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womenofthearchiveszine · 6 months

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Applications!

Applications for both Zine Contributors and for Graphic Design Mod* are now open!

General Rules are as follows:

➵ All applications will be open from November 24th to December 24th at 11:59pm EST

➵ You MUST be 16+ at the time of application. We will not be accepting any applicants younger than that, even if your birthday falls before publication as this project is also open to adults

➵ A viable discord and email address, as they are crucial for all communication regarding this project

➵ A portfolio of at least 3 pieces of your work. Your examples don’t have to be just for The Magnus Archives, we just ask that most of them be. If you are applying for any specific character(s), you must have one piece depicting each character. They do not all have to be in the same piece. You can submit either one large Google Drive file with all of your work, or up to 5 separate Drive links. We recommend the first option, but either is fine.

➵ For those who want to apply to create for a specific character, that character can be as obscure as you want. nobody is off limits for this project.

➵This is a SFW project, but examples may be NSFW IF YOU ARE 18+

➵ The creation period is January 1st to March first, with three “official” check-ins during this period

➵ IF YOU ARE ACCEPTED YOU MAY NOT POST ANY FINISHED WORK FOR THIS ZINE UNTIL YOU GET THE GO AHEAD FROM THE MODS. Failure to comply will result in a permanent dismissal from the project

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Artist Special Requirements

➵ pieces must have some sort of background and not just a flat color, as the final pieces will have full backgrounds

➵ Traditional art for applications, but for final zine publication, TA will only be accepted as long as applicants have a high enough quality scanner

➵ Apply to be an artist here

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Writer Special Requirements

➵ At least one piece must be around 2,000 words, as that will be the final length of each zine contribution.

➵ Apply to be a writer here

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Cosplayer Special Requirements

➵ Cosplayers may apply for multiple characters, but they will only be chosen for one

➵ Submissions must have at least one still image per character being applied for.

➵ Videos are not necessary UNLESS filming for the WOTA TikTok account is desired.

➵ Apply to be a cosplayer here

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Graphic Design Mod Special Requirements

➵ You MUST be at least 18+ in order to apply for this position. This is non-negotiable

➵ A viable discord and email address, as they are crucial for communication regarding this project

➵ At least some graphic design history

➵ Examples of your work

➵ Must be available from January 1st to March 31st

➵ Applying for this role is not an automatic application for any other, if you wish to apply for another position, you must fill out the corresponding application.

➵ Apply for the Graphic Design Mod position here

Also, in the coming weeks(?) there will be applications for a Financial Mod and Shipping Mod (which will both be hard 21+ requirements) and applications for Merch Artists! So be on the lookout (also if people are specifically interested in those mod positions, DM me, because I have no idea what im doing /hj)

If yall have ANY questions, don't hesitate to ask! My askbox is open and my notifications are ON!

Now, have fun, and good luck.

*𝙞𝙩'𝙨 𝙤𝙗𝙫𝙞𝙤𝙪𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙬𝙚 𝙣𝙚𝙚𝙙 𝙖 𝙜𝙧𝙖𝙥𝙝𝙞𝙘 𝙙𝙚𝙨𝙞𝙜𝙣 𝙢𝙤𝙙. 𝙢𝙮 𝙛𝙧𝙚𝙚 𝙘𝙖𝙣𝙫𝙖 𝙨𝙠𝙞𝙡𝙡𝙨 𝙘𝙖𝙣 𝙤𝙣𝙡𝙮 𝙜𝙤 𝙨𝙤 𝙛𝙖𝙧.

#the magnus archives #the magnus archives fan zine #women of the archive fanzine #sasha james #gertrude robinson #melanie king #basira hussain #daisy tonner #georgie barker #literally every female character in tma #no matter how small #nikola orsinov #is she a woman? maybe #who knows

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cap-ironman · 30 days

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2024 Cap-IM Reverse Bang Date Claims Information

The Cap-IM Reverse Bang Date Claims are coming—it's time for you to decide on a posting date! Date Claims will open on Saturday, April 27th, 9:00 AM EDT (what time is this for me?) and close on April 29th at 11:00 PM EDT. Remember that if no one on your team is available to claim a date, you can ask someone else to proxy-claim for you!

IMPORTANT INFORMATION

By claiming a posting date, you are committing to having your work complete and ready for posting by the date you have picked; this counts as your check in for the RBB. If your team does not claim a date by April 29th 11:00 PM EDT or email the mods prior to claims, we will assign your team to a posting date.

If you have any special requests, such as pre-arranging a set posting date due to personal circumstances, please email [email protected] or DM Cap-IM Mods on Discord as soon as possible so we can try to accommodate you (please note that we cannot guarantee anything, and will consider requests on a first-come, first-serve basis).

If no team member is able to submit your date claims on behalf of the team, please use a proxy to submit a claim on your behalf. If you can't find a proxy, please email the mods at [email protected].

By submitting a claim, your team is committing to publishing your works on any of the dates chosen. If you believe you won't be able to finish your work by next month, please communicate your concerns with your partner(s) and the mods as soon as possible. You can find all extension and amnesty information in our Posting Instructions post.

Incomplete works, failure to meet the deadline, or a complete lack of communication with your team on and after your posting date will result in a participant's temporary ban from some events — for further details, read through our Defaulting and Participation Eligibility guidelines.

HOW TO CLAIM YOUR DATE

31 posting dates are available from 1st May to 31st May. Only two teams will be posting on any given day so that your Stevetony content is staggered for people to enjoy! Before choosing the posting dates you will list, please make sure it will work for everyone on the team. You are required to have all works posted on your confirmed posting date by noon EDT so that you can send the mods the masterpost information on time. This means that if an artist is working with two creators (was double claimed), they will all post their fanworks on the same day. Posting date claims will be run via a Google Form on a first come, first-served basis.

The Date Claims Form is linked here, as is the live claims spreadsheet that will show the claims happening real-time. The form will only open when date claims start, but you can access the link beforehand.

Your posting team is determined by the artist's CODENAME as given to you in the RBB matching email.

The person claiming on behalf of a team needs to know their CODENAME and 3-5 posting dates to list in order of preference.

Posting dates will be allocated in the order that forms are received.

Teams that submit forms where all dates listed have already been picked will be asked to resubmit.

If your team has special requirements to due participant schedules, you must contact the event mods via email at [email protected] before April 24th.

Remember, only one person claims on behalf of their team.

Please find the Posting Date Claims Form here. It will open on Saturday, April 27th, 9:00 AM ET (what time is this for me?) and close on April 29th at 11:00 PM EDT. Please find the spreadsheet for viewing live claims here.

On April 28th, teams will receive an email with their finalized posting date and additional information regarding their deadline.

#stevetony #stony #superhusbands #capimevents #capimrbb

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disabledunitypunk · 29 days

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So, I know this blog has been a lot less active as of late, at least from my part (mod Stars).

I'm gonna be honest; I've been incredibly sick. A combination of some kind of issue with gluten/wheat (may be celiac, or nonceliac gluten intolerance, or wheat allergy) with IBD, MCAS, lactose intolerance and sensory issues, had caught me in such a cycle of degranulation, anaphylaxis, intestinal issues, brain fog, chronic fatigue, and POTS and chronic pain flareups, that I was nonfunctional.

On top of that, anxiety over my partners SSI application (recently medically approved by the administrative law judge, that's a win! still waiting on nonmedical approval but it should hopefully just be a rubber stamp process at this point - knock on wood) has really screwed with my levels of executive dysfunction.

And trauma around medical neglect and abuse, plus being so sick, plus executive dysfunction, had led me to temporarily avoid seeking treatment at all. When I say that the very idea of trying to trick yet another doctor's ego into believing they came up with the idea to test me for the conditions I'm already reasonably certain I have, all while making sure I don't seem too smart, too unintelligent, too articulate, too reliant on google, too self-aware, use too many medical terms, and so on... I've not had the ability to advocate for myself anymore.

Luckily, a friend of mine that's all hellfire agreed to help advocate for me at some of my appointments going forward, so I'm going to be finding a new primary care doc and going forward (possibly seeing my old one a few more times if necessary, just to get re-referrals and maybe get a referral to a non-Medicaid allergist that actually knows what MCAS is) with pursuing diagnoses and treatment again.

Until then, however, I'm pretty much limited to about three foods - plain white or wild rice, "zoup" (a zucchini broth with chunks of carrots, daikon, celery, and wild rice), and raisins. I can drink water and cranberry juice. Between my sensory issues and that tiny list, I've been consistently significantly hungry for a week. I'm struggling to sleep and can't get more than four hours of restless sleep in a night the past few nights. I'm menstruating for the first time in five years for G-d knows why. I feel better and less reactive, especially after an ER visit for some IM decadron, but I am constantly exhausted.

Why do I bring all this up?

This is my daily life. I have near zero quality of life because of the ableism of doctors and failures of the medical system. I'm barely keeping myself alive every day, really only with the help of a lot of caretaking from my partner. I haven't been able to get to my doctor to get approved for that friend willing to advocate for me to be paid for basic caretaking duties by Medicaid. I went out on Saturday for the first time in over a month, and I'll be recovering from that for the next week and a half.

There is not a single minute of my life that isn't profoundly affected by my disabilities. Stress causes a cascading reaction through my MCAS, POTS, ME/CFS. Understimulation causes intense stress and even pain. Listening to music while doing nothing, watching videos, and similar "low energy" activities drain so much energy that they trigger my chronic fatigue, and sometimes cause a lesser reverse cascading reaction.

I can't take an ADHD med to help with the symptoms more disabling than the ones threatening literal anaphylaxis and organ failure because I can't get them compounded without an official MCAS diagnosis, and I'd also need a beta blocker compounded as well (which are are often mast cell triggers) for my POTS because the only ADHD meds that work on me are amphetamines.

I can't take vitamin D or B12 despite being incredibly critically low for the same reasons. I've barely found some OTC benadryl and aleve that I halfway tolerate. I might have a UTI and if I do I'm gonna have to convince doctors 20 years behind the medical literature that IM antibiotics are considered safe and effective and are a safer alternative to oral meds for me, if still risking a minor reaction.

On good days, I can make it between the bed and couch a couple times a day, and between the couch and the toilet. On bad days, I have a chamber pot setup in the bedroom because I can't afford diapers. I'm sure my vitamin D deficiency is not helped by never leaving an apartment that barely gets some sunlight two hours a day because it's in the shadow of the other side of the building.

I used to, on bad days, spend most of the day doing mindless tasks or on slightly less bad days, puzzle games, on my phone. Now, I'm lucky if I can do even that much most days. I AM too sick to play video games. 🥲 I can nap, I can sit with my eyes open, I can listen to music until it's too exhausting anymore.

I'm tired, and every day surviving is just a monumental effort. Again, the ableism of doctors and... actually, they're not failures if they're intentional; the abusive medical system, have not left a single minute of my life untouched.

Multiple times, when talking about online discourse, I've been accused of "wanting to be more disabled than I am", "being physically abled", being "crazy", "delusional", "on something", etc, etc, etc. All for daring to say that ideas like body-mind duality, exclusionism within disabled communities, and similar, are deeply harmful and affect far more than insular online discourse.

Doctors love to shove off chronically ill people into "psych cases". Have anxiety, autism, PTSD, schizophrenia, DID, depression, etc, etc on your chart? Yeah, you're never getting that physical diagnosis. This is what perpetuating and encouraging ideas like "all disabilities are physical OR mental", "people with abc type of disability have privilege over people with xyz type of disability", and so on, DOES.

Sanism is used to perpetuate ableism. Ableism is used to perpetuate sanism. Quite frankly, I'm not sure that neurotypical physically disabled people, non-mad neurodivergent physically disabled people, and physically abled neurodivergent/mad (all as self-identified categories) get just how deeply compounded ableism is when you exist at the intersection of physically disabled and neurodivergent (especially if mentally ill or mad). Or perhaps, the disconnect exists along a line of "profoundly disabled" vs "can access abled hegemony to a significant extent". Perhaps it's both. There is likely elements of how visible a disability is, how much its able to be masked, the type/level/spread of support needs, and so on. There's definitely elements of other marginalization; race, ethnicity, fatness, queerness, and so on.

And then there's the subcategories. Cognitively disabled. Traumatized. Chronically ill. Visually impaired/blind. Deaf/hard of hearing. Intellectual disability. Mobility disabilities. Fluctuating vs static disabilities, support needs, masking, and so on.

Sometimes I wonder, would the people who think I'm just an abled faker who doesn't belong for not being able to seperate my neurodivergence from my physical disabilities, my neurological organs from my body, my inabilities from my inabilities, would they find I'm the same as them when they spend a day in my life? Would they find it worse? Would they find it unbearable in a completely different way from their own struggles? Would they maybe even find that while it's not quite as hard as their own struggles in some cases, that it's still wildly hard and the two are far closer to each other on the scale than they think? Would they understand that we are both in the midst of an active, eugenicist genocide, and that we're 50-49 bullet holes staring down the barrel of a loaded gun that is held by our oppressors?

Even now, I'm thinking about how this post might be inaccessible. Is it readable for screen readers? Will the length be too much for way too many people? Is it understandable for people with intelligence and cognitive disabilities? How do I fix those things if it's not. What am I missing? What am I missing? What am I missing?

I'm exhausted, I'm scared, and I'm barely holding on. I'm safe, mental health wise, to be clear, I'm just convinced that the only reason that I'm not in significant danger from my physical chronic illnesses right now is because I've always had a body that was stubborn as all hell and twice as resilient. I'm not dying, not because the illnesses aren't trying, but because my body will endure far beyond normal limits.

I've experienced slow acting anaphylactic reactions without anaphylactic shock about once a month for 1-2 years now, usually only going in after several days and nights of severe symptoms. Like I've mentioned, several of my vitamin levels are so low as to make organ failure a constant threat. None of my illnesses are "terminal" per se, but that doesn't mean they can't be deadly. And more to the point, it doesn't mean they can't destroy me, that they haven't utterly destroyed my quality of life, without killing me.

I mean, I started this blog as an attempt at fostering solidarity. We CANNOT be quibbling over who really "belongs" in various disability spaces, who gets to reclaim what words or whatever, when so many of us are dealing with this shit.

For the area with the lowest cost of living in the country, SSI should be 5 times what it is now. For the highest, up to 20 times. People on disability benefits lose some or all of their payments, insurance, and so on, if they get married, even to another person on benefits. I've never met a disabled person without more doctor horror stories than diagnoses, and we all know diagnoses like to come in clusters. We are being abused, neglected, and killed.

I cannot stress how much, not that this intracommunity discourse "doesn't matter", but that it does at a deeply harmful level. It's just perpetuation of the abuse we face at a lateral level. We're mimicking the government and doctors and general abled society and getting into petty but deeply dangerous inane arguments that are just us carrying out the only way we've been taught to treat disabled people.

Being a disabled activist and advocate means questioning everything you know about ableism. It means prioritizing first and foremost disabled people. And honestly, speaking as someone whose platform here is dedicated to that, that's really fucking hard. It means believing people about their experiences with disability and oppression in a world that teaches us that the vast majority of disabled people are lying privileged fakers.

It means not believing that people know more about what people with a disability they DON'T have face because of their own disabilities. A little confusing, but essentially someone with disability A without disability B who faces oppression X, can't say that someone with disability B DOESN'T face oppression X, just because they face it. It means not calling the very real harm someone has experienced "misdirected", or making their suffering about you or your subcommunity, just because you've experienced the same or similar harm.

It means unlearning reactivity as a group of extremely traumatized people. It means learning to meet people where they're at, and assume "can't" rather than "won't". It means accepting that sometimes not only will someone's disabilities cause conflicting access needs with your own, but that sometimes people's disabilities can actively cause them to do harm, and that they still deserve rights, community, and support if they do. It also means recognizing that the harm that a disability may cause someone to do is going to look VASTLY different than abled expectations of "harmful" disabilities. It means, even and especially when this happens, recentering the perspective not around how the disability affects other people, but around how it affects the person with the disability.

It's all of this and so much more. It's a lot of effort from people with not a lot to give. It's fighting an upstairs battle with no ramp, so to speak.

And I guess I just... I'm at a loss on how to keep that up. Is just focusing on getting myself well enough to participate again, putting my own mask on first, enough? When there is not a single moment of my life untouched by the extremely deep and extremely systemic harm of ableism, is it enough to try and access the care continually gatekept from me at an individual level? Can I even do so, against such intensive pressure?

How do I live this life, and also go on untangles the narratives of "disabling neurodivergence isn't really a real disability and neurodivergent people face almost no real ableism" and "physical conditions are obvious and so get all the care and face no real ableism". How do I fight the concurrent violences of hypervisibility and erasure within the community that only serve to strengthen abled people bludgeoning us with them?

How do I focus on things like organizing, community building, activism, advocacy, dismantling the system, dismantling our reliance on it, and so much more, when I can't even get out of bed?

All I can do is write about it, right now. Sometimes I feel like that's all I've ever been able to do. Everyone I've ever known has acted like some day my "pen" will be a tool of liberation, but I'm at a loss for how. I'm just some horribly sick mad cripple on a dying microblogging platform on the internet. I don't know - not if I'm enough, but if anything ever can be.

And I don't mean to sound hopeless. I know that change can happen. I know that it is, in tiny and sometimes larger ways, every day.

This is kind of a self-centered post, in the most neutral way. This is just my perspective. This is about me, and how I'm so very disabled, and how people assume I'm not (and how wild that is, considering), and how ableism affects me so deeply, and how I don't know how to face it or fight it...

I can only hope that maybe my word resonating with people means something. That maybe, as much as we never want each other to experience what we have to, that it's also a comfort to know we don't experience it alone. That maybe this will serve as a reminder that it's okay to be scared, to feel lost, even hopeless, to struggle; to not know how to fight or where to turn. That maybe this will reach someone who CAN do something, and maybe it'll reach the people who need to NOT do anything other than take care of themselves, and that maybe it will help both of them.

Maybe that's too grandiose, I don't know. I hardly know what my point is here, other than: this is me, crippled and crazy as all hell. This is the violence I face. This is why I started this blog, because we need to stop hearing "you're a lying abled privileged faker trying to take advantage of and take resources from real disabled people who really need it" from abled people, and saying it word for word to each other. Because what abled people mean by "real disabled people" is just a theoretical disabled person. A perfect victim. They don't mean any real disabled person, especially not those who can advocate for themselves. They mean they think every single one of us doesn't need or deserve accommodations, treatment, respect, humanity, or even life.

That's the point, really. We're all we've got. We've gotta fight for each other, not fight each other. And G-d, I know how hypocritical that sounds coming from my ragey, rabid ass. I just... that's all I know to focus on right now. Not necessarily all coming together and holding hands and singing a song about unity, but just... not being ableist to each other. Tolerating each other even if we can't stand each other. Presenting a united, unbroken front to ableist society, and pushing until they don't have any power over us anymore. Doing the work of activism, which is often neither easy nor feel-good.

That's what I'm trying to do here, at least. I try to get a little better at it every day. I try to listen a little more. I try to keep up hope when my body and mind are crashing down around me.

I don't have a mic-drop conclusion to add to this, so just: I'm opening the floor. Anyone who has anything to add, feel free to do so. What you have to say is valuable.

#ableism #sanism #unitypunk #cripplepunk #madpunk #neuropunk

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confessmau · 7 months

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I have trouble explaining to people why I so throughly hate Ghost in general because it’s just. She sa’d someone and no one gave a shit when Zane said anything and I physically cannot get past that, as dumb as that is considering it’s just jess’s shit writing again.

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AGREED!! anon they fucked that up so bad

i can see the ambition behind the ghost plot, especially in a series primarily focused on relationships, but it's resolved in such a gross way im honestly shocked that no one really brought it up before, like, last year.

imo i think the initial set up was pretty well done and does make sense? we always see ghost and zane's interactions before any character conflict, so there's no question about the objective truth. lucinda directly states that kim was possesed several episodes BEFORE ghost assults zane, and the scene is played dead straight. garroth, aaron, and aph's reactions, while supremely shitty make sense considering how they've previously treated zane in past seasons, and all three of them have had a history of assuming zane's overreacting over nothing; garroth spent the 3.5 side stories being a huge dick (picking apart zane's appearance during the weird excercise saga, belitting his interests, and straight up starts using zane's name as a verb to call out laur for overreacting) and laughs at the idea that anyone would like zane enough to sa him. aaron tries to use facts and logic to get zane to admit he's wrong like he did in the sick day ep. aph spent several episodes trying to teach zane "social lessons", and assumes that he's making a social failure and yells at him for it, later pulling him in the hall to correct him. garroth later has a sad eyes serious scene where he realizes that zane was telling the truth and he seriously fucked up.

jesson just forgot to, like, have anyone apologize for their actions....or address it in any meaningful way ever again.

the only time ghost ever gets confronted aboht the her actions is in s5, AFTER she's already escalated to attempting to actually kill kc. however, instead of focusing on her refusal to respect zane's boundaries or even her recent violent streak, it's about kim.

specifically about how kim is uncomfortable with ghost using her body to harrass zane because kim "doesn't want people to think she's into zane because she doesn't find zane attractive".

which is the exact justification garroth had for making fun of zane for being sa'd.

supremely nasty jesson thanks.

#aphmau #aphblr #confessions #mystreet #garroth ro'meave #zane ro'meave #tw sa #tw sa mention #tw sa implied #aphmau ghost #aphmau kim #aphmau aaron #aphmau zane

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helioselene · 2 years

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HELIOSELENE -> A WRITEBLR REINTRODUCTION;

your hunger bleeds into my skin seeping into my veins as if it's my life force;

psd credit; @cavalierfou

about me;

hi! im molly, 22, she/her. ive been on writeblr for a few years now but i figured its about time i throw myself back into the tumblr writing world !

when im not writing im a student specialising in human rights and global politics

if you ever want to yell about enemies to lovers (the best trope) im always here !!!

my favourite book is the song of achilles; however, im also quite partial to pride and prejudice, the picture of dorian gray and also the seven husbands of evelyn hugo :)

uhh im also a basketballer if that's cool hehe

main wips;

graces to the grave;

wip page (x) | wip tag (x) | pinterest board (x)

Juliette allowed herself to breathe, to pretend that, even for just a moment, she wasn’t consumed by a legacy born in bloodshed. Victorian London is on the precipice of destruction. As civil war breaks out between the city’s most formidable gangs, Juliette Edevane finds herself with a daring mission: kill the leaders of the Bonellis and secure her position as heir to London’s underworld. But orchestrating the deaths of Ruth and Cassius Granville is not as simple as it may seem.

Juliette is swept into a world of murder, magic, and marriage - where a wedding between her and a long-time rival may signify the line between success and failure in her mission. Armed with such an alliance, she must navigate the dangerous waters of a London built on the blood of gang rivalries, where betrayal and death hides around every corner. And yet, with her own heart on the line, she must confront where her true allegiances lie: with her gang, with her husband, or with those she once thought to be her greatest enemies.

the further we fall;

wip page (x) | pinterest board (x)

It was at that moment I realised just how much of a tragedy love could be. To have loved without hope or comfort, to be separated by a metaphorical chasm of social class and indignity. Love had only ever caused my slave-born mother to feel great heartache, to reach and yearn for something she would always, and forever, be but a fingertips breadth from.

Icarus is a boy made of fire and brimstone, destined to never live up to his father's legacy. Growing up in the Cretan palace was everything a commoner like him could ever dream of; but night after night he falls asleep listening to the sounds of poor Asterion in the Labyrinth, another son born from cruelty, who screams and hollers for the love of his parents.

When the opportunity to help Ariadne and Theseus to break into the Labyrinth arises, Icarus throws himself headfirst into the task. He vows to be something more, something better, and yet his own traitorous actions threaten to come to light.

All little Icarus wanted was his father's approval. But how can a gods-cursed boy like him ever be someone worthy of love?

backburners;

mermaid wip [high fantasy little mermaid x sleeping beauty]

elemental wip [high fantasy political intrigue]

redacted wip [co-written secret work in progress]