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It's so fun to retrospect bands I used to listen to. I feel like I actually understand what they are talking about lol. I miss less produced music. Stuff is so over done today to try and hypnotize there listeners. Alot of the notes I don't think the singers are hitting and when you hear them live they sounds like a completely different band which feels disappointing and scammy.

Indie acts also sound like what they produce so you know what your getting. Atleast from the different things I've been looking at. And I'm not talking about lip sync either.

80s baby and idk.. I love all kinds of music. I grew up on motown and oldies cause my mom listened to alot of the and blues. And then later I loved alot of radio rnb and pop. I love early 90s hip-hop but that later radio rap was mostly trash. I mean of course ppl Missy Elliott and stuff where p innovative at the time. The Canadians introduced me to pop-punk and hard rock. I didn't like it at first but once I got used to it couldn't get enough. Just listened to Linkin Park yesterday for the first time in ages. There was a jazz scene where I grew up, big electronic techno/house scene too. I feel like 90s/00s really still pulled from the plethora of the 60s/70s/80s style and musical expression. It's a good time.

Even the goth/industrial area from 90s onwards where awesome. Idk. There's so much to like!

#nostalgia #fun times #music talk #today thoughts #anxiety

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Styper is the homies. They make solid tunes!

Bumble bees😰

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beginner’s guide to the indie web

“i miss the old internet” “we’ll never have websites like the ones from the 90s and early 2000s ever again” “i’m tired of social media but there’s nowhere to go”

HOLD ON!

personal websites and indie web development still very much exist! it may be out of the way to access and may not be the default internet experience anymore, but if you want to look and read through someone’s personally crafted site, or even make your own, you can still do it! here’s how:

use NEOCITIES! neocities has a built in search and browse tools to let you discover websites, and most importantly, lets you build your own website from scratch for free! (there are other ways to host websites for free, but neocities is a really good hub for beginners!)

need help getting started with coding your website? sadgrl online has a section on her website dedicated to providing resources for newbie webmasters!

HTML (HyperText Markup Language) and CSS (Cascading Style Sheets) are the core of what all websites are built on. many websites also use JS (JavaScript) to add interactive elements to their pages. w3schools is a useful directory of quick reference for pretty much every HTML/CSS/JS topic you can think of.

there is also this well written and lengthy guide on dragonfly cave that will put you step by step through the basics of HTML/CSS (what webpages are made from), if that’s your sort of thing!

stack overflow is every programmer’s hub for asking questions and getting help, so if you’re struggling with getting something to look how you want or can’t fix a bug, you may be able to get your answer here! you can even ask if no one’s asked the same question before.

websites like codepen and jsfiddle let you test HTML/CSS/JS in your browser as you tinker with small edits and bugfixing.

want to find indie websites outside the scope of neocities? use the search engine marginalia to find results you actually want that google won’t show you!

you can also use directory sites like yesterweb’s link section to find websites in all sorts of places.

if you are going to browse the indie web or make your own website, i also have some more personal tips as a webmaster myself (i am not an expert and i am just a small hobbyist, so take me with a grain of salt!)

if you are making your own site:

get expressive! truly make whatever you want! customize your corner of the internet to your heart’s content! you have left the constrains of social media where every page looks the same. you have no character limit, image limit, or design limit. want to make an entire page or even a whole website dedicated to your one niche interest that no one seems to be into but you? go for it! want to keep a public journal where you can express your thoughts without worry? do it! want to keep an art gallery that looks exactly how you want? heck yeah! you are free now! you will enjoy the indie web so much more if you actually use it for the things you can’t do on websites like twitter, instead of just using it as a carrd bio alternative or a place to dump nostalgic geocities gifs.

don’t overwhelm yourself! if you’ve never worked with HTML/CSS or JS before, it may look really intimidating. start slow, use some guides, and don’t bite off more than you can chew. even if your site doesn’t look how you want quite yet, be proud of your work! you’re learning a skill that most people don’t have or care to have, and that’s pretty cool.

keep a personal copy of your website downloaded to your computer and don’t just edit it on neocities (or your host of choice) and call it a day. if for some reason your host were to ever go down, you would lose all your hard work! and besides, by editing locally and offline, you can use editors like vscode (very robust) or notepad++ (on the simpler side), which have more features and is more intuitive than editing a site in-browser.

you can use ctrl+shift+i on most browsers to inspect the HTML/CSS and other components of the website you’re currently viewing. it’ll even notify you of errors! this is useful for bugfixing your own site if you have a problem, as well as looking at the code of sites you like and learning from it. don’t use this to steal other people’s code! it would be like art theft to just copy/paste an entire website layout. learn, don’t steal.

don’t hotlink images from other sites, unless the resource you’re taking from says it’s okay! it’s common courtesy to download images and host them on your own site instead of linking to someone else’s site to display them. by hotlinking, every time someone views your site, you’re taking up someone else’s bandwidth.

if you want to make your website easily editable in the future (or even for it to have multiple themes), you will find it useful to not use inline CSS (putting CSS in your HTML document, which holds your website’s content) and instead put it in a separate CSS file. this way, you can also use the same theme for multiple pages on your site by simply linking the CSS file to it. if this sounds overwhelming or foreign to you, don’t sweat it, but if you are interested in the difference between inline CSS and using separate stylesheets, w3schools has a useful, quick guide on the subject.

visit other people’s sites sometimes! you may gain new ideas or find links to more cool websites or resources just by browsing.

if you are browsing sites:

if the page you’re viewing has a guestbook or cbox and you enjoyed looking at the site, leave a comment! there is nothing better as a webmaster than for someone to take the time to even just say “love your site” in their guestbook.

that being said, if there’s something on a website you don’t like, simply move on to something else and don’t leave hate comments. this should be self explanatory, but it is really not the norm to start discourse in indie web spaces, and you will likely not even be responded to. it’s not worth it when you could be spending your time on stuff you love somewhere else.

take your time! indie web doesn’t prioritize fast content consumption the way social media does. you’ll get a lot more out of indie websites if you really read what’s in front of you, or take a little while to notice the details in someone’s art gallery instead of just moving on to the next thing. the person who put labor into presenting this information to you would also love to know that someone is truly looking and listening.

explore! by clicking links on a website, it’s easy to go down rabbitholes of more and more websites that you can get lost in for hours.

seeking out fansites or pages for the stuff you love is great and fulfilling, but reading someone’s site about a topic you’ve never even heard of before can be fun, too. i encourage you to branch out and really look for all the indie web has to offer.

i hope this post helps you get started with using and browsing the indie web! feel free to shoot me an ask if you have any questions or want any advice. <3

#reblog #indieweb #old web #nostalgia #internet nostalgia #fun times

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Questions that seems unacceptable in church. Pt1

What does it mean to have a "God"?

Where does the bible come from?

What does it mean to seek a savior?

When is it OK to question. The leadership of church when I see something wrong?

#jesus #black women #mental health #life experiences #questions #church #christian faith #biblical truth

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Pmdd aftermath ramble and release

The last pmdd cycle was super hell like.

I have been doing an ok job of managing my environment and stress.

If I know something/one is triggering I stay away. I try to plan my day so if I need to go out.

I'm tired

This cyclical event is draining me... every month like someone is ripping me to shreds.. I'm being beat up by an invisible monster. Cut right down the middle..

And then the switch turns and I'm just normal? Like oh... why was I being dramatic? Was I faking it the whole time?

But that's literally not possible. Then having to pick up the pieces of soul and try an nurture them back. Is quite the challenge. And I'm tired. The last few times have been rough. Anxiety attacks can leave a person drained..

Depression can leave a person brain all fogged up..

The cognitive effects are a recovery all there own. And man I don't know. It's just crazy. How empty and lonely this can be. And there's this assumption that I can just Pray it away... I definitely know and affirm that Jesus is real and has helped me greatly when I did not deserve it one bit. This are not as bad as they were. But there some stuff that need help frfr.

#jesus #black women #mental health #life experiences #actually pmdd

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I think I might have to agree...

#mental health #reblog

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I've watched some interesting mental health blogs lately.

I note this one channel about a woman who has bipolar.

I don't have bipolar but was misdx with it from the PMDD/TBI.

How ever I've been watching this channel her story stuck a chord in me. When she was talking about delusions and it related to something I've been pondering over lately .

There are many many memories that I have that are colored by PMDD mind. And for along while I had some a Anosognosia(lack of insight) with it.. (I think. That more common than we realize) If you find that you can't distinguish why your having symptoms when your having them, this might be a thing to explore.

So it all just seemed so real..

That bad thing happened the way I remember it cause it was real.. to me.

Looking back.. I see that in my normal state of mind it wouldn't have bothered me the same way. It was still a messed up situation but my veiw of the situation in retrospect is not sound. It's taken a year to really realize this.

Cause I had a similar situation recently. Caused major panic attacks, depressive symptoms and the like for awhile. I didn't tell anymore. I tried to keep it to myself. And have been pressured to participate again. Because they don't know, Cause I try not to burden them.

Starting to see how these experiences peppered in the back of my mind effect the decisions and lens I have now.

... not to mention the moments the symptoms lift it can feel like I wondered why I felt so bad in the first place knowing dang gone well why!

Knowing there's these memories I can't trust that are guiding me it's weighing heavy on my mind today.

In my chest I feel it everyrime someone invites me out.

I'm hoping the Jesus with conintue to given me the strength to continue overcoming this illness and all it comes with. I wouldn't have made it this far without his mercy. This has really been a journey of carving my own path so to speak. Most therapist I've had are just not helpful And alot don't give useful or sound advice.... but they aren't getting paid enough to do so lol. Sad but my experience.

That's why I created this space.. why pay someone allll that moolah when I can share with all of you.

#jesus #black women #mental health #life experiences #actually pmdd #pmddexpressed #moodjournal #shared experince #hope

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Eukaryotic cell gang!! We love women in STEM.

The organelles of the cells have been translated into human anatomy, so the nucleus is the brain, the vacuole function as the lungs, and the mitochondria is the heart since it’s the… you already know, I don’t have to say it ;)

#reblog

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Futures past.

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Why do people

1)invite you somewhere

Then not talk to you or join you there?

2)ask you a question

And then not listen or care about the anwser?

3)claim to be your friend but not talk to you.

Especially when things seem important to you.

Irritating...

#jesus #black women #mental health #life experiences #confused

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!! Rain - Themed Stimboard !!

Requested by : @boxpogthecardboardcube

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#sensory #ptsd recovery #tbi recovery #relaxation

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Ayeee

woah, jesus is pretty awesome, huh?

✝️ ✝️ ✝️ / ✝️ x ✝️ / ✝️ ✝️ ✝️

#jesus #mental health

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Very nice

Idk if your taking requests but could I request a stim board of Edgar the computer from the film electric dreams :3

edgar (electric dreams, 1984) stimboard! for anon!

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People talk about wanting to get in the presence of God... bro he's literally OMNIPRESENT.. meaning everywhere all at once..what are you talking about.

#jesus #black women #mental health #questions #confused #have you considered #life experiences #jesus god #read the bible #lol

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Well... failed piece but I share anyway.

#jesus #black women #digital art #glitch #abtract #black community #black fathers