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beenovel · 7 months

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Pro tip for people looking for meds or diagnosis. DO NOT MASK in front of a psychiatrist. I went in for an evaluation with a new psychiatrist this week with the goal of getting meds and I was just fully myself during the interview like bouncing my knees, only looking at him occasionally, breaking off mid-sentence to ask about the room decor (“were you in the Air Force? That’s a really cool chess set. Is that a Star Wars tie????”). And he did not even hesitate when I told him I was there to get adderall or another med he was just like “yup makes sense, let’s talk about your options”.

In the past I’ve always really struggled (and still do!) with masking around other people especially if they’re new, and this has sometimes made it difficult to get meds because I mask so well that sometimes professionals haven’t believed me when I said I was struggling because I looked fine.

Edit: I’ve seen a lot of people saying “it’s so hard to unmask though!” and yeah, it is. For me it was physically painful and nearly impossible. So I faked it. I bounced my leg, I wouldn’t look the provider in the face, I interrupted myself, I rubbed my palms on my legs and none of it was natural. I faked it all. And I did that over and over and over until it was real. Until I was comfortable enough with being odd to actually unmask

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autismdogg · 3 months

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some of my stim toys 🌈☀️

#stim toys #stim tools #kidcore #stim #stimming #stimblr #fidget toys #fidget tools #actually autistic #autistic adult #adult audhd #rainbow aesthetic #rainbowcore #rainbow #agere #sfw agere #sfw agedre #adhd

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novastellavox · 6 months

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Small question for everyone with adhd and/or autism

This is for research purposes... pls share to get more votes on it

#adhd #living with adhd #adhd brain #actually adhd #asd #actually asd #autism #autistic experiences #autistic community #audhd #adult audhd

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smallgear · 2 months

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Ads don’t really work on me at all (yay autism) and I think because of that YouTube is convinced I actually don’t know any English so we’re trying different languages now. We’ve had Swiss German, Polish and Italian and now we’re trying (I think ) Serbian.

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exclusivelyhomosexual · 1 month

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I never understood the “autistics have a hard time with transitions” thing, bc doesn’t everyone have a hard time with transitions???

Yet I was only ever thinking about HUGE, life-altering transitions, like moving far away or having a kid, which is scary for anybody (but tbf autistics probably still rank higher on the “this is fucking terrifying” scale than allistics do).

But apparently, it also applies to the most basic transitions in day to day tasks. It’s harder for us to switch from one task to the next bc our brains generally function most efficiently when we are able to work in one uninterrupted segment on a task.

I’ve alwaysss struggled with this, especially when I need to use the bathroom - I will hold it for very long periods of time to avoid interruption in my task. For a while I thought it was just bc I also have adhd which causes lack of dopamine/executive dysfunction, and makes it difficult to *initiate* tasks. Which ofc plays a big part into it too. But I never knew it was a double whammy with the classic autism trait of “change and transitions are harder.” (Also the ignoring of my interoception doesn’t help with me avoiding using the bathroom)

#change is hard #transitions are hard #neurodivergent #neurodiverse stuff #self diagnosed autism #adult autism #autistic adult #autism #adult adhd #adhd brain #adhd #audhd #adult audhd #audhd brain #audhd problems #audhd things

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astrologicalz · 2 months

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Any other audhd people get irritable and don’t know why???

I wish I knew why so I could try help myself

#personal #actuallyautistic #adhd #audhd #neurodivergent #autism #autistic #actually audhd #adult audhd #actually autistic #adhd and autism #autistic and adhd

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yeenobabino · 2 months

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Having hyperfixations is hard because I either have to talk to my friends who don’t know what I’m talking about or I have to talk to my friend who is more hyperfixated than me and gets mad at me when I don’t know something or say something he doesn’t agree with.

I wish I knew someone who likes what I like and won’t start arguments about it.

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musingsofasubaudhd · 1 month

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So I've known about my autism and adhd, in general terms at least, for a long time. But the last 24ish hours I've spent going down the rabbit hole on here, learning about, and recognizing within myself, both executive dysfunction and rejection sensitivity dysphoria, as well as the ways autism and adhd play into each other. It's been truly eye opening.

#executive dysfunction #neurodivergent #adhd #actually adhd #rejection sensitive dysphoria #audhd #adult audhd #autism #adult adhd #living with adhd #rsd is a bitch #adhd rsd

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asassydork · 2 months

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I need job interview advice. I have 2 next week. 1 is for the municipal court system where I live. The other is a retail backup job that’s gonna have to just be a little money for right now.

But I could use any advice you’ve got for the neurospicy.

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autisticautismmom · 7 days

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#autisticmom #toddler mom #actually autism #actually audhd #adult audhd #audhd #autistic parenting

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beenovel · 21 days

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I dream of things, just like anyone else. The things I dream of are so far beyond my reach I may as well be dreaming of riding a dragon.

I dream of a body that does not hurt. I dream of a mind I can trust. I dream of a life where I don’t have to down medication the second I wake up. I dream of travel, without the worry of where I’ll get my medication, without the worry of how the new environment will hurt me. I dream of holding a steady job, of being able to provide for myself, something I may never have. I dream of going through my day without having to calculate how much energy each task will consume.

I will never have most of these things. They will never exist in my life. And that is harder to accept some days.

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grlfreak · 6 months

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i wish i wasn't audhd (autistic + adhd)... (cw: mention of SH involved meltdowns)

i wish i didn't hit my head when i'm upset. i wish i didn't punch my legs, slap my legs, hit my head, scratch, or bite myself when i'm in a meltdown. i wish my head didn't feel as if it were about to explode or that i need to do this to regulate my brain.

i wish i had a brain that wasn't so strict with deadlines, so rigid with rules, so tightly wound with expectations that if they aren't met, i wouldn't fly into an uncontrollable mess of emotions.

i wish i could have a brain that conceptualized things better. one that would make my parents proud, rather than irritated with me for a lack of "self control". i can't save money to save my life, i can't seem to keep a good routine, i can't lose weight (because i can't seem to eat healthy), i can't keep my apartment clean, etc.

i am a mess of a human being.

i'm supposed to be an adult and yet i mostly act like a toddler. i will scream and cry if my brain doesn't get what it wants immediately. people are constantly angry with me or irritated with me or upset with me over what feels like the most tedious minutiae of tasks, like sending a text "too early" or being "too demanding".

i'm too much to handle.

i'm so fucking tired of it. i just want to be normal. i'm tired. anyone who thinks people want to be autistic is kidding themselves.

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itsgivingautism · 3 months

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Bro the tism is tisming so hard today 😭😵‍💫🤯🫠

like apraxia of speech is kicking my ass 🫣😭

I’m not making any sense speaking but also I’m still hyperlexic and hyperverbal (with selective mutism) so I’m vomiting out words like it’s my fucking job. Fuck.

shit at least my typing okay.

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whatspringdoestothecherrytrees · 2 months

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A few weeks ago I was diagnosed with ADHD . . . after blowing off my doctor’s suggestions to get evaluated for 4 years.

I’m in a weird place of reflection I guess. For me, I feel lucky because my Autistic compulsions and rigid routines and operating procedures and notes and reminders and alarms have helped me mask the chaos of my ADHD executive function.

But I can look back now with more compassion on my 14-year-old self, who thought subjects that were too easy or lacked instruction weren’t worth the time, who would hyperfocus on a special interest for 18 hours straight, who had so many interests and creative passions, who taught herself javascript and built cringey little websites and DM’d her online (only) friends, and wandered in the woods reading and writing novels, and examining interesting rocks and making notes about animals. Who was then told she was “lazy” and “coasting” and “wasting her gifts” because of a B on a science test.

In that moment, 14 yo me swore that no one would ever have that kind of leverage over me again. I finished uni first in my class, 19 years old.

oh - and the 1st semester med school me, irritated about now-disproven science we were required to learn, who had 17 tabs of pubmed articles open during lecture, reading the original research that disproved the crap some lecturer was blabbing on about. Once we got into organ systems, and actual facts and math and physiology, your girl was crushing it.

And it all is making sense. I have learned so much about myself and I am able to learn better and manage my focus cycles better. Oh and it explains my addiction to (dopamine-boosting) running, and why I had to leave all social media in 2016.

My screentime is now < 60 minutes daily - no wonder that’s helped so much.

let’s see how microdosing adderall on key days helps with my hyper brain/

#personal #actually audhd #adult audhd #newly diagnosed #audhd brain #actuallyautistic

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exclusivelyhomosexual · 2 months

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It’s so damn fun being bored to literal tears and paralyzingly terrified of change

at the same. time.

#audhd #audhd problems #audhd things #adult audhd #audhd brain #audhd life #adhd and autism #neurodivergent #neurodiverse stuff

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astrologicalz · 3 months

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Sometimes I feel sooo irritable when I have to speak

Anyone else feel like this sometimes?

#personal #actuallyautistic #adhd #audhd #adult audhd #neurodivergent #autism #autistic #talking #semi verbal #nonverbal

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