#senhart rambles

[sensitiveheartless]

hey i just saw a tiktok video with the horrors comic and i couldn't find any credit (also the comments were turned off ://) and i thought maybe you should know (here's the link to it: https://vm.tiktok.com/ZGexd54Qx/ )

Ah, thank you anon! I'm not particularly surprised unfortunately, not the first time it's happened with that comic — sadly I don't think there's much I can do about it, especially since I don't have a tiktok myself. But thank you for letting me know! I do like to know whenever that happens, even if I can't do anything to get the videos taken down. At the very least, it's a reminder that I should really start putting some sort of signature on my comics 😅

...Also, in this particular case the video you linked actually made me laugh when I looked at it, because!! Quick storytime: the last time someone messaged me to let me know that a tiktoker had reposted the horrors comic, I went and looked at it and noticed that the reposter had put two of the comic pages in the wrong order. Somehow NO ONE in the comments had mentioned the fact that the order of events didn't flow right, it was hilarious.

Why is this relevant? Well, because this tiktok you've linked me to has the SAME EXACT MISTAKE, which indicates to me that this new person didn't even steal it from me directly, they stole it from the OTHER REPOSTER and also didn't notice the mistake in page order! The reposters are cannibalizing each other! I am both very entertained and utterly baffled by the lack of effort! They're not even stealing things well!

Anyway, all this to say: I have managed to find the humor in this kind of situation, but I still do not appreciate people reposting my stuff, especially without credit. And general PSA that if you see my comics/artwork anywhere that is not here on my tumblr, or on my AO3 account forest_raccoon, that is not posted by me, and it has been done without my permission.

#tldr; don't repost artist's work! it is not kind #...about this particular case though — #comparing the two tiktok pages really convinced me that that reposter 2 is just stealing from reposter 1 #they've even reposted some comics from artists that are missing full pages and thus do not make sense #similar complaint: reposter 1 also stole the 'wrecking ball; comic I did recently #and they DIDN'T USE WRECKING BALL BY MOTHER MOTHER AS THE BACKGROUND SONG #HOW DO YOU MESS THAT UP #I mean I know people who repost stuff are probably more likely to be lazy (since they're already just stealing other people's work) #but this is on another level to a degree that I kinda just have to laugh #anyway! I'll figure out a way to incorporate a signature into my comics and other than that I'm not gonna worry about it too much lol #not that a signature will stop reposters of course — reposter 1 has several stolen videos that say 'DO NOT REPOST' right on the screen #but at least then anyone looking for the original artist can find it if they want to! #ask box #senhart rambles

[caelanglang]

Okay so I saw that you were sobbing over Ito’s newest ATLA au (and so am I ngl 😭😭) but can I recommend you @sensitiveheartless’s howls moving castle au fic? It’s really good and it’s pretty fluffy! (Im not them btw, just a fellow skk lover :3)

... I’ll be honest with you chief, the moment I saw that fic on ao3 I saw a huuuuuuggee blue flag on it. Blue flag, in my terms, is that it's a big green flag for me to read but also a big warning that it's gonna be a big rabbit hole and emotional investment that I will never get out of TvT BECAUSE IT'S A HOWL'S MOVING CASTLE AU AND SKK??? Bro I am so down bad and I am so scared to be soooo normal about it. ALSO in the books, Howl and Sophie's quarrels and bickerings? VERY SKKcore if you ask me. It's one of my favorite books too and I AM SO NOT READY TO BE SO DOWN BAD FOR THE FIC.

but maybe this is a sign that I should finally suck it up and read it :,)) I would love to cry about it here. Senhart is one of my fav skk creators! Their fluff and writing and drawings are so good. I love their other works, especially "Plate :(" and "This is how it feels to take a fall" and I just know that the howl's moving castle au fic will not disappoint—it will, in fact, destroy me so thoroughly and change my brain chemistry and I could already feel it lining up to the "fics that changed the trajectory of my life" in my brain folder (which amounts to a number that I could count with my two hands ngl...)

oh gosh I rambled again... ><;; Sorry for this but yes! you will definitely hear my cries, and smell my sweat and tears from making fanart of this fic in this blog once I finally suck it up and start reading! Thank you so much for this!

ps. I'm crying with you over Ito's fic dw here, hold my hand T~T)//

#inbox #gosh i really wish i was braver than this

[sensitiveheartless]

Just finished the sketches for the next comic part — sorry this one has taken a while! I got a couple pages into an attempt and then decided that it wasn’t flowing right so I scrapped it and started over from scratch which slowed me down a lot

In other news, RIP to these panels that are now banished from the comic forever lol

#they were fun to draw but they had to be banished because the blocking was not working #I have the entire conversation planned out but I will admit that I’m still ironing out the character movements lol #attempts are being made #bsd #my art #bsd chuuya #bsd dazai #soukoku #skk #senhart rambles

[sensitiveheartless]

Howdy! Sorry I’ve been super inactive this week, I got abruptly very busy and have spent much of my time running around like a chicken and then subsequently flopping about in utter exhaustion like a beached fish — but I should be able to get to unanswered asks in the next couple days, and I’m almost finished with the fem!skk comic I’ve been working on! :D (it got a bit long lol)

So anyway, in the meantime here are some extra fem!Dazai doodles I made :0

#my household has had a guest staying with us for the past month and it’s been fun but also I am not adapted to this much activity #I am but a small creature I cannot help this #anyway! #I hope y’all are doing well :D #bsd #my art #fem!skk #bsd chuuya #bsd dazai #soukoku #bungou stray dogs #skk #senhart rambles

[sensitiveheartless]

Still working on rendering the ‘horrors’ comic (it became 20 pages long help) but in the process I’ve realized that this might be the angriest I’ve ever drawn Dazai, which is kind of wild

#I am having fun and learning a lot from this comic but oh my gosh some of the lineart has taken a while to make work #I am not used to rendering horror lol #bsd dazai #my art #senhart rambles

[sensitiveheartless]

Progress update on current comic part: sketches are all done, currently working through the lineart! It’s been a little slower going because my hands have been cranky about the fall weather, which makes both drawing AND typing a bit of a pain, so I keep having to take breaks—but getting there!

(And here are some out of context Chuuya and Dazai faces, since it’s becoming a habit to post these lol)

#I quickly realized I couldn’t fit the entire conversation they have into a single post #so we’re gonna be going through the soup convo in stages! #more comic parts because I cannot control myself lol #senhart rambles #my art

[sensitiveheartless]

Hey y’all! Just wanted to let you guys know that I’m experiencing a bit of a poor health flareup, so I probably won’t be very active for the rest of this week, and I’ll unfortunately be slow to respond to asks and messages as well, sorry about that — my internal organs are really trying to fight me, and it is not conducive to coherent thought🦎 🐊

#I was hoping it would be over quickly so I could just get back to everything but it got markedly worse today #why has this physical form forsaken me once again #ANYWAY dramatics aside I hope you all are doing alright and I wish you very well! #with luck this particular spiral won’t last much longer #very much depends on whether I can get sleep lol #fingers crossed! #senhart rambles

[sensitiveheartless]

Welp. After recovering from that last bit of ill health, I have promptly gotten sick again — this time an actual cold, it seems? Have a sore throat and a fever and my head is about as clear as mud, so I once again probably won’t be very active until I start to recover, just wanted to give y’all a heads up

#beginning to feel a bit like the universe is trolling me #my brain is full of jelly beansss #senhart rambles

[sensitiveheartless]

Hey y’all, sorry for being very slow about posting again! One of my housemates came down with Covid this week, and since I just got over it, I’m the best person to take care of him. So there are a lot of things I’m juggling right now, and I’ll probably continue to be pretty sporadic about posting for a bit — but yeah, just wanted to update on where I disappeared to :D hope everyone is doing well!

#I am also endeavoring not to accidentally transfer it to my other housemate — as far as we know she hasn’t had it yet #so I am doing a lot of handwashing and masking — so far so good! #still drawing and writing just very slowly lol #turtle pace turtle pace :D progress is progress! #senhart rambles #covid mention

[sensitiveheartless]

Hey y’all, sorry I’ve been kinda absent this week! The joints in my hands once again betrayed me so I’ve been resting them (still trying to figure out how much I can do without pissing them off lol) and then I had to do several things that were very draining so I’ve been Out Of It, but hopefully the next couple weeks will be better alsksjdjf

…in any case, here is a random howl AU skk sketch because I needed to doodle something self indulgent with my limited hands lol

(Also sorry to everyone whose asks I haven’t gotten to yet! I’ve been having a bit of a time lately and I haven’t wanted to respond while having zero braincells cause otherwise all my responses will just be keysmashes of appreciation 😅)

#senhart rambles #bsd #my art #bsd chuuya #bsd dazai #skk #soukoku

[sensitiveheartless]

20 questions for fic writers!

Tagged by @feralrookie! :D Thank you for the tag!!

1. How many works do you have on ao3?

10! (technically, kinda)

2. What's your total ao3 word count?

379,547

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Just Bungou Stray Dogs! It's also the first fandom I've written for, actually. :D

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

This is how it feels to take a fall (Dazai goes feral, time shenanigans)

Plate :( (Dazai breaks a plate, experiences emotions)

Dazai and the Moving Detective Agency (Howl's Moving Castle AU)

Chuunyaa's Pawsitively Catastrophic Day (Chuuya is turned into a cat, it's short and pretty much just shenanigans)

Wish in one hand (First fic I wrote, and the first one I posted — Dazai has emotions about handholding)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I try to, but I've been absolutely terrible at it lately — whenever I'm particularly stressed I start worrying that the negative emotions are going to leak through into what I'm writing and make my tone sound weird, so then I end up turtling in on myself and not saying anything at all, no matter how much I want to engage with people. It's a bad habit, and I want to work on it, so I'm gonna try to catch up on comments! (I treasure every single one of the ones I receive, so for anyone who has left a comment and hasn't gotten a response from me yet, thank you and I am very sorry about my inability to form words in a timely manner skdjfksd)

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Probably An Unsent Letter, since it's pretty much just a short snippet of Dazai being sad while he's leaving the mafia. And even with that one, I have in my head that skk still get together after the four years apart, I just didn't write it. I am dreadful with sad endings — although the ending to "This is how it feels to take a fall" is a little bittersweet, perhaps.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Hmm...I'm gonna say Dazai and the Moving Detective Agency, because it's the one with the longest buildup, so I think it has the most catharsis, at least for me! But I tend to give all of my fics happy endings because, as established, I am a wimp when it comes to hardcore angst. I will say that Zut Alors I Have Missed One is probably a contender for happiest as well, just because that fic had no angst whatsoever and was just Unhinged

8. Do you get hate on fic?

Nope! Everyone's been lovely! I have gotten some for my art, but honestly it was pretty toothless and I couldn't take it seriously lol

9. Do you write smut?

...Yeh. :0 There was an attempt, at least — one fic, and I made it anonymous (so on the extreme off-chance that anyone notices a discrepancy between my total ao3 wordcount listed here and the summed up wordcounts of the fics viewable on my profile, that's why!) It's also another fic I need to finish, I hit my writing roadblock with that one at the same time as all my others, and it's almost doneeee I just need my brain to cooperate >:|

10. Do you write crossovers?

Not any proper crossovers, only things like the Howl AU and the Little Mermaid AU, where I took the settings/plots and put in BSD characters.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not that I know of!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

...Possibly? I'm not actually sure, I've given a couple people permission, but I'm not sure if anything came of that, I haven't heard one way or another :0 I do have a tendency to use puns, which I realize might make things difficult for translations

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

No, not so far — and given how tempestuous my schedule has been, it'll probably be a while before I attempt anything like that! Sounds fun, though

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

...I mean, it's gotta be soukoku, because for all that I've enjoyed a lot of fictional pairings before (for example, Howl and Sophie specifically from the HMC books, Beatrice and Benedick from Much Ado About Nothing — I like bickering duos, what do you know — Peter Wimsey and Harriet Vane, currently falling down the Hualian rabbithole because I'm reading Heaven Official's Blessing with my friend, and there's lots of other ones), for as much as I like all those, I haven't really had much of an urge to write anything for them.

So, purely in terms of me wanting to mess around with two characters and write them over and over and over again, it's really only skk! They hit the exact right combination of braincells, I guess lololol

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but probably won't?

Hmmm...honestly, most of my WIPs I still intend to finish at some point or another — first priority being the ones I've already started posting, of course! Although...just due to time constraints, I might not get around to writing the thief!Chuuya/detective!Dazai one I was planning a while back. (and I mean a WHILE lol) I didn't write very much of it, and honestly most of the reason I wanted to write it was for comedy — so maybe I'll turn it into a short comic series instead, because I do think some of the bits were funny :0

16. What are your writing strengths?

That's a hard one; I tend to look more at the ways I want to improve my writing then at what I like about it, and I nitpick just about everything I create, art and writing alike. But if I had to pick something, I would probably say dialogue? That tends to be what I write easiest, at least. I still want to get better at that too, though.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Descriptions and action scenes. I've been making myself write them more, so I think I'm slowly improving (the Howl AU has been great for that! It pushed me to write all sorts of scenes I wouldn't have normally :D ), but those two things remain what I get bogged down by the most.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

Depends on the circumstances, I think? I'd include translations if I did. I do tend to include Japanese honorifics when I'm writing in the canon universe, because there's not really english equivalents and it feels like I'm leaving something out when I just do their names straight — although I did take them out when I was doing the Howl AU and the Little Mermaid AU, just as a setting thing.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Bungou Stray Dogs — like I mentioned in the ship section, this is the first fandom where I've really felt the urge. Although I did write things when I was little that very blatantly yoinked in various creatures and concepts from the things I was reading and watching, which resulted in stories with pirates and weeping angels and Ringwraiths all running around in the same place. But I didn't usually bother with bringing in actual characters from those pieces of media, or even using the settings, I just made ocs and had them run around in my own made up world.

20. Favorite fic you've written?

I like all of them for different reasons, but I think my favorite overall has to be Dazai and the Moving Detective Agency. It's the longest thing I've ever written, and when I started out I wasn't sure I'd be able to do it — so the fact that it's most of the way done (currently chipping away at the epilogue, it is getting to be a LOT of words) makes me really happy. And it's just been so much fun! Writing characters I hadn't before, piecing the world together, working out the magic system, writing Dazai being a mess and Chuuya being cool, it's all been a blast. And I seriously need to finish the epilogue, because the followups are living in my brain and they demand to be freed aksdfjksdjfk

But yeah! I'm not sure how many writers I know on here have already been tagged, so I'll just go open tags on this one! :D If any of y'all write and feel like doing this, then go for it!

#tag game #senhart rambles #senhart's writing #long post

[sensitiveheartless]

Hey y’all! Just wanted to update that I seem to have caught covid (tested positive earlier today), so progress on all my stuff is gonna be even slower until I’m recovered. I feel like I couldn’t think my way out of a paper bag right now — the brain fog sure is a thing, huh? This is my first time getting it and I have to say, so far it’s a 0/10: Would Not Recommend, I feel like microwaved garbage

Anyway, just thought I’d let you guys know that if I’m even more sporadic about posting, this is why lol

#the fatigue really is dreadful #and all my bones hurt #but anywayyy hopefully it doesn’t last too long #senhart rambles #illness cw #covid mention

[sensitiveheartless]

...K this is going to sound completely out of the blue, but this has been haunting me today —

#I have found a few things while googling but my results are inconclusive! <-(this might be because i am operating with very few braincells) #Has he ever consumed a fly on screen in any show or movie? Like #fully??? #sidenote but this burning question has led me to the discovery that there is an entire wiki section titled 'MUPPETS EATING OTHER MUPPETS' #...anyway do not be concerned my brain is just in a weird headspace because I haven't properly left my room since thursday morning lol #and obviously i'm going to stay isolated until i'm better! #in the meantime I will have muppet thoughts apparently #hmmm muppet au #...oh god. has anyone done a 'bsd where everything is the same but Dazai is a muppet'? #because that would be glorious #or wait #going by muppet movie logic I guess it would have to be one human with an entire cast of muppets so — #who would the human be??? #oh no oh NO hold on wait— #what if all ability users are muppets #and Dazai's ability is 'NO LONGER MUPPET' and he can poke people and turn them into full humans #HELP #senhart rambles #polls #i do not know what else to tag this with so i simply shall not

[sensitiveheartless]

will you be updating the Tales of the moving detective agency(sorry if I got the title wrong)? I absolutely loved the story and it was such a good read. I'd love to see more content from it, short drabbles or little stories. But I loved the work so much, thank you!!!!

Ah, yes, I will! :D (Thank you, I’m really happy you enjoyed it!!)

I have a handful of things planned — there’s gonna be an epilogue, followed by a sort of in-between story which I think I’m gonna call “Rimbaud and the Man of Many Ways”, and then a sequel that’ll be called “Chuuya and the Castle in the Air”. I’ve been slowly working on the epilogue for ages alskdjfj things just keep happening to make it difficult 😭 I was just starting to make progress on it again recently, and then the universe bonked me with Covid and I lost all braincells for writing — gotta say, that is some impressive fatigue that comes with the plague, I’m still not quite back to regular energy levels O_O (getting there though!)

But yeah, I still very much intend to write the extras! It’ll just take me a little bit to get to then all alsksjdjf (epilogue has to get finished first for setup reasons) plus I also want to write a handful of scenes from the main story from Dazai’s perspective at some point, because I love the angsty disaster man!

Some good news is that I got really fired up to work on it again this week, because I got to see Howl’s Moving Castle in a theater for the first time ever and it was so FUN!! and I came very close to tears multiple times even though I’ve already watched the movie over and over again — I think somehow writing the howl AU has made me more attached to the source material than ever, which is quite a feat! I’m also reading the book aloud with one of my housemates, which is a delight ;; (and good practice for me because I am not the best at speaking and tend to stammer lol)

All that said, thank you very much for the interest, it’s really nice to hear that people are still invested in the followup stuff!! :’D

#it’s also good to know that there would be potential interest in shorter little things as well… #because honestly I would love to just write little snippets of domesticity sometimes #in other news I remain obsessed with the backgrounds in ghibli movies #they’re so PRETTY *flips table* #ask box #howl’s moving castle au #senhart rambles

[sensitiveheartless]

Hullo!! Just wanted to give a belated thank you for all the well wishes, I really appreciate them all :'D I definitely seem to be on the mend! I've been having an...interesting health time this year, but I'm working on it. I've started getting more sleep, at least, which is helping — sleep deprivation makes my digestive issues way, way worse. And also makes it more likely that I'll get sick in general aksjdfksjdf

But yeah, anyway! With luck I will be able to get more things done this week, as long as I can avoid making my body rebel against me again!

#I have had IBS for around eight years now and yet I still struggle to manage it sometimes aksdjfksdjf #not sure if there are food triggers I'm missing or if it's just a combination of stress and sleep and other environmental issues #ah well #...I also need to be more careful when I'm exhausted lol I injured my right hand twice this week #one while trying to cook and one while trying to unhook my cat's claw from a blanket he was stuck on #I need that hand for drawinggg #senhart rambles #health mention

[sensitiveheartless]

Ok so because of the weird art time I’m having, I’ve been having a bit of trouble committing to a single drawing (persistent squirrel brain), so: what do y’all think, any preferences on what I finish next?

#to be clear this isn’t an either-or situation it’s more order of operations #because again squirrel brain is having trouble focusing #and is overthinking everything I draw #but I want to do all of these! #(on another note I can’t watch the new episode until Friday but I’ve been seeing the gifs and I am EXCITED #) #senhart rambles