#SORRY THIS GOT LONG

[hauntedpearl]

have this fun headcanon that dean never says I love you back out loud because he just like. thinks he does all the time and literally just forgets because he's an idiot.

like when they get cas back he just clutches him close and buries his face in Cas' shoulder and he's like you fucking idiot. you have me. you always had me. whatever you want cas. and he cries and like that's that. and every time cas says it to him in their life after — which btw. that takes a while for cas too because he's just so used to loving dean from a distance that he can't believe he's allowed to have it in the palm of his hand..he can't believe that he's allowed to be open and loud and fearless and absolutely without shame with it. so he has to get used to that, but he does get there. anyway. whenever he does say I love you to dean, the first few times dean's like stuck in between panic and awe and every time after that he's just SO FLUSTERED because he's HOPELESS and he has a CRUSH on this guy even tho they're literally living together and do nasty things to each other on a regular basis but like god forbid they hold hands right. anyway. it's not emotional constipation so much emotional confusion because he really doesn't know what to do with all this easy affection and love because he's never felt it quite like this before where it's a firework in his belly and fizzy champagne bubbles in his blood and this delicious heat under his skin that makes him feel young and giddy and stupid and he loves it so much but it also just turns him into a mess and so he doesn't respond with words and often just resorts to something foolish like a whispered alright or shuddup or he just kisses cas and thinks me too but maybe he doesn't say it. he really doesn't say it. but he doesn't know that he doesn't say it because he's hopelessly in love and the moments all blur when cas is there and so near and with him.

anyway. months down the line..maybe it's even been more than a year. who knows. it's just something really mundane. in the unwritten fic, it's just one of those nights that start out warm and cosy and turn frigid by the time it's midnight and dean and cas have kicked off the covers and they're both sleeping (because cas sleeps now yes he's an angel but he sleeps and eats and does things that make him feel untethered and human and alive because i said so don't talk to me) and dean wakes up because there's a draft on his legs and it makes him shiver and he squints at Cas who is impervious to the cold but he is curled away from dean because they'd moved away from each other in the middle of the night and dean's NOT having that HE'S COLD so he groans and crawls towards cas and drapes himself over his body and his skin's cool too because it's been exposed to the breeze this whole time so dean's whining and slapping cas awake and he's like come on, man and cas groans and scoffs and goes UGH DEAN but the body underneath him warms really quick and Dean snuggles close and cas magics the covers so they tuck themselves around them both and dean's like. sleepy happy sighing into Cas' chest and he says thanks, sweetheart. I love you. and cas wakes up like he's been electrocuted and dean startles because cas did and they look at each other and cas is like what did you say? and dean's SO CONFUSED because again HE'S AN IDIOT he literally DID NOT REALISE that he HAS BEEN SO HAPPY. AND PREOCCUPIED WITH THE BEING IT BUT HE HAS NOT BEEN SAYING IT and so he's like what the fuck what. and cas is like. dean..and dean's like ??? I love you??? why are you acting weird??? this is normal every day conversation??? are you okay?? and cas is like .....oh my god and dean's like you are scaring me cas and cas is like no..no dean..it's just. it's stupid. but he's jumping into Dean's arms now tucking his head in his neck and there's that break in his voice like he's overwhelmed like he was when he first said.those words to dean and dean's like cas? cas??? and cas is like. you've never. i mean. i knew. i KNEW. and you've prayed. before. unconsciously. but you've never said. and dean is like stop fucking with me of course i have. and cas is like baby it's okay let's go back to sleep. but he's laughing and crying and he's HAPPY RIGHT like he's giddy and dean's losing his mind and he's having a crisis and he lies back down in bed and suddenly it's hitting him HOW STUPID he's been because like YEAH. he has NEVER actually..he really has never. said it.

and like he's like shit. cas shit.

and cas is like. no hey it's alright. i knew. I promise I knew. i just. i

and dean doesn't need to hear this he also doesn't need cas to defend him because this is just..like..it's not even neglectful or anything this is LITERALLY IDIOTIC it's literally like. SILLY STUPID like he is KICKING himself because WHAT THE FUCK

but then he's sitting up very seriously and he takes cas' face in his hands and he's like. i love you. I love you very much. I love you more than I've loved anything. more than pie. more than BABY. you're the love of my whole goddamn life. okay??

and cas is laughing again and crying a little bit and he's like oh god this is SILLY they are being SILLY. but dean keeps saying it over and over because he has all this time to make up for where he DIDN'T EVEN KNOW HE WASN'T SAYING IT and he kisses him between each little confession and it's silly and sweet and soft and everything good. and then they have sex and cry and fall asleep in each other's arms the end.

#sorry this got long #the unwritten fic has a 5000 word outline #ans it is all like this #if any of you happen to fic this TAG ME so i can despair about how I can't do anything and also be happy about this being a scene fr #doe is talking again #destiel headcanons #y yo a ti but they're just stupid

[emthimofnight]

Thank you sm for thr shadow as a girl dad agenda. Ur so right and its giving me life

I'M SO GLAD WE CAN ALL AGREE!!!

I just think Shadow would connect so naturally to a little girl, you know?? Stellar would immediately activate some dormant protective instincts in him. She's so much like him from the get-go, being an experiment created by people intending to use her and all. He would feel responsible for her, angry for her, sad for her, and hopeful for her. He'd think of Maria when he looked at her, but he'd also think of himself and his own experiences.

As he raised her, he'd find himself growing to care for her in a way he'd never quite felt before. He loved Maria, yes, but that was a different kind of love. She was a sister, a friend, but also part of his reason for existing in the first place. Part of his duty.

With Stellar, it would be different. She exists BECAUSE of him, in a way. She is a part of him. She looks to him for guidance, protection, love, and encouragement. It'd be a whole new experience for him. He'd find himself caring for her so deeply that it would terrify him.

It'd be this softer side of Shadow that would really intrigue Sonic, actually. It'd be one of the reasons the two of them started to catch feelings for each other. Sonic would really admire Shadow in his new parental role. I mean, he's always known Shadow has a good heart at his core, but seeing him actively love something would make him approachable from a different angle. They'd actually have something to work on together, and something to organically start conversations about. He's always known Shadow pretty well, but only at the level one rival would know another.

Seeing him worry, care for, and love their daughter would make him appreciate Shadow in a new way, and that sentiment would be returned by Shadow. He'd find himself growing fond of Sonic's empathetic nature and responsible side. He'd always known Sonic to be kind of care-free and lackadaisical in his approach to life, so to see him approaching fatherhood seriously (even though he never asked for it) would cause him to recognize Sonic as a legitimate partner.

#sorry this got long #again #answered asks #emthim rambles #sonadow #shadonic #stellar the hedgehog #sonic the hedgehog #shadow the hedgehog #sonic #shadow #shadow x sonic #sonic x shadow #sonic x shadow generations #sth #sonadow fankid #sonadow fanchild #fan kid #fan child #sonic oc #lore dump

[butmakeitgayblog]

for the reverse trope writing: divorce of convenience (something new or an au of your choice, both sound fun!)

Her eyes watch as the ink bleeds slowly into the paper. They watch neat, slanted script combine in the fragmented loops and dashes that make up that achingly familiar signature. X marks the spot. On the dotted line. Not a single scribble out of place; right where the lawyer had highlighted it in garish neon yellow.

Forever and ever.

They were eleven, and it's promising to always be best friends. The kind that stick together through thick and thin. Like white on rice, as their teacher  often said. 

Forever and ever.

They were fifteen, and it's smiling with the awkwardness of young love. The kind that sets fire to racing hearts from a first kiss stolen behind their school's abandoned gymnasium. 

Forever and ever.

They were seventeen, and it's shaking hands that still can't believe they get to touch their best friends that way. The kind of way that makes them both let out hungry sounds and pretty moans in the backseat of her dad's station wagon.

Forever and ever.

They were nineteen, and it's stiff-jawed goodbyes through desperate kisses. The kind rotten with promises that this isn't the end. That it's just a ‘see you later’, but never goodbye. Not for them.

Forever and ever.

They were twenty-eight, and it's handwritten vows and white satin gowns with matching bridal bouquets. The kind that they picked out together to remind them that all this was worth it, that it's finally the day they'd been planning for since their junior year in college. The culmination of sleepless nights and teary phone calls from three states away.

Forever and ever.

They were thirty, and it's whispering in the nursery  of their freshly furnished house, standing wrapped in each other's arms at the edge of an adorably small bassinet. The kind decked out in purple frills with sunshine yellow along the trim, because they'd agreed from the first plus sign to not know the sex. It's fingers running through brown curls carefully enough not to wake their baby up, while watching lashes twitch in dreaming that hide those baby blue eyes. The exact shape and shade that'd had them both wrapped around a tiny pinky from the start. 

Forever and ever.

They are fifty-four, and it's an empty nest that's too quiet in the house that sometimes feels too big. The kind they'd joked about missing for years, but now that it's here, they don't entirely know what to do with it. 

It's medical bills, and denied claims for benefits, and meetings with stuffy lawyers who explain the finer points of income brackets. It's physical therapy visits and losing her job at the hospital and endless prescriptions that never seem to be covered by their insurance. It's everything, and all the time, because life refuses to slow down for even one damn second, despite a hip that simply will not work anymore. 

They are fifty-four, and Clarke never thought she'd be here. That they'd make this kind of choice. Never thought she'd feel quite this stuck. Quite this useless. Never thought she'd be in this situation at all.

But it's clean and it's neat, just the way they like it. A mutual agreement for them both. A fresh start after the accident, one that'll let them move on with their lives, instead of trying to hang on to this thing that only leaves them drowning. 

At least that's what they'd agreed. 

She watches her wife— her ex-wife, dot the i's of her name with an overly dramatic flourish. Watches her click the pen with her thumb and toss it aside with a sigh from deep in her bones.

She smiles and feels her chest squeeze with that familiar pang of deep friendship and love.

“Cheers,” Clarke says, holding up her flute of champagne. 

She'd had to hobble through four different specialty liquor stores just to find it, but it'd felt fitting to toast the signing of their divorce papers with the same bubbly they'd shared on their wedding day.

Lexa picks up her glass and clinks it soundly against hers, only managing the barest sip around a smile of her own. “Cheers, single lady.”

“Mm. This is good.”

“Even better than I remember from the first time,” Lexa agrees as her gaze makes a lazy rake over Clarke's body.

It's not lost on Clarke how ridiculous it is to be blushing over the signed stack of her divorce papers, but something about the way Lexa looks at her has always set her on fire. 

“So,” she tries, casually, setting aside her cane and leaning heavier against the kitchen table, “what are you going to do next?”

Lexa takes another sip of her champagne, watching her closely over the rim. She swallows with a flex of that elegant throat and shuffles closer, sets her glass down on Clarke's other side, effectively boxing her in. 

“Go to Disneyland.”

The sound of Clarke's snort rings through the kitchen. “Smartass.”

“What about you?” Lexa asks with a bite to her lips, hands still bracketing the sides of Clarke's waist and eyes twinkling with mischief. “Any big plans for the future, newly divorced Ms. Griffin?”

Clarke scoffs. “Nice try. But it's still ‘Ms. Griffin-Woods’ to you.”

“Oh? Is that right?”

“Uhuh,” Clarke nods and loops her arms around Lexa's shoulders. “Sorry not sorry, but I'm never giving that one back.”

Lexa hums and presses closer. Paints her body to Clarke's curves and breathes her in the same way she has for forty years. 

“Greedy, but I think I can live with that.”

“Such a hardship. I seem to remember you loving that about me.”

“Among so many things.”

Clarke moans when Lexa's lips find the hollow dip of her neck, relaxing into the wet warmth of a plump, suckling kiss. Champagne has always made Lexa brazenly affectionate. She tips head back to grant more room and sucks in a gasp at the nibble of teeth. Tangles her fingers in greying, brunette hair that only serves to make her bombshell of a wife look that much more distinguished. 

Well. Her ex-wife, that is…

Hands trail down Clarke's hips and wrap tight around her thighs and before she can yelp a single word she's lifted onto the table. 

Lexa lets out a half-laughed grunt when she gets Clarke settled in place, looking equally as amused as she does grateful that the little maneuver actually still worked after so many years.

“You good, baby?” Clarke chuckles along with her, mindlessly going to rub the shoulder that had started being a pain around birthday forty-seven. “Didn't pop anything, did you?”

“No, I'm good, I'm good,” Lexa says, smiling and shaking off her ill-coordinated prowess like the champ that she is. “That just used to be easier.”

“Is that a crack about my weight?”

“More like a crack about me being old.”

“Oh. Well then yeah.”

“Rude,” Lexa gasps, taking the hips in her hands and pulling them closer. Pressing Clarke firmly against her stomach. “There's still giddy up in this old girl, I'll have you know.”

“Yeah?”

“Mhm.”

“My, my, Ms. Woods—”

“Griffin-Woods,” Lexa's quick to correct. Suddenly serious in how intensely she stares Clarke in the eyes. “You're not getting that back either.”

They share a look because things like this have never required words. Not for them. But with everything and all of it, with the ink still drying on the paper beside them, Clarke gives in to her last bit of worry. 

“You're still my girl,” she whispers. Swallows. Feels a stinging prickle along her eyes at the sudden need to feel this connection with her favorite person in the world. “Even with me, and having to do all this… You know we're still us, right? You're still my girl?”

Clarke melts into the kiss she knows is coming because she knows this woman better than anybody, and it feels more like a promise that nothing could ever break them than any piece of paper ever could. She wraps her good leg around Lexa's hip and deepens it, kisses back with every ounce of love her heart has to offer. Cherishes each massage of tongue and slide of lips that have met thousands of times before. 

Lexa kisses her once, twice more, and pulls back with a soothing smile.

“Always, love… Forever and ever.”

#sassymajesty #writing prompts #sorry this got long #clexa

[wildfloweronwheels]

these thoughts are still developing so be gentle but I think the shock of ttpd paying attention to taylor’s rebound with matty at least partly stems from the fact that most of the discourse failed to recognise the emotional context at the time. Our focus (including mine) was on criticising and critiquing her for being associated with him. That is of course (still) extremely valid and it doesn’t take a genius to figure out that taylor herself is dripping with self loathing over it. BUT if you look beyond that for just a second, what you see is a woman whose future and forever had just been blown up (in part by her to save herself) and then this guy who she already has existing intimacy with swoops in to rescue her from the pain because that’s her primary focus; making it stop.

He says all the right things and makes all these promises she’s desperate to believe in. Remember, for every time Taylor has appeared jaded and wary, she is still almost impossibly at her core a hopeless romantic. Of course she wants to relish in his love bombing because by all accounts for a while she’s been starved of it. But then he leaves because it was never about saving, only about taking.

We were all so busy being mad at taylor at the time while also desperately trying to understand and give her grace for her behaviour that most of us forgot to consider how fucked up matty’s was. He took advantage of a completely broken woman and built her an escape route ringing with identical false promises (heavier to make at 34 so assumed to be meant) and then shattered it. Maybe he really did mean them but she wasn’t in a position to truly, and anyone worth their salt would have seen that. Would have focused on her healing. So of course that’s almost going to hurt more and be darker. She was already smashed and then he broke her just for fun. And then after all of that, she glued herself back together piece by piece and in a fateful moment got someone who met her where she was at finally and meant it

#sorry this got long #taylor swift #taylor and joe #joe alwyn #matty healy #taylor and travis #travis kelce #ttpd #the tortured poets department

[moodnamars]

2023 aka the year of cas posts

i uhh aha... didnt post much this year OOPS but i was tagged by @castawavy my light my universe. these were my favs from the year anyways! plus a couple extra ones i didnt post.. my little gameplay family that lasted a week and an au test!

anyways i tag @sojutrait @leavemetoplaythesims @verthu @gunthermunch @squea and whoever else wants to do this i tag YOU.

#tagged #mwah mwah! i didnt do a lot of simming so errr idk! this is what ive got rn LMAO #alsooo might have deleted a lot of stuff i was messing around with oopsies #<3 #sorry this got long

[blueblurseptember]

damn. can't stop thinking about binghe being shen yuan's comfort character in his previous life now. idk, but i am simply convinced that shen yuan has had the childhood of a typical asian middle child, made worse by the fact that he's from a rich family. all his little quirks and oddities would actually make a whole god awful lot of sense too if that were the case. like it would just makes sense.

ofc nobody else would be as good in watering down their feelings, devaluing their positive qualities, and underestimating their ability to make any real impact (on anyone they of value) than a second child who grew up often compared to the first and had been, intentionally or unintentionally, made to feel like they never have or never will measure up or measure enough.

i think it's also why of all the moments, he only genuinely started to understand binghe's true feelings when binghe began going off about feeling unwanted and never being enough to make anyone stay. all those feelings, those exact insecurities too, despite himself, he understood well enough bc he'd lived with them his entire life. even built half of his personality and put up most of the mental and emotional walls he have up to cope with them.

for so long, he'd seen binghe, post-abyss, as someone so unlike him. as far as he's concerned he's just some average guy who needs to learn how to settle with whatever life gives him bc he'll never be good enough to really, really achieve things. binghe, on the other hand, is an OP protagonist destined for greatness, to have everything and everyone he can ever want, to be chosen by anything or anyone he chooses.

they can't be any more different!!! except as it turns out, casting roles aside, binghe doesn't feel any differently about himself as shen yuan feels about his own self. and worse of all, and he's realized this too, that he's the last straw that got binghe feeling so strongly that way about himself.

anywaY, yes. binghe as shen yuan's comfort character—hoo boy, yes. he would soooo love a character like the original flavor binghe, alright. middle child who's constantly made to feel like he'll never be enough would totally love the living hell out of a white lotus who's constantly treated like a lesser being by the people around him only to emerge as a blackened OP protagonist who finally has achieved power not just over his life but the whole fucking world!!!

even before binghe turned real, he's helped shen yuan embrace, even just a little, his own feelings. they really are soul mates, idk, god.

#svsss #shen yuan #shen qingqiu #luo binghe #bingyuan #bingqiu #brain dump #sorry this got long #and is probably incoherent as hell but i am high on caffeine and in the middle of a brainrot

[sculkshrieking]

dude your hoffstrahmdon is changing my life! have you ever thought about including adam in the mix for the au? ship thing or not i'm just curious about if he gets to live :-)

teehee i'm glad you like them :D!! I had to think about this for a little bit. Adam generally stays dead in my head because i love the guilt and haunting and also because i don't think John with his barbed wire grip on all three apprentices would ever allow his freedom. HOWEVER we love to self indulge in this house and throwing Adam into the mix sounds so chaotic.

Maybe Hoffman plays a part in getting Adam out which is what makes Lawrence feel indebted enough to come and warn him not to go after Jill (which just makes me think of Lawrence and Adam in the makeshift jigsaw hospital room getting tended to by Hoffman while John and Amanda are off getting bloodboarded).

Lawrence and Adam are insanely codependent because I wouldn't have their post-bathroom relationship any other way. They will bite, kick and scream like frightened dogs if you try to separate them.

With Hoffman, Adam probably has some mixed feelings in a "You're horrible and I can't stand you, but you saved me" type way. Mostly the first part, really. Meanwhile, I think Hoffman just finds him annoying and grating as hell, he wants that twink obliterated and all that.

The Strahm and Adam roasting matches are insane. It's a constant PvP zone in there and absolutely no one is safe. There are parallels between them that they're both doing their best to ignore. Also they can smoke out on the balcony together as a treat <33

I don't know what kind of situation would force them all to have to spend a bunch of time together but i personally would love to see the resulting carnage. I also would love for them to kiss, i just have a hard time imagining all of them liking each other </3. Hate sex is absolutely still on the table however <33. Adam how come your mom lets you have THREE big hot middle aged men around you etc etc.

In conclusion:

#sorry this got long #this is the first time i'm drawing adam can u believe it. couldn't tone down his emo swag #the thing about lawrence and adam is they're insane about each other Because of that bathroom. they would not be otherwise #strahm and hoffman didn't have that experience with him so adam is just some rude little brat to them probably. a wet rat #i feel like that pepe silvia meme #saw #hoffstrahmdon #hoffstrahmdonadam?? good lord #anon #askbox

[stewieonthewall]

I can understand people perceiving the hug to just be a hug between besties and that’s totally valid but just like anything to do with pazzi, it’s never really what they do but it’s what the rest of the team does that always gives them away or makes everything 🤨🤨 like with that hug, from the front angle you saw KK legit have the biggest surprised smile on her face when they hugged and the other angle, you can clearly see her put her hands over her mouth and was completely cheesing plus you can see ice looking over at kk? and giving a knowing smile. Then you obvs had azzi giving kk a light shove at the end to get her to stop. Bonus: aubrey’s smile as p goes in for the hug and the way q looks at them in the photo that was posted.

It’s the same with that clip. Like yes, the way they were holding each other in that seemed intimate but you could also chalk it up to them being drunk or something, but it was ice and carol’s reaction afterwards that let you know something’s going on.

So many other examples tbh haha but y’all already know 😜. Like 97% of their interactions in public can definitely be explained as just very close besties behavior, but their teammates’ reactions always say otherwise. But ofc each to their own and like i said, i can definitely understand ppl that totally just see them as besties (and maybe they really are just that or maybe not, i guess we’ll never know until they want us to know!)

yes yes yes i so agree

bc don’t get me wrong like i’ve been getting the “undercutting tension” vibe in everything they do for a while now but that could very much be me going insane, bc most of what they’ve done i would do/have done w my bsf bc we’re like soul tied. but also i feel like it did have different energy like watching them i wasn’t like oh yeah that’s us fr ykwim?

vibes/energy whatever is sm harder to read tho which is why i base so much of it off of their teammates, as you said. when paige and nika hug, no one bats an eye. when paige and azzi hug, everyone (discreetly) throws a party lmao

bc of everything that’s happened, i think the other girlies get just as excited as we do when pazzi does interact in public 😭 we really don’t get to see it a lot anymore it’s like a lil treat

but yeah the way all their teammates tiptoe around talking abt it and hide it on lives and always react like that speaks volumes and i don’t think they’d be able to keep up this bit (if it was) for this long

also food for thought, they could always say sum to shut it down and they never do 🤷‍♀️ like kate was chill w going on live and being like “i’m NOT dating jada” bc you know, she isn’t 😭😭

like the fact that they’re not even willing to lie abt it tells you how in deep they are

#sorry this got long #pazzi #spiralling

[ominousposting]

✨Disabled Ghouls✨

so real. so true

been thinking a lot of ehlers danlos syndrome havers rain and zephyr. ive also been thinking about maybe phoenix having it as well

zephyr definitely has the most severe case of the bunch, theyre old and have been around the ministry for a While. even as a human, their body did not treat them kindly, so its not surprising that their ghoul body is doing the same thing.

the same can be said for rain. constantly searching for doctors as a human before their death, never really finding the answer of what was wrong with them. zephyr was a big help in that way, they had already experienced everything rain had experienced years ago. they saw the signs in rain and made sure to reach out to them about how to take care of themself, lest they end up hurting themself unknowingly (like zephyr had down for years upon years)

rain and zephyr both are seeing the same thing in phoenix. phoenix, well. lets just say phoenix wasnt too old by the time they died and, in turn, didnt get to experience any intense issues as a human relating to their hypermobility. it was just a fun little party trick to them (“oh watch me put my foot behind my head!” “look at how far my elbows bend back!” “look at how far out i can turn my feet!”). now, since being brought back to earth as a ghoul, their body is starting to experience some issues. joints need to crack more often than the average body should need, joints are locking up, things of that nature. rain and zephyr make sure to keep an eye on them and help when needed.

#rain ghoul #zephyr ghoul #phoenix ghoul #sorry this got long #oooo lore tag #rivers lore #phantom ghoul #i have more but eds ghouls. so good. so so good.

[rockitmans]

Hello, I really enjoy your writing and you seem confident in writing smut. Do you have any tips on how to go about it? I find is so awkward!

Hey thank you 😊 I am just a guy with a laptop but I can try my best to tell you some stuff that helps me.

First of all! My number one tip that everyone should follow IS that you really don't have to write smut if you don't want to. Probably obvious, but there's very few fics that actually require detailed smut and if it makes you uncomfy it may not be worth it. BUT I'm sure you know that already and are here for some actual advice so here we go.

Gonna get a tiny bit nsfw but not graphically. All this is advice only, nothing is ever a hard and fast rule, especially in writing. Take what you like and chuck out the rest. Other writers feel free to add on 💖

What's the point of the smut?

Personally I think smut is always better if it is conveying something about the characters or the story. If the point of it is just to be pwp that is absolutely fine ofc but if it's within a larger story what are you trying to convey? Desire for each other that's finally bubbled over? Connection and trust? Playfulness and fun?

Whatever the angle, try and keep that motivation in your mind. If the sex is about connection, focus on the internal feelings, lots of affectionate words between them, a lot of eye contact etc. If it's about that "I must have you now" passion, maybe it's quicker, choppier, more desperate and less talking.

Smut doesn't have to be hot to be good and valid in the story. Maybe it's sometimes deliberately bad sex. Maybe sometimes it's soft and sweet rather than steamy. Don't get too stressed trying to make it titillating (if I may use that word).

Character first

Following on from that. Think about your characters, especially in the context of the AU you've put them in if that's the case. Who would instigate? Who would take charge? If someone is very playful and jokey out of the bedroom, they'll probably take that energy into it. If they're serious and passionate, likewise.

I'm sure as a writer you've often thought that the characters sometimes just do their own thing without your input because you're in their head so much. Let that energy guide you through sex scenes as well. (I very accidentally set myself up for wall sex in one of my fics once because the characters would not shut up about it.)

Write about what you like

Especially for your first few attempts, write about stuff you enjoy. Whether that be in real life, fantasy or you just have an academic interest in. I've been called out multiple times for liking subby Blaine 😂 And yes! I do! I find it fun to write so that's why I write it.

Think about what specifically you enjoy about your scenario and express that on page. This should in turn lead to an enjoyable reading experience! If you're not sure what you like, read some smut and think about what parts of it appeal to you. Avoid writing kinks that squick you out.

It's about the fantasy

I wouldn't get too bogged down in mechanics. Especially of anal sex. Fanfiction is sort of fantasy and doesn't need to be incredibly realistic to be fun. By all means make sure you're conveying a sense of how your characters are positioned and how they are interacting but don't get into the weeds of minutiae if you don't need to. It's not a how-to guide and being too mechanical can remove the spice.

Invoke the five senses

General writing advice is to get all senses involved but it's just as important for smut. A few examples.

Sight: how their partner looks, their body, especially if it's your POV character's first time seeing them naked AND how that makes them feel. Lighting is a good visual way of setting the mood. Soft, romantic lighting for their first time? Candles for romance. Just in broad daylight in the middle of the kitchen for spontaneity.

Sound: Gasping, sighing, moaning, their partners voice. Are they talking? Laughing? Why? Are things going wrong or are they just giddy and excited? Is there people nearby that they can hear that adds to the thrill? Do they play music?

Smell: smells on the other person they've never noticed because they've never been that close before. I tend to avoid talking about unpleasant smells because it kind of takes you out of the moment. But washing powder, cologne, shampoo, all that stuff is golden.

Taste: I'm sure you can use your imagination on this one! The taste of their partners mouths when kissing, the taste of salt on their skin, the taste of them intimately

Touch: This one is so key! Are touches deliberate or incidental? Gentle or rough? What emotion does a certain touch invoke? Capturing sensation and mood can be more effective than pure description sometimes. And the touch doesn't just have to come from each other. What about the feel of the sheets? Toys? Are they having sex on a surface that is hard or rough?

Write scared

Posting smut is intimidating and a lil scary, especially the first time but probably several times after that as well. As the well known saying goes: Feel the fear and do it anyway. We all start somewhere and we are all constantly improving. If you are very brave you can ask for con crit but otherwise it's just a skill to hone like any other. I believe in you!

#sorry this got long #hope theres something there you can use! #asks #writing tips #i suppose #although i don't feel qualified

[yazzydream]

I'm still confused about the Megumi/Zen'in payoff thing. Toji sold him (???) to the Zen'in clan, but not right away. Gojo got the sale cancelled (??? they already paid so who's paying them back) by getting the school to intervene? Megumi's on a work study program??? why does Gojo get money?

Also, do members of the clans not work with the school? this is just world building I don't know

(in reference to this post)

The amount of money Toji would get was based on whether Megumi had an Inherited Technique. At the time, Megumi would have been too young yet to display what technique he got yet. (He would still have been 3/4 or younger when Toji made the deal with Naobito. Most sorcerers only display their abilities around 6 years old.) Toji was either bullshitting that Megumi had great potential or it was a gut instinct.

When Megumi was old enough, Gojo interfered before the Zen'in got a hold of him. Ah, and Toji was dead too, so there probably wasn't anyone left for the money to go to. Since, y'know, Toji was dead. That was probably used as part of the argument against the Zen'in taking Megumi, actually. Lol. Though, I'm sure they would've just kidnapped him if Gojo wasn't around.

From what I read of Megumi's internal narration, Jujutsu Tech sponsored Megumi and Tsumiki for living expenses. Kind of like a loan or scholarship? In turn, Megumi would work as a sorcerer in the future.

(But actually, I don't know. Even if Megumi and Tsumiki never lived with Gojo, according to the fanbook, Gojo paid for things like utilities. So, did the college just pay for like, food and (normal) schooling, or was Gojo paying for all of it without having told Megumi different?

Cuz we know Gojo took care of/mentored Megumi because of the latter's potential. He wanted strong allies to change Jujutsu society. So, maybe the deal of "get fed as long as you become sorcerer in the future" was Gojo's one-sided decision. Who knows. Lol.)

Gojo... does not get money from the Zen'in or Megumi. 😂 Not sure where you got that.

The college is used as a base for jujutsu society in general, so I'm sure many of the higher ups are also clan members. They're affiliated, but hm... The school is an institution that also works with the Japanese government, but it's also heavily tied by the influence of the Three Great Clans... Is my take.

For example "Special Grade 1" sorcerers like Naobito and a lot of the Zen'in are graded that way because they didn't attend the school, and thus not graded by the school, but are suspected (decided) of being on the same level as Grade 1. So... they get a sparkly title of their own. Goes to show you how privileged they are, don't it?

Get what I'm saying? I'd say the clans think they're too good to attend the school but they still hold influence inside because of how it's indisputably important to Jujutsu society.

I'm not at all sure if my rambling explanation made any sense. 😂

#sorry this got long #chiarrara #Megumi also just doesn't know a lot about what gojo does lol #jujutsu kaisen

[elapsed-spiral]

Thinking about Ed and trauma and the whole pink robe sad lyrics talent show of it all.

I agree that Ed is really trying out new ways of living when he returns to the Revenge but I think there is a strangeness and a falseness to it. That's trauma baby. I think Ed has just started getting comfortable with the idea that maybe he isn't an inherently monstrous, evil person, thanks to Stede and their moment at the beach, but that growing belief has been jeopardised, thanks to Stede and Ed's other moment at the dock. I know Stede, you're also traumatised as all hell, I know buddy. And if Stede is the guy who helped Ed start to think maybe he could be "someone else", then who is he without him?

When I watch the sad song scene, it feels a bit off to me. I think partly it's because the show is still a comedy, but also because Ed is clutching at straws. He wants to keep feeling better, he wants to keep believing that he's not an irredeemable monster, but the guy who helped him start to question that belief is gone. Why is he gone? Did he change his mind? Was he wrong about Ed?

I think the scene feels off, like play acting, because Ed doesn't really believe that he is pink robe wearing, talent show loving Ed or that that's who he can be. It just feels like another part he's playing. Because who is Ed Teach, really? He's had a lot of people tell him who he is, but he's not had a lot of opportunity to figure it out for himself.

So he's in a pretty delicate place when Izzy comes along and threatens him like a little shitbag. Worse still, on some level, I think there's a warped comfort to what Izzy tells him (don't get me wrong, what Izzy says is awful): Ed is a bad person. He is just Blackbeard, and that's all he'll ever be. At least Ed knows where he stands with that, even if it confirms that he's an evil, unlovable person.

But the problem is, once you've started to realise that maybe you aren't to blame for everything and maybe some terrible things happened to you, not you to them, it's hard to put that all back in the box. And that's how you end up crying while you look at your ex's wife's weirdly prophetic art.

#sorry this got long #ed teach ofmd #ed ofmd #ofmd meta

[cabin9sblog]

I'm going to step out of my demigod role play for just a sec

I may have mentioned this before, but I have a headcanon I'd like to share:

Hephaestus chooses godly godparents for his children. Either one or two depending on how much extra support he thinks they will need, but always at least one. The godparent(s) would bless the child, sometimes with a skill, or with powers. Basically, the kid would be under the protection of another god who can interact with them more.

Most of the godparents don't actually talk to the kid, but view them in a higher light than most mortals or demigods (not counting their own kids).

Other gods do this too, but only with their favorite kids, meanwhile, Hephaestus' trauma from his shitty parents means he never picks favorites and loves all of his kids.

He will often choose gods like Dionysus (his best friend (this isn't a headcanon, they are actually said to be good friends)), because they have a good history with their own kids. But sometimes he will even choose gods like Ares, who he doesn't get along with.

The only god he has never and will never choose, is Zeus. He did choose Hera once, but will not do that again because it ended in disaster.

#out of character #sorry this got long #heroes of olympus #percy jackson #percy jackon and the olympians #pjo #cabin 9 #hephaestus #cabin nine #dionysos #dionysus #hera #ares #demigods #pjo hoo toa #pjo headcanon #headcanon #riordanverse #zeus #hephaestus cabin #heroes of olympus headcanon #camp half blood #chb #greek gods

[gumy-shark]

q!jaiden and q!roier make me sick btw. i am sososo mentally ill about them. they and bobby are so good and one day i will be so annoying with the paragraphs ill type about them. there’s so much fucking love there. they fit together so well. emotionally i am still in that basement with charlie hunting all the eggs and jaiden is desperately praying for roier to come online so she at least has someone bc they are each other’s someone. and they are each other’s someone they are each other’s person and they’re not in love and they’re more than friends and the closest word to what they have is “family“ bc they are a family but there’s smth different about it. they were two strangers, paired up by chance, and they became something

#qsmp #sorry this got long #probably doesnt make too much sense bc i am just waxing poetic #the word 'partners' was invented so they could use it #like honesty mode there is smth so fulfilling to me abt seeing them interact?? #it's just mcrp but at the same time this is *exactly* the kind of relationship i want to have with someone one day #and seeing it in game is like. maybe i could have this. yknow?

[nyaagolor]

what do you think of Carmine and Kieran so far? My stance is that even though neither of them are abusive and do care deeply about each other (and seeing people say they are abusive, especially about Carmine, makes me really sad), I do think that their relationship is definitely NOT a "normal sibling relationship" and both of them do have a bunch of Capital I Issues. But them having Capital I Issues that complicate their relationship while still caring (which FURTHER complicates things) and not being bad people at all is what make them so interesting to me and it's a vicious cycle I LOVE VICIOUS CYCLES OF MISCOMMUNICATION AND MESSY RELATIONSHIPS!!! I'm so normal (lying)

absolutely adore them, Pokemon has really filled this game to the absolute brim with characters who 1. Behave like real people 2. Have actual personalities with arcs that don't act like complete archetypes. God fucking Bless.

The general reaction to the DLC tho has surprised me in the worst way possible. The characters in these games are significantly better written than any pokemon characters in the past but ultimately, they are still pokemon characters. Most of their personality traits are made abundantly and explicitly clear to the audience by the story's end. There is not much digging you really have to do here

And yet! I'm sitting here watching Carmine's reception and thinking back to Nemona, because both of them have a pretty clearly defined personality that I really didn't think were possible to misinterpret. Despite the fact that they are laughably easy characters to understand on a fundamental level people STILL have managed to mischaracterize them to the point of consistently putting discourse on my dash about it. "Carmine is abusive" Carmine is like 15. She is a teenage girl with a younger brother. This is how teenagers behave, especially insecure ones like Carmine is implied to be. She overcompensates and is kind of rude like 3 times and lets her caring nature slip constantly because she feels things extremely strongly. She gets really worked up over everything Because She Is A Teenager. I don't understand why this is difficult

I'm not even sure I would go as far as to say Carmine has Capital I Issues (tho that's a lil subjective, ymmv?) because everything just kinda feels like pretty typical teenager stuff? Like yeah she has issues but they're pretty much exactly what happened to like half the people I knew in high school. And honestly I adore that, it resonates with a lot of people and feels like a good representation of actual teenagers and their problems. It's not especially grandiose but it IS real. Her and Kieran's relationship having strain because they are both kids figuring out how to deal with each other and their emotions is a dope conflict to display in a pokemon game and I think fits in with the more grounded arcs and conflicts we've seen in the base game. It's nice

Kieran's fucked in the head tho idk what that bitch's problems are but I wanna watch him lose it. it'll be funny as hell. I hope his relationship with Carmine gets better but I want it to get worse first

#mod vex #ask #sorry this got long #i need people to be normal #please god.

[sg-s3c]

I love how you write jade! Shes so hard on herself but still sweet and bubbly i love her!

aw thanks!!! :3 i like jade a lot and thought she would make an interesting point of comparison with john - i imagine with their childhood friends getting married and with post-retcon jade in particular having so many issues with loneliness they'd both feel kinda awkward and left out on earth c, but john's response to distress is to isolate himself from people who care and have dumb tantrums about seemingly unrelated things, while jade's is to do as much as she possibly can to tackle the issue head-on and try really hard to stay positive. so john's been having bitchy conversations with a weird evil guy and making conspiracy theories while jade's been working hard on maintaining existing friendships and trying not to let anything get to her (possibly trying a bit too hard not to let anything get to her and not being kind to herself :( )

sadly i think despite probably being able to relate in many ways their difference in stress responses would make them not horribly helpful to each other as emotional support… john can be a huge tool if pushed on anything and jade is not a fan of watching people fall into negativity and will push back on it, especially when she finds herself in scenarios where her own issues are being reflected back at her but dealt with poorly, like with john on the ship pre-retcon and with karkat and jadesprite in act 5. in the homestuck cinematic universe that exists in my maladaptive daydreams jade has coped with some of her earth c listlessness by putting a lot of her energy into helping others, so i think it was extra frustrating for her when john pushed her away since he was also putting a damper on her own preferred way to deal with her feelings

i also imagine her getting close with dirk since she's already close with dave and jake and everything about dirk screams that he's a guy who needs help, plus there's some interest overlap with engineering and robotics. idk if i'll be able to show that in my fanventure without making the pacing weird or introducing too much scope creep though… hmm

#sorry this got long