#actually please tell me someone relates to this

[dreamauri]

♪ — 𝗪𝗜𝗥𝗘𝗗 𝗜𝗡? - part two max verstappen x reader (fluff) “. . . when he wants to be normal, he can count on you, stranger.”

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“Come on, you can’t say he has so much potential!” Max miserably tried to hold in his laughs as you continued your rant about how much better Max would look if he put a little more effort or thought in how he dressed. 

“I’m honestly starting to think he’s allergic to wearing anything . . . not Red Bull related. Like even in his streams! In his home!” 

Sitting in front of his laptop with a makeshift setup in the hotel room in Japan, Max found himself unwinding from the earlier media day when he gladly accepted to join you for a game of Fifa. It wasn’t until someone brought up Lewis’ outfit from this morning did you start your little ted talk. 

“La, please concentrate on the game, we’re losing!” he couldn’t stop laughing either so your team was toast either way. 

“No, because I bet he's wearing his Red Bull shirt right now wherever he is.”

The reason why Max was no longer able to hold it together was because he was indeed in a Red Bull shirt. He might actually take you up on being allergic to anything not associated with Red Bull.

“I’ll gladly design a few outfits for him, I swear!” 

“La-” Max put his face in his hands, shoulders shaking from laughter as his screen showed the opposing team scoring a goal. The dutch would usually feel frustrated if he were to be losing a Fifa game in any other situation, but not this one with you.

He's ready to lose and lose again, even give up his title as one of the world's top twenty Fifa players if he gets to spend time with you like this, laughing and joking; forgetting the world around, so it's just you and him.

Just two people . . . being people.

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“Since I have no one to show, you're stuck with me.” 

It’s kind of been a routine now, having a private call after a game or upon finding spare time. You two have gotten close. You even considered “amilian” to be a close friend, per say. A close friend who you regularly vent to about work or just randomly ask riddles or dad jokes to bother.

You enjoyed his company. He was a fun person to be around. He made you feel . . . yellow in a type of way too. You never felt left out or unheard. He always had time for you, it's like you were maybe gravitating to being more than close friends . . . it's not like you can do anything about it though.

Surely people make close friends online all the time. 

You stay up on your couch, scrolling through the settings of your laptop to show and rant despite having to get up in the morning. Max crossed his legs on his chair folding his arms and watching the screen as you messed around on your shared screen.

“La, it’s late.” He’s been trying to tell you for the past 10 minutes. It’s 6:30 in Japan, 7 hours ahead of the time in Paris, where you were. 

Not that he’s keeping track of the time where you were, it’s just that you shared the same time zone as Monaco, and he only had the GMT+2 clock displayed on his home screen because he needed to keep track of his cats . . .  not too make sure you got enough sleep or anything of that sort.

“It's only 11:30,” you shushed, pulling up pinterest. Max hung his head, trying to hold in his smile. “I could put together a whole outfit that would suit him right here and now,”

“La,” Max giggled watching you actually start to search and put things together. “I’ll make a deal with you, if you go to sleep, I'll try to get Max Verstappen in baggy jeans,” 

“WHAT?!” the blond flinched at the loud noise, looking around his hotel room to make sure no one heard anything -- despite him being alone. 

“You know I work in F1 right?” Max followed up, trying to hold in his smile at your silence. “La, you forgot?!” 

“I’m sorry!” you pleaded, holding your hands in a begging motion despite him not seeing anything.

Max put his hand on his chest and pretended to be offended when he was smiling really wide to the point his cheeks hurt. “My best friend doesn't know what I do for a living,” he gushed in fake hurt. 

Your mind blanked at the title. Best friend? 

“You do know what my job is, right, La?”

“. . .” You looked away embarrassed, you’ve known the guy for how long and don’t even know what his profession is. 

Max couldn’t stop his giggles. “Go to bed, La. I’ll get Max in baggy jeans for you.”

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“Hey um, million?” 

“I thought I told you to go to bed?” Max chuckled, crouched in front of his suitcase, digging through it in hopes to find a pair of baggy jeans or a white shirt that he probably doesn't own. 

“I am in bed technically . . .” The blond looked over to his laptop on his desk, the call still going. “You work in F1,” Max felt his heart jump in anxiety for a second, there's no way you figured him out. 

“Yeah?”

 “Well um . . . my boss chose me to go see how things were going with McLaren at the Monaco gp,” 

The dutch perked up at your announcement. “Really? That's great!” 

“Y-Yeah, it is,” you stuttered, agreeing. you crossed your arms, looking at the email congratulating you on your phone screen. “I mean, I'm glad, this is an experience of a lifetime. I get to drag along a few interns with me as well.” Max frowned, your tone did not match with the news you were announcing.

“What's wrong?” He got up, sitting on the desk chair, looking at your profile picture, the concern was clear in voice, as if you could feel him sitting beside you on your bed and gently rubbing your back to comfort you. 

“Well, I don't have anyone to go with - the interns don't count . . . and I don't know anyone in Monaco or the attendees-- except you technically . . . I haven’t been on my own for that long before,” you sighed.

Max furrowed his eyebrows, trying to decipher what you were asking of him.

“Is it-” you cut yourself of with a sigh. “Can I hang out with you sometime? During the weekend?” Max stayed silent, feeling his heart pounding to the point he was scared the organ would explode out of his chest. 

“I mean,” Max cleared his throat to hide the crack in his voice that arose from the anxiety he was drowning in. “I’m not traveling with the team every weekend, so I'm not sure if I'm going to be in Monaco . . . I’ll have to ask my boss.” he replied quietly and slowly, trying to comfort you still. “There’s still a few weeks before Monaco, so . . . I don’t know for sure.” He whispered, scratching the back of his head.

He was digging himself a grave. Asking Horner if he’s going to be in Monaco when he is the driver and already lives in Monaco? It’s too late now to be honest about who he is, he dug this hole himself and now he’s stuck in it.

It’s not like he can be like ‘oh, yeah of course you can hang out with me. Oh, I’m Max Verstappen by the way, the guy who’s driving the best car and winning all the races, so I can get you VIP tickets and a hot lap too if you want.’

“I’ll try my best to be there,” the blond whispered. You could almost feel him brushing your hair comfortingly. “We can get ice cream or go sightseeing. I know this really good cafe you’ll like . . .” Max will just have to keep digging his hole.

proof reading credits to the lovely and amazing @classiclitfreak <3

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[makelemonade]

Both the parts for people finding out we're dating the characters are so good! Can I please request you to include Wriothesley in the next part if you're writing it?

how people find out you’re dating them

Wriothesley, Capitano

Wriothesley

ONCE AGAIN THESE GODDAMN MELUSINES

Most specifically SIGEWINNE.

she’s such a cutie patootie. you just wanna eat her up whenever you see her! Sigewinne, the adorableness she is, is not the smartest.

Whenever you come down so often to come visit Wriothesely, she comments on how you are such a good friend to always keep him company! and you just can’t bear to explain to her that is not the case!

This goes on for A MONTH. A GODDAMN MONTH and she has not figured it out.

Even when she bursts into his office to find you maybe massaging his back, arms, hugging him, holding him- she is completely OBLIVIOUS to the point Wriothesly wants to test out kissing you in front of her.

However, her obliviousness comes to a stop one day and for the stupidest yet funniest reason;

He’s not drinking his tea.

She’s shocked. Like jaw dropped, absolutely still shocked. She’s constantly trying to get him to drink or EAT anything other than tea so when she sees him with a MILKSHAKE?! A FUCKING MILKSHAKE.

She’s ready to lose her shit.
and then she sees YOU with the opposite flavour milkshake and she immediately knows and screams it out for the ENTIRE prison to hear.

A prisoner comes in injured; “Have you heard Wriothesly and Y/N are together?!”

On her next vacation, she’s running to Neuvillette, Furina, Clorinde- EVERYONE.

Well, it was a month of peace.

Capitano

It’s funny because he genuinely isn’t even trying to hide it from the Harbingers.

He doesn’t not tell them because he’s worried for your safety- he’s the fourth fucking harbinger he will GLADLY beat anyone’s ass for you even if it means it’s his own coworkers.

The man just doesn’t talk. That’s literally why no one knows. Like yeah, he’ll murmur a few words every now and then but like, he doesn’t see a reason in bringing something up if someone doesn’t mention anything related so he stays quiet.

He does talk a bit more though, and he’s willing to actually sit with the harbingers whenever they sometimes hang out.

It’s weirding them out.

The weirdest thing though,

WEIRDEST.

Is when he speaks to Childe.

Even Childe is absolutely shocked- like what do you mean the guy he’s been like practically simping over fight wise is actually soeaking to him?!?!!!

They have to ask Pierro if he’s sick, and even Pierro doesn’t know and Pierro is the ONLY one capitano talks.

They literally find out from YOU.

You walked into the castle once, being escorted by a guard who is quick to leave once he’s finally let you reach the insides of the castle.

“Sorry to disturb,” You spoke nervously, somehow ending up in some sort of lounge room with the Harbingers. “I’ve brought lunch for my…boyfriend? Uh, Capitano? Do you know where I could find him?”

“Yeah, down the hall, first room on the left.” Arlecchino murmurs, reading through the latest Snezhnaya newspapers.

You smile at her, although she doesn’t see and everyone just returns back to normal.

Until they all realize WHO the hell are you and BOYFRIEND?!?

They all give each other a look before they are RUNNING to you, ready to ask questions and capitano is shocked when suddenly all the Harbingers are in his office and he knew he wouldn’t be able to stop them from questioning you on everything.

He likes the way you laugh at them all- it’s cute. He should bring you more often.

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[whathaveidonetoyou]

UGH I'm supposed to study but I can't focus because there's a song in my native language that I JUST can't listen to without relating back to the tboah timeline and the book.

Because: 1. The song's insistence that "Everything is part of the show" like y'know the book and how Cale was convinced that he was in a fictional world at first

2. The "show" not seeming quite right (or seeming 'dead') because tboah was written by Choi Jung Gun who isn't omnipotent and didn't actually know what everyone was thinking and wrote what he assumed they were thinking based on their actions and the events that surrounded them (he got some things right, he got some things wrong)

3. THIS

There are other things too, but I would have to write an essay.

PLEASE someone tell me im not crazy and this isn't the tcf obsession getting to my head!!!

The song is Μπουρλέσκ (burlesque) by Solmeister and it's up on YouTube and Spotify. If anyone can't find the English translation on Google lmk and I'll link it!!

#ik that realistically no one will care abt a greek song #but i have no one to talk about this with irl #so Tumblr it is :) #tcf #trash of the count's family #lcf #lout of the count’s family #the birth of a hero #tboah

[mental-illness-bingo]

Alright but we gotta talk about arrogance as a symptom.

You all seem to think I've got myself on a pedastal, that I think I'm better than everyone else cuz I'm intelligent, or that I think I'm hotter than everyone or maybe-

NO. My brain thinks it's superior because I refuse to pee until I want to. Haha, bow to me, slaves to your bladders, for I tell my body when to relieve itself and not the other way around.

My brain thinks it's superior because when you are tired, you go to sleep. When I am tired, I force my body to stay up until I'm ready, lest it get the idea that it is in control of me. You weak, well-rested mortals, I am your god.

(I wish this post was /j but it is at best /hj I really do keep myself up and refuse to pee when I first realize I need to bc of my ego. I may not be better than you at most things but like hell if I'm gonna become a slave to my flesh vessels wishes.)

#please tell me other people with ASPD do this #or npd I'm not picky #just someone relate to this #I'm begging you #npd #aspd #aspd things #aspd traits #actually aspd #cluster b #personality disorder #antisocial #antisocial personality disorder #mibingo

[hjartasalt]

Hey not to be a bitch or anything but maybe don't tag my posts where I talk about my very real trauma disorder that affects me in real life with some fandom nonsense

#also maybe stop clogging up the tags for real conditions people have with fanfiction #idk about y'all but I am tired of checking the tag for something I have looking for a post I can relate to #and the first thing I see is a fictional portrayal of someone with said condition where it's only there for angst #I'm not here to tell you what you can or can't write just please learn to tag your shit in a way where it won't end up in the same space #as valuable resources for people who actually have the condition you're writing about #sorry I'm just angry rn and this doesn't help lmao #keeping this kinda vague rather than addressing anyone specifically both cause I don't feel like fighting some rando #but also cause this has happened more than once like please just stop #if I want to see posts about the type of amnesia I have I HAVE to specify which type it is to see actual posts about it made by others #who have this type of amnesia #the actual amnesia tag is perpetually full of fanfics where people have fictional and (often) inaccurate amnesia #idk maybe this just bothers me specifically and isn't such a big deal but like. it's annoying

[dirtytransmasc]

my guilty pleasure is affectionately using all of TB insults for the greens in positive ways.

like I use insults for the kids the same way an older sibling affectionately calls their siblings the stupidest shit that they came up with years ago and never dropped. I affectionately call Aemond, 'almond' if he's being... himself, lovingly.

I use 'alicunt' like a fucking hype name, cause she is serving count constantly and I love her for that.

'crispin' is the hardest to repurpose, as it's easily the lamest, but every one and a while it finds its time and place.

it feels like a gotcha and it doesn't bother anyone (except sometimes TB's fragile egos)

#calling aemond almond rrslly does bring joy to my day #he just feels like a little brother I need to fuck with from a distsnce cause he could probably kill me but its too funny not to do #please tell me someone relates to that #to any of this really #I just like stealing their bsd insults and turning them into horrible nicknames like I do to my actual family #hotd #pro team green #aemond targaryen #alicent hightower #criston cole #I need TB to give me more god awful nicknames #cause its always *those* fans who come uo with the nost juvenile shit that makes me giggle #house of the dragon

[waywardsalt]

ok i need to get this off my chest abt totk's dungeon soundtracks this isnt necessarily a criticism but just a... idk man its confusing hang on

ok. totk's dungeon themes. theyre good im not going to lie they arent my favorite of the series but totk did deliver some good dungeon themes. what i'm confused about is the choice to use the champion's and divine beast's leitmotifs in the dungeons, like using daruks theme and bits of rudania's theme for the fire temple. that's the first that comes to mind cuz thats the one i like best but i think it was especially noticeable to me for the wind temple, the water temple's theme has some similar instrumentation and some very similar sounding phrases and when i see comments or people talking abt the dungeon themes it is very common to see people talk about the champion and divine beast leitmotifs being used.

and like. fine it sounds nice there is an emotional connection there if you have played botw but like. why are their fucking leitmotifs in totk's dungeon themes???

if you give a character or something a leitmotif, then that little string of notes represents that character or location or concept. usage of that leitmotif is therefore intrinsically tied to that character or whatever. this worked out with zelda's theme throughout the series, esp in totk when it's given the instrumentation of the dragon's themes, so that musical phrase at that moment basically says 'zelda, but a dragon' and like. yknow. leitmotif that literally represents something.

i believe the wind temple's theme incorporates some of rito villages theme, and in turn rito village having the same melody as dragon roost island makes sense, that's effectively a motif meant to represent the rito, like the reoccurring zora's domain and goron city motifs throughout the series, or hyrule castle. when characters have themes in past zelda games that play at different times, it means something about the character being referenced. midna's lament using midna's theme to show that this scene is about midna, she is in danger. fi's different themes playing when she is the center of attention or her leitmotif referenced in botw/totk when she literally makes subtle cameos. linebeck's theme only every plays in scenes where he has some sort of big moment or in the final boss theme because it's only fair that the final boss theme include the motif that represents him because he is the final boss. groose's theme shows up various times in his little scenes (and i believe there might be hints of it in later imprisoned themes?? i'd have to check but it would make sense since he's helping)

so... if you reuse a leitmotif that is tied to something, then reasonably that means that the context in which it's being reused is somehow related to or concerning what that leitmotif represents.

but... daruk's theme and some bits reminiscent of rudania's theme play in the fire temple's theme. reasonably, i would hear this and be like, ah, so this has something to do with daruk, or the divine beast? the usage of his character leitmotif suggests that he is related to this somehow. thats... usually the point of using a character leitmotif like was done in the fire temple's theme!

and yet the champions and divine beasts are not so much as referenced in totk's stories, and you can't even try to the point of their themes being used due to the new sages being relatives, because tulin is not related to revali- he doesn't even get the great eagle bow until after the dungeon, and still no reference to revali is made when he gets it.

so then... why are we referencing botw's champions if they do not matter? why not use the sage's leitmotifs in the dungeon themes instead? the dungeons are much more related to the new sages, and it would allow players to become more familiar to that leitmotif, and would further tie the experience to that dungeon with its related sage, instead of tying it to dead characters that mean jack shit to the story of totk.

it's just really weird that they use motifs from the champions and divine beasts, since that won't click for people who didn't play botw, and it just calls back to stuff not important to totk anyways. the divine beasts have literally no relation to the dungeons, the champions are barely even relevant to the world in totk. i get that the leitmotifs were used as like... maybe some sort of extra pre-existing racial connection motifs, but... use the sage's themes? don't use leitmotifs that have absolutely nothing to do with this game or it's story? sure it sounds nice but the meaning behind those leitmotifs make no actual sense in this new context, unless you're trying to suggest that they actually have a different meaning than being the motifs of the characters and locations that were originally what they were used for.

#this is less criticism and more of 'why the fuck was this done actually' #like i get it but also as like. someone who knows what a leitmotif is and what it does why the fuck was this done within context #please use the new sages' themes or smth i deadass do not know what they sound like off the top of my head #salty talks #totk #loz #legend of zelda #i just. its like a weird immersion breaker for me bc im used to hearing character theme motifs when its like. yknow related to the characte #so if i hear a bit of daruk's theme i instantly think of daruk but like. ok? he has nothing to do with anything in the game #its just confusing they honestly shouldve made more use of the sage's themes #EDIT: HEY IF IM WRONG ABT THE TOTK DUNGEONS NOT REFERENCING SAGE LEITMOTIFS PLS CALL ME OUT #LIKE DEADASS. TELL ME IF IM WRONG PLEASE #my point abt referencing divine beast and champions themes stand but seriously #i gave the sage themes a listen and part of yunobo's theme does remind me of fire temple so i might just be short on research here #bitching abt totk

[sherbetyy]

Hey guys I love dhmis and stuff but why tf is it even called Don’t Hug Me I’m Scared ??

#Please someone do a 20 minute analysis on this 💀 #I’m so used to the name that I forget other people get weirded out when I tell them about the show #it’s literally always so the same reaction like #” don’t hug me I’m scared 🤨??” #“Yes I swear the name isn’t related hahahhshh” #it’s actually about 3 middle aged autistic puppets who get themselves in wacky situations like pissing in a coffin that’s alive #i swear I’m not a psycho I swear please don’t run away ple #dhmis #don’t hug me I’m scared #Duck guy #Red guy #Yellow guy

[logosbot-tm]

I am upset at the fact that I decided to rewatch Good Omens bc I had happily forgotten just how Crowley coded I was, and was just vibing, and now I've gotten back into Good Omens and now I'm pissed again. Who the fuck allowed me to be Crowley coded???

#minus the whole clown thing I got going on #please tell me that Crowley hates clowns bc I am genuinely pissed at the Crowley coding #like... ffs if I try to cosplay him #i just look like myself w yellow lenses on #it's not even funny!!! #like ppl nagged at me for years that I looked like Crowley #so my mindset going into good omens was “Oh Im not going to like this fucker' #And then I dont just like him #i relate to him #and apparently look like him #very annoying #actually no #Its mf infuriating bc wtf #uhhhhhhh #good omens #ig #also i shouldn't have told some of my irls to watch good omens bc i can be peacefully existing in a rolm #room* #and someone will go #“omg thats so crowley coded of you” #oh and the girl that Im in a situationship w wants to own a bookstore and is blonde n blue eyes n reads too much #like srsly too much #how can one read that much #i dont get it #oh yeah right uh #crowley #going to bed bc im annoyed now

[sweetronancer]

no one understands, i will sacrifice all of my belongings (besides my fish hes like my bsf) for ronance canon. amybeth taking the bts photo makes me anxious because like.. rovickie. i dont wanna do this anymore im like laying in the corner of my cage miserably

#percy pauses and yaps for a little #please tell me someone finds this relatable at least a little #im actually so scared #ive been clowning for like 3 years over ronance and rovickie is making my castle crumble #also there are birds arguing outside my window #the urge to go touch grass ugh #ronance mention

[justthatspiffy]

there's such a jarring difference in watching dating reality tv when you're single vs in a healthy relationship

when i was single i watched it almost as an exposure therapy to people being vulnerable and performing romantic gestures, and while i had many moments of "no! that is not how we communicate with our partners!" and awareness of the hilariously compressed timelines of these shows, i was not overwhelmed in cringe

now, while i don't have any more romantic experience than the people in these shows (tho i may have plenty more communicating-in-healthy-ways experience), the romantic performance is thrillingly novel, the vulnerability is alarmingly rushed, and it's overall not as interesting to watch

#potential other thing is love is blind isn't as good as it was the first season or two #but that doesn't seem likely i think this was always beautifully gilded trash tv #about people who can't communicate effectively in no small part bc of the demands of filming #and getting engaged in ten days and married a month later #anyway i was super bored and thought i'd give myself a lil girls night by myself w/ my stuffed animal pabo #and watched ep 1 from the new season #and i was excited to see some mid-30s folks really vibe with each other #but at the end of the ep she falls asleep at an inopportune time #and he's so so upset he thought she left #like i think one thing that is never addressed in love is blind is body language #and basic knowledge such as MY DATE FELL ASLEEP #lots of people would feel dismissed by that but also i think it could be an indication of someone's comfort with you #other than they're not actually in each others' presence #anyway what i was getting around to #is i was screaming at production #please tell him she's asleep #he deserves to know she's asleep she didn't ditch him #anyway this show stresses me out more since really coming to terms with the level at which i'm impacted by other people's movement #how you stand how you eat how you position yourself in relation to other people on and on #right what i didn't get around to saying was i was hoping bc this couple was older #they'd. act grown #but of course not #of course no one is acting grown on this show

[pinkeoni]

Wanting to quote a mutual in a new post but also not remembering exactly which mutual it was and also not being able to find the post

#btw the mutual that i think it is is marie emblazons so please please tell me… #did you make a post where you related wills experiences in season two with the AIDS epidemic???? #if so can you send me it + could i quote you????? thank you #but if that was actually someone else pls correct me my memory is a little hazy

[vonlipvig]

amy brookheimer is so 'woman who doesn't want kids but keeps obsessing about her biological clock' and i think that's so real of her tbh

#it's so late i should be asleep but instead ive been having a tedtalk about amy in my brain #no time to try and type everything im thinking but yeah she's just so relatable to me i love her #also i do wonder if timeskip!amy in the finale being like ah we never had kids the greyhounds are our kids is meant to be read as like #haha look at amy she never had kids thats funny! cause to me it was such a GOOD FOR HER moment fkfjjd #idk throughout the whole show you could see she doesnt like kids and keeps running from domestic life #and obsessing over her age and her accomplishments and freezing her eggs cause WHO KNOWS and im like girl.....it's fine youre FINE #and the whole im going to have dan's baby but it's MY baby but actually we should be a family but actually NEVER MIND abortion like GIRLLLL #SLOW DOWNNNN i love you youre fine youre doing life and womanhood FINE #idk i need to go to bed but [incoherent noises] AMY #can someone tell miss amy brookheimer that i love her. pretty please. my neurotic princess. #according to jules #i understand a lot of my perception of her is def filtered through my own biases i wont lie #but shes so important to me i love her aaaaaa

[a-humble-waffle]

fuck this emotional dysregulation shit. it's like (minor inconvenience) (enough anger to kill God seventeen times over) (anger subsides and grief and exhaustion take its place) (literally all that fucking happened to provoke this was an inability to draw a straight line)

#my posts #vent #mental health #adhd #idk if this is an adhd thing #might be an autism thing? idk for sure if im autistic but that's another can of worms #anyway my brain is wired to go fucking nuclear at the slightest provocation and i am so tired of it #(shakes my brain) Stop Predisposing Me To Act Like An Asshole #that's how concussions happen actually. shaking your brain #well. whatever #please tell me someone else relates to this lmao #because i doubt i'm the only person on earth whose brain does this shit but man it feels lonely

[mcrbabyboy]

moral scrupulosity and being a communist. is that anything

#communism #moral scrupulosity #ocd #please dear god tell me someone relates but not actually its agony #moral scrupulosity ocd #communist #maoist

[here-there-everyfuckenwhere]

I don’t like to get personal on here often, but tbh one of my pet peeves is when I try to open up about something (especially something about feeling anxious or depressed) to someone, and they immediately ask something like “are you mad at me?” or “what did I do?” 

I know people really stress about whether or not they’ve done something to upset me, but most of the time there really isn’t a reason I feel this way and it just kinda sounds like they’re not even listening they’re just making the whole thing about them.. 

#personal #you can rb i guess i dont mind #not sure why you would though #maybe theres some sad antisocial people out there idk #ray rants and junk #im actually having this vent because my s.o complains that i never tell them how im feeling so today i tried to tell them how i was feeling- #and i told them that i feel very out of touch and lonely and isolated and ive been getting really depressed because they're literally the- #only person i have a meaningful connection with anymore outside of my parents and all my mutuals on tumblr (as depressing as that sounds) #(jk i love you guys lol) #and they were immedately like oml did i do something?? am i not enough??? are you breaking up with me??? a #and tbh it was kinda annoying because i was just trying to tell them how i genuinely feel and its really hard for me to talk about this sort #of thing and i dont expect them to understand or relate or whatever but as soon as they make the whole thing about themselves and about our- #relationship it just sorta feels.. #invalidating? like theyre not properly listening? #and like if they can't understand why I wouldnt need more than one meaningful relationship in my life then theyre completely missing the- #point. Ive never been angry at them before and we've never had a fight but honestly this really frustrated me and im having a rant on the- #hellsite (affectionate) to you guys before it becomes one #but its 1am here and im fucken tired so someone please stop me before i say something i'll regret in the morning lol #anyway