coming.

“So have you thought about my earlier question?” He eyed you seriously all of a sudden, but you didn’t feel any pressure. He seemed the type of confident where he thought you would say yes, but he could recover if you said no.

You weighed in your impression of him. He was cute, with fluffy hair and nice eyes that were a kind of chocolate color. He was funny and you he seemed intelligent (I mean he had to be, he played competitive chess). Albeit his trench coat and hat were a bit eccentric, but that wasn’t a bad thing, in fact you found it attractive.

“So have you?” He asked again, leaning his head in.

“Oh uh” you hadn’t realized while you were thinking that you had zoned out looking at him. Clearing your throat you said, “I’m free for coffee.” You stopped, “But you have to wear the hat.”

“Wouldn’t leave home without it” he winked.

Suddenly you were shoved against him as your tipsy friends barreled back into the booth.

“We should probably join them” you said as you moved off him, pushing one of the leftover drinks towards him. He nodded and you both drank some more just to get on the same level as your friends.

“You two haven’t even danced! I saw you whispering. Too busy flirting?” Annette smiled as she slurred a few of her words. You just looked down, cheeks pink, leaving Benny to respond.

“How were you watching us when you were dancing with that guy, the one who looks like he’s only ever kissed his mother.”

“No, I’m sure he’s kissed other people! I mean he did seem young but...” Annette looked over to the guy she dragged to dance with her earlier. He stood sheepishly in the corner, looking like he hadn’t outgrown his baby fat yet, and was definitely not a city type. “He’s just shy!” She defended, but me and Benny just looked at each other, falling into giggles. You figured out that night that Annette was one of those drunks who got a little childish, but she was sweet.

You would’ve been content to keep hanging out with Benny, if it hadn’t been for Cleo who grabbed your hand and pulled you out to the dance floor. You looked back at Benny, but gave in and allowed her to twirl you into the crowd. You were having a good time with Cleo, Hilton and Arthur dancing on either side of her. You were soon out of breath, but didn’t mind, enjoying it all.

You had moved to the city a couple months ago, but hadn’t had time to make friends, focusing on your work and setting up your apartment. You missed having company, people who were fun and interesting.

You continued to move to the beat of the song until you bumped into someone. You looked back to see Benny smiling next to you. You smiled back and let him in to the little circle you and your friends had created. You felt a little warm, not from the dancing, but from being close to him.

After fifteen minutes you were all tired and made your way to the booth to gather all your things up and pay the bill. You walked out of the bar and into the chilly night air, grateful for the residual body heat that came from all the dancing. You hugged Cleo and your new friends goodbye as took turns getting into taxis and headed towards their homes. Hilton offered to wave you down a taxi too, but you declined, explaining that your home wasn’t a far walk. He shrugged and gave you another hug before climbing into the yellow car. Once again it was just you and Benny.

“Just the two of us again huh?” He spoke, and he definitely didn’t sound turned off by the idea.

“Fate I guess.”

“Sure” he said casually.

“Do you not believe in fate?” You asked. You weren’t a firm believer in the idea but something in his tone made you curious.

“I’ve had this debate before I think. I’m not sure, but I’d like to figure it out. How about you?” He said. You imagined him having a lot of debates. You had just met him, but he seemed to fall into the intellectual category. They always kept things interesting, and frequently offered new perspectives.

“I mean everything’s gotta mean something, there has to be a purpose. I just don’t know if we make our own purpose or if we’re given a purpose; fate.” You mused, not meaning to get existential. He didn’t seem to mind.

“You seem like the type to want to figure things out too.” He said ‘too’. So you and him both liked to do that. You added that to the growing list of things you liked about him.

“I guess I am.” He had a pleased look on his face and you just shrugged as you started to say goodbye.

“Wait” he grabbed your arm, “I heard you say you didn’t live far, I could walk you.” Before you could protest he told you, “it wouldn’t be a big deal, I heard you tell Hilton where you lived, we’re in the same direction.”

You agreed, finding yourself wanting to talk to him more. He offered you his arm casually and you laughed to yourself a little at the gesture, taking it anyway. You walked down the sidewalk, talking and laughing. You felt comfortable as you felt like you leveled with him. It seemed like too short of a walk as you suddenly found yourself at the door of your apartment building.

“Guess this is goodnight.” Benny said as you both stood on the sidewalk.

“What about coffee?” You asked.

“Glad you remembered. I’ll pick you up at twelve tomorrow, we can make it lunch. I’ll pick you up.” He said it decidedly, like it was just a fact. Something you noticed he did often.

“Ok then. Lunch. Tomorrow. Am I forgetting anything?” You said as you stepped halfway into the doorway.

“If you are we can figure that out later. I’ll see you.” He waved with a slight smile.

You waved back and smiled in return, watching him walk away before closing the door. You sped up to your apartment, letting yourself finally feel the excitement and anticipation of going out. You stripped off your clothing as soon as you got in and flopped on your bed, feeling sort of giddy. You felt like you and Benny were connected, though you had barely met him. As you laid down you smiled to yourself, looking forward to tomorrow.

#benny watts #benny watts x reader #the queen’s gambit #beth harmon #benny watts fanfiction #fan fiction

[lonely-teddy-bear]

RAFE CAMERON SMUT PLEASEEE about him and the reader being best friends, and he gets jealous of her and topper. so one night, he pushes her into the bathroom and takes her right then and there

Edge of desire

word count: 3.18k

warnings: 18+, NSFW, pure smut :) ALSO CONSENT FIRST AND USE PROTECTION ALL THE TIME :)

A/N: IM BACK AND I HOPE YOU ENJOY THIS. IM SORRY IT TOOK SO LONG TO POST THIS BUT I HOPE THIS IS GOOD. 

You were currently at a party at the residence of the Cameron’s. It was normal for you to be at their home every weekend because they threw parties and because you were best friends with Sarah and Rafe, especially Rafe. You felt closer to Rafe than Sarah and after Sarah started dating a pogue you might have drifted off a little but still had a close connection. Rafe didn’t mind spending all his time with you, in fact he loved having you around. 

Now parties were not your favorite thing because it meant you would have to take care of Rafe. He would always get drunk or high or both and if he was doing coke on the coffee table then you were more aware of your surroundings. Things always seemed to get out of control at his parties and you hated them. You hated them more because you were scared for Rafe and his addiction. You had been by his side and tried to help him and have had long talks with him. At first they worked but at some point he just wouldn’t care. But tonight was different, he wasn’t doing drugs, actually you haven’t seen him do drugs at his parties, he would drink but not do drugs. 

You were in the kitchen leaning on the counter while holding a drink. You were watching everyone having fun and laughing and then you saw Rafe by the doorway. You caught him looking at you throughout the night but you would just smile at him and continue drinking and dancing. 

You were brought back to reality when you felt an arm around your waist and turned around to see it was Topper. 

Now you might have had a small crush on Topper but because he dated Sarah you didn’t want to create drama but dating him even though she said it was fine. 

“Hey beautiful. Been looking for you all night. What are you doing in the kitchen?” You smiled at him and just shrugged. 

You raised your red cup to him to show him you were drinking, “just wanted to drink alone. You know how I feel about parties.” You heard him chuckle while you looked back at the crowd. You didn’t know who you were looking for but you were looking for them. 

“Yeah I know but,” you felt him pull you from your waist towards his body and whisper in your ear. “I could make your night funner you know.” You looked at him and looked at his eyes and you couldn’t help but to look at his lips. He didn’t say anything but smirked at you and you saw him leaning in ready to kiss you. 

You felt your heart pound even though this wasn’t your first time kissing him, you’ve actually hooked up and always flirt with each other. 

Rafe, who was at the end of the other room was staring at you kissing his guy best friend. He has seen you many times kiss him and flirt with him and he always shook it off but he always tried to forget it by using drugs but he had given them up just for you. 

He had heard you crying to Sarah one night about how she felt and how she was always scared that you might die one day because of the drugs. He had never felt so heartbroken and since that night he decided to show her that he had quit but thought she didn’t notice. 

He had been drinking the same cup of beer through the night and the now empty cup was being squeezed in his hands. He was seeing red when looking at Topped pulling you towards him while he leaned on the kitchen counter and you in his body. You were on your tippy toes due to the height difference and Rafe just wished that was you and him. 

Something came over Rafe that caused him to walk over to get a cup of beer and then walk towards the couple making out in the kitchen. 

He pretend as if he wasn't looking where he was going when he bumped into your shoulder and spilled the beer over your dress. You stopped kissing Topper and turned around cursing under your breath. “What the fuck. Rafe? What the hell?” You saw him and he just looked at Topper and then at you. 

“Oops guess you’ll have to go clean yourself up, maybe even change.” He looked down at your now wet dress and then looked back up at you with a smirk. You rolled your eyes at him and his childish acts. You turned towards Topper and excused yourself and told him how sorry you were. Topper said nothing to you because he was glaring at Rafe for ruining his moment. 

Rafe just smirked at him while he grabbed your and pulled away from Topper and away from the kitchen. 

You didn’t argue and followed him up the stairs and thought he was taking you to the bathroom to clean yourself up, but instead ended up in his room. You looked at him in confusion. 

“You need to change clothes, that's why I brought you to my room. You can use the bathroom to clean yourself up.” You rolled your eyes at him and walked towards the bathroom. You didn’t bother closing the door because you were going to wait for him to bring your clothes. In the meantime you were cleaning your dress with a wet towel to get the smell of beer off which was useless because you were becoming wetter. 

You looked up to the mirror when you heard Rafe clear his throat. He had a shirt in his hand but he was staring at you with dark eyes. You couldn’t see his blue eyes and his eyes seemed to darken up when he was angry. 

“Are you okay Rafe?” He didn’t say anything but walked deeper into the bathroom and closed the door behind him. 

You looked at him confused. “Rafe…. what are you doing?” He walked closer to you and when he was close enough he placed the shirt he had in his hand by the sink and leaned down to your ear. 

“You know I really don’t like seeing you with Topper. It drives me crazy when you kiss him, when you flirt with him, and you do it all in front of me.” He talked with gritted teeth sounding more serious and more mad. You felt his hand touching yours and then slowly trailing his finger up, goosebumps appearing at every touch he left behind. 

“I stopped doing drugs and getting blackout drunk for you, and for what? To just get ignored and for you to go after my fucking best friend?” You didn’t say anything but swallowed because you weren’t scared but you felt something else. 

His hand reached up to your collarbone and then felt him wrap his hand around your throat. You weren’t faced because he always jokingly choked you when fake fighting but this time it turned you on. 

“I want you to want me, not Topper. Does he make you feel the things I do to you? Because trust me babe I’ve seen how you react towards me without you having a clue.” 

You had noticed the little things, like how suddenly you started feeling butterflies when he hugged you from behind or when he stared at you and told you how beautiful you looked even when you had just gotten out of bed. You noticed how he started hanging more with you than with his friends, he started getting along with the pogues because you told him to stop. You saw him change and you knew the things he did to you but you didn’t want to admit them to yourself. 

“I want you y/n. I want to show everyone, especially Topper that you are mine and not his, I want to kiss you in front of him at parties, at gatherings, anywhere. I want to be able to leave marks on you and I want to fuck you whenever and wherever I want.” You were breathing deeper and it was harder to swallow. You felt him kiss you behind the ear and started trailing kisses down your neck. He moved so he could be in front of you and to be able to have more access to your neck. You moved your head back and let out a moan when he found your sweet spot. The hand on your neck moved to the back of your neck and moved up to grab you from the hair. While he pulled your head back by the hair he kissed down lower towards your chest and then you felt him lick you. Your eyes widened at the feeling of his tongue on your chest. He moaned and licked you more. 

“You taste like beer and something sweet.” He pulled away from you and looked at you and then at your wet dress. 

“You’re gonna remove that or will I have to rip it from you?” Your eyes widened and quickly pulled your dress down not wanting him to rip it because it was one of your favorites and one of his. 

He didn’t look away from your eyes as you removed your dress, struggling from how tight it was from where it was wet.

Once the dress was on the floor Rafe picked you up by the hips and placed you in the sink. You winced at the coldness of the counter touching your thighs but quickly forgot about it when you felt Rafe’s lips touch yours. One of his hands were in your hips while the other one was on your neck. You couldn’t help but to moan on his lips from how rough he was kissing you. Your arms wrapped around his neck, pulling him closer, you couldn’t help but to wrap your legs around his hips. The hand that was on your neck moved to your waist and pulled you closer to him. 

You moaned when you felt something poking you in between your legs. One of your hands moved from his neck and trailed down his body and down to his pants. You placed your hands over his bulge and felt him tense up and let out a moan when you pushed your hand harder making him feel pressure. He moved his lips from yours and looked at you in your eyes before giving you one last kiss.

“You shouldn’t have done that babe.” He moved away from you and didn’t look away. He was smirking while he unbuckled his pants and pushed them down along with his boxers. Your eyes widened when you saw how big he was. He walked closer to you, he placed a hand under your chin making you look up to his eyes. “Hope you know how to keep quiet, unless you want the whole party to hear you, even Topper.”

You gulped and then yelled when he pulled you off the counter and turned you around making you face the mirror. You felt his hand on your back, pushing you down on the counter so your ass was in the air for him. You felt exposed but you didn’t care because it was all for Rafe. you felt his hands roam from your back and move down to your ass. You looked up to see him through the mirror and saw him looking down at you and then looked up, catching you watching. He sent you a wink, then continued looking down with a smirk. You felt his hands go to your hips and yelped at the burning sensation of your underwear being ripped from your body. 

“Rafe!” You couldn’t help but to scream at him, he had just ripped some new pair of undies and for him to just rip them?

“Shhhh save that for later,” he winked at you through the mirror and looked back down. He found this funny but not you.

You continued looking at him through the mirror but gasped when you felt him slide his cock into your pussy. You closed your eyes and tried to get used to his size but he didn’t give you time because he was already pulling and pushing back in. One hand moved from your waist to your hair and grabbed it, making you open your eyes and gasping. You were used to him pulling your hair when you play fighting but this was different, he was pulling your hair while he fucked you in his bathroom counter.

The hold on your hair and waist would get tighter the faster he went. You could see his face and how much he was enjoying it and you could also see your makeup running from your eyes. You felt your breast rubbing against the counter and at some point you placed your hands on the mirror so you wouldn’t hit yourself.

“Fuck Y/n, you feel so good. You are so good at being quiet, a little too quiet for my liking.” You looked at him and saw him smirking and you knew what he was thinking.

He stopped funking you and pulled you up by the hair making you squeal. He wrapped an arm around your breasts and the other one went to your lower waste. You could still feel him inside of you which made you be on your tippy toes to make it easier for him to fuck you. He gave you a kiss on the neck before sliding back deeper into you. You moaned at the new feeling, you leaned your head back while he thrusted into you. The hand on your waist moved lower and tensed up when you felt his hand go to your cunt. You felt him rub you, causing you to moan but felt him stop just so he could grab you by the chin and make you face the mirror. 

“I want you to watch me fuck you and touch you. Got it?” You nodded and didn’t look away from him. You saw his hand move back down to where it was before and saw him rub you. You could still feel him fucking you but stopped for a moment to change places. You felt him push his cock in into the other hole making you gasped and moan out loud. You saw him smirk through the mirror and at first you thought he was enjoying this but instead he pushed his finger inside you which made you moan louder. Rafe started fucking you faster, making you walk foward so you could lean on the counter but it didn’t stop him from adding another finger inside you. He kept going faster in both ends and you didn’t know what to do but to touch your chest and move a hand down to touch yourself. Rafe knew what you were doing but didn’t stop you. His other hand moved towards your neck, choking you lightly and making you lean up towards his body.

“I want to see you touch yourself while I fuck you with my cock and my fingers.” He kissed the back of your neck and didn’t stop ficking you until you were moaning nonstop and whimpering.

“Rafe please, I need to- I need to come.” He didn’t have to hear you twice because he was on edge as well and just wanted you to come already. He stopped ficking you, he pulled his fingers out of you and turned you around. He moved your hand away from your pussy and carried you up to the counter where you would be back seated on it. You stared at him confused but then realized what he was going to do when he got down to his knees. Your eyes widened and gasped when you felt him spread your legs wide open and kissed you on both sides of yout thighs before kissing you right where you wanted him. Your hand immediately went to his hair and pulled on it when you felt his tongue on your wet pussy. You closed your eyes and moaned when he went faster and would just move his tongue perfectly. It wasn’t long for you to feel your climax, causing you to moan and grab Rafe’s hair thighter which caused him to moan onto you. You felt his moan causing you to come faster and harder. He pulled his face away from your pussy and shoved two fingers inside and pupped faster. You could feel him staring at you, you on the other hand had your eyes closed and moaning. Once Rafe knew you were done coming he stopped and pulled his fingers out. You opened your eyes slowly and saw him leaking his fingers all while staring at you.

“You know how long I wanted to hear you moan? Especially when it was me causing that moan?” All you could do was chuckle and give him a small smile.

He cleaned himself up and fixed his pants up before turning towards the door. “I’ll et you to clean yourself up. I’ll get you your clothes.”

Once you were done cleaning yourself you opened the door and poke your head out to see if Rafe was around. You found him sitting on the corner of his bed and as if he heard you he looked up and smiled at you. “You can come out, it’s not like I haven’t seen you naked,” he chuckled before he looked back down to his phone.

You walked out and quickly grabbed the shirt that was on the bed and pulled it over your head and once you were covered you felt better. You grabbed the shorts that looked familiar. 

“Are this mine?” You looked at Rafe and saw him looking at the shorts and then at you. He nodded and gave you a raised brow, “You left them here last time you came to the pool, said about keeping extra clothes.” You nodded, remembering that you in fact had left some clothes just in case. 

Once you were all dressed up you both headed out the room and felt Rafe grab your hand but it made you pull away. He grabbed your forearm causing you to stop and look at you in pure confusion. 

“So I can’t hold your hand but I can fuck you?” You shushed him and looked around hoping no one heard him. You saw him roll his eyes.

“Y/n everyone is going to know, you look like you just had sex, especially with the marks around your neck.” You had tried hiding it with your hair but it wouldn’t work either way. You didn’t say anything and let him grab your hand and led you down the stairs back to the party.

People were staring at you both and started whispering, you looked around for Topper and when you finally found him you saw him glaring at both of you and walking away.

Guess he knew that I fucked his best friend.

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Well.

It's official. I’m off facebook. I had to. I can't continue to hurt myself obsessing over what you're doing and what people are saying about me. I can't be worried about every post I make and who may get upset or how much of my personal life I accidentally reveal. I'm struggling with myself to not give into the temptation of being petty. I want to show every single one of those girls you added this week all of the screenshots I have of you being the absolute worst. I want to tell your family that you never “went so hard” on me because I was “pulling some shit”. that never happened and you know it. You sit alone, bored, with a dry phone and so you decide to “miss me” and apologize and make all these promises that things will be different. The same promises that ive heard 1000 times already. Nothing was ever different. Just last night, when you accused me of so many things, you yourself were lying to me. Your snap count keeps going up, yet you yell at me that you're not talking to anyone and you'll delete snapchat. Why would it matter if you deleted it anyway? you just redownload it when I'm not around, just like you always have. Thats the thing. The trust is gone. You've used it up. You've taken every bit of trust I have and shattered it. I can't even go to my hometown anymore because I don't know who I can trust. Who you've poisoned. I know you're not telling anyone what really happened. I assume you're spinning a narrative along the lines of “she couldn't handle me being gone all the time and she was being a bitch so we broke up” instead of “I was unfaithful the entire relationship because I have a sex addiction, but I stopped wanting sex with her a long time ago. I also stopped loving her the way she craved to be loved. I stopped kissing her. I stopped calling her beautiful. I stopped enjoying her company on the couch for a lazy movie day. I stopped appreciating her as she held down the fort while I went away for work and flirted and partied and ignored her. While I was gone, she was at work or at home. She was paying bills and calling plumbers and yard workers, and getting estimates on fence work and painters and floor replacements. She was cooking and cleaning and caring for our dogs. She was allowing others to stay in the house because they fell on hard times. She was rehabbing baby animals and getting broken glass doors replaced. She was doing everything she could to bring light and happiness to everyone (and every animal) she could. And she was doing it all while being neglected. Doing it all for me while I was going out and disrespecting her and our commitment.” I know thats not what you're telling them, but thats the story id really like people to know. I want them to know that I cried myself to sleep every night that I would call you before bed, after not talking to you all day, and you “had nothing to say. I just worked all day. I'm tired. goodnight”. I would cry on the bathroom floor when you would come home after 3 months and never kiss me or hug me. just walk past me and ask “who's coming over tonight? lets cook!”. I would spend hours steaming floors and dusting fans and washing blankets and shampooing carpets and then I would shower and dress up and do my makeup and wear my best outfit down to the panties, and you would just come home, have people over, get sloppy drunk, and pass out, leaving me to host until everyone left, clean the mess that 10 drunk people and a bbq is bound to leave, then crawl into bed at 4 AM. Then I would get up at 6:30 to start the morning routine. Dogs out. Feed cats. Let dogs in and feed them. Feed the fish and the tortoise. Let the dogs out again. Switch the laundry, unload the dishwasher. You would just lay in bed all day. If you got up, it was probably 2 or 3 in the afternoon and you'd sit on the couch and watch tv while I did your laundry and whatever other things needed to be done that day. I would beg you to come with me for Tyson’s vet appointment, and of course you'd say no. I’d tell you my family was having a crawfish boil and you'd say you were too tired or “dont feel like being around people”. But thats not true, was it. You just didn't want to be around those people. You were always ready to go to bars and drink and ignore me. thats the people you like. the ones that don't know you and that assume you're single because you haven't touched me or kissed me or danced with me once all night. But oh... if Claire wants to dance or if a guy starts talking to Leah, you're on that shit. Cant let YOUR eye candy get taken by some guy at a bar. Yet I was forced to break a mans nose. I was forced to defend myself, because when he disrespected me, you where nowhere to be found. Probably watching some girl, too distracted to know that a man was trying to hurt me. But doing worry. I dealt with it. Im stronger than you think. I made it through all that. I made it through so many nights of hating myself and questioning what I did wrong and why I wasn't good enough. What I could do to be good enough for you. I didn't leave when you invited Linzy to sleep in your bed and stoped coming visit because she would be bored alone if you left. I didn't leave when your snapchat was all women that you would snap all day long and never save anything so I could never see it. I didn't leave when you fixated on the idea of Sadie showing her tits in new Orleans while I stood right in front of you. I also didn't leave when, that same night, you “jokingly” grabbed at her chest and when we went home, your phone “accidentally got left in the bathroom standing up in a strange place and took pictures of her in the shower”. I didn't leave. I stayed and I believed you because for a day or two after an incident you would love me again. you would kiss me and hug me and have sex with me. Then as soon as I believed you, it would stop and you'd go back to your fuck boy shit. You'd go back to “being so tired” that you couldn't call me before bed but you had time to talk to Claire and invite her to your hotel room. You couldn't be bothered to give me the attention I had been begging for, but you could find time to snapchat my sister and “dare her to flash you as a joke”. Or what about the time you “accidentally” sent her a snap of your dick in the shower?! I am so angry and so hurt. Honestly I don't even remember what the point of this post was. Its gone from having a purpose to the words jus falling out of my heart and into my keyboard. I know I made the right choice. I saw something earlier that said “Sometimes you have to break your heart to find your peace” and honestly that is what im doing. Im so hurt and so scared and I feel small and lost, but after typing all these things, I remember why I left you. I know these negative feelings will pass and my life will get back on track and ill be happy and I know that one day I will find a man that knows how to love. A man that knows how broken I am and the trauma that iv gone through and he just supports me and loves me the way I've always wanted. So im deleting facebook so that I am no longer hurt by all the lies you're spreading and all the women you're fucking. Im choosing to fix me. I am choosing to stand myself up and climb out of this rubble and keep moving forward. Im choosing to start putting myself back together so that when that man finds me, im ready to let him hold me. Also, sorry to anyone that gets stuck reading this. It is word vomit on a page and I apologize for my shit writing and rambling. I just kinda let myself type whatever came out. This is my life. this is me. Well. its at least the tip of the iceberg of the hot mess that is me. 

#feels #all the feels #big feels #dbv #I want to be petty and tell everyone the truth #but also im not a child #the ones who matter know the kind of person I am #those that dont #don't belong in my life #im just living and trying to bring joy to the world #I mean damn #I rehab baby animals and release them back into the wild #im a fucking Disney princess #I have a million animals because I can't help but take in a rescue #I give to the needy #I let 4 different people live in my house already because they fell on hard times #fuck #I do nice shit #and I do it because it feels good #not because I want points #I am a good person #so fuck you for being so bad to me #really #fuck you

[babybirdgyeom]

mine for a night, part 1 →  im jaebum

⇴ word count: 4.3 k

⇴ mentions of alcohol and sex

⇴  summary: in which you visit your old friends in your hometown and meet their new friend, Jaebum, a big flirt, who was for sure making your summer interesting.

It’s been almost a year since you last visited your hometown. Almost full 12 months since you last had the chance to see your best friends Jackson and Milly, your twin Yugyeom, your ex who now luckily is one of your close friends Jinyoung. It’s been for sure too long so you were more than excited to finally be able to drive back home over your summer break.

When you decided to leave home to study abroad you knew that missing your friends and family would be tough but you surely never expected it to be that hard. Even though you still stayed close to all of them, texting and facetiming each other all the time you wouldn’t have thought that so much can change in a year. The realization that you were missing out often hit you.

Jackson was throwing one of his famous pool partys at his house - you just got ready for it in your old room and when you saw Jackson through your window, preparing something in the garden you decided to hurry up and help your best friend and neighbor a bit. While putting on your make up you thought about all the changed that have happened in the last year. If someone told you back then that Yugyeom would have a girlfriend by the next time you see him or that Milly and Mark finally managed to become a couple you wouldn’t have believed it.

"Yugyeom!", you banged your fists against the wall of your room so that he would hear over the loud music playing in his room right beside yours. "What is it?", he asked, standing in your door frame a few moments later. Even though he acted as if he was annoyed the smile on his face gave away that he was secretly just as excited to see you again as the others. 

"Will Mina be there too today? will I finally meet this mysterious girl that stole my brothers heart?", you asked, now standing in front of him, pinching his cheek.  he's been dating her for 5 months now but his face still turns bright red everytime you mention her. he must really like her.

"Yes, I'll go and pick her up any moment.", he admitted, looking down to his feet shyly, "Don't say anything stupid please (y/n)."

you let out a laugh, "I won't. but only if you tell me what I should wear. I wanna show everyone from our old school that I still look good.", you hold up two different outfits. one dark blue summer dress that was more cute and one outfit that consisted of really tight black skinny jeans and a revealing top. you gave Yugyeom a questioning look.

you let out a laugh, “Me? Embarrassing my brother? Never.”, you said jokingly, “No no, I’m kidding. I won’t. I’m just there to show everyone from High School that I’m still good looking. Which one should I wear?”, you asked holding up two different outfits - a dark blue summer dress and another outfit that consisted of a tight black skinny jeans and a rather revealing top. You gave Yugyeom a questioning look. “Is the black one too much?”, you asked unsure.

“As your brother I have to say yes but if you finally wanna get laid again it’s perfect.”, he joked, “You haven’t met Jaebum yet, right? I bet you could impress him with that. And if you don’t you for sure could get Jinyoung back with that outfit.”, his voice was almost teasing and you decided it was would be better to throw him out because you wouldn’t get a serious answer from him anyways.

You walked over to Jackson’s house, happy to see that Milly was already there. As soon as she saw you she ran over to you, hugging you tight. You hugged her right back, realizing how much you actually missed seeing her in real life and not only through your phone screen. Jackson also came up to you and gave you a small kiss on the cheek since Milly and you wouldn't let each other go for a few moments. 

You already saw Jackson when you arrived earlier that day, he immediately came outside when he saw your car driving up the street you both lived in.

"Girl you look so hot, who you dressing up for?", she asked while cheekily raising her eyebrow.

"Trying to impress Jinyoung?", Jackson added teasing and you responded by letting out out a groan.

"This whole Jinyoung thing has to stop. I’m happy we are friends again, I really don’t wanna ruin that.", You and Jinyoung dated for a year or something back in high school. It was amazing while it lasted but as soon as it was over you were faced with a lot of difficulties while trying to remain friends, not only because you have the same group of friends and it would be awkward otherwise but also because you genuinely wanted to get over this together.

“So you wore such a nice outfit by accident?”, Milly said, not letting the topic die and you started to regret your outfit choice, “If I wasn’t in a relationship I’d be drooling over you right now.

"I’d love a good summer romance but since I know all the guys here already I doubt I’ll be lucky.", you admitted rolling your eyes at the two of them, "The guys oversea aren't really what I look for so I might just see if I can have an adventure while I'm here for this summer.", you said smirking at them.

Before you could talk to them more about everything that happened the first few guests came, some guys and girls you knew back then but you barely talk to anymore. You chatted with them a bit while the party slowly filled up.

About one hour later Jackson's house was full of people, you knew most of them but there were also a few people you've never seen before. Yugyeom interrupted the talk you had with Mark about how he finally decided to ask Milly out.

He greeted him and then turned to you, "If you want to meet Mina while she's still sober follow me please. I also don't want her to get to know you when you're too drunk later. you're a mess.", he said laughing and you pouted at him, knowing he was probably right. 

You excused yourself from Mark and followed Yugyeom inside, "I can’t believe I’m finally going to meet her. she knows who I am right?", you almost screamed in his ear because the music was too loud. 

Looking around you spotted Bambam and Youngjae, Yugyeom's two best friends, shocked to see how tall Bambam became. "Of course she knows who you are. we all talk about you a lot even when you're not here, don't worry.", he run his hand through your hair, messing it up a bit. 

Even though you both were the same age Yugyeom always felt more like a younger brother to you. The two of you used to fight a lot but this luckily stopped a few years ago. Now you are really close to him, he always comes to you for advice and you tell each other almost everything so you were more than excited when he asked you about dating advice for the first time. 

"Is it stupid that I'm nervous to meet her?", you asked him while he was looking for her in the crowd.

When he found her he looked at you and gave you a shy smile, "I'm more nervous than you are probably so no it's not stupid.", he said, walking over to her, giving her a kiss. What a strange sight that was to you - not once have you seen your brother kiss another girl before. You knew he had plenty of them but you never got to meet them before.

"So, finally I can introduce you to each other. (y/n), this is my girlfriend Mina.", he said and you gave Mina a hug. She was more than beautiful, long brown hair and a smile so bright and honest, it made her likable from the first second.

"He and your friends never shut up about you. Amazing to finally meet the person behind all the stories.", she said chuckling. 

"Oh believe me, I could say the same about you. My friends really cherish you a lot.", you said giving her a smile. Yugyeom's face was showing a hint of relief when he saw that the two of you could talk casually and that the situation wasn’t awkward at all. 

"So you're the cousin of this Jaebum guy, right?", you asked her. 

“This Jaebum guy.”, Yugyeom repeated laughing, “It’s crazy that you have not met him yet since he became such a close friend to all of us.”, all you knew about Jaebum was that he moved her shortly after you left, that he is the cousin of Yugyeom’s girlfriend and that all your friends loved him a lot - you’ve seen him on a picture before but you barely could remember his face. A slight hint of jealousy always rushed over you when they talked about him.

"Hey Mina, I have to show you something.”, Yugyeom said before you could continue to talk to her, “Come with me.”, he took her wrist and she seemed to be just as confused as you were.

"Hey!", you screamed after them, "What about me, asshole?" - but he was already gone. There you were, left alone at a party.

While you made your way to the kitchen to get a cup of alcohol you saw Jinyoung standing on the side of the room, talking to a guy just as handsome as him. 

Jinyoung's back was turned to you when you approached them.

"Your shoulders became broad, have you been working out?", you asked him and he immediately turned around, confusion on his face until he realized who was asking him such a question. within seconds his face turned soft and he gave you a small smile, pulling you into a hug. "Welcome home love.", he said while resting his head on yours. you took a deep breath. It was nice that it wasn't awkward between the two of you. “I can’t believe you’re finally here again.”

When he let go of you you looked over the the guy he was talking to, giving him a small smile. As Jinyoung saw his eyes widened. "Ah, you two don't know each other yet, right?"

You shook your head, oblivious to who he could be. “It’s about time then. Jaebum, (Y/n).”, he nodded at the both of you when you suddenly realized that the handsome guy in front of you was no one else than the guy you were curious about the whole time.

You needed to admit that he looked amazing, the sharp features of his face and the way his hair was styled - not too talk about his very good taste in clothes, you always loved when guys knew how to dress well. The expression on his face revealed that he exactly knew how handsome he was. Raising and eyebrow at you he hugged you, “The infamous (y/n). Way prettier than they described you.”, you shook your head at his cheesy comment but couldn’t hide a small smile. The way he said it wasn’t gross as guys often were, it was rather charming. You could see that he was just excited to meet you as you were.

“Where did you find this flirt?”, you turned to Jinyoung who tried to hide his smile, observating the whole situation exactly. Turned back to Jaebum you put your hair to one side to make sure he had a good view of the outfit you were wearing. So it did come in handy. “So what you’re saying is that my friends usually describe me as ugly?”

He shook his head, an everlasting smirk on his face, “Quick-witted, hm? I like that.”

Jinyoung put himself into the conversation, shaking his head in amusement, “You sure do, Jb.”, he put an arm around you, “I’ll be outside. Feel free to come talk to me when you are done with his cheesy ass. He’s also a part of our group now, just saying before you two do something that could make it awkward between y’all later.”

“As if you cared back then when we were dating.”, you said, rolling your eyes at him.

"You’re not wrong there.", Jinyoung said and turned to Jaebum, who seemed to be happy with the whole situation, "Three Gin tonics is all that it takes. It's worth it.", he said to him and you hit his upper arm as he left.

Now it was only you and Jaebum. "Gin Tonic, hm?", he looked at you, "let's get you one then."

as soon as the two of you arrived at the kitchen Jaebum was getting two cups for the both of you. the kitchen was a little less crowded than the living room. "prefer it strong or weak?", he asked you while waiting for your answer before eventually pouring more Gin in your cup.

"I guess I can take a bit more. don't make it too strong though.", you assured him, "so im Jaebum hm? how did you manage to make my whole group of friends fall for you in no time? I left and within a few weeks I was replaced by you." 

The whole conversation you and Jaebum had had a teasingly flirting atmosphere but you two for sure didn't had any intentions behind that, it was just nice to finally meet each other and it was even nicer to see that the two of you got along from the first second. "I guess it's just my charming and irresistible personality.", he said laughing and handing you a cup.

"Oh god,", you let out a laugh, shaking your head in disbelief, "Do you always talk such bullshit?"

He joined your laughter, "No I usually don't, I promise. It's probably the alcohol Jinyoung and I drank before coming.", he clearly studied your face for a second before continuing, "And also I need to admit that I am kind of nervous to finally meet you. the others talk really highly about you, It's a lot of pressure."

"Don't worry.", you took your cup and clinked it with his, "They just talk about me like this because I was gone and they forgot about how much I actually annoy them." 

You and Jaebum took a sip and he sat down beside you. "So how is it to be back?", he asked you and seemed genuinely interested, a character trait that you valued a lot.

"A bittersweet mixture of nice to be home again and realizing how much I really missed. For example seeing Jinyoung talk to you without me knowing who that guy he's talking to is or seeing my brother kissing a girl I've never seen before is something that wouldn't have happened if I'd still live at home.", while you admitted that he looked at you without breaking eye contact, listening exactly to every word you said. 

“Oh believe me, in two weeks you will wish that you never have to see Mina and Yugyeom together again, they really can’t keep their hands to themselfes.”, he said while laughing, "It is really a pity that you're only here every now and then. How long are you going to stay?", he asked taking another sip of his Gin.

"The whole summer luckily. You'll have to bear with me a few months from now on. Better get used to this ass.", you joked around.

the concentrating look on his face turned into a grin within no time, "Doesn't sound like something I have to bear with if I am honest. I was hoping I’d get the chance to get used to this ass.", the grin turned into an embarrassed laughter, he knew exactly how bad that line was, “I’m sorry, I’m sorry.”, he said trying to hide himself a bit, “I’ll stop, I promise.”

You rolled your eyes at him, "Im Jaebum, I know you for a few minutes only but your flirting already annoys me.", you tried to hide a smile at his smooth comment.

He raised an eyebrow at you, "The smile on your face says something different."

The two of you continued to talk casually about your friends and how he likes it here for a solid thirty minutes before your phone started blowing up with texts from your group chat with Jackson, Milly and Mark. 

All of them asking where you are and that they were looking for you. You showed the messages to Jaebum. "They'll kill me probably. Their best friend is back in town and I'm claiming her for myself.", he said getting up, "Let's go outside and meet them there then?", he asked while filling up your now empty cups again. 

When you stepped outside of the living room to the garden your friends looked at you with their mouths wide open, seeing you step out with their new friend. Jaebum and you both chuckled a bit in response. 

"He stole our girl.", Jackson said in shock, "Can you believe that Mark? It only took Im Jaebum about thirty minutes to completely have (y/n), our best friend and his best friend's ex girlfriend, wrapped around his finger? He's dangerous (y/n), don't fall for his lousy tricks."

Mark joined Jackson’s overdramatic acting, "(y/n)! I can't believe you. We treated you like a princess for years and that's how you repay us? By spending the night with some stranger and abandoning us, who have waited patiently for a year to finally see you again? Why do you have to break our hearts?", Milly and Jackson bursted out into laughter and Jaebum couldn't hold in neither anymore.

"I am way too sober for this.", you say, taking a big gulp of your drink, “we’re not in high school anymore, drama class is finally over forever.”, you laughed while sitting down on the grass, the sun was gone now and the first people started to make out in Jackson's pool.

The rest joined you, Milly sitting right beside you, shooting you a curious look about you and Jaebum to which you just shook your head, seeing the disappointment on her face.

"I can't believe you two already met. We wanted to be there and see it all.", Milly said still dissapointed. Mark and Jackson clearly were not sober anymore, the two were best friend and it would especially show everytime alcohol was involved. They'd get loud and at some times their bromance would start to show way more than it already does usually. Milly and you on the other hand for sure didn't had enough alcohol yet.

"What are you drinking?", she asked, taking a sip of your alcohol, "Gin Tonic? Girl you're really trying to get laid tonight, hm?", she joked.

Jaebum joined the conversation, a bit too curious. "Jinyoung already mentioned something like this too, what is this whole Gin Tonic thing about?"

"Of course Jinyoung did.", Milly let out a laugh. you could feel your cheeks getting red from embarrassment but you knew it would no sense to try Milly from stop telling the story. "That's how he first got her into his bed. And the second time. And I guess the third time too, right?", she looked at you, clearly enjoying this way too much.

"I hate you so much.", you whispered loud enough for everyone to hear, "Maybe it wasn't the Gin Tonic but my attraction towards Jinyoung, did you think of this before?", you said to your defense, “This will literally haunt me my whole life.”

"Bullshit.", Mark let out a laugh, "It for sure was the Gin Tonic."

"Don't listen to them.", you turned to Jaebum but before your eyes met his you were distracted by something going on a few meters behind him. "Oh my god, ew.", you said shocked and disgusted making the others turn around.

Milly let out a laugh at the sight of Yugyeom and mina hardcore making out on the wall of Jackson's house. Mark let out an excited scream followed by Jackson screaming "Go get that, Yugi!". You tried to look away from the sight of our brother and his girlfriend, now your mouth was the one that was wide open in shock. "Does this happen often?", you asked your friends.

"I warned you.", Jaebum let out an annoyed groan.

You looked at him, your eyes wide open, "Oh god, shouldn’t we do something? I know they are literally adults but that’s too much."

"Much luck trying.", Milly said, "You'll have a hard time getting them off each other. I bet sleeping in the room right beside them will be fun. your walls are very thin."

you closed your eyes, trying not to think about it. 

The rest of the evening was just enjoyable. You went on a walk with Jinyoung, talking about all the stuff that happened while you were gone. You played some drinking games with Bambam, Yugyeom and Mina. You had to deal with this one drunk guy who was hitting on you since high school and around 3 a.m. you found yourself sitting in the garden alone, just trying to sober up a bit. 

You barely realized anything going on around you, you just looked at Mark and Milly in the pool, not even making out but just talking to each other and felt satisfied that your friend finally has the boyfriend she wanted since years. 

You always became very soft and melancholic at a certain point when you were drunk and now was the time for it. 

"Mind some company?", looking up you saw Jaebum standing beside you. You told him to sit down beside you and he did. No one said anything for a while but it wasn't awkward at all. 

"What are you thinking about?", he asked you, once again sounding like he is genuinely interested and not only asking to start a conversation. you already liked that a lot about him.

"Did you know that Milly had a crush on Mark since we were in 9th grade?", you asked him.

"I had no idea. Did she never tell him?"

"No. Mark used to have a girlfriend back then but she never gave up. as her best friend it's truly amazing to see that her patience was worth it in the end. can I ask you something? I feel a bit embarrassed though."

"Yes of course.", he said, looking at you looking at your friends - you could feel his gaze on you.

"Does he seem in love with her?", you now looked at him, seeing the confusion in his eyes, "It's just that I'm not here to see them together myself. I just want to know if he really likes her as much as she likes him.", your face was serious and Jaebum realized that this was no situation to put stupid, flirty jokes in.

"Yes. I actually think he loves her quite a lot. I don't know them as long as you do but if I'd had a relationship like them I'd be more than happy.", he assured you and you gave him a small smile in return.

"That’s nice. Oh, welcome to the family by the way.", you said, realizing that you didn't even welcome him yet, "I mean noot only to the family that our friend group is but since my brother and your cousin are dating I assume that makes us somehow family, right?"

He laughed and nodded. "I guess it does but If I am honest I'd prefer to not call you an official family member though because hitting on you would feel very strange then."

You let out a laugh too now, "You're seriously planning to hit on me? You’re such a flirt, Im Jaebum."

"Who knows?", he said and pulled another bottle of Gin out of his bag, "Want some more?"

The rest of the night went by to fast for your liking. You spent some more time with Jaebum, actually getting along with him very well - you for sure could understand now why your friends like him that much. Soon after you decided to go home though, it was a long day for you and you felt your eyes getting sleepy.

Before going to bed you once again realized how annoying it is to take off your make up, especially when you’re drunk. As soon as you finally laid down and tried to sleep you were certain about one thing: Im Jaebum could make this summer incredibly interesting.

a/n: hellooo! i hope you liked this part. i’m writing on the second one right now - if you have any wishes please write me! also just in general, i’d love to know if you liked it! i’m a slut for feedback, may it be good or bad. thank you ♥

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I am t h i r s t y for any fluffy Chloe Valentine with a girlfriend content you have to offer, someone pls give my bby a chance to redeem herself

fuck yes i would die for chloe

if u have any fic ideas, throw em to me but ill do some general headcanons for u ;0

so im a slut for like. roommate to lovers shit

aka the “and they were roommates!” vine

im gonna do a bit of story then get into nice fluffy stuff

so chloe meets u when she goes off to college bc surprise

ur her roommate

(shocker)

it took Forever for u two to like

actually realize “wait feelings.”

like chloe brought back a guy and was flirty w him once

and u were sorta miffed the entire time

and she called u out on it and u just excused it as not wanting to see PDA shit in the dorm - just ask u to leave and u will :/

then like

ur flirting with a gal once and chloe just... realizes she’s??? really jealous???

and then like

it clicked

oh my god ur jealous of each other bc u want each other’s attention

y’all don’t like. say anything abt it for a while

and then u pick her up from a party and she’s giggly and drunk

and when u get back to the dorm, she kisses u

and ur like ‘wOAH THERE’ and push her away

and like

you two are gonna talk abt that tomorrow

u bring her aspirin and water the next morning

and ur like “do u uh... remember stuff”

and she does remember kissing you

and she starts talking abt how she was drunk and she didn’t mean to and she’s been trying to get better abt boundaries and u just kinda stop her like

“hey. it’s not that you kissed me is the problem”

and shes just ???

“its that you did it drunk.” and u just jokingly go “if you wanted to kiss me so badly, all you had to do was ask”

and then u both just

freeze for a second

and then u talk abt feelings n stuff

yeah you’ve had feelings for her for a while

she’s like ‘yeah same’ essentially

y’all laugh over the fact u two were jealous bc u wanted the other’s attention

eventually u two like

go out on a proper date

she kisses u again

u two like

keep it on the down-low since ur not supposed to dorm with ur s/o im p sure???

just

chloe will give u random little kisses on the top of the head or the cheek

sometimes she’ll give u a quick peck on the lips

u two end up like. chilling in one bed sometimes

either ur between her legs working on an essay/any sort of work u gotta do and shes braiding/playing with ur hair, or ur sitting behind her braiding her hair n stuff

u two have def fallen asleep in the same bed like. numerous times

brooke came to visit once

she found u two asleep

“wow gay”

same, brooke

ok but like

cute little restaurant dates

u two split dessert often 

OK BUT

MATCHING OUTFITS??? SOMETIMES??? like

its so unintentional but like. u somehow both get into the same mindset of “oh this is cute” when y’all wanna look cute (which is 24/7)

thats all i have

i would die for chloe valentine

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Fours a Party

Pairing: CBX + Reader. 

A/U: Im not sorry bye bye

"Ah! Guys you suck at this, take another layer off!" You squealed reaching for your beer and sitting back as the other three boys sat back to take their jeans off. You chuckled to yourself, it was a good thing you had played so much poker with your parents, it really came in handy.

The boys had begged you to play poker with them. None of the other members wanted to join and they wanted to include as many people as possible since its just more fun that way. But after a good few bottles of beer and Baekhyun suggesting the game get a little more interesting, you were so glad you stayed.

The three others were striped down into nothing but their boxers, you had been pretty successful so far only having to take off your shirt. You didn't see it as a loss though, it wasn't like the boys hadn't seen you in a bathing suit. You chuckled and watched as they all took turns throwing their pants on the table and rolling their eyes, if they knew that you were so good at it they wouldn't have suggested doing this in the first place. You were cocky and weren't afraid to let them know, so after downing the rest of your bottle you looked around the table with a sly grin.

"One last round. Looser take everything off." You said confidently. The boys all looked around and shrugged. They might as well accept their fate.

Cards were dealt and you didn't even look, just lent back while the boys all put theirs together. You smile and waited, there was no way you were going to loose, especially by the look on Minseok's face. But when his concentrated sigh turned into a light hearted chuckled your heart dropped. Looking at your cards you sighed, a High Card was going to get you no where. Still, you hoped for a chance. But as Minseok laid down a straight flush and Jongdae laid a full house you sighed and dipped your head in your hands.

"You have got to be kidding me." You said as Minseok and Jongdae celebrated.

"Since I won and Jongdae was close behind were making you two take off your clothes, sorry!" Minseok laughed bouncing slighly and reaching for his pants to put them on again.

You looked over to Baekhyung and sighed, you should have never sad that. You should have never been so cocky. Still, a deal was a deal and as uncomfortable as it made you, you weren't one to go back on your word. You accepted the freshly opened beer from Jongdae and downed it whole, watching him watch you with excited eyes. Baekhyun did the same and when the two you slammed the bottles down in unison you lent back and started to undo your pants.

Minseok laughed, scooting over to you to help peel your skinny jeans off of your body, and once they were off he tossed them to Jongdae who wrapped them around his neck. You looked at Minseok to see if he was actually serious about you taking the rest of your cloths off. You expected there to be a sense of pride coming from Minseok, him being the one to usually flirt and poke at you. But what you saw was far from what you had expected. What you saw was nervousness. Being you and now being drunk you chuckled and looked right at him, wrapping your arms behind your body and quickly undoing the clasp. You let the band that hugged your ribs snap forward and looked around all eyes were on you.

"A bets a bet right?" You asked raising a brow as you slipped the straps off your shoulders, covering your chest with your arms. You stood and turned away from them, chuckling to yourself as you tossed the bra backwards at one of them.

You could feel their eyes burning in your backside, you forgot for a minute you were wearing a thong. Still you took your thumbs and hooked them through the waist band and started to pull them down, but stopped and looked over your shoulder.

"Baek, you too. Don't make me do this by myself." You said, smiling slightly at your friends blushing faces.

"Ah, yeah right." He said shuffling around.

Trying to make things funny again he started to hum the melody of a jazzy song as he came to stand by you. Hs eyes stuck to the ceiling and he hooked his fingers into his own waist band. The two of you jokingly wiggled your butt and pulled the rest of your clothing off and as you slightly turned to laugh at Baekhyun you gasped and covered his mouth as he was fully erect.

"What! Im standing next to a naked girl what do you expect!" He said trying to cover himself fully.

The two boys behind him started to laugh making you turn to look at them. You pouted and turned around to fully face them making their laughter stop. They looked you up and down for a moment and watched as you cocked your hip and folded your arms in a way to support your breasts, still looking very stern.

"I bet if you took your pants off you'd be the same." You said, ignoring Baekhyun as he chuckled lightly behind you.

You watched as Minseok and Jongdae shifted uncomfortably and you weren't the only one who noticed. Baekhyun came up behind you, mainly to hid himself from torment of the boys but so he could also make fun of his friends.

"Y/n, I don't think they've ever seen a naked girl before." He said, coughing slightly as the tip of his erect penis brushed against your backside.

"Really? Thats sad." You pouted. Your pout turned into a laugh as Minseok stood up to defend himself.

"You and I both know thats not true." He said pointing a finger. Baekhyun's member pressed against you again as he laughed in agreement making you hiccup to fight the pleasure that came from the feeling of his skin against yours but as you did you just ended up rocking back into him again making you gasp this time.

"So your not turned on by me?" You said pouting slightly, now turned on by the thought of having three hard men around you.

"Well.. I mean I'm not hard if thats what your asking." Minesok said shifting and looking at Jongdae.

"Im sure I could get you hard like that." You said snapping your fingers and making Baekhyun chuckle behind you.

"No you couldn't." He said looking at you with a nervous smile and shifting again.

You took this as a challenge and started to walk forward till you were able to place your hands on his knees. You looked at him as he watched you bent over like that  and as you rose an eyebrow he just shook his head. You sighed and stood up again before placing a knee on the couch next to him and moving to straddle his lap. Your hands hooked around his neck and although you could feel just how hard he was under you, you still had to ask.

"How about now?" He shook his had and cleared his throat causing Baekhyun to chuckle behind you. "What if I do this?"

You rested yourself on his lap completely and snuck his hand under his shirt to trace your fingers up his stomach. But as he shook his head and tried to laugh confidently You decide to try one more thing to get him to confess to everyone that you had turned him on. Looking to your left you caught Jongdaes tongue grazing his bottom lip as he stared from your chest to where your bare core was resting against Minseoks crotch. You looked back to Minseok and rotated yourself till you were now facing Baekhyun again. Your hand reached to your side and pulled at Jongdae until he was kneeling in front of you. He gasped at your forwardness but graciously accepted you when you rolled your but back across Minseoks lap and brought Jongdae closer. You rolled your hips again as you allowed Jongdae to kiss you, the feeling of Minseok hard against you making you moan breathlessly into the kiss. You rolled your hips again as the kiss was pushed deeper and deeper until you were resting against Minseoks chest, Jongdae finding his way in-between your knees.

"Fine you win." Mines growled, his hands now running down your sides and over your thighs, hooking tightly every once in a while to make sure you were still rotating yourself over you.

Your head tilted back as Jongdae moved to kiss once side of your neck while Minseok started to suck and tease the other side. Your eyes met Baekhyun who's lip was stuck between his teeth and his eyes turned dark. You brought a finger up and motioned for him to approach you. Lips moving back to Jongdaes your hand found Baekhyuns chest and you slowly trailed your hands down his stomach until you were able to wrap your hands around his member. He groaned at your touch and his body twitched slightly as he braced himself against the wall behind the couch. Minseoks hands wandered down to your core and the feint feeling of his fingers brushing against your stretched lips made you moan and push yourself harder into his chest.

"She's so wet." He mumbled against your neck.

Your response was to roll, kiss and pump faster in hope that someone would touch you harder. Mines chuckled at this, his fingers pressing harder and harder to your core and he began to tease your opening with two fingers. You pulled away from the kiss suddenly as his fingers entered you and the pumping of your hand around Baekhyun became non existent. You gripped to MInseoks legs and watched as Jongdae left the area between your knees to start to strip. You smiled and breathed hard as Baekhyun replaced him, his goofy grin make your heart flutter before you took ahold of your chest. He brought his lips down to you and kissed you roughly before moving down your neck and to your chest.

Mineseok continued to push his fingers in and out of you quickly until you weren't able to kiss Baekhyun anymore, all you could do was clench to his forearms and fight back the scream that was still pushing past your teeth. Baekhyun laughed again as he watched you squirm looking straight into your eyes. You started to moan louder and as you did Minseoks fingers slipped out and were replaced by Baekhyun. You gasped and held tightly to Minseoks thighs as Baekhyun pushed yours back. He hissed through his teeth and pressed his forehead into yours, the weight of his body pressing against yours making you moan louder. Minesok hooked his arm around your body to keep you from sliding off of him, and once he had you in a good spot his finger started to tease your clit. You  groaned loudly and let your back arched as the pleasure you were searching for grew in the pit of your stomach. Baehyuns hips moved faster causing your head to roll to the side.

"Ah shit." Baekhyun moaned as your body tightened around him.

With Minseok in your ear he started talking, encouraging you to let yourself come undone, to let the feeling of the two boys you were sandwiched between take over your body. And you let them. With one hand hooking behind Baekhyuns neck and the other around Minseoks you let out one last long shaky moan as you orgasmed between them. Mineseok chuckled as he held onto your shaking your body and Baekhyun kissed you as he pulled himself out. You smile and covered your face,  your body relaxing. Mineseok hugged you and laughed bringing his lips down to your ear.

"Now who's turned the other on." He whispered making everyone chuckle.

You turned to look at Jongdae who had just entered the room and then tilted your head up to look at Minseok. Eyes moving back to the now naked Jotgdae you lifted your chin and began to whisper.

"I want you two now, please?"

"The two of us?" He said raising an eyebrow as you bit your lip and nodded.

"Please?" You rolled your hips into him.

He looked up at Jongdae who walked away for half a second before coming back in the room. He tossed something to Minseok and then moved to sit next to him, helping you by pulling you onto his lap. A soon as you left Minseok's lap he stood to undress, laughing at the mess you had made on his pants. Your head met the nook of Jongdaes neck and you sighed as his hands rubbed up and down your back. You groaned in pleasure as the feeling of something cold was squeezed all over your back. Two sets of hands massaged your backside making you moan as they worked together to pull your cheeks apart and massage you till you were ready for for them. Jotgdae was the first to enter you, his cock pushing past your sensitive walls slowly and making all the muscles in your body tense up. He sunk you low, groaning at the feeling of you circling your hips around him.

He slouched more against the couch and started to pump his hips reaching deeper into you and making you clench at feeling of him hitting deeper than Baekhyun had before. You were already a moaning mess by the time he slowed himself and Minseok pulled and kneaded more at your behind. You buried your head in Jongdaes neck again as Minseok teased you with his tip. You rose yourself up Jongdae's shaft and waited for Minseok as he teased you just a little while longer. When he finally began to push into you Jongdae chuckled as you gripped onto his shoulder tightly. You moaned gaspy moans as he stretched inside of you, the feeling of him mow pushing against Jotgdae through a thin layer of nerves sending your body on tire.

The moment you were fully stretched the two began to move. Jongdae moved quickly, looking straight into your eyes as you let out loud long moans while Minseok took ahold of your arms and pulled them together, pulling  your body back until your chest was pulled off of Jongdae's. You moaned with your eyes closed letting the boys penetrating you take over your every senses. It went until they both pushed into you equally as hard did your eyes snap open and you see Baekhyun sitting on the back of the couch next to Jongdae's head. With all your strength you pulled your arms out of Minseok's grip and lent your body forward to take ahold of Baekhyuns member. He hissed at your touch and bit his lip as you brought your mouth down on him. He smiled, lacing his fingers through your hair and chuckled as you began to blow him.

TO make things easier for everyone Minseok pulled out, Jongdae rotated till he was fully laying down with his knees bent. He had already started pumping into you as MInseok repositioned himself in you, causing you to yelp in pleasure and brace yourself againt Baekhyuns thighs, now sat on the arm of the couch. You waited patiently for you to become adjusted but after you waited a few seconds too long he intertwined his fingers with you hair agains and pulled your head down. You graciously took him in your mouth and allowed the motion from the other two men to rock you back and fourth. You twirled your tongue and sucked hard, adding your hand once you were comfortable enough not to clench onto Jongdaes shoulders.

As your moans got louder so did Baekhyuns since the more you moaned the tighter the vacuum in your mouth became. His hands clenched in your hair and he pushed your head down, moaning at how well you tok him all the way down your throat. He was the first to cum and you swallowed most of him, not caring that some of his release made its way out of the corner of your mouth and down your chin. It was almost like it caused a chain of reactions. Mineseok, who had been quite for most of this finally let out a loud groan, finally releasing all the noises he wanted to make during. He pulled out a little too quickly causing your body to lurch, and your head to shoot back into the crook of Jongdae's neck as Minseok came all over your back.

Jongdae's pace quickened, his hands finding your ass and spanking you once causing you to moan loud. Your body clenched around him and your breath became staggered as he rode you into pleasure.

"Wait for me, Hold on." He breather now pumping faster. You cried trying to hold on to your orgasm, your moans now coming out almost painfully as you held on with everything you had.

Seeing you like that send Jongdae over the edge. He let out a forceful 'cum with me' and in the second the two of you unraveled. His pumps went from being hard to sloppy in a matter of seconds and his arms not caring where Minseok relieved himself grabbed tightly to your waist. You let out a scream and your fingers dug into his arms, your body now loosing all of your strength. You had orgasmed so hard you didnt even realize Jongdae had pulled out of you, that you were now wrapped tightly in his arms as Minseok cleaned you off with a damp towel and Baekhyun pulled your hair back.

You laid there with them, butt naked and wrapped in each of their arms one way or another, the tv now playing softy around you. You closed your eyes and chuckled Minseok pulling you more into his chest as you all laid there, you couldn't believe you had just done that. You couldn't believe you just had sex with three of your closest friends at one time. But as you thought about it, and thought about how you now felt you would defiantly be sneaking back over for more.

#Exo #Exo smut #Exo scenarios #exo cbx #cbx smut #cbx scenario #Minseok #Minseok smut #Minseok Scenarios #xuimin #xuimin smut #xuimin scenarios #Jongdae #Jongdae smut #Jongdae scenarios #Baekhyun #Baekhyun smut #Baekhyun Scenarios

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To sum up - my boyfriend of a month started off by sweeping my off my feet and now already seems to comfortable. It’s also questionable whether he’s over his ex, but has many demons to face that I’d like to help him with without hurting him. I’ve been in a similar position to him and it sucks.(This is a bit of a long one but I’m trying to be unbiased here with both the lovely things about this guy and the red flags, and show how his character began to change after I said yes to dating him)So I met a guy, about three weeks ago now. I’d recently made the decision to stay single for a while, as only a couple of months ago, I got out of a year long relationship in which I slowly realised I was a rebound. I wanted to clear my head, regain the confidence I had lost and convince myself that I am worth much more than a stop gap for someone’s loneliness.But then I met (we’ll use an alias for the sake of this story) Jacob. (Disclaimer, this was before the COVID-19 epidemic blew up, Im now in isolation) I bumped into Jacob accidentally at a house party. Honest to god when I arrived, flirting with anyone was the last thing on my mind; I just wanted to drink, have fun and socialise. But then he caught my eye. He subtly but charmingly made advances to make conversation with me and we hit it off almost immediately. What I liked most about him is the deep conversations we could have, even on the night we first met. Not once did he make any psychical advances - it seemed as if he really was just interested in what i was saying, which I’ve never really experienced before with men.My friend even sent me a video the next day from the party, of both me and Jacob singing drunkenly. I hadn’t noticed at the time, but every now and then he would glance at me wistfully (not in a “I wanna bang her” kind of way, but a gentle, innocent “she’s pretty” glance). Of course this further enhanced my crush, feeling as if his intentions were pure, and that he wasn’t just looking for some action at the party. He added me on social media the morning after the party, and we started talking as if we had always known each other.A couple days later, I was ditched by a friend in London after getting the train down to see a band I liked live. I was messaging Jacob and briefly mentioned I had been ditched, and he insisted that he come down to meet me to make sure I got home safe. Normally, I would have refused this given he had just finished a 12 hour shift at his work, and that I’d like to feel I’m pretty streetwise, but this specific area of London was a little seedy, and I didn’t object to the company. I paid for his train ticket as he was going me a favour. So he came up to meet me, and despite everything had closed by the time he arrived, he didn’t complain once and we talked all the way home. Although simple, it was probably one of the most genuine and courteous things a guy had ever done for me.Several days after that, he asked me on a date. He took me for dinner and was the most amazing gentlemen I’d ever met. I felt like a princess; he did everything you see in the movies, from pulling out my chair for me to tipping the waiter generously. We again talked over dinner as if we had always known each other. I made sure to mention to him there and then that I wasn’t really ready to rush into anything serious, and that I had recently gotten out of a relationship. He said he completely understood and was happy to take things slow. Later on that day, we decided to meet up for drinks with some of the friends from the house party, along with a couple of his close friends. They were all friendly and welcoming, and I chatted away to them all night. They were very good at being wingmen, telling me that Jacob “hadn’t stopped smiling” since he met me, etc.We all started to get a little drunk as the night progressed. Conversations got deeper as they often do with alcohol and he Jacob began to open up about his past relationship. He had been with someone for 7 years - they broke up 9 months ago. Alarm bells went off for me immediately. I understand that the heart heals at a different pace for everyone, but I find it very unlikely that you can move on form such a long relationship in a measly 9 months. (I know it sounds hypocritical given I am very recently single also, but I’d like to point out that it was a very mutual break up and we both admitted that any feelings we thought we had fizzled out and therefore it hadn’t effected me a lot - we were better friends than partners and still talk occasionally to check on each other). I did ask him about this gently, and his response was “I love her to bits, but I don’t want to be with her anymore. I want to move on”. I was a little on edge with this answer, and don’t feel like it’s something you would say when you were over someone. I tried to push it to the back of my mind and have fun, and told myself that we had Already made clear we were seeing each other casually anyways. It got later, and with more alcohol in our systems, we started to get more flirty. (Only verbally, not physically.) I asked him something stupid about why he was attracted to me at the house party and he blurted out, “because I fell in love with you”.I know he was drunk, but I was super taken aback. I briskly walked away without an answer and talked to some other friends outside. His friends came to chase me up a couple minutes later, explaining that he didn’t mean what he had said and he was just very drunk. He came out shortly after and repeated the same thing, saying that it was the first time he had met someone that he clicked with so well after the relationship and his drunken mind had uttered words he didn’t mean. I reiterated that I didn’t want anything serious and that we should just see how things go, especially with the newfound information on feelings towards his ex. He apologised for being so creepy and we forgot about it and danced the night away.Later on, I ended up making a move on him and the butterflies in my stomach were unbelievable. He seemed really happy also, and he took me home in the early hours of the morning, again without making any further advances which I really really appreciated.So everything went a little quicker from there. We met up a couple more dates where he continued to act in the same chivalrous manner. One day, we were texting me and he asked me to be his girlfriend.Two thoughts came to my mind in this situation.Too early ! I thought we were on the same page!I was a little disappointed; I would have liked to think he would want to ask me in person - didn’t expect some grand gesture but to see him face to face when he asked would have been nice... it seemed rushed.I told myself that maybe he was just really nervous and was getting a little carried away with himself. I messaged back and was as honest as I could be with him, saying that I’d like him to ask me a bit later on, and in person.However the next time we met up, he came with flowers and asked me out again. He kissed me and again those butterflies went crazy, and I know it sounds stupid but the rash, reckless part of me didn’t want to say no again. So I said yes. That’s when he started to change almost immediately. That day, we had met up at mine with plans to cook and then watch a movie, but he said he was tired from work and didn’t want to cook and objected to every film I suggested and put on “How I Met Your Mother” I HATE those cheesy sitcoms with a passion, and jokingly mentioned that but he said it was one of his favourites and wanted me to try it.I agreed to try it out - one of the most important things to me in a relationship is to try and indulge in a couple of your partners interests, so you can see why they are passionate and excited about particular hobbies and the like. So I tried to watch, cringing internally at the jokes made throughout. We cuddled up together, but when I glanced over after about 10 minutes, he was scrolling absent mindedly through his phone. This is also one of my biggest bug bears - I obviously understand if you’re messaging someone, but scrolling through a social media newsfeed isn’t really necessary when you’re in someone’s company. I didn’t say anything, but it seemed as if all the interesting conversations we’d had were snuffed out as we sat awkwardly in silence, him scrolling through his phone while I attempted to endure that goddamn awful sitcom.I tried to ignore it and said goodbye to him around 12ish.Dates continued this way; he started to turn up late to meet up times we had arranged and once when I went to his, he even hinted that I should leave at about 9:30pm. He also began to become very indecisive. Where before he would sweep me away to a nice restaurant or take me somewhere spontaneous, now when I ask him what he’d like to do he’ll just say “I don’t mind” apathetically. I tried to put this all down to him being tired from work and nervous after being in a new relationship, but I’m starting to think it’s just him being wayyy to comfortable in what is a very new relationship. He chased me ! He asked me out and wanted to rush into things! So why then act disinterested !The last straw was a couple days before lockdown. We had started to suspect that the UK would go on lockdown and so met up at my house again knowing it might be the last time we’d see each other for a while. I cooked him a nice dinner for when he arrived and he bought some red wine. He didn’t make any comment on the dinner or thank me, but I had agreed he could stay over on the couch, so we stayed up until quite late, but again this was spent with some Netflix series in the background while he scrolled through his phone and drank. We’d have intermittent conversation, but it still seemed as if he was completely disengaged, drinking a whole two bottles of wine. I’m not really a fan myself so only had a couple glasses.The only time I did get a little more interaction from him when he was off his phone was when we were talking about one his friends, who I had really got on well with on a night out. He mentioned that his friend had been single for years, and he “didn’t know how he coped so well with being alone”. I couldn’t help but ask how he felt after breaking up with his ex and becoming single and he said “it was painful to be alone” and that he’s “glad he’s got attention and company now”. I could feel my heart drop.He got so tipsy he passed out on my bed, so I gently woke him and tucked him into bed downstairs (I know this sounds harsh, but I also have a single bed and so even if I did feel comfortable sleeping in the same bed as him yet, it would not have been fun with my fidgety ass!)I was again a little disappointed as we hadn’t really talked much or got to know each other any better, just sat awkwardly while he chose to scroll. In the morning, he was so hungover he was sick several times. My dad, trying to get to know him also, had invited him to dinner, but he went home early, still feeling rough and not even apologising to my dad for not being able to make dinner. It wasn’t really the best first impression I wanted him to have on my parents.Fast forward to now. I suppose listing out the red flags so far It seems like an easy decision to make, but for some reason I am hung up on “trying to fix him”. I know what it’s like to struggle to move on from the past, but I don’t know how to approach this. We have a lot in common and I know we had chemistry before so I’d like to think we can make things work, but it’s pretty clear we rushed into things. How do I tell him that I’d just like to go back to being friends until I’m sure he’s over his ex, and can dedicate himself a bit more to being interested in me? Or am I flogging a dead horse? Guess I don’t want to let go because it’s the first time I’ve really felt something for someone in a longgg time - the last long relationship I was in, I think we were both together for the security rather than feelings, but with Jacob I do feel as if there’s something there, on my side anyways. I’d like to think there could be on his side with the way he treated me at the start, he just seems to have a lot of baggage. I just don’t want to get tied up in a relationship where I am once again a stop gap until something better comes along.Please help reddit! I know I’m being naive and a little stupid so please be kind 😅 via /r/dating_advice

#dating #dating advice #reddit

[theprincessoffrost]

 stole this from @yuratchka-speaks

RULES ARE: answer these 85 statements & tag 20 people

Some of these questions repeated and some were skipped when I copied and pasted so I had to find other people’s doing of this and fill in the blanks. Just a warning.

The Last:

1. Drink: Water

2. Phone call: My roommate (He couldn’t find his phone)

3. Text message: “Let me know you made it home safe”

4. Song you listened to: Castle  by Halsey

5. Time you cried:  Im sure within the last few days. I don’t recall though.

Have You Ever:

6. Dated someone twice:  Yes I regret it to this day

7. Kissed someone and regretted it:  Not really

8. Been cheated on: Oh boy have I (yes very dark time in my life)

9. Lost someone special: Not to anything like death thank goodness, but to distance and lack of communication

10. Been depressed: I have gotten very deeply sad but I have never been diagnosed with depression. I should get that checked come to think of it...

11. Gotten drunk & thrown up:  Oh yes. It was a year or so ago and I felt so bad because my roommate cleaned it up. (bless his soul)

Favorite Colors:

12. Teal

13. Green

14. Blue

In The Last Year Have You:

15. Made new friends: I would like to think so but that remains to be seen 

16. Fallen out of love: Nope haven’t been in love for a few years

17. Laughed until you cried: Usually I have minor asthma attacks before that happens. People often ask me (jokingly) If i’m dying.

18. Found out someone was talking about you: I don’t know quite in what context of this but I guess? I found out that a co worker hates me from another co worker.

19. Met someone who changed you: Not really

20. Found out who your friends are: I have known for a while, but it was not tested within the year.

21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: uh... my aunt on the cheek?

General:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: All of them.

23. Do you have any pets: Yeah my Kitty Qrow. 

24. Do you want to change your name:  I have wanted to, but see no real reason.

25. What did you do for your last birthday: Went out of town with some great friends and went to dinner then came back to my house and played fun party games. overall a great Birthday! 

26. What time did you wake up: About 6:30 Am but I did hit the snooze until about 7

27. What were you doing at midnight last night: Asleep in bed because I had to get up super early for work.  

28. Name something you can’t wait for: Going to a Renaissance fair with my younger bro (hopefully)  and @jax-nevermore one of these weekends 

29. When was the last time you saw your mom: Just earlier today when she stopped by to grab something from me.

30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: My relationship with my Mother.

31. What are you listening to right now: My Ceiling fan and white noise machine. I’m winding down for bed.

32. Have you ever talked to a person named tom: Yeah I went on a date with a nice guy named Tom. It didn’t work out but he was really sweet.

33. Something that is getting on your nerves: A lot of things involving work.

34. Most visited website: Between Ao3 and Tumblr if you are counting the app 

35. Hair colour: Kinda a blondish brown more on the blond side 

36. Long or short hair:  Mid?

37. Childhood dream: To be a writer

38: Marks: I have scars from being a clumsy child. Scar on my palm from falling on something. Scar on my lip from falling off a chair and hitting my parent’s table. Scar on the back of my leg at the knee from a nasty run-in with a bike. (I won’t go into detail) scar in my eyebrow from more falling. scar on my wrist from a dark time in my life. (see answer 8)

39. Piercings: Ear lobes that have been stretched to a 2

40. Blood type: A

41. Nicknames: E, Haru, Eek (im sure theres more i just can’t think of them right now)

42. Relationship status:  Woefully single

43. Zodiac: Taurus

44. Pronouns: Her/She

45. Favourite TVshow:  Gravity Falls. Idk if streaming counts, but if it does Voltron

46. Tattoos: None, but there are a few I would love.

47. Right or left handed:  Right

48. Surgery: Minor stuff like Tooth fillings and wisdom teeth removal (if those count)

49. What do you like about yourself: Not much physically, but something I have been told is I am a comfortable and soothing person to be around and I do like that.  I also a rather fond of my story crafting skills(does that sound narcissistic? i hope not.)

50. Sport: None. I work so often. I do bike a lot to work though.

51. Vacation: I would like one. Maybe a road trip to historic sites

52. Pair of trainers: A pair of black work shoes (i wear them most days anyway)

53. Eating: Nothing right now.

54. Fav drink: Mainly tea! so much tea, but more specifically Lady grey tea and forms of Lighter Earl Grey flavors like Earl Grey Moonlight or Earl Grey Creme

55. What you’re up to: Filling this out before bed

56. Waiting for: Inspiration to take me away for the next chapter of EUM

57. Want: To get more than one day off in a row in a week

58. Get married: Pfft not ruling it out but not anytime soon

59. Career: Maybe a massage therapist

Which is better:

60. Hugs or kisses:  I like both, but maybe hugs

61. Lips or eyes:  Eyes

62. Shorter or taller: Taller

63. Older or younger:  Don’t much care if its within a few year gap. closer to my age the better. 

64. Nice arms or nice stomach Nice stomach

65. Hook up or relationship: Relationship 

66. Troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker but not needlessly

Have you ever:

67. Kissed a stranger:  No

68. Drank hard liquor: Yes

69. Lost glasses/contact lenses:  I have, but they showed up a few days later

70. Turned someone down: I was bad with flirting but I think I did in high school

71. Sex on the first date:  Never

72. Broken someone’s heart:  I’m not sure maybe?

73. Had your heart broken:  YES

74. Been arrested: Nope thank god 

75. Cried when someone died: I have not had to go though this yet in my life thank goodness but when characters have died in media i have cried

76. Fallen for a friend: Kinda

Do You Believe In

77. Yourself: Not really

78. Miracles:  I’m cautiously optimistic about them

79. Love at first sight: Kinda

80. Santa Claus: not really

81. Kiss on the first date:  situational

82. Angels: again I am cautiously optimistic about them

Other

83. Current best friend’s name: I have a group i consider best friends. My roommates, @jax-nevermore (thats me in his profile pic btw), @spamaramakins, and @viperscreeed 

84. Eye colour: A Blue grey

85. Favourite movie: Kinda depends on the mood I am in because it shifts a lot but I have always loved Disney’s Robin Hood (that and fox and the hound probably explain my love for foxes), And also Lion King 2 but in a tone shift I am also a huge fan of Interview with a Vampire

TAGGING

I’m not a huge fan of tagging so do this if you would like. 

#Long post #do this if you would like #i enjoyed it #sorry for the @s #getting to know me