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into-wonderland-caroline · 2 months

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03/12/24

Captain is taking a morning nap in what looks like some kind of very uncomfortable contortion pose...

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in-pursuit-of-happiness-caroline · 5 months

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You don't believe it can happen to you - I didn't either...

...Health problems I have to live with caused by the 8 years I struggled with anorexia and orthorexia[and never believed I was "sick enough" for it to happen to me].

I want to preface this post by saying 2 things; First, this post will talk some about eating disorders, although nothing detailed and I will not ever post numbers or anything more obviously upsetting, I do still want to give that warning so if this topic might upset or cause problems for you, do what is good for you and don't continue reading this. Second, I am not a medical or mental health professional. I have no degrees of any kind so this post, like all my others, is purely my experiences, opinions and what I have learned from my doctors over the years. You've been warned now on to the real content/topic...

The past few weeks there has been these nagging thoughts and feelings of some regrets and anger and sadness about how much of my physical health alone eating disorders took from me. I can't go back to change anything but it is something that makes me angry how deceived and distorted someone who is in the depths of an eating disorder can be. For a little back story I struggled with Orthorexia and anorexia for 8 years. The behaviors & obsessions began when I was only 7 years old and I was diagnosed with Orthorexia at age 8 and given a second diagnosis of anorexia at age 10. I stayed in these disorders until I was 15 & only then did I actively pursue and work for recovery. I'm happy to say I have maintained that recovery and a healthy weight since, however, a lot of damage was already done to my body by the time I was 15 and unfortunately much of it was not reversed so I live with many physical health problems caused by anorexia and Orthorexia.

Like many who struggle with eating disorders I was, at different points, told about and warned of the damage it could do to my body, the possible long term consequences of continuing in my disorders. Also like many who struggle with eating disorders I shrugged off these warnings and facts. In my mind none of it would happen to me because I never saw myself as a "sick enough " orthorexic and anorexic to warrant such complications. Now, were there and are there people struggling with eating disorders whose cases would be called more severe and critical than me - yes of course and that is kind of the point- this idea people who struggle with eating disorders have that they have to be the sickest, skinniest, closest to death's door anorexic or orthorexic or whatever to have long term health problems from it or to deserve help or die from their disease is a complete garbage dumpster fire of lies and bullshit! It's not a competition and comparison will destroy! With an eating disorder it will never be enough until it kills you...you will not win anything ‐ or be smiled on, applauded, or envied for dying so thin. No one who knew you will remember you after your death and speak fondly, joyfully or boast about how sick and thin you were. It will not be a positive, admirable, inspiring, happy legacy you will leave if you die sick because of an eating disorder. Your loved ones will suffer, they will be angry about your sickness, angry that you couldn't believe you were sick enough/warranted help. They will be sad and grief stricken and wonder what they could have done differently. They will blame themselves. It's harsh, morbid and very depressing but it is the truth of the legacy you will leave if your eating disorder kills you because you weren't thin enough, sick enough, and you didn't believe any of it could happen to you. You won't die happy and fulfilled because you are thin and sick, you will die depressed, scared, anxious, tortured, and weak just as you were in the eating disorder that deceived you pushing you to hold on to and continue your behaviors, always promising you will be happy when but continually moving that goal- keeping it out of reach because it's never enough with an eating disorder. It's a lie!

Talking to my doctors, I have learned that a good portion of my heart problems were caused by/at least partially caused by years of starvation, malnutrition and stress from my eating disorders. These heart issues include: my heart murmur, mitral valve prolapse and mitral valve regurgitation(which I had to have heart surgery for last year), bradycardia, and thin heart walls! This accounts for every heart health problem I have besides one...it makes me cringe with regret, anger and sadness just to know that.

Anorexia and Orthorexia also caused the irreversible damage and basically shut down of my reproductive system meaning I am sterile/infertile...can not have children. Because I began struggling with eating disorders so young, becoming sick and emaciated/malnourished so quickly and basically remaining in that state or in a declining state for 8 years I have not ever had a period or menstrual cycle and I will not ever due to the damage to my reproductive system. This also caused problems with my bone density and I have osteopenia (basically the beginning stage of osteoporosis) and eventually that will progress into full osteoporosis. I also have permanent damage to my liver caused by my eating disorders.

I hate that I caused so much of my own health struggles and problems and as a result cause my family worry for my health, my well being, and my future. Not to mention the experiences, relationships, strength, health, life, personality, adventure, discovery, zeal, joy, love, rest, dreams the eating disorders took from me and I can't go back and have them.

I am a dancer. Dance is my biggest passion in life and some day I won't be able to dance anymore because the permanent damage and health problems from my eating disorders will end it. My bones will be too brittle and weak to leap and turn and hold a pose, have correct technique. My heart could get weaker- more stressed in time and I will have dance taken from me. I won't be able to follow that dream, to perform. The consequences of eating disorders reach my entire life and that is and/or can be the reality for anyone with an eating disorder who doesn't believe it will happen to them - who doesn't see themselves as sick enough. I did not see it or believe it either and yet this is my reality.

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merverelli · 2 months

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👼🗡️ toddiel, the golden sword of the inconquerable dawn. 👼🗡️

#brennan lee mulligan #fallen for you #just like art #love this boy #yes this is fanart of a 7 year old video #but in my defence: im currently recovering from surgery so i can do no wrong rn #also: i got surgery to hopefully help my chronic pain!! it was a minor surgery too thankfully so im all good rn #the hospital i went to had VERY good homemade mini margarita pizzas and that was basically all i ate there #fucking ruled actually #and the worst part of recovery should be over (excluding physio etc) so thats cool too! fuck crutches all my homies hate crutches #been using recovery as an excuse to get into traditional art again bc its easier to do than digital art after my surgery #turns out im bad at traditional art #i fucked up lining the first try of this and had to redo the whole thing. i then fucked up lining the second try near the end.#i then decided to try to save it.#you need to ignore the white out stains because there was no way i was gonna be able to attempt lining this a third time.#i then found out i have neither a peach tone coloured marker or pencil.#this fanart damn near broke me.#fuck traditional art. my heart goes out to every traditional artist.#so theres my life update!! v busy (i have fused to the couch)#hope youre doing good champ ily thanks for reading i love our lil chats

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ialwaysknewyouwerepunk · 7 days

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#these past two weeks have been so intense that ive just.. not spoken about it once i got home from work #blocked it all out #my beloved colleague whose desk is next to mine has cancer #breast and uterus. she needs two major surgeries #they just diagnosed her two weeks ago #so we've been trying to deal with that as colleagues and friends #because we love and miss her and i am so deeply sad as well #but i feel like i couldn't process that at all bc two days after the news of her diagnosis i was asked to take on half of her work #on top of my fulltime #which i agreed to do bc i like her tasks and i want to help her and i also know i can do it #but it does feel very off bc i know i don't earn enough money for this workload to be long term and it is def like this #for the coming four months at least #so i did tell my manager that i would like a raise and. that bitch told me to BUY MORE SECOND HAND SHIT.#i seriously thought i saw my life flash before my eyes #then the day after she asked one of my colleagues who's been with the firm for over 30 years whether she was looking for another job maybe?#which caused that colleague to instantly go home in tears and be home from basically a nervous breakdown the past 1.5 week #which is her full right and i support her with all my heart but bc my management sucks it meant that we had to also carry her tasks ofc #i felt soooo spread thin and super super angry actually but i didn't even realise how angry i was until last thursday my colleague w cancer #came by the office. and talked about all of it. and i suddenly realised how sad i was but then also how angry #but i was just blocking it all out trying to stay afloat #bc we told her about what the manager had said and she said “i hope that i get the chance to really tell her how it is someday.”#“because the stress she causes with people can actually kill you. just look at me.”#and the rest of the day i felt so ready to be done with everything actually #but seeing her anger made me see my own anger #and released me of my own pent up emotions bc i had actual leg pains this week and it was purely psychosomatic #i then managed to tell some friends yesterday about what was going on and their outrage spurred me on even more #so today i emailed hr. demanding a raise #doing this amount of work while constantly feeling like the house is on fire while also struggling financially seriously makes me suicidal #and i am not joking #so.. if nothing comes of that im leaving that job and not looking back

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comixandco · 9 months

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i’m just

there must be so many gaps in jieum’s memory

she was the girl of many trades but can she remember how she learnt any of those skills? No they were all from her past lives so they’re gone. Can she remember leaving her neglectful family to live with ae-gyeong? No because she was from a past life, so where does ji-eum think she grew up? She remembers being good at school and her awards but not if anybody was there in the audience for her. She says in her phone call to her superior that she remembers switching departments before, but she doesn’t remember working in the hotel. She cooks meals the exact way as ae-gyeong taught her and she taught ae-gyeong, but she doesn’t remember having learnt them. if she can’t remember anything to do with her past lives, she wouldn’t be able to remember anything that had happened in the past few months the drama is set over.

that must be such an odd and confusing existence, to only remember small dots and flashes of your life, and a giant gap in recent memory, and she doesn’t even seem to be affected by it either? Did she go to the hospital after coming to consciousness standing on a bridge with no idea how she got there? Did they run tests on her brain to see if something had gone wrong? Does she think she suffered a mental breakdown?

What is going on in ji-eum’s brain in those final scenes i want to dissect her thoughts like a grape

#see you in my 19th life #did she move back into her old job on the suggestion of a therapist who is helping her with her sudden memory loss?#she was living with ae-gyeong where did she think she lived?#does she have monthly visits to a group of doctors that are fascinated by her oddly specific memory loss?#in those first few days after losing all her memories. did people she knew try to approach her and she freaked?#if she’d gone to the hospital ae-gyeong would be her emergency contact. maybe it just slipped through the cracks because she was also in #hospital recovering from surgery at the time.#there is a large set of contacts in ji-eum’s phone that she doesn’t recognise at all - not just numbers from her loved ones #but contacts for her job at the hotel as well and anybody she’d met during the show’s run #imagine with me if you will if there had been one final episode instead of those few scenes #ji-eum recovering from what she can only assume is some kind of mental breakdown from stress and her childhood #ae-gyeong coming to visit her in hospital and this deliciously heart-wrenching scene that mirrors ji-eum by her bedside when she was ill #and ji-eum doesn’t recognise her at all and only feels a base level of concern knowing ae-gyeong had surgery not long before #ae-gyeong promising to take care of ji-eum but turns her down because her head and heart hurt from being near her so she rents out an #apartment. she has no recollection of working at the hotel and seo-ha isn’t ready to see her yet it’s too soon so doyun has to handle her #transition back to the engineering track. and in her phone she deletes all the contacts she doesn’t know but when she looks at the photos #and icr if she took one with seo-ha but she must have but defo the one with her ae-gyeong and cho-won. she can’t bear to delete them #even though she doesn’t know them or remember why they were taking this photo. but bc it’s a romance she has to have a few photos of seo-ha #and she sort of ponders over them like. who are you. who were you to me. but it hurts her head so she puts down her phone #and there can be a bunch of times throughout the episode where she just misses him like. she’s asleep in hospital and he brings her flowers #and she wakes up just in time to see the back of his head leaving the room. she could visit ae-gyeong to try to rebuild this #parental relationship she doesn’t remember but has all the proof that this is the lady who raised her. and like in the show seo-ha could be #sat right behind her but he doesn’t interact with her directly they just do the napkin bit and then he leaves w/o looking at her #and the meet-up with cho-won could stay the same with the difference that ji-eum recognises her from their photo and says something like #’we know each other don’t we.’ and cho-won gets so excited and maybe even calls them sisters but then she realises what she’s doing and is #like. ‘that’s how it felt for me. we worked together just a few months ago. i’m cho-won’ and then ji-eum can do that #gorgeous reach for her memories from the show where she rolls the name around her mouth because it’s just so familiar #and ofc i’d change nothinf about the scene where she finally re-unites with seo-ha that was delicious af #but i feel like there were just too many gaps in her memories for it to have been smoothed over y’know?#disclaimer i read the webtoon first and loved it but think it had to change for the adaptation

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mapleshmaple · 5 months

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#myuncle is having what im 99% sure is life or death related heart surgery right after our grandmother dired

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elenadoeslife · 10 months

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your first love hits different

#another day another vent-in-the-tags post #i came across a picture of me and my fiest boyfriend of five years today. picture must've been 10 years old at this point #found many more pictures of him and us on my dad's old pc #i can just feel my body pull and heart ache when i look at him in the pictures #wondering what my life would've looked like if i hadn't broken things off between us #we tried to stay friends and a couple of months later we went for a drink. when daying goodbye he moved in to kiss me #i was hesitant and stepped away. he couldn't bare having me in his life while not being together so he cut off all contact #don't get me wrong in any of my thoughts- i love babe whole heartedly and he's the only man for me now and in my future #it's just that nagging feeling burried deep. the 'what if's. what if i felt more confident about my body back then?#what if i hadn't moved on so quickly? what if i had let him kiss me?#i tried texting him telling him i was approved for gbp surgery (i broke things off because i was very insecure about my body)#he congratulated me and sincerely wished me all the happiness in the world but also asked me not to contact him again after this #it's been 7-ish years but every now and then i wonder how he's doing and what he's up to #he doesn't really have social media apart from facebook (and that page is private) and i only stayed in touch with his former best friend #but i'm not gonna ask him because i know they haven't spoken in years either #i've had plenty more relationships after him but i rarely ever think about those guys #am i okay? is this normal? lol #i should get my head out of this rabbit hole asap #add: the picture is almost 15 years old lol. my math ain't mathing. we met in 2009. not that it's important #i think i just moved on too quickly and didn't allow myself time & space to grieve. that's why he keeps popping up in my thoughts now & then

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lilgynt · 6 months

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i get choked up looking at any photo not dated currently from palestine cause like. these kids in a documentary are any of them alive? this man smiling at his baby? this building? or god think about the amount of families entirely wiped out from grandparents to babies last i checked was like. 881 and that was a while ago. let alone the actual footage of gaza rn

#personal #daily routine: watch videos from gaza sob for a while save bc i mean to put them on a flash drive #then i scroll and get like a thirst edit it’s a lot #and then anytime i see numbers i try to imagine talking with one person per minute and god. 10 #10000 minutes each just for one person and like #isn’t even close to current numbers plus the people who will die under rumble or after being freeed bc their injuries are too great #and the doctors are doing surgery on the street with no painkillers no medication no sterilization nothing #my mom and grandpa worked with doctors without borders and god.#but god that’s so many minutes. and that’s just a minute #those are whole lives #just a minute with 10000 people would be like. 166 hours. for one minute per person #imagine an hour imagine a life time knowing them. just gone instantaneously #and this was on going before oct 7th this is nothing new and god #bottom of my heart i wish this is the worst humanitarian crisis any of us ever see. it’s almost inconceivable the amount of suffering #god not mentioning no food no water and winter is coming #how many people are just gonna freeze to death?

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andromedasummer · 3 months

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finished my crochet cup holder and sewed up lunas ears, head and sewed them together and have started on crocheting a cactus which is pretty damn good considering i spent nearly all of saturday sleeping to recover from work and the family emergency happening rn

#im okay my grandad is being taken to hospital rn #theyve been working on his heart (hes had a triple bypass and a stent that failed ((think the surgery was botched)) but yeah doctors keeping #and eye on him and found his heart tried to fail twice this week and only the meds stopped it) so hes being taken the the hospital #they live on the other island so my uncle is driving 2 hrs in to look after my grandmother (who is who i actually assumed was sick when the #call came through because shes got a whole heap of problems like alzheimers and parkinsons)#but yeah my dad is gonna have to organize a flight down and i know that despite being short of breath my grandad was able #to give dad a call and let him know what was happening so hes not in a really bad state #but. yeah this is stressful! stressful thing to happen on whats supposed to be a holiday and i hope he just needs to stay overnight #because im coming down next month and i want him to be there. i want to see him. i want to see both of them and sleep in the side room #in the spare bed thats tucked just the way my grandma makes it #and have mashed potatoes and play board games and just. be around them #i know they dont have long left and i havent had to grieve a family member in my life before #i want them around just a bit more. just a little longer

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reorientingtothexdaylight · 4 months

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Could my heart beat more quietly just I need to sleep I need the sleep

#My heart hurts from the lack of sleep #I am sleepy #I want to sleep #And my heart is just dadumdadumda..... Dum. 'cause yeah I now got a aryrhmic heart #Yay #(either I've had it my whole life or covid did something to me #Cause my doctor discovered it two months after I had covid for the first time and I can't tell if I had that before)#(no doctors saw it before not even when I got top surgery and there was a heart monitor)#Anyway I just want TO SLEE #P #Pers

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into-wonderland-caroline · 3 months

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02/12/24

This is my oldest brother, Theo, watching some gaming live stream and Zues(our German shepherd husky mix) was apparently wanting to watch too😂

I just walked in to Theo's room to tell him I am getting door dash for dinner [it's just Theo and I home tonight- parents are out] and see if he wants me to order him food as well & I walked in to this! Too funny not to snap a picture & share...

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in-pursuit-of-happiness-caroline · 4 months

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Reach out

Early this morning I received a message informing me that one of my friends and fellow dancers from the dance studio made an attempt to end her own life last night. Shock, disbelief, confusion and worry are swirling for me right now. I have so many questions like what the hell happened, what was going on for Erika that led her to this?

Thankfully Erika is still alive & currently in the hospital receiving medical attention and treatment. I know the holidays are extremely difficult for so many people & I don't know if that contributed to Erika's decision to attempt suicide but if you are reading this and struggling or lonely or stressed or feeling suicidal this holiday season please talk to someone. You can message me on either of my blogs (this one or my main one).

One thing I have gathered about Erika is whatever problems she was having she hid it & kept it all to herself- to deal with alone. Her family has told me that they never knew anything was wrong and that is the same for myself, & our other friends. I wish she would have talked to someone, talked to me. I know many people hesitate to reach out especially surrounding mental health problems but dealing alone comes at a major price and it's not helpful. Again, my inbox is open if you decide you don't want to first talk to someone directly in your life. I don't have any degrees or many answers but I can be here. This post is giving a PSA vibe but I wanted to put this out there. It's important.

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mantisgodsdomain · 6 months

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Considering their IRL counterparts, we think there's a very good chance that since Heart was Rad God's previous host, while she got transmitted to Mad Rat via bits of her in the heart tissue. There's not a whole lot else going on in that operation besides the heart transplant, after all, and we doubt that the doctor had any extra contamination around to potentially transmit her. We know that she says she lives in rats, specifically, but there's One Specific Protozoan she's based off of, and cats are the definitive host o f Toxoplasmosis Gondii.

Given the givens, it's entirely possible she simply doesn't present the same symptoms cross-species, and a symbiotic host that offers more benefits to her just... won't experience the same trip, especially since trying to feed your cat host to a cat doesn't really offer any benefit to either of you. With Heart, he's probably either asymptomatic or just only experiencing symptoms that don't particularly affect his day-to-day life, possibly in a way where he wouldn't have even known he was playing host to a parasite if it wasn't for the situation with Mad Rat.

Would it be weird for him to be... aware of that, postgame? To know that he's carrying a parasite with the potential to majorly fuck up any rats that might contract it? Is there a proper way to react to the knowledge that you're carrying a hallucinogenic parasite in you that'll cause major issues for any rat you might infect? Would he even, like... figure out the whole "asymptomic/mostly asymptomic carrier" thing before later? These are the questions we really need to ask.

#mad rat dead spoilers #mad rat dead #we speak #MRD is a beautifully crafted game with an incredibly compelling narrative about death and life and making something of it all #and also we are going to talk about it like “hey yknow how rat god might live in heart's guts before being evicted via heart surgery”#we are certain someone else has said this considering we're just restating canon facts but we haven't seen it so we're making it again #please do imagine discovering you have a parasite because you died #and came back in a state where you could see the very strongly presenting symptoms in an intermediate host #this is also our theory as to why final cutscene heart uses rat god's voice btw #she's in there hanging out somewhere in his digestive tract and possibly offering mild rat-related perks #depending on how Weird mechanics are might be part of the reason he can talk to rat when the black cat doesn't share a language #gondii is a beneficial symbiote for cats after all #just not for rats #mad rat dead's plot from rat god's pov is just “you get evicted from your old apartment because someone ripped it asunder”#“and then stuck one chair from your living room into this guy's van with you still in it”#“and now you're trying to backseat driver your way into finding a new apartment. the guy will die if you do this but this is fine you think #and then she gets beaten up by the guy whose car she's using #and then from heart's pov it's just discovering you have some guy living in you like five years after she takes up residence #when she starts trying to kill the guy you were an organ donor for who you are currently haunting #and then mad rat is here with “god is real and she wants me dead”#maybe if we get the motivation we will make joke aus based on these at some point #maybe.#we rarely return to MRD so #maybe itll just float #this is one a them “once every three years” fandoms we might be back later but we don't guarantee it.#we'll see how it goes

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alongtidesoflight · 1 year

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#it's been two months since my mom was hospitalised and #i don't think i've had that much stress ever in my life before #rough times sure #but there's something really off about having #to take care of all her stuff on top of my stuff #while watching doctor after doctor misdiagnose her #treat her for the wrong thing for two weeks #then wheel her into heart surgery as soon as they diagnose the right thing but WAIT #she needs another heart surgery #but WAIT #the misdiagnosis wasn't that far off after all so let's treat her lung too #and before you know it a month has passed and she's taken to a physical rehab clinic #and staying in there for another month #while her insurer is already delivering oxygen tanks to our home because she might need them #and sending us disability forms to fill out #meanwhile the doctor at her rehab clinic is convinced that if she just attends the entirety of her programs she might not #need oxygen at all because her lung apparently looks healthy and he doesn't think that diagnosis is accurate after all #ONLY by this time my mom is deeply depressed not eating and not attending her program's courses at all #and everyone's her enemy and she's gonna leave the clinic right now right NOW #she's released tomorrow #a week before her actual release date #because she made such a ruckus they finally allowed her to leave the clinic early #and i just wish she'd at least put an effort in #from day one she refused to give that rehab clinic a chance #every now and then a doctor or a nurse made a little breakthrough and she agreed to try #attended maybe two or three fitness programs #then gave up again #i'm convinced the doctor at her rehab clinic is right and her lung disease is a misdiagnosis after all but we'll never find out since she #refuses to exercise her lungs at all #and after all the effort we put in to make sure she recovers well i'm just exhausted and disappointed in that

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crvstybowlofcereal · 1 year

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Tell me about your tattoos if you have them and or what tattoos you want

i have two tattoos, and i plan to get more!

i got the first one two days after my 18th birthday, i had been planning it forever. it's a memorial piece for my first dog Rocky. I got it on the outside of my thigh, very high up so most of it is covered when i wear shorts.

i covered up the bit with his face because i dont like to share it very much, im terrified of the idea of someone finding a picture of it and getting the exact same tattoo because that's my dog and he meant the world to me. i know its a bit of an irrational fear, and i dont worry about it with my other designs, but i try not to share it online fully, but heres a different picture of him!

the flowers underneath are red roses, lilies, and forget me nots, for their specific meanings

the next tattoo i got just a couple months ago for a 7 year friend-iversary

its based on several layers of inside jokes

my long-term tattoo goal is to fill out my leg like a sleeve made of individual tattoos. i also intend to design all of my own tattoos.

some other ones i have in mind for my next ones are - a ghost (i always draw sheet ghosts the same way) - the mystery machine from scooby doo - the irken invader symbol from invader zim - a swarm of bats (probably on my inner thigh) - moon phases - lavender (and amethyst?)

more context for things in the tags

#we had to put rocky down in 2019 because he had a heart condition and he had torn both his ACLs #and both of those things together meant neither could be surgically dealt with #(his heart was not stable enough for him to go under for surgery #and he would have to exercise and lose weight for his heart to even have a chance of being more stable)#(this was all after his battle with cancer)#the red roses on the skull side are for mourning #the lilies in the middle are for a strong calming energy #and the forget me nots are self explanatory #i met my best friend in middle school and we always ended up sitting next to the trash cans so that became and inside joke #plus her favorite animal is a racoon and mine is a opossum #the tea part is kind of an inside joke i dont even know how to begin explaining #but also he's just spilling the tea #and shes the only person i do that with #ghosts and bats because halloween is life #scooby doo and invader zim are both shows that have been a big part of my life since childhood #moon phases because first theyre witchy #second because i like to celebrate the phases of life and how things and people change over time #third its a reminder to live by the seasons #and lavender because it is my favorite flower and i feel like it represents me #and amethyst is my favorite crystal as well as being my birthstone so i feel like it also represents me #i would probably get lavender and amethyst to fill out space between tattoos #tattoos #this ended up longer than i thought it would #the first one is a mirror pic btw #it is backwards kdjbhsg #tattoo

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just-absolutely-super · 2 years

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just spent the last couple of hours reading up on a few rare congenital heart diseases for the sole purpose of comparing them to the fictional heart disease that killed my fav character’s human form

you know, like a normal person

#personal #megaman.exe #if anyone's wondering my conclusions thus far point to hbd being a cyanotic heart defect #probably very similar to hypoplasia #the only thing is is that hypoplasia of either ventricles can undergo the first surgery after the first few days of life #meaning hub would have died immediately from it instead of living to a year #eh it's a start #EDIT: i forgot to read about tetralogy of fallot and YOOOOO #IF I COMBINE ASPECTS OF THIS WITH HYPOPLASIA I MIGHT BE ONTO SOMETHING HERE

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