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felt inspired by this weeks dungeon meshi ep

#dungeon meshi #best friends :) #shuro #laios touden

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Lore accurate Six achieved thank you Harper for making me feel like I hadn't gone completely insane

Gamers I am Losing My Fucking Mind tonight because I wanted to relocate the iconic ugly ass powder blue shitty business miniskirt with fishnets outfit that my poor courier was fucking stuck in most of the game in New Vegas just to see it again for laughs since it's unfortunately her iconic look to me and I. I can't find it. I can't find a trace of this wretched thing. There's no proof I can find that it exists. I wouldn't make this up I could never make up this atrocity I hate this stupid outfit so much. Where is it. I feel like I'm being lied to. It looked like this by the way and it was a really unappealing powder blue

I've lost all my saves for that game on a computer I no longer have access to I can't just open the game to check. I have no screenshots. I have old sketches of it I swear I have old sketches of it from closer to when I played the game but I can't fucking find them. Where is it what is it it has to exist it must exist what am I missing

#it was the charming merc outfit and it was never powder blue. for women at least. #doodles

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And do you know what else. On top of owning every Larian game no one has played. I have VtMB on two different platforms and I still have no fucking idea why. That's right. I have two different PC copies of VtMB.

I have learned that somewhere in the shuffle of changing computers over the past decade I have lost KOTOR and New Vegas. Where did they go. Where the hell did I get them to begin with. I've played these fucking games. How??? Where were they???

#rambling

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I have learned that somewhere in the shuffle of changing computers over the past decade I have lost KOTOR and New Vegas. Where did they go. Where the hell did I get them to begin with. I've played these fucking games. How??? Where were they???

#but do you know what I still have? divine divinity and elder scrolls arena. fucking elder scrolls arena. #rambling

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Gamers I am Losing My Fucking Mind tonight because I wanted to relocate the iconic ugly ass powder blue shitty business miniskirt with fishnets outfit that my poor courier was fucking stuck in most of the game in New Vegas just to see it again for laughs since it's unfortunately her iconic look to me and I. I can't find it. I can't find a trace of this wretched thing. There's no proof I can find that it exists. I wouldn't make this up I could never make up this atrocity I hate this stupid outfit so much. Where is it. I feel like I'm being lied to. It looked like this by the way and it was a really unappealing powder blue

I've lost all my saves for that game on a computer I no longer have access to I can't just open the game to check. I have no screenshots. I have old sketches of it I swear I have old sketches of it from closer to when I played the game but I can't fucking find them. Where is it what is it it has to exist it must exist what am I missing

#please tell me I didn't make this up I have no idea how I could have made it up #help. #rambling #doodles

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is wet&wild liquid eyeliner part of the male dungeongoer starter kit or something

#HELP. #dungeon meshi #d&d #thistle #sissel #kabru #two of my favorite beautiful men

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#:')

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yes yes characters doomed by the narrative always slap BUT what about characters saved by the narrative? characters who have already given up hope and don't know they have a happy ending? characters who believe they are a lost cause, characters who feel irredeemable, characters who think there's nothing left for them, but the narrative does provide a way out? what about the characters who don't expect anything good, who don't even remember how to wish for it anymore, who get the things they need anyway? what about the characters who actively run from being saved getting saved in a way they can't stop or control. what about being saved by the narrative!!!

#balthazar lucienne #tristian

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I know the genie is out of the bottle and you can't go back but dear GOD I hate the mainstreamification of fandom so much

I do NOT want authors or showrunners or actors to acknowledge us or talk about fanfic or fanart or fan theories! I do NOT want people asking questions of the canon creators and getting them answered (make up your own answers, like god intended!) I do NOT want companies making jokey advertisements aimed toward fandom!

I know that fandom was never entirely underground but like... I miss that fourth wall existing, you know?

#YEAH. #man I was sorting through my screenshots from 2021 on my phone earlier trying to delete some stuff #and there's so so much from the owlcat twitter account doing the fandom wink wink nod nod #I remember at the time I was really excited by it but it really fucking grates me now. like jesus god back up a bit #I have Various Feelings at this point about that studio's history with its fandom. #I'm so glad I'm not on twitter now to see whatever larian has reputedly been doing the owlcat antics were more than enough #fandom #highly recommend the book exploiting fandom btw

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2, 10, 20, 29 for the unconventional artist asks?

Thank you for the ask! :D And apologies for the delay ^^;;

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2. Is it easier to draw someone facing left or right (or forward even)

You know, I don't think about this very much! I think I had a strong preference when I was younger and less experienced, but at a point it became a lot less difficult to do things either way (and forward, haha). I guess it depends on a character's hairstyle, but in general I think I instinctively tend to draw people facing right...? Maybe.........?

10. Favorite piece of clothing to draw

Shirts and coats! I think it shows, haha. But really I love anything I can stuff ribbons and lace on, so I also really enjoy accessories. Although I don't like drawing shoes in general, I also actually really love drawing high heels specifically. Between Balthazar and Carmen I've just spent years drawing them and studying the one pair I own.

20. Something everyone else finds hard to draw but you enjoy

Hm, it's kind of hard to think of something... I'm going to say backgrounds! I see people complain about them a lot, but I actually love doing backgrounds even if I don't do a ton of them just because of how much time they often take. My big illustrations are often my favorite pieces to work on, and I keep cooking ideas for new ones I have yet to find the time to sit down and do... Backgrounds with a lot of natural elements are my favorite!

The other thing I really love doing that seems to surprise people sometimes is ornamental frames (heavy crossover here lmao). I actually have a piece I didn't finish in time for Valentine's Day this year that I'd like to close out some time in the not too distant (hopefully.) future that has a Really Fun frame on it.

29. Media you love, but doesn't inspire you artistically

Ach. I feel like this applies to so many things. I actually don't do a lot of fan art these days outside a few things and I also don't take direct stylistic inspiration from a lot of things (and it tends to be Kinda Random stuff). I guess a big one for a game I really love but can't imagine seriously doing fan art for is Tyranny. I love Tyranny, I love its visuals, I think it has a fantastic story and memorable characters, it's one of my favorite games, I can't see myself ever doing Tyranny art. I dunno what it is, I just don't really feel it!

#ask game #ask me emithing #arendaes #I have so so many golarion holidays I missed this spring that I wanted to do illustrations for. including tomorrow. #and I still want. to just. do them late. #and one day I will finish the absalom market illustration from last year I swear to god #I want to develop as an illustrator haha. I know my background skills are pretty rough but I don't mind. #love drawing'em anyway.

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#ygo

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when is comes to asexuality and aromanticism you have to be okay with contradiction. one ace person will say asexuality is about not experiencing attraction, another will say it’s about not caring to act on attraction, another will say it’s not experiencing arousal. one aromantic will consider themself queer, one won’t. two people with seemingly identical experiences will use two different labels. aro people will be in romantic relationships, ace people will have sex. you get it.

#asexuality #aromanticism #tbh I think the ambiguity is one of the most powerful things about it

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Height gap romance except the shorter one is frequently depicted in situations where they are contextually taller. The taller one sitting while the shorter one looms over them. Both of them lying in bed with the taller one’s head pressed to the shorter one’s chest. The shorter one straddling the taller one’s lap and leaning down for a kiss. The taller one on their knees as the shorter one tilts their head up. Please, it makes me go feral

#balthazar and tristian #very much

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#90% sure it was death note 10% chance it was fmab. can't remember the exact timing on those. #I think it was death note though because that's the one I remember watching partially through three part YouTube uploads on a Kindle. #to this day I have never seen the OP of death note #tumblr polls

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sure I have "problems" but a bagel would help. a bagel would help.

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I was really sleepy when I was answering asks yesterday and I almost forgot to check if you were doing the problematic oc ask too!

Balth is your oc I’m most familiar with! But if they’ve already been asked tell me about whatever critter is infecting your brain most rn 👀💖

Ahh, I appreciate the ask!! Somehow, no one did ask about him!! At any rate, I feel like this blog is full of Balthazar's sympathetic moments and not his Chaotic Fucking Evil Moments, happy to finally correct that <3

Lies constantly

Vengeful

Selfish

Past history of gold digging

Former con artist

Endorsement of experiments on animals

Enjoys watching other people suffer

Loves making people worse

Willing to sell out friends when they cease to be useful

Told a suicidal man to do a flip on the way down

Made fun of a suicidal man's family's deaths

Invades woman's memories to see her at her most vulnerable, mocks her for it

In general just willing to kick anyone when they're down

Doesn't like Regongar's puns

Profited from infant sacrifice

Murdered his own cult

Lied about having a cult

Problematic trans rep?

Accepted demonic gifts multiple times

Supported two different Lamashtu cults

Really does unconditionally forgive Tristian

Sincerely thinks Tristian did nothing wrong

(except cause problems for him but see two points above)

Funded demonic library

Misappropriation of public funds for personal projects

Harboring smugglers

Has been called the worst and most evil person in the Stolen Lands multiple times

Had a cult dedicated to him being The Worst (until he murdered them, see above)

Recruits enemies terrorizing area to work for him

Leading on poor Sharel

Frequently manipulates others into killing on his behalf

Takes credit for the work of others

Refuses to help with camp chores

Troll alliance

Hates animals

Obnoxious PDA

Abuses aasimar heritage to take advantage of others' trust

The public executions

The secret executions

Comes from working class family, often uses his success to close opportunities for others instead of opening them

Jaethal minister

Belittles Regongar's mental health problems

Ghosts Regongar instead of breaking up with him

Mocks Linzi's writing constantly

Enchantment specialist. Mind control is the way <3

Endorsement of experiments on nonconsenting wererats

Identity theft

Identity theft coverup

Asshole southern elitist, frequently belittles local culture as backwards

Propaganda

Lying to the public about a plague

Gaslighting rioters into fighting each other

24 year old bullying a 17 year old... Lander Lebeda is literally a minor

Plus that's just high key pathetic

The murders

The assassinations

Doesn't like dessert :(

Funding foreign dissidents

Endorsement of troll torture

Bad at communicating emotional needs

Using other people as shields in combat

Will throw anyone under the bus for anything

Really only heals Tristian in combat

Supports filicide for dark ritual purposes

His friendship with Jaethal in general

Problematic bi rep?

Attempted to recreate Bloom

Everything that happened during the Divorce Era

There's probably still a warrant out for him in Absalom

Due to [redacted]

Defacing a priceless historic tome (only known copy)

Anyone can die if it's for Tristian's sake

Sells out allies when they stop being convenient

Surtova supporter

Covering up Lander's death

Lander Undeath Incident

Torture is fine

I'm not even sure he seriously thinks torture works he's just horrible

Bread and circuses babyyyyyy

Mean to Nok-Nok

Literally kicked a dog

And there's an incomplete list of Balthazar Crimes! I'm sure I'm missing so, so much but honestly he's problematic more than he's not so. You know.

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#because of timing I actually thought for some reason you sent the Kas anon asdfjoiasd #ask game #ask me emithing #balthazar lucienne #bearvanhelsing #cw suicide mention #god. the balthazar crimes requiring me to add that. #the kas crime list is so long but the balthazar crime list is Longer.

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why is being alive so expensive. i’m not even having a good time