#I’m so sorry I failed you guys

[disfrutalaisla]

I looked at the YouTube recap and um this is filed under things I can get canceled on dtblr for

#confession time #my third cc on the twitch recap was sn.eeg bc I had a phase of watching his true crime stuff #and now my third cc on the yt recap is ….nickisn.otgreen #I’m so sorry I failed you guys #I’ll do better I promise #if it makes you feel better I rarely watch Nick these days and I don’t even watch snegg anymore really

[bloobydabloob]

Hello there

May I request Egbert's lil lizard guys in your artsyle

Thanks you :3

Hellooo Oliviaatk, yes you may. Various doodling Salamanders, Caseys and Johns for your viewing pleasure. My and my friends were talking last week about how cute Casey is… we all like her over here.

#homestuck #homestuck fanart #john egbert #casey homestuck #homestuck consorts #? #Is that a tag people use. Probably #hs fanart #Olivia atk I love your rosemary stuff. #I remember having an entire conversation with my friends on twitter about one of your drawings before haha #Ages ago though #(all good things. don’t fret) #Sorry for only doodling again today. I regret to inform you that I do indeed have to attempt to study today #Thank you to the anon that wished me luck on my test as well. #I’m so going to fail. What can a guy do I guess

[pretentiouswreckingball]

I need pathetic Regulus so bad you guys, I want him pining after James, writing in his silly little diary how good he looks today, I want him daydreaming about their wedding and drawing hearts at the margins of his notebooks with Regulus Arcturus Potter over and over again

#do you see my vision? I know Regulus can be portrait as this cold distant guy who lets nothing show in his face but I’m #i want regulus being so obvious about his devotion. I want him to salivate at the sigh of James and be after him like a sick puppy #i want him to try to play it cool and fail spectacularly #basically just Regulus having and embarrassing big-ass crush on his brother’s best friend #who in my mind is also Regulus’ in some degree #and then i want James being a bit oblivious about it until one day the light catches Regulus in a certain way and…. that’s all it takes. #he’s doomed. #a lot of rambling tonight so sorry #loops blabbers

[simcardiac-arrested]

a comic about choice & different perspectives, or as i like to refer to it: NSH And Moon Get A Divorce

#myart #rain world #rain world fanart #no significant harassment #can you guys believe i’m finally drawing nsh in a serious setting and not in a meme #looks to the moon #five pebbles #ehhh he’s technically there. metaphorically. in a narrative sort of sense #there’s also sos srs and ui. hiii srs hii sorry you get like 1 panel. i failed my boy #anyway umm i fucking hate. tunglr💔 why is the image limit 10 #im so mad #rain world downpour #errrr technically ?? is it spoilers that moon has canonically forgiven pebbles #downpour spoilers #just in case #mycomics

[autisticlancemcclain]

i know it’s a stupid thing to whine about and i’m sorry but the low engagement in my fics lately is super bumming me out, plus the wildfires means there’s no sunlight rn and that uh. is generally bad. for my brain. so i’m going to take a break for a bit?? for at least tonight. i need to sort my shit out and do some writing practice to figure out what i’m doing wrong. FRF is definitely still on and queued for tomorrow, and i haven’t decided about wip wednesday yet (not even sure if i’m continuing that bc so far that’s been a flop) so i’ll let y’all know :) be safe and stay healthy everyone i’ll be back soon

#i feel so bad guys i’m sorry #but lately every time i post i feel like i’m failing the peer review and since i am among the most sensitive it bitches you will ever meet #that is going unwell for me #u know that scene in inside. where bo is like yeah so my mental health is kind of at an atl #not atlanta #but all time low? #that’s me rn. #lol #anyways. i’m still going to be writing lots bc writing still makes me feel good #it’s just the posting that makes me want to cry #so. #anyways sorry this is cringe and embarrassing and emotional #i’ll be back either tomorrow or with further information tomorrow #depends on if my seasonal depressed ass sees the sun or not lol you’d be shocked at how fast i spiral #lmao #personal #announcement #?

[ryderdire]

One of These days I will claw my way out of my depression hole, but let me rest on the way up please.

#ryders rambles #idk sometimes it feels like if im not constantly making efforts to get better or whatever im failing or even my progress is coming undone #it’s exhausting. #and honestly when it feels like that it feels eaiser to just stay in the hole cuz I’ve been here so long #sorry for venting on main #I’m aware that’s a flawed mindset but getting out of those is hard as well #but feel free to reblog #idk thought you guys might relate #so I put it here #vent post #mental health #depression #personal #unrelated to anything #just tend to think about my mental state and stuff while on my nightly tumblr rounds and idk I felt like I needed to say this

[pebblezone]

I think she would collect the minions McDonald’s toys

#hellsing #hellsing ultimate #seras victoria #integra hellsing #pip bernadotte #a #ofc she would like the found family trope 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄 #thank you cocolacola for inspiring this train of thought ❤️❤️❤️❤️🐟❤️🐟 #fun fact! my dad collected those minions McDonald’s toys no clue why but he was a big minions guy #I think his peak in life was watching the minions sing I Swear in dispicable me 2 in theaters. good for him yknow? #need to draw minion or da Bob seras for REALSIES but alas i am forced to work and be productive 💔💔💔💔💔💥💔💔💥💔 #need to make minions memes Now I have to fucking sprint with this. French posting fish posting Homo posting they can fucking wait #kinda fucked up they scheduled me to register for classes in the middle of one of my classes #granted it doesn’t matter shit exploded the fan and a strike’s going on so I don’t have that class but it’s the Principle #they want to see me fail they are praying soooo hard for my downfall 💥🔥🦭💥🔥🔥🐟🛬🇫🇷🇫🇷 #I mean okay they didn’t it went like incredibly smooth which was nice but they hate me they’re my enemy I am stronger and better than them #scheduling this so it leaves when I’m being held at gunpoint to do a group project. now those are legitimately people wanting me to fail #I’m sorry but they’re so unpredictable and ass the pros of them are so severely outweighed by the cons it’s binks

[dreamertrilogys]

going into instagram comments is crazy it’s like seeing into a (much MUCH) worse alternate reality like You ppl live such unfathomably terrible lives to me….

#aside from the general everything they’re just so boring and miserable. Btw #sorry it’s just i’ve had insta on my phone lately (unfortunately i can’t delete it until the party ☹️) & every SINGLE time i see some sort o #reel and i’m like HA yknow what i think? and then everyone in the comments is saying the complete opposite thing #every single time without fail #the other day i saw a reel where a bartender dumped all the leftover stuff from the thing (idk what it’s called) into a cup and every1 in #the comments was like ugh yucky disgusting / yk ppl put even grosser stuff in their mouths like genitals. besides if it’s cleaned regularly #enough it should be fine / that’s a big IF. meanwhile i’m like Yum jungle juice 😋 #also one time i saw ppl talking abt how they sleep in binders at sleepovers COME ON reddit is free transtape exists. please #<- these r like the worst examples ever but it’s ok #also like the insane casual misogyny. it’s so bad out here guys #.txt #ppl arguing in the comments like ‘that’s like 2k calories’ / ‘why r u being negative besides it’s only like 300 at max’ / ‘it’s not #negativity’ GUYS. WHAT THE FUCK. CALORIES ARE GOOD I <3 ENERGY???? YOUR BODY ALSO LOVES ENERGY. COME ON. BUTTER 4 LYFE BITCH #OH AND ONE TIME someone made vanilla extract and the comments were all panicked muslims like oh no im rethinking all my vanilla extract #buying GUYS do you or do you not eat bread. great now figure out the alcohol content of fermented yeast vs a drop of ethanol in a cake (that #is being baked anyway!)

[rubysparx]

Ok fine fine fine I’ll share my takes with the class.

FIRST OF ALL THO. Jrwi art dump coming soon MAYBE.

Okay anyway I see everyone saying butch Arthur Bennet which is fucking awesome, I love that, but I have to inform the masses that while listening on my own time I decided he’s transhet and I am attached to this concept now sory </3 I’ve also seen everyone talking abt Emizel and Soda and idk what’s going on behind the scenes with that so I will just believe you, yeah he’s gay. I thought about saying he’s bi but as it happens I was once again projecting.. also I think he’s nonbinary but not yet. Like he’s having what happened to Jonathan Archives. The horrors occur and you die but don’t really die but there are more horrors so you never really have time to process the feeling of being not a man as in not human and also just literally not a man. Ok last one forgive me for my insanity I think Prince Shilo is cis and sucks abt it. I think gender roles are baked into him but he also thinks they don’t apply to him or apply differently bc he is royalty . Heteronormativity isn’t real with vampires tho in fact I’d even bet on homonormativity. Yeah he’s gay, he’s flirty with his guards, yeah.

#on record I don’t rlly. have any ships yet? #and I don’t think this campaign is gonna be free so I probably never will #also Scrubby if you see this so sorry if you didn’t know those things abt Jon </3 #good luck on the tma listening. it will change you permanently. smiles #OH ALSO I’ve seen some ppl shipping Shilo with his guard #I do not #like obv u guys do whatever u want I’m just #saying like . to me Shilo actually cares soooo little about the well being of the ppl around him #he’s got that high elf ‘humans are pets ^_^’ swagger to me #his guards are so incredibly replaceable he fails to be mature enough to understand the complexities of their lives #he’s immature!! is the thing! he’s manipulative and evil in the head brother I prommy #I love him for this also #compulsive liar swag #he cares about animals. and the important people. and any outsiders #but inside the walls of his prison #the guards are. just guards. just drones to command. and it’s soooo fun to mess with them #yeah yeah yeah whatever Prince Shilo is your favorite Ruby shut up… #jrwi #jrwi the suckening #<- I can’t believe they stuck with that btw #wish me luck guys I’ve been catching up on riptide……

[deanwinchesterpregnant]

I could fix s9 Dean

#you could argue his motivations for the Ezekiel debacle were selfish but I truly think he hates himself too much for that #yes he’s afraid of being alone but my god it’s been beaten into his head since he was a child to never let any harm befall Sammy #and he’s failed so miserably at that lol #and the one time! the ONE TIME that Dean had accepted sam was going to sacrifice himself #he spent upwards of 1000 years trapped with lucifer getting (canonically!) raped! #I’m not saying Dean did THE RIGHT THING especially with the guy who’s bodily autonomy has been violated so many times via possession #I’m just saying IT MAKES SENSE WHY HE DID WHAT HE DID #also since like season 1? 2? dean’s whole thing has been ‘it scares me what I’m willing to do for family’ well! #and he knows he was wrong he is like aware that he was in the wrong #anyway sam said he wouldn’t do the same for Dean and I’m going to be honest. I DON’T BELIEVE HIM #ALSO this was RIGHT after they decided to choose each other instead of boarding up hell #so what was Dean supposed to do LET SAM DIE? FOR NOTHING? it all would’ve been for naught!!!!! #and sam coming back later with ‘you talked me into that’ idk king. that was a 2 way street #SORRY IM SORRY I JUST UNDERSTAND WHY HE DID IT IS ALL #please don’t get mad at me samgirls ilu

[trashbaget]

tell me your failed/embarrassing flirting stories to make me feel better, i’ll go first: today i said “get out of my way” forgot to say “i’m kidding” then immediately said “bye”

#it is awful having feelings for someone you know and have an established friendship with #but crushing on someone i barely know is knew to me and i legit feel like an idiot every time i do something stupid like this #i can’t just. talk to the guy #if i say hey and he says sup i say ‘sup indeed’ like what the fuck is that #i can barely even say hello to him #don’t get me wrong i’ve DONE it but most days i’m like #ah fuck there he is #okay you can do it just say hi #just say what’s up #and then he’s already gone #also. like. the setting we’re in is soooo not good for talking or flirting realt because um. it’s work he’s my coworker.. so um. do i fuckin #ask him for his number?? or to hang out??? but like. he’s kind of a stranger to me what do i want to hang out for 🧍 #but like. ​i dont want to do that until i have at least one successful interaction #or like. an actual conversation. #which is gonna be really hard to manage because he doesn’t talk much at all to anyone and i really only talk if someone talks to me first or #i’ll say something absolutely idiotic and ridiculous (and honestly i do that no matter what) #anyway so um. i guess i’m just gonna keep making a fool of myself until i get it right and hopefully i don’t screw it up 🥴 #i lost all my confidence in the last year and i cant do anything chill or smooth anymore (i was never that good in the first place but at #least i could PRETEND i knew what i was doing. like i could sell it. the whole weird and lost bit.) #anyway. i felt better for like 5 minutes when some guy at the gas station flirt failed with me on the way home. but that’s partly my fault #too oops. in his defense he probably could not see that i had headphones on bc upon mirror inspection they were well blended with my hair #but i was waiting to cross the street and this guy tried to like nod and smile and i did not know it was to me until i got to the other side #where the gas station was and and like. tried again and i awkward half smiled and saw his face get all mushy and confused like mine FELT 20 #mins before when i’d flopped so hard trying to flirt and by the time i’d processed WAIT i think he was FLIRTING WITH ME i was already gone 🤡 #but at least it ended better than the poor 14yo who very confidently asked for my number #who. i shit you not. SCREECHED for a solid 44.5 seconds and bolted the other direction when i said sorry im 21 #his friends were standing there like wtf too and one was like i am so sorry about him 🤦 #cheers to being fools universe

[starlesscitiess]

neither fall out boy nor the offspring were lying. the kids are not in fact alright

#i’m sorry guys that reading post really got to me #on top of every other way we mistreat malign abuse and screw over children? #it’s just. how do you fail a demographic this fucking badly when you claim to care about them so much #kids need real structural support if they’ve got any chance in the world #hell i still consider myself a kid given that i’m having a rough go of my transition to adulthood #this shit fucking sucks man and it seems we’re doing everything in our power to make it worse #anyway #i guess this also goes under #juno band tag #and uh. new speaking tag #ryan rambles

[euphor1a]

Honestly, I shouldn’t have slept on revamping bewitched so much. I know I hate the way I wrote it and have to cringe at every word while editing and reworking on it but the characters were well-built despite my writing skills and the plot was pretty good 😔? I don’t think a ton of the readers who were hype about the series are around and it’s pretty hard to build a brand new audience.

#🌺; aleyna rambles #i procrastinate a lot when it comes to bewitched bc god i hate revamping because i genuinely cannot stand the way i wrote back then #😭 #some people from way back in the day are still around which is actually miraculous to me and i appreciate them from the bottom of my heart #but i feel like i wasted bewitched’s potential in a way... like damn it deserves better 😬 #i don’t know if anyone remembers but bewitched’s last update was THEE cliff-hanger™. like the next chapter was about to reveal the plot lol #back in my old blog. then i moved and decided to revamp it #i was ashamed of the way i used to write so i kinda hurriedly decided to revamp everything before reposting #not just bewitched all of my reposts are heavily re-edited🧍🏽‍♀️ #but damn i feel so bad about bewitched specifically. it could’ve spread its wings and taken off but since i’m such a damsel in distress #it has to suffer with me. which is unfair #hush barely has any plot so i know new or old; readers will tune in. like it’s just p*rn and two hot guys 😭😭 #but bewitched... my child i’m so sorry i failed you 😔

[cithaerons]

also a thing i have noticed but as a sort of masculinish woman you would think me and effeminate men would kind of meet in the middle but actually we always end up on the exact opposite side of any and all conceivable spectrums

#sorry to be enforcing the gender binary here…. you know #my usual dude things i can talk about (sports beer breaking bad succession lifting weights etc) all fail #and then i talk about other interests and they are like ‘i have never heard of leonard cohen 😁’ #(NOT this guy we did not breach the topic but the last professional musical theatre actor i went out with. there have been so many…) #they are all very nice though! and great conversationalists #and i’m sure incredibly talented #it’s just funny

[themoonflowersgrove]

When you can’t draw a background so a really nice drawing goes to waste. Ah fun times lol

#byler #yes it was a swing set drawing #I tried so hard to make the background work #But it just looks so bad #Ughhhhhhh #i have failed you guys and I’m sorry

[naturallysuperbands]

So there’s this teacher at the Catholic high school I went to, which is the same one Rain goes to now, whom I actually hate. I don’t like him because of a lot of little things and also pretty much his entire personality, but I would have tolerated him more if he didn’t pull me out a class, tell me that we both know I didn’t try on my summer work and that it wasn’t up to honors English 3 standards, and that he asked the counselors (who are in charge of scheduling) what he needed to do to get me out of his class. I only got to stay because I scored in the 99th percentile on the writing/English section on the psat the year before. I tried really hard on that summer work, I just have adhd, hated the book he picked, and hate writing even when I do enjoy the book I’m writing about.

Rain has this teacher this year for regular junior year english. Apparently this unit is on relationships (weird but whatever). The teacher has told the class that he fundamentally disagrees with the idea that guys and girls can be “just friends”. The students have to write an about what it means to wear the pants in a relationship, do a group presentation analyzing various elements of a relationship from a scene in a movie or a song and include a “counter cultural reference” to romance. Did I mention this /Catholic/ high school is in a more conservative city in Ohio, and at least 3 teachers felt comfortable telling students they voted for trump? Also, for those who have forgotten, Rain and I are queer. Rain doesn’t feel comfortable using queer examples, even though (and because) that’s what they’d prefer to do.

They’re going to make their “counter cultural” slide be about a genuine friendship.

I told them I’d pay them if they could work in historical men, like kings, who didn’t wear actual pants when they wanted to come across as more powerful.

I (or Rain and I) might write this essay but make it about queer relationships and post it here. We’ll see.

#spots speaks #relevant specific label for this is that Rain and I are both aromantic #if anyone wants anything tagged let me know #I don’t make actual posts that often #loathe that teacher #I know most students don’t take failure well #but being ‘’the smart kid’’ was all that most of the kids in my honors classes had by junior year of high school #so being sought out during a class just to be taken into the hallway and told I wasn’t honor’s English material? #absolutely devastating #I was 16 #I didn’t deserve that #he also said he thought I was struggling because I hadn’t said anything in class #like sorry I’m smart and anxious #he does end of the year evalutations and has our last ‘’daily’’ journal entry be a letter to him #he said he’d never gotten so many complaints as he did from my grade’s honors English 3 class #he also kept bragging about how he got a 31 on his act without studying #I got a 32 without studying #with my highest being a 36 in science and my lowest being a 29 in math #I still have some anger aimed at this guy can you tell #and he’s the reason I’ve at least momentarily failed out of college #I was getting better with writing and turning essays in on time #and then he tells me mine sucks and ‘’we both know [I] didn’t try’’? #yeah right #fuck right off #especially when he plays favorites with the volleyball girls who shouldn’t be put on the honors English track the year before AP English #I couldn’t bring myself to say I was smart until my senior year of high school #but we don’t have time or space to unpack that so we’ll just throw away the whole suitcase