#I’m sorry not sorry

[nocasdatsgay]

A Lesson in Heartbreak

Part 1 of 3: The Night it Fell Apart

Rating: T | Word Count: 2082 | Pairing: Azris/Reader

Summary: Eris and Azriel made promises they didn’t keep. When you confront them about it, Eris says some things he instantly regrets. Now him and Azriel have to fix what they broke.

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Warnings: Angst, Eris has a sharp tongue

A/N: @daycourtofficial asked if we would ever see that big fight mentioned in Even High Lords Need a Break and I was like sure why not aka let me channel my upsetti spaghetti emotions into this

Tagging: @hieragalbatorixdottir @mybestfriendmademe

Your food was cold but not as cold as the empty dining room you sat in. You’d stared at your plate in silence, letting tears fall before wiping them away with your napkin. You couldn’t bring yourself to eat. First due to waiting, then due to nausea from the realization they weren’t coming.

They promised, played in your mind over and over.

It was a betrayal you’d never felt before. The hollowness in your chest was eating away at you. You’d blocked the bond, determined that they would have to come of their own accord. But an hour passed and neither of them showed. After one last wipe of your face, you stood and tossed the napkin onto the table. Anger burned in you for a moment at the utter waste of food in front of you.

You left and found Azriel first.

He was in the upper library, books scattered on the table. The second he looked up at you, his face fell. You didn’t say anything, just stared with anger in your chest and tears falling again. He appeared in front of you, shadows weaving all around you.

“You promised,” was all you could get out.

Azriel fell to his knees, wings flaring out.

“Baby, I’m sorry. I know I promised. I wasn’t paying attention to the time.” Regret etched in his voice and features. “I was just busy-“

“And your shadows didn’t remind you?” Azriel’s silence was deafening. He reached for you but you stepped back. His shadows left you as well. “Where is Eris?”

“His office, but-“ you didn’t listen to what else he said.

You winnowed to the High Lord’s main office door. Without knocking, you threw it open. Eris was hunched over papers himself, fingers stained with ink as they ran through his hair. He didn’t even look at you.

“Eris.” He still didn’t look up. “Eris!”

“What?” He snapped, finally looking at you. He frowned as he studied your face. His tone was softer when he asked, “Why are you crying?”

“You don’t remember?” You were shaking, grief and anger building further.

He cursed, realization washing over him. “Dinner.”

“Yes. Dinner.” You gritted out. “You promised me that you and Az would be there.” Like you promised the past several weeks, you thought but bit it back.

“I know, I know.” He moved papers on his desk around. “But the High Lord meeting is in a week. There are things we have to plan for, it’s taking longer than-“

“You said that last week. And the week before that. Then it was tithe you had to work on. These are just excuses!” You screamed. “Neither of you showed! You promised!”

“Do not raise your voice at me.”

A command, one that had you clenching your fists at your side. He was on his feet, hands planted on his desk and he looked at you like he did his unruly governors. You could see fire in his eyes as he continued.

“I am genuinely sorry that I missed dinner. However, some things are more important than a meal. I’m the High Lord and I have responsibilities. We are hosting this time and we have to make certain everything is in order. You would know this if you bothered to help.”

You went still, even tears streaming down your face seemed to halt. You had heard of Eris’s cruel tongue for centuries. You never dreamed it would be directed at you.

“You told me I didn’t have to,” you whispered, your voice steadier than your body.

“Exactly, so you do not get to complain when Azriel and I are busy,” he snapped back. “You knew what you were getting into when we mated.”

Eris may as well have stabbed you.

“I suppose I did.” You suddenly felt like someone else was talking, with how calm the words came out. “I’m so sorry to bother you.”

You kept the bond shut, winnowing to your rooms. You used your magic to seal the room, barring even Azriel’s shadows. You went straight to the office, pulling out pen and paper while you sniffled and wiped your face with your sleeve. The first letter was rushed and sloppy- a letter to Samira, and sent it with a flick of your wrist. The second you took a deep breath before writing down where you were going. You sealed it with your personal seal and took it to the bedroom, tossing it onto the duvet.

You pulled out a travel bag and threw in clothes, not bothering to make sure they were neat and folded. You had to get out of Autumn before Azriel’s shadows told on you. You had to get out so you could process what happened. With your bag stuffed, you thanked the mother when a letter returned to you. You ripped it open. Samira was in Summer but spoke to Tarquin and granted you permission to travel.

You stuffed the letter into your bag and winnowed. One moment you were in your bedroom, the next you were outside, fae lights gleaming against the tan stone and reflecting off the sea glass doors in front of you. To your right Samira had been waiting for you. She was as beautiful as ever in a seafoam Summer Dress, her skin darker no doubt from the sun and her black hair braided back. She took one look at your face and her gaze softened. Just being in her presence broke you. She wrapped her arms around you and you sobbed.

“Let’s go inside,” she whispered, patting your back. “Cress has a room being made for you. We can get some tea and talk.”

You nodded, wiping your eyes again and followed her into the place.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Az was panicking.

We told you, his shadows hissed. You don’t listen. Our mate is angry.

“Shut up!” He bellowed.

His shadows scattered. He got to his feet, hands shaking. How could he have done this to you? He never made you cry- well, not like this. And his silence when you asked him if his shadows had told him, the betrayal on your face gutted him. Yes, they had told him. He kept saying he would go in a few minutes. He didn’t realize a few minutes turned into a fucking hour.

He went to the table, closing books and stacking papers to put away. You left in a flurry when he told you where Eris was. Az had to find you and apologize. He’d get on his knees again if he had too. Maybe Eris was already apologizing for both of them, considering you implied he didn’t show either. He ran his hands through his hair. After this conference, he wasn’t going to do another damn thing for the next two months. He owed it to you.

Azriel sent the papers to his personal study with magic and took the books over to a trolley. He didn’t notice that his shadows went missing. He made his way down the stairs, mind buzzing with ideas and thoughts. Thoughts of what to say to you to convince you he was sorry. He didn’t make it down the stairs, however. Shadows returned in full force, swarming around him. All of them spoke to him over each other.

Mate. Gone. Blocked. Gone. Letter. Read it. Read it. Read it.

Something fell onto the stair he was standing on. A letter. He picked it up, confusion on his face as he looked it over. It was your seal. One you only used to correspond with other courts. He ripped it open, unfolding the paper inside. He skimmed the first two lines and his heart felt like it stopped. He read it again, thinking he was misunderstanding it.

She locked us out. Gone. Our mate upset her. Shadows hissed.

His breath quickened and his heart raced. He read the letter again fully. He felt like the air was punched out of him. You left. You left. And the words were blurring as his eyes watered. What you wrote didn’t make sense. Then he remembered you went to Eris when you left him.

Sorrow was replaced with rage. Eris had a temper. Always had. He had a sharp tongue as well. He did or said something to make you leave. He had too. Your side of the bond was silent, no doubt to help you slip away unnoticed. Eris however, Azriel sent all his fury to him as he winnowed.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

Eris had been staring at the itinerary in front of him for half an hour. Yet if anyone asked him what it said, he wouldn’t be able to answer. He had let his temper get away from him. He swore the day he killed Beron he would never act like him and yet- you came into his office like a summer storm, eyes and cheeks red from crying. He knew instantly he was the cause. And gods was he angry.

He was so angry at himself for forgetting again. For failing you again. But all that came from his mouth was venom he’d used for centuries to protect himself. He was wrong and he knew it. He wanted to tell you but you had shut down the bond. No matter how much he tugged and clawed, he couldn’t get through to you. Eris figured if he waited, the both of you would calm down and he could apologize. He would beg on his knees for you to forgive him.

A moment passed and he suddenly felt rage. Not from you, but from Azriel. In the next moment, the room filled with darkness, only blue siphons lighting the room. Eris was out of his chair but not from his own accord. The chair toppled and Azriel had Eris pressed against the wall.

“What did you do?” Azriel growled.

“Azriel.” Eris could feel his flames wanting to rise. “You better have a good reason-.”

“She left.” Az’s hand punched the wall beside Eris, the blue light pulsing on his siphons.

“What?”

The shadows didn’t let up, darkness still covering the room.

“She left Autumn.” Eris could see the tears now. “She left us!” Before Eris could ask further a note was shoved against his chest. “What the fuck did you do, Eris?”

“Me?” He didn’t even look at the paper yet. “If she told me correctly, you missed dinner as well. And you have less of an excuse than I do.”

Anger flashed in the bond and Eris had to duck to keep Az’s fist from connecting with him. Eris winnowed away to the door, out of the shadows and into the light. Some shadows were crawling on him still, acting agitated. Eris finally looked down at the letter.

I’m going to stay with a friend. Do not look for me. I will not burden you both any longer. I should have known when I mated to a High Lord and his consort, I would never be as important as the court. I was a fool. You’ll never be subjected to my foolishness again.

Eris stumbled, falling back against the door frame. Realization sank in and he read the letter again. You actually left. It was all his fault. His mind said this was ridiculous; it was just dinner. But his heart knew it wasn’t. It was not coming to bed until you’d fallen asleep, rising before you woke. It was the pleading looks you gave when you asked him or Azriel to join you even if for a moment. It was how he hadn’t shown you an ounce of his love for months now.

Then shadows suddenly parted and Eris looked up to see Azriel, wild eyed with siphons still pulsing.

“She’s in Summer,” he came around the desk to Eris, grabbing him by the shirt. “We have to go get her. We have to bring her back.”

“Get a hold of yourself.” It was Eris’s turn to grab Az and flip them around so Az was pinned to the wall, with his wings splayed out. “We cannot just winnow into Summer. Where did they say she went?”

“The palace.” Fresh tears rolled down Az’s face. “She banished the shadows when they found her. She blocked our rooms the same way when she-“

Eris felt the wave of sorrow from Az. He grabbed him and pulled him against him. Eris didn’t like crying but he couldn’t help but blink repeatedly, failing to drive those tears away. He would fix this. He had to.

Part 2

#I’m sorry not sorry #angst #big fight #Neapolitan bonds #Azriel/eris/reader #azris/reader #azriel acotar #eris vanserra #eris acotar #acotar x you #acotar x reader #I wrote this instead of working on my other wips

[teecupangel]

Had a dream where during Al Mualim's monolog before his and Altaïr's final battle Desmond fell out of the sky onto Al Mualim killing him on impact, the dream derailed from there but that might be the funniest introduction between Altaïr and Desmond like "sorry I popped out of nowhere a couple storeys up and stole your kill by falling on top of him"

My first reaction is “is this a meet cute scenario???” and… yeah, I think it is.

Altaïr loves to make dynamic entrances (just ask Robert and the twins Shahim and Shahar) so he’d probably be both confused but also impressed by Desmond’s entrance.

Until he realized that Desmond did not do it on purpose, he just literally dropped from the sky and shattered Al Mualim’s spine by accident.

Honestly, this sounds like this would end up being a bit cracky and would give us the following tropes with just ONE SCENE:

Meet Cute

Rescue Entrance that leads to Rescue Romance (Altaïr would insist that he had it under control. Desmond is like “Yeah, he did” and remembers that Altaïr was gonna get frozen by the Apple at one point but, sure, he had it under control)

Fall-In Angel (with Desmond doing his best to deny that no, he’s not an angel, but also wishing to make a ‘fallen angel’ pick up joke because he is not above that)

Oh, god. Now I’m just imagining Malik rushing to assist Altaïr only to be treated to this kind of scene:

(I tried to make it as obnoxious as shoujo sparkles can get XD)

#that’s the best you’re gonna get from me at the moment #i’m sorry not sorry #but seriously #if this was not meant to be an altdes ask #i’m sorry nonny #still gonna tag this as #altdes #XD #teecup writes/has a plot #fic idea: assassin's creed #IS IT??? #teecup draws #i'm enjoying the new brush i'm using hahaha #so messy #i love it #i tried my best to copy #clamp's noodle art style hahaha

[sacredthefran]

Imagine you guys are backstage at a festival and it’s the first time you guys have been spotted together. Danny can tell you’re anxious because you’ve been refreshing social media constantly - against his advice. He slowly starts to play tour favorite song, like a little lullaby so he can watch the worry line between your eyebrows start to fade away. You lift your gaze up from your phone to meet his eyes and he softly smiles, “I love you.”

#I’m so soft today #idk what’s going on with me today #Danny Wagner #danny gvf #i’m sorry not sorry #someone be soft with me #pls i’m begging

[rubywolf0201]

Fanon Amy and Elise’s interactions with one another (at least back in the early 2000’s-2010’s):

Canon Amy and Elise’s interactions with one another:

#rubi’s post #sonic the hedgehog #princess elise #amy rose #meme #i’m sorry not sorry

[ghostykapi]

me writing for twice: all i want is to give love and cherish them and give them all of my kisses and my hugs and all the love and-

also me writing for sana: i want to rip out hearts today!

#i’m sorry not sorry

[popitdontdropitwrites]

It’s 2am and I’m deranged, here's Maslows hierarchy of needs

All of you that write him as trans have my heart

I’m going to bed lmao

#tf2 #engineer #tf2 engineer #team fortress 2 #I’m sorry not sorry #I’m going to bed now #transgineer #trans engie my beloved #just chatting #teamfortress2 #tf2 engie #engie #team fortress two #team fortress engineer #team fortress 2 engineer #engineer tf2

[wolfnesta]

People always commented how Feyre had 3 high lords after her, but Feyre has nothing on what Nesta had going on. Tarquin’s great and all, but Nesta literally had a death god and Eris ready to put a ring on her within seconds of meeting her

I hate pitting women against women but I feel like Fey.re Stan’s are the worst like I chalk it down to the truly toxic ones elevate Feyre to this point because they feel intimidated there’s no other word for it 🤷🏻‍♀️ all 3 sisters have a cool thing but personally I’m so in tune with Nesta that I don’t have much, if any, idea about who Elain and Feyre are other than canon which Nesta is the biggest testament about how problematic that is. But still, I just don’t vibe with them 🤷🏻‍♀️

I CAN point out though that canonically Feyre has not had any Gods or High Lords recognize her besides after proving her tenacity, whereas with Nesta, the Bone Carver doesn’t even know her and calls her as beautiful as a winter sunrise, Helion just looks at her and is stunned, Lanthys smells her scent (I know but oh well) and wants to crown her.PLEASE don’t get me started on Eris x Nesta because I’m a hardcore Neris. Still I like that Feyre is beautiful too in her own right and I think all sisters have a separate beauty with a certain appeal that every reader has a right to relate too but if we want to stay with strictly canon (which largely the problem that that side can’t seem to see past SJM’s word as anything other than biblical) Feyre just doesn’t have what Nesta does. And vise versa. And Elain too 🤷🏻‍♀️. And that’s the point.

#nesta archeron #Nesta is the hottest bitch in Prythian #thanks anon I know what you mean #like nesta is the IT girl #i’m sorry not sorry #anti sjm #just because #I don’t want no one’s opinion #I’m not open on the matter #nesta is sexy af periodt #and the other two they’re cute but idk #I don’t know them #if you want to find stuff about them look somewhere else #pro nesta #acotar series #acotar

[olivers-cocoapuffs]

Calling James the sun and Regulus a star is so sad because like. If a star dies, no one knows till years later, and no one’s likely to care. If the sun were to explode, we’d know not even ten minutes later, and people would be freaking tf out.

Regulus died, and no one noticed or cared enough to search for him.

James died, and his son became the chosen one.

#I’m sorry not sorry #James dying also sent one friend to jail #the Other into hiding #And the third into a twelve year depressive state #Regulus brother didn’t even care enough about him to search properly #He just said good riddance #Regulus black #James potter #Starchaser #Sunseeker #The marauders #the slytherin skittles

[myfavoritelatte]

After THAT episode if anyone doesn’t mention Diego Luna when they’re talking about how good the acting in Andor is I’m gonna assume they’re racist

#i’m sorry not sorry #but I’m way too emotional about that #srsly did you see the man’s face??????????? #andor #andor series #star wars #diego luna #andor spoilers #cassian andor #andor show #star wars andor #also rip #maarva andor

[redshamrock56]

I was playing around with an incorrect quotes generator and came across this gem.

And I just instantly thought of this photo.

Let’s be real here. This is how it went down.

#Poptropica #poptropica meme #red baroness poptropica #amelia poptropica #I’m sorry not sorry #Youtube

[kkolg]

guess who’s back. back again-

“Hmmmm Bendy you got me curious. Any hints about the girl who’s got your attention?”

yes i will be coming to the Wednesday therapy group for shipping brain rot 😔

bro gave both the light skin stare and the f boy face at the same time smhhhhhh 💀😭😭😭💀😔🤯👺👹💀💃

#I’m sorry not sorry #also glad you joined the group #batim #batim au #bendy #ink demon #ask #vigilante batim au

[fcb-mv33]

Anyways.

#I’m sorry not sorry #get my boy in that seat asap #rambles

[gale-gentlepenguin]

Everyone's talking about young Gabriel and Emile but I'm just wondering how does Harry Clown fit into all this?

In his butt

#I’m sorry not sorry #Gabriel bottomed for a clown #ml spoilers #miraculous ladybug

[dazaleu]

My hand slipped.

Also when you’re high, writing and then your neighbor texts you that the cat downstairs is having kittens. Kills the vibe.

#rodeku #rody soul #deku #bnha deku #midoriya izuku #so I got high #and this happened #I’m sorry not sorry #oops i guess #oops my hand slipped #fanfic #bnha world heroes mission

[filiseverus]

The Barbie movie reminded me about how when I was little my parents were upset that I kept making my Barbie dolls kiss, so they bought me a Ken doll. The next day they found me having a funeral for poor Ken in the garden, he had died of tuberculosis. All the Barbies were in attendance and I buried him under our rose bush. The Barbies were too poor to afford a headstone (it was 1875) so I didn’t mark where the grave was and I never could find him again. He’s probably still there.

#barbie movie #barbie #feminism #ken #ken doll #i’m just ken #my writing #true story #ryan gosling #barbie dolls #greta gerwig #margot robbie #oppenheimer #barbenheimer #if you ever find a Ken doll wrapped in toilet paper that’s mine sorry

[daincrediblegg]

OK THIS IS NOT A FUCKING DRILL EVERYONE FUCKING REPEAT AFTER ME. THIS IS WHAT YOU WILL DO WHEN YOU WATCH MUPPET CHRISTMAS CAROL THIS YEAR:

You will navigate to the page on disney plus (and it has to be here. Unless someone has actually uploaded the REAL movie anywhere else you cannot get it elsewhere)

BUT YOU WILL NOT HIT PLAY. You won’t do it. Because it’s NOT THE REAL VERSION OF THE FILM AND DISNEY IS FUCKING LYING TO YOU AS IT ALWAYS DOES

You will scroll down HERE. To EXTRAS instead. You MUST GO HERE. This is non -negotiable

THEN YOU WILL SCROLL DOWN TO THE BOTTOM OF THE EXTRAS AND YOU WILL THEN HIT PLAY ON THIS BAD BOY: THE FULL LENGTH VERSION

And you will watch it. And you will thank me for having been so blind and led astray by that stupid fucking mouse. You’re welcome.

#I’m so mad everyone I’m sorry I’m going to make sure EVERYONE sees the proper version of mcc this year or die trying #literally this song is so important to the narrative and the film is so fucking hollow without it #if you grew up with disney’s bullshit version and thought it was good WAIT UNTIL YOU SEE THIS SHIT #please. please watch the REAL version of this film. it means a lot to me ok #the muppet christmas carol #for the love of god please people