#SO LIKE FUCK ME I GUESS

[jumpscaregoose]

*engaging with the human act of creation* -1hp -1hp -1hp -1hp -1hp -1hp -1hp -1hp

#decided to finally get cracking on some ooak projects I have planned #which is GREAT because the FULL HEAD OF WEFTS I made and the BASE DOLL I prepared are for 2 separate projects #so like fuck me I guess

[moregraceful]

ARE there any sports rpf fandom-friendly or -adjacent fanartists following me who are taking commissions who are open to doing non-portraiture art? I have a need for very stupid/joyful project that I would like to pay you real human money to put into reality. I don't need it until April so the timeline is fairly fluid. Please dm me 🫡🫡

(I can also pay you in "sending you free shit from California" if exchanging money for fanart is illegal in your area.)

#hint: it is 1u festival related #hint 2: it does not involve drawing real life humans or humans as furries #hint 3: i am a grown adult with three jobs i am not cheating you out of money #fresno oilers.txt #I MEAN GOD KNOWS FOR HOW LONG I AM EMPLOYED SINCE I WAS SCREEN SHARING TODAY AND REALIZED I HAD THREE SEPARATE TABS #OF FANFIC WIPS OPEN IN ADDITION TO A GOOGLE FOLDER THAT SAID FANFIC #IN FRONT OF AN ENTIRE COHORT OF PEOPLE WHO ARE SUPPOSED TO TRUST ME AS A MATURE ADULT #SO LIKE FUCK ME I GUESS #luckily i had about five hundred tabs open so that the names of the docs were at least partially concealed #but jfc lmao. i get no rest and no peace on planet earth and it's all my own fault

[lastoneout]

Sorry I just found out yesterday that my intracranial hypertension has progressed to the point where I am actually technically slowly going blind and I will almost certainly need to have surgery to get a shunt, which ENTIRELY relies on another doctor who never listens to me to finally get her head out of her ass and do her job rather than continuing to tell me to lose weight, so the prospect of seeing a different doctor who has definitively proven that he literally doesn't care if I drop dead in his office is uh...yeah not exciting to say the very least.

#I have like three good doctors the rest of them suck ass #my ophthalmologist and rheumatologist and dietician are the good ones #my primary and neurologist and cardiologist are the worst and I have continued to try to get into see different ones!! #and it NEVER WORKS!! #so like fuck me I guess #personal #vent #ask to tag #cw medical problems #my ophthalmologist is the only one who doesnt treat getting a shunt like it will ruin my life #so I like him #everyone else acts like it's as bad as cutting my legs off or a lobotomy or some shit #which isnt helping me feel better! #and tbh as an artist and twitch streamer uh yeah I'd rather have the shunt than go fucking blind

[thegeekyartist]

...

#trying not to cry about covid #failing #im vaxxed im boosted i wear my mask #but NO ONE ELSE where i live does #i got covid last july despite everything #and my sinuses have been a mess since #like rn im laying on my back on the couch and theres this pressure right between my eyes #i constantly feel like I'm not getting a full breath bc of it #and apparently its mutated again and has the potential to start spreading even more #and i just... #im so tired #im so angry #im so fucking exhausted #but i have to go to work and i have to go to the grocery store and i gave have to keep teaching to survive #so like fuck me i guess #fuck the people way worse off than me #fuck my high risk best friend that just had a baby #i wish i could say i had hope for the future #but it dwindles every day #personal #tw covid

[crazywolf828]

Ugh. All my favorite fic authors are writing warrior nun fics so like. Now I guess I have to finish it.

#i literally just got four separate emails telling me my faves wrote for it #so like fuck me i guess #don't mind me

[singlethread]

Every time I see a video of conan gray a little voice in the back of my head goes “I wish I could experience femininity like that”

#like idk #I wish people would not see me as a girl #because I’m not a girl #but I love hyper femininity #so like fuck me I guess #god gives his hardest battles to his strongest soldiers

[biggest-gaudiest-patronuses]

going through my old journals as part of therapy homework and i'm reading a section written in the emotional wreckage of a full-on breakdown when i get hit with this line:

There is never a satisfying answer to ‘Why didn’t they love me?’

like wow babe. good fucking point

#like you were on the ground biting the carpet and dry sobbing while you wrote that and still. good fucking point #not a shitpost #cptsd #and it's true. there's never a satisfying answer #the truth is i know why i wasn't loved #i analyzed my parent's traumas and abuse to death. i understand why i alienated and was alienated from my siblings #i know why my mom was too overwhelmed to be capable of nurturing #i know why my dad vanished into addiction and avoidance #the details of our cycles of trauma and cptsd and family history i have a phd in all of it #i understood perfectly. i spent years studying and now i knew the answer #and guess what? IT WAS NOT SATISFYING!!! #because they still didn't love me! and i still couldn't change that! #it was still a completely unsatisfying state of affairs! #so like. when the people who are supposed to love you...don't. #when the people who are supposed to take care of you...fail to #you can look for answers and reasons and explanations #but that's not actually going to FIX your situation. #and it's probably not within your ability TO fix the situation. (and definitely not your job) #because you don't need answers--you need a new situation #*inserts Just Walk Out. You Can Leave!!! (Running Skeleton) Meme* #and yes. walking out isn't always possible. #but for you i hope it will be one day soon. and i hope you build the courage to take that leap. #stepping away from the people who failed to love you...it feels like being untethered but also like being lighter than air #new and scary. immensely relieving. the future opens up. empty but empty like a canvas. blindingly bright until your eyes adjust #like climbing out of a pit you called home and for the first time realizing how bright the light of day can truly be #when you aren't just getting glimpses from the bottom of a hole

[weaselmcdiesel]

Do You Love The Color Of The 413?

#HOMESTUCK #413 #HOMESTUCK 413 #john egbert #dave strider #rose lalonde #jade harley #vriska #kanaya #terezi #karkat #HAPPY 413 YAYYYYYY!!!!!!!! #THIS TOOK ME 4 DAYS PLEASE LOVE IT #AHHHHHHH IVE NEVER MADE ANYTHING THIS BIG BEFORE #IT'S NOT AS FINISHED AS ID LIKE- LIKE I USED A LOT OF JUST MULTIPLICITY LAYERS FOR SHADING BUT #I DONT HAVE MUCH TIME LMAO #ALSO IM PRETTY SURE TUMBLR WILL EAT THE QUALITY SO PLEASE CLICK TO ZOOM LOL #ART #MY ART #heavens. i dont know if i should tag all the characters? #ill only tag the bigger characters i guess #since so many are in there #it's supposed to be transparent and not black #but apparently tumblr will turn transparency white if the photo is too large #fucking great

[static-notes]

Well fuck. Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck.

#so i forgot a thing and now what I thought I’d be doing this weekend isn’t happening #so like fuck me I guess #No relief for me 🫠

[comradekatara]

> be zuko

> try desperately to ingratiate yourself within the avatar’s friend group (to no avail, of course, because you have terrible social skills, and previously tried to kill them, also)

> try to fight off the human wmd you previously hired to blow them all up

> fail miserably, because he is indestructible

> watch as sokka effortlessly kills him with a very precise boomerang throw to the brain

> suddenly recall every single time you got hit in the head by his boomerang

> feel immense gratitude for what you had previously dismissed as uncle’s obnoxiously stringent and paranoid over-emphasis on the importance of helmet safety

#zuko #sokka #combustion man #iroh #sokka could’ve taken down all of unanimity with his boomerang #he and yangchen would’ve been the fucking dream team fr #altho i guess jujinta also has rly precise aim so he basically fulfills that role #but like. sokka has precise aim AND everything else kavik has (except for waterbending but like. he doesn’t even need it) #anyway. these tags are not relevant to the post at all #also i think zuko would like the helmet bc a) they’re regulation so he feels more militaristic in them and b) they cover his scar #but for the purposes of this joke of he hates the way they compress on his skull and he also whines before iroh makes him put it on #honestly both are equally plausible to me #so let’s just say it’s a combination thereof

[umblrspectrum]

you'll never guess which movie i finally watched after 2 years of being lazy

#dont you just love it when your artstyle changes like 5 times in the span of a day #i saw emmachen1003 give them the glove type thingys and went “that looks cool. im stealing it” #so uhm. props to them for being awesome and making cool art #anyways that was a fun movie #not gonna say the title here cause i think it messes with searching and i dont wanna do that #that n frame is like the first time i have ever done a decent angle/perspective thing #im so proud of it you don't even know #murder drones #murder drones uzi #murder drones n #serial designation n #murder drones nori #absolute solver #i guess #or is it absolutesolver #whatever #oh yeah uhmm #murder drones episode 7 #murder drones episode 7 spoilers #murder drones spoilers #its been 2 weeks but im gonna give it another day just to be safe #just realized i fucked up the quote and its pissing me off so edited. go fuck yourself

[ccorinthian]

fuck you ageism fuck you life ending at 30 fuck you makeup industry forcing us to feel bad about a natural process fuck you hustle culture fuck you instagram fuck you youtube fuck you glorification and deification of youth fuck you who make people feel bad for not having "achieved anything" in their 20s fuck you people who peaked in high school and try to drag everybody down by insisting it's all downhill after 19

#im not dedicating hours and days and weeks of my 20s of hard work on my mental health to cope w shit i went through #for some bitches on websites to tell me ill shrivel up and die when i hit 30 unless my life is perfect by then #youre not dragging me down to that mindset and i wont let your doom and gloom about turning older make me feel like shit !! #some of us have to rebuild ourselves from ground up and that shit takes time and thats FINE and if you think otherwise fuck off honestly #ageism is such a disgustingly overlooked aspect thats so ingrained in our culture and you need to recognise it #or you'll just feel worse and worse about yourself with every passing day bc guess what baby you cant go back!! #SICK of the negativity surrounding age on this website get yourself the fuck together honestly

[chalkrub]

strange fellas

#my art #demon #illustration #oc #ethos #pathos #logos #lino printing fun as hell yippeeeeee #i don't have a scanner at home and i forgor to ask my mom to scan these for me like two days in a row so i just took photos #of the original scans and made do. too impatient. and the paper texture looks neat anyway #how the hell people make intricate line work with lino i do not understand. saw a mutual post a wolf's head lino print the other day #and it was so detailed with thin decorative lines. idk how they be doin it #if the answer is lots of patience and the knowledge you could fuck up at any moment then i guess i'll never hone the art

[julijbee]

in awe of the beauty of the world

#art #tes #skyrim #sort of anyways. hes from skyrim so that is how i will classify what is going on here #teldryn sero #tes fanart #i fucking love this guy #sidetracked my quests to give him a walking tour of skyrim after his deeply endearing reaction to the college of winterhold #as someone who never used companions in all my years of playing this game i was thrilled to learn everyone likes this guy as much as i do #also he gets extra points because chitin and netch armors have my heart #the goggles send me joyous places #anyways the state of my sketchbook ever since i descended back into my tes fixation is pretty catastrophic #what with the amount of vivec happening. so look forward to that at some point i guess #ash yams.. hackle-lo.. goggles.. kwama egg.. sujamma.. cup... we are making tinctures tonight

[rendevok]

“Take my hand” pages 5-11

1 - day 2 - truth - 3

#nmweek23 #narumitsu #wrightworth #phoenix wright #miles edgeworth #i spent all yesterday shading and lettering these your boy is so tired BUT IT WAS WORTH IT #in which i cram way too much into way too little and yet way too many pages for a single day #my sincerest apologies to them on their day but i will make it up to them i PROMISE #‘prove it’ you’ll NEVER GUESS what happens next :^))))) (<-guy who is extremely predictable) #phoenix is so strong because if miles looked at me like that i’d be going crazy and im like a known enemy of edgeworth #see you guys in like 5-7 business days on part 3 o7 #fan art #aa #fan comic #rendevok #OH OH ALSO there’s like a whole fucking essay i could write about these pages esp wrt light and also The Hands but youll have to ask for it #just know that if you see something… there was probably a reason for it! #ok thats it fr this time

[crazywolf828]

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#im about to make a vent post but like dw im not on the edge yknow im fine #but like man #its wild how we just have to keep living life #the world is ending and we just have to keep going #yet somehow every day is the same and the years keep going by #time is escaping us so fast #and because of this damn pandemic i haven't been able to leave my house because i live with so many immunocompromised people #i went to a fucking walmart for the first time in a year the other day #its so fucking ridiculous #and people just go out and do what they want and its just i wish i could #everyone is living and im stuck here #anyway the seasonal depression started kicking in like a week ago #so now weve got it stacking with normal depression #so like fuck me i guess #alright just ignore me #don't mind me