#there is something so fucking dreadful about knowing i have pseudomemories of 16

[fleaearred]

hey , older mutuals — genuine ask. does it get any fucking better.

#ventish #i fucking guess. #idk. #the body turns 16 on sunday. 15 has been hell on earth for us. *i* turn 20. my existence in general has been hellish. #as a side note #i call myself the host but i am not the original. we’re like twins. i was the second. #i don’t like thinking about it. #for the longest time i thought i was the original. i have a shot memory and we have headmates who keep memories #there is something so fucking dreadful about knowing i have pseudomemories of 16 #multiple sets of them. and in all of them 16 was the worst. #and im fucking terrified.