#and b) making ocs for dnd stuff with friends for the first time! one that's just for fun to think about but also characters i'm gonna PLAY

[chitatochickenpotato]

tell me about atlas sew and his friend group 👹👹

I've had this story and these characters for 10+ years, the amount of inter-connectivity between everything is so hard to explain. If anything sounds unbalanced, feel free to ask about it because theres usually a reason that nerfs it.

That being said Atlas'(he/they) Mom was my first OC, she's basically my world's equivalent of a Dnd Champion she worships the deity of loyalty. She spends a lot of her story picking up strays and doing the whole found family thing (she later loops his father into this behavior as well) so his family is massive. And both his parents own the adventurers' guild so everyone he grew up around is like battle hardened and kinda reckless. As a result he has a weird "Nothing can hurt me, do you even know who I am?" and "I am intimately aware of how much effort and hurt it takes to succeed, with everything I do I will give back to my community as thanks for all the privilege I have" complex about him. He's also weirdly codependent in that he's never really alone so when he is he just kinda has no idea what to do. He's very much the "I know a guy" guy.

The Sew thing is actually because neither of his parents remember the names they were born with cuz they had to keep switching them. However his mother was known for fixing uniforms when she was in the army and making clothes n stuff for other revolutionaries n whatnot. So the name is kinda like John Smith in that the family name is just her occupation.

Atlas is actually inspired by Taliesin Jaffe because I watched his episode of between the sheets and was like yeah thats him. Specifically he has that like old soul kinda vibe you get when you're raised around people much older than you and have been to more funerals than you have marriages. He's not goth weird like taliesin but he's "I know too much and lack experience in all things" weird. He's also a history major which I imagine contributes to that. Atlas has grown up around people who have lived it and he wants to better understand them and their experiences.

He also has some disparity in being raised semi-noble because of his parent's strange governmental relations and also being babysat by adventurer's all the time. I imagine he kinda shifts rapidly between super well mannered and proper to being an absolute rascal.

Currently him and his gang are studying at a prestigious university I can't be bothered to name. He meets Aragon before joining the uni at a fancy party (both their parents are loaded [Aragon's through business and prolly blood money, Atlas's because the government wants them to stay in one place so they don't have to deal with the hassle of having slightly overpowered warriors on the loose])

Malachi and Oz are working under their mentors for a government sponsored project to make permanent portals through the planes. Atlas' family gets brought in because of the adventure guild thing and some of the failed portals keep spawning in monsters. So he meets those two through that.

Idk what Aragon's family does yet but Oz hears that Atlas knows Aragon and basically says that bros family uses stuff from diff planes to make their stuff so Atlas should totally get him to fund the project as well. So thats how Aragon gets introduced to the rest of the gang.

Aragon (he/she genderfluid) is a fire elemental and the way that works in my world is that elementals are born as null but when they hit puberty they gain their element based on who they are like personality wise.

She's super standoffish and snappy. She's very much the painful aspect of fire when you first meet her. But as you get to know her I think she mellows out into barely a burning ember of a person. As the story continues I want him to become more of a hearth kinda fire personality wise.

Her entire thing is that her parents want him to go into business and support the family but he super doesn't want to do that. Except he doesn't know who she is as a person because his whole life has been defined by being what his family wants that he doesn't know what else to do.

He has super bad family relations and like 2 friends outside of the gang and they're the butler and the chef so she isn't doing great. So like when he's thrown into a group of people who know exactly who they are and are doing what they want its kinda moth to the flame. Being around them hurts because imposter syndrome and jealousy but also it's visible proof that theres a chance at a happier future for him.

Growing up I imagine he spent a lot of time hiding in the kitchen. The chef would listen to him complain and give him snacks n stuff. Eventually he started teaching Aragon to cook. Later down the line I want him to have his own little restaurant but he is Not There yet.

His character is me processing what it means to learn how to trust. She's very much that one character that is not down to found family but boy howdy are the others trying (They succeed). Atlas brought Aragon home one day and his parents decided "yeah that's my kid" after hearing about her negligent home life. A lot of their relationship is Atlas convincing Aragon to be a Sew (most of their family is adopted through similar means) while Aragon struggles with still wanting to prove himself to his parents.

Malachi (he/him nonbinary) and Oz (she/her) are still in development.

Malachi is like a magic physicist, his mentor is working with the guy in charge of making the spell (enchantment???) for the portal to take em from plane a to plane b. So him and his mentor are studying the relationship between those spaces to make sure no one like dies and things stop coming through without permission.

Oz and her mentor make the rovers and what not that they send through the temporary portals in order to get more info on how to set up a temporary one.

They bond over the project and school.

The way I make characters is I basically come up with a role they fill, a vague concept, and like 4 personality traits + sometimes a design. Then they stay as like vague husks of people till I find 2-3 characters or people that make me go "This is so character A" and I copy and paste things to give them actual depth. Once the mishmash is complete the brainworms start forming connections between them, the world, and other characters already in existence.

As of rn Oz and malachi only have one inspo each so I'm a lil lost on them. I wanna develop them a bit better this year tho

There also isn't any plot for this

#Theres never any plot #theres only ever vibes and characters #my story isn't linear its very much just some people living and sometimes I give them problems #Writing this out feels so cringe #Telling anyone about Atlas' family specifically brings back memories of the forbidden mary sue #have to keep reminding myself I create for myself and theyre allowed to be as op as I please

[swarmkeepers]

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#sola said #in this weird headspace rn that's exactly the intersection of #a) thinking about asian american themes and what makes a theme asian american and which characters i hc as asian diaspora and why #and b) making ocs for dnd stuff with friends for the first time! one that's just for fun to think about but also characters i'm gonna PLAY #and i'm super excited but it's also been a while since i've done original stuff at all #when i'm doing fandom stuff i feel like i usually stick pretty close to canon #and so these two things intersected in the exact place that's like #you know what would be fun? #reading back the rp forums you were on in 2013! #oh little baby sola #i have so much affection still for like #my past self who was writing there #and for friends there (i am not. in contact with them anymore. some folks got real conservative real fast) #and for what i wrote there #but like. oh little baby sola #i spent so long as a kid writing all my characters white #and on this forum (it's still up it's still moderated there are kids there who are the same age i was when i was posting there. #i have a lot of affection for it as a place i think was a good way to learn how to Be Online back then) #i can read back and see how i started slowly making my characters mixed #being a little bit more asian. never more than half. #some real asian girl with blue eyes stuff / some real white girl with japanese name stuff #i spent so long as a kid with the Compulsory Fantasy Whiteness #making all my characters white or mixed for no good reason #i was half joking with AJ earlier but like #i served my time on those forums. that era is over #now not only are all my OCs asian #in fact now other people's characters in my hcs? they're asian too. fight me. (points beam of vietnameseness at gorgug thistlespring- ) #all this to say like. i was a little kid when i wrote those forum posts! i was trying then and i'm trying now so i look back and know better #i don't think i'll ever stop unlearning but like. we unlearn and we stay compassionate to our younger selves who hadn't done that yet #and we keep learning and we keep growing (but sometimes it is funny to look back)

[harvestdew]

Do you have any specific seb headcanons? I feel like most everyone has at least one or two about their sdv spouse; but if you're more interested in giving a kiki and seb character dynamic analysis like you did for haley, abigail, and shane I'd be SUPER into that too

I LOVE SEBASTIAN i’m glad you’re interested in hearing about their dynamic! i like when people talk or ask me about this stuff so i get irrationally happy when people are interested in my oc or my opinions of characters in the game. again i’ll put it under a read more since i don’t want to clog people’s dashboards up! also here’s a quick sketch of him i did as a little treat

sebastian headcanons

i always thought and still think he’s asian (like me and kiki) because of his dark hair. i know people say he dyes it but whatever

he’d probably like sanrio even if not openly? i think he might be embarrassed since ppl assume sanrio’s for kids but he’d especially like keroppi because he likes frogs

he’s GOTH (and to some extent punk) not an e-boy people need to stop calling him an e-boy i’m begging you because if you saw e-boy culture on tiktok you know they’re the legit antithesis of him and he would probably hate/make fun of them with sam and abigail

my dude wears glasses but only when he’s alone in his room which is why if you took him out to get food he wouldn’t be able to read the menu at mcdonalds

he’s naturally good with cats in the same way he’s good with frogs. he’s one of those people who doesn’t even know but cats just seem to really like them for no explainable reason

definitely plays minecraft. no ifs ands or buts. he is not ashamed in it and neither should you

i don’t think his hair was intentionally supposed to be longer on one side.  i think he grew his hair out once in high school and then tried to cut it but cut off too much on one side but when he saw how edgy it looked he went idk this kinda looks nice and left it

i don’t know if anyone knows about the games yume nikki and ib but he’d like those types of games a lot. and in the context of him being a programmer, he’d probably code something similar to the premise of that game. very deep but also kinda confusing games

i don’t think he hates maru. she specializes in STEM just like he does and a lot of their interests align imo. i like to think sometimes they help each other out whether it be with maru’s robots or his own coding. at least once he matures out of the phase of feeling secondary to her and realizes she actually really loves her brother

kiki + sebastian relationship

i feel like the couple meme sheet i did embodies their dynamic pretty well but if it wasn’t obvious i like opposites attract and goth/prep dynamics

even if they don’t have the exact same interests, they strive for compromise. as in kiki giving him tulips since she likes tulips even though he hates flowers - he keeps them in a vase anyway. kiki doesn’t like horror, sebastian probably does, and she watches movies with him so he isn’t trapped watching awful romcoms with her. he also probably doesn’t love sweets but i think i established earlier kiki’s pretty good at baking so he tries to eat whatever she bakes anyway. and it’s not like those “the old ball and chain” relationships but more so done out of love so your partner doesn’t feel like they are losing parts of themselves dating you

not that they don’t have anything in common though b/c kiki liked the cave saga comics as a kids and would participate in dnd sessions with sebastian

they were definitely best friends before they went out and i don’t think it was love at first sight. he was probably thinking why the hell does this chick keep showing up in my room for the first few weeks of their friendship until she kinda grew on him once he realized she was there to stay and annoyingly persistent

i don’t really get the vibe sebastian is the type to give you advice when you’re upset but it’s not necessarily a bad thing for kiki. it’s better for her, as opposed to haley (who i DO think gives good advice), to sometimes have someone to listen to. imo he’s more observant so he is able to pick up on her being upset when someone like abigail might not notice

in general the same goes as what i’ve said about shane and haley - a lot of their dynamic is based on helping each other, especially helping each other grow

they definitely bicker but not in an overdramatic way? i feel like the only thing they’d fight about is something as dumb as robin and demetrius fighting over tomatoes being fruit - ultimately harmless (plus robin and demetrius have one of the healthiest relationships in game). maybe something like that one vid of the guys fighting over whether or not water is wet

kiki definitely gets on his ass about his health all the time. like i KNOW it’s annoying the way your mom might nag you but i am so bad at self-care myself that i’m 99% sure he probably forgets to eat sometimes after coding for hours which is why she drops food off for him constantly

sebastian is better at showing affection through his actions because saying stuff verbally is not his strong suit and embarrasses him, so usually he resorts to things

kiki is also so good at giving sebastian super well thought-out gifts (like bidding on a signed copy of the comics he likes) that he gets really nervous around holidays because he doesn’t want to give her something that she doesn’t like and disappoint her. gift giving is a competition at this point

pda is not really sebastian’s thing so kiki doesn’t indulge in it that much so he won’t die of embarrassment. but on occasion she does do some pda in front of everyone though to embarrass him b/c it is kinda funny to her

their dates tend to be really simple too? i don’t think either of them are big gesture types of people or they only do that type of stuff once in a while. i think he’s come to terms that kiki refuses to go back to the city for dates but is okay with date nights in. weirdly enough he plans them more knowing that she’s really busy with farm work

i feel like there’s more but i’m kinda forgetting i might add some more later if i think of some... thank you so much for the ask though!!!

#SORRY FOR SPILLING SO MUCH #mine #answered

[emdop]

My Year at a Glance

Every day in 2019 I wrote a note on a Post-It about my day, my feelings, or really anything that I felt like writing, so today on Jan 1, 2020 I could read them.

Here are the ones that made me laugh, cry, and feel things:

Top left: January 4, 2019 Sometimes I am overwhelmed by small things. Top right: January 6, 2019 Shoved my feelings deep enough so I would rewrite my book. I have my fingers crossed the second drat will be better! Bottom left: January 7, 2019 walked in the rain, but returned home. I should have kept walking. It was a warm day. Bottom right: January 28, 2019 The odds are against me but I’m determined.

Left: February 4, 2019 all the romances I’ve been reading haven’t had any steam. I miss the steam. Right: February 22, 2019 Started rewatching Merlin today. Need to write a hate-to-love series

Left: March 2, 2019 I have hope for me yet. Center: March 2019 [listed] DND brunch, windshield wiper fiasco, Katie’s benefit, midnight walk with Regan. Right: March 18, 2019 [listed] Set up an author’s newsletter today, made a mood board for The Dream Thieves, morphing into a real person from a dumpster fire is hard work. I have to keep pushing myself to do better.

Left: April 6, 2019 [listed] got stuff done today!, cleaned, did social media, read 100 pgs, made possible writing friend on Tumblr. Top center: April 7, 2019 [listed] slow day, struggling to name a character. Bottom center: April 29, 2019 [listed] first day on job, scheduled therapist appt., I am so tired. Right: April 13, 2019 mental health was absolute garbage today. So hurt and insecure.

Left: May 7, 2019 It’s my birthday and I can cry if I want to. Middle top: May 18, 2019 A year ago today I graduated from college. Maria and Dalton’s baby shower today [heart]. Middle bottom: May 22, 2019 I’m so tired. God, please let me rest. Top right: May 24, 2019 [listed] work, family dinner, DND night, I did it all. And I coped with my anxiety. Fuck Yeah! Bottom right: May 30, 2019 There are a lot of things I love in this world.

Top left: June 17, 2019 I should start writing letters to my friends b/c it’s [my] English degree given right. Top Middle: June 4, 2019 My emotions are raw and so near the surface. I am constantly bursting at the seams and sowing myself back together. Top right: June 3, 2019 [listed] therapy session, each day I get a little better. Bottom left: June 22, 2019 got a bunch of books today in the mail! Bottom right: June 10, 2019 I am making a commitment to my recovery. Work makes me very stressed.

The only one: July 23, 2019 Spent some time outside today. Got attacked by 3 bugs.

Top left:  August 17, 2019 [listed] work, pouting, posted fanfic yesterday. Really want a comment. Top right: August 20, 2019 I’m heart broken that my writing is making me sad and guilty. Bottom left: August 22, 2019 IDK just another day. Bottom right: August 24, 2019 [listed] work, live blogged reading my very first draft of Sing This Love.

Left: September 20, 2019 In [a] land of myth and a time of magic. Right: September 30, 2019 Greyson’s Birthday [an OC of mine]

Left: October 1, 2019 [listed] got my Converse in the mail! They’re hella cute, did my 1st of the month chores, read HP and the Order of the Phoenix. Right: October 5, 2019 [listed] cleaned the house, got a bunch of vaccines, need to convince myself to write.

Left: November 15, 2019 I’m tired and angry. The words are locked up inside. Middle: November 10, 2019 I can’t tell whether I’m heading toward disaster or success. Right: November 12, 2019 I wish I was doing better

Top left: December 9, 2019 I finished my novel. Top right: December 4, 2019 My anxiety lies. My anxiety lies. My anxiety lies. Bottom: December 8, 2019 Sundays are good days. But my brain still needs help.

#long post #anxiety #writeblr #2019 #new year

[dirtycar-remade]

idk anything abt ur ocs (im sorry ;_;) so could u give me a briefing? :oc

wahhh sure but just know i have a lot so im not gonna talk abt all of em!! ill uhhh talk abt 3 “stories” i guess. also gonna put it under the cut cuz its gonna get loongg

first one is legend hunt n its my baby project. its a webcomic ive been workin on for.. fuck like 4 years now? still havent started drawing it cuz i keep on rewritin it n redesignin its characters but basically its abt a group of characters lookin for iconias (one of the kingdoms) great hidden treausre. heres a toyhouse page for it but not everyone is on it yet. abt the characters now!!

first ones julian, hes the main protag. hes half fairy half human n the prince of iconia tho he ran away from it at the beginning of the webomic for reasons i cant get into yet! hes kinda the opposite of a perfect prince, like hes often grumpy n very self concious n can b an asshole if he needs to, he hates lying but does it kinda a lot. hes super flawed but also super fucking depressed but god he gets sooo much better as the time goes on n im SO proud of him.

next one is jaspar. hes from the elossa kingdom n is the captain of the royal guard here tho he never really wanted that job, he got it cuz his father retired. he looks like ur stereotypical knight cuz hes tall n muscular n has a sword but hes such a SOFTIE. hes like the softest character in this whole thing. hes not really a coward but he does get scared easily n he doesnt really like fighting all that much. hes very sweet n kind but also gets distracted suuper easily n tends to speak before thinking first. hes also julians looove interest

then theres pumpkin whos my favorite in the entire webcomic tbh. cant talk much abt her past but i feel like ppl r gonna call her #problematique n r gonna hate her cuz shes a rude female character like what?? how dare she b a loveable asshole. i just KNOW ppl r gonna call her a bitch fdhghfh but anyway ya shes tired shes kinda mean but shes also very caring, shes just kinda done w everything. her n julian hav a lot of similarities which is why they get along so well.

next up is licorice theyre pumpkins familiar. theyre the youngest of the main cast, theyre only 15! theyre very into fashion n make up n like to experiment w their appearance, theyre also veeery hyper. they switch a lot between their human form n their cat form (which is a maine coon kitty!). theyre honestly a bastard but i love them theyre feral

n last main character is elyon! hes pumpkins best friend n “neighbour” n by that i mean he lives in a tree house near pumpkins tree house! hes blind n hes an archer. he has a twin sister who has lots of bde n is a lesbian icon. elyon is the last main character i came up w/ so i dont talk abt him a lot but basically hes just very chill but also very protective of his belongings n friends n house n stuff. hes chill tho.

n ok this is already fucking long SO ill b quick abt the other two things, 2nd story is a dnd “campaign” i was plannin to do but it changed to a rp im writin w my gf! its set in the fuuuutuuure n i cant really talk much abt it cuz i dont want my gf to get Spoiled for the plot but its got a cowboy, an emo twink, two whole murder girls n lots of idiots

n last story is just kinda a wip rn, i draw these characters a lot in school cuz theyre supposed to b in a kinda simplified style. its abt angels n demons n ppl n its also furries cuzzzz furries easier to draw. i have a height chart of the main characters i did in ms paint lol so ill just,, put it here

#SORRY I TOOK SO LONG TO REPLY N ALSO SORRY ITS SO LONG HFGHGH #i didnt even read it so if theres anything that doesnt make sense its probably cuz i fucked up my wording or grammar f #ask #pausemenu #oc tag

[ourlordandseivior]

ocs? what they like?

Oh man I have... several. my first ever OC was based on one of my high school best friends’ cats. His name was Soup and he had the prettiest icy blue eyes and we just got this vibe off him that he may have been an exiled prince in his past life so like....idk we made up this lore about him so like, Prince Soup was a thing. 

Then fast forward to 2017 when I made my first dnd character, Ivellios Siannodel, Duke of Quavein and lord of the Underdark. I didn’t do a whole lot fleshing him out until last summer but he is a 7′6″ dark elf rogue noble bitch who is charming and highkey horny on main. Like deadass my dm makes me roll checks to see if Ivie has a random boner or nah. In creating him and assigning him a character flaw, I just so happened to roll “insatiable desire for carnal pleasures.” Once I got to giving him personality and backstory and flair, my friend was there right by my side creating his dnd characters and basically Ivie got a fuck buddy and a future husband out of it. I need to play with him more, I love him dearly. 

I also have a Monster Prom OC who is the daughter of Dr. Frank N Furter. Her name is Raquel F. Furter and she’s a, you guessed it, Frankenstein-esque monster girl. Basically in her story, Frank n Furter went back to Transylvania and decided that instead of making a Rocky to be a toy for himself, he wanted to be a father. So he instead made a Rockie to be his daughter. She’s basically the Frankenstein monster ver. of Ariana Grande and she has a #squad and they’re the power trio and also she hate fucks Vera

Then for a while I didn’t bother creating anyone new, really, because all the OCs I was making were characters to fit in AU fics I was writing. They are treasures as well but they’re not my Main Baes, ya feel?

And then. THEN I played The Arcana and while I did it the first time under the assumption that it was just the kind of thing where you stick yourself in the game, I came to realize people were making apprentice OCs for it and I was like “bitch what the fuck is this what we were supposed to be doing all along????” And that’s how Jade Della Penna was born. I’ve got a little bit of a character detail sheet I made for her and like, I just kind of went through this list of OC questions and answered them as a means of giving her more substance. I drew loose inspo from Jade West from Victorious, but only loose. Mostly in terms of name and a couple god-tier insults. My Jade is the daughter of two beautiful lesbians, Nova and Claudia. I’ll admit, I did put a bit of Italian influence in there too b/c I saw a lot of people doing shit with their heritage and all :3c “Della Penna” means “of the pen”, so I made her a spell writer and knowledge seeker. She’s absolutely dealt with some more taboo magic without Asra being aware of it, and I’d love to write some proper angst along those lines at some point. I gave her a couple other little Italian things as well. Example, I made her birthday on November 2, aka Italian Day of the Dead (Giorno dei Morti). She also has a familiar that I’m quite fond of, his name is Cyrus and he is the sweetest little peacock ever. He’s a wee lad, and he likes to try and perch on her shoulders if he can help it but he’s still p big so it doesn’t always work out. Jade isn’t near as much of a chicken as Cyrus, but her fighting skills are exclusively from a distance. She is a knife thrower and keeps a set of 3-4 holstered to her thigh at all times. When she patted Julian down and he was trying to be all tough about having a dagger, Jade kinda just hiked up her skirt and was like “aw, cute, but mine are sharper” and teased him a lil. Ya feel? I could properly post the character sheet stuff I have for her once I buff shit out. 

I also made a second apprentice just to be Muriel’s tiny wife b/c he’s a giant ass mountain man who is a bottom that needs to be hella pegged. Thus, Lillith was born. She just, like, doesn’t look like a top but is kind of a fiend in bed. And that’s it, that’s who she is. Jade isn’t toppy enough to top Muriel, and I think Lilith has good chemistry with him. Been playing his route as her just to let her tease and fluster the fuck out of him. 

That’s the gist, and I have a handful of names I’ve set aside to use for future OCs, because honestly like, a name is what I come up with first.

Annnnnnd that’s basically everyone

#lemme know if there's anyone specific that catches ur eye :3c #Anonymous

[lwbluedice]

Masterpost for my Stories and Ocs!!!

A spoilerfree list of most of my Ocs and stories (reuploaded here on my main blog)

Includes:

- Name of the story and state it’s in

- short summary/facts

- Character names

If you want more information abt any of them(like a description or a pic) or abt the stories, just message me/ ask me!  Also feel free to ask me to draw them ( for example in the color scheme thing or sth)!

Note: The stories are all written in german so if you don’t speak that language i can’t send you the original documents but i can try summing them up for you!

I bet this is not everything and i will add stuff but yeah!!!!

Hotaru (first draft is finished)

- Abt two men that are linked through a surgery called “synchronisation”, which basically connects their minds and bodies, so they are forced to work as a team. Ea is an ex-soldier and Cain was a hacker, but due to the fact that they can’t stand each other, they also didn’t share their pasts with each other. To pay someone to unlink them, they become bounty hunters and kidnap the girl Ai and her robot Subaru, which is one of the old military robots, called Hotarus (high technologised, operating, transforming, artificial intelligence, ranger units). They are connected to a human ranger and can transform into what the ranger wants them to transform into.

The Hotaru headquarters exploded 10 years ago and since then the Hotarus are super rare on the black market.

The two men plan on selling both the girl and her robot and let’s just say it all doesn’t work out that well.

Ai Hoshino

Ea

Cain Bishop

Subaru

Dr. Chandra Natarajan

10 A

10 B

and other synced pairs

George Watton

Asha Watton

Elaine Bishop

Christopher Bishop

Haruto Hoshino

Shiori Hoshino

The Pleiades. A Hotaru Unit.

Atlas/ Emmett Hunter

Maia/ Ilya Neverwinter

Elektra/ Hailey Gray

Taygete/ Daiyu Ghou

Alcyone/ Charlotte Gryffith)

Caelano/ Sora Aurora River

Merope/ Imogen Harrington

Sterope/ Elizabeth Bresley

Additional Characters for the (maybe Sequel) in which the grown up Ai will try to find out who attacked the Hotaru Headquarters

- Skya

The day the world turned white ( first draft is finished, working on it)

To stop global warming some scientists basically caused a new ice age. On the long run this might be very effective but the former countries, now sectors, are hit by strong ice storms, called snow white. To stay safe huge bunkers, the Safe Cities, were built and the local fauna and flora were stored in Arks, to preserve them.

Usually an alarm sounds before all citizens are brought into the SCs, but this time Reese and her best friend Yuki dont manage to get to the vehicles on time and are left behind. They seek shelter in a private bunker outside of town that Yuki found out about recently. Suddenly a group of boys their age knocks on the door, because they were also left behind and followed the girls.

Al, the brothers Eli and Isaac, Gil and Henry become the new bunker-mates and the group has to survive one year in the bunker, until the storm is over.

( I have a blog for this story, just search for The day the world turned white! There are pics and some posts for example abt which patronus/spirit animal the charas have!)

Reese/ Therese Wells

Al/ Alexander Glover

Yuki Sarah Brooke

Eli Green

Isaac Green

Gil de Santos

Henry Summers

The Sun will always rise (The sequel, probably forever unfinished)

About a group of rebels, the Sun Children, that are sworn enemies to the government and its ways to cope with Snow White.

Takes place abt one/two years after Tdtwtw.

Lucy and Aidan are kicked out of an underground organisation that stays in the cities underground system during the storm phases and the two wander around in the snow until Michael and Rin pick them up and bring them to the Sun Children. From looking into the snow directly to maneuver, Lucy has turned snowblind.

Yeah the plot is… not 100% existent.

Characters:

Lucy

Aidan

Michael

Kate

Gil

Bo

Finya

Rin

The XII Games ( First book is finished, i started the second one, unfinished)

A story abt spaceships that let slaves fight in games, if they win a certain number they are “free”. Cassidy makes it and is sold to a women, Trisha, that takes her home onto her home planet, where Cassidy lives a nice life and learns abt her heritage. One year later she meets Tobias again and she and Trisha are brought to a planet that is basically the universes capital. Cassidy has to take a more important role in the uproar of a war, than she ever imagined.( The cast members are mostly human looking but are other, non human, races)

Cass (Cassidy ) E’ Alandril

Tobias

On the slave ship:

Neala

Sam ( Samuel)

On Anterra:

Trisha  Willowrish

Max ( Maxwell)  E’ Alyndral

Lukas

Tori

Khorr

Keri

Wil

Quinna

On the Space sparrow:

Zach ( Zacharyas) Gryaan

Benj ( Benjamin) Bottledom

Rashka Hyrelian

Oreadh Urunna'ur

Butcher

Kagrim

Kyluur

Irian Ashcott

On Capital Estellar:

Galea ( Galeandrih Fiyur’ Ihal)

Iyal

Wren Fawell

Luasia  

Luminor the Shining

Fallen Angels ( A trilogy, one and a half books were finished, reconcepted)

We don’t talk abt this but it was one of my first stories i truly wrote.

Abt fallen angels saving the world or sth. It’s super clichee and just ugh.

The newer version would cancel some charas and make it abt rebalancing Darkness and Light in the worlds. With a more diverse cast and also different magical races. And a way less creepy Adam.

Eve/Evelyn White

Adam

Peregrine/Perry

Ray/Raven

Sera

Colin

Robin

Raphael

Ky/ Kyron

Gabe/Gabriel Frost

Bree/ Gabriella Frost

Indigo ( haven’t written it yet and i don’t know if i ever will, but have drawn stuff. I lowkey wanna see this as a comic)

A story abt a clan of shapeshifters, called Indigos. They are basically human that can shift into dolphins and their clan lives on an island near Australia. Its a modern story and the gang consisting of our local gay dolphin girl Keerie, her cousins Akash and Arjuun (younger brother, older sis), and Ky ( adopted as a child, japanese heritage, a different breed of dolphin idk) lives their “normal lives” with lots of shenenigans and drama.

Some day Keerie falls in love with Navy, the daughter of the owner of the local Aquapark (that the clan suspect also does illegal stuff like snatching wild animals).

Keerie

Arjuun

Akash

Ky

Navy

“Neo Alcatraz” ( reworks of a very old story)

To put it simply, there is a pack of scientists that bionically enhance children and send them off to different countries to basically be local superheroes. Our gang was kinda left behind bc the countries rather took the newer, better versions and here they are now, a bunch of supernatural teens facing the (not so) everyday struggles of life.

Atalanta

Chi

Callie

Lee

Victor/Konrad

Gemsona (just art)

Larimar

- has water powers and her backstory bases on my private/old Squads life story and a lot of me thinking of drawing music videos for her but never doing it

Anthea (art and headcanons)

- my Dnd Oc

The Bender Girls ( art and headcanons)

- basically some Avatar the last Airbender Ocs i made once

Daiyu

Hotaru

Yura

Sündenfall / Sinfall (short story)

A short story i wrote for a competition which is basically every crime series but magic.

Harvey is immortal, he dies and is revived, and solves crimes through it. Paige is basically his assistant and the case they are on is abt a person that kills magical beings and “arranges” the victims fitting to the seven sins.

Ilya Winter

Harvey

Paige

Delphi

Sphinx

The concept charas, that had a different storyline ( they were basically a team of magical beings that would solve cases… rather unconventional.) I considered reworking them into the new Fallen Angels concept:

Ilya

Harvey

Timothy

Worth mentioning:

Project Alpha (script, some art):

The script for a shortfilm i once made with my friends. A school class has a plane crash and only a few students survive, they all embody a different character archetype (the sunshine, the soziopath, the smart one etc.) They try to survive and are put through weird psychological mind experiments like the trolley problem.

To be honest, the concept had and still has a lot of potential and we just hadn’t the opportunities to rly set it the way we anticipated. The shooting day was super fun, though! Still laughing about the outtakes

Astral Chronicles (some art and a few chapters, unfinished)

A story Idea i still like but probably wont write like this because of copyright problems. Its basically a giant Crossover.

Its abt people who have an Astral( mostly a literature figure) they embody when they are dreaming. Their body stays in bed and is vulnerable but the Astral can basivally run around and has special powers. If the Astral dies, the person wakes up but i think when the body dies the person dies too? idk.

The Protagonist embodies Alice and there are also the White Rabbit, Peter Pan, Tinkerbell usw.

There was also some kind of conflict? I dont remember.

If i would ever rewrite it the Astrals would be embodiments of the Zodiac signs.

(does this even fit?)

The Fanfiction thing i wrote abt Peter Pan/ Jack Frost

- like i have tons of short drabbles and the start of a fanfiction and honestly i liked the ideas i had a lot

The ones we better not talk abt:

Part Hunter

Basically there was a being named eternity/aeterna that was shattered into oarts (like in TRC)

and chosen ones have to reclaim them.

The ones that basically die are turned into guardians, like Time and Space ( they had animal companions they were fused with i guess)

Melody is the current part hunter and has a tragic love story, her animal is a tiny horse thing??????

Idk

basically a long story in which i used my dreams as base for the episodes

The nameless story

Actually super interesting but too many charas and a too tiny will to draw action scenes or write them.

Like its based around a super popular game in huge spheres/buildings and the teams wear some anti gravity outfits and shoes and can walk on the walls and shit and can basically attack using elements/illusion/ conjure monsters idk.

And the main team had an opponent team that basically specialized in the 25272 other elements and some day they just fused teams idk.

There also was some prophecy shit abt the anchors, ppl that can control all elements the same???? Idk

Element guardians

- basically four teens that control the elements and do shit together

- at some point i gave all of them dragons

- still thinking abt this sometimes

- The originals:

Luna: the shameless self insert , earth, pony girl, bland blonde i think

Katy: Air, best friend, bubbly

Dan: The jock. Fire

Nick: The emo. Water

At some point Katy became Skye and Dan and Nick got other names but yeah-

Talent Academy

The story thats basically a ripoff of Alice academy. Like a school with hierachie between the students and ranks and shit and different houses and the students have powers IDK

If you read through all of this, bless you for showing interest in my stories ;) And hey, if you want me to rant about any of them, just send me an ask or a message!!!

#masterpost #ocs #my stories #my ocs #stories #list

[winterywitch]

I just want to say that I really admire the depth you put into your OC's and your confidence in talking about them! I'd like to learn more about them, but I'm on mobile and it isn't letting me search the tags, so... are there any W@tchtower Grotto characters you haven't talked much about that you'd want to talk about?

oh!! ;-; gee thank you.......................

uhhhhhhh gee idk why but it feels like i dont have an actual comprehensive post on who/what nana actually is bc most of my friends know him very well already? so here’s that

hes like... early 30s?? in terms of appearance/maturity, hes the godking of the country in midnight

nana is uh... certainly a rebel at his core thats one way to put it, a lot of core things about him for better or for worse challenge the status quo. he thinks this is a good thing 100% of the time, like he’s some kind of radical rebelling against an oppressive norm on every single norm he challenges. (its not)

he is RIDICULOUSLY people-smart, hes likely an empath and could easily be called a genius when it comes to reading people and understanding how people tend to work.

if he were a dnd character he’d be a sorceror, he casts from charisma not intelligence [though he is certainly NOT lacking in that department]

hes definitely considered the leader of his little commune of kings [involving desiderius, hachi and kyuun], those three tend to defer to him and seek him out for advice [well. they mostly Used to now its just hachi that does that last part]

he sees himself as a teacher and guide to people, which isnt inaccurate necessarily!

hes very good to his people, his country as a whole is doing pretty well financially, there’s a vibe there of everyone taking care of one another! not to mention the fact that its lovely visually

he’s right about most things and he’s comfortably aware of the fact that he’s right about most things. but hes open to being corrected! he cant possibly be right about everything ALL the time!! he just has to consider you an authority on what youre talking about, which is something he very rarely considers other people to be, or he might just ignore your correction. but sometimes he wont, which makes you feel kinda silly for pointing out his tendency for hypocrisy! how confusing. it’s hard to keep up with this one.

he, like all of his colleagues minus desiderius, thinks he is the only Good King while all the others are complete messes who dont know what theyre doing or are just flat out bad people. but like, yknow, its a fucked up dysfunctional family! that’s totally normal, right??1/11

something about him just makes you think “theres a guy who knows his shit,” its probably his sturdy [outward] confidence, his [appearance of] wisdom, his [very real] intelligence and his long list of supporters that make you think that about him

his hair is weird as shit! there are ‘stars’ in it that glow, not BLINDINGLY bright but i mean yknow, they do glow, and where theyre embedded in his hair theres increased physical sensitivity. pulling on this guy’s hair fucking HURTS, even petting it can be uncomfortable if youre not really really careful. not to mention a fucking haircut, good lord (haha)

his parents were kind of like... very emotionally shallow, they were the sorts of people to be like Oh I’m Fine ^_^ at everything, and in subtle and hard-to-detect ways, they would punish nana for showing emotion of any kind (for example, laughing at him when he would cry at sad things as a child). because of this, he is now very open about his emotions and embraces them as something he should listen to and follow rather than only relying on cold logic as his parents tried to have him do. (its a lot more sinister in practice than it sounds, because yeah most of the time it is innocent like this but at the same time, he takes his own feelings VERY seriously and if you hurt them, even if it’s just by having boundaries, he will identify you as someone mistreating him or even abusing him depending on how close you are]

[heres where we get into The Shit, big tw for abuse, csa/pedophilia and “marital” sexual abuse/assault]

his closest friend and advisor arya kurosawa has been his best friend since they were both teenagers. they met when arya was 14 and nana was 17 [in terms of appearance/maturity are what those ages refer to, they were both immortal] and they got along very well.

of course by very well i mean on top of getting along very well, nana has ALWAYS had an inherent, base-level disrespect for arya’s boundaries. it’s been there since they were teens, and it mostly manifested in nana pressuring arya to do [mostly innocent - but the pressure and coercion made them not so innocent] things he was scared to do.

they were inseparable pretty much ever since they met and VERY, very in love with each other

they definitely were a romantic item by the time nana inherited the throne from his mother, and the age gap was definitely concerning but it only grew more concerning as nana’s mental/appearance age rose because he was growing up emotionally and psychologically and arya’s... stagnated.

when nana was in his early 30s so to speak, arya was stuck at 14-15 or so. and like... they didnt really see anything weird about that, they figured “well we both met when we were kids so its not like nana is a pedophile or anything, why question something so good?”

to someone who didnt know better wrt age gaps in romantic relationships and pedophilia, the relationship between those two would have looked completely normal and healthy. there was certainly an appearance of mutual respect, support, love and commitment

nana could only treat a 14-15 year old so much like his equal. to be totally honest, even since they were teenagers, nana treated arya like his inferior, like a student that needed to be taught, and that dynamic only grew/got worse as nana aged mentally.

but at the same time arya also taught nana so many things! see? nana wasn’t some condescending prick! obviously everything is fine. there were a lot of ways sometimes in which ARYA was the adult and nana was the child ^_^ so it’s equal, right?

arya certainly didnt know any better, nana was the love of his life and that was all there was to it. he knew [because of nana] that any discrimination they might face due to their ages in this relationship was simply unfounded, cruel bigotry from a species of essentially cavemen who were afraid of fire. he knew he was progressive for his time, in a couple decades probably everyone else would come to their senses too!

long story short, one day arya very quickly, almost violently realized EXACTLY everything that was wrong. nana’s condescending behavior had come to a head and someone arya considered a playful rival had forced him, very painfully, to face the truth of what this relationship was: abuse from a man who should know better, taking advantage of a boy who didnt.

arya couldnt exactly love nana after realizing this. and it really fucking sucked. he really wanted to go back to the way things used to be, he wanted to “undiscover” what he’d discovered, but there was no way back and he felt so broken and dirty and ungrateful and bratty and selfish for suddenly feeling this way.

nana on the other hand noticed arya very suddenly averse to being touched or held or even looked at. for a while, he was very understanding about this - what that playful rival did was essentially cast a spell and at first he thought arya was just sick or physically not well or something, and that he’d get better soon.

he didn’t.

nana didn’t know what to do. suddenly arya was neglecting him, acting like he was terrified of nana. he’d never been like this before, what happened? it’s incredibly painful and confusing, losing the love of your life like that; one day you’re everything to them, and the next they’re flinching every time you raise your hand around them. nana had never hit him or abused him verbally... in fact, it was nana who HELPED ARYA gain the strength and courage he needed to become independent from his emotionally abusive parents. so why was nana suddenly the bad guy? he had no idea what happened, why, how to fix it, or anything like that.

eventually he snapped, unable to take being deprived of love and attention like this, so he just took whatever he wanted, physically, not caring what arya thought of it.

he knew it was wrong. he knew he’d definitely crossed the line into objectively unforgivable actions. but he was almost too afraid to stop and relinquish this power over arya, because then he had to A.) lose arya, and B.) be held accountable for his actions. both two very terrifying things he saw no personal gain in.

that went on for a long time, until nana sort of... slowly realized he was feeling weaker and weaker, more prone to physical weariness dizziness, severe headaches and nausea, and he didn’t put 2 and 2 together until it was too late.

arya had figured out how to start poisoning him and getting away with it.

by that point, nana realized not just what was happening and why, but also that he unquestionably, factually deserved this pain and much, much more. that realization was too much for him, it sort of broke him psychologically for a very long time, leaving him completely helpless to whatever revenge arya decided to take on him

[it was all physical and psychological torture, but arya was certain NEVER to stoop to his level and sexually abuse nana. he couldnt even think of sleeping with nana “consensually” anyway, it made him horribly sick to even consider]

eventually after a long-ass time of this, arya just got sick of looking at nana and couldn’t even be around him anymore without feeling absolutely god-awful, so he just abandoned nana, leaving him to fester in his broken body and mind

and y’know, stuff happens after that, but thats all there really is to the most prominent phase of nana’s development in THIS story. i also play him in his phase of development after that last bullet point [roughly 200 years later], where he’s fucked up in all kinds of ways and totally deserving it, but also trying to... not really redeem himself or anything like that, he knows that’s not really a thing, but rather to make himself useful to good people who want to do the right thing, in a dnd campaign

nana goes through a SHIT TON of changes, to the point that each phase of his development has his own individual profile on toyhou.se, he’s become a Big Trauma Coping Character for me and somewhat an experiment in redemption arcs, seeing what exactly should happen and how to make “redemption” arcs seem not cheap or forced

here’s the one i talked about in this post though

http://toyhou.se/335049.nana-of-the-stars

#kara's charas #w@tchtower grotto #mind the warnings! #misstooni

[sincerely-ernest]

KNOWING YOUR PARTNER WELL CAN POTENTIALLY MAKE WRITING TOGETHER A LOT EASIER.   Repost, don’t reblog.

– basics.

NAME: Hallie/Pilot (Pilot was mostly for DND/Y.og, I don’t introduce myself as “Pilot.” See, my main DND character is nicknamed Pilot. People started calling me Pilot. Pilot.) PRONOUNS:  She/her SEXUALITY:  Questioning, prob bi TAKEN OR SINGLE: taken B))

– three facts.

ONE: I was an accident-prone child. This led to breaking the left ankle multiple times (I still walk leaning to the right), multiple trips and falls, and a rock permanently stuck in my chin. TWO: I’m nearly 5′1 in shoes THREE: I found out that I’m allergic to alcohol during the blessing of the wine at my bat mitzvah. I had a rash the whole service. 

– experience.

HOW LONG (MONTHS / YEARS?):  So like when I was 11 or 12 I started sonic oc rp on like sketchfu or some shit, but I don’t really count that? I did stuff with friends for a while, and then I joined yo.gr.p when I was like nearly 14 or 15 idk, so about this time three years ago. So I guess I have around five years of experience. PLATFORMS YOU’VE USED:  Sketchfu B), tumblr, discord, minecraft (minecraft rp is fun if you have a private server with a theme)

BEST EXPERIENCES: The very beginning of yo.g.rp before I went on my first brief hiatus for school work, and tbh here.

– muse preferences.

FEMALE OR MALE: I’ve played both, as well as nonbinary.

FLUFF, ANGST OR SMUT: Underage, so no smut. Might be open to it in the future but idk.

PLOTS OR MEMES: I Am A Meme but I do love plots. 

LONG OR SHORT REPLIES: Tbh Long

BEST TIME TO WRITE:  When I don’t have schoolwork rip

ARE YOU LIKE YOUR MUSE(S):  We’re both dead inside, but tbh, no. I don’t play muses similar to me. Now I’ll give them my traits, but we’re not similar as people.

stolen from: @vfdlibrarian B))))

#section 007

[epickegster]

thank you to the lovely @brunch-at-jerrys for tagging me in this!!!

1. Who are you named after? 

jacinta marto! she’s a portuguese visionary who. um saw visions of the virgin mary about a hundred years ago and my family is Very Catholic. my parents wanted something that sounded like my viet name and decided that jacinta > jessica sometime along the way and thus began the great name saga

2. Last time you cried? 

friday night while reading fic sdjgkfhdgkdj but i almost cried yesterday during hawayek/baker’s fd bc i was There and I just. i love them also almost cried out of frustration bc they were out of 150 ml titanium white oil paint in the store and i was like....Frustrated lololol

3. Do you like your handwriting? 

it changes a lot but typically i do?? when i write my name it’s cool bc it’s an interesting combo of mostly all caps with a few lowercase sprinkled in 

4. What is your favorite lunch meat? 

bologna, like straight up the stuff that’s cheap, round, and deep pink??? ugh

5. Do you have kids?

no

6. Do you use sarcasm? 

hm

7. Do you still have your tonsils? 

ye

8. Would you bungee jump? 

yes

9. What is your favorite kind of cereal? 

corn pops!!!! that or like kashi with chocolate hdfjkghd i don’t really eat cereal and i never had it with milk but corn pops straight up outta the bag are so gd delicious

10. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?

typically not? i just kinda shove em off or die trying

11. Do you think you’re strong?

lol no, like physically, mentally, emotionally? not at all

12. What is your favorite ice cream?

(this sounds so gd bougie) mediterranean sea salt caramel gelato from paciugo along with their wedding cake and espresso, like all together? in one cup? My Death, but like i like good ol chocolate

13. What is the first thing you notice about someone?

eyes/eyebrows, that or their height relative to me if i’m walking (which is funny bc i dont Get Height so like, im basically saying i’m a normal height!! when im walking esp in front of the b school lol)

14. Football or baseball? 

beisbol

15. Your favorite sorting metrics?

uh, probably dnd dgjkdhgfdk

16. What color pants are you wearing? 

grey; they’re marled grey joggers 

17. Favorite smell? 

cheating bc i have two: green eagle oil and this musky baby perfume that my ba ngoai had a tiny roller ball of when i was a kid and i smelled like it all the time as a kid

18. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? 

my mom

19. Favorite sport to watch on tv? 

figure skating! (it’s my fave in general! but i worked for us nationals the past few weeks with event organization and got to see it live and i almost cried a lot during ice dance bc hawayek/baker....my kids jhsgfkdgh...look the shibs I Love Them and Would Bury Myself In The Tundra For Them but like. I want to see h/b on the podium :’oc) 

20. Hair color?

black-brown, it’s like black if you look at it, but it’s dark brown 

21. Eye color? 

brown

22. Favorite food to eat? 

ok i gotta split this into savory and sweet: savory is banh bot loc which is viet food and it’s like a clear tapioca dumpling with, and my fam makes it with shrimp and pork, wrapped and steamed in a banana leaf. ugh i have some in my fridge and boyyyyy and sweet is espresso/rum cake with like. this certain consistency that’s like almost frozen idk how to describe it, it tastes like better tiramisu basically, but my auntie’s friend used to make it real well as a hobby but then she moved off to start her own bakery in cali rip but a place here makes it decent but so $$$

23. Scary or funny movies?

my favorite movie is called dick 

24. Last movie you watched? 

i think it was rodeo and juliet actually dsjkhfkjghd i thought she wanted to fuck the horse for like half the movie and juliet should’ve ended up with nan instead of uggo boy

25. What color shirt are you wearing? 

grey bc im living groutfit life

26. Favorite holiday? 

not a big holiday person, actually??? like my family celebrates so many...but i just. don’t?? i guess i like easter idk?? i like spring!! but my fam is realllll big on christmas like my dad goes ham on decor and we have six nondenominational winter ducks on our lawn they’re my beautiful boys and people call our house the duck house and it sounds like my dad’s name so he finds it funny djfghdfkgjdh but idk i like it when people are happy in general

27. Wine or beer? 

canadian ice wine

tagging: @pennslayvania / @anneshakespeare / @zimmermanns my go-tos and anyone else!! bls...

#dick is my favorite movie and so is whisper of the heart gjfhdgjshgf #anyway THANK YOU FOR THE TAG!!!! #dick is a film about the power of love weed and teenage girls #i used to have it pretty much memorized

[ashfxrd]

Embrace the Evil - Nano ‘19 Day 2

In which I talk Drow OCs, why the Vox Machina Graphic Novel is life, and might have to come to terms with the fact that I am indeed no longer a pantser. (If you are interested in the making of a Critical Role Fanfiction you are more than welcome to jump over all the blog stuff and scroll straight to the next headline.)

Lo and behold! It is November, National Novel Writing Month. And instead of, you know, writing said novel I am dusting off this blog. Sounds like a bad idea, doesn’t it?

But since I am trying something new this November I thought it would be fitting to do something completely new. Like, you know, stick to my goals for one. And here I am, updating you all on the writing process. And most importantly, explaining why I am not working on an original project this month.

I spend the last three Nanos on original projects. I never finished said projects, at least not enough to send them off to my beta readers. And when this Nano approached I felt really truly sad about that fact. I love my books, I truly do, but one is a giant baby with 120 thousand words that need to be revised and mostly rewritten, the other is somewhere around the 70 thousand mark, and not better off at all. So I was hit with doubt even before Nano started. Why write another 50+ word monster when I still have so much work to do on the other two?

Now this year was rather rough for me, due to personal problems and health issues within my immediate family. I set out with great creative goals and ended up not being able to reach any of them. I simply had no time for writing. And believe me, I was so ready for Nano. I was ready to delve headfirst back into the maze that my mind sometimes turns into, I was ready to experience a new story, a new adventure.

But I was not ready to write something serious. I was not ready to write something with the thought of publishing it one day, I was not ready to write something that needed to be good. But that is not the point of Nano anyway, is it?

So I had a long talk with my wonderful CP, thought about it quite thoroughly, and then finally decided I would start something new. Instead of starting a new original project - I had no time for outlining and world-building anyway, let alone inspiration - I was going to write a fanfiction. A real and true fanfiction.

Set in Tal’Dorei.

And why? Because I spend almost all of October prepping a DnD campaign for my friends and whenever I read something about Mercer’s world I thought to myself “Oh my gosh! This would make such an amazing setting for one of my stories!” I created NPCs that seemed so interesting to me that I wanted to spend even more time with them (A half-elf Drow, princess of thieves for example), but all of it was too cheesy, too high-fantasy, too standard, to fit into any of my original work. Lately, whenever I am working on my fantasy novel I am hit with that doubt, that little voice that tells me this has been done before. And during Nano I did not want to have to listen to this voice. I wanted to have fun, to remind myself of why I love writing, why I love creating in the first place. And maybe even end up creating something I could share with such an amazing and talented fandom.

So I told myself, I will use Mercer’s amazing world, my cheesy RPG NPCs, and write a nice little story with that.

Three days before Nano the panic set in. So I tried to outline, at least a little, only a few scenes... Something! I needed a starting point. I used to be a full pantser, going into a story with no outline and having no idea what to do. And I used to pants approximately 15 - 30 thousand words before hitting the first real obstacle. But I always ended up having to revise too much. So I trained myself to rely more on outlines. But this Nano would be different, this Nano would be fun. This Nano would be nothing but High Fantasy galore, pantsing, jumping around, ADVENTURE!

Now, you see, there is a reason I am DM, not player. I HATE PANTSING.

Gosh, I cannot believe I just said that. I was always a pantser at heart. But I am sitting here, wading through the murky waters of a new story, and I do not know where I want to go with these characters. I have no idea who they are! I have no idea what they want! I have no idea why I should even write the story if there is no ending insight!

Do not get me wrong, I am doing great so far. I am writing my words and hitting my goals. But it is only day 2 and there are still a lot of words to write. Maybe, I thought to myself, I do need at least a little more planning.

The first thing I did, as always, was spending more time on my characters. Which gets us to the first real topic of this tiny little series (except for my pantser-crisis):

DROW.

Now if you are familiar with Dungeons&Dragons, The Forgotten Realms, or similar fantasy concepts you may have heard of the Drow. Well, you will definitely have heard of them, let’s be real here. The Drow, the dark elves of the Underdark, are a deprived and terrible society of evil creatures, lurking in the night and taking away innocent souls to serve them as slaves in their bloody cities. They bow only to Loth, the Spider Goddess.

And I love them.

Honestly. I love a good villain, and the Drow are nothing but pure evil villains. I blame my cousins for this love for Drow because they did not only introduce me to DnD when I was like twelve years old but have been talking about and adoring Drizzt do’Urden for as long as I can remember. I should admit, right here and right now, that I never read a book by Salvatore, I only got into DnD a few months ago, and I watched like one full episode of Critical Role. I would not be me though if I did not delve headfirst into this obsession.

Drizzt do’Urden is the exception when it comes to Drow. He is not a villain, he is a hero. He battles the villains and he is an outcast, an elf whose kin turned on him because of that fact. It is exactly the kind of story that is gripping and interesting, the kind of hero you wish to follow until the end. But I wanted my Drow to be different. She was brought up in the Underdark for the first five years of her life before her human father saved her from that dreadful place. He brought her to his home and raised her. There was the possibility of her turning out not evil because of the good upbringing, but I decided to make him a Spireling of the Clasp. Because I cannot have nice things. I wanted this story to be about to half-elves, one Drow and one not, struggling with who they really are, where their place is in this world. I wanted to explore the age-old question of nature vs. nurture. I wanted my nice Drow OC to stumble into the Underdark, to see what her people are capable of and end up questioning if she herself is capable of such dark things. I wanted her to fear her true nature, to battle it. I wanted her to stand victorious as many times as she will be defeated.

I wanted to tell a tale in which there is neither good nor evil, but only a lot of grey.

But it turns out writing Villains as the heroes of a story is not that easy. Where one character is troubled to see her father’s true nature when he is both, Spiraling of the Clasp and caring parent, I struggle to write such a complex person without it all becoming way too cheesy.

So my initial plan of pantsing my way through this fanfiction and exploring it all as I went along failed on Day 2. Yay me.

But fear not! I dove into research, refreshed my lore, and read about the best ways of playing a Drow in a DnD campaign. (Let me get one thing straight, playing a believable character in DnD, or DMing a good campaign consist of the same things as writing a good character/ story). There was one article that dealt with the “Embracing the Evil” part of playing a Drow. The author of said article made a point in saying that there are way too many good Drow OCs out there and that evil does not always equal evil.  And I am now sitting here, wondering about nurture vs nature myself, wondering about how evil I can make my characters and still have the readers care for them, still have them 3d.

Because let us be real, there is no reason to read something if you do not care about the characters in it. There is no reason for writing something if you do not care about the characters in it.

It is back to the drawing board for me, peppering my story with some really evil characters - Drow and not Drow - before I can find an answer to those questions that satisfies me enough.

Vox Machina and Stilben.

Which gets me to the next important part of my story: Setting.

Early September my Mom got me the Tal’Dorei campaign guide for my birthday. Because a) I love world-building more than anything, b) I needed a setting for our growing DnD campaign and c) I adore getting lost in Fantasy Worlds. After I decided that my Nano project would take place in that world I started to flip through the book, searching for a place that could fit my story. I knew I did not want to start in one of the major cities and I knew I needed a port. I also knew that the struggle between Clasp and Myriad would be a thing in the story.

It did not take long for me to find Stilben. A stinking coastal town at the edge of the K’Tawl swamp. It just sounded perfect! And it had the Clasp struggling against the Myriad, it had amazing adventures around it, great world-building, and a direct route to the main city! I adored the region and could not wait to throw my characters into it. There was a small paragraph in the Campaign Guide saying that Vox Machina had one of their first adventures within the K’Tawl Swamp, but since I hadn’t really watched the series yet I thought it to be only a tiny bit of background knowledge.

I spend a few days reading about the place, the religions there, the monsters, and so forth. On Friday - yesterday - I got up even earlier than usual to get some writing time in and start Nanowrimo off right. I wrote the first scene, in which members of the Claps break and enter into a ship from Wildemount to steal from the Myriad. I wanted to have this flashback of them meeting one of my MCs five years prior to the events of the story. The idea was to have my two side characters interfere with the Myriads business, working for the Clasp, and five years my MCs do the same, but now the conflict has only grown and their interference leads to an escalation.

It needed to take place on a ship because the Myriad was about to smuggle my MC out of the country. That was like the only thing I knew about this scene (or the general backstory of said MC) before I sat down to write it. But once I started to write the words just kept flowing and all fell into place. It was truly a magical start to this year’s Nano. Later that day I was able to leave work a lot earlier than expected, but I missed the train and had a few minutes of time to kill in the city. An interesting twist of fate, looking back to it now. I went to the local comics and book shop, thinking I could maybe get something for our DnD campaign. But on the way there I remembered that there is actually a Vox Machina Origins Graphic Novel out there and that I could see and read more about Tal’Dorei! So to celebrate the beginning of Nano, a month I had waited for almost all year, I decided to see if fate would allow me to buy that book. I looked it up on Goodreads to know the exact name and read the Synopsis.

(...) following six would-be heroes as they uncover a plot to destroy the small coastal town of Stilben.

I stopped in my tracks. Could I write a story that takes place in Stilben without it feeling too much like a rip-off? Without copying too much of Mercer’s work?

But I reminded myself that I was already taking a lot of Mercer’s work into my own story. The entire world-building for once! And it was supposed to be a fanfiction after all, there was nothing wrong in using the same setting as the original. Even better, since we are talking a graphic novel buying it would enable me to see Stilben instead of simply reading about it. And how many times can you say that you are really seeing the world of your story in front of you? Brought to life by someone else?

I remembered that Liam O’Brien, cast member of Critical Role, said something during their fall update video along the lines of wanting to tell stories and inspiring others to do the same. And as I walked to the Comic Store I was more than just inspired. I was totally hyped. Only to find out though, that our small Comic Store no longer sold English Graphic Novels and Comics. The internet destroyed that market for them. Perchance they could order it for me though? I thought about going home and ordering it online myself, which would mean I’d get it a lot earlier than ordering through the store. But I was there to support local booksellers and so I said, yes please, order it for me. Too bad the guy couldn’t find it online either! I got really frustrated when suddenly the cover art loaded on his computer and he went all “Oh, is this that Critical Role stuff?” YES. YES, IT IS. He told me they might still have some German issues... and wait, what? There is a German issue? I hadn’t known. He told me it hadn’t been released that long ago and I think he found it kind of funny how happy I was, clutching my new book and almost running out of his shop to read.

Fate indeed.

On my train ride home I read the first few pages and dearly enjoyed it. But even better, the book has a city map of Stilben in the back! I could choose a street, even a house in which my MCs could grow up in. I knew how their backyard was looking like, I knew how the other people in their city were looking like, and acting. This graphic novel was a gold mine of inspiration. And it got better with every page I turned.

Me, meeting a real Spireling of the Clasp? Check. The book taking place early on when the struggle between the Clasp and the Myriad is slowly beginning? Check. The Myriad having their secret lair inside a ship and working from there? DOUBLE CHECK.

It all felt so right. Part of the story I wanted to write had already been written and my little idea just fit perfectly into the picture, like a piece of the puzzle. I wondered if people would read it, maybe like or even adore it, I wondered if my little story idea could really become a part of this wonderful and amazingly thought-through world, even if it was just inside my own head. And instead of discouraging me, the idea inspired me. Because, and yes I am going to be cheesy and quoting the theme in just a few seconds, how am I to find out if the story truly has the potential to become part of the puzzle if not through writing it? It is time to take a chance and roll the dice, it seems.

Reading this graphic novel during the last two days has been an absolute joy. The art is amazing, I adore how so much of the story is told through the facial expressions and there is always something going on in the background. It was amazing to see these characters brought to life in such a different way. I can only recommend it!

But the one thing it truly did was inspire me to tell this story even more. It just feels more right than before to use Stilben as a setting, to start from that point and see where the adventure will take me. Maybe, someday, I will take you all along for the ride! Fret not, I am pretty sure this is the only Nanowrimo Update post that will be this long.

Until then, Happy Writing my lovely Cupcakes! As always feel free to leave any questions or critic! ♥

Marie

#nanowrimo 2019 #am writing #world building #critical role #tagging because yes this is about me writing a fanfiction #deal with it

[thirst-god]

You should do all the ask from the ask prompt 😉

shit Thanks anon i’ll do my best and i appreciate the ask 💕💕💕rose: what makes you feel beautiful? highlighter,giant heels,gold anything, flower crowns, and freckles lace: how would you describe your best friend(s)? Beth: Strong and outgoing. Undeniably beautiful and uniquely herself. She is the definition of a leo and i would be heart broken without her. Amy: Wonderful and kind. The mom friend forever and always. She reminds me of the feeling after thunder storms and i would die for her. (i have other best friends too but i’ll limit myself to my college ones) wish: what are your favourite memories? -Sitting on the docks at wingra in the summer -jumping into the lake in the thunder storms at eagle lake -sitting on the floor talking about our OCs heaven: describe your ideal dateGoing to a art gallery or an aquarium and just taking a million pictures of them being cute and going to like a tiny café or some bomb ass reasturant and then going home and having a kiss/cuddle partyangel: what is your dream aesthetic?Leather and lace/ satin and steal. That very soft vibe mixed with a hard edge.wings: list five things you love about yourself-my prominent ass bone structure -Doll lips -good sense of style-not afraid of conflict -my out goingness marble: what do you look for in a partner?Someone who makes me feel safe, doesn’t feel awkward to talk to for more then 5 minutes, loves physical affection, good sense of humor, and has the same views as mevelvet: describe your dream homeThe big yellow farm house with lavender in the flower boxes. Overlooks the ocean and gives off a nastolgic feel to everyone who looks upon on it. pearl: what is your favourite: scent, flavour, sound, texture?Scent: Lilacs and clean linen flavor: Cinnamon or salty sweet sound: A rushing stream texture: soft smooth. sunlight: list five things you find to be beautiful-Freckles -full eyebrows -kindness -strength, both physical and mental-confidence cherry: what words of advice would you give to a stranger?Walk with your head held high like you don’t have a care in the world and you are the strongest person here. blush: describe your ideal futureOwning a small farm and being known as a probable witch but no one cares bc i make the best bake goods in the area sea: what music, art and/or literature brings you peace?Literature wise i like stories about family exploring magical stuff with no romance and soft poetry. Music that brings me peace is soft indie and stuff that reminds me of the forrest wine: talk about something you are looking forward toI’m so excited to go to the mall this weekend!!! I’m going with my friends and it’ll be so funnn. I’m gunna dress up my pals and try on so many cute things honey: what do you do to relax?Listen to music or asmr. I also like to do personality quizzes silk: describe your most recent dream😅that’s a little R rated for this blog tbh. It involved me and a girl. I’ll leave the rest up to y’alls imagination matte: what is something you are proud of?My DND campaign that i wrote by myself gloss: list ten songs you love right now1) daft pretty boys -bad suns 2) holy ghost - børns 3) rose colored boy - paramore 4)caroline (side B) - all time low 5) Africa- Toto 6) cold cold man- saint motel 7) 20 dollar nose bleed - FOB8) the moss- cosmo sheldrake 9) furr - blitzen trapper 10) The village- Wrabel satin: what never fails to make you happy?Music, being ridiculous with my friends, cuddlingopal: talk about your interests and passionsThe adventure zone is my main hyper focus right now !! It’s amazing !! everyone go listen to it. It features amazing ass story telling and a diverse set of characters. On that note i’m also super into DND right now and learning/growing as a DM. It’s my first time but i’m so in love with the story telling aspect and i love role playing with my players. kiss: what do you want from life right now?To be happy

#anon #ask r #thanks bb !! #long post