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#and i KNOW this is bc of shitty writing but the way that statement was proved laughably false by
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bruce “piles my entire moral framework onto dick’s shoulders and blames him when either one of us buckles under it bc i know deep down he’s the only one that’ll forgive me for it” wayne
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iwantyoursexmp3 · 2 months
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posting here bc i feel like i always reblog other people’s takes on main then make my own post about the discussion LOL but the post about writing dog cannibalism etc notifs like…..my only thing I’d say is I’d like to see the ideas of these motifs expanded ie i think there was a post about how cannibalism is a great metaphor for devotion but that’s not the only way you can utilise cannibalism for a message. and sometimes these metaphors have a complex history. and without these expansive discussions/explorations these ideas that are so rich and complex can risk being reduced to buzzwords. which i agree and also think at the end of the day if someone wants to write the same cannibalism and dog poem over and over who caressss like why would i stop them? especially if it’s just for their own expression like why would I decide what expression is worthy of creation and sharing? oh my god idk if its dramatic but literally you are not alive forever why would you stop yourself from creating bc of what others might think? because the idea is cliche?? like idk im probably going to be writing about death and grief for the next ten years at least. i wrote really melodramatic, surface level poetry about my mom when i found out she was literally about to die of cancer can you imagine telling me that i was being too cliche with that? id kill you. anyway i think when an idea or metaphor gets popular on tumblr it’s good to be nuanced about it bc i do think sometimes ideas get watered down and diluted (hence my encouragement to expand your reading and ideas of say, cannibalism as metaphor) but at the end of the day if someone is personally moved by it why do i care. they’re alive they can do what they want
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leonsbimbogf · 4 days
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i still adore you, I swear
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🍃! Plug! Miguel x Fem! reader !🍃
A/n: guys i was mf arching my back and typing this out on my laptop n I'm so glad ppl like the first one I rlly appreciate itt pookies! also I had to crop some of this out cause my man was full on arching his BACKK but credits to JesGreenEight for this banner!!!
cw/smut warning: pure smut, Miguel being a freaky man, weed, shitty ending bc y'all KNOW i'm absolute dog dookie at writing them, creampie, oral (m receiving), somewhere in it I said that reader has a bad reflex and I'm so sorrayy.
So now here you are, smoking a joint with your plug. The harsh yet sweet aroma of weed filled his room. He passes the joint back to you letting you take a rip. You cough a little from the smoke clouding your lungs but still manage to have a smile. You pass the joint back to him without a word. Breaking the silence Miguel spoke in an almost slurred tone. 
“I know it’s not the weed speaking but has anyone told you you're so attractive, ma?” His veiny hand finds your thigh before rubbing the flesh without knowing. You immediately snicker as you answer back in a flirty tone.
“Hmm no Miggy they haven't” he trails his hand closer and grips your inner thigh while chuckling, you two were just on the moon. He replies to your comment after taking a hit.
“Honestly I should show you how attractive you are to me.” your eyes widened at his statement but you were intrigued at most. The way his shirt hugged him, the way you can see his cock print through his sweatpants. It was all so feverish. He comes closer to you with his lips up to your neck making the hair stand up practically. 
“You smell so good.” he finally says before placing kisses on your neck making you moan. His kisses go lower to your chest. He takes off your shirt revealing your skin to him. He instantly kisses your neck now having his hands on your waist, pulling you closer. The smell of weed and anticipation is clouding the room. Your panties are already soaked from when he first called you attractive. Before you know it he speaks in an entertaining tone.
 “How about you taking it out for me?”
 You instantly pull down his pants and his underwear. His cock bounces to his stomach before standing back up. His cock was decorated with some hair. Your breath caught in your throat after realizing how hot it was. You knew it was wrong but it felt so damn good, you can say that.
He puts the palm of his hand on your cheek as he rubs your bottom lip with his thumb, he looks down at you with love in his eyes. Were you always this pretty? 
“Look at those pretty lips.” 
he says in an admiring tone. You faintly smile before giving a couple of kitten licks and then actually putting your whole mouth on the tip. 
“You like that?” You mumble out on his cock. Miguel could’ve just came right then and there. He saw how sexy you looked with your soft lips wrapped around his cock like a glove.
 “There you go” he muttered under his breath. You push your head deeper onto his cock but you choke on it due to your horrible gag reflex. You pull back with a saliva string pulling with you.
“Hmm, Miguel..” 
 you say, slurring your words a bit. You were cockdrunk from him. 
“You did such a good job, didn’t you? m’ so proud baby.” He spoke out while looking down at you. He breaks the moment of silence by saying. 
        “Think you can bend over for me mami?” He says before stroking his cock. You bend over to feel his huge hands grabbing and kneading the fat of your hips and pulling your pants down. He gasps and chuckles when he sees your panties with a wet spot making it noticeable. “I see you getting wet for me.” He says.
 He pulls your panties to the side to see your plump lips soaked It just looks like you wanted to get fucked by him. He knows what you need, Just let him guide you. Suddenly you feel his fat mushroom tip lay on your clit. 
“Are you ready bunny?” He just makes you feel mushy inside even if he’s saying simple things. You nod your head before preparing for his cock. He shoves his tip in, You whimper as you can feel being stretched out by his thick tip. 
“Awhh shit. Your pussy’s huggin’ around me.” He moans out. He can even admit that your pussy did make him moan and groan. He has fucked many girls but they all just felt like he had to do it. With you, it feels special. 
“Hmm, M-miggy..please move..” you moan. Your moans sounded pornographic. He bucks his hips into you while grunting. 
“Ah this pussy got superpowers or somethin’ hm?” He jokes before smacking your plump ass. He loves the way it jiggles when he smacks it even lightly. 
“God d-damn.” You manage to yelp out. He thrusts deeper into your pussy. “Fuck you're gonna make me cum. Can’t believe I have your cute ass under me.” 
After minutes of moaning and groaning, you feel a full feeling. His cum sprays inside your cunt and you feel it Immediately fill your cunt up. When he pulls out his soft cock you can feel you can feel his cum leak out of your cunt.
“Your mine got it? my stock is coming soon but you're mine from now on,” he says hugging you to the bed and holding you fairly close to him. You feel butterflies roam around your stomach when you see his hand on your lower waist. Before you even spoke you heard his snores filling the room. You giggle quietly at the fact that he fell asleep in a second.
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earthtooz · 1 year
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𝟐:𝟎𝟑 𝐀𝐌
fluff, hints at a fight that happened so minimal hurt/comfort, sooo much swearing, ooc rin bc he's so hard to write wtf he has a personality of an apple but i love him <3
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it’s 2 am.
it’s 2 am and someone is knocking on your door like a madman.
you were simply trying to catch some shut eye, exhausted from a day of grieving and almost breaking down into tears on several occasions. the accumulation of a shitty day, a stressful deadline, and the massive fight you had with your boyfriend, itoshi rin, two days ago, really committed to keeping your day melancholic at best. sleep was everything you needed right now, both for its regenerative and escapist purposes.
yet again, you really cannot catch a break from the spite of the universe because it is out of rage that you find yourself walking towards your front door; an anger that dissipates when you see who it is on the other side.
1/3 of the reason why your day sucked. your painfully beautiful boyfriend.
the argument you had with rin was left open-ended on whether the relationship should continue or not. to you, it seemed as though both parties were at different opinions, with you wanting to maintain what you had. after two days of not responding to your texts, you suppose that that had been a short way of answering the ambiguity.
willingly, although reluctantly, you open the door, preparing to end something that you were not ready to let go.
he’s sweaty and he’s panting. did he run up the stairs or something, why is he so puffed? how is he so pretty despite that?
“hey,” you begin, feeling small in his presence. rin bores through you with his teal eyes, not saying anything. you cringe at the silence.
“i appreciate the effort but y’know, if you wanted to make our breakup official couldn’t you have done it at a reasonable hour, rin?”
his eyes narrow at that statement, betraying his usually stoic expression with furrowed brows and an agape mouth. confused. he’s confused, but you don’t see any of it because you find the floor more interesting than your boyfriend (?).
with a deep inhale, you just decide to go for it. if he’s not going to declare it, then you will. “look, rin, maybe you’re right, if this relationship is holding you back then maybe it is best we-“
“-the olive theory.”
“excuse me?”
the first words this man utters to you after two days… is the olive theory?
the dark-haired continues. “the olive theory, we’re- we’re supposed to be compatible.”
you are way over your head right now. did you even wake up? is this a dream? why is your, usually all-straight-talk, boyfriend talking to you about the olive theory at 2am, stammering whilst doing so? what kind of hallucination is this?
“rin, what?”
“i like olives, you hate them, we’re meant to work, and i don’t think i can continue on like this.”
you blink once, twice, three times before pointing at him. “you’re telling me that we’re compatible, yet in the same sentence, telling me that we should break up?”
"i didn’t want to break up?”
“but you just said you can’t continue on like this, what else do you mean?” your voice is at a hushed whisper at best, and although you wanted to raise it louder, you fear that your neighbours would not be happy.
“i meant that i can’t continue on without you!”
silence.
“i’ve become so co-dependent on you that i fucking hate it. i can’t fucking function without you, even that fuckhead isagi knows that i’m off and it’s all because of you. it’s only been two fucking days and i’m not landing 60% of my goals, i’m not receiving 20% of my passes correctly, and i keep tripping over myself, you’re ruining me, y/n.”
the flurry of emotions within you triples, and you’re so flabbergasted that no words can escape your mouth. truthfully, you can't think straight, but if you could, the words would fizzle out in your throat before they even saw the light of day.
“if i have to suffer any more of this stupid silence between us then i might kill a bitch. that bitch being the antennae freak.”
even more silence, and rin is practically begging you with his gaze to say something. funnily enough, the next thing you murmur is out of reflex: “don’t say that about shidou.”
he groans. “if i didn’t love you, i would choke you right now.” wow, itoshi rin has a way with words.
the threat causes you to crack a smile. “well, good thing you love me,” you mutter whilst grabbing him by the wrists to pull him inside your apartment. “and it’s a good thing i love you too.”
“well no shit, we’ve been in a relationship for-“
“-shut up and kiss me, you smooth talker.”
the soccer player smirks in amusement before leaning forward, closing the physical and metaphorical space between you, soothing the heartache with gentle touches and a fervent need to love one another.
༊* BONUS:
“why are you here at 2 am? i thought you, of all people, would be fast asleep.”
“tried to, can’t sleep without you- you’re a real pain in my ass, you know that?”
you smile fondly as he hooks an arm around you waist, collapsing into you as a way of saying that he doesn’t mean his rough words. “so i’m just another bedwarmer?” you ask teasingly.
he grumbles a ‘tch’, digging his nose into your nape. “you’re an idiot.”
“thank you, love. speaking of bedwarming, can we go to sleep?” perfectly paired with a yawn, rin looks at you with slight guilt in his eyes before dragging you down the memorised path to your bedroom.
once there, he wastes little time in dragging you into the sanctuary of your bed, and you let out a sigh of content when rin turns off the lights and pulls the covers up. instinctively, your hands retreat to his hair, carding through them.
he’s holding you close, hands resting protectively around your waist.
“we have a lot to talk about in the morning, but did you not get any of my texts?”
“you texted?”
“…yeah?”
“oh yeah, i remember now that i blocked you after our fight.”
you mercilessly smother him with your pillow.
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rodolfoparras · 2 months
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Hi!! You might not remember me, but I’m the shy anon from a bit ago that you said had a pretty way of writing (which still makes me like 🥺 when I think about it). It was an ask about Price kind of wanting you to just collar him, touch him, have him. Anyway, I come with another thought!
As I was scrolling through your blog, I started to think about how it would be so delicious if those headcanons about a dog/wolf hybrid reader where switched to Price. Like, he’s not a lone wolf. He would be a pretty shitty leader and captain if he was, after all! Every inside Price, every instinct he has is driven by pack. It’s his pack first, his boys first. Whatever they need, he gives it to them. Because that’s what a good dog does doesn’t it? It protects and provides and maybe he’s a little rough around the edges, but all Price does is care.
And Price is gruff and professional. His bark and bite alike have landed people in the ground. He does not bare his neck nor offer his belly. That’s not how he works, not how his pack works. He needs his team’s respect and support (and there’s that niggling need for affection and attention that makes his tail tuck low when no one’s around).
But then there’s you, a new teammate. A fresh-faced rookie with excellent marks and little field experience. Your scores are fantastic, your reputation on of vicious determination. Price isn’t doubting you—everyone has to start somewhere, but you’re still new to this. To bloodshed and battlefields, to pain and misery and watching lives bleed out into the sand. But then he sees you in action for the first time, and everything just freezes for a moment.
Because, finally, Captain John Price has found someone’s worthy enough of his submission. His unwavering loyalty and dogged stubbornness a mirror of your own reflection. (And maybe it gets him just a little bit hot under the collar to see you bare your bloody teeth like that. In a challenge, like you want to protect him with bruised knuckles and a split lip.)
Hello sugar of course I rmr you and the statements still rings True you write beautifully sugar and you should def share your writing!!
And I absolutely love this!!!! I have like this image of price inching closer to old ages and god he feels lost bc without his squad he has no purpose in life besides he hasn’t even met someone and all of a sudden you arrive and he’s torn between going after you- pursuing you or just leaving you alone because he’s an old man after all no? But it doesn’t take much for him to give in literally submitting by letting you order him around on the battlefield- leaving everyone wide eyed and gasping, or practically letting you kick his ass during sparring session just bc he wants to feel your body on top of his or how he looks at you with so much love and adoration when you’re simply just existing and before he knows of it he’s found another purpose in life- to love and protect you for as long as he can
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hunniebunniebear · 28 days
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The Magnus Protocol!
Second ep review!!
People have been surprisingly into my shitty little review of the first ep so I thought I’d keep the train going!
Curiouser and curiouser!!! My worries about the statement format have been very quickly sorted out. I am very chuffed with the video footage format of todays, a statement? Or are we calling these ones cases? Either way an interaction between a client and a therapist was very intriguing way of presenting it.
As for the case itself, it took a bit for me to get into it (I thought it was a little on the nose near the beginning) but I stopped in the middle of my walk when I realised what she was going to say just a second before she said it. And how nonchalantly she talked about,,, well carving into herself. Certainly an intriguing story. I do wonder if we’ll see this tattoo artist again, I wouldn’t be surprised.
More getting to know the characters!! I’m ever so fond of their office interactions, they’re very endearing and honestly I think they add a leeetle bit of realism that I hadn’t realised was missing from TMA. Once again I love Alice to bits and I like seeing her be serious if for just a second. It was oddly chilling. If something happens to her I swear to god Sims sleep with one eye open /j /lh. I need to figure out Gwens deal, to enjoy her writing a bit more, I think. I don’t dislike her or her writing to be clear, I just think somethings not clicking yet.
I wonder if we’ll hear one of the case’s be read out from any of the other employees workloads. The three we’ve heard so far have been from sams computer and I’m wondering if it’s just bc he’s sposed to be the primary protagonist (??)
Fun fact! I have tmagp spoilers blocked on my tumblr so I can’t read my own posts lmao
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horrorknife · 1 year
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eveline being a child who was never taught morals and ethan being shoved into a corner and forced to neutralize her are two statements that can and do coexist i dont know why theres this huge debate and drama going on rn. eveline isnt evil, shes 7 years old and was abused and neglected and turned into a bioweapon. she didnt do anything she did because she Wanted to, she did it because it was all she knew. she is an antagonist but she is not a villain.
However. ethan didn’t have any choice but to kill her because a) he came in way too late in the game to undo any of the damage done to her and b) he was acting mostly out of self defense. i think the problem with this argument is that the people coming to ethans defense are condemning evie to a life she never chose or asked for. she wanted love and family and she was denied that at every turn. i don’t think there’s anything ethan could have done for her, and, like—capcom wants you to hate her because they fucking suck. they didn’t write her with the intention of her being viewed as anything but an evil person which sucks because, you know, she’s fucking seven and acts like a seven year old. she’s a kid. idk man maybe instead of putting evie down you guys should inspect mia and how she fucking sucks instead. not that anyone wants to do that bc shes touted as a “”girlboss”” for being a shitty person who is actively and knowingly part of a bioterrorist organization, abuses and neglects a child, and lies to her husband ad nauseam. fuck off
the issue isn’t black and white. ethan can’t be entirely to blame for eveline’s death because his hands are tied the moment he steps foot through the door of the baker’s home. eveline only acts as she’s been taught to act. she performs the function she was ‘created’ to perform. she’s an angry seven year old. she’s a child. you can’t blame her for something out of her fucking control.
also no one called ethan a child abuser y’all are just making shit up for drama. he isn’t a child abuser but mia sure as shit is. the morals of what he had to do with evie are questionable, but at the end of the day i honestly think it comes down to capcom not giving a shit about the nuances of making their antagonist a child outside of a singular scene with jack baker. they want you to hate her. i honestly think it reflects more on capcom as a company than on ethan as a person/character just because…that’s the game mechanic. that’s how resident evil games go
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babyjakes · 2 years
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his sunshine.
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summary | after ransom startles you by getting in a yelling match right outside his front door, he decides he needs to make it up to you and remind you just how sweet and loving he can be.
pairing | boyfriend!ransom drysdale x reader
warnings | ransom being a softie(<3), but also ransom being a dick at the v beginning? lol, sMUT! uhh it’s just fingering, lots lots lots of praise, big daddy vibes (per usual), squirt(!)
word count | 1,084
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requested by @wecanfeelsofarbutsoclose | So I’m back with another request, with a small twist this time 😊 This time it involves Ransom Drysdale himself! So I was thinking of a “Grumpy vs Sunshine” kind of vibe where Ransom has kind of a secret relationship with the reader who’s a friend of Meg’s and he finds himself kind of changing his playboy esque ways for her and maybe there’s some smut sprinkled in there you know? Sorry I kind of ran out of ideas at the end 😂
an | hi friend!! thanks so so so much for this request, and sorry it took so long!!! i love all your requests so please always feel free to send more <3 okay so this is my first time writing for ransom and i am a little scared but this concept is so cute like!!! he’s such a dick to everyone BUT reader bc she’s his little baby and he’s so so so soft for her :’-) so anyway, hope you enjoy!
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“Because it’s weird, Ransom! She’s my friend! Why can’t you find someone your own age?!” you hear your (maybe no longer) best friend Meg screaming from your boyfriend’s driveway as he shouts at her from half-way through the front door, his meaner side something you always hate to see.
“She chose me, Meg! She did! And maybe if you weren’t such a shitty friend, you’d accept that!” Ransom booms back, causing you to jump. He glances over at you the minute you do, his face shifting completely from furious to concerned in a matter of moments.
“Fuck you, Ransom! Who the hell do you think you are, lecturing me about being a shitty friend?!” Meg seethes. You begin tugging nervously on the sleeves of your sweater, one of Ransom’s that he wrapped you up in this morning when he helped you get dressed, just one of the many things he loves doing for you. To everyone else, Ransom Drysdale is the devil. But just for you, he turns into the sweetest of angels, and you love him to death for it.
“Eat shit, Meg,” Ransom huffs as he slams the door to her, rushing over to you immediately after and wrapping you up in his arms. Still shaking slightly from the conflict, he lifts you up, carrying you over to the couch and setting you down on his lap.
“Hey, pretty baby, it’s alright,” he soothes, his voice full of warmth and tenderness as he rubs your back comfortingly, trying to catch your gaze with his own. “Where’re those eyes, sweet girl? There you are,” he coos as you glance up to meet his baby blues, a few tears having made their way down your cheeks at this point. “Oh, sweetie,” he murmurs, reaching out and thumbing at your cheek gently. “What’re the tears for, huh? Don’t cry, y/n. I’m sorry, please don’t cry.”
“Sorry,” you mumble, a slight pout making its wa onto your face as concern continues to flood Ransom’s face.
“No, no ‘sorry’s, baby. It’s okay; did I scare you?” Sheepishly, you nod, and he sucks in a breath, shaking his head. “I’m sorry, y/n. I know how much you hate seeing me when I’m like that. I should’ve taken it outside or something. Please don’t cry, sweetheart. You know I’d never be scary with you like that.”
“I know,” you say with a nod, pulling yourself together. “‘m sorry. Just get scared,” you admit.
“I know, honey. I know. I’m sorry,” he says again, wrapping you up tightly in his arms. “I promise I’ll always be soft with you, sweetheart,” he tells you. “You’re my precious little baby, and I won’t ever be anything but gentle with you, princess. I swear.”
“Okay,” you giggle slightly as the last of your tears dry up, your heart fluttering as he dotes over you just like he always does. “Love you,” you mumble as you look up into his eyes timidly, and the warmth and affection gazing back at you is almost enough to melt you entirely.
“Love you more, sweetheart. Such a pretty girl for me, aren’t you,” he coos, stroking your hair back behind your ear. “You’re my sunshine; you know that?”
“Mhmm,” you hum happily, your breath catching slightly in your throat as he drags a hand down from the middle of your back to your hips. “R-Ransom?” you stutter.
“My pretty little baby. Isn’t that right?” he sings as his eyes wander all over your body perched atop his lap. “Wrapped up all nice in my warm in my sweater. You look just like a doll, sweetheart,” he sighs into your hair as he reaches a hand under the thickly-knitted garment. His fingers brush up gently against your lower back, causing you to moan slightly as your head leans against his firm chest.
“I wasn’t very nice today, was I, sweet girl? Made you cry?” Ransom coos softly as his hand travels down to the band of your leggings. You nod silently, and he shakes his head in response, telling you, “Now I need to make it up to you, don’t I? Need to make you forget all about the big scary guy yelling out the door. Need to remind you how soft and sweet I am with you, huh, princess?”
“Y-yes, please,” you almost gasp as his hand sinks into your leggins, trailing around your front side and slipping under your panties as well.
“Look at that, so wet for me already, doll,” he comments as he runs a gentle finger through your slit. “That’s my good baby, always so good for me.” A quiet whimper escapes your lips as he rubs up against your clit with his thumb, beginning to pump one of his fingers into your opening slowly at first, careful, just as he always is. “Such a tight little pussy,” he mumbles as his thick finger stretches you out, “can barely take my finger.”
“P-please, Ransom,” you pant as he increases his pace on your clit, gradually beginning to ram his finger faster and faster into your tingling pussy.
“’Please’ what, pretty girl?” he asks teasingly. “You gonna cum for me? Gonna cum from just my fingers?” A warm, desparate sensation builds up in the pit of your belly as he continues to finger-fuck you, your legs trying to squeeze shut, but Ransom grabs your thigh with his free-hand, holding you open as you begin to whimper loudly, the stimulation becoming entirely too much. “That’s it, sweetheart. Now cum for me, cum in your panties and make a mess.” And at his word, every muscle in your body contracts as a tidal wave of pleasure washes over you, sending your eyes rolling into the back of your head as your toes curl up and you squirt all over his hand. Ransom grins widely as you cry out, praising, “That’s it. Such a good girl, cumming so hard for me. Look so pretty when you cum.”
When you finally begin to wind down from your high, Ransom slows his movements, his hand coming to a stop against your throbbing pussy. “Such a good girl, made such a mess,” he coos as you slump against him from exhaustion, causing him to chuckle. “Alright, princess,” he says, planting a kiss on the top of your head. “Let’s go get you cleaned up,” he hums as he wraps you up in his arms, fully intending on carrying you to the bathroom and giving you a nice warm bath himself.
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alternativememories · 1 month
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both sides...
i have a friend who has sucked for a while now. i've been thinking about writing about it for a minute but i've been putting it off like everything with our friendship lately...but part of who i want to be is someone that shows up, even when things fucking suck, and i can't waste any more time. i know what i've got to do and it's time to rip the band-aid off. our friendship is over and i've gotta be real about it.
i'm fucking sad, man. i see him as a younger brother. so much of how we see things and approach things is similar to one another. the ways that he has sucked for some time are really similar to how i struggled when i was younger. he had a breakup recently, which in the big picture i thought would actually end up being good for him. i think both he and his ex have stuff that they need to work on individually and that this would be a good opportunity for him to get himself squared away.
but the spiral continues. the last time i saw him we talked about where he was with things and where he's headed and it was mostly half-assed excuses. it's apparent that he's not showing up for himself, let alone anyone else for that matter. he smokes, which has kept him comfortable in the cycle of not showing up in any meaningful way, and he lacks accountability. he's living with his parents right now and it seems like they're enabling his behavior.
it's shitty. we lived together up until the end of october and to be honest it was toxic as fuck. it came down to money and cleaning. in moving in, we agreed to not have his now-ex on the lease to keep things simple in case they ended up not working out as a couple. however, when she ended up staying at the apartment more than A and i and we wanted her to pay toward the bills, it was an issue *eye roll*. initially, the conversation about contributing was shut down bc homie talked to other roommate and he supposedly said that he didn't care if she paid and that was the end of it...(we'll revisit this)
at one point during this conflict, there was a text about wanting to be friends after the lease would end...i've thought a lot about that since. it took me some time to figure out why i couldn't help but fixate on it, but with where we are now i think i know the answer. the statement operates through an inherent assumption that how things were handled was damaging to our friendship. to be honest, it was. the bills conflict was infuriating bc the argument against contributing was school loan payments being high; meanwhile in watching behavior they ate out all the time. and you know, everyone has bills. but not everyone takes advantage of their friends to pay theirs.
with the cleaning thing, it became clear that he was frustrated by the cleanliness of the apartment but never communicated what those expectations even were. eventually we landed on a chore-board. but this wasn't without its problems bc it just led to them not being accountable for their share of the chores; beyond that, there was noticeable passive-aggressiveness toward the other roommate who tbh idk if he ever even agreed to in the first place. weird to someone to a standard they never agreed to but maybe that's just me...
when he and his ex broke up he told me a very specific story of what led to the fracture. i want to say that i found the specificity odd but dismissed it bc i was excited to have my friend back. when they were dating he was very reclusive and we were barely friends anymore. truthfully, we moved here in a pandemic and while i have loads of coworkers, he's really been my only friend here...but a few weeks ago i found out that it looks like he's lied about those specifics of the story that he told me, knowing that it fundamentally changes the reaction. it's manipulative.
in thinking about it, i've really tried to explain away or excuse the poor behavior...but to be honest, it's inexcusable and with what he's lied about, there's no recourse here...there's no way to police the behavior, and with him lying about it, no way to trust anything he says that it's even stopped. now i'm wondering what else he's lied about to get what he wants. the first thing that comes to mind is the bills conversation. it's a fundamental breach of trust and i don't think our friendship can be repaired. it fucking sucks and this fucking sucks but it is what it is...because he sucks.
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I know nothing about football but I'd still like to hear about the au :3
see bc i complain and then i don't even know where to start LOL
ok so ig i'll start with the title From the Sidelines and a little description i have, to pique interest heh
Arthur is Camelot FC's star striker and captain. Merlin is the kitman. Life is hardly ever fair.
anyway . i suppose that's. a little misleading. that being said i think this grew into something waaaaay larger than i originally planned @.@ like it was supposed to be a fun little addition to the surprisingly small amt of footballer arthur fics we have but now this fic has double daddy issues (balinor my beloved...), coming out, sports injuries, shitty coaches (aredick die by my sword) and never making the national team. HUH??? i just wanted merthur to fuck on the pitch... (joke) (just in time for fuck him on the field friday)
also there's side stories. like one is when the players get handcuffed tgt for 24hrs but they've got an uneven amt for it and merlin gets roped in
and then there's the valentine's day arwen special that i somehow accidentally made into a statement about arthur's attitude toward his sexuality?? and feelings for merlin??? through his anxiety about his date with gwen????
“All good?” Merlin asks. “Never better,” Arthur replies, then pivots and walks directly into his closet. He stares at his barren shoe rack before he feels hands on his shoulders, and Merlin is turning him around and guiding him back out. “Wrong way,” he hears him say. “Right.” This time, Arthur marches out his room then down the hall to the front door. “I’ll be back.”
i'm allowed to give this info bc i don't know if i'll ever actually post the extras. i dont' even know when i'm gonna finish the main story sjkdfhgjkf
oh yeah another side story takes place in 2007 (that might be the title for it idk) and it's about uther buying camelot fc for arthur's tenth birthday LOL dont question the legaltiy of arthur playing for his father's club. i dont know and i dont care. this is fiction SIMILARLY dont say shit abt arthur being a striker and captain. it's happened before. it's literally fine. dont even worry about it
there's like. ik i rly only talked about the side stories but u have to realize just how much has already gone into this fic and i wouldn't even say i'm halfway done. i don't think i've written out a single match which is also funny bc i've been keeping up with the prem and actually think i can do it now. i just keep dragging my feet abt it lol
i think the hardest part for me is when im gonna have to seriously injure arthur. i didnt want to but i think it's an important way for his and merlin's relationship to progress and also would explain merlin's attitude toward him in january. its less abt injuring him and more abt him having to sit out of games not for like. lineup stats/compatibility reasons
oh my god typing this all out made me realize we haven't met like. half of the guys on the team yet. i was sitting here like "i need to rewatch eps with all the knights bc i dont trust myself to write percy and elyan accurately" but now i just realized i dont even know if mordred is on the like. squad yet or if he's still with the u18s (after a brief check with my info page he is. i'm gonna be sick)
like i said there is a LOT of info on this . sorry this was so long i just needed to ramble a bit and it also made me realize some info i still need to include so yayyy :3 thank you nonny if u have anything u wanna know in specific like fr anything PLEASE ask. i'd love it so much if u asked. u saved my life <3
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scoupsahoy · 1 year
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it's 5am and im up for no reason time for everyones favorite segment: ryan's bad opinion corner
todays episode: stranger things fandom and ficdom pet peeves and things i find silly
disclaimer: it's 5am i'm grumpy and none of these things are worth getting angry about. i don't actually get mad at people who do this stuff or write these things. in fact i love torturing myself but more than that i like to read and sometimes people take these things and make it fun or dramatic and i love drama. most of these are just silly little things. we all have them snd i know for a fact that some people's pet peeve is just like. everything ive ever written
people who can't talk about mike wheeler without making it obvious how much they hate him irrationally. especially in fic. why are you making him so antagonistic towards everyone he is so desperate to be liked. have u seen that kid. have u watched the last four seasons of stranger things
people who can't be normal about billy. real bad opinion corner type shit but like. i wish people could write or talk about him without either excusing how shitty he is OR absolving him of all that. if you make him a cartoon villain you're kind of diminishing how fucked up and racist he was in canon, like that isn't enough to make him a shitty guy and an antagonist on his own. let people explore his character without forcing them to pick between "needs to be tortured to death for his crimes on screen Or Else you're a billy apologist" and "needs to be forgiven by everyone and kiss steve at the end"
not a pet peeve just kind of a thing that makes me tilt my head a bit bc i think it's kind of silly. future fics where dustin and suzie get married... like they met before high school i love suzie so bad but like what is the chance that every single one of the kids in the show is going to be with their middle school sweetheart their entire lives. this opinion does not extend to lucas and max i hope they get married.
when people imply that eddie or robin are biphobic. biphobia exists and is complicated and can be explored in fic or whatever but when i see gay characters who are massively biphobic and only the gay characters who are massively biphobic it sure rubs me the wrong way. gay people are not biphobic by default. ESPECIALLY IF ITS LIKE
fic where steve is literally fucking eddie and eddie's like "man i cant believe hes fucking me and he's straight and doesn't like men at all" like thats not even biphobic at that point like eddie you need to be punched in the head with a blunt object you are just stupid and not in a cute way. i can't read several thousand words of that. no one would act like that even if they were biphobic
when nancy isn't annoying. make her annoying. make her abrasive and judgmental and kind of mean. but also like. don't forget that she's like very smart and helpful and caring and full of guilt and love. you think she can't be good and amazing and also a bitch? god forbid women do anything.
******* just in general but i don't want to be crucified ive already made two deeply inflammatory statements
when people don't love lucas enough. love him more. you are silly.
when you're mad about popular fanon and write an angry fic basically using the characters to make your point for you. and i totally get it. if u hate that trope u can also say hit da bricks. but i can tell how pissed off u were about this while writing and it does not make me agree with u more. in fact it's an interesting enough thought experiment that it can stand on its own and having the argument in the fic where you're basically mad at the fandom makes me less inclined to agree with you or want to keep reading. this is mainly because fic is something that is enjoyable to me when it's written out of love for an idea rather than frustration. you can always tell when the writer is annoyed and it makes it wayyy less enjoyable to read
i feel like that last one was kinda mean (or it was before i took out the particular context bc even though it's unlikely anyone will read this i dont want the person who wrote the thing im talking about to catch wind of it) so im going back to sleep i love you
last one
people who go out of their way to tell an author that their headcanon is unrealistic or their writing pisses them off or they didn't like how something played out or how someone was characterized. get over it please if you didn't like it, it wasn't for you. complain to your friends if you must, not the artist. don't make people feel like shit i'll cut off the roof of your house like wile e coyote and i AM serious about this one
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fushic0re · 2 years
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i know we’ve gotten used to demanding reblogs and comments from readers but if you think about it, the way we write and interact with others is also a huge factor on why some are not getting what they want. there are authors here who garner high and consistent engagement. why? because they are good at what they do and they don’t guilt trip anyone for it. they get 100+ anons daily without having to beg the tl for it because they write fics that make you want to scream and ramble, and also because they are welcoming, responds to feedback/doesn’t ignore replies people leave (i know many of us are guilty of this) and because they know how to get people to talk to them (definitely not through making REBLOG AND COMMENT OR I WILL DEACTIVATE 👹 posts). i understand the frustration of 10 reblogs and a hundred likes because i’ve been there too, i am there, but it’s not really a good look to threaten and demand people to leave comments and reblog our fics. they don’t owe us anything, and we don’t owe them anything either. of course there are anons who demand updates and we like to call them out by being like “then reblog my fic first! 🙄” but chances are, 98% of them do. idk, i keep seeing these demanding posts everyday and i get it (i can’t even crack 1k+ likes lol, need to improve and be more creative with plots) but it’s not the right approach… sorry if this comes across as rude and offensive, i’m not trying to be, just giving perspective.
to say "hey you're not getting engagement bc you're not good or don't interact with your consumers the right way" is also such a shitty thing to say when that's not always the case. i've read novel worthy fics on here from the most approachable, kindest people and they barely break 50 notes on their works which is absolutely insane to me. i see people hosting sleepovers/celebration events, asking how everyone's day is going, basically going out of their way to engage with viewers because that's just who they are as people. they're kind. and yet, they're also left in the dust. as a writer, you should know that this happens. people on here are TRYING their absolute hardest just for their works to be SEEN because they love them and are proud of them. that statement is extremely insensitive.
tumblr isn't the same anymore, which means we have to navigate it differently. this means speaking up about how tumblr algorithm doesn't do anything for us and instead, we need to support each other by reblogging. if this is an issue that people are passionate about, they deserve to speak up about it as much as they want rather than be silenced for the sake of "uwu my followers won't like me bc i'm speaking up about an issue uwu".
on this blog, i promote speaking up and standing by what you believe it. i don't give a shit if it makes anyone not want to reblog my fics bc i'm "begging" and it "bothers" you lmao. i'm not gonna bend over backwards and make myself smaller for a measly reblog.
also, no one is "threatening" to leave without reblogs. at least to the people i follow or those i have spoken to about this issue. we're simply pointing out logical arguments; if you kept working at something and weren't being met with any results, would you keep doing it? no, because that's counterproductive. if creators aren't feeling encouraged, they're gonna stop creating. that's not a threat. that's not "guilt tripping". that's fact and you just not being able to handle it.
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grimmshood · 2 years
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i personally like 2 think ji-woon was a trainee when nospin debuted and was added a year after their debut, then their all-kill hit had been the same year (think rookie of the year type of deal) and also he's naturally the Functional + literal maknae (and probably the same age as the existing maknae as well)
my No BHVR Lore based NOSPIN lore is something else entirely bc i have So many thoughts
i came up with my own nospin members + concept btw so.
based only off the idea that ji-woon has several cosmetics that are costumes referencing nospin's previous successes (specifically the fur coat ones and recolors) and off a friend's statement, nospin had a more mature/sexier concept in their later work, personally i think they started off with a fresh / colorful concept and grew more mature over time to appeal to GLOBE (personal name for nospin's fandom bc icant call them orbit...)
i thought nospin probably had to have been suffering a bit from debut to require the addition of a new member, which goes into the arrangement i have.
also heights for the members were decided based off the nospin tome charm, also used skz as a reference to see how short would make sense for changmin lmao. ages are at the time of being taken / death
woojin - leader, he's indian and recruited from overseas. he's 5"8 making him the tallest member. woojin is his stage name (i havent come up with his legal name yet lol) he's a trans man and bisexual. '95 liner (24 at time of death, wouldve been 26)
blink- visual / rapper, thai recruit. he's 5"7, i do not have a legal name for him either. trans man and gay. '95 liner (24 at time of death, wouldve been 26)
jang chun-woo- american recruit, grew up in chicago and moved to korea in order to train at mighteeone. transmasc lesbian like ji-woon. '96 liner (23 at time of death, wouldve been 25)
su changmin- first maknae, 5"5 being the shortest. born + raised in seoul. unlabeled but he's just there. guy who says yippee! '97 liner (22 at time of death, wouldev been 24)
hak ji-woon - maknae, 5"6 (ash calculated this based on model heights so it's what im going with) debuted at 16 and was a trainee under mighteeone for 2 years. transmasc lesbian, was fully transitioned by 20 (bhvr wont say this but /I/ think nospin took a hiatus for 2 years in which he completed his transition) '97 liner (24, 22 during the fire)
my nospin is a self produced group with yun-jin supervising and doing production as well. woojin, blink and ji-woon are the primary producers where changmin and chun-woo primarily write lyrics. all of them contribute to composition, production and lyric writing but the separate groups applies typically to their title tracks. their songs vary in genre but tend to lean towards EDM and R&B. Songs Ji-woon does primary production on sound noisier and have a more distinct sound (leading into part of why the snuff scream music became his trademark, even though the audio was layered under other sounds)
i also. like to apply shinee things to nospin so i think they were on a reality show a year after debut (think hello baby) and the child they spent time with them is a boy named on-gyum who was 4 when they met, 11 when NOSPIN's members died and 13 in 2020.
my idea of their relationships with each other are that blink + woojin were the closest due to both being foreign members, chun-woo facilitated most of the early communication due to knowing english and being able to speak to woojin and blink that way + translating for the rest. chun-woo and ji-woon were pit as rivals, spending a decent amount of time paired up (as well as both being attention-hogs + roommates.) changmin had a crush on ji-woon for some time and ji-woon bullied him over it. this and ji-woons general shitty self centered attitude made the rest of the group despise him, but he hated them for taking attention from him so. they got along still but ji-woon got into fights with other members a lot, he did learn from woojin though. also woojin and blink were probably gay if you catch my drift
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tallkfandomtome · 5 months
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Originally posted on previous reblog and then edited out bc I feel like I should have it on my own profile.
10 years ago or so (just turned 30 in sept), I've found a fic in a word doc, nameless. When I read it it was super familiar, and I could've easly forgotten I wrote it. Still, I "corrected some errors" posted it on ffnet, and said in the descrption: I found this on my docs. If its anyones, let me know. I love your wtiting. Or something of the sort. (Already mistake n°1) That was uploaded for like a year. Then I figured after no one recclamied it that was actually something I wrote. Like a dumbass I deleted that description and lo and behold, someone came 1) saying a was a a son of a bitch for stealing someone's work and 2) the actual author.
Ofc I was super embarrased and ashamed. I profusely apologized, took the fic down inmediatly and apologized again. I also made a statement in my bio and said everything that happened, apologizing again.
I think about this still bc I still feel bad. As an actual writer myself, something like this happeining to me would wreck me. The autor was super nice and I truly hope they've forgiven me for it.
They said something, I remember, that really hurt me even, lol, and that is "check if some other of your works are not someone else's and you upload them by mistake as well".
Gosh. It felt awfwl. Bc ofc they would make that assumption. That was the only and last time I would ever do that, but they had no real way of knowing that.. it still stings a bit.
After that ofc I never saved anymore fics in random word docs. But what I'm trying to say is that what JS and these other "creators" do is very different from these stupid, shitty mistakes that can still happen. We are small creators. I never was nor am a famous fic write,nor want to ever be tbh. I write bc i cant help it. Bc even with everything, i love it. I put a lot of effort and time into it (when i'm able to sit down and do it, i mean). Thats why I still feel like shit. Thats why i'm saying all this. This is something that i did and if i could, I would still be apologizing to the author.
JS and the others... dont. They dont care. They feel as if all this is an attack TO them. Its insane and horrible. They have no remorse for these other creators without a popular platform like theirs, who's works they're citing verbatim. That its truly mean and intentional.
If the author reads this by chance, I'm sorry. Hope you're still writing. ♡♡
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jo-harrington · 9 months
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I’m the anon that sent the ask about the way you answered and seemed to agree with dismissive asks about white coding reader. to be completely honest, if you want to address the way you handled it when it was brought up to you, I think you should just address it and apologize. It’s not just about the fact that it was a white coded reader and maybe it took you a minute to find a solve for that, it was the way you handled it in the interim. You should have just acknowledged and addressed your reaction and apologized in your post you made. I know I’m not the only person who feels this way, some may choose not to say anything for a variety of reasons. I also find it a bit weird that you were so open to posting dismissive and invalidating asks but now are shutting down any public discussion on the way you handled the topic.
also, some poc don’t want to have in depth convos about these things bc that takes mental and emotional energy. They want to be able to bring it up and have you be able to take it from there. I don’t feel like doing the labor, I’m tired. If you know the way you answered those asks was wrong, address it. It’s not just seeing white coded reader that makes this fandom a less welcoming place for poc it’s reactions like the one you had.
Hi anon! Thank you for coming back. And you are correct. It was never my intention to hurt people and then shut down conversation.
Like I said, I’m holding myself accountable. I’ve had conversations with friends (and with my therapist) and was held accountable too.
So I’m going to say some of those things openly now.
I’m sorry for the way that I made you and others feel invalidated and unwelcome on my page. I’m sorry that I made light of a situation that is so much bigger than my silly story as others have done countless times in the past.
What seemed like a silly thing to me (posting the anon like a funny moment in what felt like the heaviest conversation in the world) was incredibly tone deaf. Because no I did not think before I posted that it could have been meant in a malicious way. And then I stepped back and went “ok yes.”
As for my defensiveness, and yes I’m going to agree, I’ve been working on that too. I turned what should have been something simple and welcoming into a defensive and invalidating statement.
In trying to explain why I chose to write my story the way I did and why it meant so much to me, I centered myself and my story in a discussion which should have centered race and inclusivity and white coding in fanfiction. I asked others to see me when I should have taken myself out of the situation and seen them. Seen you.
It is a human thing to do, not just in this discussion and topic, but every one. And I know that I needed to be better when handling a topic as important as this one. I’m working on being better now. But it doesn’t undo the hurt I did, and I’m sorry.
As kind of a final statement on this part of your ask; about responding openly versus asking to take the convo private. It is very daunting to open your inbox and see these long kinds of messages. Which is why I’ve welcomed conversation outside of just the echo chamber that is the anon feature. Encouraged it.
We’ve all gotten the text from a friend thats so long you need to scroll down the page, and you’re just like “man I wish this was a phone call instead.” Things can be misinterpreted, you can’t tell tone. Something can be written in an emotional moment.
The intention was not to avoid an apology or avoid any of this being open. All of the asks are still up. You can see that I was shitty or stupid or tone deaf. You can also see where I made a mistake and as I'm hoping to do going forward here, see that I’m willing to own it and fix it.
So thank you again for coming back anon. You said you’re tired, but coming back is emotional labor too and I am very grateful that you did.
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vulcandyke · 3 years
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#not to take these shitty books seriously but like. i fucking hate the whole jace has demon blood no he doesnt thing#bc the big reveal that he doesnt have demon blood is like. surprise you actually arent evil#as if being good or evil is predetermined literally before birth in this instance#the idea that your blood or your dna can be inherently evil is so fucking wrong#also like. i know clary says the whole 'even tho they were difficult choices you still didnt choose to side with valentine'#but the aspect of free will is gone at that point. it's not interesting that the man who's part angel did the right thing#if the idea is that your morality is predetermined by your blood#how can sebastian even really be evil if he never had a choice to be good?#how is jace noble at all if the blood of ithuriel is what made him that way?#it's way more intriguing to say yes this character was created to be evil. yes he was trained from before birth to be that way#but he still chose to do the right thing in spite of it#bc as it is clare's statement here is 'oh it's okay bc he's a changeling! he's not ACTUALLY a bad guy bc he isn't actually part monster#this idea that monstrosity or otherness in general is inherently evil is dangerous and also frankly lazy writing.#it would've been way more interesting if valentine had been giving celine demon blood instead#also like. the dichotomy of jace/clary wouldve been way more intriguing if jace didnt also have the extra angel blood#the quasi-incest is fucking weird regardless tho. was that really necessary cassandra. really.#rambles#i have no idea if this is coherent im just thinking about how much i hate the idea that monster=evil and that your initial circumstances#define your whole life
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