#and i am finishing the dark!fic!

[yourlocaldisneyvillain]

so so so excited for my upcoming fics!!! after the dark!fic and after i'm cancelled again (lol) imma be back with something lighter (all longfics bc as of late i am incapable of writing one-shots lol), more rom-comy and then some more sexy stuff, the former featuring larissa and the latter featuring our metallic lady jane murdstone :)))

#personal #i will produce my own garbage and also consume it #i am so fucking excited #the two are already outlined #and i am finishing the dark!fic! #it will all likely take fucking ages lol bc i first write it in its entirety and then i just post #i find this the safest way for me not to abandon ship midway writing a longfic lol #bc the yearning for the sweet dopamine of comments/kudos keeps me motivated ahahha

[valtianan]

"daggers are a girl's best friend" (based on the french version of gentlemen prefer blondes poster)

queen bee honey flower belongs to @mermianar

#a little poster for a fic i'm writing #i am mad with delusion that i can actually finish it #baldur's gate 3 #baldurs gate 3 #bg3 #astarion #astarion ancunin #gale dekarios #gale of waterdeep #bg3 rolan #lorroakan #queen bee honey flower #dark urge #durge oc #illustration #my art

[nighttimeebony]

Unanswered questions about Dazai's backstory that are driving me fucking insane

(Yeah, so, completely against my will, Bungou Stray Dogs has been consuming every last neuron in my brain for the past several weeks, so I thought I'd share my unraveling)

(mentions of eye injuries and self-harm/attempted suicide below the cut, if you're sensitive to those kinds of things).

(1) In season 2, episode 3, when Ango turns out to be a spy in the Port Mafia, Dazai says, "Everything I never want to lose is always lost. Everything worth wanting is lost the moment I obtain it. And nothing I pursue is worth the cost of prolonging this life, this suffering." Like! What the fuck does this mean?!?!! What happened in Dazai's life that made him think this? The way he says it indicates that him "losing things he wants to keep" has happened often enough for it to become a pattern for him, so what was Dazai talking about when he said this?

(2) In season 3, episode 3, why did Dazai say "thank you" to the old Port Mafia boss when he killed Rimbaud's double of him?

In the sub, he says "let me thank you for once," and in the dub, he says "I'll never get another chance to say this, so thank you". Why did he say that?

(3) Why did Dazai keep his eye covered as a teenager? At first, I assumed it was because Dazai had some kind of injury that he was covering, considering how easily it bled every time Dazai sustained some kind of damage to his head or face, but never to the eye directly. In episode 1 of season 2, when a bullet grazes the side of his face, his eye starts to bleed

and the same thing happens again in episode 1 of season 3 when Chuuya kicks him into a wall.

BUT! When Oda's dying and he pulls Dazai's bandages off, there doesn't seem to be anything wrong with his eye. And it can't be that Dazai was just wearing them as some kind of intimidation tactic; there had to have been something wrong with it, because we see it bleed twice (even though the eye itself never sustained any direct injury), but there is no visual indication that anything is wrong with his eye, either in the flashbacks or in the present (no scars, seemingly no vision issues, and no discoloration in the eye like you might expect to see as a result of permanent damage). So I am asking WHAT THE FUCK WERE THE BANDAGES FOR

(4) Where did Dazai come from before he was in the Port Mafia? We know that he was a witness to the old boss's murder when he was 14, but Dazai wasn't an official Mafia member until he was 15 when Mori tasked him to work the Arahabaki case. Was Dazai always connected to the Mafia in some way, or did he come from a normal family before Mori inducted him?

(5) FOLLOWING THAT: where are Dazai's parents? In the "Fifteen" novel, it's stated that Dazai wasn't a mere orphan that Mori just picked up, but we don't know if Dazai's parents are dead or alive or where they would be if they were alive.

(6) What are Dazai's bandages actually for? Given Dazai's track record of suicide attempts, it's a common theory that the bandages are to hide self harm scars (I subscribe to this theory myself, as it's the most plausible), but we don't actually know because we've never seen Dazai without his bandages before.

EDIT: (7) Oh, yeah, I almost forgot. In season 3, episode 2-

What is the motivation behind this scene? Why does Dazai keep shooting? Why does he think that the soldier deserved to suffer more? Dazai offers the guy a more merciful death, but Dazai also thinks that a merciful death is "more than he deserves". Why does Dazai think this? This can't just be about this one soldier, because Dazai hasn't had any kind of encounter with him before this. Dazai is clearly having some kind of small breakdown, but what triggered it and why?

#bsd #bungou stray dogs #dazai osamu #bsd dazai #osamu dazai #recently ive been trying to write a fic for bsd but i kept hitting roadblocks because of all the unknowns about dazai and his backstory #i swear to god if we don't get some kind of proper backstory for dazai before the series ends im going to burn my house down #i am in your walls asagiri PLEASE FINISH YOUR CHARACTERS #bsd theories #bsd thoughts #bsd fifteen #bsd dark era

[cult-of-the-eye]

MAG 83 woop woop!!

JONNY BOY

ooh first proper statement in a while

Wait he took some statements with him??

Georgie is actually so right. I love her so much. He really needed some good fucking advice in his life from someone he hasn't thought might've killed someone before

I COULD BE ON DRUGS HAHAAAAAA NO YOU SMALL LOSER BOY

Why did he even jump to that conclusion?? I wasn't thinking ah yes drugs and I don't think a normal person reacting to this situation would immediately jump to drugs maybe insanity yes but not drugs

Universal autistic experience, having someone you're close to say that they know you "get obsessive about stuff"

YES GEORGIE!!!!! SHES THE ONLY ONE NOT FUCKING ENABLING HIM!!! HE DOESNT NEED THE STATEMENTS

oh shit is this the start of him depending on the statements??

Oh shit I guess not being able to go back to his flat makes him homeless

Oh right someone dropped the statement through the letter box

SHIT SOMEONE DROPPED IT THROUGH THE LETTER BOX

SOMEONE KNOWS WHERE HE IS

AND IS GIVING HIM STATEMENTS???

Fucking Elias I bet, who else would it be??? he was like yah I know where Jon is but I'm not gonna tell you to daisy and he's creepy enough to fucking send statements through the mail so there

Ok I'm sorry what was my man doing in those four days??? Sitting there rocking and muttering to himself staring at a fucking piece of paper?? Hmm?? Not fucking sleeping???

Investigating MY ASS what INVESTIGATION do you plan to do holed up in your ex gfs house???

Ah fuck he needs it

When does it stop becoming paranoia and start becoming an addiction?

YEAH GEORGIE YOU SHOULDNT BE KEEN ON WEIRD STALKERS KNOWING YOUR ADDRESS YOU'RE ABSOLUTELY CORRECT AND THE ONLY SANE PERSON IN THIS WHOLE PODCAST (apart from Joshua Gillespie and Karolina gorka my loves)

AHHH HE DIDNT EVEN GET THROUGH HEAD HES JUST GOOD OLD JONATHAN SIMS NOW

He doesn't have any of that pomp and fancy pants titles anymore, it's just the fucking paranoia and realisation that it's not just a normal job, he can't ignore it anymore

It's funny how it finally sinks in how it's not just a normal job when he gets fired from it

Ok just did a quick google fanton isn't a real department store that's a good start

Haha yeah customer service people deserve medals

Omg of course the tma transcripts write Halloween as Hallowe'en that's so tma of them

Oh fuck stranger alert

Oh shit is that Nikola??? As in everyone on Tumblr talks about her Nikola???

Her condition?? Why does it sound like they're describing her as a fucking werewolf??

Ok this is fucking creepy I actually fucking despise mannequins I don't think I'm gonna enjoy these stranger statements

FUCK I HATE CLOWNS

AHHHHHHHHH

Ooh she's smart she goes in with 999 dialled love that for her

oh FUCK that shhh was terrifying

Oh god Lana was killed???

Blood in a single neat line across her lips???

Uckinf SHITBALLS

Jesus fucking christ

I BET HIS ASS MISSES THOSE "EXPERT" ASSISTANTS

FUCKING BREEKON AND HOPE???

Circuses, skin, not quite real - the STRANGER

It seems like now he sort of knows what's going on, he's catching on really quickly, he's categorising things and using what he knows which is good it's steps in a positive direction

I guess he doesn't want another axe table fiasco

The taxidermy shop oh yeah the guy who was like yeah this is paranormal and creepy as fuck but he's not committing tax fraud so it's fine loved that guy

Elias probably sent it

Oh shit he doesn't know Elias knows where he is

SHIT IT WAS HAND DELIVERED

God poor Georgie, she's housing his pitiful ex boyfriend who lost his weirdo job and is going insane and bringing the weirdness to her life

What was he looking into??? Like Not-Them stuff??

"I've got work to do." Fucking famous last words

Jonathon "workaholic" Sims strikes again

Although I guess it's not workaholic when it's threatening your whole life

I guess it's just...surviving

#That was thrilling #it really hammered in my fear of mannequins #I'd actually be terrified alone in a department store at night when it's dark #even without the paranormal shit #i was gonna work on my fic which i am determined to finish #but i decided listening to an episode would help with the migraine #it did #but its back #anyway #happy halloweve you crazy people!!! #tma #the magnus archives #jonathan sims #martin k blackwood #tim stoker #sasha james #georgie barker #jarchivist #elias bouchard #mag 83 #the stranger #not them #breekon and hope #the circus #cult listens to tma

[qqueenofhades]

I don’t know if you’re really taking fandomy asks at the moment, but I’m just curious, what do you think Hob’s thoughts about/reaction to the moon landing would be? Like he’s seen a lot of incredible stuff over his life but like watching it happen, watching humans land on not quite another planet but like the MOON, even just for him discovering that it’s a big chunk of rock floating in the sky, that’s got to be so magical and especially given the fact that he’s a HUGE nerd

I mean, it makes ME cry every time I hear "one...small...step for man.... one giant leap... for mankind," and/or think about space in general, and I was born in the 20th century. For someone born in the FOURTEENTH century, yeah, uh, wow.

#anonymous #ask #and i am not NOT taking fandom asks #i always enjoy them! #especially as a break from politics lol #and i know many people are patiently waiting for updates on dreamling fics #which i do intend to get back to eventually #my muse is just very very busy with original stuff (eob) and probably will be until that project is finished #plus it's dark hours now so my brain went “we're done here lads” and switched off the chemicals #PLUS all my sagas at work #anyway the point is: i do want to! i will get back to it! eventually maybe possibly we all hope #etc. #thanks for your patience #we shall see

[chatlote]

I HAD TO GIVE HIM HIS SILLY ANTENNAE BUT YAHOO

AAA HIS LIL ANTENNEA IS CUTE OHMYGOD

I love the way you drew him so much;AAAA; !!!! He is my wet cat creature and I adore everything about the way you draw him, also the close up is so pretty too !!! I'm so happy you liked my design this much!!! Your art is adorable! <3

#TTWHB #just realized i should make a tag for this fic #art for me #woa i havent used that tag in years im so flattered honestly #i only saw this cause i am up until 2am finishing chapter 4 ahah ;W; #srsly though this means the world to me i didn't expect people to even like this fic #he will start having his hair up by chapter 5 I swear #dark hour is gonna be only sometimes depending on wether he is already on pjs when smthg happens or not tbh

[hantaslittlearsonist]

Greetings Percy Jackson fandom, I am currently writing a Dark!Percy/Reader. It should be finished by the middle of February; here's a little spoiler:

You were in Mythology 101 when you first noticed him. He sauntered in halfway through the lesson, climbed the stairs to the back of the amphitheatre way too fast considering the size of the bags under his eyes and slumped down into a seat at the end of a row. [...]

You followed the latecomer’s path with curiosity. His black hair bounced over his forehead and sent a grey shadow over his eyes. Their vibrant green broke the black-and-dark-blue theme he had going on with his outfit; black jeans so long they covered half his running shoes and a blue hoodie with a deep-sea scape printed on the back. You wondered why he was wearing that in New York’s 25°C weather. Another weird thing; he had strided into class late, carrying nothing but a ballpoint pen so tightly in his hand that his knuckles were white. 

#Percy Jackson #I haven't finished HOO so plz don't spoil anything past Leo leaving Ogygia #Percy Jackson/Reader #Dark!Percy #Yes there will be smut #and angst #they are staples of my writing after all #also a very important thing THIS PERCE IS INSPIRED BY THE OFFICIAL ART PERCE I AM NOT WRITING SMUT ABOUT WALKER I WOULD NEVER #(and I started planning this fic before Walker was revealed as Perce's actor so :]) #ps: if it wasn't already obvious this fic is placed in University so everyone's 20+ years old

[sidewalk-cracks]

All I can think about right now is the Ultimate Enemy timeline and what that version of Vlad went through. I think all his diabolical plans pretty much went out the window once Danny went to him, because what’s the point? He has what he wants, but he didn’t want it like this. he has Danny, but everyone else is dead, and Danny’s miserable and it’s hurting Vlad just as much as he’s hit with how much he really cares about the other halfa. Like he obviously wanted nothing more than to just help Danny stop hurting so much; you can tell by his facial expressions in the flashback.

And then can you imagine what he was feeling when the whole operation became a living nightmare? Vlad’s probably spent weeks, months desperately trying to think of something to help Danny as Danny spirals further and further, until Danny himself suggests removing his humanity. So Vlad goes with it, because if it’s really what Danny wants then he’ll do it. And then Phantom takes Plasmius, they merge and Vlad can see all the worse parts of himself reflecting in Dan’s eyes, as he kills Danny. Vlad probably ran, or hid so Dan thought he fled, because while everything in him wanted to protect human Danny, he knew he’s only human now and Dan would just kill him too. He probably goes back to the lab, once Dan’s gone, falling apart at the seams as he holds Danny’s corpse and mourns why things couldn’t have gone right, just once. He probably drowns himself in grief for years after, holed up by himself. 

#danny phantom #danny fenton #vlad masters #vlad plasmius #the ultimate enemy #dark danny #dan phantom #badger cereal #no pompous pep here folks #i really want to write a fic about all this #if i ever do i'll probably reblog this with the link to it #i am fine and normal about ultimate enemy #completely fine #jk i'm completely obsessed #ulimate enemy is the best episode in dp and only future dp episodes can change my mind bc i haven't finished the series

[seravphs]

I actually have a completed trigun fic but I can’t tell if it’s ooc because I watched that show in a fever dream so

#I only know pain #it’s been done for months but #you know how I am #knight Gojo chapter 2 is done but needs editing #chapter one of marriage therapist au is done but #just like dark academia au I can’t tell if it’s camp or so far into irony it’s post ironic #and then I have a Haikyuu fic I want to finish

[novelconcepts]

i don't make resolutions, but if i did

it would be to finish this fic

(and to be kind to myself for however long it takes to actually do so)

#i'm finishing it if it kills me #i know i've been writing this makeout scene for 3 weeks but baby that can't last forever #if we want to get deep and dark and serious for a second i do think a lot of my struggles to write lately have to do with engagement #and how incredibly low engagement has been on the last few things i've written #which like. is what it is. i'm not entitled to anybody's time or comments or kudos. #but when you write stuff you're proud of and it feels like it's barely getting read it's hard to keep momentum. #this isn't intended as a woe is me or whatever it's just kind of like. there. hovering. #happens enough times you start to wonder if it's you. am i just writing for the wrong fandom/ship? #(too bad if so. they're in my bones i'm writing for them and no one can stop me.) #but yeah. if you ever wonder if authors do care or notice about hits. comments. kudos. buddy i am here to tell you #not only do we care and FLOURISH we also notice when those things drop off and readers vanish #and it is a giant bummer. and sometimes makes us wildly paranoid about why that might have happened. #so if you liked a fic today--not even one of mine. just. anybody's. share it. comment on it. #kudos at the VERY least (cuz frankly kudos is there to be an 'i got to the end and this was nice' feature. #so when you get 500 hits and only like 30 kudos? it feels like 470 of those people hated your work) #anyway. that got out of hand. lil' too raw lil' too honest. happens when you let yourself ramble at 11:30 instead of sleeping #to sum: let your local fic writer know if they've made you happy #and as we go into 2024 i am swearing to myself that this fic (and probably several others) are getting finished #come hell. high water. or dishearteningly low engagement numbers. #(and then maybe we...actually work on something original. cuz why not. new year same old me but i'll do my best.)

[touchlikethesun]

“I didn’t join the Death Eaters because I believe so strongly in the cause. At the end of the day, both sides are violent, both sides want power, in one way or another. There is no good side or bad side in this war, not to me. There are only people I need to protect.”

-James Potter, from All you need is love, Chapter 4

#finally freaking finished with this fic omfg #i loved writing it but it's so great to have the pressure to finish off #please go read it i am so proud of it #jegulus #dark!jegulus #james potter #dark!james potter #death eater!james potter #regulus black #sirius #starchaser #the black brothers #my writing

[planetwaynez]

(chanting) dark romance dark romance dark romance dark romance darkromancedarkromancedarkromanc rdmrosmradkr mas8fguhnj ewafuhnjmweafdsiubhjn e

HGHGHGHGHGNGNGHHGNG anyway.

hi :O

-Clem

YES!!!!! (chanting along) DARK ROMANCE DARK ROMANCE DARK ROMANCE DARK ROMANCE!!!!!!!!

Hi, bestie!!!! <3

#planetwaynezrants #i am finishing Jason's dark romance fic #i will just need to re-read and correct any mistakes tomorrow!!! #i want to post it the fic poll by tomorrow night bestie #dark romance

[karsite-grip]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SOLIDER!!!!!

#screaming crying #i'm so glad it's jaheira and karlach who spoke up #that is their mom and their girlfriend. hello #what a beautiful moment #you have a birthday now!! 7 marpenoth baby!!!! #oc baelfire #i am. so emotionally attached to this durge #i stopped playing this save for a month bc i wanted to write fic of the night after they killed gortash #but i decided i'll just finish & take a lot of pictures #maybe screenrecord though it's laggy #just so i have references #i just have not had the brain power for any serious writing #but hopefully soon #god this line genuinely made me tear up. happy birthday soldier augh #what if baelfire was willing to die then #finally understanding karlach's choice to die in faerun rather than go back to the hells #& knowing that she won't have much more time left herself but maybe this is how it must be #they will die together and save baldurs gate in the process. and in death they will be free #but baelfire gets a second chance. why not karlach? she deserves it more #and what's the point of living if they can't spend the rest of their life with her #durge #the dark urge spoilers

[summerfrwrks]

istg i don’t cry when couples finally have their first kiss/gets together in a series but by GOD did they change the chemistry in my brain this was insANE-

(more thoughts on reblog)

#shipping things #hacy #macy vaughn #harry greenwood #charmed 2018 #charmed reboot #madeleine mantock #rupert evans #maybe cause it's 12:20 am and i spoiled myself about them so i'm in my feels about them cause ik what'll go down BUT #mads and rupert were AMAZING #i felt it through the screen of my laptop in the dark of my room on a midnight mood of a thursday #i need you guys to know that i only have two main reasons why i watched this series (1) to hear out my friend cause she made a #hunter x maggie fic and (2) madeleine mantock played my fav character in the tomorrow people - astrid - so i got a major hit of nostalgia #i was gonna watch the tomorrow people instead but ik what's gonna happen and watched it so #i thought to myself: why not? it's new and my friend has a rarepair i wanna support her #i was almost finished with s1 and decided to let my friend know i'm watching it and guess fucking WHAT?? SHE NEVER WATCHED A SINGLE EPISODE #AND NOW I'M ATTACHED BUT I CAN'T TALK TO HER ABOUT MACY AND HARRY TO A FULL EXTENT CAUSE SHE ONLY CHECKED THE WIKI AND WAS BORED AND #WAS THERE FOR MAGGIE'S CHARACTER BECAUSE OF DESCENDANTS #this is worse than when i introduced VLD to my other friend and we both shipped klance but i didn't finish the show but SHE DID #this is my karma #after like 3 years this is my karma ahjdfhadfa #oh god it hurts #summer.txt

[speedydestinydream]

I think "countdown to his final show" and its direct continuation, "and i'll be in denial for atleast a little while" by drewsterling on ao3 are the only fics to send me on the verge of tears. Not like. Full on crying but I teared up a lot. I don't cry over books, let alone fanfiction, but these fics have DESTROYED me mentally I cannot stop thinking about them

This is a recommendation if you love heavy angst and pain and suffering and misery because that's the only thing you'll find. no happiness. no joy. only sadness and grief and it's written beautifully

I could talk about these fics all day they have hurt me SO MUCH and I LOVE THEM

#THESE FICS DO INCLUDE A TW FOR DETAILED SUICIDE!!! #you probably should not read these if youre extremely sensitive to heavy and dark topics #you can look at the fics tags to figure out what you might get yourself into #im so miserable about these fics #its basically just jakes life disintegrating into shambles. but more realistic than most fics about it and way more painful #''and ill be in denial for at least a little while'' isnt finished yet but the author is still updating #they updated like. 2 days ago? 3? #im making this post because i just read chapter 3 of the sequel/aftermath and it fucking killed me #especially drew and haileys argument. it was so toxic but interesting holy fuck #i wish to write angst as well as this author does. one day ill get there #fic recs #fanfic recs #fanfiction recommendation #tmf #the music freaks #tmf fanfiction #tmf fanfic #tmf fanfic rec #i started reading “and ill be indenial for atleast a little while” (i hate typing all of that repeatedly) chapter 3 at like 5:00am #or maybe like 5:30 am idk #and its like 6:00 am and i just want to go back to sleep because i can barely process what happened #these fics have hurt me emotionally they are amazing!!! #the music freaks rosyclozy #tmf rosyclozy #the music freaks fanfic #the music freaks fanfiction

[ningensorrow]

After Dazai blows up Chuuya’s car, he walks away without looking behind. He slips into the dark, his feet quick and silent through the dirty alleys, barely touching the ground.

The blood under his bandages matching with the dried one on his clothes, staining his black vest. He doesn’t mind it; he is going to burn those clothes as soon as he reaches somewhere safe – safer, because there is no safety anywhere, there has never been.

It’s so much easier to say this, to say that there is only danger creeping at every corner, waiting to jump on him, choke him with its claws and shadows. It’s easier to say, there has never been, than to say, I felt safe with someone who is dead, than to say, I just walked away from the only other person I could sleep with both my eyes closed. It’s much easier to negate everything that has been, except for death.

He too can’t escape from that.

- burning bridges; i’m sorry for the blood i left behind. 

#wip #extract from my soukoku dazai centric fic i am writing and i hope i will finish #the pain of knowing your future is behind you and everything you wanted is too out of reach #the pain of knowing your best friend died #that your other friend betrayed you #and that youre leaving your partner behind in a mess of destruction and betrayal #the pain of grieving the dead and the alive #if any ranpo kinnie wants to help me write ranpo characters #feel free to hmu #soukoku #post dark era #soukoku fic #bungou stray dogs #bsd fic #fanfic #ficlet #i wrote this #llex.exe