#I’m sick now what

[unstablequeerbitch]

People always talk about how fanfic taught them sex education but always forget something else

It can teach you how to take care of a sick person. (Obv still google and go to the doctor. Don’t go “this fanfic author on ao3 write this so it must be legit!”)

I fucked up and took a full dose of adderall after not taking it for a month (hoarding it bc supply is low) and started experiencing a bad crash. At least right now everything still lines up with it being an adderall crash. Like “oh shit do I have Covid again, I am about one more pain spasm or chill away from calling an ambulance” but… I don’t have insurance rn.

My temp was was 100 something and I couldn’t stop shivering. I was cold so I turned in my heating blanket then remembered about how in fics people usually need to cool down, usually with a lukewarm bath so they don’t go into shock or cool towels etc. Did some digging and put some ice packs wrapped in towels in my bed. And for good measure ate a Popsicle. Then some lukewarm water. Literally within the half hour I started to feel a little better

I still feel like shit. I’m not shivering. My temp has gone down some where I think I can wait till tomorrow morning for a doctor that hopefully won’t cost too much.

Maybe it’s the fact I grew up with a parents with autoimmune disorders, but I don’t know what to do when I’m sick. I know all different ways to clean and avoid it. But when I got sick, I was always stuck in my room. I understand why, but it’s hard to learn what to do when you are sick when you are isolated from the world.

Anyways it was a fun fact that popped in my head so tada.

#fanfic #sick #I’m sick #adderall #drug crash #medicine #med #I’m sick now what #learning how to take care of myself is hard when there’s no path #ao3 #actually adhd #actuallyautistic #ice ice baby #oh god my neck did the high pitch pain cracks #drink that water

[emblazons]

Week 2 // ST5 BTS || Ross Duffer on Instagram

#DO YOU HEAR ME SCREAMING #that is mikes room. like. mikes room with the yellow open curtains oh I’m SICK #THE BIKE?? ‘HELL ON EARTH’ ON MATTS SWEATER #also that’s likely Millie which is killing me what is my girl El wearing NOW #byler #finn wolfhard #duffer brothers #ross duffer #matt duffer #st BTS #st5 spoilers #st spoilers #st cast #st crew #stranger things #st5 production

[floweroflaurelin]

I’m trying to get back into the swing of painting, so as a warmup I made this!! Morgan the dog belongs to my friend @theminecraftbee and is the bestest girl <3

#floweroflaurelin art #maybe I’ll add pet portraits to my comms cause this was fun :D #Morgan my beloved <3 #comms are closed for now but I plan to open them up again soon! #I also have about 6 million painting ideas that were building up while I was sick so the moment I’m able to I plan on just. painting tons #i NEED to paint pix’s new sos vigils #also I can’t believe I haven’t made any hc 10 art I don’t think????? #I need to paint gem’s whole vibe. and Joel kissing etho’s neck. and the permit office. wait what was that middle one

[seagull-scribbles]

Turtles of Time

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#tmnt #tmnt 2003 #leonardo splinterson #donatello splinterson #raphael splinterson #michaelangelo splinterson #april o'neil #Casey Jones #Master Splinter #out of touch turts day #I changed the lyrics a little but it’s fine it’s all good #mikey would approve I think #I honestly believe with all my heart hes are the easiest versions to draw #I’m sure you’ve figured out what all the different parts are now but if not #thats okay youll get it by the next part #which btw brownie points to hiwever can guess whats next xx #casey looks like shit but idc #i also put him behind april instead of under everyone but we have to live with that #its an easy fix that i am not doing lmao #did this one and the last one when i was sick so #hopefully ill do the next one by next week but if not who cares #maybe the first person to guess what next could get a little silly sketch as a prize? that be cool

[rakiah]

🦁👑rkgk

#twisted wonderland #vil schoenheit #leona kingscholar #leovil #don’t ask #I’m just sick as hell #and unable to do what I want #except playing the Cult of the Lamb dlc #I managed to doodle something so I’m happy #now I’m going to crush on my bed #again #(sigh) #but if you listen carefully you can hear him purring

[nightgoodomens]

There’s something about duality of fandoms, on one hand there’s so many cool metas and gorgeous arts and you meet your friends… and at the same time so many shitty opinions and the fandom literally giving you creeps at certain points - to the point that you’re starting hating some ideas and they’re ruining your mood and you realise you need to step away because soon you won’t even be able to look at that tv show anymore.

#fandoms are the best and the worst things at the same time #anytime someone reduces Crowley’s character to nothing and insists they must be a B not T is driving me insane #it’s literally the opposite in the show #you MADE that up in fandom and decided it’s canon and now insists for the author to make it real #it’s insane #absolutely insane #and telling D to tell NG to make Crowley a B is just way too much #I hope he shows absolutely nothing #I hope he doesn’t ruin Crowley’s character for the sake of the fandom #I have such beef with the fandom who decided to take a character whoas whole thing is freedom #and insisting he needs to be on his knees for A and be pathetic and told what to do #by a character who’s actually the one who want to be told what to do #but no let’s switch the roles #let’s take a character who would hate being treated like a dog and force him into those situations #it’s getting sick now #and I’m done with it #Crowley I hope your author treats you better because this fandom just wants you to get the worst #aziraphale you deserve better than the fandom insisting you’d be such a piece of shit too #I literally don’t want anything in S3 #I don’t even want them to kiss anymore

[saayatsumu]

i,, made more,,

#thanks to everyone on the last post that told me happy birthday ily 🥹 #two days later & now i’m sick LMFAOO #since i’m sick i was like. yk what. i’ll make more twst posts #i also made these at like 3 am barely conscious please bear with me #vil schoenheit #rook hunt #lilia vanrouge #silver #floyd leech #riddle rosehearts #trey clover #cater diamond #kalim al asim #jamil viper #twst #twisted wonderland #can posts twst

[stuckinapril]

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#Bisan’s voice memo made me go insane I haven’t been able to sleep all night and now I’m just up w crushing anxiety about it #I need to go on a run or something but I have to study #I just feel physically sick and idk what to do with myself #I just wish people didn’t have to die #Please don’t be worried about me btw I’m fine I just feel wired. Idk #I usually don’t share stuff like this bc I don’t want people to get worried or for it to distract from my posts but I just wanted #to say something so I can feel less alone about it #Bc I know a lot of people on here really care #I need to get up and get my day started eventually but im like . Peaking #And I haven’t eaten anything in like 19 hours i feel empty in every sense of the word #p

[palossssssand]

Reconciliation

Old dome squadmates Trito and Kinoga get together at Trito’s place to catch up after years apart and a meeting by chance on the surface.

⚠️Warning for suggestive content below + implied chest trauma

After several weeks of chipping away at this, the comic is finally done! Very happy to have rendered a full 7 pages of oc stuff. Please give it a read!!

read the full 7 page comic on twitter! <-please do not click if you are a minor and view at your own discretion, this link contains explicit 18+ content. Thank you!

For the lore, includes stuff from splatoon Octo Expansion: Trito and Kinoga were a part of an octarian military squad living in the domes, Kinoga being their squad leader that many looked up to and admired. There were 6 of them who considered each other to be their closest friends. Upon hearing about the tests from Kamabo Co. and the allure of the Promised Land, Kinoga wished to seek it out in order to find a better life for their squadmates. A difficult decision, since it meant leaving them all behind, promising to come back and take them there.

Kinoga enters the metro trials and soon realizes that the Promised Land isn’t what they expected, their hope crumbling when they encounter one of their sanitized squadmates Agara, who followed suit to the metros soon after. Kinoga narrowly escapes, eventually making a break for the surface, carrying the shame of unwilling to return for their squadmates with them (it’s justified, of course, there might not be an easy way in, they might get caught again, Agara is gone)

Trito enters the Metro not too long after Kinoga does, wanting to catch up to them, and an accident that occurs in a test early on results in Trito’s near sanitization, giving him his scar. Terrified, and realizing what happens to his fellow octolings, Trito is unable to return to his squadmates, not wanting to break the news of their loved ones’ untimely fates. He hides away on the Metro until the events of OE happen and Agent 8 dismantles Kamabo, opening an opportunity to escape to the surface. Unwilling to face the possibilities of going back, Trito takes his chance to leave, starting a new life and feeling that it’s for the best if he doesn’t acknowledge it, though he missed his friends dearly.

Years later, Trito and Kinoga run into each other on the streets of Splatsville by chance, and the implications of them both being on the surface and alive hit them, having to carry the burden of leaving their loved ones behind and finding out the truth, knowing the other felt exactly the same, not knowing the fate of their squadmates and not wanting to think about the possibility of them being gone. They have a tearful reunion about it, and set up a meet later, to sit down and really talk, and get into a brief argument when the topic of returning to the domes comes up. Trito’s in disbelief that Kinoga never went back down to check on the rest of their squad, wanting them to have been a better person than him, who was too cowardly to do so. Eventually they do reconcile, and end up at Trito’s place to hook up, where the above comic takes place :]

#my art #my ocs #splatoon #suggestive #trito #kinoga #aaahhhhhh this is finally done!!!! #a small drabble turned into a sketch turned into a full fledged rendered comic. blowing up #in any case I hope people enjoy this as much as I do…they are so everything to me #splatoon ocs #I have so many thoughts about these two that I could not articulate in a tumblr post. they miss each other so so much #its about the. I’ve known your body. and coming back after years and going oh…this is new… #there’s no context where trito would be able to reveal this to kinoga except for boning #only kinoga could look at it and immediately understand. sparing him the pain of explaining what happened and reliving it #if it had been anyone else he probably would have stopped them the moment the hand went under the sweater #but he’s just so so caught in the moment of the reunion. and the everything . Auughhhh #stealing this from a friend but theyve changed and they haven’t changed at all. I’m going to be ill #chest trauma #‘what if they explored each others bodies’ or whatever. okay #if it wasnt clear enough or implied trito and kimoga are octolings from the underground domes #nsft #oh and the. really long lore explanation <33 teehee #they are so so much #not partners but more than friends. secret third thing. guh #its about holding each other so tightly and physically for confirmation that they weren’t seeing things and that the other was Really There #like the fate of their friends not on their mind constantly and then it all comes flooding back and all of a sudden it opens the door #for finding the others and now they won’t have to go back and face the possibility alone #IM GOING TO BE SICK!!!!!!!!!!!! #this has got to be the most ive rambled in the tags I’ve just been rotatinf them with fado for the past barely a month and they are #tritonoga

[ch3rie-pop]

✨Good-evening Ladies, Gents, and Friends Beyond the Binary!✨

Make yourself cozy and warm while you cruise through my personal space! (Noninvasive dw) Hope you have a wonderful time and keep dreaming Starlings!

#My Art #WOOOO #IT’S NOT POSTED ON OPPOSITE DAY #I APOLOGIZE #BUT LIKE- I NEEDED TO POLISH IT UP AND I WAS SICK YESTERDAY AAAAAAAA #Sincerest apologies myootie :’I #You know who you are #Opposite day #WHAT’S THIS #ANOTHER OVERLY DETAILED SONA I HAVE NO INTENTION OF USING PERMANENTLY BECAUSE I JUST TRIED TOO HARD? #Psh couldn’t be me #Also I’m sorry for being cringe :’I #I’ll go now #✨SPACE OUT✨

[coconut530]

BITTERSWEET REUNIONS

#Nevermore #Nevermore Webtoon #Webtoon #WOW WHAT A RETURN!! I KNOW THE HIATUS WASN’T THAT LONG BUT DAMNNNNN!!! ALSO RIP TO OUR 5 COIN STATUS #ANYWAY MORELLA SNAPPING ADA BACK.. IT’S SO CRAZY HOW HER PARTICLES WERE ALL OVER THE ROOM #CAN SPECTRES LIKE UPGRADE THEIR POWERS BC IT LOOKS LIKE ADA DID THAT #WILL BBY SORRY FOR CHOKING YOU AND DAMNNNNNN LENORE FOR FORCING HIM OFF AND TELLING 👏🏼 HIM 👏🏼 OFF 👏🏼 GODDAMN LOVED THAT #AND THEN ADA AND MORELLA FIGHTING!! MORELLA SHOUTING IS AMAZING! AND IT NEVER OCCURED TO ME THAT ADA DEFLECTS HER BLAME IT’S CRAZY #SICK OF PLAYING WITH PHONIES!! EPISODE 7!!! CALLBACKS!! AND NOW MORELLA COME TO THE MISFITS FULL TIME PLZZZZZ #OOP DUKE YOU GOOD? OK OH UH YEAH IT’S BEEN A BIT WITH YOUR SPECTRE ALSO UR POWERS MADE ADA GO OUT OF CONTROL SO 😬 #GIVING HIM HIS JACKET AAAAAAA! THE COIN AAAA! EULALIE AAAAAAAA! DUKE CATCHING HER AAAAAAAAAA! PLUTO BLUSHING AAAAAAAAAA! #WELCOME TO ANOTHER EP OF EULA’S AMAZING FACTS #BERENICE! GROUP HUG!!! THEY’RE ALL SO WHOLESOME I CAN’T I’M SO GLAD THEY’RE ALL TOGETHER AGAIN! BACK AND BETTER THAN EVER! #wait just realizing something did duke’s spectre heal his bruises? interesting #PUT ME BACK IN THE WALL HAHAHAHAHA #And the two of them scoping out the mess #YESSSSS YOU GOTTA BEG SIR! BEG FOR YOUR PLACE AND YOUR LIFE! REAL TEST OF -FAITH- LIKE THE LAST EP ALMOST #DAMN WE BACK EVERYONE SO EXCITED TO MAYYYYBE FINISH OFF THE SEASON??? IDK WHERE WE GO FROM HERE I ASSUME EP. 100 #BUT YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[sansebastinae]

📸 | redbullracing

#sebastian vettel #5th image makes me sick. what a great composition #I’m so sad now

[arttitude130]

i started dragon ball for the first time these are my first ever gokus (using notepad until i’m not sick anymore)

#i mean i used notepad all the time anyway but sickness is a good excuse this time #i’m just laying here cooking in my own skin watching little boy fly around on a cloud this is the life #dragon ball #goku #i did watch db z kai as a kid and had no idea what was going on but liked it #but never got around to watching the rest until now #undescribed #the rat in the mouth is from ep 53 and 54 he put a little friend in there

[pjo-hoo-toa-freakazoid]

A lil rant about my experience with this god forsaken fandom

I made this blog around 2020 when I was 13 years old. This was my first shot at a dedicated fandom blog and I was pretty excited for it, to make friends, draw fanart, post fun stuff and what not.

All fun right? Right, so tell me why was it that literal 20 years olds felt the need to harass me, a then 13 year old girl with a relatively small blog, for the dumbest reasons possible?

What did I do that subjected me to 2 and a half years worth constant daily threats and harassment? Hmm???

You wanna know my crime? Apparently I showed interest in an antagonist character, which is so awful that grown adults felt the need to bully me. And following those adults came young impressionable people my age, that joined the bandwagon of hate against me.

As if other fandoms don’t have people literally dedicating themselves to a villain, no one bats an eye to that. Why did this fandom have such an issue? I also apparently dared to criticise the main character for a few of his flaws. Such a horrible thing to do right? I need to be burnt at the stake for it right?

I didn’t follow the “fixed” standards of the fandom so I was to be sent de*th/r*pe threats daily?? For not following the “rules” I was to be ostracised?

No please someone explain…I’m but a dumb bitch, I don’t understand what I did so terribly wrong to deserve this? Did I start a war? Did I rip open someone’s plush? Did I bully someone for not having the same ideology as me?

No it was but the fandom itself that for some reason found it so fun to bully a 13 year old, send her de*th and r*pe threats all because of not being of pjo fandom standards…let’s go and bombard her with hate!!

Do you realise how fucking stupid…this all sounds? Do you realise how low this is? Was bullying a child so fun? So trendy at the time?

Then came the victim blaming- I laugh everytime I remember people saying I must have done something really bad to get such harassment, that it’s all for attention. What kid wants to get hate everyday of their life for 2 whole fucking years? Tell me?

You know wanna know what I did wrong? Fight back, call the hate anons out for their bigotry. I was vocal about it, that’s what I did wrong right? Stand my ground? People said to ignore it and I did. But I still got bullied daily even if I didn’t respond. What was all this for?

I can imagine people asking why I didn’t simply leave the fandom? Why the fuck should I? I enjoy the stories, I enjoy the characters, they were my escape from real life struggles. It was the bullying I didn’t enjoy. Everyday I’d log on to enjoy posts and a few minutes later when the bigots found out I was active I was sent an anonymous threat.

Many of my oldest friends had to reduce the amount they interacted with me in fear of receiving harassment themselves. The extent of this is bigotry is beyond my understanding.

I did not deserve this much suffering AND ALL FOR WHAT? A STUPID LITTLE REASON THAT HAS BARELY ANY WEIGHT TO IT. Do people even realise the extent of what happened is beyond me. And Idc if I sound selfish, I want a fucking apology from all those bigots. I want compensation for the 2 and a half years of abuse I endured alone. I just want this bigotry to end, which surprise surprise! Still continues to happen.

Why do I bring this up now that it’s all over you ask? I’ve actually brought it up once before, but it was swept under the rug, (My deepest appreciation to the very few people who supported me when I first talked about it) I’m just finally being more vocal, because this has stuck with me. For all those 4 years this has stuck with me. It doesn’t mean if it’s over for now that all the trauma doesn’t linger. It still affects me to this day.

In fact I’m still being stalked by one of the people who sent me hate anons. One of the hate anons was revealed to be one of my bestest friends, they had admitted this to me and had the nerve to beg me to still remain friends. They were also the person who groomed me. They have left the fandom scene and I’ve rid of them from my life but they still continue to stalk me.

What do I get from ranting about all this? A bit of solace, a bit of weight off my shoulders. But nearly not enough for me to actually fucking heal. I also want people to realise how bigoted some are and how horrible the mentality of “fixed fandom standards/ideologies” is and that we as a fandom need to fucking change. Heck I know this issues in every fandom. But can we at least start with ours for a change for once?

Along side all of this there’s also a lot of racism and trans/homophobia that still actively prevails. Just look at what Leah went through when her casting was announced. Did she deserve all of that?? “Not my annabeth” do you realise how horrible that is to say to a CHILD? She is Annabeth whether you like it or not. And you are very welcome to leave if you wish to stick to your stupid racist nonsense.

I bet there are many others who have probably suffered the same may it not be for the same reasons, but everyone of them deserve their apologies and compensation as well.

Idc if I’ll get hate for this. I said what I said. I’m just so done.

#trigger warning #tw hate #I was also informed I was being mocked in group chats and there were sick rumours about me. #i won’t give a fuck if I get harassed again cux this literally shows how low this fandom will get #there’s so many layers to this I haven’t even gone into detail on #but I just want atleast this off of my chest. I was shaking and short of breath as I wrote this #I wish to thank all my oldest moots and friends that stuck by me despite everything. I cannot express how thankful I am to you guys #love you all tons. #what do u mean by compensation? just an apology from the same people who hurt me. which is nearly impossible. but idc I want to find them #and confront them. I need to bring my 13 year old self justice for what she went through. I pushed her feelings aside when this was over #but she never healed. I’m hoping she gets a bit of peace for now. #pjo fandom #percy jackson fandom #fandom toxicity

[khamomile-kitty]

Only thing I’m gonna say abt it bc I haven’t read the books or participated tje fandom since I was in elementary school but. Ppl’s reaction to Squirrelflight becoming leader is so funny. The misogyny of the authors has rubbed off on the fans I see, how are you gonna tell a victim of domestic abuse that’s she’s a worse leader and suffered less than her husband. And all the alternate leader suggestions from these ppl are the lame ass guys. this is one of the saddest characters in cat fiction let the girlie win at least once good lord

#‘but she’s old so she’ll just die right away’ and? she’s still kickin so far anyway #they’re gonna pull some nightstar shit w her and pull sims bs excuse I just know it but. I’m gonna enjoy the win for now lol #also heard that they introduced TNR to the books. this will my be handled well #*​not be #I loved warriors but it wreaked havoc on cat care. your cat is not a warrior quit letting it outside to die. #and TNR is not a viable long term solution it’s just putting a bandaid on a gaping wound #introducing this controversial tactic into annanthrpromorphic cat book is. NOT gonna help I already know ppl who don’t spay or nueter bc #‘what if they want to have babies later 🥺 I don’t want to take away their freedom’ ma’am they are animals. #and there is such a massive amount of cat overpopulation that the only option to make sure the ones able to be adopted actually get to be #would be to cull massive amounts of them. talk to a shelter worker they are literally up to their knees in cats #and half of them are so feral or sick that the only humane option is euthanasia #anyway. I support women’s rights and wrongs lmao #squirrelflight #squirrelstar #warrior cats

[growsagain]

9 months of weight gain soon adds up 🖤🖤🖤

#Lol can you tell which size I’m happier at??? 😄 #And all that gain was despite the number of times I got super sick #I’m so tired of people telling me I’m not big enough yet atm #Just want to enjoy what I’ve managed to gain and be proud of that right now #Weight gain comparison #Wg comparison #Weight gain before and after