#Im 99% sure that Im at least autistic

[catholic-character-tournament]

Round 2 - Resurrect Bracket (Losers Bracket) Side A

ashes to ashes, dust to dust; in sure and certain hope of the Resurrection to [make it to the finals]

Propaganda below ⬇️

John

he’s literally a priest and he’s literally my little meowmeow. i don’t have words right now but i love him. thanks

What he is about to do has not been approved by the Vatican.

He’s a priest whose entire job is exorcising and hunting down demons. The Vatican does not want this. But he sure does do it!

i have nothing else to say but john ward shouldn’t be that fucking big why the fuck does the wiki say he’s 6’2 its not right it isn’t FAIR

Father Garcia is also a candidate but I wasn’t sure if you wanted more than one from the same series. I guess John does have a crisis of faith after all the stuff that happens but in 2/3 of the chapter 3 endings he continues fighting demons and stuff so ultimately he’s still catholic (he dies in the other ending so he doesn’t even leave the faith then).

hes so skrunkly and dumb, he makes mistakes then cries, hes too harsh on himself i want him dead but if he dies im gonna cry

look i know he’s atari graphics but he’s THE GUY ok?

he is *what i’m about to do isn’t approved by the vatican* incarnate -both literally and figuratively insane IT’S MORTIS TIME!!! and he mortised all over the demons

i want him in cat ears

He is so fucking traumatized and his faith is CONSTANTLY TESTED. He’s god’s soppiest little priest man and idk how he does it. But he remains faithful !! the bonus is that i have him in my brain (i have DID)

Performs an exorcism NOT approved by the vatican🙌🙌 fails and shoots that demon with a gun 🔥🔥🔥

so i’m not ENTIRELY sure if he counts as catholic because i don’t really know the difference between christianity and catholicism as i’m not personally religious (the creator of faith is christian). but basically he fails an exorcism then battles demons and a cult because they wont leave him alone

Justin

he's soo. idk how to describe him. he never takes out his earbuds (which are constantly blasting music), he's killed at least 99 (probably more) monsters by the age of 17, he thinks his boss is god, he dresses like a catholic priest. the autistic homophobic gay guy ever

He is a priest who can turn into a guillotine. Has killed at least a hundred people. He constantly wears headphones that play non stop death metal music at max volume claiming that doing so helps him hear the voice of God causing him to shout when talking so he can hear what he's saying and people have to repeteadly signal him to take them off so they can talk to him and when that inevitably fails knock the off. He eventually betrays the good guys after going crazy and allies himself with a demon who wants to take over the world. After beign damaged by a magic sun ray the left half of his faces becomes perpetually engulfed in flames.

#father john ward #father ward #john ward #faith game #faith unholy trinity #cct polls #tumblr tournament #tumblr bracket #tumblr polls #justin law #soul eater #polls #r2losers

[teotalksaboutstuff]

Danganronpa Despair Time Chapter 2: Episodes 3, 4, and 5

Episode 3

-so no teruko traitor reveal? pog 

-monotv’s incompetence makes him my favorite host of any killing game. reminds me a lot of danganronpa: safety’s on, basically DR1 but Monokuma is about as incompetent as MonoTV is. it’s a great read, highly reccommended.

-teruko being bad at caulking a bathroom is so me. also of course monotv isn’t going to reveal the information but him not knowing it himself is interesting.

-hey, nice caulk.

-people changing clothes being this big thing is very funny

-charles’ straight up phobia of blood is uh... there’s clearly something deeper going on here

-teruko, put the fucking knife away. as much as it’s within reason that you’d be this paranoid, this does make you look like you are trying to murder Charles here, at least to him.

-id love to know whose motive Charles had, now that Teruko’s got it.

-loving charles and teruko actually being friends of some sort now that their positions have basically reversed since chapter 1.

-Chiteruko? i actually like the idea of those three as a polycule and want to see more whit/teruko interactions.

-MonoTV jumping on charles XD

-teruko playing with cacti i literally cannot???? best scene in chapter 2 by FAR

-living for the eden jumpscare here

-THE EDEN GREMLIN SPRITE MAKES ITS APPEARANCE. GOD I LOVE HER.

-Eden’s hope speech is also iconic. Her knowing the world is kinda fucked but still being kind anyways is something Teruko clearly needed to hear.

Episode 4

-what is the tea

-the gurlz are fighting

-naur

-teruko sandwich duck face

-ace markey, the ultimate allistic

-by all rules of danganronpa arei should have died here, and i am so grateful monotv isn’t competent enough to actually enforce the rules but at the same time is arei the mastermind? ofc he wouldn’t kill the mastermind.

-veronika living for the fights is also very me

-’you’ve been acting jerkishly as well’ eden she is literally being deadnamed and STALKED are you blind. J is 100% in the right here.

-nico fucking roasting ace is funny, and i get why he’d think its constructive criticism because i too am autistic and would think much the same.

-see, veronika gets it

-when death threats are the only way to properly resolve an argument

-arei lashing out at monotv is iconic tbh

-jesus christ arei yeah that reaction is a sensible one given your circumstances

-”hey, just so you know, failed hanging attempts are pretty painful” teruko wtf, im not entirely sure how that was intended to be helpful?

-we know what the tea is

-the gurlz are still fighting

-naur

-teruko has 99 problems and these bitchez aren’t about to be number 100

-charles making cucumber flowers is iconic

-DAVID YES YOU STEP IN THERE AND HELP THEM

-yeah people are gonna be... super hesitant about the motive secret thing, and teruko defo needs to talk to the person whose motive was originally charles’ as well as rose, whose she has

-see, j at least has the decency to ask the person before telling their secret

-eden has a dude’s motive secret evidently, maybe levi’s? that would be significant.

-who is the someone they’re inviting

Episode 5

-Arei’s typical ew reaction to everything, unsurprising. Makes sense she’d want to talk about motive though given her position.

-Granted leaving Arei out was before Xander died but nO AREI YOU ARE BECOMING A WORSE TERUKO LIKE AM I THE ONLY ONE NOTICING THE PARALLEL HERE OR AM I SEEING THEM WHERE THERE ARENT ANY?

-Teruko’s reaction being what it is does not surprise me.

-MORE AREI GREMLIN SPRITES WOOT

-oh wow arei actually wasn’t bluffing when she said she had nothing to hide

-is _ illegal nahhhh let arei be a girlboss yall just dont want to see women win

-teruko please stop acting as if you have any moral high ground here 

-i mean unless something like this happened to you then thats another matter entirely

-the true arei trauma dump. contextualizes literally everything about her in a way that actually makes me fascinated with her as a wonderfully complex character. 

-naturally this would develop into a philosophy where kindness is weakness, yeah

-DAVREI??? FUCK YES I SHIP IT!!

-ah, rose time

-yass art therapy, but i can understand why teruko was so freaked out by it

-in all fairness i dont know how you would respond to someone saying the stuff rose was about teruko

-TERUKO THATS LIKE SAYING I HATE YOU TO AN ARTIST?? LIKE CMON TERUKO YOU ARE MAKING IT REALLY HARD FOR ME TO DEFEND YOU THIS CHAPTER

-naturally, rose is fine with the secret coming out. she even has her own trauma dump scene with teruko

-i mean we been knew that teruko didn’t actually mean any of that and now rose maybe does?

-nico was mother for that tbh

-please don’t forget him down there ;-;

-the implication that nico actually likes the teruko gore art is an interesting one

-loving how nico wants rose to teach him painting omg

#danganronpa despair time

[lemon-sugarcoats-nothing]

Little rant but not heavy, just infodump

I like....wish mental health self-diagnosis for the purpose of just understanding whats going on in your head was more accepted- Especially online,,, bc like- Im 99% sure I have either innatentive type ADHD, or combined type ADHD, but im having a hard time getting diagnosed. My therapist had referred me somewhere to get diagnosed but that place did do that and only treated already diagnosed patients,,, and she had no where else to send me so now im just waiting for my next routine doc checkup to ask them about it and be put on a waiting list bc im sure im not the only one in my area,,, :///

Thats not even mentioning how I may also be on the Autistic spectrum, or at the very least have autistic traits- This one im less sure of, but still it seems like a very REAL possibility bc there are just some things that impact my social life and emotional regulation that just- doesnt seem in-line with ADHD.

Im further convinced i could have both since a large portion of people with ADHD also have Autism spectrum disorder- Even more people with ADHD have Autistic traits, but mayhaps not enough to be diagnosed? And the same goes for people with Autism spectrum disorder with ADHD/ADHD traits.

MAin problems come in when i want to talk about my neurodivergent experiences on like...TIktok or smth but im scared to say "im self-diagnosed with ADHD for self understanding purposes". I dont wanna get canceled yknow?

And another problem with getting tested for Autism spectrum disorder is that, should i be diagnosed with the disorder, i could have a much harder time medically transitioning (should i choose to go that path). Unfortunately Ableism is still a problem in medical fields, and doubly so for Autistic trans people looking for medical transition.

mm,, i just dont want to be fake-claimed on reddit/4chan/wherever and get harassed for it-

#sorry for the rant #ranting #self diagnosis #self diagnosed adhd #self diagnosed autism #help #not art

[niconebula]

triggering personal stuff and feelings that happened in the past, so ill hide it under the read more

basically. i've been doing a lot better recently so i didn't think of it right away, but i actually hit a very random milestone last week.

i was doing extremely poorly mentally wise starting last august which caused me (i was living in japan at the time) to have to basically flee the country back to my parents because i thought i would imminently lose my mind, hurt myself, or both. i improved a little bit for a month after that, but again in october i had a really dark flare-up where i was experiencing intense anxiety and depersonalization. i'd have these bouts at night where i would feel just the worst "pain" i've ever experienced to this day where i felt pure fear at the concept of being alive, and if i could have right there, pressed a button to kill myself. and i have lots of mental issues but i'm NOT a suicidal person, however it felt like my brain was being hijacked against my control and is again legitimately the worst thing ive ever experienced.

because im an autistic nerd who doesnt have too many things in their real life to care for, i was trying to make it a goal to survive (and keep my sanity) until at least 'for the future' aired in january so i could see the collector again. and i seriously thought there was a possibility i would be dead by that time. but here i am. still kicking, and doing at least marginally better. i still get these particular brand of attacks but much less frequently and shorter.

*side anecdote: i'm 99% sure i developed multiple new brain issues as long term side effects from covid. it has fucked over my brain. please continue to wear a mask.

#personal #ask to tag #ive dealt with panic for 8 years now i should say but this was something fierce.

[parasolids]

hey, I wanted to let you know you’re not alone in the whole autism thing. I got tested and also was told I have a lot of the characteristics but not enough to qualify. i’ve talked a lot abt it with my autistic friend and they’re pretty sure I would have been diagnosed if I wasn’t afab but like,, I also felt sort of relieved? self diagnosis can be really annoying mentally bc i’m constantly telling myself that i’m pretending or “trying to force it” but I know i’m not. even tho i’m 99% sure i’m autistic, there’s still that voice telling me that i’m faking it since I was told i’m not. but then again idk if it’s worth it bc of all the stuff that can change (like the stuff you mentioned abt ppl not taking you seriously and not being able to move out of the us). making autistic friends in college is the reason I feel less shitty abt myself

idk, it’s weird and makes brain weird but if you ever wanna talk I have many thoughts.

sorry i just saw this bc we had a cellular outage at work lol, sending love to you <3 its a really wild gray area to be in isn't it

idk i personally dont feel comfortable with self dx *for me for this* because 1) i know i tend to overpathologize myself and 2) theres so much misinfo and stuff floating around the internet that i dont want to claim a label if it's not 100% for sure there. like im not saying nobody should self dx ever, i just dont think its for me esp when half the official symptom lists are super ambiguous and confusing lol. i can at least accept that i am For Sure experiencing Traits of autism even if theyre not at a diagnostic level, because experienced psychologists have pointed that out to me, and it makes sense that the traits of autism that i have are probably.... the Traits they diagnosed me with. i do wonder if i would have ended up with a dx if my mom hadn't unknowingly answered certain things incorrectly, but like, what can ya do, and what's the point of pursuing one when you're 24 with a job

it is tricky though just being in this position. i wish there were more communities, etc for people like us cause man it's lonely not really fitting in either category and nobody else really getting it

[doxiedreg]

HOLY SHIT GUYS

I finally figured out why I burn out so fast lately and have to take breaks so often eventhough I have only drawn like 4 pieces of artwork spread out over a couple of weeks Apparently my autistic ass brain and body are still hecking adjusting to my move eventhough it was 5 fricking months ago LIke I thought about what the hell changed in the time that this quick burnout has been happening. And I was like. Surely its not my move right. like that was back in may. it cant be that. Right???? So I checked my activity on instagram before and after my move and yeah. It's definitely that. Im 99 percent sure. Before my move I would post various pieces of artwork a week, with sometimes a week long break between and I do remember I used to only need to take a break every couple of months at the least. But after my move my posts became way less frequent, my breaks more frequent and on top of that much longer. SO YEAH, THATS FUCKING WILD TO REALISE LIke I feel fine. I like my place. It's much better than living with my parents. My neighbors are loud and annoying sometimes but at least i have my own place where i have full control over. But apparently the new routine, new counselor people and new environment is still subconciously kicking my ass and thus i have less energy and brain power left to be creative. extremely wild. Do not enjoy this. I want to go back to drawing whatever I want whenever I want but I guess ill just have to wait and see how much longer this adjusting period is going to take Please brain, I have a lot of blorbos I want to draw and develop. Please dont take them away from me.

anyway yeah just wanted to share that.

#lena talks #life update #vent??? #i mean its frustrating to experience but im also amazed that i just discovered this #holy shit

[pure-incarceration]

There are so many reasons why voxman means a lot to me, but the fact that they are cannonically married is probably the strongest. The guy with anxiety/depression and shitty self esteem, and the too hyper and childish for his own good guy that doesn’t feel accepted anywhere BOTH found love???? Together??? I am both sides of that coin; it means so much to me to have that representation.

#voxman #ok ko #rambles #anxiety #depression #I personally headcannon Box with #adhd #and #autism #Im 99% sure that Im at least autistic #along with having depression and anxiety #anyway ya know #mental health stuff #them both being happy and finding love cannonically makes me so happy #means the world to me

[brisingr-sword]

child me: haha im just weird im just quirky love that for me!

me now:

#at least im like 99% sure #i dont have my cool boy certificate (autism diagnosis) yet but i am indeed making a binder to bring when i get assessed in a month-ish #so lets go!!! #autistic

[autistic-poohbear]

i was wondering since u seem to like plushies if u had any advice? im a 21 year old autistic guy and im trying to start taking some of my plushies with me more places bc they help me feel a lot safer and less likely to be overwhelmed. but im not sure how to deal with people asking questions/saying rude things/interacting with my plushies in ways i dont like. do u have any suggestions? thank u very much and have a good day❤️

For me I started out by taking them out with me in my bag (I still do this 99% of the time) because even just the knowledge that they are in there and with me helps a lot (and sometimes I pretend to get something from my back just to stim with their texture, it’s a very subtle stim for me and no one ever notices)

If you do carry them outside of your bag, from my experience most people don’t really say anything. People have looked at me weird at times but honestly for me personally at least I haven’t gotten any comments and no one has tried to touch my plushies (though I realise I may have just been really lucky with this and it might not go like this for everyone). The best thing you can do is ease yourself into it, it’s scary the first few times but you get used to it and what to expect which makes it easier over time in my experience

Anyone that has any more tips/stories to share is free to do so in the comments/reblogs!

#ask

[isa-ghost]

you know that that "reeeeee" thing comes from, and is meant to be short for the r-slur, right? it's in the same vein as that old "autistic screeching" star wars meme.

Its 2019, Im pretty sure we’re all fucking smart enough to give “reeeeeee” another meaning other than that, or at least know 99% of us on this site aren’t assholes who make fun of autistic people.

Ever heard of “pterodactyl screech”??

Nobody here is being a dick towards autistic people, and if they are, they can get the fuck off my blog.

[hypereactive]

1. Who was the last person you held hands with? my best friend

2. Are you outgoing or shy? shy

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? my best friend

4. Are you easy to get along with? depends. i try to be, but im also REALLY picky/have strong opinions on a lot of stuff, and im autistic..

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? yeah

6. What kind of people are you attracted to? a caring one, who listens before judging

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? yeah

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? my best friend

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? sometimes

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? probably my best friend

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? “o”

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? uhm. I like A LOT of songs.

billie ellish- bury a friend and you should see me in a crown

rag’n’bone man - human

rebel - black pearl (hes a pirate)

Aladdin soundtrack - Prince Ali and one jump ahead

arctic monkeys - Do I wanna know?

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? rarely

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? yea

15. What good thing happened this summer? new job, in my field of study

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? yepp

17. Do you think there is life on other planets? probs at least simple life

18. Do you still talk to your first crush? only if I run into him getting coffee (he works there)

19. Do you like bubble baths? if im in the mood

20. Do you like your neighbors? one i do, one i absolutely dont, the rest i dont interact w

21. What are you bad habits? im REALLY picky, and can come off as ungrateful (if u can’t do it right id rather u just not do it. apparently its more common to think at least you got something/they tried.)

22. Where would you like to travel? Anywhere w the right people. Nowhere without.

23. Do you have trust issues? kinda. More like I understand people wont understand me or meet my needs adequately.

24. Favorite part of your daily routine? morning coffee

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? my chin/teeth

26. What do you do when you wake up? if I have ResponsibilitesTM i get up and get coffee and leave the house in less than 20 min, otherwise i lay in bed on tumblr until i have to get up due to responsibilities or hunger.

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? im good w where its at tbh

28. Who are you most comfortable around? my best friend

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? yeah. 

30. Do you ever want to get married? yeah

31. Is your hair long enough for a pony tail? lol yesss

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? none?

33. Spell your name with your chin. bdfuds

34. Do you play sports? What sports? not really. i like frisbee and longboarding if those count.

35. Would you rather live without TV or music? TV

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? no. I cant keep secrets.

37. What do you say during awkward silences? i usu dont. ill just go on my phone/leave/etc

38. Describe your dream girl/guy? my best friend. 

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? hot topic

40. What do you want to do after high school? lol im not in high school

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? depends on what they did and why, and if they want to grow as a person/make it right

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? im tired/overwhelmed/content/bored

43. Do you smile at strangers? if i lock eyes with them and they smiled, i might smile back, but im pretty good at Not Looking At People

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? ocean

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? ResponsibilitiesTM

46. What are you paranoid about? having a heart attack and no one being around to help me/not noticing until its too late

47. Have you ever been high? yea

48. Have you ever been drunk? yea

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? no

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? black

51. Ever wished you were someone else? no, but i have wished my parents were

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? my chin probs. idk i like myself

53. Favourite makeup brand? i dont wear makeup

54. Favourite store? this is a duplicate question.

55. Favourite blog? uhm.

56. Favourite colour? black/grey/light pink/raspberry/celery green

57. Favourite food? cheese, cheddar brats, spinach, chocolate chip cookies, milkshakes

58. Last thing you ate? rice w beef, spinach, egg and soy sauce

59. First thing you ate this morning? coffee and nutella

60. Ever won a competition? For what? I think so but i cant remember. Oh i think I won an anti-bullying poster competition once.

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? lol nopee

62. Been arrested? For what? no

63. Ever been in love? few times now

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? uh. no. cuz i didnt even like the dude.

65. Are you hungry right now? no

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? i only have one real friend so I feel like thats unfair

67. Facebook or Twitter? tumblr.

68. Twitter or Tumblr? still tumblr

69. Are you watching tv right now? lol no

70. Names of your bestfriends? no, bc hed not appreciate it

71. Craving something? What? not rn

72. What colour are your towels? grey or floral w pinks and blacks and oranges

72. How many pillows do you sleep with? 3

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? yes, usu. 2

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? total? uh. 8?

75. Favourite animal? birbs prob.

76. What colour is your underwear? why?

77. Chocolate or Vanilla? chocolate, unless its ice cream. then vanilla

78. Favourite ice cream flavour? berry (any) or cheesecake (also any)

79. What colour shirt are you wearing? grey

80. What colour pants? a darker grey

81. Favourite tv show? uh. i like sherlock.

82. Favourite movie? deadpool probs. or pirates of the Caribbean. or Aladdin. or detective pikachu.

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? never seen either

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? never seen either

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? n/a

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? uhm. I cant remember. Probs the black and white one w the scar, or the starfish, or the sea gull

87. First person you talked to today? my sister

88. Last person you talked to today? my best friend

89. Name a person you hate? my past roommate

90. Name a person you love? my best friend

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? my past roommate and most recent ex

92. In a fight with someone? currently? no? ever? yes.

93. How many sweatpants do you have? 5

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? 6

95. Last movie you watched? i dont know

96. Favourite actress? i dunno

97. Favourite actor? i dunno

98. Do you tan a lot? no

99. Have any pets? no

100. How are you feeling? i dont know

101. Do you type fast? yeah

102. Do you regret anything from your past? yeah, but not overly

103. Can you spell well? i think so 

104. Do you miss anyone from your past? no

105. Ever been to a bonfire party? i dont think so, but i want to (w the right people)

106. Ever broken someone’s heart? yeah, oops

107. Have you ever been on a horse? yep

108. What should you be doing? cleaning my house

109. Is something irritating you right now? no

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? yea

111. Do you have trust issues? yea

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? my best friend

113. What was your childhood nickname? B. as in, just the letter

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? yea

115. Do you play the Wii? no

116. Are you listening to music right now? yea

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? not usually

118. Do you like Chinese food? i think so

119. Favourite book? uhm. sherlock (the whole series). the uglies series (scott westerfield). the secret garden. Fahrenheit 451. 1984. 

120. Are you afraid of the dark? no, but sometimes im afraid theres something in it

121. Are you mean? no

122. Is cheating ever okay? no

123. Can you keep white shoes clean? if i want to

124. Do you believe in love at first sight? no

125. Do you believe in true love? im not sure i know what this means

126. Are you currently bored? no

127. What makes you happy? i dont know

128. Would you change your name? no

129. What your zodiac sign? gemini

130. Do you like subway? i cant eat there

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? lol weve been dating for a while now

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? my best friend

133. Favourite lyrics right now? uh. I dont know.

134. Can you count to one million? that would take a month, so no.

135. Dumbest lie you ever told? i dont know. probably that i couldnt go to work bc i was “throwing up from a migraine” when i hadnt thrown up (yet).

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? it varies

137. How tall are you? i think im like. 5′8″?

138. Curly or Straight hair? curly. but not consistent

139. Brunette or Blonde? i am a brunette

140. Summer or Winter? winter. i can always wear more clothes

141. Night or Day? night. its quiet and calm

142. Favourite month? august and october

143. Are you a vegetarian? no

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? yes.

145. Tea or Coffee? yes. depends on time of day/year/mood/etc

146. Was today a good day? i dont know

147. Mars or Snickers? mars

148. What’s your favourite quote? “if you cant explain it simply, you dont understand it well enough” -einstien is one of them. but there are more

149. Do you believe in ghosts? i dont know

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? “aunt lillian’s footsteps became more distant, became whispers, were gone.”

@ramblebrambleamble i got bored and answered all of them

#about me

[floaty-pickle]

hey just wanted to say that your post about shane being quirky and funny really resonated with me even if i'm not autistic (i am like 99% sure i have some kind of adhd bc my doctor said that it's entirely possible) and honestly! it really brings out how just you can just be you. i'm thankful, i can't really put this into words but sending u love!

yes, exactly!! im glad some of you feel the same way i do.

the thing is: i really doesnt matter if he is or isnt. it just doesnt. him being himself and everyone being happy about it is enough to make me ok. its really hard for me to put my thoughts on this into words, too, so im really glad it seems like at least some people understood what i meant and could relate to it.

#ask #anon #m #Anonymous

[starlightfae]

ok so before i say this i want to be clear that im not judging anyone who enjoys these shows, nor am i saying the shows themselves are bad, these are just how i personally feel about them

i attempted to watch the last season (season 8) of Brooklyn 99 but i don't think i can manage it! i know it was very controversial to insert current events into the series (mostly the BLM and police brutality stuff, but also covid) and i feel like there was really no good way to go. it would be shitty to ignore the things happening irl, but its also super hard to write a funny cop show while also tackling those particular irl issues. rosa quitting just now bc of the police racism? and jake being like "its hard to not feel like you think I'm a bad guy for being a cop" and there's no real way to say YEAH, if you are a cop you are at the very least complicit! not to mention charles' behavior in the first episode and the reveal that holt and kevin separated (altho i looked it up and they do apparently get back together in episode 2, it was just another thing to dislike). I think it's great that the creators' tried to do the right thing, and i think they should be proud that they faced these really hard issues head on instead of pretending they don't exist, but it just....... doesn't work

after that, i wanted something else to watch, so i tried watching The Good Place. and i just couldn't get past how shitty of a person the main character was. like, she was learning i guess? and that's the point of the show? but i just could not stand her. plus, its mentioned and brushed off immediately, but it's possible she is taking up a space in the good place that someone else deserves and that just feels icky to me. AND, i hatehateHATE the idea of everyone not in the good place goes to the bad place, especially since very few people are allowed into the good place.

then i tried watching Schitt's Creek and, again, could not handle how the main characters acted. and again, that's the point, they are a spoiled rich family that lost basically everything, but idk i just couldn't get into it

then i tried watching bob's burgers and once again could not handle how much of an asshole the kids were, particularly louise and gene. like, I've seen funny clips from the show, but idk it just doesn't make me laugh as much as it makes me grimace, ykno? plus the autistic joke in the first episode, while kinda funny, also rubbed me the wrong way bc i know a lot of ppl see her as autistic so it just...felt off. i might try to watch more but I'm not sure...

#long post #just me rambling about tv shows #some negative opinions that you may disagree with but its not a personal attack on you so like. be cool. #not tagging the shows bc they would show up in the tags and that's rude #also shoot me an ask if they show up in the tags anyways bc its not my intention to put negativity into the tags #ill figure out how to fix it

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I posted 2,277 times in 2021

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For every post I created, I reblogged 98.0 posts.

I added 32 tags in 2021

#arthur pbs - 4 posts

#actually autistic - 4 posts

#wholesome - 4 posts

#hunter x hunter - 3 posts

#polyamory - 3 posts

#my hope in humanity is not unfounded - 3 posts

#studio ghibli - 3 posts

#trans - 3 posts

#lgbtq - 3 posts

#i dont even need the help - 2 posts

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#bold of you to assume that i would not try to team up with my own clone against whoever the hell is trying to force us

My Top Posts in 2021

#5

There are little moments every day where I feel proud of myself for doing mundane tasks such as cleaning or grocery shopping and these moments are what keep me going. Im a stay at home parent and I struggle with motivation, but when I get something done I always pat myself on the back so that the next time I have to do that chore/task I dont feel as unmotivated.

For example, today I took my toddler grocery shopping with me and I am someone who struggles with grocery shopping even when I know what I want. However this time I purposely went down every aisle and made sure I had some idea of what I wanted. I ended up spending a good bit of money, but I made sure I could make several recipes and not buy too many snacks.

I dont think anyone cares, but im very proud of myself and felt like sharing

11 notes • Posted 2021-11-14 17:47:10 GMT

#4

Dear god someone help

I have an unhealthy obessession with the man with the yellow hat.

Sincerely,

A bitch with issues.

12 notes • Posted 2021-10-16 15:47:46 GMT

#3

Yall 3 days grace dropped a new single and its how a lot of us are feeling with this damn burnout.

15 notes • Posted 2021-12-01 01:46:11 GMT

#2

Can we talk about how fucking savage early seasons of Arthur were? Like, the memes make so much sense if you have grown up on Arthur. Granted the show started before I was born, im a pbs kid, my parents never paid for cable and my mom was big on educational programming.

I have never stopped watching Arthur, but im watching it with my son right now and can I just tell you, these episodes hit different from a parental experience. Im not sure how to explain it. Like muffy said something about teaching her dog to eat a new brand of dog food and the only way the dog could learn to eat it was by watching Bailey eat it. Baileys her butler. Bailey is also a dog.... yall wtf. Am I just crazy?

Also who remembers the episode about Arthur hitting someone? Cause it was a good episode to address, but people didn't like it? Can someone explain?

25 notes • Posted 2021-09-25 22:28:52 GMT

#1

You know what sitcom with a romantic subplot i wanna see? Roommates to polycule.

Imagine the possibilities. Its completely untapped, you could have anywhere from 2 to idk how many roommates. And the best part is it doesn't have to be just the roommates, it can be, but adding extra characters drives it further.

Its been done in the monogamous way a thousand times, but poly? I've never seen it. I want to see this on TV all the time. Or at least have one streaming service open to talking more about and being more open about polyamory by showing it.

65 notes • Posted 2021-09-26 17:05:37 GMT

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[anasianpotato]

30 Days Writing Challenge

I just found this challenge on twitter and, well, i dont really have much things to do soooo here we go!!

DAY 1: its either im way too excited for things or idgaf at all, theres no in between. im socially awkward, especially around new people, but once you get to know me theres no way to stop me from talking! im a lil bit sarcastic and like to throw shades at people ehe and lastly, i love spilled tea but not spilling them #guilty

DAY 2: good music makeeeeeeessss me super happy, like literally it can set my mood for the day. i loveee cute animals, just looking at them makes me happy! and also mini-sized things makes me want to explode from happiness hehehe lastly, hugs and kisses

DAY 3: Bandung, June 22nd 2019. The place, the moment, the person. Everything was soooo perfect. We went to see Phum Viphurit and it was nothing less than amazing. The rough chair, the 8 hr trip, the sunset. We started to grow apart at that time, we both knew it but refused to talk about it. Joji’s Sanctuary just recently came out, he suddenly took out his earphones, plugged it to his phone, offered me the left piece, then he played the song. We were immersed in the song and lyrics and just enjoyed the sunset while sitting on the train.

DAY 4: Greece!!! UK!! Budapest!! Bandung!! Surabaya!! New York!! There are lot of places i want to visit but im in short of money soooooo yup :-) 

DAY 5: They are doing pretty much good as parents. I mean they are not the best but also not the worst. I appreciate everything they’ve done for me and yeah im grateful to have them in my life even tho im not really fond of them, i guess?

DAY 6: Being single comes hand-in-hand with happiness. I mean, its literally the time and the chance for us to learn something new about ourselves. Being single means you are not tied down to do things that you dont want to do. Being single makes you realize that you are the ONLY one person that is responsible for your own happiness. Dont let other people define your happiness!!! lol this literally is something that i write for myself.

DAY 7: Cant pick one. I loveeeeeee romance comedy movies. Cheesy, i know. My favorites are the eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, 500 days of summer, hes just not that into you, love actually, bridget jones’ diary, music&lyrics. I also love shrek the third, idk why i just love it, watched it hundreds time. The emperor’s new groove also my fav. Ghiblis’ movies are awesome too!! Spirited away, howl’s moving castle, the wind rises, and ocean waves are so so so so goodddd!! Oh and i also love Lalaland, The King’s Speech, theory of everything, the danish girl, and the imitation game.

DAY 8: Music is soooooooooo powerful!!!! I mean it. It really is powerful, well, at least for me. You know that feeling when you just found a really good song that somehow relates to you??? Music makes you feel things. I guess its just how art works? They make you feel things? Oh and also, music is the closest thing to time machine right now. See? Music, well, art in general can transport you!!

DAY 9: Happiness is def something that you need to earn by yourself. You cant just depend your happiness on someone/something else. Happiness is different for everyone, just try to find the meaning of YOUR happiness and go for it. Well, im still struggling to find my own happiness tho but lets just keep trying, shall we?

DAY 10: I dont really have that much of friend tbh but you know what they say, quality over quantity. My best friends are literally the main reason why im still here. They mean the whole world to me.

DAY 11: There’s nothing much to say about my sibling if im being honest. My sister lives in Jkt with her husband and her kids. My brother is autistic. I love my brother to death and will do anything for him. Thats all.

DAY 12: I LOVEEEEEE TV SERIES HAHAHAHA. From the good ones, to the shitty ones. Some of my favorites are modern family, the good place, brooklyn 99, stranger things, how to get away from murder, next in fashion, the amazing world of gumball, andddd i suddenly cant remember anything else

DAY 13: I dont really read books a lot, but one of my favorites is Norwegian Wood. Its just soooooo beautifully written. You can feel the love, the pain, the warmth, you can feel everything through Haruki Mukami’s words.

DAY 14: Im not the most stylish person you will ever meet. I wear similar things everyday. Neutral colors paired with culottes and sandals or sneakers. Thats it. I actually love colors but not confident enough to wear it.

DAY 15: New York or London. I dont know, i’ve always admired busy places. Cities filled with busy people doing their own thing. No one gives a fuck about what you do. Busy places make you think no matter how shitty your day is, there will always be tomorrow.

DAY 16: we used to do everything together. we used to talk for hours about everything. we used to share our favorite songs to each other. we used to laugh at our own stupid jokes. we used to go to music gigs together. we used to watch movies together. not sure if he is the one that im missing or is it just the memories? the time that we spent together was beautiful. its kinda funny to think now that we act like a stranger to each other but yeah time changes people. he was my first everything. sometimes i wonder what would happen if we’re still together to this day, would i be happier? or would i suffer more? this may sound ridiculous, but what we had was as beautiful as lyrics in songs, melodies in musics, colors in paintings. ewwwww this is sooo cringe worthy lol okay i’ll stop.

DAY 17: im so attracted to funny guys i dont know why lol i love guys who can make me laugh. i also love a guy who knows what hes doing. Guys with knowledge also turn me on lol oh and im sooo into guys with glasses.

DAY 18: 1. My full name is Bernadetha Sari Jasmine, 2. I was born in September 21st 1998, 3. I’m a middle child, 4. I’m socially awkward, 5. I literally overthink about everything, 6. I have low self-esteem, sad i know, 7. I’m majoring in Industrial Engineering, 8. I always speak the truth, 9. I’m loyal, 10. i love listening to musics, 11. i respect art, 12. i love the magic of cooking, 13. im an introvert, 14. i get shy around people im not close with, 15. im slow witted, 16. im detail oriented, 17. i know everything i want to know, 18. i wear glasses, 19. im the-go-with-the-flow kind of person, 20. i dont know what i want to do with my life, 21. i used to date a guy for 8 years straight lol, 22. i wear braces for 10 years (and still counting), 23. i hate dramas thus i always try to avoid it, 24. im a hopeless romantic, 25. im a pessimist, 26. i love ayam geprek so much!!! 27. i love buildings, 28. i also love the sound of the road when we drive around the city, 29. i daydream a lot, 30. i live in my own fantasy.

DAY 19: just read my writing for day 16

I think thats it for now, im getting tired lol prob going to continue this at some other time sooo see you!

#challenge #writing #writingchallenge #30days #30 days challenge #music #hobby #love #relationship #life #covid #covid 19 #virus #pandemic #stay at home #stayathome #stay safe #staysafe

[truthsword]

2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 9, 15, 26, 39, 45, 47, 51, 59, 60, 99 and 100

2. Favourite Protagonist? id die for both makoto and shuichi. fuck you

3. Favourite antagonistic character? does mukuro count??? idk which characters would count but both junko and tsumugi can perish so im gonna say mukuro counts. tho aesthetic wise junko is fucking rocking it but that goes without saying

4. Favourite character? MNGHHHHHHHHHGHHGHG

5. Best girl? FUCK i cant pick so im going one from each game and you cant stop me. dr1: kyoko. dr2: chiaki (wow who could have seen that one coming huh). drv3: tenko

6. Best boy? once again one from each, dr1: makoto. dr2: fuck. nagito but gundham is a close second. drv3: FUCK. threeway tie between kaito kiibo and gonta

9. Least favourite class trial? assuming were talking just abt trials and not executions... gontas fucking SUCKED and i HATED IT spike chunsoft can PERISH for making that happen

15. Your absolute OTP? GHGHHGHG I CANT JUST PICK ONE. komahina is EXTREMELY good but im just yknow. slightly biased on that. sakura/hina is also blessed as fuck and i also secretly love chihiro/chiaki. and ofc toko/komaru is also very good. i also really like peko/ibuki and nekomaru/akane (my one straight ship in like, the entire series lmao) and id fucking die for tenko/himiko and kaito/shuichi. also dont @ me for homestuck on sideblog but kaito maki and shuichi kaede are canon and theres nothing anyone can do about it. i have other ships but this is already long enough as is so those are my faves. yeet

26. Favourite execution? can i say junkos? if not hers tho then uhhhh probably celestes just bc it was aesthetic as fuck. also kirumis made me feel a LOT of things and cry a lot but goddamn if it wasnt well put together

39. Smartest murder plan? man there were, a fucking LOT of really smart ones idk if i can just pick one. i guess im probably gonna go with kaito and kokichis? since im p sure that was the only one where monokuma himself didnt even know who the culprit was

45. Unpopular opinion? chihiro trans girl and spike chunsoft handled that whole thing in literally the worst possible way ESPECIALLY her being forcibly outed after her fucking death (IDC IF IT WAS NECESSARY TO FIND THE KILLER) and also the whole thing with monokuma being ‘ah yes i knew the whole time!!! thats why i gave [her] a guys handbook and the room without the locked bathroom door etc etc etc’ 

47. A headcanon you have about a character? me with my many autistic headcanons scrolling through the list of characters trying to pick just one (1) to list for this ask:

51. Character you thought you were gonna dislike but loved in the end? HONESTLY??? OUMA. also byakuya to a lesser degree

59. Favourite moment? HGHGHHGHGHGHH PERISH FOR MAKIN G ME CHOOSE. okay. okay i love the like, moment in dr1 and 2 where u have to like. build up hope and then shoot everyone with it its legitimately GREAT and makes me super emotional. i also loved in despair girls when they gave komaru a whole line JUST so she could say ‘NO THATS WRONG’ and also when her and toko fuckin. attacked together and LITERALLY said they found hope to go on in each other

60. Saddest moment? can i uhhhhhh count dr3 in this bc if so, hoo boy howdy do i sure have one that made me cry for like an hour, take one guess what that was,

99. Your absolute NOTP? mmmmmm toko/byakuya. 1. its terrible and unhealthy on both sides 2. theyre gay/lesbian solidarity. you fools. you utter imbeciles

100. Opinion on all the Protagonists! 

-makoto: baby boy. baby. would die for without hesitation. 

-hajime: thats me!

-kaede: would die for her too and i wish shed gotten more screentime but i guess it really do be like that sometimes. at least she had her free time events in salmon mode

-shuichi: also would die for, needs to have more confidence in himself and his abilities

-counting komaru in this bc i love her: i love her. fucking superb you funky little lesbian

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