#I'm just a poor artist

[jely-bely]

Now that Damereycreations week is over what do I even draw.

Here are some cats while I figure this out

#damerey week #black cats #kitties #I'm just a poor artist #inspiration

[ipardraws]

Crowley's computer, it's real

#good omens #good old fashioned lover boy #crowley #aziraphale #fan art #i try to put my fan arts in a good use #don't judge me #i'm just a poor artist #ineffable lovers #freddie mercury #artist support #digital fanart

[inkskinned]

the thing about art is that it was always supposed to be about us, about the human-ness of us, the impossible and beautiful reality that we (for centuries) have stood still, transfixed by music. that we can close our eyes and cry about the same book passage; the events of which aren't real and never happened. theatre in shakespeare's time was as real as it is now; we all laugh at the same cue (pursued by bear), separated hundreds of years apart.

three years ago my housemates were jamming outdoors, just messing around with their instruments, mostly just making noise. our neighbors - shy, cautious, a little sheepish - sat down and started playing. i don't really know how it happened; i was somehow in charge of dancing, barefoot and laughing - but i looked up, and our yard was full of people. kids stacked on the shoulders of parents. old couples holding hands. someone had brought sidewalk chalk; our front walk became a riot of color. someone ran in with a flute and played the most astounding solo i've ever heard in my life, upright and wiggling, skipping as she did so. she only paused because the violin player was kicking his heels up and she was laughing too hard to continue.

two weeks ago my friend and i met in the basement of her apartment complex so she could work out a piece of choreography. we have a language barrier - i'm not as good at ASL as i'd like to be (i'm still learning!) so we communicate mostly through the notes app and this strange secret language of dancers - we have the same movement vocabulary. the two of us cracking jokes at each other, giggling. there were kids in the basement too, who had been playing soccer until we took up the far corner of the room. one by one they made their slow way over like feral cats - they laid down, belly-flat against the floor, just watching. my friend and i were not in tutus - we were in slouchy shirts and leggings and socks. nothing fancy. but when i asked the kids would you like to dance too? they were immediately on their feet and spinning. i love when people dance with abandon, the wild and leggy fervor of childhood. i think it is gorgeous.

their adults showed up eventually, and a few of them said hey, let's not bother the nice ladies. but they weren't bothering us, they were just having fun - so. a few of the adults started dancing awkwardly along, and then most of the adults. someone brought down a better sound system. someone opened a watermelon and started handing out slices. it was 8 PM on a tuesday and nothing about that day was particularly special; we might as well party.

one time i hosted a free "paint along party" and about 20 adults worked quietly while i taught them how to paint nessie. one time i taught community dance classes and so many people showed up we had to move the whole thing outside. we used chairs and coatracks to balance. one time i showed up to a random band playing in a random location, and the whole thing got packed so quickly we had to open every door and window in the place.

i don't think i can tell you how much people want to be making art and engaging with art. they want to, desperately. so many people would be stunning artists, but they are lied to and told from a very young age that art only matters if it is planned, purposeful, beautiful. that if you have an idea, you need to be able to express it perfectly. this is not true. you don't get only 1 chance to communicate. you can spend a lifetime trying to display exactly 1 thing you can never quite language. you can just express the "!!??!!!"-ing-ness of being alive; that is something none of us really have a full grasp on creating. and even when we can't make what we want - god, it feels fucking good to try. and even just enjoying other artists - art inherently rewards the act of participating.

i wasn't raised wealthy. whenever i make a post about art, someone inevitably says something along the lines of well some of us aren't that lucky. i am not lucky; i am dedicated. i have a chronic condition, my hands are constantly in pain. i am not neurotypical, nor was i raised safe. i worked 5-7 jobs while some of these memories happened. i chose art because it mattered to me more than anything on this fucking planet - i would work 80 hours a week just so i could afford to write in 3 of them.

and i am still telling you - if you are called to make art, you are called to the part of you that is human. you do not have to be good at it. you do not have to have enormous amounts of privilege. you can just... give yourself permission. you can just say i'm going to make something now and then - go out and make it. raquel it won't be good though that is okay, i don't make good things every time either. besides. who decides what good even is?

you weren't called to make something because you wanted it to be good, you were called to make something because it is a basic instinct. you were taught to judge its worth and over-value perfection. you are doing something impossible. a god's ability: from nothing springs creation.

a few months ago i found a piece of sidewalk chalk and started drawing. within an hour i had somehow collected a small classroom of young children. their adults often brought their own chalk. i looked up and about fifteen families had joined me from around the block. we drew scrangly unicorns and messed up flowers and one girl asked me to draw charizard. i am not good at drawing. i basically drew an orb with wings. you would have thought i drew her the mona lisa. she dragged her mother over and pointed and said look! look what she drew for me and, in the moment, i admit i flinched (sorry, i don't -). but the mother just grinned at me. he's beautiful. and then she sat down and started drawing.

someone took a picture of it. it was in the local newspaper. the summary underneath said joyful and spontaneous artwork from local artists springs up in public gallery. in the picture, a little girl covered in chalk dust has her head thrown back, delighted. laughing.

#writeblr #warm up #this is longer than i wanted i really considered removing that part about myself and what i went thru #but i think it really fucking bothers me that EVERY time i talk about being an artist #ppl assume i just like. had the skill and ability to drop everything and pay for grad school. #like sir i grew up poor. my house wasn't a safe space. i gave up a FREE RIDE TO LAW SCHOOL. for THIS. bc i chose it. #was it fucking hard? was i choosing the hard thing?? yes. #but we need to stop seeing artists as lazy layabouts that can ''afford'' to just ''sit around and create'' #when MANY - if not MOST - of us are NOT like that. we have to work our fucking ASSES off. hard work. long and hard work #part of valuing artists is recognizing the amount we sacrifice to make our art. bc it doesn't just #like HAPPEN to us. also btw it rarely has anything to do with true talent. #speaking as someone with a chronic condition i hate when ppl are like u have it easy. like actively as i'm writing this my hands r #ACTIVELY hurting me. i haven't been posting bc my left hand was curled in a claw for the last week #this isn't fucking luck. after a certain point it's not even TALENT. it's dedication & sacrifice. #''u get to flounce around and do nothing with ur life'' is a narrative that is a direct result of capitalism #imagine if we said that about literally any other profession. #''oh so u give up 10 yrs of ur life to be a doctor? u sacrifice having a social life and u get SUPER in debt? #u need to work countless hours and it will often be thankless? well i wish i was that lucky'' #we should be applying that logic to landlords ONLY #''oh ur mom and dad gave u the money to buy a house? and all u did was paint it white and rent it? huh.''

[giotanner]

if you are a Tim Drake fan you're cool and we should be friends. case closed.

#i want too much to find fans of Tim Drake and his fandom #where are you please #tim drake #dc comics #dc art #tim drake wayne #tim drake robin #red robin #batfam #batfamily #batman #i'm just a poor artist who loves this character too much for her health

[yudol-skorbi]

just a little guy on his way to get his 3 am sip of water

#one piece #one piece fanart #sorry #tony tony chopper #i couldn't get it out of my head so now you will suffer with me #just be glad that i didn't visualise this image in my brain about deer velvet #i think i'm not a good horror artist #deers are actually fucked up #no but like imagine #you wake up at 3 am to take your respectable piss #you're walking past the kitchen #and from the pure darkness two glowing orbs are looking right through your poor soul #took a second to think about it and this is just my cat owner experience

[lexumpysfunland]

can you show all your characters from The Stanley parable plsss❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

sure thing! I'm thinking of redoing Walter's ref though-

and I'm not finished with Stanley's ref but, here is something so far

for now it's all, I haven't been doing anything on Mariella yet so it's a future thing x)

#yeah it's a work in progress for the poor Stanley #I'm really thinking of reworking Walter's one too x) #aaah this annoying artist thing where you just want to redo it because the old one is uglyyyyy #tsp #tsp narrator #tsp stanley #tspud #tsp curator #tsp timekeeper #narratorverse #heartache au

[sensitiveheartless]

your art makes me wanna overcome my issues and just start creating as well after decades of not being able to. anw, just wanted to say you're an inspiration to me < 3

Aaaa I support!! <3<3<3 I'm really glad I've been able to inspire you! At least in my opinion, creating stuff is always valuable — Art art been very therapeutic for me :0 When I was younger I had a lot of trouble getting myself started on making stuff, and I was very on and off with it, especially during more tempestuous times. It's been about...seven or eight years now since I decided to start drawing every day, and admittedly some days all I have time/energy for is stuff like this:

But to me it still counts! Even though most of the stuff I draw in my sketchbook never becomes a finished piece, and it's all very messy, it still helps my brain to create it. Even when I just end up making a page of vaguely dinosaur-like creatures and weird little beasts like these ones from recently lol

Anyway! That was a bit of a ramble, but most importantly: If you do decide to create again, I wish you the best of luck, anon! <3<3<3

#I don't know if it helps other people — but I always like seeing artist's unfinished sketches and such #because it reminds me that EVERYONE has art pieces that don't turn out they way they want them to #which in turn makes me feel better about my many many sketchbooks full of nonsense and poor anatomy attempts lol #so! putting these sketches of mine in here in the hopes that I'm not the only one who feels that way :D #ask box #senhart rambles #side note but I recently started drawing dinosaurs from memory to cheer up one of my roommates #and they just always end up looking derpy. I cannot remember the right proportions of a T. rex off the top of my head XD

[gotchibam]

Does anyone here draw in both desktop & mobile? I'm planning to get a galaxy tab at some point and since I don't really have any experience drawing on a (mobile) tablet, I'm curious abt how it feels to draw on one vs. drawing on pc w/ a graphic tablet 🤔

#once I have all my commission slots filled up that's when i'll buy one #i've been hesitating bc i'm not used to spending a big amt for something but honestly it's more of an investment than a simple want #my poor 10 year old laptop + monitor + keyboard setup is the 'pc' im currently using #both the laptop screen & keyboard isn't working properly anymore so i have a separate monitor + keyboard for it #it's pretty laggy most of the time #not sure how it's still holding up #ngl sometimes i'm worried it'll just give up on me & break at any moment #so I kinda wanna have a backup device #anyways! I get easily tired drawing on pc for some reason #I think it's bc i unconsciously tense my neck? whenever i stare at the monitor for too long #also my eyes hurt + the extreme hot weather lately is making me dizzy so i can't work for long periods of time 😔 #I see a lot of artists use ipad so i'm guessing drawing on a tab would also feel nice??? #also would that get you in the mood to draw more bc you can bring it w/ u anywhere? #i'm hoping to be able to draw more honestly..... #also the timelapse!! csp wont let me record timelapse on my current pc and idk why that is #might be bc im still on win 7 #HOPING i could post timelapse vids when i finally have a tab #tbh i want to get one asap (like as in rn) but I want to make sure I have enough budget first so im waiting for my comm slots to be full #bam blabs

[fidgetspringer-art]

✧ The Ardal stars ✧

#artists on tumblr #art #illustration #digital art #digital drawing #dnd #dungeons and dragons #homebrew #original art #my art #my ocs #Setting: Heim #I drew these a couple of years ago now i think #but since i'm drawing stuff for this setting again i'm reuploading with updated information cause the last one is outdated #I will say right off the bat however #If you compare my designs to already existing IPs i will block you on sight #the last time i posted these they got compared to a piece of media i really dislike #and that comment alone made me fall out of love with this setting for almost two years #so please. do not. it's rude and unnecessary #These are the artefacts my setting and its story is largely centered around #Tethry is credited with creating them (Even though he didn't) #They were gifted by Tethry to each of the largest cities in the world to serve as power generators supplying arcane power to the whole city #immediately pushing the four sister cities into prosperity and progress. leaving literally everyone else in the dust #which caused some understandable tension between countries that already had a bit of a strained relationship to begin with #There is SO MUCH to these little trinkets and their link to Tethry and how finding them essentially fucked up his whole entire life #You'd think becoming the world's most renowned arcanist would be the best thing that ever happened to an aspiring caster #but to some poor dude just trying to study arcane language. stumbling across the magical equivalent of the demon core #was very much not on his wishlist #especially not dealing with the consequences of trying to make sure no one actually realises how nasty they have the potential to be #which. someone inevitably does

[5paceacer]

I love suddenly rediscovering old hyperfixations from like 3-4 years ago and remembering the brainrot that was associated with said hyperfixations,,, so I present traditional marker Lucas

#resident evil 7 #resident evil #lucas baker #re7 biohazard #re7 #re7 lucas baker #resident evil 7 biohazard #art #artists on tumblr #my art #traditional art #markers #love getting right hooked with sudden fixations when aLL I WANTED TO DO WAS WATCH MARKIPLIER PLAY IT AGAIN fUCK #i've gone mental #someone please save my poor soul #edit: i just realized the LCS logo on his hoodie is missing #edit: i'm too lazy to fix it

[misschibidoodles2]

NFWMB is hualian coded I don't make the rules

#Thing I had not anticipated after finishing tgcf: I'm back on my hozier bs again #then again you tell me the discography of an artist full of a)longing b) endless devotion worship like love and c) religious metaphors #would remind me of the ole ship #whose surprised #hualian #xie lian #hua cheng #san lang #mxtx #heaven official's blessing #tgcf #not tagging hozier cause i dont want poor people just enjoying my boy andrew to stumble on my sorry ass #but um im sorry #Give your heart and soul to charity'Cause the rest of youThe best of youHoney #belongs to me #??? #If I was born as a blackthorn treeI'd wanna be felled by youHeld by youFuel the pyre of your enemies #am i supposed to not daydream abt hualian when i hear this????

[sysig]

How is skeleton shaped (Patreon)

#Doodles #UT #Papyrus #Sans #Some redraws! I just don't feel like scanning the originals so they'll stay contextless for now lol #I apparently used to draw Papyrus' scarf/cape with a little squiggly bit down the middle of his chest as well :0 I think it looks silly now #The donk-pecks I was talking about! :D Give your sibling a family kiss ♪ As much as skeletons can anyhow lol #Papyrus was being silly and then leaned down fully expecting it lol - another thing smol and I do a lot haha #Sometimes doing the cat thing of headbutting for attention lol #Sad skele doodles! Oh no! D: Best boy is the saddest around </3 #I used to draw Papyrus' mouth as having teeth behind his teeth so I gave it another go - I think I'm good on it now lol I like his weird jaw #I don't know if I based the original eye-glows off anything specific :0 I wasn't as particular about my notes back then haha #He is still very fun to draw crying tho poor lad :') #Originally the second one of Papyrus with his eyes glowing had Sans comforting him with a forehead donk - even in this redraw! #But I got the angle wrong so I removed him and then had brainworms about it lol #Something something the player (the artist) controlling the appearance/experience and moving the pieces (the characters) around as they like #I already know all that! I've been metaphorically playing with dolls for years years years! It just never stops being weird #It's like being aware of my own breathing and blinking - it's ''natural'' and normal and there's obviously nothing wrong with it lol #There's just a level of awkward....Feeling surrounding awareness lol - intentionality! It's not like I can stop just because I'm aware of it #It's just so whimsical /neutral - if Sans had turned out how I wanted him to he'd be there comforting his brother! But because I... #As stated I have brainworms please excuse me lol #The level of weird feels between the various mediums is really interesting to me tho :) Being a player or reader or watcher or artist! #They all feel different - more or less in control of what happens to them and yet never fully without culpability hehe #Obviously as an artist it feels the most in control - even to my own empathetic detriment! (It's not that serious lol) #The difference between being a player and a reader is a lot closer than being a watcher tho imo it's like a spectrum of responsibility #Though that's kinda also just how I feel about media consumption in general lol - I guess one of those is technically media production #Anyway! Lol #I don't know where I got the idea that his hoodie is two-tone other than the separation of his pockets? #It is a cute design! Dunno if I'll keep it going forward just for convenience but I'm not mad about it lol

[le-reseda]

Scenery from "The Banshees of Inisherin", Martin McDonagh, 2022

(very small format, colored pencils and watercolor)

#mine #art #myart #artist on tumblr #my art #illustration #traditional art #artists on tumblr #traditional media #colored pencils #such a poor quality i'm sorry... #i love the color choices they made for Sioban in this scene ; she really stands out while Dominics just melts in his environment #the banshees of inisherin #barry keoghan #collin farrell #brendan gleeson #martin mcdonagh #films #kerry condon #scenery #ireland #eire #irish history #coast #seascape #personal

[pixelatedraindrops]

Yuma Kokohead.

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AKA The easiest character for me to torment with illness 😷

A prime whumpee candidate.

I gave him a sprite edit for every basic illness known to man and made this category chart. I may have a problem. This sprite editing is addicting.

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Shinigami you're not helping.

The lactose thing is just a headcanon. I've seen a lot of memes and shitposts with it and I was like, yes this is canon to me now

Shinigami just causally eating that ice cream right next to him to rub it in his face while he struggles to intake the milk, god what an asshole

TW// Emeto

alsotheaftermathofthesecondrow

Poor baby... ;-;

At least Shinigami has a non-existent warm beverage for him lol

Credit to this mini-fic for the nausea edit inspiration

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Feel free to share your sick headcanons w me if you got any for him.

#master detective archives: rain code #yuma kokohead #shinigami rain code #whumpcode #illness #whump edit #sickness #fever #cold #allergies #emeto #illness whump #sick whump #my urges to torment this poor boy is astronomical #there is way too much bait in the game for me to not #after the scenario in chapter 0 I already made headcanons for him #this is lowkey for other sickfic writers #choose your weapon LMAO #sprite edits #pixeledits #my edits #I'm sorry I keep tormenting poor yuma #its just TOO EASY... #and editing his sprites is so freaking addicting #illness whump writers and artists always have that one character they always mess with #I think I may have found mine #my own fic inspired me for the first two #this is why I didn't get any sleep last night #I've lost control of my life with this #i love how I say I’m not into emeto at all and yet I make this lol

[outeremissary]

I mentioned on the last post I'd done a different version at first. Here it is. Shout-out to my enabler. You know who you are.

#god I have to fucking tag this don't I. agh. I don't want this to be searchable. #consequences of my actions. #emi plays bg3 #enver gortash #kasander #durgetash #emi art #I'm just a poor amateur anime artist I have a long way to go drawing people who aren't 15

[minzart]

Alright I'll bite just bc I found it funny

Anon who I already blocked on sighingt and won't be able to see this(probably)

How does it feel to call someone a ugly lonely bitch when bitch is someone who gets so much pusy society made it a derogatory word? How does it feel to have a voice of a five years old? And call the representation in your mind of me ugly if I tecnicaly don't even exist in your area?

You make one aroace post and the 5years old think they are so smart, you are proving you are more lonely than me sweety💞 I got friends and mutuals to pamper while you are out there trying to be mean and useless💞

#you know your post whent to the wrong crowd when this happens. #lovely how that post was just a reafirmation that i exists and am ABSOLUTELY NOT ALONE DID YOU SAW THE COMENTS ON THERE?! #people had so much stories to share and indignation with the starus quo as I have. there is also so much reĺief to not be the only one #first anon hate i am finaly a tumblr blogger fr. that's also the only reason they get a post btw. it's a passage ritual #if you noticed they didn't even knew me too bc everyone know to 'hurt' and artist is to call their art ugly. that's such a low hanging frui #and they didn't even did it. bet they saw aroace and zomed on tge ask box to feel superior. oh you poor stupid imbecile #i've got bullies worst than you when I was 5 if i'm being honest. gringos n sobreviveriam um dia com o bully brasileiro