#about 99% true

[menciemeer]

I end up talking about calligraphy a reasonable amount on here and lately it's been bugging me that I haven't shared my work before. I also practice! To absolutely nobody's surprise, I have lately been practicing with Hannibal quotes.

#calligraphy #my calligraphy #this is #italic #and #foundational #my very least favorite thing to do is quote selection #truly special hell #the poetry hobby i don't have would be immensely useful if only i had it #fortunately hannibal is a pretty good source! #i've dusted off my old pens in the last couple of months and it feels good #also #the statement “i haven't shared my work before” #is only mostly true #about 99% true #the counterexample is _right_ there #but maybe not particularly obvious

[time-slink]

you Can avoid the eternal mountain of WIPs by starting and finishing every single piece in one sitting. but watch out

#shush slinky #this is actually true about 99% of what i post is done in one sitting. i do not recommend this #it’s bad.

[lord-squiggletits]

One of my least favorite parts of how JRO wrote Optimus is that he wanted so badly to continue his dark and gritty world building making the Autobots problematic, but evidently couldn't reconcile this with Optimus being a Heroic Paragon, so instead he leaned way too hard into "oh Prowl was the one who did this and it was behind Optimus' back" which if anything I think makes Optimus look worse, not better. Because then it's like, okay I know Optimus trusted Prowl a lot as his friend but you CANNOT TELL ME that over the course of 4 million years, Optimus as the leader of the Autobot army who literally would have access to 99.9% of all the records they produce, would never notice or question where some of these odd/inconsistent details were pointing. It just seems really inconsistent with how a real military would actually function, especially regarding Optimus' character, who is incredibly thorough and responsible and wouldn't neglect to keep up with all the details of his army.

Hell, Optimus knows who the Wreckers are and had them on call for tricky operations when he needed them (Stormbringer) so he's literally not at all ignorant of/averse to the use of special wartime units composed of dubious individuals. He's the fucking commander of an entire army, of course he knows that War Is Hell (TM) and no one's hands are clean. That's not even getting into all the stuff he got up to in phase 2/3, I mean everything from the annexation of Earth to OP breaking humans out of prison against Council orders shows that Optimus is no stranger to immoral and/or unlawful means.

It also leads to a lot of annoying fanon where people write Optimus (sometimes unintentionally, sometimes not) as like some sort of ignorant fool who's unaware of the machinations of his own army or has some sort of naiveté of "b-but we can't use bad tactics against the enemy! I would never condone the use of morally gray means in war!" No, IDW Optimus knows perfectly well all of the bullshit he's enacted/condoned for the sake of trying to win the war. Some stuff is definitely out of character for him and was only machinated because of Prowl, but I think this fandom REALLY underestimates Optimus' personal agency/responsibility as the commander of a whole ass army and ESPECIALLY underestimates Optimus' capacity to condone morally gray Bullshit Of War while still being a good person individually as well as, comparatively, the lesser evil compared to Megatron/the Decepticons.

Anyways what I'm saying is JRO may be a good writer but he's really hesitant to make Optimus morally gray and does some asspulls sometimes to justify most of the bad things the Autobots did as "Optimus just didn't know," and since the majority of the IDW1 fandom only reads JRO's stuff they go running with this premise of ignorant/uninformed Optimus when there's evidence elsewhere in canon to show that Optimus is, in fact, very highly aware of the bullshit he's allowed "for the greater good" and the only stuff he was "unaware of" was the stuff he would literally never agree to the ethics of, like bombing innocent neutrals disguised as Decepticons to get them to join the Autobots.

#squiggposting #idw op love #i feel like part of the issue is that for a franchise whose entire premise is war #i feel like a lot of this fanbase. hasnt actually read a lot about war (fictional or nonfictional) #bc a lot of ppl here really seem to struggle with reconciling OP as a good person and OP #as a war leader who had bad things happen under his rule #and bc they dont know much about war in fiction or IRL they treat this as like. one extreme or the other? #when like if ur someone whos read a lot of war literature it's very easy to comprehend both of these as being true #like idk i think the 'OP was ignorant' defense isnt even how being a commander works #but it's also a cop out to make OP less interesting/morally gray than he could be #like idk how to explain that war is an inherently corrupt/immoral institution where in pretty much all of history #the act of waging war in itself is a moral compromise. war is literally about killing more of the other side than they do you #you are treating human life (and society and gov and the environment) as tools for victory #no matter how righteous your cause is or if you follow rules of engagement you literally are going to do bad things #so like this idea the fanbase seems to have where they like. want OP to be sheltered/ignorant of these realities #is SO not how reality works and wouldnt ever be in character for like 99% of optimi #i'm still trying to pull together my thoughts on this sorry the tags are so incoherent

[kimbureh]

TBB's Crosshair & shame, fear, inferiority complex

having finally watched The Bad Batch Season 1 in its entirety, it's fascinating to see Crosshair's character development cuz he is exactly the type of person who would be seduced by fascist propaganda such as the Empire's. And I ache for him so much.

He is vulnerable to the Empire's ideology because out of the five Batchers, Crosshair's actions are the most driven by shame, fear, and a deep inferiority complex.

In retrospect it seems obvious to me that his character arc in TBB was at least roughly mapped out by the time he was first introduced in Clone Wars The Final Season, because none of the other Batchers would make such an easy target for the Empire.

But lets reverse engineer the plot as if you had to pick the one Bad Batcher to be affected by the inhibitor chip for a compelling story. Which Batcher do you pick for maximum impact, and why?

Ironically, the next best option, for me, is Wrecker, and they did a speedrun for this scenario in the series. Wrecker is an interesting case, because he is in many ways the exact opposite to Crosshair.

The three characteristics that make Crosshair especially susceptible for the Empire's propaganda are, as mentioned, his shame, fear, and a deep inferiority complex. Wrecker isn't ruled by these things the way Crosshair is. Yes, he is scared, and quite frequently so. But Wrecker is not ashamed to admit his fear in front of his team mates and trusts they won't look down on him. Wrecker isn't ashamed of his emotions and shortcomings, at least not to the same degree as Crosshair is. I think all Batchers carry a considerable load of shame being treated as and seeing themselves as defective, but Crosshair is affected by this mindset the most.

Which is why Crosshair all but jumps on the idea of serving a purpose under the Empire, especially once his old old purpose under the Republic becomes obsolete. He cannot bear the idea that he might be deemed useless, he cannot endure the uncertainty that comes with finding a purpose on his own. And doesn't the Empire have a neat antidote for that? Crosshair is not stupid, he is aware that the Empire doesn't respect him as a Clone, but this is about survival. Given that I don't have watched Season 2 yet (please no spoilers), I can only assume it was Crosshair's worst nightmare to be ruled by the inhibitor chip and be abandoned the only people in the galaxy he thought he could truly trust. And his trust isn't earned easily.

Wrecker's arc when he was ruled by the inhibitor chip showed how a person can deal with the shame of lashing out and hurting loved ones. His arc is, again, a speedrun of Crosshair's, at least thematically. Crosshair has to become more like Wrecker in order to overcome his inner struggle and complete his arc, which is why I see with delight how the writers have subtly set in place this unique relationship despite Hunter being the main focal point of Crosshair's character development. Things like, Crosshair allowing himself to cry (!) in front of Wrecker at the armory. Crosshair and Wrecker bunking next to each other. Wrecker being the first to admit he misses Crosshair. Wrecker asking Crosshair to come back twice in the season finale. And in Clone Wars, there's the friendly rivalry both seem to thrive in. I just love them, your honor (all of them).

#the bad batch #bad batch #crosshair #tbb crosshair #clone force 99 #tbb wrecker #tbb hunter #star wars #star wars the bad batch #yeah i know i am late to the party and everyone else has already watched season 2 #but if u gotta meta u gotta meta #still not sure if i believe crosshair about the removal of the inhibitor chip but it's more compelling if it's true #tbb meta

[eclaire-went-bam]

scrolling thru narc abuse truthers blogs is so fucking funny bCS DO YOU GUYS KNOW WHAT THIS TERM EVEN MEANS ???❓❓❓❓❓❓

HELLO 😭😭😭😭 DELUSIONS PF GRANDEUR????

delusions of grandeur are ALSO present in mental illnesses like SCHIZOPHRENIA and BIPOLAR DISORDER. PSYCHOTIC DISORDERS !!! me when i claim i've experienced schizophrenic abuse

also idk y'all i also have psychosis and i think i can say pretty confidently that when i'm experiencing genuine DELUSIONS of grandeur, i don't care as much of maintaining my image because yes i do genuinely believe i'm an incarnate of god so why would i need other people's opinion???

me when i tell someone experiencing psychosis that their symptoms (grandiose delusions) are NOTHING compared to ✨my✨ experiences

#GUYS AM I STUPID ??? AREN'T DELUSIONS OF GRANDEUR LIKE. #gENUINE SERIOUS DELUSIONS WHERE YOU BELIEVE YOU HAVE SOME SECRET POWER OR ARE #iNHUMANELY SPECIAL IN SOME WAY ??? #RELATED TO CELEBRITIES TYPE STUFF ??? #like i'm no doctor and i'm sure it's different between people but i'm 99% sure delusions lf grandeur aren't just #“i think i'm a bit superior to others so i'm gonna put extra effort into my image to prove it” #if someone you know are experiencing delusions of ANY kind (even grandeur!) your instinct should be to make sure that they are safe #true story from me. once i was experiencing delusions of grandeur and believed i was god and proceeded to try and break my arm because #i believed it wouldn't affect me #when i'm experiencing delusions i should not be allowed on a roof because i will want to walk off to prove i can walk on air #does this person know what a delusion IS????? #idk but in my experience these delusions specifically don't involve a lot of caring about self image because you already wholeheartedly #believe in your own delusions anyways #i genuinely laughed so hard when i read that and it's not even funny #npd #tw abuse #npd positivity

[countess-of-edessa]

the thing about taking advice from anyone on tiktok or instagram including catholic and christian type influencers, parenting advice, relationship advice, etc, or internalizing any stories of horrible relationships and betrayal people tell on those platforms, or reading about all the ways interpersonal relationships can end horribly and be cycled through extremely quickly on those platforms is that you are necessarily then consuming the thoughts and experiences of someone who is willing to put their face and name on a public social media platform to talk at you. and like 1% of those people have a good reason for doing so and the other 99% are completely unhinged. so everything you’re consuming has first gone through the filter of "is this person weird and insane enough to make Instagram reels of themselves crying?" and if the answer is yes maybe their advice doesn’t apply to your life because you’re a normal person who would not do that.

#i don’t know if this makes sense but it’s something i was thinking about today #not that i really live my life according to Instagram reel advice but as a human being when i see something stated as fact i naturally seek #out the parts of it I believe or compare it to my current worldview #and when that person seems to have a lot of “clout” for discussing spiritual things….idk sometimes I’m like wait is this true? should i #believe this? and other times I’m like well is this a real pattern of behavior that can be observed in many people from different walks of #life including my own? this thing that all men do or all women do or the way all couples will eventually behave #this makes it sound like i am constantly on social media consuming hours of content which im really not #I’ll be on a train and scroll a little bit and something gets stuck in my craw #but with me I’m always like am i rationalizing this away because i don’t want it to resonate? #and I think in the case of anything on social media the answer can almost always be no #because im like wait. why would i take advice from someone who has a public Instagram account #im not saying a stopped clock isn’t right twice a day but really how much of my perspective and life experiences can they share in #when we have this totally totally mismatched worldview #(i mean this also applies to basically anyone offering any type of life advice who isn’t catholic about that) #(but when they are Catholics doing this that gives me slightly more pause for obvious reasons I’m like we are on the same team though?) #(and we are but only kind of and i do not have to listen to you because being an Instagram influencer is still cringe in 99% of cases.)

[musical-chick-13]

Regarding the whole "Fandom Is An Escape, so why should I have to care this much about misogyny/racism/ableism/transphobia/etc." thing. Idk about the rest of you, but it gets kind of hard for me to "escape" when I keep seeing people say the same vile things about characters who share aspects of my identity that I hear all the time in real life.

#gotta say: it doesn't make me feel any better getting ignored/disparaged on account of my gender irl and then seeing every fictional woman #also get ignored/disparaged when there is no material difference between her and popular male characters other than her gender #how do I escape from irl misogyny if y'all keep willfully ignoring and flinging gendered insults at 99% (<-lowball estimate) of #female characters? how do I put aside the ableism I face in real life when y'all discuss disabled/mentally ill characters in the most #absolutely out-of-pocket way? how do I forget about biphobia when the 'arguments' you make 'for fun' about bisexual characters #in fiction sound EXACTLY the same as the things people say about my bisexuality outside of the internet/fan culture? #and then obviously this gets compounded if you are trying to even simply EXIST in fandom as a poc or a trans person or an intersection of #any or all these varying identities/life experiences #like yes caring about fictional characters is not the same as caring about real people OBVIOUSLY I can't BELIEVE I have to keep clarifying #that. and at the same time!! because multiple things can be true at the same time!!!! engaging in behavior that enforces pre-ingrained #societal biases and prejudices!!!!!!!! does not help dismantle those biases and prejudices!!!!!!!!!!!!!! in a real-world way that DOES #involve caring about actual people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #it's also. interesting. when people go on & on about how some newest show about thin cis white (male) gays is So Important & Revolutionary #So We Must Do Everything To Keep It Relevant And Visible and then act this way about women/poc/trans people/disabled people/fat people #in media. so like. you DO agree that seeing a variety of life experiences represented in fiction is beneficial. you DO believe in the #value of depicting marginalized people. interesting that that only seems to apply to a VERY narrow and specific category of marginalization #(ugh remember when I talked about this and someone called me a straight person good times)

[sleepless-in-starbucks]

every time i see smth that connects luke carder to luck in any way, i chant 'LUCKY CARDER NOT SO LUCKY' to myself automatically. i do this bc im extremely normal

#the cryptid speaks #luke carder #inscryption #guy who is telling lies (me) #about being normal not about the chant that is very real and true #im like 99% it's not even a game quote or Anything it's jus a phrase i used once and then self-imprinted on immediately #lucky carder not so lucky........

[lock-my-feelings-in-a-jar]

Please BE EXCITED about stuff you like/ want to be excited about 💞 That's what life supposed to be about, finding joy in the smallest things, in the things we enjoy and love. And the people that judge us for having that joy in our hearts lose their own life, because they spend too much time judging someone else's life instead of doing something with their own. FUCK them

this is one of my favorite asks and i love you

#nobody will ever stop me from getting excited about things i like #i just always feel like i'm not allowed to share that excitement with anybody directly because of being made fun of in the past #or like i at least have to tone it down by like 99% and make it very brief #because of fear of rejection so i keep it to myself contained in my own space #sometimes i really wanna talk about my favorite things with somebody but i'm like #'nobody knows or cares about this. what if i send something and they hate it and tell me it's horrible' #(a reaction i've been the most used to. either that or just silence) #and i wouldn't know who would actually be interested or if i would be putting them in a situation #where they're not interested at all but they're too nice to say it and then i feel annoying if i keep talking about it #because now even if it isn't SAID that they hate it i still always feel like people are thinking that behind it all #so like if somebody came at me right now telling me everything i like is horrible #that itself wouldn't really bother me because i could just block and continue life without a second thought about that person specifically #because that's just unnecessary and rude regardless of what it's about and i would assume it's just somebody looking to stir things up #delete/block. not taking it personally and not worth thinking about #but it's the anxiety built up from it happening for so long and so consistently from so many people and some that i used to be close to #that now it feels to me that everybody feels that way even if i know LOGICALLY that it isn't true. the feeling is still there #it's one of the long-term effects that are so hard to get rid of once they're set #this is just another thing about myself to work on for probably my entire life #but russ has been helping me with so much lately it's unbelievable

[dwreader]

after transcribing the podcasts and being forced to listen to the entirety of naomi's interview with rolin... really made me realize how fucking weird this answer is...

#like 99% of the answer is about lestat...... #like even if this is true #that's your answer to a black woman asking you how you approached the show's change to louis's race.. weird

[basilpaste]

ANYWAY. OSIS ISABEAU. when you become stronger and stronger and your defense becomes more and more preemptive. wasting less and less time (and you hate it when you notice it)

you are strong. you are the fighter. isnt it good? to not have to struggle to keep up anymore? isnt it nice to attack instead of support?

youre a wall. a thick layer of defense. practically untouchable.

youre not sure you like this. didnt it feel good to help your friends? to support them?

have you ever actually liked fighting?

#basil answers #pixxyofice #asks #of stitches in sequence #i think a lot about how isas max hp at level 75 is like... not insignificantly lower than sifs max at level 99? 200 point difference #thats less than isa and odiles at the same level. #isa also has the highest attack AND defense of any non-sif character in the party. #hes only really knocked down from being WAY too fucking strong because hes so slow and also because. well. #he only has two attack crafts. just two. the ones he starts the game with. everything else is a buff. #and thats technically true of mira too but the difference is that mira does the shields. and shes the healer. 2 craft types too. #i just. i dunno. the fighter is the one thats least prone to attack. #so.... when he *does* attack. its....... strong.

[guinevereslancelot]

most fucked up thing at my new job is there's only zero calorie sweeteners at the coffee station in the break room. three different kinds of zero calorie sweetener but no regular sugar because the assumption is that literally everyone is on a diet?

#is this because its a job dominated by women in particular??? idk #that's so weird #like sorry i can taste the difference and i prefer naturally occurring sugar from nature how is that not even an option #drinking nasty bitter af coffee bc i am So Sleepy but i refuse to use artificial sweeteners #they Do taste different and they're not even good for you im not doing that lol #also they got mad at me for telling one of the parents that we took one of the kids temperature and it was 99 and he threw up a little #when his dad came to get him yesterday and all of the other teachers were nowhere to be found #they were like tou shouldnhave had colleen do that #ma'am colleen went home before that and so did you #i should have left already too but waited bc the ratio on the playground was bad #anyway i did NOT say he had a fever i said it was 99 and to talk to the teacher inside #but the dad didnt yalk to her clearly then went home and scared the mom that he had a fever and threw up so she texted my boss freaking out #i literally just said he threw up a little and we took his temperature and it was 99 and to talk to the other teacher #which was all true and there was no one else there to tell him #anyway #apparently the person who had my job before me was a wacko who scared the parents with fake medical information or something #but that is not my fault and nobody told me that or not to tell the parents anything medical until this morning #ugh #also my supervisor is kind of a weirdo #she wanted to show everyone ~cute~ pictures of animals she has killed while hunting??? #and i said i didnt want to see #and she was like ~oh it's not dead yet in the picture~ #like okay but its dead now??? #she traps them first so its a cute little fox in a trap about to be killed 😭 #like wtfff #i know trappong predators is a reality but why take pictures like ohhh so cute then kill it #THEN show everyone the cute pictures like yeah isnt he adorable i killed him btw <3 #huh?????? #she has a bobcat tail on her keychain too she was giving it to the teachers and kids to pet like ohhh its so soft <3

[bangzchan]

listennto the song 🎧🧊🧢

#pentagon #ptg #uninet #yanan #kflops #ptgedit #melontrack #useroro #aleksbestie #vstuff #YNANSLKLNKGLNRHNLKSD?!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YANANAN:( #idk what song tbh . but 99% sure hes talking about the game by pentagon. so true

[fountainpenguin]

Man. "Satisfied" and "Congratulations" (Hamilton) and "Showdown" (Big Fish) are such good songs for Cosmo and Anti-Cosmo [and Poof]... I've been itching for years to make more animatics and maybe I'll get back into it by doing little snippets.

#FAIRIES! #Frayed Knots #99% true as far as we remember #I've been on hiatus so long because I cut a scene years ago for ''too long / not important'' and it was Very Important #and everything since then has been me trying to get the 'fic back where it should be. but. Talon arc my beloved #It's about A.C. pulling strings... it's about Cosmo making sacrificial choices to feel something... you understand...... #I had animatics planned for 2023 but it didn't pan out. I desire

[mummer]

finally bucked up and talked to my dad for like 45 minutes about israel palestine and it was like talking to a fucking brick wall and i had to capitulate a LOT but i do feel like i may have made tiny tiny little inroads i dont know.

#he was very much like cognitive dissonancing Well you know i love peace and think it’s bad to kill civilians But theres no other way to #demolish the threat. and a LOT of historical stuff like camp david and geopolitical agreements blah blah blah #but i tried to just stay stong and be like. They could stop killing civilians right now it’s wrong to bomb people it’s wrong to take lives #etc etc. and told him to diversify his news and a few true verifiable anecdotes about propaganda #i didnt have an info sheet in front of me which idk might have helped but blah. #Maybe got him to like 90% zionism rather than 99%. prob not helpful #it prob did NOTHING and now my primary fear is hes gonna tell the rest of the family about it and im gonna have to field THEIR questions

[yeonban]

Honestly tragic that Light went down the path he did in the 2nd half bc in the beginning Tobias would've really liked him. He wholeheartedly agrees that the only way to bring REAL "justice" is by making sure the perpetrator will never be able to do evil again, which will never be achievable through lawful means like incarceration (especially in cases where they're connected to a bigshot who can bail them out) so the only way to truly get rid of evil is, like Light figured, through kiIIing them all

#muse: tobias. #Ironically enough Tobias thinks Light isn't (wasn't) harsh enough in his 'judgements'. HE would've made sure they suffer WAY more #I think the biggest differences between Tobias and Light are that 1) Tobias doesn't view himself as a 'God' or anything of the sort; #though he doesn't hurt innocent people for fun or money like they do; he views himself as not THAT different from his enemies #I mean sure he's disgusted by 99% of them but he's aware he does many things the faint of heart would never be able to stand looking at too #2) Light does everything as if he's not involved. He sets out 'judgements' to people who are far away; through more indirect means #whereas Tobias is much more involved. He PERSONALLY sets time aside to deliver the payback to the people who are in high positions #Most of the time he makes sure their last ever conversation is w him. Sometimes their death is remote (but still horrible; i.e explosions) #other times it's by his hands in which case they Wish they could've died like that ^ instead bc his torture isn't Only physical #3) Light doesn't care who he has to discard; being willing to kiII even his closest allies who would never think of turning on him #whereas Tobias would Never abandon his true allies like that. He knows damn well how hard to get across they are and he treasures them #so he's willing to take heavy losses to save them if need be; and certainly won't ever discard them the way Light would #4) Tobias knows damn well that by doing what he's doing it means he's eventually going to end up dead like his enemies and he's fine w that #meanwhile Light seriously thought he would conquer the world; have nothing happen to him whatsoever; then die a peaceful death #I should write a proper meta on the similarities and differences between Light (+L) and Tobias sometime bc I keep thinking about them