#Or headmate memories

[richesthermit]

i don ’t know if you had already answered this question before but what are the ships you aren’t comfortable doing ?

Grian x Jimmy , Hermitcraft specific Scarian (On thin ice) , Grian x Pearl , Poly Badboys and any Welsknight ships are the only ones I can think of off the top of my head :) And of course any weird ships such as adult x minor! Feel free to always send in an ask to see if I'm comfortable with a ship before requesting :)

#❀ ┈ asks #♡ anon #These are for different reasons but most are due to viewing as a more fam relationship :) #Or headmate memories #things like that #+ Also headcanons! (Welsknight specific) #With the hermitcraft specific Scarian this doesn't mean I won't do mumscarian :)

[katetorias]

our little said jack sings the sound of music to her, which made me feel very soft and i wanted to draw it. it’s very sweet to find out the relationships everyone has

this is the message she sent, it made her very happy and even if I don’t remember much of when she was here I remember that :)

#unfortunately I don’t get to experience much of them since I’m mostly fronting #but people like her who barely front always come with small memories of stuff they do #makes me happy to know they’re yknow. happy #my art #sys talk #digital art #personal art #plural art #jackson overland frost #headmates #alt in id

[lunadreamscaper]

People who share the Ghost and Jimmy being a system/DID headcanon. I love you (platonically.)

To those who don’t I still like you don’t worry it’s okay xD

#im biased bc I have headmates and suppressed memories as well lol #didcore #also something really fucked up must’ve happened to Gregory for jimmy to be THAT violent ya know??? #taleblr #venturiantale #larrydacat #taleblr headcanons #johnny ghost #venturiantale pie #johnny ghost did #venturiantale headcanons #johnny ghost headcanon #johnny ghost pie #jimmy casket did #johnny ghost is hella traumatized guys he didn’t come like that/lh #if you see these hi there

[bardkin]

been doing some internal questioning that boils down to “is it the auADHD or i am plural in some way???”

and i’m. not sure if i want to know the answer. at least not yet.

#ensiger #possibly plural #this post is brought to you by a monoconscious culture post that hit a lot harder than i thought it would #'wait how long have i been me. when did i stop being the other guy' #also a lot of the Dragonheart Collective's essay points in Dissociation. & internal thought voice. #the only point in Identity disturbances that really hit was - #Feeling like you weren't born in that body & that you simply appeared one day inside of it. #like. i sometimes feel like ''I'' is more than one internally. #like i'm One Person in the way a cartoon character can be animated/storyboarded by multiple artists. #does that make sense as like?? a plural thing??? #or is that just the depersonalization & bees in my brain?? #also that like. the 'current me' stepped into my body & 'replaced' whoever used to be here. i have (most) of my memories & shit but just. #i'm not totally sure if this is a 'i have grown and changed since i was a child' or 'i'm a different person in every sense of the word.' #i kind of stewed on this questioning a couple years(?) ago when i was first learning about multiplicity. but nothing ever really came of it #bc digging further into it didn't feel useful. all the stuff i was reading didn't feel like it was lining up with what's going on in here #i've recently been doing some reading on monoconscious & median systems but. #i don't want to act on anything until i Know. or at least until i Know More. #also i'm about 90% sure my kintypes are not headmates/alters/etc. they feel like / similar to my gender & not. ''extra Me's'' so to speak

[fleaearred]

hey , older mutuals — genuine ask. does it get any fucking better.

#ventish #i fucking guess. #idk. #the body turns 16 on sunday. 15 has been hell on earth for us. *i* turn 20. my existence in general has been hellish. #as a side note #i call myself the host but i am not the original. we’re like twins. i was the second. #i don’t like thinking about it. #for the longest time i thought i was the original. i have a shot memory and we have headmates who keep memories #there is something so fucking dreadful about knowing i have pseudomemories of 16 #multiple sets of them. and in all of them 16 was the worst. #and im fucking terrified.

[aroacedavestrider]

i just know some kind of fucking wizard put a curse on me cause i have just had the phrase “full body scrunge” on repeat in my head and i cannot make it go away. my brain is in full fledged Scrunge Mode and there is no off button

#idk if its the right way to phrase this but like. ok #yknow how headmates and alters can hold certain Thangs #like some people hold memories some hold trauma etc etc #ok i think i fucking hold the adhd diagnosis #delete later #dave speaks #full body scrunge. what the fuc

[linabirb]

also i'm still kinda. trying to accept that i'm a system and i had to go to therapy today and my mom was there with me but while we were on our way she was like "hey do you remember our stop. like what station is it" and i actually forgot and was like "uh. idk. head empty" and she asked "is everyone asleep there or what" and i nodded and she was like "okay then wake everyone up" and i lightly knocked myself on the head as a joke but then. like a few seconds later i was like "oh i remember it now" and mom went "THEY WOKE UP??"

#THIS IS SO FUNNY TO ME. #like me and my headmates have. not the best communication and i can't control who fronts at all #so me summoning them like that is so 😭😭 #you know how when characters lose their memory after hitting their head. for me it's the opposite HSJSKSLSL #[ 💚 𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐚 𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐤𝐬 ]

[awful-roffle]

"subsystems are polyfrag only" then what is going on with me!!!!

#els posting #station tag #plurality #theres another. me but its not me its younger Me and not the body or younger body specifically Me #but i cant tell if its Part of Me or just Me Remembering or what and im! okay! #and even then the Remembering is weird in the context of headmate memories and i. okay #explodes.

[dappersautismcreature]

im,, hm

i need to vent for a sec so if you dont wanna see just .. yeah

i have been told a lot, by my parents, by mental health professionals that my abuser has BPD, and that caused them to abuse me

now, i certainly dont believe that all people with BPD will abuse people, everyone just told me to take it as an explanation, not an excuse, but an explanation

and now we're confused because, seeing these posts about mental illness not like, contributing to abuse

we dont feel comfortable sharing like, details, but our abuser was the same age as us, aka a child, so its so easy for people to basically explain away her abuse, "not excuse it" they always say "just explains it"

what other explanation is there? (rhetorical) its really complicated because she's done so much work on herself, and we're living with her again, and she says she's changed and she has changed. but if the mental illness didn' contribute,,, she's not evil, she's not inherently bad.

she just, hurt us, as an outlet, for her mental illness, i think.

ugh, this whole situation is triggering so many of our past traumas and we thought we'd be fine but like, almost every single Situation is being triggered ToT

#switch from i to we a lot sorryyy that happens it just depends on how much influence the headmates have #front room is a little packed rn #vent #the way that this brings up memories of stuff from last year and also stuff from years ago ToT #also sorry cause dont usually vent on here #tw abuse

[stargazerssociety]

alone.

One of our earliest alters simply goes by Alone.

I still remember the first time I spoke with it. I was 6 years old, camping out in my room to hide away from her.

I was crying. [Alone. Nox.]

’Hello..’

‘What? Where are you?’

‘I’m here with you. Don’t worry.’

*sniffling slowly begins to cease.* ’Who are you..?’

‘I’m alone… What’s wrong..?’

‘… I’m alone.’

#did #osdd #osddid #endos dni #anti endo #endo dni #traumagenic system #memories #traumatized child #trauma vent #lonely #insys #headmates

[getallemeralds]

hey guess who figured out that some of our amnesia about past headmates (that isn't directly caused by trauma) is "oh goddamnit there's Two systems in here and they do Not share info"

#leo chirps #hex.txt #system shit #if we cant remember details about somebody they're probably not in the lodge! #because uh. everything else is a hazy blur. #and the venn diagram of ''headmates we dont remember'' and ''headmates thatre probably in the sidesystem'' is a circle. #so we're gonna need to shake down ike (admin of both) and T1 (poster boy of sidesystem) for info sometime #not that ike's memory is the greatest either on account of Exploding

[transfem-mafuyu-official]

Huh- who are you? - @asahina-mafuyu-official

//For reference her memories were swapped (but she remembers none of the RP stuff)

...

*I am not typing the clone explanation out so pretend there was an explanation of it here*

#mafuyuposting #//The guy who messed with her memories is my headmate dw I knew about this

[fictivehaven]

Sometimes I question whether I'm actually a fictive or just someone being weird and cringy

And then I get panic attacks watching my source when a normal person wouldn't and I'm like "yeah I'm a fictive"

- 💙

#during specific scenes though ya'know #memories and stuff #fictive #alter #headmate #introject #system stuff #plural #plurality #multiplicity #sysblr #- 💙

[akinachiri]

ykno how sometimes u maybe 'forget' what u were doing and have to say smth outloud like 'what was i doing?' to remind urself when u prob knew all along? its like when u hear clearly and understand what someone said but go 'what?'. i think thats how i could describe our experiences in more understandable terms.

#checkmates chatter #for the most part memories are shared ykno? #but its an alter specific experience #i dont feel comfortable speaking on a headmates exp #nor do i feel like i can #its not locked away its in vision #but its like theres a clear glass wall between it #for some of us when memory is worse #its clouded and foggy #u can barely see through the glass #metaphorically at least #but yeah #/leo

[orange-orchard-system]

*going to type something into the search bar*

*male voice speaking in spanish*: chevy~

I didn't even have to hear the chevy part to know it was a car commercial tho lmao. funny thing is I was tryna look for gender terms and then it went loudly blasting.

*busts down wall like the Kool-aid man* Chevy~

#asks #it only hit me now that this is probably in reference to the automatically playing tumblr ads #and not i.nternal communication #that makes more sense than one of your headmates deciding to randomly blast the memory of a car commercial #front soup.txt

[bromantically]

shoutout to the "friend" who blocked me everywhere after i had my psychosis-triggered syscovery over a year ago because they thought i was faking it and led me to shut down any acknowledgment of being a system for the next entire year. do u think they would believe me now

#kitty purrs #neg #the first headmate i ever met woke up for the first time since that event! hes not dormant anymore! #but its sort of bringing up some unfortunate memories about my syscovery journey #do u think they could look vic in the eye and apologize #i wont dwell on that sort of fantasy bc it wont bring any comforf #but like sort of fucked up that it happened like that