My grandparents were at my house and I ate two big bars of milk chocolate like it was nothing. I’m severely lactose intolerant in real life. ￼￼
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Happy birthday Mom. There's so many things that I never knew about you and probably never will. And maybe that's for the best that you live on in my mind as this beautiful creature who wasn't around for very long. I'm glad that you didn't live long enough to see what a mess your other children became. And I have no doubt in my mind I have made two very proud. It is hard to grow up alone. It is hard to be a girl and grow up alone. But I have done well & survived so much.
I have a feeling you survived a lot too and you were a very strong woman because I had to have gotten that somewhere and as much as I got some Dad I know I got a lot of that from you.
Part of me will always be a little lost and part of me will never know where I came from. I know you love me dearly because I was your baby and I'm glad you did not see the awful way your other children treated me once you died. But I grew to realize that is not uncommon and I cherish the little bits of you I had to myself before they rushed in and either stole everything are just completely pissed on the memories I had.
The dreams I had when you were alive were the dreams of a child but I made it Mom I wanted to be a teacher and that is what I became and every year that I'm allowed to change people's lives I do it in your spirit with your love and by the grace of God.
In the afternoons I stand with the kids as they wait for their parents to pick them up and I have this Daydream that rolls in my head over and over.
In a flash of sunlight I see you pulling up to the curb and that gigantic Workhorse of a car that you drove the blue Ford Biscayne with a psychedelic blue and green flowered seat covers. You roll down the passenger window, lean over the bench seats, and say Get in baby, we're going home."
If it is possible to choose the hallucination that rolls through our brain as we die that is what I choose for myself.
I miss you so much, happy birthday.
Me scream-singing along to Alanis Morissette from the backseat as a coping mechanism during car trips in the rain while Mom and Dad fought
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“I love you papa !”
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The little angel with her dad !
Three things for a rainy Saturday morning
Three things for a rainy Saturday morning
It’s been a long since I sat at my desk and wrote a blogpost on a Saturday morning. Saturday morning was once my ‘go to’ day to write. But things change and as I believe all have learned, and experienced, this past year is that if there is one constant in our lives it is change.
As I do from time to time, I looked back at the blog. Over the past year or so, most of my posts have been on Wednesday…
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Grief comes in waves, some waves are okay, some will push you around, and some will knock you down and take you under. All we can do is learn how to swim with each one. Grandma, I never thought your loss would feel like a thousand waves all at once. I made the mistake of not reaching out to you because I was afraid if I did when you departed it would hurt like hell. And regardless, it still does. Guilt and grief overtakes my soul now, I should have seeked for you when I could have, not just the couple of times in the year. But I know that when we visited you the love was there. It always was. I loved you from afar, and its my biggest regret now. I've never been good at keeping contact with the people I love. Loving from afar is my specialty. I guess we both did that. You gave me the gift of my father, the gift of knowing that hard work pays off, and that resilience and strength traces back to you. I love you grandma, may you rest in peace as your work here on earth has finally been completed. You touched so many lives and were loved by many, im honored to say im your granddaughter. You took a little piece of me with you. Your departure has taught me things about myself. Ill make due with them in time. I love you abuela. Ill love you forever, like I always have..
Παντα καταλήγω στα ιδια
Φοβάμαι πως μου 'γινε συνήθεια
Κανείς δεν έμεινε στα αλήθεια
Βαρέθηκα να παίζουνε παιχνιδια
Πίστεψα σε ανθρώπους που αποδείχθηκαν φίδια
Και άρχισα να γεύομαι μονάχα αηδία
Δεν ξερω πως κατάφερα να γίνουν όλα ετσι
Να εχω απομονωθεί και να μην βγαίνει λέξη
Κάνε καλο να δεις καλο , σε αυτο είχα πιστέψει
Όμως το υποσυνείδητο μου γύρισε να με διαψεύσει
Δεν πιστεύω πλεον στα θαύματα
Βλεπεις οι άνθρωποι κατέληξαν φαντάσματα
Ένα μονοπάτι για λίγους αλλα για δυνατούς εντάξει
Και οι στίχοι μου με γρίφους που κάνεις δεν θα κοιτάξει
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Talking to our best friend and just generally having him around very much made us aware of our mental health in regards to the situation at hand if I am being genuinely serious....
I mean we obviously know it’s wrong (it’s arguably the main reason we talk about it online, to combat our denial of it all), but it’s easy to get comfortable with what you’ve known your entire life, so talking with the greatest man in the entire world made it incredibly aware to us than our mind has very much taken its toll over the years - esp when lockdown started since we couldn’t escape our mother at all whilst both of our brains’ were essentially rotting
We were talking about housing and stuff (he’s at uni and we were aware of some stuff about dorms/homes via our brother), and the topic of us talking to our upcoming therapist to get out of here was brought up and we keep thinking about it. It’s not a new thought, but as we admitted to our friend that our biggest fear about it is that we don’t want any invasive shit forcing shit down both our and our family’s throat
But.... well, it reminded me how many people who were in similar situations managed to use services to get out, and I’m becoming more and more aware of how much we’ll need it - esp since there are plenty that deliberately do it covertly. For so long we’ve been told that if you have a problem with your family then you need to bring it up with them to fix it, and that’s just made us more and more silent about it since talking about it to them just made things worse. But it doesn’t have to be that way, since there are plenty that can whisk us out of the situation and into a new one without dealing with our mother/family directly
.... I’m still scared about it all tho. We’re 19, 20 in six months. I get that people at uni have dorms and shit (if it weren’t for the pandemic--), but we shouldn’t be doing this. But we have to. It’s a confusing paradox but it’s one with a definite answer since things will never get back to normal (esp since normal never existed here)
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I suddenly had 6 siblings. Our mum just went shopping for shelves?? And our dad went to a mountain. Me and my siblings then went shopping as well, but someone just left a baby at the shop and we took care of it. Later we found out that our parents secretly were superheroes.
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Do you ever just look at your family and watch how they behave, all the little jokes they have together that you don't know anything about and wonder why your wasn't involved or what you did wrong?
Pet peeves, we all have them. We can’t always understand and rationalize them… but we cannot deny that they exist somewhere deep inside. Loud chewing, leg-tapping, an assortment of mannerisms can set people off. I know I have a few. I generally internalize my reactions to them and get on with it, but oh, how my blood can boil at times.
One thing that can put me off of a person faster than you…
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