#and artists who have PMDD

[i-am-a-fan]

Idk what artist needs to hear this,

but hey. It’s okay if your period makes it hard to draw.

It’s okay if your period makes it difficult for you to focus.

It’s okay if you don’t feel unmotivated

It’s okay if you need to take your time.

Your WIP and your drafts will be there until you feel better.

#this is really aimed at the artists who have pms #and artists who have PMDD #tw pms #you’re not alone #actually pmdd #living with pmdd #pmddsupport #pmdd awareness #pms #artitst on tumblr

[wizardfrog69]

ˏˋ°•*⁀➷Sigma

Sigma masterlist ii

Other polyamorous relationships including Sigma

Fyodor Dostoevsky x Sigma x Nikolai Gogol x reader

♡Headcannons♡

What he would cheat of you with

Comforting you after/during a sensory overload

Crocheting/knitting hobby

Halloween costumes

Happy Halloween

Christmas gifts

Asexual reader

Hobbies

Reader is touch starved

Reader who is shy and loves physical affection

Nsfw headcannons

Reader with pear shaped body (sfw+nsfw)

I love you and your body (sfw+nsfw)

Can I hold your hand?

To be deadly

Kpop idol life

Non-binary reader who had top surgery

Fuck me

Artist

From jealous to insecure

First time

Calling him sir/manager in bed

reader with a personality of scar from lion king

Friends

Sign language

Sick s/o

Husband Sigma

S/o with pmdd

White noise

First time in bed

S/o with a lot of piercings

how do I ask them out?

aaaaaaaa

catching Nikolai and Fyodor making out

Anemia

History special interest

Don't you try and escape

Hyper s/o

♡One shots♡

Falling in love with a coworker

Celebrating Sigma's birthday

Poker

Did you have a nice dream?

Will you marry me?

Please don't leave me

I want to see you with my child inside of you

Amnesia

Peg sigma 2023

Would you still love me if I were a worm

A little brat

I want everyone to know you're mine

Ghost

I love your smile

Ignore him

What do I get when I win?

I guess I have to give you your prize

Heights

Balcony picnic

Hey! Its you

Rejection

Stripper

Take a hint

It's okay

From an abusive home

Cock warming

Pregnancy

I'm scared

I'll look away

Protecting you

Sing

Coffee love

I want to ask you something

Summer wine

Comfort

Written love

sacrifice

cutting your hair

Kisses

Jawline kisses

Crushes

Enemies to lovers

I'll protect you

Pain tolerance

♡Series♡

Teach me to dance

Masquerade

~next story~

What to choose

The right choice is always wrong (alternative ending)

False choice (alternative ending)

~next story~

To be in love with another man

Alternative ending

#bsd #bsd x reader #bungo stray dogs #bsd sigma #sigma x reader #sigma #sigma x you #sigma bsd #bungo stray dogs sigma #bungou stray dogs sigma

[lavenderandpear]

01/11/22

Probably as I continue to post things more frequently I’m going to talk about some things which will definitely need context. Since tumblr has this nifty pin feature I thought I might make a post that’s a bit of a re-intro and glossary, it also might help you understand what you’re getting yourself in for these days when following me since I’m a bit of a spectacle with my interests and oddities.

Basics: I’m Kay, I’m 33 (fun fact: when I joined tumblr the first time I was 19 - lol what the fuck is that about), I live in and am from Australia. I like tea, cats, music, baking, crafts, and op shops. I’m very much into the cottage core aesthetic, and I love playing Minecraft. I’m a singing teacher. I have had two serious relationships with people from tumblr, they are memories and people that I hold so dear to my heart. I mention this because you may be wondering, ‘hey, didn’t they date…’ and yes, there’s a chance you may be correct.

Oddities: I’m kinky and into BDSM, it’s a big deal to me and is a huge part of who I am. I’m neuro-divergent which means my brain does back flips when it should be doing front flips: my specific brands are anxiety, depression, PMDD, and autism spectrum stuff ADHD.

I suffer from chronic fatigue and a pain disorder, and these things cause me to be very sleepy most of the time. I’m polyamorous and participate in ethical non-monogamy: I have multiple partners, all who are very good friends with each other and it largely feels like a daydream from which I hope I never awaken. I’m happy to talk about any of these things to anyone, if you want to know more I’m a fairly open book and love nerding out about these things.

In the past when I’ve been on here I’ve over-indulged my sadboi vibes, and it’s so easy to do that here! Tumblr, along with any social platform, can be such a black-hole for perpetuating bad mental habits (for me especially). To be honest, one of the reasons that I had to take such a long break was so I could try and break some of these cycles, as I mentioned before I’ve been a ghost in these hallways for over a decade and it definitely had an impact on my mental health and especially when I made memes and aesthetics and an online personality out of being TheSadboiTM.

While I don’t really subscribe to toxic positivity, I also don’t think I’m going to be the sadboi as much. There’s all sorts of things to celebrate in my life these days, and while there’s definitely times when things are very overwhelming and very hard what I would like is to approach it with balance. Tumblr is a really beautiful artistic platform, and has so many uplifting and interesting and silly posts that can be found at the click of a button. That’s one of the best things about this place: there’s so much user generated content and it’s niche and compelling and so easy to get lost in and to have a break from the bad brain stuffs with. I want to add to that eclectic pile.

Plus I love going back and looking through my blog and finding things that are funny, relatable, or just a vibe. It brings me so much joy! And I hope that it will for you, too.

Anyway thanks for reading, and I hope you have a really good day. Or, atleast, a day that’s better than it might otherwise have been. Here’s a song I like at the moment, if you like upbeat jazzy lofi sunday-sessions kinda indy vibes you might like it, too ( @johnzilla87 I’m looking directly at you square in the whole face).

Oh and here’s a cat video because that lifts everyone’s spirits all the time, and is a fundamental part of my life sort of in general. Also I mean look at her?!

#about me #Spotify

[odinspattern]

I am currently reading a book about the menstural cycle. Main reason why is that it was avaliable on allbok, one of the Norwegian ereaders connected to the library. I also follow not only the endometriosis and andemyosis asociations. I follow a famous Norwegian artist who has been very vocal not only about Palestine but about having Premenstural Dysphoric Disorder (PMDD.) Therefore it has been tangentially in my mind and when I saw that the book was avaliable, I started reading it.

To be quite frank, I have never thought much about my cycles. They have always been so irregular that even as I made a few halfhearted attempts because people talked so much about it, I often gave up.

Whyy measure it when nothing conclusive can be gathered from them anyway?

Why study it when I do not plan to get pregnant and would relish the idea of being undertone?

Why and how am I even going to be able to study it when my periods can last for five weeks???

Luckily, after my last round of Provera and surgery, I now have a cycle of sorts. No, I still do not measure completely, but I have an idea now. It is always sometime in the last week of the month. Which is still a pain in my uterus, to say the fucking least, but knowing it makes things easier.

Anyways. I am reading the chapter about Menopause and that it has a startphase which is called periomenopause. Which usually starts at around 35, and I.

First of I did not know that. That is. Something.

Secondly, I just fucking started having a regular cycle. I am going to be 33 in about 7 weeks, and you are telling me that my cycle is going to go back to be out of whack again soon? That is going to be my life until we stop or I rip it out?

Thirdly, I am. Feeling so many things about these things. Partially like a cat studying manmade horrors. It has been eyeopening.

And I am also feeling very angry.

#period talk #life!

[anxious-aphrodite-struggles]

Where do I start with myself

I don’t feel as lost as I did a couple days ago, just overwhelmed. There’s so much I wanna do right now but I don’t have the means. Time, money, energy. Especially money.

I wish I could spend my days crocheting my heart out, but yarn costs money. I wanna sell what I make but I keep running into the issue of no one wanting to support small artists. Like, baby, I know you can get it a few dollars cheaper at Target, but they steal art from people and all that money goes to a corporation who doesn’t give one shit about its employees or you. A machine won’t put love and care into that purse or sweater. That money you spend on it, only a fraction will end up in the pockets of someone who made it in the factory, most of it goes towards profit margins. And it’s not unique. Hundreds of others will pick up the same thing and end up wearing it the same time you do.

Now, I could just be brushed off as someone who is just angry and poor, but I don’t believe I’m just that. I am angry and poor, but everyone should be angry. Artists and craftsmen are not valued anymore. You’re only worth something if you’re dead, most of the time. I wish I could get as lucky as Andy Warhol and be able to make thousands, if not millions, because I paid someone $20 or so to tell me what my next big project will be. If only I could do that and make the piece that would end up being my legacy.

I know I need to put myself out there more but it gets discouraging when you get low engagement at first, or you think you have a promising customer/client and then they just bail. And when you lowball yourself because you think you’re not that good and it’s the only way people would buy your stuff. Maybe I should milk the fact that I’m disabled just like someone else I know does, and they manage to sell their candles. I’m dead, buy my crochet and art.

I do wanna embrace my disability more, put it out on my personal social media. I take no shame in being plus sized, might as well add my hearing aids to that list. I’ve never been ashamed of them, really, just wasn’t vocal about them on my social media. I’ve always chosen bold colors for them, and the one time I didn’t, it was because I wanted purple and pink glitter in them. My current ones don’t look like they’re there now, you can see them sticking out if I have my hair up and you’re paying attention. I didn’t choose them because they’re discreet, I chose them because they’re the cool new ones that don’t require batteries and have Bluetooth capabilities.

Now I’m lying in bed and hoping my cramps don’t murder me. It feels like something is wrapped around the lower part of my torso and is just trying to squeeze me to death. I almost want to throw up, yay to being someone with a uterus and PMDD. I guess PMDD is something I can be an advocate for. Everyone talks about PCOS and such, but never PMDD. There wasn’t even a name for it until the late nineties, I believe. So, the general public knowing about it seems very rare. I’m gonna try to sleep off these cramps now, despite my period not even being here yet.

#disabled #personal rant #random rant #rant #life rant #just ranting #ramblings #thoughts #journal #deafness #deafculture #actually pmdd #pmdd awareness #living #pmdd #living with pmdd #pmddsupport #young artist #artists on tumblr #art #female artists #artistic #crochet #overwhelmed #struggle #mental stress

[pkmnfankids]

The other Daimikunagi kiddos: Caspian, Sparrow, Peristeri, and Koroneia! Basic profiles under the cut, though you can read more on their Toyhou.se profiles!

Full name: Caspian Papadakis-Kimura-Stone Gender: Cisgender male (he/him) DOB: January 10, 3002 Hometown/Region: Hinodego name: Notoro (ノトロ) Sexuality: Heterosexual Blood Type: AB Occupation: Pokémon Trainer, later Coordinator Medical History: Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD) MBTI: INTJ Likes: Chemistry, reading, Water types, mystery novels, makeup, hair styling Dislikes: Pokémon battles, confrontation, liars, not knowing things Personality: A bit calmer and less confrontational than Robin. He has high expectations for himself to do… something, he isn’t sure yet. He's not entirely sure who he is and who he wants to be. He likes to plan things out ahead of time, and he doesn’t like surprises. He also likes having answers to questions and gets nervous about uncertainty. Other Notes: Caspian is really close to his Aunt Nessa and Sonia, as well as his Aunt Valerie and Uncle Siebold. He stays up watching Contest performance of his father and cousin, absolutely fascinated at how their Pokémon use Water type moves. Adopted son of Steven/Wallace/Winona.

Full name: Sparrow Papadaki-Kimura-Stone Gender: Cisgender female (she/her) DOB: July 20, 3005 Hometown/Region: Sootopolis City/Hoenn Hinodego name: Suzume (スズメ) Sexuality: Bisexual Blood Type: O Occupation: N/A Medical History: Diagnosed with separation anxiety at the age of 3. Later, she was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD), PMDD, and mild depression. MBTI: ESFJ Likes: Birds, nature, forests, flowers, ikebana, family stories Dislikes: Loud noises, cities Personality: She prefers to keep to herself and spend time alone and/or in nature, and she prefers the company of Pokémon over people (just like her parents lol). She’s very curious about her family heritage, especially her mother’s side. She likes being babied and cared for, even when she becomes not the youngest. She's a very cozy girl. Other Notes: Steven/Wallace/Winona fankid, biologically Wallace's child.

Full name: Peristeri Papadaki-Kimura-Stone Gender: Agender (they/them) DOB: December 2, 3006 Hometown/Region: Sootopolis City/Hoenn Hinodego name: Koko (ココ) Sexuality: Grey Ace Blood Type: A Occupation: Artist Medical History: Born one month premature, older twin of Koroneia. MBTI: INFP Likes: Surrealist art, blocks of colors, shapes, psychedelic rock, simple fashion styles, buying a lot of organization containers and making their workplace all fancy and neat and shape-y, gouache Dislikes: Patterns with different types of patterns (ex. polka dots with stripes), purses, small pockets (no pockets are better than small pockets), cluttered workspaces Personality: A very organized and calm person with a strong sense of justice. Very introspective and always likes to look under the surface. Sometimes asks too many personal questions and doesn't have a filter. They describe things with color and shape metaphors. Extended metaphors are the good stuff. Uses art as an expression of their emotions. Other Notes: Child of Steven/Wallace/Winona. Wallace is their biological father.

Full name: Koroneia Papadaki-Kimura-Stone Gender: Cisgender female (she/her) DOB: December 2, 3006 Hometown/Region: Sootopolis City/Hoenn Hinodego name: Koro (コロ) Sexuality: Heterosexual Blood Type: A Occupation: Artist Medical History: Born one month premature, younger twin of Peristeri MBTI: ISFP Likes: Pastels (the art medium), painting rocks, watercolors, taking colorful notes, landscape painting, fashion design Dislikes: Water insoluble paint, being in the spotlight, the dark, messy notes Personality: Uses art as a way to capture the beauty of the world. Tries to find the good in everyone and every situation. She's a feeling girl, deeply empathetic, romantic. She's constantly getting ideas for paintings, and so she's mastered the art of fancy, organized notes. She's the heart of the Sabotage kid team. Other Notes: Daughter of Steven/Wallace/Winona. Biologically, Steven is her father.

#headcanons #links #submission #sabotageshipping #art #torchic

[thelovelygods]

As a teenager, Sylvia Plath vividly understood the extent to which her body steered her. "If I didn't have sex organs, I wouldn't waver on the brink of nervous emotion and tears all the time," she wrote in her journal in 1950. Ten days before her death, she had come to believe that "fixed stars/Govern a life." It turns out that Plath was probably right -- more right than she could have possibly known -- about her biology and her fate. But when Plath's journals were first published in 1982, what was most obvious about her was the supercharged nature of her emotions. Whatever causal agents may have been governing Plath's life, they were blown back by the force of her personality.

As unmistakable as were Plath's volatile emotions in the 1982 journals, the heavy editing of the text necessarily made it hard to discern the patterns to her moods. Even so, there did seem to be a detectable pattern, and it did not seem then, nor had it seemed to the people closest to her during the last years of her life, to be merely a function of temperament. In the weeks before her suicide, Plath's physician, John Horder, noted that Plath was not simply deeply depressed, but that her condition extended beyond the boundaries of a psychological explanation.

In a letter years later to Plath biographer Linda Wagner-Martin, Horder stated: "I believe ... she was liable to large swings of mood, but so excessive that a doctor inevitably thinks in terms of brain chemistry. This does not reduce the concurrent importance of marriage break-up or of exhaustion after a period of unusual artistic activity or from recent infectious illness or from the difficulties of being a responsible, practical mother. The full explanation has to take all these factors into account and more. But the irrational compulsion to end it makes me think that the body was governing the mind."

For at least the past 10 years it has been generally assumed that Plath fit the schema of manic-depressive illness, with alternating periods of depression and more productive and elated episodes.

The hypothesis that Plath suffered from a bipolar disorder is persuasive. But in late 1990, another, even more intriguing medical theory emerged. Using the evidence of Plath's letters, poems, biographies and the 1982 journals, a graduate student named Catherine Thompson proposed that Plath had suffered from a severe case of premenstrual syndrome. In "Dawn Poems in Blood: Sylvia Plath and PMS," which appeared in the literary magazine Triquarterly, Thompson theorized that Plath's mood volatility, depressions, many chronic ailments and ultimately her suicide were traceable to the poet's menstrual cycles and the hormonal disruptions caused by PMS.

Thompson pointed out that Plath unwittingly recorded experiencing on a cyclical basis all of the major symptoms of PMS, as well as many others, including low impulse control, extreme anger, unexplained crying and hypersensitivity. She also suffered many of the physical symptoms associated with PMS, notably extreme fatigue, insomnia and hypersomnia, extreme changes in appetite, itchiness, conjunctivitis, ringing in the ears, feelings of suffocation, headaches, heart palpitations and the exacerbation of chronic conditions such as her famous sinus infections.

Thompson compared Plath's reported mood and health changes with the journals, letters and biographies and found that her symptoms seemed to appear and disappear abruptly on a fairly regular schedule, with clusters of physical symptoms and depressive affect followed by dramatic changes in outlook and overall physical health. Those patterns can be directly linked to the dates of Plath's actual menses, particularly in 1958 and 1959, when she most habitually noted her cycles. Judging from the pattern of Plath's depression and health in late 1952 and in 1953 until her Aug. 24 suicide attempt, Thompson posited that "it seems reasonable to conclude that this suicide attempt was directly precipitated by hormonal disruption during the late luteal phase of her menstrual cycle and secondarily by her loss of self-esteem at being unable to control her depression."

Thompson showed that a well-known journal entry from Feb. 20, 1956, is clearly traceable to Plath's menses, to which she refers directly a few days later. The journal fragment takes on new meaning in light of having been written during the physically and emotionally debilitating luteal phase of Plath's cycle: "Dear Doctor: I am feeling very sick. I have a heart in my stomach which throbs and mocks. Suddenly the simple rituals of the day balk like a stubborn horse. It gets impossible to look people in the eye: corruption may break out again? Who knows. Small talk becomes desperate. Hostility grows, too. That dangerous, deadly venom which comes from a sick heart. Sick mind, too." On Feb. 24, the same day she notes in her journal that she has a sinus cold and "atop of this, through the hellish sleepless night of feverish sniffling and tossing, the macabre cramps of my period (curse, yes) and the wet, messy spurt of blood," Plath wrote a letter to her mother blaming her dark mood on her physical health: "I am so sick of having a cold every month; like this time, it generally combines with my period."

By the fall of 1962, the poems (which Plath carefully dated as they were completed) seem to follow a pattern of metaphorical renewals and optimistic transformations for roughly two to three weeks of artistic production, then jagged, seething accusations and aggression for a couple of weeks.

Thompson's PMS theory has been largely ignored by Plath scholars. But it immediately gained two important supporters: Anne Stevenson, Plath's controversial biographer, and Olwyn Hughes, Plath's former sister-in-law, whose letters were published in a subsequent issue of Triquarterly. Though oddly defensive in tone, Stevenson's letter does commend Thompson for her "invaluable contribution to Plath scholarship ... Certainly no future study of Plath will be able to ignore the probable effects of premenstrual syndrome on her imagination and behavior." And it states that she wishes she had been able to utilize Thompson's insights in the writing of her own work on Plath.

A letter from Olwyn Hughes also congratulates Thompson for her scholarship, but unlike Stevenson, Hughes practically stumbles over herself in amazement at the PMS theory. Hughes, who was quoted in Janet Malcolm's book "The Silent Woman: Sylvia Plath and Ted Hughes" as characterizing her long-dead sister-in-law as "pretty straight poison," wrote to Thompson: "It is quite a shock to digest all this -- after thinking for so long that Sylvia's subconscious mind was her prison, and to suddenly realise it may well have been in part, or wholly, her body. But it certainly tallies with Ted's mentions -- he has always felt some chemical imbalance was involved."

Hughes further points out that Ted Hughes had spoken of Plath's ravenous appetite just prior to her periods and asks, "I wonder if that is a known characteristic of PMS?" (According to the PMS literature, it is.) But most tellingly, Olwyn Hughes explains that "one of the reasons I was so bowled over by your piece is that Sylvia's daughter, very like her physically, suffers quite badly from PMS but is, in these enlightened times, aware of it and treats it."

Dr. Glenn Bair, one of the leading experts on PMS treatment and research in the United States, confirmed to Salon that PMS is typically passed from mother to daughter. In a rare interview about her parents, Frieda Hughes told the Manchester Guardian in 1997 that after the "collapse of her health," including extreme fatigue and gynecological problems, she underwent a hysterectomy in her 30s.

After a careful review of Thompson's article, of a seven-page monthly breakdown of Plath's symptoms for 1958 through 1959 and of the documented evidence of Plath's pregnancies and postpartum symptoms of 1959 through 1962, Bair said, "If you hack through the PMDD criteria, I think that you'll find that she fits the PMDD profile."

#sylvia plath #pmdd #this almost made me cry #SHE UNDERSTOOD

[the-blackest-blue]

Been awhile since I did a mental health post.

Been thinking about the scripture that says:

Matthew 5:45

King James Version

45 That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust.

The sun rises, the water falls, the food grows because God makes everything happen. Even if you don't believe in him, even if you love him with your whole being... That's not the entire point of this scripture line but what stands out is that when God. Is merciful he is to every one.

All people where created by God according to the Bible. And God truly IS merciful. I was watching the new Janet Jackson documentary with a friend. Even through it seems no one is hellyweird is trust worthy and some have admitted to selling their souls for fame and fortune. She said that she was greatful that God allowed her to say goodbye to her father before he died and she was able to make peace with him. And all that came to mind is that no evil force could ever have mercy like that.

What does this have to do with my mental health.. well nothing particularly haha but Janet is a human, I saw quite a few interviews with her talking about being lonely. And of course as a human I related to that.

Another great singer is Dawn Michelle from Fireflight

Hopefully she hasn't sold her soul either but I was listening today to an interview and the interviewer was asking about meanings behind the songs. And again she pointed out about having a point of being lonely, like Extremely. This human issue of loneliness.

Come to think about it they both have songs about loneliness.

And another artist rapper I like named MildGenius also talks about loneliness in her lyrics. I haven't heard her in any interviews but the lyrics where very clear.

Loneliness, discouragement, understanding.

They might be considered emotional needs to some but they are important.

The past few weeks I've been dealing with these things.

Feeling abandoned and misunderstood.

Unable to communicate my needs or facing

Undesired response to setting a boundaries

It's left me lonely and discouraged.

Trying share that has been fustrating.

Then throw the pmdd, PTSD and depression on top....

Whoosh spicy.

But we are all out here together, under One God... Who gives mercy and understanding in some amazing ways. Sometimes I thing things should be a certain way and God speaks through whomever he wants too.

Today through the words of the Bible and his Holy Spirit he made alive some simple yet poignant truths that make this life a bit less painful.

But God was merciful and what I learned from my fellow humans, I'm not alone in my issue. Personally suffering from chronic "I'm alone in this" mindset because of being an only child. It's great being free and independent in that way but it can at times seem like I'm just alone in things.

#jesus #black women #art #janet jackson #dawn michelle #fireflight #bibletruth #loneliness #lonely #understanding #life experiences #pmdd awareness #blog post #jesuschrist #look at God #overcome

[snedic]

💕 get to know your mutuals!! when you get this, it means someone wants to know more about you, so list 5 things about yourself you want your followers to know. they can be as simple as your age or as complex as your deepest fear, as long as it’s something you’re comfortable with sharing. when you’re done, send this to 10 people you want to get to know better!! 🥺🌼💕

Aw thank for sending this dear!!

Hmm... 5 things? Let’s do this!

1. I have a degree in mortuary science!

2. I’m in artist block 99% of the time, the other 1% of time is me creating a “masterpiece” painting at 1am in the morning and hating it when I wake up 😅

3. I might be considered genderfluid but I prefer the term genderqueer because I feel it’s more vague, which is how I feel 😂 Vaguely a woman? Maybe. Vaguely a man? Who knows! Vaguely the sound a sheet of cellophane makes when you wave it around? Sometimes! (also the genderqueer flag is prettier imo)

4. I started an ssri medication recently to treat PMDD and I no longer have crippling anxiety!! Yay!

5. My favorite mug is a Overwatch Mercy mug that was a Christmas present two years ago from one of my best friends who I love with all my heart. <3 

Thanks again for sending this! It was fun to divulge a little lol 

[mychemicalraymance]

ok so a few things!

1. i have a lot of new followers which i love and appreciate!! thank you all so much, it means a lot to me that anyone would be interested in my mcr fanblog haha. this is the first time i have been such an active participant in a fanbase... since maybe ever..... i’ve basically been a silent internet observer my whole life. i participated a little bit in online communities when i was a kid and i was burned a couple of times so i just stopped for a REALLY long time. i never actively participated, really, until recently with mcr returning. it is so nice to have a community around basically  one of the few things in my life that i can genuinely talk about for hours. mcr is one of the longest ongoing interests of mine, i’ve been hardcore invested since i was 11, 2010. i have been around and about for a LONG time, but i’m definitely not an oldschool fan, and not a scholar. as i said i have never really been an active participant, just privately hyper focused. i was an embarrassing baby fan but i’ve grown out of that and it feels really good to re-explore my interest again as a real person with a better understanding of myself and what’s important, with other people with similar life experiences and values. 

2. some basic stuff about me uhhh i dont like to put this stuff in my bio because it feels like a weird laundry list to have on display all the time and i don’t like leaving too much of a paper trail to my real identity (i am an mcr supervillian lesbian by night normal artist/intern teacher by day) but these aspects of my identity are sort of important to what i post and if i ever get out of line i feel it’s important to openly discus my mistakes without hiding behind obscurity. i’m a 21 year old white woman and a lesbian, i use she/her. i have had issues with gender non-conformity but i am cis. i am neurotypical but i have in my recent life struggled with depression, and am diagnosed with pmdd. i’m pretty fat and i like to make very light jokes about weight sometimes because it can be funny to me but i try to be sensitive about it. here and here are two posts about my policy of lesbian jokes/using she. here is my policy about following/interaction with minors.

3. follows! i appreciate them all! i was actually recently followed by a user that i have been following for years now! it was amazing (not going to name names because it feels braggy to me and i dont wanna blow up their spot lol). i only maintained following 2 mcr blogs in the great my chemical recession of 2015-2019 in my life and one of them is the person who followed me and i feel so! happy about it. if you follow me and i dont follow back here a few things to think about 

- i do not follow minors just as a personal policy

- this is a side! my main shall remain a sexy little secret in order to maintain my alter ego and because i like to keep stuff a little close to the vest

-i like to sort of scope out what a person is like before i follow back so a lot of the time i keep an eye on a blog i like and see what they have to say before i hit follow (even with ppl who are not mutuals. often i will check a blog manually for a while to see what theyre about before i follow, just on my own). 

-sometimes i just dont personally enjoy a blog. sorry.

also: mutuals can use my name in their reblogs/tags, i don’t have a problem with it. i just don’t give it a permanent position in my bio.

4. i am not interested in nor do i condone shipping/rpf. i have experience in that realm and it got especially dark for me, and i dont like it as a whole. i’m not going to fight with anyone about this. the end.

5. my art- i read almost all the rb tags on my art and i appreciate all of them. i love it all and it encourages me to make more!! if you like my work, reblogging and saying so directly contributes to my artistic drive. i’ve slowed down a little bit as of late because i’ve been busy with christmas. i cannot guarantee that i will always maintain posting art, but right now i’m really enjoying it and i hope you guys do too. i regularly reblog my art because it is the best way to get traction with art on tumblr. sorry if this is irritating; it helps me get feedback on my work. if you want to use my work for anything PLEASE contact me before you do and give me credit where you use it. this is almost all fanart, i will in all likelihood say yes, i just like to know where my art is being posted/used.

that’s all i can think of right now. thanks again.

#:) #about #long /

[wizardfrog69]

Decay of the Angel

Part ii

Key

♡ = headcanon

☆ = oneshot

♤ = more then one chapter

Genres

♱ = angst

❀ = fluff

✉ = suggestive/sfw

☾ = nsfw

˙ᵕ˙ = platonic

ˏˋ°•*⁀➷Fyodor Dostoevsky

Comforting you after/during a sensory overload ♡❀

Crocheting/knitting hobby ♡❀

What being in a relationship with him feels like ♡❀

Hand kink ♡☾

Halloween costumes ♡❀

Happy Halloween ♡❀

No nut November ♡❀

Christmas gifts ♡❀

Name ☆♱

Did you have a nice dream? ☆☾

I want everyone to know you're mine ☆✉

I hate you because I love you ☆❀

I don't know what title to give this so here is a random song, hope you enjoy the song which is in no way relevant to the thing I'm about to write ♡❀☾

Your brother wants to kill me ♤i❀

Overprotective ♤ii❀

To be in love with another man ☆♱

To die in your arms is like to die in heaven ☆♱

An unhealthy obsession ☆♱

Sick s/o ♡❀

S/o with pmdd ♡❀

ˏˋ°•*⁀➷Nikolai Gogol

Comforting you after/during a sensory overload ♡❀

Crocheting/knitting hobby ♡❀

What being in a relationship with him feels like ♡❀

Hand kink ♡☾

Halloween costumes ♡❀

Happy Halloween ♡❀

No nut November ♡❀

Christmas gifts ♡❀

Autistic reader headcannons ♡❀

Did you have a nice dream? ☆☾

An origami dove ♡❀

Nikolai Babysitter ♡❀

reader with a personality of scar from lion king ♡❀

Sick s/o ♡❀

S/o with pmdd ♡❀

ˏˋ°•*⁀➷Sigma

What he would cheat of you with ♡❀

Comforting you after/during a sensory overload ♡❀

Crocheting/knitting hobby ♡❀

Hand kink ♡☾

Halloween costumes ♡❀

Happy Halloween ♡❀

Christmas gifts ♡❀

Asexual reader ♡❀

Hobbies ♡❀

Falling in love with a coworker ☆❀

Celebrating Sigma's birthday ☆❀

Reader is touch starved ♡❀

Teach me to dance ♤i.i❀

Masquerade ♤i.ii❀

Reader who is shy and loves physical affection ♡❀

Nsfw headcannons ♡☾

Reader with pear shaped body (sfw+nsfw) ♡❀☾

What to choose ♤ii.i♱

The right choice is always wrong ♤ii.ii♱

False choice ♤ii.ii♱

I love you and your body (sfw+nsfw) ♡❀☾

Poker ☆❀

To be deadly ♡❀

Non-binary reader who had top surgery ☆❀

Fuck me ♡☾

Did you have a nice dream? ☆☾

Will you marry me? ☆❀

Please don't leave me ☆♱

I want to see you with my child inside of you ☆☾

Amnesia ☆❀

Peg sigma 2023 ☆☾

Would you still love me if I were a worm ☆❀

A little brat ☆☾

I want everyone to know you're mine ☆✉

Ghost ☆❀

I love your smile ☆❀

Ignore him ☆❀

What do I get when I win? ☆☾

I guess I have to give you your prize ☆☾

Artist ♡❀

Heights ☆❀

Balcony picnic ☆❀

To be in love with another man ♤iii.i♱

Alternative ending ♤iii.ii❀

Hey! Its you ☆❀

Rejection ☆♱

Stripper ☆❀˙ᵕ˙

From jealous to insecure ♡❀

Take a hint ☆❀

It's okay ☆❀

First time ♡❀

Calling him sir/manager in bed ♡✉

reader with a personality of scar from lion king ♡❀

Friends ♡❀

Sign language ♡❀

From an abusive home ☆❀

Cock warming ☆✉

Sick s/o ♡❀

Husband Sigma ♡❀

Pregnancy ☆❀

S/o with pmdd ♡❀

I'm scared ☆❀

I'll look away ☆❀

Protecting you ☆❀

#bsd #bsd x reader #bungo stray dogs #bsd sigma #sigma x reader #sigma #fyodor x y/n #fyodor dostoevsky #fyodor x reader #bsd fyodor #fyodor #nikolai gogol bsd #bsd nikolai gogol #nikolai gogol #nikolai x reader #bsd nikolai #nikolai x y/n #sigma bsd #sigma x you #sigma bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs sigma #bungou stray dogs sigma #bungo stray dogs fyodor #bungo stray dogs nikolai #nikolai bungou stray dogs #fyodor bungou stray dogs

[icarus-suraki]

15 questions, tagged by @abyssalsun

Nicknames: Issy is one I gave myself (from both icarus_suraki being I.S. and also from the daughter figure in Finnegans Wake being called Issy). Caru was bestowed upon me by someone I knew a long time ago. It comes from the middle part of iCARUs because, she said, Issy wasn't "cute enough." (But, then, I heard she didn't think I was all that cute either, when we finally met.)

Zodiac: Taurus sun, moon in Capricorn, rising sign Libra. I'm very lazy and very depressed but I'm determined not to show it.

Height: 5'10" which some people say proves I must be a lesbian because I'm so tall? So memo to short lesbians: you don't exist.

Last Thing I Looked Up: "access history on Instagram" because I wanted to look at a post, but then my phone went to sleep and IG decided to update and I lost the post so I wanted to see if I could get back to it somehow, but no such luck. Rrrrgh.

Song Stuck in My Head: K.K. Bubblegum (I know, I know)

Number of Followers: 934, but I bet a lot of them are abandoned blogs, bots, and fake followers. I had a post about COVID-19 go viral (ha ha) and some people followed me because of that, but I hope they didn't expect anything more about it...

Amount of Sleep: 6, 8, 9 hours... I love sleep. I love sleep so much. See: sun sign. I'll sleep 8 hours and then still take a nap (or two). Some of it is because my blood pressure is naturally really, really low, so when it gets any lower, I just nod off. My whole family is like that, lol.

Lucky Number: 9, 13, 23, I guess? I'm not really into lucky numbers.

Favorite Instrument: I desperately want to learn to play the hurdy-gurdy. No lie. I've been thinking about it for about 3 years now.

Favorite Song: Right now, it's this older Amerie song, "One Thing," which I heard in a viral video and it threw me back and I immediately had to download it. My favorite song changes all the time, which is kind of fun, actually.

Dream Job: I hate working. I really do. If I could do anything, I'd like to be a studio artist--maybe surrealist-style painting or surreal installation sculptures. I'd so much rather do Art Stuff than grind along in any kind of Real Employment. Ugh.

Aesthetic: Grunge kid who just can't deal with the fact that the 90s are over.

Favorite Author: It's a three-way tie: James Joyce, Thomas Pynchon, and Ray Bradbury

Favorite Animal Noise: The cat activation sound. Oh my gosh. Also murrps are good too. Cat sounds. They do something to my heart.

Random: I like to refer to my various mental illnesses and situations as "alphabet soup" because of all the letters in all the abbreviations for all of it: MDD, ADHD, OCD, PMDD...

I got the term from someone I worked with years ago who had a whole litany of physical conditions that were all abbreviated. I kept having to ask for SL so I could go see my therapists and doctors and she was concerned so I started to explain and she said, "Oh, I get it. Say no more. It's alphabet soup. I have my own too." So I adopted it.

If you see this, you’re tagged!

#meme #fun and games

[prettywordsyouleft]

Gurl so am I: anxiety, depression, PMDD, low self esteem, the works! Also: petition for more girl groups to wear suits because SWOON

Ugh girl groups in suits is such a mood. 

I’m fortunate (is that the right word to use? I don’t want to seem rude) to only suffer from anxiety and mild PTSD, and recovering from being hugely self-critical, but I work as a doll artist and a lot of people/clients who have crossed paths with me walk through many conditions and mental health each and every day so I feel comforted by being around people who understand my struggles and further, being about to support and heal them with what I create. 

I couldn’t imagine not using my creativity to support others or heal from my own woes in life!! 

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #189

“why are the children all marching into the desert to die?”

What does your trick-or-treat bag or pail look like? Pretty sure mine was usually just a plastic orange pumpkin. How old will you turn on your next birthday? 23, wow-ie. What are your plans to celebrate? Dinner with the fam, and I don't think I could possibly pass a birthday without getting a tattoo. :') Which X Factor audition(s) was/were your favorite? Don't watch it. Were you a straight A student in spelling and grammar? Yes. Were you a straight A student in math? No, I got Bs sometimes. Were you abused or do you know anyone who was abused? I know people who were. What is the name of your favorite coffee shop in your town? N/A What is fall weather usually like where you live? Usually warmish and breezy, but sometimes super cold. Do you think you have an accent? Very slightly. Do you use plastic, wooden, or wire hangers? Plastic. What is your favorite shade of yellow? Pastel. Are there any shades of blue that you don’t like? If so, which ones? No. Are you afraid of getting yelled at? YES YES YES YES I WILL CRY PLEASE DON'T Who has the best-decorated house in your town? *shrugs* What is your favorite part of Halloween? Dressing up. Is there a cemetery in your backyard? No. Did you decorate a pumpkin this year? No. ;_; What are some fall activities you would do with your kids? If I actually wanted them, take them on a hay ride (spooky one if they're older and want to), decorate pumpkins together, obviously go trick-or-treating, let 'em play in leaf piles. Have you ever seen a fox? Yes. What color are the squirrels where you live? Brown. Is there anything about Halloween you find offensive? Um no. What do the trees look like where you live? There's basically a shitload of pine trees, some dogwoods in spring (which fucking stink, btw), and then there's other trees idk the name of. Did you like field trips when you were a kid? YESSSSSSSSSSSS Do you find museums boring or interesting? Interesting! What was your school’s rival team’s mascot? Uhhhhh idr. What are three issues you are passionate about? Gay rights, gun control, and immigration. Would you ever wear a shirt with your country’s flag on it? I mean if I had to? What’s a medicine that makes you sleepy? Klonopin, back when I had to take two a day. I was just barely able to function at all on three. Do you like bath bombs? Never used one, but sure. What was your favorite girl group when you were growing up? Pussycat Dolls lmaoooooooo Do you like Disney movies? Only heathens don't. In what type of area was your first sexual encounter? A house. What do you occupy your time with on flights? Listen to my iPod. Do you ever realize how ridiculous you’re being yet continue on anyway? Sometimes in anxiety-type situations. Have you ever seriously vandalized someone else’s property? No. Have you ever been punched? No. What do you usually order from Olive Garden?
 Spicy shrimp fritas oh my gaaaaaaaaaaaah How do you like your steak cooked?
 Medium well. How do you feel about bats? I'm love them. Is anyone in your family artistic? Me. Have you ever suspected anyone of cheating on you? No. Are you emo/gothic/punk? I AM the Thicc Goth GF in my head. I'm just too poor and lazy for the wardrobe. :^) Would you date someone 20 years older than you? Nooooooooooo that's way too big a difference for me. What is your father’s middle name? John. What was the last food you got a random craving for? Sour gummy worms lmao. What is something you enjoy doing, but aren’t good at? Singing, sometimes. Name some healthy foods that you enjoy eating. Strawberries, apples, peaches, corn, cucumbers, green beans, bananas... What is your favorite Studio Ghibli film? Don't think I've watched any. If your best friend was a fictional character, who would he/she be? Why? This requires too much thinking. What was the last song you listened to? Does it mean anything to you? Ninja Sex Party's cover of "Africa" is on now. No. What flavor was the last cupcake you ate? Chocolate. When was the last time you complimented a stranger? Idk. Do you know how to text without looking? Not well. What about typing without looking? Yup. Have you ever thrown rocks at a girl/guy’s window? No. When was the last time you bought a bathing suit? Like, a year back? Do you like eggnog? NOOOOOOOOOOO. How often do you see your mother? Every day. When was the last time your living room furniture was rearranged? Long time ago. When you were little, did you like watching Cartoon Network, Disney or Nickelodeon more? Disney. When is the last time that you experienced rejection–literal or imagined? By no means /serious/ rejection, but I suppose it fits the definition. Asked the tat/piercing parlor I go to about working there at the desk (the place isn't busy and I'm v comfortable there, so I think I easily could), but they let me know they currently didn't need anyone. When you are feeling down are you more likely to cheer yourself up by shopping, eating, or drinking? I've gotten loads better about it, but eating. Do you think there will be a time when our current age of rapid innovation comes to a standstill? What do you think is the limit of human technological advancement? No, honestly. It may stall, but I don't see it stopping any time soon. In hindsight, what was the most misguided/unhelpful assignment you had to do in school or college? Uhhhh idk. On any blogs or social media you may have, do you try to maintain a certain aesthetic or persona? Is this consistent across platforms or just specific to one? Not really. My less-appropriate sense of humor comes out more on Tumblr, and in some areas I type in all lowercase because I find it more aesthetically pleasing. Is there an artist or celebrity whom you admire for their craft but take issue with their personality or politics? Marilyn Manson, very easily. He's talented and unapologetically unique as all hell, but I do noooot like him as a person from what I know. What is the last party or event you were invited to but declined? Why? Are there certain events that you might be invited to which you are likely to decline? An old friend's Thanksgiving-ish friends party. I was tempted, but it was explicitly stated to BYOB and weed and I just didn't want to be in an environment where there was lots of drinking and smoking something that's still illegal in the state. I was already uncomfortable enough last time I went to a party at her house and there was so much smoking. You were also supposed to bring a piece of Thanksgiving food to contribute, but I can't cook and I didn't wanna bother Mom about it. For the last question, it's just about a "never" situation where I'm invited to a real event besides family birthday parties or meet-ups with Dad and his wife. Off the top of my head, I'd never go to a club if I was invited. Imagine your life three years from now as if things have gone perfectly, better than you would typically predict. What do you see? Living with a happy Sara in the mountains, very successful in photography and thus financially stable (or hopefully a bit beyond that), excelling in school, back to my healthy weight, my mental health is great and I'm on way fewer meds, Sara's able to breed snakes and write as a real career, COVER ME IN TATS BITCH, more piercings, a treatment/medication for hypotonia has been discovered, my niece and nephew have met Sara and been taught our relationship is not wrong (I doubt it though :x), I'm happy, it'd be nice to write with more people, I have at least one poem published, Teddy, Venus, Kaiju, Roman, Mitsu (now totally comfortable being held), and Sara's babies are still alive and kickin', Venus and Crowley have had a clutch, Sara's PMDD is under control, Dad's stopped smoking, Mom is in a healthy, fulfilling relationship, both Mom and Sara are at the weights they aim for, Nicole is with a guy she truly loves and he reciprocates properly, Mom has been treated for depression and has forgiven Dad... Man, lots of things. This question really made me look forward to creating this future. What about your personality makes you good at your job? Alternatively, why do you find yourself uniquely suited for or drawn to your ideal career path? No job, so I'll just respond to the second. Photography is pretty surprising as it requires serious communication, which y'all know isn't my forte in the least. However, I'm so passionate about it and feel knowledgeable enough on it to be confident. Plus I just love showing how beautiful the world is capable of being. Do you find it valuable or important to respect those in positions of authority simply because of their position? Does this vary based on what that position is? Nope. I'm not gonna respect an absolute asshole just because you're of a high position. It doesn't vary to me, either. Do you find that you often desire and/or enjoy sex? If not, why not and how do you negotiate those feelings with your partner? If so, what is it that you enjoy about it in particular? I'd say I desire it to a normal degree, and yeah, I enjoy it. Why, #1, it's such a passionate and intimate way to communicate how much you love and trust your partner. Then I mean it feels good so. How many times have you seriously injured yourself? Idk. Seriously... three? When was the last time you were a passenger in a car and sat in the back? In the back, idk. Did you attend Sunday School as a child? Yes. Are/were you in the school band, and if so, what instrument did you play? Yes, flute. What is the best thing you’ve ever bought at a thrift shop? This cool crashed ship lamp! It's beside my bed. Have you ever ordered an unusual drink at a bar? No. What is your favorite thing about summer? Swimming. That's it. When was the last time you went to your local library? Whew, years. Can you do a proper cartwheel? No. Have you ever been pulled aside by security at the airport? No. Are you a fast-thinker or a slow-thinker? Slow. If you were to donate to charity today, what would you donate to? The American Foundation for Suicide Prevention or The Trevor Project. What is your favorite card game and when was the last time you played it? Magic: The Gathering and not since my PS3 broke (I had the Duel of the Planeswalkers store game on there and I WANT IT BACK). Who was the last person you cuddled with? Sara. Did you ever go to summer camp when you were younger? No. What is your favorite seasonal candy? (only available at certain times) Gingerbread men!! Are there any television shows you own in entirety on DVD or VHS? Meerkat Manor. How far away from your house is the nearest gas station? Like, two minutes. Do you know anyone who is fluent in a second-tongue? Yeah. What is the scariest movie you’ve ever seen and who did you watch it with? The Rite, but only because the whole "raped and impregnated by a demon" shtick is a fuck to the no from me. Watched it with my younger sis years ago. When was the last time you had a bubble bath? A looooooooong time ago, I don't like baths. What was the last strong scent you smelled? Poop. Good job, Bentley. What did you buy the last time you went shopping for new clothes? A bra, I think? How did you discover your favorite band? Mom's CDs. When I was getting into my rock and metal love, I went through them and listened to albums with cool covers or bands I knew she loved, and the first happened to be Ozzy. :') Does the weather affect your mood? If so, in what ways? Yes. I have a greater tendency to feel down when it's real cloudy and sometimes rainy. If it's really hot, I'm in a worse/cranky mood. When are you most likely to be bored? Late afternoon/evening. What was the last big decision you made? Hmmm. Going back to school, maybe? Where was the last place you traveled to, and what did you do while there? Illinois. Hang out with my bby. :') What is your favorite thing to go shopping for? Clothes at Hot Topic ahhhhh. What was the last thing you received in the mail? Something for VR. What is one of your wildest dreams or ambitions? Become a well-known photographer. When was the last time you performed in front of a group of people? Years ago for dance. Who was the last person to upset you? How about the last person to cheer you up? Mom; Sara. Is there anything or anyone you’re trying to get over or let go of? No. What was the subject of your last phone conversation? Uhhh something short with Ma that I don't remember. How close do you have to be with someone before you’ll consider them a friend? I have to feel decently comfortable around them. How do you feel when a mostly unheard of band (or tv show, movie, etc.) that you love suddenly starts to gain popularity? I'm happy for them! I just hope they don't change. When was the last time you listened to new music? Uhhh recently. Do you think it is strange when a couple says “we are pregnant” rather than “I am pregnant” or “my girlfriend is pregnant”? No, I actually prefer it. You're in that shit together. Do you ever feel like you were born in the wrong era? What decade would you most like to have grown up in? No. I'm good with the '90s. What was your most memorable concert experience? Only been to one. :| But Alice was great. If you have any, are you close with your sibling(s)? Has it always been that way? Not very, and no, at least with my younger sister. We were pretty close. Do you require “closure” after things like break-ups or do you move on easily? I. Need. Closure. How long does it take for someone to earn your trust? Good luck. Do you like peanut butter? Yesssss. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school? Do/did you prefer wearing it than regular clothes? In middle school. Hell no. What’s the last thing you got really excited over? Going to Sara's. Is there a genre of movie that you just can’t watch? Action-y. What was the last song to give you nostalgia? "Holiday" by Green Day. Do you have a certain color grape you like the most? Purple. What’s your signature thing you do when drinking that will make your friends say, “Alright, they’re drunk”? N/A Have you ever been on a hot air balloon? No. What’s your definition of weird? I try to keep the mindset that "weird" doesn't exist as I'm not one to talk about things being so, yet I'm hypocritical about it and do find some things, ex. fetishes, extremely weird. Do you use shaving cream? For my legs. When was the last time you cleaned your room? Is your room clean? I dusted my whole room a while back. I need to vacuum baaadly, but ours is broken. ;-; Have you ever personally known any girl who shaved their head? Yes. Have you ever known anyone who committed suicide? Sadly. Have you ever tried to commit suicide? Yes. Have you ever coughed up blood? No. How do you wish you could die? Surrounded by family and painless. Do you have any apps on your Facebook? If so, what? No. What kind of mouse pad do you have? Don't have one. What color is your mouse? Pink. Do you know any who might be anorexic? Do you know anyone who has bulimia? Maybe? Did you ever want a pony when you were little? Idr. What’s your favorite dessert food? Ice cream. What is the closest thing to you right now that is alive? My dog. Do you exercise? I'm starting to again. Do you dislike writing school essays? Not if it's a subject I like. Are you a very open-minded person? Yes. Are you modest? I believe I am. Do you skate? No. Are you in a band? No. If you were to make it big with your own band, what would its name be? *shrugs* It depends on the members. Would you rather a friend come over to your house or you go over there? I go over there. Have you ever had rabies? No. Do you know anyone who ever had to get a rabies shot? Idk. Have you ever gone hunting? No, never would. Ever eaten deer? Duck? Squirrel? How about lamb? No. Have you ever received a note in your locker? I think once from Aaron?

#survey #quiz #questions #random

[rachelwadlowart-blog]

My name is Rachel, and I'm an artist. I also happen to have: PMDD OCD PTSD Clinical depression + anxiety I’ve avoided talking too much about my mental health journey on here simply out of fear. Fear of selling out and glamorizing the situation for monetary benefit or followers. Fear that friends or family will see me for who I really am and not like it. Fear that once I start talking about the details, the labels will define me. I don’t want to ‘play the victim,’ but I don’t want to deny my story either. Man, even writing this is getting me conflicted! While these labels don’t define me, they inform my story and how God is using me. I've tried in the past to keep my art and my mental talk separate, but they are so intertwined! As a naturally hyper sensitive person it makes sense that I would choose the path of the maker and mystic. I’ve never ever fit a mold and I love/hate that fact. Working with my hands and creating something out of nothing is my calling and my passion. The world is thirsty for Beauty, light, and new perspectives. I hope that I can cultivate some of that here. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . #staywild #outside_project #thegreatplanet #discoverearth #livewithart #visualpoetry #curateyourspace #mentalwellnessmatters #warmcolors #texturelove #meaningfullife #drawingandpainting #pmdd #pmddawareness #availableart #giftart #originalartforsale #abstractworld #creativespirit #discovernewartists #drawstagram #markmakingart #sfartist #naturecaptures #naturelandscape #naturepainting #mountaintrip #mountaintime #availableart #giftart #originalartforsale #abstractworld #ocdawareness https://www.instagram.com/p/Ca-nkBGvsEG/?utm_medium=tumblr

#staywild #outside_project #thegreatplanet #discoverearth #livewithart #visualpoetry #curateyourspace #mentalwellnessmatters #warmcolors #texturelove #meaningfullife #drawingandpainting #pmdd #pmddawareness #availableart #giftart #originalartforsale #abstractworld #creativespirit #discovernewartists #drawstagram #markmakingart #sfartist #naturecaptures #naturelandscape #naturepainting #mountaintrip #mountaintime #ocdawareness

[cherie-mon-cherie]

All healed up and looking awesome.

Story time.

So, I thought I would be someone who wanted a tattoo but never got one because I couldn’t find anything that I wanted on my body forever. 

Then last October I was talking to my mom about how much I love Supernatural. It means so much to me, it’s not just a show. Jensen, Jared, and Misha are wonderful people. They all have these qualities that just inspire me. The kindness, the humbleness, the charitability, Jared’s openness about his depression, I could go on and on. It’s something that I look forward to every week. And there are some weeks it helps me get through the week. It reminds me of my best friend and how she introduced me to the show and how much she means to me. But, most importantly, through everything, it’s taught me to carry on. When dealing with my PMDD, when it gets really bad, really, really bad it gives me strength. I can deal with this, it will pass and I will carry on.

Anyway, I decided I wanted a tribute to Supernatural tattoo I just didn’t know what. I saw this design on Pinterest and I can’t find the original artist (which sucks) and it was perfect.  Then I told myself if I still wanted it by my birthday (Jan 21) I would get it. And I did. So Feb 1 I got this tattoo. 

And it couldn’t of come at a better time. Two weeks later I had a horrible PMDD month. Anxiety, depression, nausea, joint pain, fatigue, dizziness, insomnia. I missed 3 days of work and it took me 7 days to feel normal again. And seeing these words on my wrist helped me get through. The simple act of rubbing my thumb over the words calmed me down enough to get me to stop crying and take deep breaths. It’s crazy.

Supernatural. The show that changed my life, the men who became my heroes, and a fandom that became a family, 

Thank you best friend.

#personal #story #pmdd #supernatural #spn #akf #always keep fighting #tattoo #first tattoo #carry on my wayward son #kansas #buffalo plaid #mantra #motto