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afreakingdork · 5 months

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Backfire

RotTMNT Donatello x Reader One-Shot

Tags: Aged-Up Mutant Ninja Turtles, Christmas, Christmas Fluff, Christmas Presents, Fire, One Shot, Gift Giving, Short & Sweet, Tactical Turtles (TMNT)

Synopsis: As Don stokes the flames to warm the house, you try to finally pull one over on him in the form of a gift.

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A Secret Santa gift for @amutantturtleenthusiast

@crackedpumpkin fielded me with the idea and @morning-sun-brah stayed with me in the word doc to make this bad boy happen!

To Pen! Your tactical turtles changed my brain chemistry and, though I can't imagine doing them an ounce of justice as you do, I hope you enjoy this gift! Everyone go read Pen's series!

There was no way this was going to work.

Getting home from a veritable blizzard, Don had left you to warm the space. The day away had chilled it down to its very brick bones and the little hearth he’d constructed for the sake of the holiday no longer seemed like a silly one. You saw its practicality now, especially if the power went out as it threatened. You craved the flames that would lick up from the pit and his distraction was exactly what you needed.

“I’m going to wash up.” You told him.

His vague nod was one that spoke volumes.

It was always like that with him.

So little, too much.

By all accounts he should have been a fortress and, in many ways he was, but there were small tells that kept you going.

Not necessarily cracks in his emotional facade, but instead leaks that he allowed.

They were gifts.

Just like the one you were on your way to get.

Winding through the hall, it felt like all was for naught.

He was a genius.

He was beyond you in literally every way.

The fact that you had even purchased something, wrapped it, and hidden it was a marvel in and of itself.

Just shy of going to anime-like feats to make sure he hadn’t tampered with it, you knew he’d probably circumvented those too if he really wanted to know. There was a real chance that he already did. There was a chance he’d tailed you physically or visually via his network of security cameras. There was even a chance that he’d given the shop keep who’d smiled at you a little pep talk before you ever entered the store with an intent to buy him a single thing.

You hadn’t minded it.

It was a simple fact of being with your turtle.

It came with the territory.

It didn’t mean you didn’t want to circumvent him once in a while.

In all the years you'd been together, you hadn’t once seen surprise pass over his features. He always knew in some small way what you were aiming for and some version of you accepted what was never to be.

You also wanted to blow something up in his face once in a while.

So you’d gone through the secretive motions. You’d played your part. You’d gone above and beyond any and all spy thrillers, just for the lotto numbered chance of surprising Don. You decided that was enough. If you couldn’t get him with all this, it simply wasn’t within your power, but at least you tried and that counted for something.

Kicking out a bench from the edge of the guest bed, you dropped down to all fours and fondled under the mattress. Between some slats you’d wedged his gift and it came loose without a crinkling noise. A good sign, you checked that the wrapping was still in place before you hugged it close to your chest.

Now came the hardest part.

Creeping along a wall and just shy of pressing your body to it, you approached the room he was in. A small peek found him moving logs, and on instinct, after years together, you knew that he was aware of your presence. You watched him get hold of a poker and your body animated, as staying still was a tell in and of itself.

“I had a good day.” You moved behind him, hoping with every fiber of your being that he wouldn’t turn around.

He gave a tepid hum of agreement.

“We gonna snuggle up by that fire?” Small, innocuous steps brought you behind a couch, placed to look upon the hearth.

Only a puff of air followed. Something of an ill-formed chuff, it said that depended on your behavior.

A titillating thought in and of itself, you shoved those butterflies down. Squashing them with the net, you looked down at the present as he lit a match. He smoked the tinder and, in his squat, he revealed the mailbox for your postage.

It just had to be the stockings hung with care.

Pinned above his head and all too obvious, you almost laughed.

The odds were already abysmally against you making the free throw from half-court, but now you had the other team’s star player on defense.

What could you do?

The best you could.

As you’d already decided.

Sauntering up behind Don, you knew he was watching you even though you weren’t truly in his periphery.

Your intent was the only thing you could mask at this angle so you moved to work with your only option.

Steps that you hoped seemed natural brought you just beside his back.

A direct approach from behind a poor one, you made a show of reaching out with your free hand to skim his shoulder.

It was with the weight of your digits that you meant to translate what you felt and you sent it all towards distraction.

“Not now.” He grunted and stabbed one perky flame to give it a chance at life.

He needed to warm the house for his mate.

He wouldn’t let even you, said creature, get in the way of such a task.

It brought a smile to your lips and you left your hand there for a faint squeeze of that affection. “I’m just thankful.”

He didn’t move and allowed your question to be prompted by the air alone.

“A holiday with you.” You bent at the waist. “Spending time, the whole thing. I know it’s not your favorite.”

A flick of his pupil said he, in fact, hated it.

“But!”

His eyes returned to the growing fire.

You were running out of time.

Trying not to rush, but knowing your breath shook, you felt his muscles contract as he adjusted the smoldering pile.

He knew.

You’d deal with that later.

All that mattered was getting your gift into the stocking.

Whatever it took.

“I appreciate that you did it anyway.” You punctuated your point with a stolen kiss to the side of his head, and, at the same time, you were just barely able to shove your gift into his stocking.

Retreating, the gift dropped down the length of the garish boot shape and the fire cackled loudly as if to help you out.

Thanking the flames for all they provided, you released him. Don found the growing flame suitable and stood.

You took a step back to keep from stumbling and watched as he sized you up.

Always feeling dwarfed by him, you gave the smallest tilt of your head which metered your chin. It was an act of fealty that he preferred and, though he couldn’t give the exact of a smile, there was a twitch to one of the corners of his lips that said the gesture was one he preferred. You were rewarded for it, in that moment, as he dipped down and scooped you up. A movement you knew with a deep muscle memory, he approached the lone couch with your body held in the easy circle of his arms. Heat from the fire chased him as he gave minor adjustments until you were cozily tucked into his lap.

His body relaxed in the only small way he ever allowed and you knew this to be comfort for him. Snuggling into his chest since it also meant you could be a little extra selfish and get away with it, he turned into you. Awaiting a scolding, you readied yourself for a complaint when he instead kissed the side of your head as you had done to him.

Heart flipping, your breath caught in your throat as he nuzzled into your ear with what should have been the heated promise of what was to come in.

He continued to subvert you with a few whispered words.

Just enough to set you aflame, but not in the usual way, he was able to stoke you like the fire.

“If I were anyone else, I might have been surprised,” he rumbled in your ear.

You let out a sigh, deflating a little in his arms.

He gave a short chuckle that you hardly ever got to hear and laid a kiss across your cheek. “I appreciate it.”

Alit, it was the way his arms tightened around you, the way his snout pressed into the corner of your neck, and the way a low churr purred against your skin, that worked as a coordinated effort to soothe your disappointment.

You sighed anew, this time giving into satisfied relaxation of a job well done that the flames joined in on.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #rottmnt x reader #rottmnt donnie x reader #rise donnie #donatello hamato #donnie x reader #rise donatello #rise donnie x reader #rottmnt donnie #rottmnt donatello #me #fanfiction #my fanfiction

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moved-mainblog · 7 months

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Heads Up

I know this is a long post and I'm sorry for that but please read through it all.

After some very triggering things that happened here that led into a very very bad nightmare and almost in an anxiety attack, which both I didn't had in a very long time. I decided to do some things a bit differntly around here. It's getting harder and harder for me to come on this blog without feeling bad about certain things. And I tried to ignore it, tried to see the positive things that happened here and still happen that clearly overweight the negative things. But it's starting to get harder and harder up to the point where I don't want to come online here at all anymore. And I finally realized that's why I have been feeling so emotional latley.

So I decided to make a new blog for my RP blogs which I will only use for RP's, character building and all of that stuff. OOC stuff still will happen but not in the way it did here. This means from this new blog I won't be making any kind of feel good messages or what ever but only stuff that belongs to RP's. Which doesn't mean I won't give supportive coments or messages anymore if I see you (my mutuals) posting something. But I try not to do them anymore for people I'm not mutuals with or more like I try not to talk much with people that I'm not mutuals with.

My problem is I have a really strong helper syndrome. When I see something or someone I feel like I have to do something. Like I have to make everything better and fix things etc. even if I don't really know that person. It's almost like a compulsion for me and something that didn't always ended well because sometimes I just didn't saw where to stop before it was to late. I thought I had learned to keep this under controll but it seems like I didn't as much as I thought. It started to get really hard for me to differentiate between helping and overstepping and also in differentiating between people I'm really friends with and people I'm not really friends with. For me it's the problem as soon as we wrote a few messages together where you have been nice to me I immediately see you as my friend even if we are still strangers to eachother. I have trouble in realizing who is really my friend and who was just nice because not everyone is a bad person who wants to hurt me. I'm just so used of people being mean to me and hurting me that my brain instantly says oh you're nice that means we're friends now. In addition to that, I have a problem expressing myself correctly even in my own language and the language barrier here on tumblr isn't helping either because English is not my first language so it often happened that I was trying to say or ask something but did it in a completley wrong way so it came off completley differently than I intended. All of this has made me do things that I regret and wish had never happened like it did because I harmed people even if this was never my intention. In germany we say "Gut gemeint ist nicht gleich gut gemacht" Translated, it means something like: "Well-intentioned does not equal well-done".

It started to get really hard for me to realize there's only so much I can or should do and that it's not my job "to save the world". Through this behaviour I hurted people while trying to help others which I never wanted to happen. I tried to move on from this but there are other things like hate asks that reminds me everyday of what happened and how I hurted people I never meant to hurt. I know my behaviour isn't fair to you, to the people I hurt but also not to myself and I'm trying my best to not let that happen again. Don't get me wrong this is no ones fault and completley a me problem. A problem that I'm trying my hardest to fix and keep under controll with seperating my blogs, and as hard as this is for me, with also sometimes just looking away when I see something. I need to learn not to react to everything I see.

I know my helper syndorm is a really big problem and something that I need to to keep under controll before it starts to get everyone elses problem because this is the last thing I want but I can't do this if I'm using one blog for everything where I'm doing my rps but also my feel good stuff. I was thinking of just redoing this blog. But As I know myself this would only help for a while before everything starts again so I decided to start completley from the beginning with separating my blogs.

I'll still be doing my side blogs again like I did here so this won't change. It's just a preference for me to get some structure as I don't find tagging really helpfull and I know I won't be able to handle so many main blogs. And I'll be doing an extra blog for my feel good stuff. So if you want to see them follow this blog or tell me to put you on my taglist if you don't want to follow but still want to see them. Also as long as I don't have my syndrome under controll I will be doing personal supportive stuff only for my mutuals. I'm so sorry for everyone who isn't in a good place and has a hard tim. I really wish I could help everyone and make everything better for you. But I know I can't do this even if my helper syndrome says I need to do this. This doesn't mean if I post a general feel good post that you can't tag your people in it. Feel free to do this but I'll be only tagging the people I have the premission from to do so or people I'm mutuals with and they haven't explicit said they don't want this. I won't be tagging everyone I've been talking to here to avoid overstepping again.

For now I won't be mutuals only but this is only regarding rps and plotting. Everything else depending ooc talk I will only do with mutuals I know for a while and who I have on discord (I'll make an exception if you don't have a discord but only if we talked about this). With non mutuals I will only write through rps and the only ooc talk that will happen between us is also regarded to our rp.

I also want to deeply apologize to everyone that I might have hurt, overstepped or made you uncomfortable or mad with my behaviour. I want you to know this was never my intention and I'm so so sorry. I promise I'm trying everything to get better with this.

I know things need to change not only for the people around me but also for myself. And this is exactly what is going to happen from now on. Now that I'm aware that my helper syndrome is still as strong as it is I can be more careful and thoughtful of how I handle and approach things to ensure that something like this won't happen again. And maybe it also helps you understanding me better and why I sometimes do things that I do.

I'm tagging everyone here that I would love to keep interacting with but I completley understand if you don't want anymore after reading all of this. Just know I don't ask anyone of you to change anything about how you are doing things around here. It's me and only me who has to change and I'm willing to do that.

So yeah please just write me a DM or for those who have my discord you can write me there too and let me know if you still want to keep contact or not.

For now I won't be answering to rps as long as I don't know if you want to keep going or not. As soon as I have your answeres I'll be answering again and transfer our threads over to the new blog when I have everything set up.

Again I'm so sorry for not realizing this earlier but I was so sure I had this under controll. But maybe some of you are willing to make a fresh start together with me.

PS: Please know not everything I did and said was because of my helper syndrome. It's really important to me that you know that I really truly love you all and when I said I'm here for you if you need someone to talk I meant it and when I said I'm happy to help I meant this too. It's only about drawing the line between people I'm friends with and people I'm not and people I just got to know and realizing I'm overstepping while trying to help before I do.

If there is anything you didn't understood feel free to ask me.

@antvnger @brooklynbred @spideymn @silently-judgingyou @kyber-infinitygems @skallagrimulfhedinn @azuresrp @vekovoysoldat @notgonnabesubtle @stripesofbrooklyn @askmyocsandrpwiththem @grimmusings @sah1x1s

For everyone who has multiple blogs, I only tagged one blog of you but ofc this is also regarded to your other characters you are playing as. I just tagged one so it won't be too much.

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questiontocertaintyofreality · 9 months

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Death Note L Kira Au Headcanon

Imagine L found Death Note and decided to use it for his own ethic logic. I think about ıt and ı can post some of them now

L found Death Note when travel to japan see a notebook fall in airstation. L have a private plane and say Watari to he want to look planes wheels and see traces in wheels. So he can take the Death Note

L take the Death Note and hide it from.Watari then read ıt . Hide the notebook was the hardest part maybe L thought tell Watari and use ıt for criminals according the laws permission. This can be happen but here L didn't tell anyone and be Kira but not Kira because L give himself a diffrent name. I think that because Light move with human's visions, even his ideal world was depend on humanity and how human's see him so L give himself a name in his mind because L have less mental complex than Light. L be a guilt with Notebooks power and ıt effect L's brain slightly but doesn't do anything like Light did( Kill everyone who say he is evil) . Beside L is secret Kira so this story's Kira (even L give himself a name ı say Kira now) case sent to L for solve ıt.

My favorite part. L give clues and leave evidence but the one who did crime and solve crime he can't caught himself. Case ıs went thorough days and Light would be interested in this case, Kira task force would be same and L do same things in Canon. Even the joke would be same "Don't say your name's, ıf ı was Kira all of you would be dead" With his father, Light have a chance to join task force. At least L say these but ın truth L take Light to task force because L hear in phone when Soichiro talk to Light, Light say " What ıf L was Kira then ıt nearly imposibble to cought Kira" . L doesn't want to kill Light but want to take Light to their side . L would succes but before that Light nearly caught L from his moves. First step of L to takes Light their side was give Light to paper of Note. Light wouldn't scream ı thought when he see Ryuk, he want to know what is happening then think about sides , join L . They both have similar ethic and L is extremely carefull with which criminal would be kill. L wouldn't kill serial killers or guilt who have ideals ı bet.

Also

Misa isn't in story or don't have strong effect in storyline because she can't understand who is Kira. I like to think she thought Light was Kira ıf she is in storyline than must be search taskforce and one day jump into Light just like anime

L isn't kill as much as Light and create plans on criminal's thoughts and fear always think like "less death but also less criminals

L would immidately try Death Note and make experiment

L wouldn't talk Ryuk as much because Ryuk effect L's thoughts but Ryuk have fun like this also

Especially Light come to their side

L and Light do chess metophores and play tennis here to ımagine L make monologue when covered by blue even he had to red but ı didn't change ıt because ıt L sided and ın L's mind guilty is a complex think but when we see Light's side, L was covered by red. I don't want to see blue covered Light.

Even here Light being Kira in end

They caught by a purpose and destroy all the clues in Kira case than escape and Wammy's house almost zero clue where are they ( L and Light)

L try to take Watari to their side. It isn't worked when they escape they took technology of Watari but L never let Light to kill Watari

In the end there was less than 1000 guilt die but humanity have enough proof to believe Kira have logic and ethic

Mikami support Kira as well but never use Death note. Do nit give Mikami the notebook

L and Light be Kira Au is so Real for me

Also my English is bad so there was mistakes and ı mostly write L with They/them . Here one line ı use they for L igrone that

First ı think Light found Death Note but have a strong ethic than canon so decided to give up the Death note but ı want things as much as canon now.

#non binary L can't get out of my mind #Light would a great detective change my mind #Being Kira is like Light's thing #my he can choose another destiny #Death Note #Death Note Au #death note headcanons #Light Yagami #Yagami Light #L Lawliet #L Kira #Metophores #Destiny #Ryuk #Misa amane #Wammy's house #lawlight #Death Note fandom #Kira

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thegettingbyp2 · 2 years

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Congrats for the 100 followers! Can we have a Johnny knoxville x reader, a little angsty, in which they fight because after the last bull in jackass forever, the doctor told him to stop with big stunts but he continues to coming up with ideas? The reader is worried sick and eventually decided to leave him because of this behavior that's hurting her. But pls end it with a happy ending and a reconciliation ** your ff are my fave here on tumbrl**

Thank you!! That honestly means so much to me :') really hope you like this! I've never written Johnny upset so I liked the challenge and hopefully I've done it well!

No More Bulls

Buy me a coffee :)

I knew that by dating Johnny Knoxville, I was signing up for constant worrying when he was filming Jackass, but I had never felt as much fear as I did when I saw him walk into that bullring.

‘Be careful,’ I said just before he entered the ring.

‘Always am darlin,’ he said, pressing a kiss to my forehead as he walked past, giving my hand a tight squeeze. I went to stand next to Steve-O, who as Johnny’s best friend, also became mine and I felt him wrap his arm around my shoulders to comfort me.

Everything seemed to go in slow motion when I saw the bull hit Johnny and he flipped in the air. When he hit the ground, I felt panic set in when I noticed that he wasn’t moving and he quickly disappeared from my sight as he was surrounded by paramedics. My first instinct was to run over to him to see if he was okay but I was quickly stopped when Steve-O’s arm wrapped around my waist, stopping me from going any further.

‘Steve-O, let me go,’ I said, voice shaking as I struggled in his grip, trying to get closer to Johnny.

‘(Y/N), just wait a second, let them get the bull away and then I’ll let you go okay?’ Steve-O said, used to having to talk me down when I stressed when Johnny was hurt. I felt my body still but my eyes didn’t leave the group of people surrounding my boyfriend. As soon as the bull was taken out of the ring, I felt Steve-O’s arm release my waist and I shot through the gate to Johnny’s side, sinking to my knees and grabbing his hand.

I heard a slight groan from Johnny’s throat as his eyes opened slowly. Tears fell from my eyes as I released the breath I didn’t know I had been holding. ‘Did we get the shot?’ he asked groggily making everyone around him laugh at his priorities.

‘We got it,’ Jeff said from behind me.

‘You okay doll,’ he asked, looking over at me as he was lifted off the ground in a stretcher and carried to the back of the ambulance. I climbed in straight after, still gripping his hand.

‘You really want an answer to that question?’ I asked sarcastically, ‘let’s just get you to the hospital,’ I said softly. He lifted my hand and kissed the back of my hand.

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‘So I was thinking that next time I could have two bulls in there with me and if I can convince some of the other guys, we can do the Toro Totter again,’ Johnny said excitedly as he was jotting ideas for new stunts in his notebook. My head shot up as soon as I heard him mention bulls.

‘You really think it’s a good idea to get back in the bullring babe?’ I questioned, treading lightly around the subject. ‘I mean, you haven’t fully recovered from the last one yet.’

It had been the hardest hit he’d ever had from the bull and ended with him having to spend an entire weekend in the hospital. The injuries he sustained from it was a broken wrist, broken ribs, a concussion and a brain haemorrhage. The fact he wanted to carry on working with the bulls baffled me.

‘Well obviously not yet, darlin’, but when my wrists all healed up then I think it’d be great!’ He said, chuckling to himself. I sighed softly but not as quiet as I thought because Johnny looked up from his pad and asked what was wrong.

‘Nothing, it’s just you heard what the doctors said, they said no more big stunts,’

‘Babydoll, they say that every time I go,’ Johnny said, getting up from his seat and walking over to me, sitting on the coffee table opposite me and took my hand in his one good hand.

‘I know but this time was different. Baby, you’re not as young as you were ten years ago and I still fully support you doing these films because you love it and I’d never stop you from doing something you love but I can’t just sit by and watch you get seriously hurt because what if one of these times, the doctors can’t do anything to help you.’ I said all of this in one breath, needing to get it out, tears starting to spill from my eyes. I looked up to see Johnny staring at me.

‘Are you saying that if I carry on doing my big stunts, you’re gonna leave?’ He asked carefully, eyes trying to discern my answer from the look on my face. I looked down, squeezing his hand in mine as I worked up the courage to say what I needed to.

‘Johnny, I love you but I can’t keep panicking every time you go to work that you’re not going to come back, sitting by the phone worrying that I’m going to get a call from Jeff or Steve-O that something’s happened you’re not going to be able to come back from.’

There was a period of silence between us as we both sat staring at each other for a while before Johnny swallowed heavily and spoke, his words shattering my heart.

‘Sweetheart, I can’t just stop doing what I love.’

I nodded as more tears fell from my eyes, smiling softly before squeezing his hand once more and disentangling our fingers and standing up, wiping the tears off of my cheeks. ‘I’m really sorry, but I can’t do this anymore and there’s no way I’m going to ask you to choose between me and your job, I just can’t be around to see it anymore,’ I said quietly.

‘Sweetheart,’ Johnny started before cutting himself off, his voice thick and his eyes shining with unshed tears as he gripped at the hem of my shirt. I put one hand on the back of his head and other on his shoulder as I gently kissed the top of his head before pulling myself away. I looked at him and had to quickly look away so I didn’t start crying again. I squeezed his shoulder and let my hand gently cradle his cheek before walking away, not letting myself look behind me.

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It had been two months since I had walked out on Johnny and every day I missed him so much my heart physically hurt, but at the same time, I knew that I had made the right decision with how much it was killing me seeing him getting so hurt all the time. I was renting a small apartment, not needing so spend extra money on a big place for just one person and I only left it when I needed to go out to buy groceries.

I hadn’t seen Johnny in the past two months but I had been keeping up to date on Instagram with how filming was getting on and I can’t lie, it worried be a bit that I hadn’t really seen any pictures or videos of Johnny on set. I kept having to remind myself that it was no longer any of my business what Johnny got up to.

It was a normal day, I was sitting on my sofa, covered with a blanket and watching my favourite TV show when I heard three loud knocks at my door. Confused because the only people who knew my new address were my parents and Steve-O (he came round when I first got the apartment to check that I was okay), I set my coffee on the small table, shook the blanket off my shoulders and made my way to the door. I couldn’t help the shape intake of breath when I saw Johnny in the doorway. He looked terrible, his eyes were dark as if he hadn’t slept in weeks and they we’re rimmed with red, a sign that he’d been crying.

‘No more bulls,’ he said quietly.

‘What?’

‘No more bulls,’ he repeated when I stepped aside to let him in. He walked into the apartment and turned to face me as soon as the door shut behind me. ‘Don’t be mad but I made Steve-O tell me where you were living.’

‘Okay? Johnny I,’

‘(Y/N), sweetheart, I’m a mess. I miss you, I haven’t been able to film anything because every time I did, I’d turn to find you and you weren’t there. It feels like there’s no point without you. I’m going to stop doing the stunts with bulls.’

‘Johnny, I told you I wasn’t going to ask you to,’

‘This isn’t me choosing between two things I love, (Y/N). This is me choosing between something I love and someone I can’t live without.’ He moved closer to me and took my hands in both of his, I looked down and noticed that the cast had come off his wrist, his thumbs rubbing soft circles on the insides of my wrists. ‘I’ve been miserable without you. I hate it. I found one of your books in my bedside drawer the other night and spent the night crying. Come back to me,’ his voice broke off slightly as tears formed in his eyes. I raised my hand and wiped the tear away, leaving my hand on his cheek when he leant further into my touch.

‘I miss you too. You have no idea the amount of times I’ve made two cups of coffee before I realised that you weren’t around anymore.’ Johnny laughed softly. ‘Are you sure that you’d be okay with giving up the bulls, you love them.’

‘I love you more.’ Johnny replied instantly. ‘Way more. I don’t care if I never even see a bull again. I’ve had this decided for weeks it’s just taken me this long to get your address from Steve-O, he was pissed at me when I told him what happened. I want you to come back. I want to wake up next you, I need to feel you laying on top of me again when you nod off sweetheart,’ he leant in closer so I could feel his breath on my lips. ‘Come back to me sweetheart.’

Without thinking, I wrapped my arms around his neck and stood on my toes to kiss him. His arms instantly wrapped around my waist and lifted me up. I pulled back and looked him in the eyes.

‘No more bulls?’

‘No more bulls sweetheart.’

#johnny knoxville #johnny knoxville x reader #johnny knoxville imagine #jackass

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apollo-gate · 1 year

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Hello, hope everyone is doing well.

So I’m free from school *evil laugh. So none of my classes are available for summer again and well that sucks. But it means more free time for me and a whole bunch less stress.

This week has been busy really busy I think I only managed to touch my computer once and that was to let my cousin on it.

Now I have bad news and then good news.

The bad news is well I deleted many of the words I wrote. I thought it was just a few thousand words and could simply get it back on track.

But I then looked at it and it wasn’t just a few thousand words it was also the code I placed and all my current edits. (This alone was the hardest to do.) And the code oomph that’s a different story right there.

The good news is I’ve decided to write the scenes I know and summarize the rest. So that's what I’m doing today and tomorrow hopefully.

This is my warning now that when I release what I have it is not what I wanted. But everything happens for a reason. (So you're getting it still.)

(The main reason why I haven’t done ask is because it was a lot and I felt really bad.)

Now onto other things, I am also going to do character bios for the ROs and a few other characters. I have an idea of what I want on it and if you have any additional stuff you want, just let me know.

Also, you can thank @dragonedged-if for introducing me to the art breeder. Hope I said that right. So I’ll be working on that as well. I might have a few face claims as well. (You should love Noah’s 😁) So you can get an idea of what I envision. When I think about the Characters. Now if you are someone who doesn’t care for this you can simply ignore this.

🤔 I believe I’ve said everything so have a great day to people waking up and good night to the ones who are awake but should be asleep.

(Dear lurker yes you. Can I ask one thing? Can I at least give you a bear hug too? I can tell who I talk to with my asks but you can be included as well. Plus I bet some questions are there in your wonderful brain. You don’t have to if you don’t want to.🙃)

#not really tagging this as it is not an update. Just want to communicate

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Just wanna play devils advocate cuz I was lurking in the other comments section…who’s to say JAYCE won’t flip the script on Hope with all the stress and mental turmoil he’s going through? What if something happens to Mercy? Or what if something “happens” to the store knowing how Bishop feels about it? Or he crosses paths with Kenji on the wrong day while he’s helping Hope with skiing or something? I know when I went through real deep depression at one point and I was not the most ideal partner and it’s not even because I didn’t want to be. I would try my hardest and I just couldn’t bring myself to be. Everything started feeling like a personal jab towards me even though it might’ve been something small and unintentional. I started with the whole “you’re the only thing keeping me sane” but eventually I had no energy to do anything other than fall deeper into myself and couldn’t even provide affection to my partner or even ask how their day was. Not saying AT ALL that I want our sweet Hope OR sweet JayJay to go through any of those things and I do agree that they shouldn’t have to especially after what their parents deal with. But just wanted to throw that in for discussion and get your thoughts if you can give them without spoiling. And Aunties don’t kill me lmao I just like hearing everyone’s opinions on different scenarios. That’s just how my brain is wired 😂 if it rains purple rain, I’m writing a dissertation about it. I’m a HUGE let’s have a discussion person.

And let's admit it: Sure he has a 7 inch tongue and previous "pets", but we've made A LOT of assumptions about Kenji, haven't we? Just like we made assumptions about Jayce at first... Let's be honest here LOL

And we all know Darren needed several chapters, a therapist and some wrinkles on his forehead to rid himself of the most toxicious of toxicity.

ANYWAY! I've said before that the commentary is the best part of writing this and probably a big part of why I dive right in to really hard topics (I will not ever forget the arm grab felt around simblr lmfao).

I say we let it play out. Hope is young but she's equipped. Jayce is young and, unfortunately going through a lot of shit that he doesn't deserve. He's a good brotha who lost the light of his life, found healing through the wrekka sto and beautiful girl named Hope Diamond, but the one piece of family he has left decided to meat-swap (who remembers that?) with the devil.

Let's also not forget that the pre-frontal cortex (good decision making skills) doesn't fully develop until the age of 24. Hope and Jayce aren't 24 yet, is all I'm sayin.

And with that....

#story stuff

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https://www.tumblr.com/sapphyreopal5/747966155961122816/full-disclosure-i-am-a-jared-leaning-j2-fan-i?source=share

This is me and thanks a lot for your detailed assessment of my ask. I genuinely appreciate it. Like you said, I do still like Gen very much along with all her limitations in my opinion.

I connected with her videos and the things that she has spoken about in the past quiet a bit. There is a certain honesty and vulnerability to her especially in the SPN fandom context where most extras seem toxic. I also think she is a great mom who really prioritizes her kids.

However, I do find her lacking towards Jared and feel that she could do more to offer support to him like you very much mentioned in your post. I know it isn't easy being in a relationship with someone who suffers with depression, anxiety and has had struggles with suicide ideation. It must take alot but I feel she could do that public support a bit more instead of trying to act aloof at those moments. Like I really appreciated the note that Sandy (it's heartfelt) put out for Jared even after their breakup but I've never seen anything like that from Gen.

Jared is a very supportive husband who constantly props her up so even if everything is not about money, I would understand why she wants to be with Jared even when she may not be that fully in love with him anymore. That's the kind of partner every women wants and very few men are like that.

For eg, I wouldn't consider Jensen making Danneel the EP on TW being supportive as that was just him sort of using her in his agenda of taking over SPN.

If Gen and Jared are not the ones for each other I would still wish them both well individually.

Welcome back Anon. So there are some good points you make here but also some I can't agree with which I'm going to explain why. Know that I'm speaking from a point of view where I look at things more objectively and am not going about things from a petty stance. "Oh what is she wearing here" or "she looks terrible" kind of thing. Instead, I'm going to talk about things more or less that come straight out of their mouths and will do my best to elaborate on the context of things as well.

As far as the parenting thing goes, I'm not 💯 sure I can say she's a great mom. Yes, being a parent is challenging. It's the hardest job to do but it's the easiest one to have an opinion on. I think however she gives into this "woke culture" a bit too much and it is alarming at times. For one, she talks about the kids' problems too openly and why on Earth she decided to openly say on a podcast from 2020 that her kids are all in therapy along with her and Jared and calling it "brain exercise" is questionable at best. First of all, why would you talk about the kids being in therapy under the age of 10? Outside of the whole HIPAA stuff going on there where therapists can't talk about their patients especially when someone doesn't need to know as part of their treatment plan, why would you air your dirty laundry about your kids being in therapy? A lot of the grown world is aware that people don't go to therapy and PAY for it just for shits and giggles or as she puts it "brain exercise". This is what puzzles, books, etc. Are for, not therapy.

Therapy is to address some kind of trauma, emotional disorder, treat a psychological condition, etc. Calling it brain exercise and generally trying to normalize something like therapy, sure lots of us go to therapy and there's nothing wrong with it. Heck, I do too for depression/anxiety reasons because of a lot of things that I went through as a child pertaining to how I was treated by the school system in elementary school and other things (thanks to being neurodivergent). But for Gen to talk about it casually as if everyone is going to view it the same twisted way she does IS a problem. Don't talk about your kids' issues, let alone use it in your affiliate marketing crap as, I'll dive into below. I took the below screenshot on April 16, 2024, around 11:27am EST and from the time stamp given being 53m (indicating 53 min Instagram style), this makes it so she posted this around 10:34am EST (or 9:34am CST since that's her time zone). I'm going to touch onto some of the stuff these books tap into based on Google searches, as I sadly don't have the time to read as much as I'd like. Going based on the covers here, it seems to me she have some insight as to what kinda issues her kids have, what her flaws as a parent are, etc. "Raising Good Humans" talking about breaking the cycle of reactive parenting.

The Anxious Generation, I didn't read this book but I did watch a documentary called The Social Dilemma tapping into how social media websites are designed to keep people interacting as much as possible. It also talked about how AI behind sites like Facebook can know things about your personality, interests, people who are likely to get into a relationship based on their interactions, if you're struggling with mental illness, etc. The answer to this problem? Don't let your kids be glued to electronic devices or even have social media for a long time. I mean hell my 8 year old son has a friend in his class who already has a Facebook. Like really, why just why?

As for The Explosive Child, based on some comments she's made, general vibes their kids give off in how they react to certain things and behave, etc. It is not difficult to guess which child this is. There are also plenty of easy solutions to this problem, like teaching your child what the word no means. But we're not there to see or hear everything, I'm going based off of what had been observed from publicly available videos, posts, etc.

To define Reactive Parenting as a synopsis from this site here,

"Reactive parenting is a parenting style where the parent’s reactions are primarily driven by their strong emotions toward a child’s behaviors rather than a thoughtful understanding of the situation. Reactive parenting is characterized by the following.

* Emotions such as anger, frustration, and fear drive impulsive responses.

* Over-reactive, punitive, aggressive, and explosive reactions.

* Yelling, threats, punishment, or bribes.

* Lack of self-control.

* Inconsistency in reactive discipline is confusing for the child.

* Focus on immediate control rather than teaching the child or the long-term results.

Then here are 10 examples also from the same website as to what reactive parenting is:

* Yelling or screaming at the child

* Punishing out of anger

* Reacting physically, such as spanking or grabbing a child in anger

* Using shaming or name-calling

* Resorting to threats or ultimatums

* Getting easily frustrated and snapping at the child over small issues

* Caving in to whining or giving in to tantrums

* Making fake promises

* Feeling personally attacked or insulted by a child’s misbehavior

* Making sarcastic or hurtful comments in response to a child’s behavior

Now, I'm not gonna sit here and say that any parent is perfect. Everyone had moments where they don't react the best to situations and we all have our boiling points. Based on other clips like from the FanX or Atlanta con or maybe even Scotland in a panel Gen and Jared did together, it is clear both Jared and Gen probably have issues disciplining their kids at times. One of the comments made was sobering to the effect of "this is what it's like trying to discipline our kids at home" in a joking manner. I can't for the life of me recall which panel it was but I know it was a more recent one.

Also, if we want to talk about how the boys don't seem to really like being filmed especially Tom, that bizarre vampire cake Odette got for her birthday that doesn't look child appropriate in my personal opinion or even how Gen admitted she lets Odette be mean to Shep from being a sensitive oddball, it's clear to me Gen is permissive yet also strangely territorial against Jared to the point where it seems he doesn't even fit in at home. Just like everyone else, I do have my opinions on raising kids even if they're not mine because guess what? All kids grow up and are meant to be productive members of society, I'd like to see as many of them grow up to be healthy, well rounded individuals who contribute to society as possible. Isn't that what we all want?

Good for Gen on admitting to her flaws as a parent on multiple occasions, seeing something is wrong with what you're doing and admitting to it is the first step to addressing a problem. But seriously, I say she needs to stop airing her dirty laundry and frankly, not everything is meant to be some monetizing opportunity.

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Now onto your comments about being with someone with depression and/or anxiety and suicidal ideation. I know I know, it's all just a chemical imbalance right? (Sarcasm to be duly noted here). Gen admitted to having some issues with anxiety in the Rise Together podcast she did in Nov 2020 with Dave Hollis I've mentioned several times lately ha ha. I am going to say no it really isn't that hard, especially if she supposedly has anxiety like he does. She should have some better grasp on his issues as his wife than she does, let alone more than the average person. She made it pretty clear she's very tone deaf when it comes to Jared. Don't get me started on her yellow sticky note talking about "the empaths" and whatnot from this post she made below. It honestly isn't THAT hard to be with someone who has depression or suicidal ideation at times. I think with suicidal ideation people get very uncomfortable when they hear someone thinking about it. I understand why as this is something a professional should deal with but in all honesty, sometimes what these people need is a listening ear.

It's ironic you mentioned the letter Sandy wrote about their breakup as I'm aware she ended up getting her Masters degree in Psychology per her Etsy page. She also sells some sensory kits which seems to stem back to her interests in psychology. It is slightly ironic she is Jared's ex fiancé, got her masters in Psychology and we're talking now about how hard it apparently must be for Gen to be with Jared given his history with mental illness. Ironic given the black magic stuff, how him and Gen met merely within 2 months after he and Sandy broke up, etc. and the educational background she now has. Hmmmm... did Gen's black magic result in this "surprise in the bag" (referring to what that psychic guy I mentioned before said about sorcerers, black magic, and how higher powers always throw in these surprises for them "be careful what you wish for") because Gen's black magic actually "took" Jared away from someone who was maybe a little more better suited for Jared than she is? And now the struggles she must have marrying into these problems. By the way, I was told on a side note Jared and Sandy aren't true love soulmates either but that Sandy would've still been a better fit for him. It could however in a way be said that maybe Sandy's life is more simple and seems overall at least somewhat happy from what I've seen on her posts, where she's at in life and whatnot. I think things with Jared may have ended up less tumultuous if he were with Sandy instead but at the same time we always have a choice in how we behave. We may not always be in control of what emotions arise from things but we all can 100% control HOW we react to things, which I think is a lesson both Gen and Jared have yet to learn (and was implied in the reactive parenting book choice she chose to picture in her story and is trying to monetize off of).

Now with the most recent book post I provided screenshots of below funnily enough, this wasn't something she underlined but it is relevant to the black magic stuff I was talking about. In one of the screenshots from the post she made the other day from the book it says: "This shame is wrapped up with the morality of the sins and baked into our culture, invisible to our eyes. I believe envy is at the crux of woman-on-woman conflict, the unleashing that pulls us back from expression. It may seem unyielding but it's a spell we can break: we need to examine the instinct then unbuckle the col-..." and stops there. It's a spell we can break. Hmmm... funny page to post given the timing of my making these posts about her black magic. Of course this isn't the context from the book but I just found the timing to be rather funny and how she picked that page to take a photo of and post. As for what she sacrifices and whatnot, she lives a very comfy lifestyle and has nannies to help with the kids. Only thing she sacrifices is freedom due to having kids. See Gen, isn't the idea of having more kids just silly at this point? Sure it would be nice to have that kind of lifestyle (oh no ENVY on my part) but I do not see what else I would have to ENVY her about lol.

I remember one conversation I had with my grandmother years ago before she passed away when I was having some issues with my own mom. She talked to me some about how when she came to America from India after marrying my grandfather, she knew next to nothing about sewing, cooking, raising kids, etc. She had to learn real quick after she started having kids and said that my oldest aunt helped her with the rest of the kids (my mom is the youngest of 10 along with her twin sister, my aunt!). Now THIS is sacrifice to me on my grandmother's part and my aunts. She was trying to convey the point that parenting is hard and to try giving my mom some slack on things.

For a bit of some backstory, She grew up in India back when it was taken over by Great Britain and the British families were given Indian servants. Now, families like my grandmother's hid their Indian ancestry or didn't talk about it because of this lifestyle they were given. Point is, my grandmother lived a relatively comfortable lifestyle prior to coming to the USA and had to sacrifice her lifestyle in India to move to the USA with my grandfather and start a family. I'm aware Gen comes from a wealthy family and has a more parallel movement socially if not upward. I'm not sure what she sacrificed as it seems she enjoyed being pregnant and talks a lot about how her source of strength is in being a mother and such. Hmm...

With Jared and Gen, true love soulmates/divine matches my ass, they definitely aren't. You don't need to be a psychic or have any intuitive gifts to see that if you look closely enough. I laugh when people say they clearly have a rock solid marriage because of you know enough about them, it starts to become clear as day that's not the case. Jared definitely is a very good man, even if he comes with a lot of baggage. I think even though he has many great qualities (very kind, affectionate, supportive, wealthy come on I had to lol, handsome), he also is flawed like anyone else. I think the mental health issues he has however serve as a deterrent for a lot of people. We also can't forget how he has in the past doxxed customer service people online and has said some rather mean stuff about others, which maybe why Charlie and such takes over his page at times.

I am curious about your comment regarding Jensen using Danneel in his agenda to take over the SPN brand. I will say a lot of people blame Danneel for how things with The Winchesters went down and for announcing it publicly when it was announced. They also blame her for starting off Prequelgate. The reality is, it was going to be announced at some point no matter what day they picked. Jensen should've talked to Jared about his plans from the get go and not later, but what do I know? It's debatable as to whether Jared really knew nothing about the show prior to it being announced or not, and also how much of this was Jensen or Danneel's fault. I personally think Jared should've talked to Jensen behind closed doors about it instead of taking it to Twitter but hey I guess he needed to rant, right? Can't blame him for feeling at least left out of this one but then again, I find it interesting Jared came up with the idea for Walker first before Jensen ever came up with the idea for The Winchesters. Jared already had a deal to do Walker before Jensen did for The Winchesters, let alone before Chaos Machine Productions ever came into existence. I say things do not add up publicly as to who is to blame here honestly but I think it boils down to bad communication on all parts. It's also up for debate about Jensen taking over the SPN brand as there's things he's done that suggest this is true. For example, getting the FBBC LLC registered and trademarked back in about 2014 or 2015 before they opened doors on 2018. Also doing The Winchesters could be another one but then again Jared had his Walker deal first and was hoping Jensen would play Cordell. I can't seem to find a source for this but some peeps told me Jensen told Jared he isn't interested because he didn't care for the script, but he did show up for a cameo and ended up directing an episode of Walker. Then there is the whole YANA versus AFK stuff that went on back in 2016 which was at the very least questionable.

I do love your sentiment Anon that even if they aren't soulmates you wish them well anyways as individuals (no sarcasm here, I promise). I can never condone the idea of parents staying together for the sake of the children. Happily married, yes unhappily no. If there are fundamental differences that are leading a married couple to be unhappy, it isn't gonna work. Kids do eventually figure out mom and dad aren't good together if they aren't. It always trickles down to the kids when parents aren't happily married. I think there are definitely worse people out there and far worse parents who do horrific things to their kids. However, I can't say Gen is a great parent but maybe a more average parent or so coming from an objective point of view.

Thank you for the wonderful thoughts and having this conversation with me Anon. And also thank you for taking the time to read my long response ha ha. I hope this post gives some more insights as well, even though we don't entirely agree on everything.

#anti genevieve #sandra mccoy #pada marriage is a mess #black magic #divination #psychic #spn family #jared critical

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Post S3 Billy lives AU except the Mindflayer’s control cause traumatic brain injury which results in Post-Traumatic Epilepsy. (read more about pte here)

before I start just want to clarify that most of these are based on MY personal journey with epilepsy, and it may look different for other people 🤷‍♀️

some hcs:

He lives with Steve after he wakes up from the coma, bc he couldn’t go back to living with Neil. How the hell would he explain anything? He’s drowning in NDAs that say he can’t talk about any of it, but Steve already knows. Plus big empty house = perfect.

The first seziure doesn’t happen until about 2 weeks after everything’s calmed down. He’s just going about his morning routine, eating breakfast, when he blacks out. The next thing he knows is some random dude in a paramedic uniform asking stupid ass questions like “What’s his name” and “Who’s the president”. He’a able to answer most of them, but they still take him to the hospital.

Cue four weeks of various MRIs and EEGs (who knew there was a 48-hour EEG where he had to take home a weird looking tv thing?) He’s diagnosed with PTE and put on a new anticonvulsant. They also transfer his primary care to someone whose actually in the know about the UD, and it starts to kind of work as a form of therapy since he has to go once every month at first.

Steve becomes UNBEARABLE after his diagnosis. Any sudden noises Billy makes result in a frantic and terrified Steve barging in and asking if he’s okay (no matter where Billy is, including the bathroom).

They learn about absence seziures and wham. Suddenly any time Billy spaces out thinking about something, whether it’s a car problem he’s trying to fix or disassociating after a nightmare, Steve instantly thinks he’s having a seizure and yelling at Billy. Eventually they come to an understanding, Billy acknowledging that it’s Steve’s way of expressing his care, while Steve learns to calm his reactions to just a verbal confirmation.

Billy has to sell his Camaro. It was a really depressing moment but he’s not legally allowed to drive it and won’t be anytime soon, so it’s not worth the upkeep. He cried for two nights straight.

The most embarrassing moment of Billy’s life is the first time he has a seizure in front of the kids. He’s worried he’s traumatised the poor kids who’ve already gone through so much. Until Dustin makes a stupid joke and everyone laughs it off.

He still does pull Max aside and talk to her personally because she’s taking it the hardest. He’s embarrassed so it starts off aggressive as hell, just all blustering and “Don’t treat me like fucking glass Maxine, I’m fucking fine.” But after they scream at each other for a minute, Max just starts… sobbing, and Billy realizes that “oh shit she really does actually care” It’s the real turning point in their relationship (although they have a long way to go)

He never really goes into a like ‘remission’ period, but he learns what will push him over the edge. No weed (he’s a little sad, but he finds he doesn’t need the escape as much now that Neil isn’t there). He gets sleep and eats regularly. Absolutely NO flashing lights (even slower ones tend to give him at least a migraine). Diligently takes his meds everyday. He’s never 100% seziure free, but the time between them grows until it’s been years between them.

He gets an alert dog, and it gives him a little more comfort. He’d been crashing on Steve’s couch for a while because everyone’s scared of him living alone, but he used the money from selling the Camaro to purchase a golden retriever named Fitz because the agency has a terrible sense of humor.

Max is constantly coming up with new stupid metaphors for having a seizure. The top one is still currently “his brain deciding to do the worm for no reason.”

Once the time between seizures goes from months to years, he’s able to get his license again and he packs up a small picnic, gets Fitz in Steve’s mom van, and goes to the Quarry for the first time in a long time. The peace is nice.

#harringrove headcanon #billy hargrove #billy hargrove headcanon #again this is based on MY personal journey with epilepsy (i have a different type but it’s actually p close to late pte symptom wise?)#this is just straight up projecting on a blorbo oops #post traumaic epilepsy #traumatic brain injury #tw pte #tw tbi #tay writes #this got kind of long sorry

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maii-mia · 3 months

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Please help me get away from my abusive family.

I'm in desperate need for help and advice. I'm from Egypt, going to be 22 in March, and I'm currently stuck in a really abusive family situation in which my worth is based on my uni results.

My (quick and condensed) backstory is that since I was very young I've been raised to be a doctor, I've always been a good student even ranking top 3 in my school and working my hardest despite being a victim of continued SA which, amongst other things, led me to be very suicidal and start to self harm, but being good in school was one of the things I could control and which made me feel acknowledged by my parents so I tried my hardest to keep up my grades. When it comes to Egypt the points you get with your diploma are going to be what will determine which uni you'll be able to join, and to get in a public med uni you'd have to get +98% while instead I got 94,7%. From here on everything started to get much worse with my family and I heard so much verbal abuse that completely destroyed the remaining self worth I had, even after I was already manipulated into thinking I could be a doctor or nothing. Because of my family thinking of me as an "investment", my grandpa decided to pay for my uni tuition, which my parents wouldn't have been able to afford, and just like that I entered a private uni for pharmacy, because 95% was the minimum acceptance for med so I couldn't go towards that path regardless. I had no choice but to accept my grandpa's money and start uni regardless because no other option was given to me with my parents telling me I would've been an embarrassment for the family in front of everyone if I didn't. Even though I was doing horribly mental health wise and I felt completely trapped I did what I thought I had to do and did my best in uni and passed the first semester even though I could tell immediately that the courses weren't for me and I was having a really hard time following, unfortunately in the second semester everything got much harder and I didn't pass two subjects no matter how hard I tried. I thought the world was falling directly on my shoulders and I didn't know what to do, I was afraid of telling my family because of my own safety and because I felt like a disappointment, and even more because you have to pay for summer course and to retake the exams and I knew they wouldn't have had the money, which I'm aware isn't my responsibility because I wasn't given an option but in abusive situations everything is made to be your fault. I was completely stuck just trying to survive so I didn't say anything and I entered second year and I took the subjects I didn't pass as an off semester subjects alongside with the ones that were already part of the first semester of the second year. Unfortunately that year I lost my grandma because of covid and everything just kept getting worse, my family wasn't doing well because of her passing and I was already doing horribly and struggling, after I kept failing subjects and didn't say anything because now along with the problems already existing I also felt guilty to add to my grandma's passing. Before the second semester of the second year started I got robbed while coming back from uni and I think my brain just shut down from then because I was just too overwhelmed and I got even more suicidal, I stopped going to uni without saying anything and I would just hide in the roof, of course that couldn't keep me safe forever but I wasn't in my right mind at all. When my parents found out things somehow just got even worse, there was so much crying and shouting and verbal and physical abuse and I stayed in bed for 3 days from shock, from then my parents just keep giving me ultimatums not because they want to give me more chances but just because they're ashamed of me and I just don't know what to do anymore, I am not in the right state of mind and I am afraid for my safety, I don't know how to survive anymore in this same cycle and unfortunately I just can't just start passing subjects with something I was forced to study that I find impossible to learn especially when I'm this low.

Currently I got the results from this semester and I failed 2 subjects while passing 3, it's just a matter of time before before they find out and I am so scared for my safety and what they will do to me, especially my dad and grandpa. I have no one to ask here and I've just been talking about this with my internet friend and trying to brainstorm what I could do, would asking for donations/opening a fund help in any way for me to get out of here? Or at least buy myself some time? I would have to open a bank account for that to happen first though. I don't know what to do which is why I'm trying anything and I made this account to ask here too, please any advice would be welcomed

I’m desperate to reach anyone that could help in any way, here are other platforms in which you can find me/boost my posts: reddit / tiktok / instagram

#abuse #abusive family #egypt #asking for advice #donations #signal boost #please help #help #boost #emergency

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c-h-pictures · 1 year

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TCG Boys' Night but everyone's a little tipsy

Kaveh: Oh and uhh... The guy that lives down the road and owns a spaniel - what's his name?

Alhaitham: I have no idea who you're talking about.

Cyno: Daniel.

Tighnari, barely conscious: Oh, yeah, I know Daniel - wh - no! Shut up!

Kaveh: *coughing violently for no apparant reason*

Alhaitham: *talking over him*

Tighnari: Did you know there's a mind control fungus called -

Cyno: Cordyceps, we know, you bring it up every other conversation.

Tighnari: AND I WILL KEEP DOING SO UNTIL A HUMAN RENDITION OF IT EVOLVES AND IT TAKES OVER YOUR BRAIN SPECIFICALLY!

Kaveh: Why are you so mad today?

Tighnari: I was up all night because of an argument I wasn't even involved in.

Cyno: Tighnari! We just got out, where are you hiding?

Tighnari: *face down on the table*

Kaveh: Is he alive?

Alhaitham: *drops a workbook on Tighnari's back*

Tighnari: Mmmm...

Alhaitham: Yes.

Tighnari, sat behind the art stand at the arts & culture festival: Am I even allowed to be here? I'm not on the register for helping out.

Kaveh: You're my friend and I'm the organiser, it's fine. I'll let you sit underneath it and hide from the world if you need. And if you want to contribute to the stall, I can teach you how to make people's names fancy.

Tighnari: I don't want to be in the building - Cyno, stop taking all of the baklava, it's not for you.

Cyno: I'm not running any of the stalls, so technically it is. We'll make a deal, you'll stop getting mad at me for eating it and I'll cover for you skipping Maths.

Tighnari: I never mentioned skipping Maths.

Cyno: You look like you're about to cry and Maths is your hardest. And you've missed 3 homeworks that I know still aren't done.

Alhaitham, also eating from the food stand: I'm not coming up with an excuse for Kaveh skipping Maths.

Kaveh: How dare you?

[The day after the intruder alarm test interrupted a lesson]

Cyno: How are you after yesterday?

Tighnari: I'm only here because we're doing a practical, if we weren't, I'd be working from home.

Cyno, patting him: Okay.

Tighnari, elbows on the table, glaring at the knife in Cyno's hand: Fuck you. You're shit. It's an onion. Why can't you cut a fucking onion?

Tighnari: Kaveh! Are you done with your knife?

Kaveh: No.

Tighnari: All you're doing is scraping it into the beaker, you can use your finger for that! Give!

Kaveh, scared: Okay.

Tighnari, taking the other half of the onion: Archons, this one's shit too. I could cut this faster with my fingertips. And I do mean the actual skinned padded part.

Cyno: Never use skinned in that context again, that was a horrendous visual.

Fire alarm goes off

Tighnari:

Tighnari: I'm going to kill the person that decided to test these the day after each other.

Cyno: Don't say that with a knife in your hand!

Tighnari: This knife won't do shit to a human!

Tighnari: We should've brought the onion and the cuttings boards with us. Wait for them to sort things out, sit in the corner of the car park cutting on the ground.

Cyno: We wouldn't have been allowed to.

Tighnari: What were they gonna do? Tell us to go back into the building?

Alhaitham, watching the timer on his phone: Ours is already in the water bath.

Tighnari: How? Your knife was just as shit as ours.

Kaveh: We gave up after getting a quater of the onion cut.

Cyno: Why didn't we do that?

Tighnari: Because I'm now adamant to cut a whole onion with these knives to prove that they could've done it.

Tighnari: Why are they making us go through reception? Why can't we just - *realisation* shit, they're checking IDs.

Cyno: Why 'shit'?

Tighnari: I have my ID over my jacket because I don't like the feel of it against my neck. The jacket which I took off to put the lab coat on.

Alhaitham: Did you leave your ID in class?

Tighnari: Yeah...

Alhaitham: Ah, hope they don't hold you back for too long.

Kaveh: ...

Alhaitham: Did you leave yours as well?

Kaveh: Yep.

Alhaitham: Well, that's your issue.

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9, 14, 18, 37 for the ask meme!

ooh Dal I hope you're ready for this...

Which fic has been the hardest to write?

Tea with Topsy. Hands down. I have others I struggled with for longer, but Topsy had a schedule and I would spend hours just trying to think through the hows and whys and who's doing whats of that fic so I could keep it straight in my head (unlike Megamind and Roxanne, wahey!) while trying to post regularly and not fuck myself by having something happen and accidentally cut a chunk of story because of it.

What’s the worst writing advice you’ve ever come across?

Cut everything that doesn't advance the plot.

Seriously WHY would you say that? Maybe this is because I'm primarily a fanfic writer but what the fuck? Half the time the plot is the LEAST interesting thing about a story! Because here's the secret. Unless your characters are on a QUEST, they don't know there is a plot. They are just trying to live their lives and thinking about what comes in two days, two weeks, two months. When the plot arrives it is a Disruption! And if you don't let your characters react or crash and burn or give them enough time to actually show WHY they are people who make bad or selfish or pointless decisions, you wind up with a very boring story or characters acting OOC just to move the plot along and I swear this is where half the "If I was X character I would simply not make X decision" comments. You need to give your story time to BREATHE.

Your characters do not know they are in a story. They are not going to think like a reader and as a writer you need to give them follow through so they are not little puppets getting pushed around a stage. It's like punching someone, you don't aim for their nose, you aim two inches past it.

Do you use any tools, like worksheets or outlines?

I use dot points. Usually when I realise I've written myself into a corner and have to figure out how to get out again. I have also been known to rough draft plot points a la gossip style story telling (hi Rings!) but that happens less than you'd think. I am not good at planning, but I like making sure I set something up before I knock it down so my brain and I mostly agree to disagree.

Talk about your current wips.

I...all of them? Ohhkay oh fuck alright I can do this. There are six open on my laptop right now. I'm gonna start with them.

Lindworm: You know the story of the lindworm? Woman wants a baby, fucks up the instructions, has a perfect child and also a dragon. And oops they're all grown up now and dragon wants a bride? (Or possibly a snack. He's kind of into eating people). But the bride wears numerous dresses and convinces the lindworm he can eat her if he takes off a skin for each dress she removes and by the time they're down to the last she washes him with milk and lye and wraps him in her arms and breaks the curse and he becomes a man again?

Yeah we're doing that with Megamind. Also there may be an AU I'm leaving a trapdoor for myself with where Roxanne fucks Dragon!mind after a few sheds. Haven't decided yet. Should I?

Consolation prize: I don't remember why I called it tha- oh wait yes I do. This is a gift fic I've been poking away at with a prompt for really inhuman Megamind being the one to rescue Roxanne and show why he's the big boss in town and he's ashamed he's not human enough but she embraces him anyway and they're incredibly tender with one another.

And...look. You know me. I don't really do easy comfort. There's something about trauma that makes me go "You cannot pivot straight into comforting someone while you're in the middle of a perfectly reasonable panic attack of your own. You gotta let your characters breathe and cry for a bit before they can have emotionally healthy conversations. But I'm trying! And everyone's probably going to be in shock anyway so we'll let that carry the emotional baggage. Also it is very tender in a let me wash the blood off your face kind of way. I should actually have it finished soon which is exciting.

Tea with Topsy (part 2): Not actually part 2 I just got sick of scrolling every time I opened it so I put all the published stuff into another document. It's technically on hiatus still but I'm finding it a lot more pleasant to work on when I'm not trying to keep to a schedule. There's lots of smut coming, some Megamind being threatening, and some Roxanne being sneaky (if we're lucky they might even say "I love you" this year) and Minion being best henchfish to ever hench. Plus plot! And emotional breakdowns! And more strawberry icecream!

Oil and Water: Okay that one's just smut. I'm aiming for 1000 words per chapter for the next couple of chapters and its really just Megamind and Roxanne exhibition hours and an idea I've had FOREVER about them getting busted. But they're having fun and that's what's important. (poor Warden better hope he never finds out what happened in his office).

Party Dress: Okay so! Did you know whatever Megamind fic goes up next on AO3 is going to be my 50th? Because that was a shock! And what is being human for except to ascribe random numbers pointless meaning, so I had to make it something special. I toyed with the idea of getting Paperwork Polycule or Blue Ruin started but they still need more work than I have the brain for so instead I decided it was time I actually finished the very first piece of Megamind fanfic I started!

It's a cute oneshot fairly early on where Megamind and Minion run into Roxanne who is avoiding the crowds at the Mayor's annual Christmas Party and they offer her a ride home. It was the first place I came up with a lot of fun/silly ideas that I'm sure people will be able to draw comparisons to other fics I've written when I post it.

Kittens: Roxanne discovers a box of abandoned kittens on her way to work and takes them home. Megamind appears, very annoyed she missed their appointment ("What appointment?" "The one where I kidnap you of course!" "Oh that. Pass" "Pass? What you can't just pass! This is a kidnapping!" "Sh! I'm busy.") And she shanghais him into watching them while she goes to get pet supplies.

There is purring.

As for the rest!

*deep breath* this part comes with musical accompaniment to set the mood

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Blue Ruin - The 1920's Megamind is a mobster, Roxanne is a club singer AU.

A Cunning Disguise - Spy AU, Megamind and Roxanne are undercover as newlyweds trying to put a stop to...something (look its about the TENSION alright? What's important is how many times they have to kiss to throw someone off their trail)

Barley - aka 5 times Roxanne and Megamind wound up playing schoolyard games as he tried to kidnap her (chasey, hide and seek, dodgeball, nerf wars, the floor is lava etc)

Birthday Cakes - An Umbrella Academy fic where they find The Women's Weekly book of birthday cakes and insist they each finally deserve a proper one

Bluestocking - Working title, Regency AU where Roxanne is trying to keep her family estate and winds up married to Megamind for half historical scandal half revange reasons. They fall in love.

Catherine Wheel - Angst. Something goes wrong, Megamind gets injured, Roxanne yells her feelings, possibly everyone dies?

Chains - Megamind and Roxanne escape the Doom Syndicate and wind up in a safehouse that's really more of an abandoned garage for the night. Oh and they're handcuffed together.

Chicken - Megamind and Wayne team up to invite Roxanne to a threesome

Chunk! - Wayne punches Megamind and bends his ventral piercings. Roxanne has to but them out with a boltcutter. Edging for everyone!

Noone calls you Honey - TECHNICALLY complete but I have an idea for a later scene that involves Wayne fighting a speedster supervillain and Roxanne rescuing other damsels so its staying in the WIPs until I decide what to do with it.

Con Crunch - Roxanne sneaks into a Villain con, Megamind catches her and passes her off as his protege.

Dear Diary - The WIP title for Wait a Minute! Where Roxanne and Megamind are trapped in a time bubble for 30 days. Actual future chapters are drafted because I finally got the angsty one finished!

Dinner and Goodnight kisses - Actually cut from Topsy due to emotional damages. Roxanne asks Megamind to be her fake date for dinner, which he accepts. But she accidentally mistakes someone else for him instead. Cue betrayal, misery, and an apology dinner of takeaway thai food on her couch. And kisses.

Falling - Roxanne and Megamind have a ”one time thing” out of curisoity/boredom/horny. But it keeps happening. And so do feelings

Family dinner - Roxanne asks Megamind to be her date to her monthly family dinner with the horrible side of the family in the hopes she'll be banished.

Free on saturday? - 5 times Roxanne made Megamind be her fake date (and one time it wasn't fake at all) This one I borrowed some of my own family traditions and I will probably be a blubbery mess when I actually write the rest of it but its still tender right now since my Opa passed away.

Fly me to the moon - Once upon a time Nickel and I agreed to an exchange where she asked for Megamind and Roxanne meeting as adults. I had two ideas, one was Back of Beyond (which I'm delighted you enjoyed) and the other is this, Roxanne is a junior reporter kidnapped by a couple of of aliens and is being kept in their spaceship on the other side of the moon while they try to figure out how to ransom her for the fuel they need to get back to the rest of the galaxy. Also Wayne is a space cop. Mostly made of teeth. And Minion's robot body turns into a motorcycle.

Formal Wear - The continuation and the prequel of A Formal Affair, where Megamind and Roxanne start their little getaways and also Wayne finally gets the courage up to ask to be the wall they fuck against.

Gloves are off - There is a trend for hero and villain themed onlyfans. Roxanne gets asked to do a story on some of them and finds one account that does a really good Megamind impression. Like REALLY good.

Hadestown - A 13/Dhawan!Master Dr Who Hadestown AU where the Doctor is Persephone and the Master is Hades

Into Temptation - The next installment of the Crowded House collective. Its the night before a very big event and Roxanne asks Megamind to visit...(soft angst, smut and feels)

Intruder Window (my working titles are so I can save the doc, not because I know what I'm doing) - The Tapetum Lucidum series. I hope you're ready to get laid

Mentality Machine Misfire - Prequel to Rings. What did happen when Megamind and Roxanne wound up as Brain-bots?

Mer couture - The sequel to Haute Water. (I blame @kizzyanel) I'm waiting on the next Met Gala for more inspiration because at the moment its just Megamind and Minion pleasing Roxanne in the bath.

Mistress Roxanne - Megamind runs into Roxanne in a dungeon and finds out he has a hitherto undiscovered sub streak a mile wide. Sexy shenanigans ensue.

Nails - A Nails AU based on the short story from Round the Twist. There are mermaids.

Never drink alone - Wayne Megamind and Minion all get absolutely trashed on a particular cocktail at a Scott Family party (so much for that evil plan) a none to sober herself Roxanne has to wrangle them back to Wayne's room and keep them there till they all sober up. No one has a filter. Also truth or dare.

Noticeable - Pride and Prejudice AU - Mary asks Kitty for help to make her beautiful enough Mr Collins will ask her to marry him. Mostly about sisterly bonding.

Nowhere to run - Roxanne stumbles on Megamind right after he accidentally kills someone in self defense. She takes him home and cleans him up and keeps his secrets.

Operation Seduction - Wayne and Roxanne are fuckbuddies who team up to seduce Megamind.

Paperwork Polycule - Roxanne marries all her aliens to make sure they don't get deported. of course this means they have to live together for a year and oh dear what feelings are these? (Wayne and Minion have the most helpless crushes on each other).

Penelope - A Penelope/Colin Bridgerton story about Penelope writing a vicious takedown of herself as Whistledown and the fallout as the Bridgerton family comes to her defence.

Prime numbers - It's not even a real kiss! Just a kiss on the cheek because they were both laughing at the brainbot tangled in mistletoe. So why is Megamind running in a panic and who is Roxanne going to have to kill for making him feel like he's not even allowed such a small gesture of affection?

Roxanne is dead - (thrilling title I know) Except she's not, she's hiding in the Lair from everyone while the rest of the world THINKS she's dead. Megamind included. A lot of angst and slow feels

Same time next week - Megabyte and Dot don't intentionally make a habit of running into one another at Al's diner. But it keeps happening (will end in alley sex)

Selkie - Roxanne's greatest secret is her pelt. When her house is robbed and Megamind returns it to her, any number of strange things about her suddenly start to make sense. (Also there are whiskery seal kisses)

Six of Crows Bar and Restaurant - A slice of life AUabout the Six of crows but as restaurant workers

Speed Chess - A Queens Gambit oneshot about playing speedchess in the park

Table for Two - Sarcasm serves Megamind and Roxanne well when instead of the evil plan that was supposed to be happening, Minion has arranged...dinner?

Tattoo Roses - The flowershop/Tattoo parlour AU that I will have more than just slice of life scenes if I ever figure out how

The inherent evil of turtlenecks - Bernard is back and he is out for revange! Unfortunately Megamind has found his greatest weakness, advice on how to be a better supervillain. Homoeroticism and evil plans abound.

The Morning after - Roxanne and Megamind run into each other out of town and wind up spending the night together. What's going to come of this neither of them know.

Please Break Me Gently - Megamind collapses four steps into Roxanne's apartment after the Black Mamba fight. An adult retelling of what happens next with all the bruises left in.

The Vast of what comes after - A Vast of Night continuation of how and where Faye and Everett and Maddy come back.

Tofu - Megamind steals Roxanne's lunch one day and discovers tofu is an aphrodisiac to his species. Roxanne offers to help out

Toy Room - Megamind has a sex room built during his villainous days. Roxanne finds it. Fun times ensue.

Tryst in me - Sequel to "She's all out to get you" Wayne Megamind and roxanne have got a pretty good handle on how to run her city. But Roxanne really can't stop thinking about Megamind's hands. She decides to do something about it. (the something is Megamind)

Up n at em - Also technically finished but I have a sequel chapter about how they fell in love and how it was Roxanne and Minion first.

Voyager - Yes the one you used to write Embers to Ashes. the line "These are supposed to be gills!" still lives rent free in my head so its becoming a post movie angstfest at some point.

Waltz - Megamind finds Roxanne sneaking around at a party. The price for his silence? A dance.

Who bit my familiar? - A WWDITS story about Guillermo waking up a vampire.

You must be this tall to fire the giant laser - Megamind accidentally shrinks Roxanne down to 5 years old. Chaos ensues.

*falls over gasping* And there you have it! That music was in my head the ENTIRE time I was writing this out. (sometimes I really do have to wonder if I don't have some kind of ADHD)

Also thank you for making me tidy up my WIP folder, it actually shrank because I stuffed all the random bits and pieces and all those "An Idea" minifics the server pulls out of me into one document so yay! (I did not do those, that would have been another 20 odd)

#Ask meme #holy cow that got long #thanks for the asks Dal!#Six of crows #Megamind #Dr Who #Hadestown #Pride and Prejudice #Bridgerton

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